#It feels like I finished this decades ago

[sableeira]

whoever edited that bsd official art to make it look like chuuya is holding onto dazai’s arm will be put on trial for irrevocably changing my brain chemistry and making me so much worse

the original and the edit in question. this artwork really makes me crave a mid to late 19th century historical au where Chuuya is a swordsman struggling with changes to his job due to the meiji restoration and with Dazai as a detective/private investigator who hires Chuuya as his bodyguard when a seemingly harmless investigation turns dangerous. they kind of hate each other (as per usual) but Chuuya needs the job and Dazai, while he proclaims to dislike chuuya, is also very smitten with chuuya’s fighting style and temper (as per usual).

#also the person who edited that bsd dead apple official art to make it look like they are holding hands will be put in jail without a trial #the red ribbon tangled around their intertwined hands 😵‍💫 #<- does that person know the impact and damage that edit did to society? #oh yeah btw I’m not sure if the clothes fit mid - late 19th century but those decades make for a cool setting #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd fanart #soukoku #skk #bsd dazai #chuuya nakahara #osamu dazai #bsd chuuya #my art #bsd #I need more skk historical aus :( if I had the time and a solid story idea (more than just the vibes) I would write this #although I feel like I wouldn’t be able to do that setting justice with my current knowledge about mid to late 19th century japan #I finished this one a month ago and just didn’t post it because there was stuff that I wasn’t happy with (finally managed to fix them lol)

[luck-of-the-drawings]

so REVENGE, HUH? or justice, if that makes you feel better. it tastes the same when cooked just right. 'I REALLY WANTED A BROTHER.' such a shame to burn a bridge you so desperately wanted to keep, especially when it wasnt even you who started the fire. especially when you hope that not a single fragment of that bridge ever washes ashore.[MAY IT ROT FAR FROM MY SIGHTS] an unfortunate loss! atleast he has his friends.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi prime defenders spoilers #jrwi pd spoilers #jrwi pd #william wisp #vyncent sol #THIS ONE IS FUUUUCKIN OOOOOLLDD RAAAHHHHH i made it like. a year ago. but didnt finish it for so so long bc i just wasnt happy w it. #BUT LIKE A CENTURY EGG the decades of being encased in salt n lime n ash have done WELL to bring out the flavores of this piece #i sorta recently cleaned it up and posted it onto twitty. didnt tag it bc it was SO OLD AND SCUFFED(i see so many MISTAKES NOW) #that i didnt want to expose it to the open air just like that #if i show smth to my small circles then it shall only be understood in those small circles. #open air and open interpretation from minds i cannot predict are NOT something i enjoy the thought of. usually. i am brave tho #BUT EVERYONE ON TWITTY WAS SO NICEEE i was like damn... i guess it IS good enough to be enjoyed by the masses... #lets work on being nicer to our art together. THAT BEING SAID. i really love my colors here HELL YEAHHHH #FIRST TIME IN A WHILE COLORIN THESE BOYS.... i dont use proper color enough..I ALSO RLY LIKE MY BACKGROUNDS HERE #i LOVE when the bg is hyperrealistic (i frankestiened stock photos) and when the subjects are all flat colored n cartoony #recently rewatched Making Fiends and they do that similar thing!! soft shading! lotsa details! almost painted? ill paint one day #ive already rambled so much abt the art im runnin out of ROOm to ramble about WWWIILLIAM GODDAMN WWIIIISP. its been a minute since i saw- #-this episode..but i DO remember the funny smoke trick that will did to his funny brother. EVERYTIME U GIVE AN ORDER. THAT BRINGS HARM- #-INDIRECTLY OR NOT. YOU WILL HEAR THOSE SCREAMS. YOU WILL FEEL THAT PAIN. OHHH WHAT A COOL PUNISHMENT THAT IS #its still an olive branch in a sense! a final chance for big bro bell to show that hes NOT an irrideemable piece o shit. and if not #well. to the wolves of psychosis with him!!! i really think william did the best he could here. if i was in his shoes i have no doubt i- #-woulda done the same. IM ALSO GLAD THAT VYN DECIDED TO STICK AROUND N SUPPORT HIM! thas character development baybe!! #i loooove prime defenders.. its been so long since i watched any eps of it but i KNOW it still has such a grip on my heart..GOTTA rewatch i

[drakaina-posts]

Today, nearly a decade after I first started reading the series... I have finally finished League of Dragons, and the Temeraire series as a whole.

#temeraire #god it's been a long time #my grandma got me the first two books for christmas nearly a decade ago #i red them #then i got books 3-8 on my Kindle #and read those as well #but League of Dragons wasn't out yet #and for whatever reason #i never got around to ever actually getting and reading it #until i started listening to the audiobooks at work #and now i can finally say #it's done #i've done it #and i have feelings #it's so strange #finishing a series i started so long ago #like saying goodbye to an old friend

[malledhrim]

the way that ratonhnhaké:ton keeps working with haytham even though he doesn't agree with how haytham does almost anything, and even though haytham calls him a naive child at every opportunity. the way he doesn't shrug off haytham's hand on his shoulder like he does with anyone else he's not close to. the way he spent the last eight years focused on destroying the templar leaders, including grand master haytham, and then hopes there's a way to unite the assassins and the templars. the way achilles instantly knows this hope comes from meeting haytham. the way ratonhnhaké:ton only stops working with haytham when he finds out haytham was keeping things from him about the burning of his village and his mother's death. the way he said "oppose me and i will kill you" and still thought that with lee out of the way there may be some way to reconcile with haytham. the way he wanted to spare haytham until the end, but haytham gave him no choice. do you see what i'm saying

#idk if this makes any sense #i've been rotating ratonhnhaké:ton in my head nonstop for like the past two weeks #well him and his daddy issues #mirage really kickstarted my ac hyperfixation back into gear #mostly focused on ac3 ofc #i've been replaying ac3 for my roommate to introduce them to the boy #we haven't finished sequence 11 yet so i haven't replayed that in almost a decade #asscreed #sometimes I forget Connor is only like 17-25 for most of the game #but other times it’s so clear he’s still a teenager/young adult #anyway idk #I’ve always had strong feelings for Connor and haytham’s relationship #but the last time I played this game almost a decade ago I was in a v different spot in my relationship with my own father #so it’s hitting different now #maybe stronger?? or at least I’m able to point at what’s hitting close to home this time idk

[dedeuteros]

DAG CAMPOUT!

Yesterday I arrived a day late, set up my tent, and ran down to introduce myself to the prince (who reminded me greatly of a character from the animated robin hood movie) to petition to join the kingdom. My friend Lux presented me, but it was cut short by some themed battles.

Which had to do with the beautifully crafted but not pictured Anvil Which Counts As A Legal Rock Weapon. After that, we took a break and there was a little chain craft table where Martok showed us all how to make the little spiral bracelets in the first picture. They've got this lovely spiraly twist and were very fun and easy to make. (And I dearly love making crafts around other people and helping eachother when we get stuck.) Then more miscellaneous pick up battles, Rock Only shenanigans. I borrowed someone's spear and got in some surprisingly helpful shots!

Many hours and a stew later did we start The Ceremonies 'round the fire. Myself and one other were welcomed as citizens, and then three were squired to their knights. Thus began good many hours of drinks and good company! (Homemade strawberry mead!) Did you know that most kobolds require no payment for mischief, and if handed a comically sized inflatable mallet will assassinate whoever you point to?

and then also horse shenanigans, and horse tragedy. (NOT including horsipede.....)

#ad rambles #......most fun i have had in a while... but tragically uncool to my friends off in collage. #dagohir #a dusty tag which has seen more light over a decade ago than now #i do often feel like a bunch of excited puppies who are chillin and start play fighting out of no where. its always sir taal who starts it. #but then i need to finish it so what else to do than toss pinecones at him. #nearly unrelated. this is one of the few places where i am wholly known as my chosen name and its a mite intoxicating to have people call i #so often! thats me! you said my name! sir yes sir!

[13eyond13]

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#here's some of the classics on that list i have beef with btw: #i have tried to read A Confederacy of Dunces several times and it's funny but it's also so cringe and Ignatius is so obnoxious #that i find it too difficult to finish like i just feel depressed and bad for everybody around him too much #i tried reading Infinite Jest like a decade ago and i got like 200 pages in and i remember thinking it felt like #such a slog the entire time because he's just so gd wordy and also i stopped liking DFW after i heard the abuse allegations against him #frankenstein i didnt read that long ago but i just remember finding it so boring for some reason?? i feel i might need to read it again #dracula ngl i feel like im cheating a bit saying ive completely read it because i loved the beginning and then HATED so much of the rest #the characters were just so boring and melodramatic hahaha i just liked the part where jonathan was doing a travel diary #and trapped in the castle tbh and after that i skimmed quite a bit #i almost flipped my shit when i saw ender's game on there because I ALWAYS mix it up with ready player one by ernest cline #which i bought the audiobook of a while back and hated every minute of it i dont think its good at all #but it wasnt that so phew my faith in this list is somewhat restored #i read most of the first game of thrones book and was disappointed tbh maybe because id seen the show already #so i was like 'this feels almost exactly the same except worse?' because i'd been expecting it to give me more depth and insight #into the characters but instead it felt exactly the same and i still didnt love any of the characters enough to feel attached to them #also i am fully aware me not personally liking or vibing with a book doesnt mean it doesnt deserve to be considered great btw #but i think if youre gonna be like me and force yourself to go through a bunch of lists like this very seriously then you also need to just #let yourself be like 'yeah not for me' without feeling too bad about it sometimes too #often times i dont particularly love the classics or 'important books' but at the same time #i still feel like im getting more out of reading them than just grabbing the newest hyped up books that also dont do anything for me #maybe not in a 'wow i loved reading this' way but in like a #'i now have first-hand knowledge of this thing that is so influential / so frequently referenced' #or 'this challenged me and i feel like i did a mental/emotional workout or gave me some new food for thought' #or 'made me more aware of what gaps in my knowledge and reading skills and what my tastes are too' #sort of way... #it really just depends on what you're reading for and why and what you're hoping to get out of it a lot of the time maybe #it's like the homework i give myself to go through these lists that i also intersperse with the stuff i read more just for fun #p

[dullahandyke]

I need to cut shitfic out of my life and start building my life entirely around this one college au fic which is really fucking good but also the author is a little too invested in letting you know that they went to college in LA

#that or they put a frankly hysterical amount of research into it which i also respect #its like 'namedropping specific food courts' level it is so awesome #i havent checked the date on it bcos i downloaded an epub like a year ago #but if it finished any later than 2017 i will be floored #edit: ok its from 2019 which is ASTOUNDING because it feels so fucking thoroughly 2014 #even from a 'characters talking about prices of shit as if inflation isnt as bad as its been in ĺike a decade' pov #but MORE importantly #it was only updating for a span of half a year ??? #GIRL ITS 176K LONG! #I CHUCKED IT INTO MY TTS PROGRAM AND THE RESULTING AUDIOBOOK IS 12 HOURS LONG!!!! #the most respect ever for the author

[bigkickguy]

going into the work week i know im probably never finishing this wip i just saw the legendary 4 dudes sing karaoke anim again and I wanted this for them

#kickdraw #wip #im not using the main tag for a wip i'll probably never finish :') #drawing 4 people? mmmmm thats a hard one to commit to lmao #they deserve to hang out and have a silly night for fun #ive never seen anyone drunk do the tie as a headband bit - but it feels like business majors from a few years ago would so i think it fits #by few years i mean decade or 2 #OOF

[gwydionae]

I love that my sister randomly sent me a video of my nephew playing his cello, having taught himself the short ditty that plays over each live action One Piece title card, and the only "dialogue" is her going "ARRRR" like a pirate at the end (with me nephew making a GRRR face in response).

(BTW this is a "watch out for lots of One Piece posts sorry not sorry" warning, lol.)

#delete later #everything will be tagged 'one piece' and live action will include 'opla' #as per usual #look sanji's about to solo the train to enies lobby and i'm really feeling it right now ok #water 7 is such a good arc #so far the vague feelings i had from like two decades ago are holding strong #alabasta was great (if a little too drawn out in the anime) #skypiea started fine but got boring REAL fast #didn't even remember the davy back stuff so yeah that says enough XD #and water 7 has been fantastic #let's see if enies lobby holds up #and if i'm as bored with thriller bark (up to the end anyway) as i was the first time XD #i know i liked the ace stuff but don't remember much other than YOU KNOW #and then fishman island was so bad i peaced out before finishing it #...hoping that goes better this time but i'm aware that sanji gets... bad... after the time skip... #well at least i know he's better by whole cake island... #didn't have that assurance last time #ANYWAY HERE GOES

[pagesofkenna]

Ghost Trick experience so far be like-

Chapter 5: I like the Rube Goldberg Murder Machine

Chapter 11: I Do Not Like the Rube Goldberg Murder Machine

#DX DX DX #at my pace i COULD beat this tomorrow and im trying to decide if i want to or if i want to make the ending my reward for doing my job monda #i just finished chapter 11 so... 7 more chapters to go? with nothing much to do tomorrow..... #idk we'll see #im glad this game doesn't feel grossly dated though that was literally my biggest worry after having this game hyped for a decade #but like. 2010 maybe isnt long enough ago to feel dated unless it's a game trying to go for realistic graphics #the art style on this is so good? the animations are so smooth were they this smooth on the ds??

[sysig]

You cannot hide your T:RC music from me PMMM

#My ear for voices may have worn off in my time away from weebdom but those strings are embedded into my soul #I have listened to Synchronocity too many times for my brain to stray too far from that specific style for very long lol #Not even mentioning the amount of time I still spend thinking about Fai /Normal About Him voice #I knew it was the same artist I feel very vindicated upon looking it up lol #Finally properly diving into Puella Magi Madoka Magica after what? A decade and some change? Lol #I'm enjoying it :) I think I definitely came in too spoiled to be shocked by anything (and I keep reading the comments wegh) #But I like it :) I haven't been keeping up with magical girl shows in general for a long long time but I think younger me would've loved it #Oh gosh existentialism I don't want to think about how old I was when it first came out lol #I tried a few years ago and lost interest - yes despite knowing the twist - but I'm glad I hung with it this time #It's got a good strong aesthetic and interesting characters that feel like they can be cracked open and not Just in that way lol #Hoping to follow up with the movie(s) soon :) Well and properly finish the series lol #Good job bookending things writers ♪ A real show of restraint and as long as I'm not just reading into it too deeply- #Then again I still don't have an explanation I just had a hunch that ended up being correct lol #Magic and all that ✨ #PMMM

[littlewetbeast]

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#so i got a quite visible tattoo on my arm that i have been wanting to get for years #to mark my graduation #and to cover up my self harm scars from a decade ago #i was so sick i dropped out of school and never completed a basic education so finishing my undergrad means a lot! #and i wanted a visual representation of it #when i told my partner they said they didn't like tattoos but it was my body and i could do what i want #i kept them updated on roughly when i was going to get it #then i got it two days ago #and they reacted by barely being able to look at me or it #there is always tension in the room now #and when i asked to understand more of the reason why they are having such a strong reaction all they could say was #'i don't like tattoos' #in the end it's been. really kind of shitty? and i know they can't control what they feel and i don't expect them to #but given how important this is for me i kind of... wish they had kept it to themselves #anyway. i said that i am going to give them time to process it and work through those feelings #but that i can't take that on #and might need some distance from them because it is awful to feel like your partner can't stand to look at a part of you #especially something that is so important to me #anyway i am just getting it off my chest. it's a shitty situation to be in and i don't blame them for what they are feeling #but equally it is making me question a lot of things and it's not great. #delete later

[johnsspacesuittight]

I’m reading red white and royal blue and the whole time complaining about Alex being stupid bc he didn’t get his feelings earlier but honestly? that’s incredibly accurate to the Bi experience, like as if I didn’t also spend years having a giant crush on a girl and just being like this is super incredibly platonic, and now I’m like wow I was a fucking idiot, so yeah he stupid but also?? same

#red white and royal blue #a book? I’m reading a book again?? #i say four days after posting about p&p i didn’t finish it listen #I’ll get back to the other books #but I wanted to read this months ago but didn’t for reasons and so today I was like it’s time #and when I feel like doing something I have to jump on the chance #bc that’s a once a year if not once a decade thing for me lol #bookblr #?? #idk

[ikyw-t]

this is a moodboard for how my brain has been feeling the past couple weeks. yes i spent like 10 minutes organizing these pictures if that tells u anything about how im feeling

#not that anyone asked but it's bc my adderall rx changed a month ago from extended release to short release #bc the extended release was making me feel super anxious in the afternoon when it would start to wear off #which is obviously counterproductive and i am already anxiety-inclined if that's even a phrase #so ive been on the short release version of adderall for the last month and overall it was going a lot better #the anxiety in the afternoon pretty much disappeared which was nice #the past like three weeks tho ive been dealing with being unable to stop picking at my skin and cuticles too #which is something ive struggled with since middle school in various degrees and tho it was getting better in the past couple years #ive never struggled with it LESS than i have since starting adderall in like march. and my god. what a joy and relief that was #so now that it's started happening again it's honestly pretty upsetting bc it's kinda physically painful and also just rly embarrassing #like i dont even have that bad acne probably but being unable to stop picking at it makes it like ten times worse #like i haven't had acne on my back in like three years since i finished taking accutane #and in the past three weeks i have but it's rly only bc i can't stop scratching at it and so there's gonna be scarring too #it's just very embarrassing and also disappointing nd disheartening since i was finally able to NOT have to deal with this for a few months #it's appalling and upsetting to realize that this was just my life for like a decade before i got treatment for adhd #and once i did it a lot of my impulsive and unconscious skin picking pretty much disappeared. #like damn bro the amount of times my mom and everyone in my family told me how nice my skin would be if i could just leave it alone. yeah. #anyway. im gonna talk to the doctor about this next month when i get my refill obviously bc i am not having a good time #even tho this was working rly great for the first three weeks. like whyyyy can't medicine just work. whyyy #anywayyyy if u read all this no u didnt bc it's embarrassing for me lol #i just felt the need to talk about it cause it's been upsetting me today

[7xwc]

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instagram reminding me of a time i did cool things lol

Odd Portraits, n°2

#this is from laSt year #feels like a decade ago #after i did this i kinda *gestures around* and never finished the series #i got so busy with god knows why #i can see all the places i needed to improve this one #but im still proud of it. i think it's cool as hell sjjssksksl #also i really should create an art tumblr that isnt ef wan related #i love the shading on his forehead and where the beard connects with the skin #hehehe #personal

[jasontoddiefor]

Yeah sure we’ve all binged a long fic, but have you ever read a WIP and followed someone’s life?

Tidbits of information - (“I graduated today!”) - and small joys (“It’s my birthday!”) and you get to be there to say “This chapter made me cry, happy birthday, thank you for gifting us this”.

I remember reading this fic of someone at the end of high school, older than me then. They seemed infinitely wise, spoke of their future career and getting into the college they wanted. I remember them posting on days they felt like nothing could bring them down - and on days the whole world did and it’s the aftermath of a hospital visit. Cancer, I think it was, their father. I got to the end of the story, I know their father was fine, but also they got to finish their WIP. I graduated three years later than them, still dutifully wrote thank you notes in every comment. I wonder if they remember me, or just the collective of people reading the story as it updates.

Four years ago I was into my first year of university, my first year of figuring out being out in public spaces. I made excuses as to why my name didn’t match my paperwork and read a fic on the train, the same five chapters over and over again for the next years as I thought the story abandoned. It updated this week after such a long hiatus, I left another thank you comment.

There’s an author I love, they update their stories like a clockwork. When they don’t, I check their blog, just to see if their doing alright, not because I feel like they owe me, just to ensure whether I better get out my laptop to write that really detailed university level essay chapter analysis to get them smiling when their day sucked.

And then, once, when I was 17, I read a fic that hadn’t updated in over a decade. I wasn’t even in primary school when it started posting. On the last chapter, I left a comment that, in retrospect, was horribly rambly and most likely full of grammar mistakes. The author replied and though I couldn’t see their face, I thought of them crying. They were married now, had children, and hadn’t thought about this fic in years. They went through their files again, found another half written chapter and an outline. I got two new chapters to read that year.

And then, recently, someone told me they got back into writing original fiction because of my comments. I get to read nearly weekly chapters.

I love binge reading a finished fic, but nothing is ever going to top the feeling of anticipation of waiting for a chapter, the pure joy when someone tells you I was done with this, but you made me think of it again, so this is for you.

Anyway, I think we should romanticize reading WIPs more, growing up alongside the authors writing the stories we love.

#writing #fandom #fanfiction #ao3 #archive of our own