#I miss real conversations

[amessinadress]

I would love to have a conversation with someone and actually develop a relationship.. not just “wyd” and “sup”.

Like can people actually get to know each other genuinely anymore?

#like in #simon vs the homosapiens agenda #love simon #does that really happen? #relationship #friendship #all genders #genuine connections #real talk #I miss real conversations #and real connections #infj feelings #infj #I crave real interaction #text post #pen pals #if you feel the same #let’s chat

[axolotlclown]

Ok, none of you know what's going on. None of you understand why so many women and young streamers are stepping forward right now. None of you understand why this has to be public.

Multiple large streamers have used their fame, influence, and money to manipulate and abuse those they see as below them. So long as they continue to have fame, influence, and money, this cycle will not end.

This is bigger than just individual cases of sexual assault or other abuse. This is a break down of a much larger problem within the entertainment industry.

These women are telling stories about very powerful men in this space. They are sharing stories of abuse and manipulation. This is very scary for them—it could ruin their careers or lives.

Stop saying "they should have handled this privately." This isn't a private matter. So long as these men have power, they will hurt more women. They aren't sorry. They won't play fair.

By trying to stay silent and bury these accusations, you are ensuring these women never know peace. You are ensuring that more women get hurt.

One day your boss will assault you, and all the men in your life will blame you for waiting as long as you did to speak about it. They will find any reason to blame you. They don't want to get rid of your boss. They hope that one day, they can assault a woman just like you.

This is fucking serious. This is real life. This isn't just some fucking fandom drama that we can bury and move on from. These are real life issues that require real meaningful discussion.

Stop trying to discredit these women just because your streamer is in trouble. You are part of the fucking problem.

#and if youre still confused as to what the problem is #i have a million posts about it already #im so sick of hearing this dumbass take #if you dont have anything productive to add to the conversation #then shut the fuck up #my god #this shit is real #yall are going to get jobs and go to bars and realize how fucking real this shit is #thoughts of dante #fuck it #ill tag everyone #shubble #wilbur soot #caitibugzz #caiti #georgenotfound #gnf #dream #dreamwastaken #andi #punz #wisp #kit wisp #illumina #am i missing anyone? #i think thats it #oh #sapnap #hell be relevant here in a minute #anyway

[thedreadvampy]

every time something from Neil Gaiman's tumblr crosses my dash I'm so concerned about the people writing and to him like. why have you outsourced your imagination to this man? asking shit like 'what does Morpheus sound like in this scene' or 'what does this dialogue mean' or 'what's the backstory to this moment' like BABES. THIS IS WHAT BARTHES WAS TALKING ABOUT. YOU'RE MEANT TO MAKE THESE DECISIONS YOURSELVES THAT'S WHAT MAKES ALL ART A COLLABORATIVE CREATION OF MEANING. if the author wanted something to be explicit in the text they can make it explicit in the text and if it's not explicit in the text YOU CAN MAKE IT UP.

what really gets me is I 100% prommy these kids regularly use 'death of the author' to mean 'i can enjoy works by problematic creators' which 1) yes I agree you can and should (using some discretion re who it profits and what's replicated in the work) but 2) THAT'S NOT WHAT IT MEANS LITERALLY WHAT IT MEANS IS. NEIL GAIMAN'S POST HOC OPINION ON SANDMAN OR GOOD OMENS IS A NO MORE LEGITIMATE FACT ABOUT THE TEXT THAN ANYONE ELSE'S INTERPRETATION. the text has left his control it belongs to the reader now, you get to decide and debate what it means.

#red said #i know i keep making posts like this but IT KEEPS HAPPENING #like you are not toddlers you do not need daddy to hold your hand and walk you through the story #if you're mature enough to meaningfully engage with a story for adults then you are mature enough to interpret it for yourself #and to understand that ambiguity or vagueness or an invitation to imagination are features of storytelling not bugs #hmmm actually I'm gonna tag this #neil gaiman #sandman #good omens #bc. some of you people need jesus or more relevantly literary and critical agency #like you understand that a story isn't a partial view into a reality that's as 3d as our own right? #the play doesn't carry on backstage #you're not MISSING OUT on a fundamental truth of the fictional world that's obscured by the shape of the story it ONLY exists in the story #you're SUPPOSED to construct the context and detail out of the clues you're given in the text and build your own world #and draw your own conclusions #it's not a Real World That Only Neil Gaiman Can See Into it's a STORY he wrote SPECIFICALLY TO INVITE YOU TO IMAGINE #like it's YOURS. YOU'RE meant to fill in the gaps. ART IS A CONVERSATION BETWEEN THE TEXT AND THE READER. #THAT'S what death of the author relates to #what part if any the author has in that other than what they put in the text

[daveyfvckingjacobs]

*stumbles back to this app blinking like I’ve been hibernating for months and have forgotten what the outside looks like* sup

#ignore the wallpaper it shows how much effort goes into these #and that’s embarrassing #so yeah anyways #life got Weird and Bad but I think it’s ok now #I feel a lot better #so shenanigans time #newsies #newsies the musical #newsies au #modern au #social media au #newsies twitter #modern newsies #racetrack higgins #the delancey brothers #jack kelly #davey jacobs #crutchie morris #guess which ones are real conversations #edit yes a username is missing no I will not change it these take so long

[helloanthy]

Hello friend! I hope one day you get this 🩷 I am sending all my love to you. You are so brave and I'm proud of you! I hope the world treats you kindly. I took a hiatus from tumblr and only just now realized you left, I wouldn't have said anything different than I have now if I'd known before but I will miss you! You are amazing, can't wait to see you again. Thrive, my little bird! You've done great 🩷

i'm trying not to tear up. my heart is embarrassingly soft these days. i knew before that revolution has never come without great hardships. though of course, knowing is different from doing some days, the moments between sleep are only stitched together by lengths of crying. other days, i wander incessantly in an attempt to escape both my self and my dreams but it is by the love of my friends and the kindness of people like you that carries me through. it is so easy to drown in this world, i need to hold on to what little i can kindness doesn't have to hurt, i've only been convinced it does. i'm trying to learn that love can save me, if i let it. lately, i feel like it is all that i really have i wonder if anyone will ever know how much it means to me. i wonder if you'll think me odd if you do. but another thing i am trying to learn: there is nothing shameful in trying to live so from one friendly stranger to another, i send my love to you too. i hope it reaches you ! sincerely, thank you

#✉️ #lately iv been having imaginary conversations with anthy #i try to ask her - ''do you ever miss someone you hate?'' #''do you ever feel stupid for missing someone you're *supposed* to hate?'' #''how did you manage to smile when you left? how do you smile now when you're alone?'' #''how do you keep yourself on the ground - when theres nothing chaining you down anymore?'' #''how do you keep yourself from falling through it?'' #she doesnt answer and i dont make her #because she is not what i make of her and more than what i think of her #all i have now is others belief in me. of me #anthy is not in here in my imagination but out in the real world #one day i'll be real too #see you soon anthy!

[get-back-homeward]

Now and Then Day

This sideblog began after watching Get Back nagged and nagged at me until finally I started to look closer at context relative to the Beatles discography and suddenly started experiencing these WAIT WHAT moments every day as what I thought I knew got turned inside out. The appeal was in looking at something you knew like the back of your hand from another direction and seeing/hearing something new you hadn’t seen/heard before. But I had no idea we’d get another song to add to the mix in 2023.

I knew Now and Then day would be an experience. I thought I’d have to wait the whole day before listening. But I got lucky and found a few minutes to listen to Now and Then when it was first released this morning. And inexplicably clicked to hear the remastered Love Me Do instead. I cannot explain my brain.

I then tried to start Now and Then and noped out before 15 seconds in. Too overwhelming. Not the right time. I was too rushed and needed more space to mentally prepare for it.

I caught NPR covering the Now and Then release today on my drive home. They had a Lennon biographer (I didn’t catch the name) reviewing the song. He said the song recalls John’s more delicate tunes like Beautiful Boys (sic) and mentioned John started the song in 1970.

Say what?!

Here I was late last night trying to nail down a better date for John’s demo than “late 70s”. Meanwhile, biographers are just here on national public radio pushing lies. Did he have ChatGPT write his comments?

Oh yeah, they also said it was created with AI no qualifier.🤦‍♀️

They played a few snippets of the song including one new piece not in the doc but refrained from playing it in full. It was mostly wrong Beatles facts all segment.

Trying the song a second time hours later, I got through it in one piece but was feeling abit 🥴 about it as a song itself. Having just listened to the original demo was probably a mistake, and I could hear all the seams and feeling the Frankenstein song effect.

Third attempt sounded more together, with the seams not quite as noticeable. I was prepared for the changes, the layering bits from other songs, and noted highlights of the instrumentals: the strings, George’s guitar bits, and Ringo’s flourishes. I love Paul coming through on the future tense certainty of “I will love you” (is that I Will?). Ringo’s shimmering effect choice (is it tams?) is such an entrancing closer. Giles’ score and Beatles recycled bits do mend the seams well once I stop thinking about them too much.

On fourth listen, my biggest notes are questioning why Paul’s harmony with John isn’t more distinct. He shows a lot of restraint here but maybe too much? Did Get Back get to him in other ways than the most obvious? Is he just self-conscious about his own voice? Or is it the limitation of the tech when it comes to harmony mixing?

The strings were what I was most worried about, but their entrance at the 1:15 mark really kicks it up a notch to transition into the singalong. Other standouts are 1:40 with George’s flourish and 2:29 peak with the guitar solo.

Lyrically, it’s the conditional and if I make it through it’s all because of you that haunts in layers of meaning both grim and cathartic that reverberate through time and space.

If John makes it through emotionally to 1980 and has a comeback? Congrats, bud you did it. But he’s stopped physically through no fault of his own. There’s the obvious mourning of that lost potential even 40 years later.

If this song this voice this message of John’s makes it through to 2023 and reaches the public? Well, success there, Paul’s tenacity saw it through with help from many friends. John’s voice and song lives on through Paul’s wish to conjure him by his side. On the Day of the Dead no less. I was reminded of the concept of tulpas today and was knocked back on my heels by the thought.

If John as an artist and Beatles as a band make it through so fans are still listening in 2023? This doubles as a bit of a fan love letter, and thank you for 60 years. Released on the day Beatlemania first appeared in black and white.

But then there’s also a reflector on this. Some original Beatles fans have aged with Paul and Ringo and others have not and aren’t here to share this like John and George. There’s grief and mourning from those still here about those lost, and the song acts as a catharsis. A kind of thank you to the band for being there for fans in good times and bad. The symbiosis of fame between a band and its fans across the decades.

It’s a lot.

I spent some time looking at the youtube comments on the song. Some original fans but many second and even third generation fans. And quite a few stories about a loved one who loved the band and recently passed away like this one:

And this:

But also in there are stories of catharsis and healing.

And many memories of the joy that Beatles music has brought to people’s lives. We all have these stories of how their songs weave into our own life. But it’s the joy that I keep coming back to as the secret sauce to the band’s earliest days. I often think of those early songs more in terms of feeling then anything, and it starts with the first single.

I love the Love Me Do remastering. That harmonica sounds so crisp. The bluegrassy harmonies have never sounded better. The ones on ple-ee-ee-ease still give me chills. Ringo’s drums moved forward in the mix to appreciate that driving beat just a bit more. I can hear the bass too. I can’t wait to hear what the other early Red album tracks sound like.

But next to Now and Then, I’m also looking at the lyrics like I never did before. Why give it another glance? Written by a 16 year old kid, it always sounded a bit juvenile and simple. But suddenly next to Now and Then, there’s a weight to it I never heard before.

Love, love me do

You know I love you

I’ll always be true

So please, love me do

It sounds like a promise. Now and Then is fulfillment of that always. It’s no longer just the whim of a kid. But rather the beginning of 7 decade devotional: To John, to the band, to fans, and reflected back again. The love is reciprocal from all sides.

How’s that for a WAIT WHAT moment? Paul turning the least likely song inside out and backwards. And he didn’t even add a lyrical middle eight.

#my text #song reactions #had to write up today #overwhelmed #too many thoughts #not well organized but felt wrong to leave them to the tags #what a weird day #hesitating to tag it #now and then #dont mind me im still processing it #i still post on tumblr dot com like its lj 2008 #i used to do tv ep reactions but song reactions is a first #i probably missed some bits #waxing poetic about cassette tapes another day #conversations with ghosts #grief #a tag ive had here for over a year now that i swear i will do something with one day #someone mentioned hauntology and when i get a working brain again yes lets get on that #taking real love free as a bird and now and then together #for the record the moment that actually made me flat out sob today #t was the anthology youve got to hide your love away with john’s ‘ready macca?’ #sitting on a vidding project all year but that ones getting added

[littleeyesofpallas]

#monster prom #monster roadtrip #deep conversations with all(?) the dateables #unless i've just been having a real bad bout of RNG and totally missed someone #i posed them with glitch not out of any particualr love for them #but because they're the character art that obscures the least of the dates' art #sad the Monster Camp secondary PCs aren't dateable #or the other coven members #or Sadie #or Bellanda #or any of the new NPCs #i know everyone loves pro cuddler hot coco elemental dilf

[nerdyqueerr]

NEWSIES FOREVER BTW

#ONCE SPOT CONLON ALWAYS SPOT CONLON #in my theater kid hours again #god. can u believe its been FIVE years since i did newsies #my old dance director keeps going ''not true youre 12'' lmao. sorry girl #and i got to see a bunch of my old theater crew aaaaa #and sit on the greenroom floor after the show listening to everyone talk nonsense bc of how exhausted they were #ALSO JACK KELLY TBOY SWAG #my company will see a trans man and go hey. play jack kelly right now #fuuuuck i miss theater!! i miss it for real i miss these people so much waugh!!!!!! #hamster conversation. my beloved #WHY are hamsters even real. theater kids inquire. #ok im done now 👍 #my shit #newsies

[todayisafridaynight]

any hopes for kiwami 3? like things u wanna see added or changed stuff like that

if they dont keep kiryu's goofy walk stance and the hoof-like walk sounds i dont wanna play it

#snap chats #no one understands how much i love that from y3 and y4 its genuinely one of my favorite things about the game #oh but i guess i have to give an actual answer now. HMPH. #id scream if they revived kanda calling mine limp wristed. homophobia in 4k #OK BUT TO BE SERIOUS uhhhh i dont know. im a real simple guy i think #my only like. If This Isnt There Im Leaving deal is mine's palette and im so serious #rgg's scaring me with all the black-hair/purple-suit mine stuff as of late and i cant stress how hard ill vomit if thats in the final #HYPOTHETICAL final anyways. yk3 isnt coming out for. IDK A WHILE #i wanna say i hope they highlight daigo and mine's relationship more but i dont know how theyd do that #i really like how mine's handled in y3 as is so i dont think i want scenes injected like what they did with yk1 and nishiki #someone said a Mine Saga after the game and... hm ... sounds too unrealistic for me to hope for it #like im REALLY trying to think how they could possibly reference the rggo stories in y3 since those are EXCELLENT but #i think . MAYBE. you could reference the story where richardson calls mine as he's driving to the hospital #the only thing you'd have to exclude though is mine stopping by the bar- like JUST keep the phone conversation maybe #cause in that scene that subordinate does question mine if he can really kill daigo and i think thatd be neat. in my opinion. #yeah i dont know. in regards to rggo its hard to think of what i want without intervening things i already like about y3 #its a real head scratcher ... #a really good epilogue addition would be adapting that RGGO bit where daigo ruminates on mine. that's a fair ending for him i think #it also fulfills the need to see how daigo saw mine even if its just a little #and to non-rggo readers it could start to answer 'how does daigo feel about everything that happened' #im still so curious as to if daigo was briefed on EVERYTHING that happened but .... anyways.... #sorry all my hopes for y3 are just mine/minedai centric fLVKELKA BUT LIKE. i really am content with everything else with y3 surprisingly #idk. i want kiryu fucking up that curry in high definition tho. thats important to me #THEY HAVE TO KEEP THE QTES DURING THE RICHARDSON FIGHT ILL BE PISSED #i need the fight to be AS CAMPY and unnecessary as it was in the og. INCLUDING richardson's voice acting i need it wack as hell #is it weird i actually appreciate the Diet Building Loredumping being like. in replayable-cutscene form #i thought id prefer just One Long cutscene but im glad theres the option to skip those segments #BUT being able to get a refresher in case you missed something somehow #im running out of tags jesus christ i shouldve put this in the main text but vjALjlagj those are all my thoughts for now bYE

[usareiis]

Lost my original post of this from the other day but I genuinely don't understand how Black Butler discourse ever shifted into the does Sebastian ~really~ like Ciel or is Ciel just dinner line of conversation that is pervasive as it is because Sebastian is the one that has absorbed his whole existence into Ciel's. Sebastian's face is what Ciel wants Sebastian's whole purpose is doing things for Ciel Sebastian's every hell of a butler yes my lord speech is about how he's Ciel's and Ciel is the one going around saying shit like whatever Sebastian is just my pawn 💅

#like sjdjdkdd?????? #it's not that i don't think ciel loves sebastian per se bc. well. i don't think he'd ever process it in terms like that no matter what... #...kind of relationship they have bc the most important thing to him is getting him to do tasks like a dog and proving he will over and over #which is why sebastian does it all so overkill #but the most acknowledgement you ever get that ciel likes sebastian is stuff like idk the fucking book of atlantic you did good today #or if we're feeling really crazy the you were the only demon there line #like the dynamic has gotten way skewed in fandom away from the actual text #and i know why but it's still annoying bc i am not even saying this in a shippy way bc i don't give a fuck about ships #but they're so crazy entwined and in completely incomparable inhuman situations that it literally has no merit on this story to sit and... #...definitely piece together how this relationship works with real life normie standards like it literally is going to fit into no box of... #...what we think of as friends or siblings or parents or partners bc no victorian guy on the face of the earth has a real pet demon. #it's so boring you're missing the bigger picture that they're everything to each other and completely stuck together forever #does x mean y mean z? (least problematic answer only) they're stuck together! forever! #and no one has demons in real life it's all comparable to real life nothing #other than the asthma that's real #anyway. it's like fandom has made up a version of this story in their heads that is so devoid of anything that makes the story the story #twitter is like another planet for this i am mostly talking about twitter where i have been looking for news about the anime and oh boy #i have said this before but sebastian doesn't have a grip on human relationships bc he's not one and ciel doesn't give a fuck #but like this post started with and strayed from. well. sebastian isn't even trying to act like he's indifferent. ciel actually is. #and we're all missing several funny bits from that just trying to fit everything into a box #we could have more interesting conversations if we got past the same three people have been having for 20 years #kuroshitsuji #my kuro posts

[zrpants]

i wish there was a website or database of "common knowledge." one place that tells you "here's a list of what most people would know about world geography, history, pop culture, natural science, tech literacy, etc etc etc." it doesn't even need to explain everything -- it's just that i don't even know what it is that i don't know.

#i mean nothing is common to everyone and what constitutes common knowledge varies wildly from place to place #but like. we can start somewhere. #idk i'm constantly embarrassed in conversation about how little i know about basic facts #and like of course to have real conversations i'd need to dig deeper and do my own reading but it'd be helpful just to have a starting boar #so i have a better sense of what i'm missing #anyway this is embarrassing to admit um if you know me irl ... judge me not.

[citrus-cactus]

After finishing medical school, Dr. John Seward would be either a) great friends with or b) a staunch critic of his mentor’s contemporary and occasional guest lecturer: noted chemist Dr. Henry Jekyll.

Discuss.

#dracula daily #jekyll & hyde #did this conversation happen already and I missed it? #I think I’m on the ‘they would be friends’ side #(they both have vices) #OTOH I think it would be HILARIOUS if they couldn’t stand each other #I can believe that vh would have a reason for not liking jekyll #even though he respects jekyll enough to let him lecture his students #and that would color jack’s opinion of him #for once I would like to ​pit two bad bitches against each other #I do not have to ask that question about jonathan and mr. utterson because they are both Intrinsically Likeable #(they are friends) #yes ​the gothic literature cinematic universe is real now sorry I don’t make the rules #the cactus speaks

[etapereine]

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#instead of “everyone in the peloton can tell that tadejonas are pining for each other” #i propose the concept of: tadejonas who are *already together* like full-on established relationship living together part of the time etc #but somehow. no one else in the peloton has figured it out? #and like they didn't MEAN to hide it from people okay it wasn't on purpose #it just started out that way because when they realized they wanted to try it they ALSO realized that sooo much could go wrong #so they were like “we'll keep it pretty quiet until we're sure that whatever this is between us is real and will work out” #and obviously it does work out but when they try to tell people it somehow never seems to go according to plan #like somehow everyone leaves those conversations having completely missed the part where they say they're dating #and instead landed somewhere in the ballpark of “tadejonas are massively crushing on each other we have to help them” #so everyone is CONVINCED that they're pining away for each other and they keep trying to set them up in increasingly wild schemes #and tadejonas are just like. how do we explain to these people who we know and love that we are already in a committed relationship #random ass riders from like. every team tripping over themselves to help out the cause in the NAME OF LOVE and tadejonas are just like 🧍‍♂️ #and like they feel kind of bad about it but also its kind of a game now to see how obvious they can be before someone catches on #random rider: jonas i promise tadej is totally into you okay he like. wouldn't shut up about you at XYZ race okay he definitely likes you #jonas (adjusting his scarf to hide the hickeys tadej left and jingling the keys of the house he shares with tadej): if you say so #what if i wrote something

[mymarifae]

i will always advocate for skipping classes btw. to all the high schoolers following me: don't sweat having a perfect attendance record it quite literally does not matter. if anyone tells you good attendance is important for being considered for scholarships they're lying to you. my attendance was fucking abysmal and i was offered several full-ride scholarships because my grades were still solid and that's all 90% of colleges care about.

and besides. taking care of yourself - whether you need a mental health break or you're tired or you just frankly don't want to go to that fucking class - should always take priority! now don't take a page from my book and skip a month and a half's worth of pe classes because you ditched One Time because the coach said he was going to make everyone run a mile that day and then he kept trying to get you to "make up" the mile that you missed so you kinda just stopped showing up until he gave up on you forever like please know that you should go to class regularly BUT.

i think taking time off and leaving early and such needs to be normalized. for school and work. i don't think it's fair to punish people for needing breaks. the human brain is literally not made to sit in the same stifling environments for 8 hours almost every day and just focus on "working" or "studying" and "learning." it's very cruel to deprive young, still developing minds especially of proper breaks and time to Play (not that it's not cruel to do the same to adults)

if the system won't give them to you freely though... well. break the rules a little. you know your limits better than anyone. don't try to work to an impossible standard. rest when you need to!! it's very, very easy to burn yourself out, but it's very, very, very, very difficult to recover from it

#i believe all teachers should have flexible due dates on their assignments and should accept late work without penalty #like. i can't fathom the purpose of strict due dates and no late work policies. the only Real deadline is when grades have to be submitted #maybe a week or a week and a half before that hard deadline can be the last call for turning in missing work #because obviously if 15 students turn in All of their missing assignments the day before their teacher has to finalize grades like #that's not going to end well for anybody. but outside of That #there's no fucking point in no late work policies. some hs teachers are idiots man like your kids have 6-8 other classes yknow. #and a life outside of school. jobs. sports. clubs. friends. time for themselves so they can unwind and recharge #do you want them to rush through your assignments and get everything wrong? or copy all the answers off of google? #or do you want them to learn what you're teaching them? if you want your kids to learn you have to be flexible and open #i believe there should always be an alternative to taking tests. they work for some students but not everybody #if you cater to only one style of learning and only 1/8th of your class learns and retains the material like. #that's not the kids' fault. it's not their failure. it's Your failure for not being an actual fucking teacher #ugh. can you tell i'm extremely passionate about this Lol #sometimes when i tell people i want to be a teacher they're like are you sure...? #and then at some point we might have a conversation about the education system and i'll go on a tirade and they're like i understand now. #starts punching walls and stuff

[compacflt]

I just finished rereading Slider's oneshot and I loved it just as much as I always do. I was wondering if you had any thoughts on how the conversation between Ice and Cougar went at Ice's retirement ceremony. You gave us little snippets of it from Slider's point of view, but I'd love to hear more of it if you have thoughts on it you'd like to share.

this is such a kind ask. i have no idea

for the same reason there is no explicit reaction in ch 12 when ice first hears mav say i love you—i spent a good week low key trying to figure out whether a reaction was needed there—it’s such a potent powerful cocktail of so many wild & unfamiliar emotions that i don’t personally think i have the literary juice to even attempt to try to describe it

i also am allergic to writing ice or mav explicitly coming out to anyone because it gives me secondhand embarrassment for them. the idea of the commander of the pacific fleet having to psych himself up to awkwardly mumble “um i should’ve told you all this time … i think i…i think im gay” to his friend gives me the ick sorry he’s not fifteen years old. so he Could be doing the big lgbt rite of passage of emotionally apologizing and coming out to Cougar in that conversation. but he Could Also be doing the ‘im nearly sixty years old im not gonna bullshit you’ thing of simply saying: “you and I have been very shitty to each other in the past and i apologize for that in x,y,z way and you were right about me and maverick and we’re gonna make it official this summer and if you want to come we’d really love to have you & normalize diplomatic relations between us again, you’re a real great friend when you’re not being a massive fucking douche”

#slider doesn’t get to hear that convo for the meta reason of ‘he’s a sideline character he’s not important to the narrative at all’ #And to further the theme of the slider one shot that being ices friend is learning about his life secondhand & reading lips #was it Samuel delany who wrote that the post-stonewall act of coming out is just a way to play into boring straight ideas of #normal and notnormal? #that it is counterproductive & only serves to isolate lgbt people more by making their existence an event that needs to be commented on? #speaking as someone who Did have the teary ‘i think im a lesbian’ confession with my parents at 15 like… it shouldn’t be that serious #the whole point is just—ok this is a part of me so take it or leave it. #it’s neither conversation nor announcement. it’s just life. lol. just logistics. come to my wedding or don’t idgaf #tom iceman kazansky #ron slider kerner #bill cougar cortell #top gun #edts notes #my posting schedule might be wack for a week or so—am out of the country #will try to post around 10am ET the way i usually do #but that is solidly dinner time where i am currently so might miss it #i reread the slider oneshot all the way through for the first time since posting it to answer this ask #wow it’s pretty miserable isn’t it #btw in the original draft that went up to 2022 slider marries sarah which makes him and ice brothers for real. #one big happy family #send tweet

[mybrainproblems]

sometimes you miss your ex bestie and then you remember they hetsplained your queerness to you and then friend-dumped you almost as soon as they got a serious partner and it's like.

yeah nah. missing them? wanting to try and patch things up? that's the devil talking.

#tbh my only *real* regret at this point is not calling them the fuck out for the hetsplaining bullshit #i was planning to and then as we were talking i realized i had zero investment in the friendship anymore and it wasn't worth the argument #i can't remember the convo that well bc i was so thrown but they made a comment about me being asexual and uh. buddy i'm not? #you were literally there for me going through five different labels in two years? we've had multiple conversations about this?? #in retrospect we were just absolutely talking past each other for a while before the formal friend breakup #i do not know why ppl get so combative about when you're saying literally the same thing but diff wording but only THEIR wording is right #also: main character energy so off the charts that idk how they get through life like that #not everything has to be Something. things can just be. #feels weird to keep getting annoyed about this bc i don't miss *them* but i do miss having a best friend #i do feel pretty fucking betrayed by getting told that they thought of me as a pseudo romantic partner even if unintentional #to claim the friend breakup had nothing to do with their new partner and then say THAT? oh fuck all the way right off.