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#Sorry to put this on your dash I would have usually deleted it but I wanted to share my point
transgayhawkeyepierce · 4 months
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You can just be fujoshi. No need to LARP as a man to keep fetishizing gay relationships. People would respect you more.
This is a good example of what I am talking about when I say "fujoshi" is often an an insult against trans men and can be a dog whistle more often than you may think. Anyway, gay men loooovvveee having sex with me 🖕 LARPing putting hormones in my body and his cock in my mouth 🖕
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ghosts-cyphera · 3 months
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I don’t want to scare you, I really don’t. But listen to me: in terms of going to a psychiatric ward, Lo, are you absolutely sure this is what you want?
I speak as a survivor of the psych ward myself. I was twelve when they put me unsupervised in a room with violent individuals twice my age. They fed us rotting food. The orderlies didn’t even try to help us, or keep the violent patients from hurting themselves or others. I was lucky- I spent two weeks in outpatient, not a lot of time all things considered, but it was such a horrifying, traumatic experience that I still have nightmares about it to this day. There are whole days I can’t recall from that time because I repressed so much of it.
I know not all mental hospitals are like this, but I’m far from the only one with a horror story. These places are not meant to help people. I have spoken to many people both online and in person whose experiences were just as bad if not worse than my own. I don’t want you or anyone else to suffer like I did.
I don’t mean to be out of line, I don’t. But I care for you Lo, not just as an author I enjoy but as a fellow neurodivergent and a writer, I want you to be safe and happy. You deserve safety and happiness. And those things are seldom found in the psych ward. I just want you to be aware of the risks you may be taking. The last thing I want is for a place of healing to turn into a place of suffering for you.
Please, Lo, consider this even if you delete this message (which you absolutely can, no hard feelings whatsoever). Seeing you on my dash makes me smile and the fandom would be a little bit colder without you. But as a survivor of a psych ward, I need to impart my experiences so that others can protect themselves where I was unable to. I don’t usually speak about my trauma regarding the ward on Tumblr, this is a first. But I wouldn’t be able to live in good conscience knowing I had the opportunity to warn you and didn’t take it. Take care of yourself, please. You deserve all the light and softness in the world and more.
Oh my goodness, my darling!
I’m so, so incredibly sorry about what happened to you. This breaks my heart, and I’d give anything it takes to heal your trauma if only it worked that way. You did not deserve any of this, and the fact that you were only 12 too is sickening. I’m so, so sorry.
But to ease your anxiety, I’m not going to a psych ward, sweetheart! 💗 I have a referral to a psychiatric hospital but once I finally get in, I’ll be in outpatient care. I’ll still be living at home, but I’ll be monitored, likely given medication, and I’ll be seeing a therapist/psychologist/psychiatrist to help me with my depression.
I hit a point a couple of weeks ago where I momentarily had to consider if admitting myself to a hospital/psych ward was what I needed to do to keep myself alive, but after watching every tiktok video about psych wards I could find, I promised myself to not admit myself whatever it took. Maybe some places are better than others, but the stories I’ve heard are heartbreaking. Yours, for example.
Again, I’m so, so sorry for what you had to go through. You did not deserve any of it. I’m also sorry for giving you a scare tonight. Thank you for caring so incredibly much about me and for looking out for me. I’ll never forget this. 💗 )-:
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vangh17a · 8 months
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How do you go about formatting your comics? I’ve always wanted to make a comic but formatting it has always been a struggle..
Also don’t forget to drink water and care for urself
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Drink has been acquired! Grab yourself one too, it's "Vane might ramble too much" hours!
Keep in mind that my formatting is what works for me, so it might not work for everyone. I also use Clip Studio Paint (EX), so some bits might work for other programs, while some might not. I also can't for the life of me remember the difference between CSP Debut, Pro, or EX so I'm sorry if I mention features you might not have.
I'm gonna cut the post here, so it doesn't take up too much space on the dash :D
Alrighty! I'm not completely sure what you mean by format, so I'll just do a quick rundown of my process!
Script
I usually start with a script. It can be as loose or detailed as you want it to be, but mine usually are something like this:
Character A: "Says a word!" Description of scene or action
Character A: "Says more words!" Character B: "And more words are said"
I use gaps in the text to signify a panel break. So this would be two panels! Keep in mind your workload, and don't put in too many if you're not ready for it.
Sketch
After I finalize, or at least have a general understanding of my script, I get a canvas around the size that I think it'll be. I usually start out with about 1800x8000, but you can adjust it based on your needs.
I like to try and sketch out a rough idea of how I want the comic to flow. Using my script, I sketch out the panels and toss in where I think the text bubbles will go. Here's the latest Wanderer update as an example! (Yes I usually use the first draft sketches for the final product, don't worry about it lmao)
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I do a sketch of the entire thing, which helps me resize as I need.
Panels
The panels were always the hardest part for me to figure out before I started working on Wanderer. Again, this is what works for me. It might not work for everyone, and this is also just how I set up this specific comic.
Let's get some boxes going. Go to the Frame Border option, and select rectangle frame.
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It needs to be on create frame!
Click and drag one giant box over your sketch. I'm using an excerpt from the above sketch for example! You can click the frame layer itself, hold ctrl down and adjust the width of the box.
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Delete this layer:
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and move your sketch above the frame layer so you can see it!
Now we just split the panels up how you want them. Next to where you found the Create Frame option earlier, there should be a Cut Frame option. I personally use Divide Frame Folder, so everything is contained without bleeding through to other panels.
You can mess with these:
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The "gutter" is just how much space is made between panels.
When making your panel splits, you can hold ctrl to snap to a 45° angle.
It might end up looking messy to the side, but each new frame folder will be like a new mini canvas for each panel. I find that color coding the layers helps me find which ones I need if I start getting too many.
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Here's a look at what it might look like based on what I've done for just this example.
And if we go to the actual file for the upload...
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It keeps everything nice and organized, imo!
Okay, I thiiink that about covers it. Text boxes/bubbles and the such are easier to find tutorials for, so I'm not gonna cover those unless people specifically want those. But I'm more than willing to divulge... most... of my secrets haha.
As always if I need to clarify anything, just ask and I'll do my best to clear it up! Best of luck on your comic making adventures!
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evoilvx · 2 years
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Alcina and the girls with a child sibling
I accidentally deleted an ask about this one, so anon if you see this, this is for you! LOL, sorry about that! I love the idea. This is with a child sibling since I had realized too late I made the child far too advanced for a toddler, so I'll make another part with a toddler.
Not proofread, as usual.
"Come here, girls. I must leave." Alcina called for her daughters, waiting until three swarms had showed up in front of her.
Daniela appeared first, a too wide smile on her face. Then came Cassandra, who was still snickering at something. And at last, Bela, who revealed herself slowly. Alcina stared in interest, as did Daniela and Cassandra who could barely hold back their giggling.
"Bela? Honey, what is wrong?" Bela, who was still half swarmed, grunted before sighing. A snarl was plastered on her glitter covered face, an unknown pink substance running down her entire head and dripping onto the floor.
Alcina could only purse her lips in attempt to hold back a chuckle as she took in her feathered up, glittery, goopy eldest daughter. Bela was snapping at the younger two, shoving them away from her when they started teasing and prodding at her new cosmetics.
"I didn't know a fly could turn into a rainbow chicken." Daniela cackled, tickling Bela's face with a stray feather, laughing louder when Bela growled and slapped her hand away.
Cassandra was pressing the newly acquired decor further into Bela's hair and slime, dodging the arms that flew at her face.
"Leave me alone, you absolute rats! Get off of me!" Bela huffed and puffed, looking at her mother who was trying her best to conceal her amusement.
"Never say I never told you to try something different. You look... wonderful, my darling. Absolutely spark- I mean shining!" Bela groaned, smacking the hands away.
The muted slapping of feet nearing had all of them except for Bela turn towards the door. A small figure dashing in with cheerful giggles and feathers trailing behind.
"Mommy look! I made Belbel look pretty!" Elvina, who had all the glee in the world, hopped onto Alcina's dress and got feathers all over her mother's outfit.
Belbel, who was sulking, groaned again. Elvina either couldn't pronounce Bela's name properly or just chose not to.
"I see, my dear. Your sister looks very pretty." Cassandra giggled along with Daniela.
"I look ridiculous! Do you see my face? I look like the Cadou had taken over and turned me into a glamorized rooster!" Bela shouted at her sisters who would not shut up with their laughing.
"That mean Belbel doesn't like it?" Elvina who looked so close to tears, sniffled up at Alcina who quickly wiped the smile off her face and cooed at her youngest.
"No, no. She just has a funny way of showing she likes it. Don't you, Bela?" At this, the eldest stiffened, cautiously looking up at her mother and baby sister. Her mother stared at her sternly, daring her to disagree and have Elvina burst into hysterics and tears.
"Ah- yes. I love.. it, Elfie." Bela gritted out, glaring at the way the other two couldn't contain themselves.
"See? She loves it." Alcina put her youngest down, sitting up and dusting herself off. She patted Elvina on the head, smiling at the way the child leaned into the touch. She was just like her older sisters.
"I must head out now, remember that meeting with the other Lords?" The three oldest straightened themselves and nodded, knowing what was coming next.
"Of course, Mother." They spoke in unison and Elvina looked between them with wide eyes, not understanding what was going on.
"I trust you'll all take care of your baby sister?" They all nodded again. Bela had slime dripping on her face and the feathers still stuck out proudly but she tried her best to look like a responsible sibling.
"Of course, Mother." Alcina smiled at this, already having an idea of what would happen when she left. This is the first time she would be leaving her girls with Elvina since they had received the little girl from Mother Miranda.
"Mommy leaving?" A tug had the giantess looking down. Elvina was peering up at her with a huge pout. This alone almost had the mother picking up the phone and letting the other Lords know she couldnt make it to the meeting.
"Just for a little bit, my love. Your sisters will take care of you.. I'm sure." Alcina trailed off, staring at the way said sisters were quietly arguing and punching each other.
"Hm.." Elvina looked disheartened, she didn't want her mother to leave, what if she never came back? But the little one didn't have time to think before her mother started moving again
"I promise, I'll be right back. I really must go now. Please, Bela take care of your sisters." The other two cried out, gaping at their mother.
"What about us?! We can take care of ourselves!"
"Mother!"
Alcina sighed, bending down what felt like a mile to kiss Elvina's head then did the same to her other girls. She would surely be reprimanded by the others if she stayed any longer.
As she was leaving to get into the extremely large carriage, she heard wails from her youngest and then a crash. With a breath that only a tired mother could sigh, the countess signaled for the carriage to move.
The first hour:
"Elvina don't eat that! That's not for you!" Bela slid across the floor, trying desperately grab Elvina.
"Mommy said share!" Elvina cried back, shrieking louder when Bela picked her up and pried the object out of her hands. Daniela groaned, wishing that her ears would be spared.
"But this one is mine, Mother had a different one made for you!" The leg, that had been taken directly from a hunter, dangled in Bela's other hand.
"Just give her the leg, please." Cassandra drawled, draped dramatically over her dining chair.
They've been stuck in the dining hall, without doing any dining, for the past ten minutes all because Elvina wanted to eat Bela's food instead of her own.
"Cassie, she can't have this yet." Bela grunted when Elvina kicked her in the stomach, small limbs flying everywhere as the child thrashed.
"Give to me!" Another wail and grunt as the toddler cried and flung her hand into Bela's eye. The maids watched from the crack in the door, wincing when Daniela got up to help Bela only to be smacked with a stray leg.
Who's leg it was, was unknown.
The second hour:
After the dining hall fiasco, Elvina calmed down after growing tired of her tantrum and grumpily ate her vegetables and meat. She wasn't allowed to eat raw flesh or blood yet since none of them knew what it would do to Elvina and her Cadou.
"You should've just given her the leg. I don't know why you had let it drag on like that." Cassandra muttered, watching as maids scuffled around and clean up broken plates and chairs.
Elvina's mutation had gotten a little out of control, the Cadou reacting with the child's distress and sprouting ebony tendrils to grab a hold of their legs. And as to not smash their baby sister, they all let themselves be dragged about and tripping over each other.
"Do you know what happens when you give a child a human leg to eat?" Bela argued.
"...No"
"Then shut up."
The third hour:
"I wanna play!" Elvina crashed into the library where Bela, Cassandra and Daniela were all lounging. Elvina had decided that she wanted to be left alone and didn't let them in her room, forcing them to sigh and walk away.
"So now she wants to play." Daniela huffed. For once she was enjoying the silence and was sat in the corner with her book.
"Play!" A toy was thrown and smacked right on Daniela's forehead, making her yelp and rub the area of impact.
"Elfie, you can't throw things.. or people when you want something." Bela scolded lightly, pinching Elvina's cheek softly when the child hobbled over and sat on her lap.
"I want to play!" The youngest didn't seem to care, crawling up and shouted in Bela's ear, tugging on her hair almost painfully. Which was strange since the girls didn't often feel that.
"Don't do that either, no screaming." Bela held Elvina in place, trying to get the younger to look at her in the eyes. While this was happening, Daniela had thrown the toy at Cassandra after the older had made fun of the red bump forming on Daniela's forehead.
"They throw things!" Elvina pointed at the other two who were now brawling on the floor.
Bela sighed.
When was Mother coming home.
The fourth hour:
"Why does your drawing look like that?"
They were now sat on a ridiculously small art table, their knees almost pressing into their chest and small coloring tools stuffed between their fingers.
"What do you mean why does my drawing look like that? Why does yours look like that?" Cassandra snarked back at Bela who was looking between the two drawings.
Elvina wanted to draw in her room, dragging the three vampires behind her.. literally they may add. Elvina had sat them in what seemed like the smallest chairs in the world and showed them all the colors she had along with the papers.
Daniela didn't mind the activity, slipping off the chair to sit on the floor. Elvina threw a small tantrum at that but let it go, though she didn't allow the other two to do the same, saying that they had to sit with her.
"Looks okay." Elvina hummed, looking back down at her drawing right after.
"Yeah, see. It's a good drawing." Cassandra sneered, watching as Bela growled softly.
"Said "kay", Cassie, not good." Elvina didn't even look up, not even when Daniela hollered from her spot on the floor, or when Cassandra's mouth dropped open.
Bela looked all too proud, earning a hard kick from Cassandra, the action nearly sending the table flying.
The fourth hour and a half:
Drawing was fun, even with the small altercations. But now.. now this was just something else. Elvina insisted they all played freeze tag, which sounded gods awful when you took into account that freezing meant certain death for the three vampires.
Bela was it first, being the oldest, Elvina said. Bela's eyebrows furrowed but she didn't have much time to dwell on it before Daniela snickered and shouted that they had twenty seconds to run.
Now, Cassandra was splayed on the floor after she tripped on a rug, Daniela was hanging from a railing and Bela was tumbling through the halls with Elvina rushing right behind her. The younger let out a laugh so manic, Bela wondered if they rubbed off on her too much.
Bela panted and turned sharply. They had made it a rule that the three of them couldn't swarm since Elvina couldn't just yet. It was safe to say all their legs were granted a good exercise each time they played. While looking behind her, Bela almost screamed when she saw a small mass of black tendrils and a toddler running after her.
Since when were children able to run like that? The Cadou really did do wonders to everyone's biology.
Unfortunately for Bela, she had spent a second too long looking behind her and the moment she turned back there was no time to avoid tripping over Cassandra who was staring at her siblings with wide eyes. The two of them groaned after Bela landed harshly and gave both of them rug burns.
"Tag!"
The fifth hour:
The sun beamed through the window, blanketing the chamber in a warm afternoon glow. All of the girls were piled in front of a lit fire place in Elvina's room. The little one had crashed soon after their fifth game of freeze tag. Daniela went off to find a snack as Cassandra rubbed her back and mumbled that she was going to change her clothes since they had ripped at some point during the game. That left Bela to carry her baby sister to her room.
She contemplated on whether or not she should light the fire or just leave Elvina to rest, but eventually set the girl down to walk over to the logs and stayed until it bloomed into a healthy flame. But Elvina, being the cuddle bug she was when sleepy, woke up at the loss of contact and shuffled over to her big sister.
Bela was poking at the fire and was just about to stand and leave when she felt small arms wrap around her shoulders. The vampire smiled, turning to gather Elvina in her arms and stand up. Bela gathered all the blankets she could find, piling them a reasonable distance from the fire and finished off with pillows.
The maids could always clean them later, for now though, it would be where Elvina napped.
"Lay down, sweet girl." The eldest was attempting to detach the koala that was Elvina, drawing a whine each time.
"Nooo." The little beast could hardly keep her eyes open, only hugging the older tighter.
Sighing, Bela gave up and laid down, letting Elvina snuggle into her side. As much of a terror Elvina could be, Bela loved her just as she loved her other sisters.
It showed in the way she let Elvina tug her this way and throw her that way. It showed when Bela pretended to sip tea from play cups and sit in awkard positions just to entertain the young one. It showed when she let Elvina wrestle her to the ground and when she read her bed time stories at night. It showed when she kept her shielded away in her arms when a storm rolled by.
The others would agree, as they had done the same for little Elvina.
Their mother never truly let Elvina stray too far to the point where she couldn't hear her heartbeat and she had the courtyard redone just so Elvina could play outside whenever she wanted. She spoiled her youngest, giving her all the luxuries she could ever want.
Cassandra wouldn't let anybody that wasn't them get too close to Elvina. She didn't sharpen her sickle to mercilessly kill prey anymore, she did it so that it would be sharp enough to kill someone faster than they were able to reach her baby sister.
Daniela had disliked the new addition at first, complaining that she would no longer be the youngest, that she would be forgotten. But now she was the one who let Elvina get away with everything (even encouraging it sometimes), sneaking her snacks when Mother said she couldn't have anymore and woke up in the middle of the night to cuddle her.
Bela smiled, brushing wild hair out of the child's face, watching the way her nose crinkled and listened to the way she sighed. That's how the other two, Cassandra and Daniela, found them. Curled up in front of the fire with Elvina fast asleep and Bela half way there.
The two of them grinned at each other. They circled the makeshift bedding for a second before choosing where they wanted to pile in. Elvina didn't budge at all, only Bela reacted to the new comers. The eldest nuzzled Cassandra's cheek when the other dipped down, then gave Daniela's hair a loving ruffle before settling down again.
Later, when the darkness had fully taken over the sky, Alcina found them huddled together in front of a dying fire only after she had stomped through the halls in a panicked state, worrying over why her girls hadn't answered her announced arrival. The countess had smiled then, feeding the flames before laying down next to her daughters. She rubbed each of their cheeks with her finger, humming when Daniela blearily blinked up at her, cooing her back to slumber.
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rdps01 · 2 years
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hello. im going to get straight to the point: this post is about @/grimmshood, @/bladeofmarseille, @/elliottspencer, and a few more from their group. i don’t usually do posts like this, and im sorry for putting this on your dash, but my friend allexiaah and the rest of my inner circle have decided we’re done staying quiet about this.
this is not a callout post, it’s a big ol’ dni with examples if you’re anything like these people, have anything to do with these people positively, or you ARE these people lol.
before i get accused of being a lapdog, this is of my own volition. im tired of all this myself and i’d rather people are more aware of it.
anon and dms are off. leave anything you have to say in reblogs or replies. don’t bug me about this on anywhere else but this one post. asks about this will be deleted, i’d rather not have more of this shit clogging people’s dashboards. i don’t want to start a fire, i just want all this out there. how you react to it and what you do with it is up to you, but DO NOT directly bug me or allex about it anywhere else after this.
aspec exclus dni, people @’d in the post dni.
cw for: aphobia, f slur
although some of these are old, this situation got real bad just a little over a year ago, and just about all of these were during that timespan. some are as recent as a month ago. minds haven’t changed a lot.
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to speak on my friend’s behalf, if you’re anything like these people, or you have friends like this, and you just sit idly and say nothing? fuck you. you're just as bad as them by not lifting a finger and by staying close to them after they’ve clearly shown how horrible they are as people. speaks louder than words.
being aspec doesn’t mean your word is god when it comes to aspec problems or whether or not they affect people, and you CERTAINLY don’t get to tell people that the shit they’ve been told is miniscule and they’re being sensitive about it. stop using your identity as a shield and own up to the fact that your ideas are shitty and just… wrong.
it’s not just the blatant exclusionist shit either. if you’re an asshole to people because you get a kick out of it, fuck off. if you’re someone who’s ableist for kicks, fuck off. if you make jokes out of suicide with no filter, fuck off. learn to be better. if you’re a horrible person to others just because they disagree with you on something that’s just inconsequential, fuck off. there’s no excuse for any of it at all. either grow as a person or rot in your own hateful and downright deplorable attitude until it eats you.
for me, i’d rather you fuck off too if you’re like this. my blog is not a space for you, not when you harbour beliefs like this. and for people who are on the sidelines, i’d rather you reconsider your follow. I would really like to steer clear of them which unfortunately includes people who follow me, even people who im mutuals with who are mutuals with them too. being aroace yourself doesn’t mean you speak for the whole community. it’s not the “gotcha” comeback you think it is and just because you choose not to see it doesn’t mean other aspecs magically don’t experience it either.
im leaving it all at that. again, leave us be on anywhere else BUT this post. have a good day
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obitohno · 2 years
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dude your self reblogs can’t be filtered off of the dash because of the hearts in the tag
i don’t want to unfollow and im trying not to be rude but come on now
hi, at this rate, i would rather you just unfollow? you’ve been flooding my inbox about this for days—which is rude in itself—and tbh, reading them is starting to make me feel like shit
a lot of writers/artists reblog their content to boost views. yes, i do this daily—as do many other people—but it’s usually once or twice a day. my dash is also ‘clogged’, as you put it, by people reblogging, but it really isn’t hard to just ignore n scroll?
i answered the other ask that you sent, bc i felt bad the first time you sent it. i already explained that i didn’t want to bother with a tag bc i usually delete my reblogs after a few hours. but after you kept sending asks, i decided to make one, n somehow it’s still not good enough for you. one, i shouldn’t have to feel pressured into making a tag to suit you, and two, i’ve seen plenty of other blogs using emoticons in their tags. if the hearts don’t allow you to block the tag, then i’m sorry, but i’ve had enough of you spamming me about this, n i would rather you just unfollow, bc despite you saying that you don’t want to be rude, you have been, and i would rather not be made to feel like crap, thanks.
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carlyraejcpsen · 3 years
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alright, i’ve tried to keep quiet because i truly believe in karma and wanted this rp to close through the admin’s own actions and not give them any opportunities to blame it on me instead. it also felt like beating a dead horse, because i was sure they’d close the rp after losing a huge proportion of their active members and the majority of their diversity. however, after seeing multiple people sharing their experiences today, they are still posting promo posts and starting their event. so yeah, here’s my experience with @thevillagerp​​
NOTE: i no longer have screenshots from my conversations with the admins, as i blocked them when i left the rp for the sake of my own mental health, but i did save the text in my drafts, so the messages below are copy pasted. i have not edited them in any way. They also deleted my original anonymous messages off of their blog.
TRIGGER WARNINGS: racism, very vague allusions to homophobia and transphobia
so i was a member of this roleplay for around two months. during my time there, it was startlingly obvious that white fcs were preferred and prioritised, both from the fact that they got more plots and interactions in general and from the fact that admins never promoted diversity on the main. even now, they repeatedly say they “would still love to receive some more male and non-binary apps” while ignoring that they currently have a ratio of 8 fcs of colour to 24 white fcs. their diversity rules at the time were that 1/3 of a mun’s characters had to be played by an fcoc. so people could easily just play one or two white characters.
a while ago, i sent an anonymous message to the main asking if they had considered perhaps changing this rule to be 2/3 characters instead of 1/3, since there were so few muses of colour in the roleplay (as i said before, they’ve since deleted this from their blog so i cannot provide a screenshot). they responded that they had been thinking of upping the character limit to four instead of three, with a rule that 2/4 must be played by an fcoc. i gave them the benefit of the doubt and the time to enact this change, but nothing happened.
so a few weeks later, i sent them this message on anonymous:
I was wondering if you had thought any more about the diversity rules here? I know you said before that you were considering increasing the character limit, but I noticed that hasn’t happened and I wanted to know if that was a change we’re going to see or if you would consider changing the rules in another way? I’m really disheartened by the lack of diversity in the roleplay
at the time there were 18 characters of colour out of a total of over 60. they responded (again, i’m sorry i don’t have the actual wording since they’ve deleted the messages) that they had thought about it and decided against upping the character limit, but instead would be having a weekly “poc acceptance day,” where they would only be accepting apps with fcs of colour. they also said they were doing this “now that the waitlist was mostly cleared,” which meant that the rp was mostly at capacity anyway, so they needed to look more at how to encourage their existing members to promote diversity, since there weren’t spaces open for new people to bring them in.
i responded with another anon expressing my disappointment and pointing out that they had done more to prevent having too many celebrity characters than too few muses of colour, as at the time they had a ban on celebrity muses. i wouldn’t usually suggest a ban on certain fcs, but as it was something they had done for celebrity characters, then i supposed it was a reasonable option.
they didn’t even respond to this message and instead posted on the main asking me to come off anon to discuss it. so i did, and i sent them the following dm:
i didn’t want to come off anon because i honestly feel really ostracised in this group and didn’t want to make it worse, but i don’t want to drop this issue and you aren’t comfortable addressing it publicly so here we are i guess. like i said in my previous message, i really don’t see how a “poc acceptance day” is going to make anywhere near enough of a difference. people will just wait for the opportunity to play their white characters. there are only 18 characters of colour in a roleplay with over 60 characters. that’s less than a third, which is obviously concerning. what’s even more concerning for me is that these characters are more often than not overlooked. i am often ghosted when plotting, or people don’t even reach out at all when i like plotting calls or intro posts. and then i have to watch characters like leo almost exclusively interact with white women (i’m sure that’s not the only example, but it is the first that comes to mind as he is one of the more active characters).
so this issue goes so much deeper than there just not being adequate representation in the rp. i really tried to help, i suggested making it a rule that 2/3 characters need to be poc in my original ask and you mentioned upping the character limit in response. i was worried that my concerns were being brushed aside, but i waited a while to give you the benefit of the doubt and the space to discuss the issue. so you can understand why it was really upsetting today to learn that the one thing you suggested was dropped and instead replaced with something that is barely scratching the surface of the problem. and i don’t know if it was your intention, but by saying that you were waiting for the waitlist to clear, it comes across as not wanting to receive any backlash from people who would want to join with only white characters. and even if people did want to join with faceclaims of colour, they can’t because the waitlist is cleared. like i suggested, you could change the rules so that 2 out of 3 characters must be people of colour. or, as was your proposed idea, up the character limit to four. you could also put a temporary ban on white faceclaims until the ratio evens out. as i mentioned, it’s really distressing that this was something you were willing to do for celebrity characters, but not to aid diversity.
i also just want to make it clear that these have been the only anons i’ve sent, i know you’ve been getting other ones, but those weren’t from me!!
( for context, they were receiving anons from someone else claiming that they felt left out in the rp ).
i had hoped that coming off anon would show them that this was a very real issue which was affecting their members, as well as giving them a space to discuss it privately instead of on the main. they responded with:
Hi Em, thank you for coming forward. We really, really appreciate it and we understand it’s not an easy thing to do. We also appreciate you flying the flag for diversity so strongly. We can always strive to be better, we are on the same page with you here.
Let us just explain our decision making. Firstly, just to address the waitlist, that was certainly not at all our intention when we brought it up. It was a logistical decision with 5+ applicants having already waited a week for acceptance and aware of their position on a waitlist.
When we decided against upping the character limit (and therefore the 2/4 POC character rule), we thought a POC acceptance day could be a good alternative course of action. In our eyes, this was something that would probably bring more POC characters to the group than the 2/4 rule because we knew there weren’t going to be many muns taking up an additional fourth character. This was a rule we’ve seen other groups enjoy success from so we wanted to try it out here. Plus, we think a day that explicitly highlights diversity every week would bring the message to the forefront of everyone’s minds. As we said, we’re going to monitor this over the next couple of weeks to see if it brings any improvement because we’d really like to have it as an ongoing rule.
The non-POC ban is actually a measure we’ve spoken about too and we are considering putting one in place should this fail. Thank you for raising your concerns, know that we’ve taken them very seriously and we hope that you’ll trust our judgement in trying this rule out first to see where it leads.
first of all, i don’t think i even have to mention the wording of “flying the flag for diversity.” but the real crux of the issue here is that they supposedly wanted me to come off anon to discuss the issue, but instead just explained their idea further and didn’t take anything i said on board. they didn’t even say a single word about how i told them i felt ostracised and regularly got ignored. i knew from speaking to other muns in the rp who played muses of colour (and just from looking at the dash) that they felt the same way too, but of course was only speaking from my own experience.
i thought long and hard about how to respond to this, as i was so disheartened by their unwillingness to listen to their members and the fact that they didn’t care that i felt left out. it felt like they had asked me to come off anon just so they knew who was messaging them and therefore put a target on my back, so honestly the thought of being on the dash or talking to the admins made me incredibly anxious. before i had a chance, however, they responded again with:
Hi hun, we’ve continued discussing this issue over the last couple of days and we wanted to let you know that we’ve decided to put in place a non-POC ban instead. Thank you again for holding a mirror up to the group. We do hope that this will recorrect the balance.
so i waited to see how things would play out. they posted about this new ban here and pinned the post to the top of the main:
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[ IMAGE ID: a screenshot from thevillagehq of an admin update, which reads: in the interest of keeping the village a diverse space, we are currently only accepting applications for POCs. please note that any apps or reserves submitted to us for faceclaims that are not POCs will be deleted. we will lift this rule once we see fit.
thank you for your understanding and your efforts in making this group a brighter, more inclusive and diverse place for all. /END ID ]
this rule remained in place for around two weeks, during which time they made almost no effort to promote it. the above post was pinned to the main page, but that was the only mention of the ban anywhere on their page, they didn’t update the rules page or even put a note on the application page about it. during this two week period, the admins posted 10 promo posts, none of which suggested fcs or even mentioned the ban or diversity at all. the ban was then lifted suddenly when the pinned post was removed and the admins just went back to accepting apps with white fcs. the ratio had only evened out in those two weeks (from 18 out of 65 to 24/50) because of people going inactive or leaving, and there was nothing put into place to continue to promote diversity after the lift of the ban. in the three days after the ban was lifted, the admins posted over 10 promo posts, the same amount they had posted during the entirety of the ban. it was clear that they had no intention of actually making changes in their rp and had only done so because i refused to drop the issue.
again, i thought a lot about what i wanted to message them. i knew at this point that they didn’t want to make any real changes, but i still felt like i had to make it clear to them how disappointing their actions were. once again, i was messaged before i even had a chance, this time for bubbling.
as you can see in the above correspondence, i had told the admins point blank that i felt left out and ignored in the rp because of the characters i played (aubrey plaza, mj rodriguez and keiynan lonsdale fcs. all of my characters were queer and used either she/they or they/them pronouns). as a general rule, the only people who wanted to write with me and have interesting plots with me were people who played other muses of colour. the rp had a rule that you must reply to 3+ muns on every character, which i had been doing. i had only been back from my hiatus for a few days at this point and had responded to 6 different open starters the day prior. their message to me read:
Hi hun. There’s something we wanted to address to you directly. It’s been expressed to us by multiple members during these last few weeks that they have felt excluded by your character within the group, especially when it comes to the friend bubble that has formed between Mars, Bowie, Luvena, Asher and others. 
While we encourage the development of friendships and trust that this isn’t intentional, we have a zero tolerance for bubble roleplaying at The Village. We are aware that our three mun activity rules have been met by all parties involved, however, bubbling is usually a little more nuanced than that and it seems it has unfortunately begun to create a bit of a divide within the group. 
We have already issued individual warnings to a few people within the bubble, however with multiple members still expressing their concerns to us, we decided it would be better to address the group as a whole. We hope that by pointing this out to you, you will try and branch out to your fellow members a little more from now on - and try and be a little more inclusive when it comes to everyone else in the group. 
We take such matters very seriously as admins, and while we hope it won’t have to come to this, there will be consequential steps taken should we not see any changes in your interactions in the weeks to come.
as you can imagine, i was incredibly upset to receive this message after already telling them i didn’t get plots from many of their members and they had done nothing. even people who i had previously messaged continued to only write with the same few white characters. i don’t deny that we definitely had a friendship group between our characters, but there were multiple people in that roleplay, including the admins, who only cared about ship plots or plots with the same few muns. me and other people who received the same message had all previously told the admins that people aren’t plotting with us and gotten ignored, so receiving this message made it clear that they neither cared about us nor wanted us in their rp. and so i responded as below:
yeah i literally told you i felt left out because there are multiple people only writing with white characters and you never addressed it, so this message is honestly insulting. i have reached out to almost every new member, responded to multiple open starters and have tried to plot with as many people as possible. like i told you, i am often left on read or people don’t even message me at all. if people do message me, i am usually expected to put in all of the effort and if people aren’t interested in actually developing plots with me then i am obviously not going to force my characters on them. all of my characters are queer, non binary people of colour and the harsh truth of this roleplay is that people don’t care about them. i even wrote out a whole list of 20 detailed suggested connections in an attempt to get more plots and nothing came from that either. i’ve even gotten anonymous hate saying that offering to explain my characters’ pronouns was “patronising,” which i didn’t feel like i could approach you about because, when i told you about how i’m feeling excluded, you didn’t care.
so if i only have actual plots with the people who actually care about my characters, i make no apologies. i also don’t even have threads with half of the characters you named, asher being the only one, and have literally only just come off hiatus. so please explain how i am bubbling, because this really just feels targeted at this point.
you’ve made it endlessly clear that this rp isn’t a safe space for people who want to play diverse characters. the main was practically silent while you had a ban on white faceclaims, which you never actively promoted, and then you dropped that suddenly without putting anything else in place. you also deleted my initial anonymous messages asking about diversity as if you were trying to hide that there was ever an issue. you turned anonymous messages off, so that no one can safely criticise you. because i did that off anon and ever since it has felt like there is a massive target on my back. my characters have been “accidentally” on the activity checks multiple times despite me being on hiatus (people get a notification that they were tagged even if you remove their name from the list btw). plus when i asked for an extension on my hiatus, you said that you would allow it “just this once” which now makes me feel like i can’t come to you if i’m busy. right now, for example, i am in the middle of moving house, but i’m also stressed about trying to stay active because you have made yourselves completely unapproachable.
the ratio only evened out slightly because members left. then suddenly after the ban you’re posting multiple promo posts a day??? you couldn’t get more obvious. i came to you about diversity in good faith, hoping that it was something you were unaware of, but you have made it abundantly clear that you actively do not want to promote diversity in your roleplay, we are just here to be witnesses to your ship. there are multiple members who are actually bubbling who have been brought to your attention, but nothing has been done. leo continues to only write with the same three white and white passing characters. charlotte pretty much only appears to write with leo and post a vague “message me for plots” post that wasn’t even tagged. both of you only put effort into your ship threads with each other and the occasional text threads. even with something like group events: while i’ve been here, there’s been a pride event that neither of your characters were even in new york for (an event where i was the only one reaching out and posting multiple starters, by the way); there was no event last month, and this month all you’re talking about is this housewarming party.
i’m really disheartened that it’s come to this, but i can’t be here anymore. please post unfollows for all my characters. you’ve said multiple times that we should trust you as admins, but this message shows again that i simply can’t do that. from the disregard of trigger warnings, to the way you treated being held accountable for the lack of diversity, to how you respond to people asking for hiatuses, this isn’t a safe space. even if i stayed, the target you have placed on me is making it insufferable to just write my characters in peace.
the other muns who received the same bubbling message (copy pasted btw, we all got the same one word for word) all responded with their own concerns and criticisms in responses of a similar length to mine. none of us received a reply, our unfollows were just posted the next day without any further responses from the admins. a few of the other members who had written and plotted with us chose to leave as well, which the admins wrote off as us just dragging them with us as opposed to them being able to make their own decisions and being aware of the situation (which was incredibly obvious. no promotion of a white fc ban, suddenly being active on the main once they try to stealthily drop the ban, then the majority of their muses of colour leaving???)
i haven’t paid the rp much attention since i left, as i mentioned above i blocked the main and the majority of the members just for my own mental health. but from a quick scroll through today i can see that the only change in diversity rules is that now instead of your third character having to be a poc, it is now your second. however, you still only have to have 1 character out of 3 have a fc of colour. so very little has been done, but of course i’m not surprised in the slightist.
these admins don’t want diversity in their roleplay. if you play any character who isn’t a rich, white, cishet neurotypical, please avoid it at all costs. it’s not in any way a safe environment.
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panchatea · 2 years
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Enough negativity! Tell me five of your favorite fanfics posted this year that aren’t yours and why you like them!
Lmao you actually sent this twice hahaha I'm sorry I just put it in my inbox cause I'm lazy to link but here it is.
1. Eudaimonia by PlateauWorld - Not much to say how amazing this one cause its so great that @usedpidemo and I made a part 1 and 2 of it. It's so good that it has been one of the long running iconic line in the discord "The Idea of Cho Miyeon". The concept was really unique and amazing, the idea of moving on from an obsessive romantic relationship to showing regrets and grieving. Plateau gotta be the best non-smut writer out there so go check him out in AFF. This is my favorite fic of the year and I wont elaborate more cause everytime I have a chance, I always simp for Plateau and his writing.
2. The Curse of the Spider by @worldsover - Levi gotta be the most unorthodox and technically skilled writer here in tumblr. He's not bound on one style in writing, he's always looking to different way or sometimes he would say "weird" way to write smut. It pains me to say it but he did the Yandere them more justice than me in this one. I usually never do that kind of comparison but that's just goes to show that I really respect his writing and how much I thrive to write these kinds of theme just as amazing as he did on this one. Maybe this is one of those healthy comparisons. Anyways that gotta be the highest compliment I can give right now.
3. The Playgirl by @sinswithpleasure - This is a futa masterpiece and a teen romance masterpiece. I really love how Sins build up character motivation on how would the characters will lead into sex. I really adore how Sins build his world and just by simple conversations and everyday life situations, he was able to write a good falling in love stories with dashes of smut. I really love how he goes into such deep understanding in a woman's mind and how deep he goes in emotion on that one part where Yves and OC visits her granma grave. This series is too wholesome and too good to be just called a smut. This gotta be more than just sex, you gotta read this for the story not cause Sins is great smut writer who write hot smut fics.
4. Delete This.mov by @usedpidemo - This series gotta have the best progression in this year for both the story and the writer. He's very cynical to others complimenting him so Imma use this chance to give him my honest criticism. At first I honestly thought he was great but not any more than special than any other writers(yeah i have those unhealthy judgemental thoughts too Im not gonna be a hypocrite bout it) but as I read more, the more his writing prove me wrong. His writing uses a unique tone and had unique storytelling style. Usually in fanfiction 2nd person reader insert, stories have a certain push that "you" did this and "you" did that, but this series is different. It's like saying you did it but he's compelling you to do it rather than what you did. Instead of push it used a pull, it have this strong grip on you and you'll never escape after reading it. His writing in general have a strong commanding power! And he's so great at using and capitalizing this power. His writing is so scary good so maybe that's why he got so much haters but those haters couldnt just see the beauty of his story. He progressed more than anyone and he improve more than anyone so putting that with his already scary talented writing, you get a really amazing writer. I just do hope that he gains more confidence because he deserve and the every right to be proud of his works. I strongly recommend reading Pi in general and Delete this specially.
5. This is How You Fall In Love by @sorrowedgazed - You all know Im a sucker for angst and fluff, and this got Both! I still cant get over this and the first time I read it, I was sad for like the whole day and everytime I remember it, I almost tear up. I really love how its such a short story but got so much emotional punch. The song, the story, and plot was like a puzzle perfectly put together to break your heart. Sorrowedgaze is a heartbreaker and he will crush your heart with this one. This gotta be my fave Chaewon fic of all time.
That's it! That's my answer thank you! And im sorry for some things I said earlier hehe. Anyways Cha out! Have a good day and drink your tea guys.
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storiesungaa · 3 years
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mobile rules & information
Since people don’t read rules all the way through i would like to preface this by saying: TRIGGERING MATERIAL WILL BE WRITTEN HERE. THIS INCLUDES BUT IS NOT LIMITED TO: INCEST, DUBCON, SUICIDAL IDEALATIONS, CHEATING, AND ANYTHING ELSE I WANT TO WRITE. BY CLICKING FOLLOW, YOU AGREE TO BLACKLIST THE TAGS PROVIDED IN THE FORM OF (trigger here) tw. DO NOT FOLLOW ME IF YOU THINK FICTION EQUALS REALITY OR IN ANYWAY HAS ANY REFLECTION ON A MUN’S MORAL STANDING. 
HATE WILL NOT BE TOLERATED AND ANY ANON’S I GET ABOUT THIS THAT IS HATE WILL BE BLOCKED/NOT AT ALL ACKNOWLEDGED.
THANK YOU.
about: this is an indie mutuals only rp blog for a multimuse with various fandoms from tv shows, movies, anime, and video games. mun is 25+, genderfluid lesbian, goes by he/him pronouns (but i am genderfluid so i don’t mind she/her pronouns, most just call me he/him) online and name Jay. Previously known as Ares and Snow.
Callout culture: Do not involve me in this. Period. I want no part of it and will block as soon as I see it, tagged or not. I believe it does more harm than good and something like tha is extremely harmful..
content: there will be some pretty heavy material featured here. such as suicidal thoughts, mentions of rape, incest, and anything else I want to write. I will not tolerate hate being sent to me about this and I will block anyone who tries to police me. The only hard limit i have and absolutely refuse to write is pedophilia.
Don’t ever be afraid to ask me to tag something!
side note: if you believe fiction equals reality, please don’t follow me.
discord: is open to those who follow me. simply ask for it. i do not write on discord though. ooc contact is highly encouraged!
disclaimer: i'm in no way affiliated with any of the actors, fandoms, or characters on this blog.  Banners, promos, and icons belong to me. Theme was made by inkfated.  all screencaps used to turn into icons on this blog are not mine and belong to their rightful owners. Lara Croft screencaps come from soulcluster. tsunade icons belong to hellspath. rectangle tsunade icons belong to me. Some psds are not mine. Credit to iconholic for Red Velvet psd. Credit to plutocommissions for psd 183 - wild. some psds used are made by rivercraze
Drama: There won’t be any. I’m too old for tumblr’s drama, if you try to start something, make me choose, or drag me into drama - you will be blocked.
DNI’s will get you blocked. I don’t agree with making people choose between people when there are things like blacklist and tumblr’s own filtering system to help you avoid a person
Hate: Character hate, show hate, etc will get you unfollowed. I don’t have time for that negativity, pls tag it so I can filter it out, thank you.
IMs: pls refrain from sending me multiple messages all at once as I’m autistic and it sends me into sensory overloads!!
follow/unfollowing: i usually follow back pretty quick. if i don't follow within a week, i'm probably not going to follow back. 9/10 i do follow back. i will not follow if i see vaguing, callouts, or any sort of drama on blogs. i also will not follow any under the age of 18.
if i’ve been following you for a month and you don’t interact with me within that time limit, I’m unfollowing. I won’t soft block because I’m totally okay with people still following me but I don’t see the point in following if we’re not gonna write.
If I do not follow you back, do not message me asking to write or become mutuals - you will be blocked.
If I block you, do not come to me asking why. It will only get you blocked all over again. Do not ask why i’ve unfollowed you, either.
DO NOT FOLLOW ME IF YOU’RE A MINOR.
side note: if you’re the type to blindly believe a callout because that’s what everyone else is doing  save yourself the trouble and don’t follow me.
Memes: Send as many as you want for as many muses as you want just be sure to specify muse or they’ll get deleted! Always feel free to turn meme answers into threads, too.
Do not use me as a meme resource. Send something in or reblog from the source, please.
note:  if you send memes multiple times and there’s clearly a way to continue them, ESPECIALLY if we’ve never interacted before, and you keep sending memes but have NO INTENTIONS on replying to them, I will be less likely to respond to them. memes, in my eyes, are used as alternatives to starters. if you don’t respond to them after i’ve responded to quite a few, that’s me putting work into it for no reason really, so yeah.
My triggers: Sharks. That’s it. Just tag pictures of sharks for me please
nsfw: smut will be present here. i can not play the dominant party in smut, please don't ask me too. if you don't feel comfortable with it, we can fade to black, easy peasy. i won't make myself uncomfortable for some smut. All muses involved in smut or ships are 18+. If you think that aging them up is pedophila, do me a favor and get off my blog. Smut may happen with aged up characters but that does not mean it was done specifically for smut. Do not assume.
OCS: I love them. Send them my way, please!
OOC:  I post ooc, sometimes quite a bit, sometimes rarely. I am human and I will act as such. I will not tag ooc posts mostly bc i’ll forget. Sorry if that bugs people but like i said, I’m human and I like to write things down and share things with the dash.
OOC note: please do not flirt with me or ask me to date you, thank you!
Shipping: all muses are LGBT+ in some shape or form so if you want to ship, just let me know. They’re pretty open to anyone, though gay and lesbian muses will stay gay and lesbian. I ship toxic pairings and incest so if that’s your cup of tea, just lemme know, and we can work something out if not? That’s alright too!!
As previously stated, all ships and smut scenes are involved with characters 18+. I will never under any circumstance write something with underage characters. Characters, however, can be aged up but are never simply just for the sake of smut. Smut may happen with aged up characters but that does not mean it was done specifically for smut. Do not assume.
wait time: sometimes i can take months, sometimes seconds, sometimes days. I’m not a fast rper, please respect this.
writing: i generally prefer writing multi-para or novella. one-liners or one-paragraphs usually end up getting dropped or made into much longer threads as i have absolutely no chill. 
edit: from now on any drafts that are below three paras will be deleted, i don’t have muse for short things.
End note: Do me a favor and like this post if you’ve read my rules. Not needed but deeply appreciated. Also below you’ll find important links:
MUSES & NAVIGATION & MUSE INTEREST CHECKER & SHIP INTEREST CHECKER & COMMISSIONS INFORMATION & MOBILE MUSE LIST & THREAD TRACKER
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kalimagik · 4 years
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You Are My Home
Ron Weasley x Reader
Word Count: 3.8k
Warnings: Abusive father, alcoholism 
A/N: This lil fic was requested by @obsessedwithrandomthings <3 Congrats on 300 love! The prompts were “kiss me” and “you make me feel safe.” My requests are OPEN! and there is a prompt list somewhere on my dash if you’d like to request something. I was planning on posting this 2 hours ago, but tumblr got annoying and deleted it from my queue. So reblog, comment, like, all that fun stuff pleasssse! Feedback always welcome! Happy reading! 
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Summers at the Burrow were always crazy, but relaxing at the same time. Molly gave her children chores each day, but there was plenty of time for playing quidditch, pranking, and roaming around the muggle village nearby.
While Hogwarts brought excitement and adventure, the Burrow brought time for rejuvenation, well that was when the twins weren’t picking on Ron. But, it was home. It was where he felt the most comfortable, especially when Harry and Hermione were around. Yep, summers at the Burrow were the best place for a kid to grow up.
*Knock, knock, knock*
Being the last one awake, Ron slid off the couch and crept to the door. Ron glanced at the real clock on his way through the kitchen, which read 11:30. Who could be knocking this late at night?
Ron swung the door open to come face to face with Y/N L/N. She was definitely more Ginny’s friend than his, but she was always kind to him and vice versa. And, if he was being honest, he always did have a crush on her. She was so full of life and brightened the lives of everyone who knew her.
“Uhhh, hi. I’m sorry. I was hoping to catch Ginny. But now that I’m realizing what time it is, I realize that that was a silly notion.”
Y/N wouldn’t meet Ron’s eyes, but he could hear the shakiness and uneven vibrato in her voice. When she sniffled, he knew that she had been crying.
“I should go,” she whispered, turning from Ron.
“No, wait. Why don’t you come in. It’s late. I don’t even know how you got here, but it probably wasn’t easy.”
Y/N just nodded and stepped through the doorway. She stood in the kitchen, looking like she didn’t really know what to do, but Ron watched as she timidly wiped her eyes. He knew she was trying to hide whatever she was feeling.
“Are you okay?” Ron blurted out. He couldn’t stand seeing her hear like this.
“I don’t want to bother you with it. Would it be okay if I just waited down here for Ginny? You don’t have to wait up with me, I can just sleep on the couch.”
“No, you can sleep in my room. I’ll sleep on the couch.” If she didn’t want to talk to him, that was fine, but there was no way that he was letting her sleep on that lumpy couch in the living room.
“I don’t want to put you out.” This was not her, not at all.
“You won’t be. I’m sure of it. You may just have to mind the ghoul in the attic,” Ron warned with an airy chuckle. “I’m the room on the top floor. You can’t go any further. Go ahead up. There are t-shirts in the top drawer, you can use one of those for bed.”
Y/N just nodded before turning to walk up the stairs. Before she could get out of Ron’s sight, she paused and looked back at him. “Thank you, Ron,” she said quietly. Even though there weren’t many words, Ron knew that his actions meant the world to her, he could just feel it.
Once he was sure that Y/N was in bed, Ron got comfortable on the couch or as comfortable as he could. He stared at the ceiling wondering why Y/N had just shown up like that. Molly would have no problem with her being there, but it was still strange.
Ron woke up to Ginny, Fred, and George standing over him.
“Good morning, sunshine,” Fred grinned.
“Fall asleep dreaming about a mermaid?” George teased.
“Shove off,” Ron groaned as he rolled over.
“Why are you down here anyways?” Ginny questioned.
At that, Ron shot up, Y/N. “Gin, I think you might want to go up to my room.”
“I’m NOT dealing with the Ghoul again, Ronald.”
“No, no, no. I didn’t sleep down here because of a ghoul. Y/N showed up late last night. She seemed upset. I told her to sleep in my room.” Ginny was out of the room before Ron could even finish his sentence. Her footsteps pounded loudly on the steps. If anyone was still sleeping in the house, they weren’t anymore.
“What do you think that was about?” George wondered out loud.
“Girls are strange beings…” Fred followed, shaking his head.
Ron followed the twins into the kitchen for breakfast, constantly looking at the stairs for Ginny and Y/N’s feet. Breakfast was filled with jokes from the twins and Percy telling them off.
“MUUUUM!” Ginny called from up the stairs, maybe about halfway up.
Ron watched intently for any sign as Molly rushed up the stairs. She didn’t even question it. She had to know that Y/N was in the house by now. Why was he feeling so uneasy about this? Playing with his eggs until Molly emerged again.
“Well dears, it seems that we will be having a guest for the next few weeks,” Molly smiled as she pulled out another plate and set of utensils. “Ronald, you could have woken me up when she arrived last night,” Molly informed him.
“Sorry. You went up so long before she got here,” Ron tried to explain.
“Wittle Ronnikins gave his room up to the pretty girl,” Fred mocked.
“She needed it. You don’t get it.” Ron spat back at him. Ron didn’t know why, but he felt the need to protect her. He needed to pave the path for everything to be alright with her.
“Good morning again,” Ginny said, announcing her re-arrival downstairs.
Ron whipped around fast enough to see Y/N coming down the stairs behind Ginny, smiling timidly at the family she knew so well. This just so wasn’t like her.
“How’d you sleep?” he found himself asking in spite of himself. Maybe he should have just kept quiet.
“Well, thank you. But you can have your bed back. I’m going to stay in with Ginny.” She smiled at him, well what seemed like a genuine smile. Maybe last night was just a fluke and she would be her normal self by this afternoon.
“Y/N, dear. Have some breakfast. I will send an owl to Arthur and tell him to pick up your things.”
“Thank you, Mrs. Weasley.” Something still seemed off about her. Ron looked up slightly, but not enough for his brothers to catch him. He watched her slowly eat the food placed in front of her. He watched the twinge of pain shoot across her face when she turned too quickly to respond to something Percy said. He watched her.
He watched and noticed things in the weeks following the night of her arrival too. She was happier each day, growing more comfortable and relaxed in a way that someone could only do at the Burrow. Ron started spending more time with her too. She would offer to help them all with their chores and some days Ron got lucky. She’d help him all day. She was her playful self. Spraying water at him while they tended to the garden, keeping the clippers out of his reach. It was all the Y/N he was used too.
Ron even got to spend some late nights talking to her. Like him, she was a night owl. She’d stay up until she was practically falling asleep next to him on the couch or outside on the grass. She was at her cutest when she was tired, giggling and trying to keep her eyes open for as long as possible. Ron just adored it.
It was another one of those nights when just Ron and Y/N were still awake with everyone else asleep. Ron sat with his back against the couch and bum on the floor. Y/N had been sitting next to him until she became more tired. She slid towards the floor and laid her head on Ron’s lap, looking up at him.
“You’re beautiful,” he blurted out before he knew what had possessed him. It was just those eyes…Those sleepy, sparkling, beautiful eyes.
“Thank you, Ronald,” Y/N smiled, not really processing what he said.
“Can I ask you something?” Ron continued, not minding that she hadn’t said anything more.
“If you want to ask if you can have a rematch on the quidditch pitch tomorrow, the answer is yes,” she giggled.
“I will take you up on that,” Ron grinned, “but that wasn’t what I was going to ask.”
“Okay, shoot,” Y/N responded as she adjusted on his lap.
“I’ve been wondering this for a while, but when you came here a month or so ago, you were crying. You weren’t yourself. I don’t want to pry or push you, but what was wrong?” Ron felt the confidence leave him as he asked the question. Maybe he should let the reason stay her secret.
Y/N tensed, he could feel it. She was thinking and then sat up, criss cross applesauce, now facing Ron. “I guess I do owe you an explanation, you were so kind to not push me then. I would still be wondering too if I was you.” She rambled. She was still beautiful when she rambled.
“I knew that the Burrow was a safe place. Ginny has always been like a sister to me. I couldn’t be at home anymore. M-my, my dad, he- he drinks…a lot. It’s just me and him at home usually. Mum died when I was little, but I-I think you knew that. Anyways, that’s too much information.”
Y/N took a deep breath before she continued. “So, he drinks. And it just got out of hand that night. I hide it well, bu-but he can hurt me. He doesn’t always use his hands. Sometimes it's with magic, but I was hiding in my room that night. I swear he loves me. He’s my father. I just remind him of mum and it sets him off- I guess? I don’t know. I shouldn’t defend him.” She shook her head as she looked at her hands in her lap.
Ron just took in her words and the grace that she had while telling him her story. How could she be so calm? He felt the rage begin to rise in his chest. No one- No One, should ever want to do anything to harm Y/N. His fists clenched against his sides, but he tried to hide it, even though it could be read clearly across his face.
“But, I managed to get away and grabbed a broom and this is the first place I thought of. Before I knew it, I was at your door and knocking.”
Ron nodded to show he understood and was listening, but he was boiling over.
“I told Ginny the next morning and insisted I tell your mum, even though I didn’t want to. When your mum found out the basis of my situation, she essentially ordered me to stay with you all. I couldn’t say no, but I’m happy she did. This has been one of the best summer holidays I have ever had.” A smile crossed her lips as she thought of the weeks that she had spent in the Burrow.
“You can stay here as long as you want.” Ron told her, straight faced. He didn’t want that man coming anywhere near her again, whether or not he was her father.
“Thanks, Ron. Your mum said the same thing. I like it here…a lot.”
“You can stay here forever even. All school holidays, summer holidays, all of them.”
“I have to go back at some point, Ron.”
“No you don’t,” Ron argued. “You never have too.”
“Okay.” Her words didn’t seem like an agreement, but an understanding. “I’m going to go to bed now, okay? Thank you for listening.” As she stood up, she leaned down to kiss Ron’s cheek. “Good night,” she said softly as she made her way upstairs to Ginny’s room.
Ron sat in the stillness of the living room. He slowly lifted his hand to his cheek. It burned with the blush left from her kiss.
Growing used to the routine with Y/N at the house, Ron adjusted his own to spend even more time with her. Some would even argue that she was starting to spend more time with Ron than with Ginny. They were growing closer and closer and Ron felt like he may combust if his feelings for her grew any larger. He was falling, falling harder than he could ever imagine. His crush was so much more than a crush on the happy, free-spirited girl that was friends with Ginny. He loved that version of her, but also the her he got to know in the evenings and the her that could let loose like no one was watching. He loved all of her.
Then, one morning he woke up later than usual. He’d been kept awake by the soft explosions from the twins’ room and the thoughts about Y/N swirling in his head. When he came down the stairs, Y/N’s bags were all packed at the door.
“What’s going on? Are we going somewhere?” Ron asked as he rubbed his eyes.
“Y/N’s going home.” Ginny replied with a straight face and angry eyes watching the front door closely.
“She’s what? Where is she?”
“Her dad showed up early this morning demanding to see her.” Ginny spit out. Ron could tell she was infuriated.
“Where is she?”
“Outside. He wanted to talk to her.”
“Did anything seem off about him?” Ron’s mind began racing. What if he did something to her? Ron had to be there to protect her.
He flew through the door that Ginny had been watching so intently. He ignored his sister as she called saying that Y/N’s father said not to follow. He tore through the garden that he had tended to so many times with her and past the Weasley’s makeshift quidditch pitch. He ran all the way to the edge of the trees on the property. The moment Y/N spoke, he could pick her voice out of the normal outside noises.
“No. I want to stay here, Dad. Please!”
“You’re coming home. I need your help around the house. You cannot just skirt your responsibilities.” He growled at her.
“I don’t understand. You don’t have to worry about me when I’m here. They’ll take care of me…” she tried to explain.
“I can take care of you just fine. You don’t need to be playing make believe here.”
“Dad. No.” She was standing her ground and Ron was proud of her, he thought maybe he could just watch from a distance just in case. But when he looked at Y/N’s father, something seemed off. He was staggering and stumbling at only 11 o’clock in the morning.
“You are coming home with me, Y/N.” Her dad grabbed her arm harshly.
“Okay, fine, fine,” she conceded. Even from a distance, Ron could see the confidence fade in her eyes just to be replaced by fear. “Just let me go get my stuff.”  
“No, we are going now. You humiliated me by having Arthur Weasley show up at MY house to collect your things.”
“Please, dad. My school things are in there. I need them to do my summer work.” Her words became more urgent as though she was trying to calm him down and be reasonable.
“WE ARE GOING NOW!” Y/N tried to pull away, but his grasp was too tight on her wrist. Ron couldn’t take it anymore.
“Let her go!” he yelled.
“This doesn’t concern you,” Y/N’s dad spat in Ron’s direction.
“Ron, it’s really okay,” Y/N said, but her eyes pleaded for help.
“I said, let her go.” Ron repeated, closing the distance between him and Y/N.
“She’s my daughter, under the age of 17, and I can do with her as I please.”
Ron’s eyes flickered to where Y/N’s father held her arm. It seemed to be getting tighter. His nails were practically breaking her flesh.
“Dad, that hurts,” she spoke softly to him, but his grip didn’t loosen. Ron could see the pain emanating in her eyes.
“She said she wants to stay here.” Ron gritted through his teeth, losing his cool.
“Let’s go, Y/N.” Her father yanked her arm so hard that Ron was sure her arm would pop out of her socket.
The tears swelled up in her eyes as she held back her audible cries. “Let her go.” Ron was giving her dad one last chance before…
Once Ron spoke, Y/N’s dad only pulled harder. Ron leaped forward, fist aimed at the man holding onto Y/N. He hit him square in the jaw. When Y/N’s dad recoiled, he lost his grip on Y/N, allowing her to break free.
“Are you okay?” he asked, rushing to her side.
“Yeah, just a little sore,” she lied. Ron stood up beside her to face her dad. The man stood a few inches shorter than Ron, so he had to look up to meet Ron’s fiery stare.
“You need to leave now.” Ron spoke as calmly as he could.
By this point, the commotion had drawn the attention of his family inside. Fred, George, and Arthur Weasley were all running to where Ron stood, Ginny running next to Y/N, helping her up.
“Take Y/N back inside, Gin.” Ron said, not breaking eye contact with her father.
“You can’t just hide my daughter from me.” He dared to speak.
“I’m not hiding her. I’m keeping her safe from you now.” Ron was determined to win this one.
“Mr. L/N. Please leave our property,” Mr. Weasley spoke sternly.
Realizing he was outnumbered, Y/N’s father apparated on the spot. Ron turned instantly to go back to the house and check on her. She had been hurt and he just knew it.
“Gin? Ginny?!” Ron called once he was in the house.  
He could hear her soft sniffles and Ginny calmly repeating that she would be okay. He turned into the living room to see Y/N on the couch with Ginny holding her arm and his mum fussing over her. As annoying as her fussing could be to him sometimes, he was never more grateful to have her here taking care of Y/N.
Ron could see the silent tears streaming down her face. His heart ached at the sight, she should never ever cry.
“Y/N? Are you okay?” Ron kept his distance, wanting to be respectful of the people buzzing around her.
“She will be alright,” Molly smiled at the girl, standing up. “Just needs some rest, that’s all.”
“Thank you, Mrs. Weasley,” Y/N whispered, not really making eye contact with anyone around her. Ron could tell that she was embarrassed by the whole situation even though she didn’t need to be.
“Why don’t you come rest in my room,” Ginny offered, being the type of friend that knew Y/N wouldn’t want to be the center of attention all day because of this.
“Yeah, that sounds good.”
Ron couldn’t stop pacing around the ground floor. Not even the twins could bring themselves to tease him over his concern, they were concerned too. Y/N took her meals in Ginny’s room with Ginny and Arthur watched the yard, making sure that her father didn’t return.
The family went up to bed with an uneasiness in the air. Ron walked so slowly past Ginny’s room, hoping to maybe catch Y/N going to the bathroom or something, but he didn’t. So, now he lied awake in his bed, listening to the ghoul make a ruckus in the attic.
When the soft knock echoed off his door, Ron flew to answer it. Y/N stood there, small and shivering. “Can I come in?” she asked quietly.
“Yes, yes, of course.” Ron opened the door wider when he realized she hadn’t been up here since the first night she arrived. Y/N stood in the middle of the room, looking utterly unsure about what to do now.
“You want to sit down?” Ron asked motioning to his bed as he took a seat on the floor.
“I don’t want to put you out.” How was she still so polite and thoughtful?
“Sit, Y/N.” Ron offered softly, not wanting to push too hard.
“I just wanted to thank you, for coming out earlier to help me.”
Ron couldn’t stop himself as he grabbed her hand to reassure her that he was there. “You don’t have to go home ever again…”
“I’ve been home, Ron. For months. A home is a place where you are supposed to feel safe and loved and warm.” She looked up from the floor to look at him for the first time since she entered the room. Oh, how beautiful she was. “You make me feel safe, you are my home. And somehow when I was out there today, I just knew you would come…”
She sank onto the floor next to him and all Ron wanted to do was close the space, but he wanted to make sure that she was comfortable above all else. “The Burrow was a safe haven for me,” she continued, “but you, you made every second here amazing. And it may be silly, but I’ve had this crush on you forever.” Y/N broke eye contact as she spoke the words, slightly embarrassed to be telling him this way, but nevertheless she kept going. She wasn’t going to be scared of this anymore. “But, I can’t help but feel like it’s become more than a crush. I-I think I love you, Ron and I just have this feeling that you might feel that same way?”
The words evaded him. How could he express just how much she meant to him?
“Kiss me” was all he managed. The most beautiful smile he had ever seen spread across her face as she leaned forward into him. Ron couldn’t stop himself from pulling her lips to his to close the space faster. He swore he felt sparks as the kiss deepened and became more passionate. This was it. Ron knew that she was it for him.
When they finally pulled apart for air, he studied her beautiful face so closely that he could see every freckle, every line, and every blemish, but even those were beautiful. “I can be your home as long as you need me too,” he spoke against her lips.
“How does forever sound?” she whispered, closing the gap one more time.
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Y/N never did have to go back to her father, Ron made sure of that. Ginny was more than happy to let her best friend share her room and keep her things there, but really she snuck up to Ron’s room almost every time they were back at the Burrow.
Forever can seem like an awfully long time, but whenever Ron held her in his arms, forever felt like something he could definitely do, especially for her.
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rhenuvee · 4 years
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The Heart in You (Fred Weasley x reader)
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A/N: Remember when I said I was going to be a turtle when using Tumblr bc I’m new? My dumbass couldn’t find the delete button- dEaDaSs cLoWnErY right here.
Summary: Both you and Fred are known to have a playful type of rivalry, and none of you two want to be the first to ‘be nice’ to the other. But one day he starts acting weird, and you start feeling bad. 
Warnings: swearing :0
*I realized I’m an idiot for not doing this sooner so tell me if you’d like to be tagged in my future fics. I write for 3 fandoms so please specify which one!*
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Yours and Fred’s rivalry was known to almost everyone in Hogwarts.
You were sort of friends, sure. You had most classes with each other, and sat next to him in Charms. You weren’t always a jumpy type of person, in fact before Fred started annoying you, you were quite shy. You couldn’t bother to remember when the bickering started.
He called you names, stole your belongings, bumped into you purposely in the halls, and now blocked your way when getting out of class. And the worst part, he did it all with that stupidly attractive smile of his. Merlin, how silly did you have to be to be distracted by someone where only their smile could make your knees go weak?
Fifteen seconds left... 
It was almost like the clock was giving you anxiety.
“Class...” started Professor Snape with his slow, dramatic tone of voice. You didn’t want to give Snape the impression that you hated his class, but just this once, you had to be the first one to exit. You moved your leg slightly out of the seat, and your hand gripped your bag tightly, swung over your shoulder.
“... dismissed-”
You dashed for the door immediately, and rather sloppily, probably broke or crumpled up things in your bag, but you didn’t care. To your dismay, you collided with a tall, red headed, figure, smiling right down at you. 
“Nice try princess.” You looked up to lock your gaze with none other than Fred. His smirk met with your scowl.
“Fred stop blocking my way!” You protested, trying to push him out of the way. Sadly, with his years playing as beater, it didn’t take much force for him to use his arms and stay in place.
He used his tall stature to block the doorway of the classroom, with his arm stretched out so you couldn’t get out. This wasn’t a first, in fact, you lost count a few weeks ago. He made you late to quite a few classes and meals. 
A few students exiting gave both of you weird looks, and most treating it as if this wasn’t the first time this happened- because well, it wasn’t. 
“Come on lovebirds, there’s plenty more time at lunch to flirt.” said George. He too seemed tired of your bullshit as he leaned on the wall outside of the class. You huffed as you fixed yourself up, and made an ugly face at Fred. He in turn made a kissy face back at you, which made you rush out the door, with your face flushed red.
That annoying jerk, you thought, he always knew how to get to you. But he wasn’t done with you yet. You made your way to the Gryffindor table and sat across from Angelina. The twins as usual, came bouncing in right behind you and sat next to you, one on each side.
“You know love, if you kept making that face it might get stuck like that.” He said leaning with his elbow on the table. “Oh and how would you know that hm? Is it because it happened to you?” you shot back. But deep inside you knew that wasn’t true- it was the last thing his face would be, he was gorgeous. George ooed at your statement and Angelina rolled her eyes but smiled.
“Liar liar as always (y/n), when will you admit that you’re mad for me.” he said cheekily. Of course he had something to say back that would make your face red. “Another day...” sighs Angelina resting her hand on her forehead.
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Your body tensed when Professor McGonagall asked everyone to find partners to practise dancing. None of the boys seemed willing to get up from their seat, who would want to practise with you, let alone ask you to the ball? 
“C’mon let’s go.” said Angelina taking your hand and leading you to the twins. Oh no, not them, not Fred... 
“George would you like to practise with me?” Angelina asked. “Yeah, sure.” replied George before winking to you and Fred. You stood there frozen with your brows furrowed, how could they? 
“Well, let’s get to it darling.” he said. “Tch, whatever.” you muttered turning away from his gaze, and getting slightly hotter when he put his one hand on your waist and the other linked with your hand. 
You kept looking back at McGonagall, trying to follow her steps, and also down at your feet a lot. To be honest, you didn’t want to meet Fred’s eyes. A few minutes later, you realized he hadn’t said anything or teased you at all. You slowly lifted your head to see what was up. 
You were surprised to see his head was also down, looking at his feet. He looked up when he felt your gaze, but instead of his usual smirk and flirty one-liner, you were met with an expression you haven’t seen. His eyebrows were slightly furrowed, cheeks with a tiny bit of pink, and eyes filled with... confusion, or concern? 
“Sorry love, I almost stepped on your foot there.” he said sheepishly. This was new. You weren’t sure if he was playing or being genuine. “It’s okay.” you reply quietly, unsure of his behaviour.
Midway through the lesson, you could count the number of times he said “Sorry” or “My apologies darling.” It was quite a lot of times, and the weirdest part was that he seemed truly sorry for accidentally stepping on you a few times. You appreciated that he apologized, but this was strange. When Professor McGonagall announced that the dance lesson was finished, you both sighed, and just stood there for an awkward moment. 
“Reckon whoever’s going to the ball with me will have an interesting dance.” he said as he rubbed the back of his neck. “Yeah...” you said softly.
“So how was it?” asked George as he and Angelina came over from their spot. “Couldn’t really get it...” replied Fred looking down at his hands. Was he... embarrassed? 
Suddenly you felt a little guilty for spurting insults at him earlier, and for hitting him in the arm with your books, and calling him names. Yes, he had done the same too, but it wasn’t like someone as confident as him to get embarrassed and shy. You hoped that it wasn’t your continuous back and forth that made him feel worse of himself.
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This weird behaviour continued into the next week. People around you were shocked to see you both dialed down at least 50%. You hated to admit it, but you secretly missed the playful banter you had with him.
The Yule Ball was coming closer, and you still didn’t have a date. “Go with Fred.” said Angelina casually. “Are you joking?” you asked. 
“Oh? And I thought you both calmed down and finally admitted your feelings to each other.” You groaned at her statement. Alicia and Katie came over. “(Y/n), why can’t you see that he fancies you too?” asked Katie. 
“W-well even if he does, I don’t think he does anymore...” you said timidly. “He’ll probably say yes anyway (y/n).” said Alicia reassuring you.
You pursed your lips. They knew you liked him, and you hated that. You were a girl who rivalled against him, both competing for a better argument and the last word. You were told constantly that he flirted with you because he fancied you. Some of your retorts you admit might’ve been a bit much, so why would he like you after all that?
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The next day, you walked in the Charms classroom with a weird feeling in your stomach. You felt even weirder when Fred plopped himself down, and put his stuff down on the floor of his side? Usually he dropped his belongings smack in the middle, invading your space, claiming he needed ‘more room for his long limbs’, and that you could spare a bit of your space. 
“Not going to put your stuff here?” you asked. “Didn’t want to disturb you.” he said before turning back to Professor Flitwick.You could tell that he didn’t sound his best, when he said that. But still, shouldn’t he be busy kicking you under the table, or looking over at your parchment?
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“Fred!” you shouted a little too loudly as you tried to catch up with him after class ended. He turned around and walked back over to you, before waving to his twin telling him he’ll be there later. Your heart already started beating faster.
“Um, a-are you okay?” you asked. Well, that was a bit too general wasn’t it. “Course, why wouldn’t I be?” he smiled at you, until he went back to looking down at his feet, his hair covering part of his face so you couldn’t see it. Now you really felt sorry, you didn’t know what caused him to act less energetic, less loud, less of himself, but you didn’t want to be one of the sources. 
You took a deep breath and reminded yourself that you were going to hex the girls if this went wrong. “Please (y/n), we wouldn’t want to go without you!” the girls voices from the other day rang in your head. 
“I-I was wondering... if you wanted to go to the Yule ball with me..?” you asked shyly. “Hm?” he hummed, not looking up. 
“Would you like to... gototheYuleballwithme?” you said the last part rather quickly, almost a whisper so no one in the hall could hear you. Your face was beet red, scared to face Fred’s reaction.
...
“Knew you would give in darling.” he said brushing the hair out of his face and smirking at you. The familiar fiery hot boiling feeling began to rise from within you, and unfortunately to your face. “And I would love to go with you.” he said.
“Wh- I- FRED!!” you yelled out of anger and embarrassment. “Always knew you had a heart in you, was just waiting for when you’d show it-” “FRED WEASLEY, YOU’RE SUCH AN ASS!” you yelled frustrated. 
“Aw, it’s okay (y/n), I mean- hey! You there! Guess who asked me to the Yule ball!” he said tapping a random person on the shoulder. “Fred-” “In fact- EVERYONE! GUESS WHO JUST ASKED ME TO THE YULE BALL-” 
“FRED!” you said hitting him in the arm. He was too busy laughing his ass off to feel the pain of your hit. “I hate you.” you hissed, as he calmed down. “I think you’re cute too.” he said sweetly. 
“All that ‘sadness’ since the dance practice for the ball was all an act?” you asked frowning. “Well, I wouldn’t call it sadness. But since you said so- I’m feeling a lot better now that you think I’m handsome.”
“I didn’t say-“
“See you at the ball, love.”  he said bringing his hand softly to the side of your neck to kiss you on the cheek. You froze with your eyes wide. You were ashamed to say that your mind kept replaying the moment. A few seconds later, your mind snapped back to reality, and started going after Fred.
“F-Fred! You can’t just randomly do things like that! Come back here!” you yelled as he too started running. Both your voices echoed in the distance. George and Angelina saw as the two of you rushed by the entrance of the great hall, up to your usual chase.
“How long until you think they get married?” asked Angelina to George.
“Tomorrow.”
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Link to pt 2: Here
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causalitylinked · 2 years
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LIVIIIIII. had i seen the meme prompt i would have sent this sooner. i'm so sorry you haven't been feeling great. i absolutely adore seeing you on the dash, you have a lot of love for your muses and the attention you give them shows in your writing. i love writing with you and seeing all your wonderful headcanons. (i file them in my mind like,, mm yes, how can i acknowledge this in our threads) i'm genuinely excited to continue our threads. sorry i'm a slow poke about it, but thank you for sticking with me because i really enjoy your presence on the dash!
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               LIVI LOVE MAIL HOURS. » always accepting!
ANONYMOUSLY OR NOT, TELL ME SOMETHING YOU LIKE ABOUT MY MUSE/BLOG
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( TBH, I FEEL LIKE I JUST HAVE THE WORST TIMING WHEN IT COMES TO REBLOGGING MEMES... cause oftentimes, i’ll be queuing them whenever nobody is online and then after i come back from walking my dog, i discover no new notifs, making me awkwardly go ‘so, uh... do i wait it out in case people send stuff to me or do i delete it and reblog it again in the hopes i will get more luckier next time??’. but yeah, i’m not surprised you didn’t see the meme, because i have yet to master the art of predicting when people are online, sadly.
and it’s okay! i’m actually feeling a lot better compared to yesterday, but i appreciate the kind words. anyways, thank you for saying so, cherub! ngl, i initially had my own hangups about running a multi because i’ve only ever had single-muse blogs and worried i wouldn’t be able to do the characters justice, but i’m relieved you think so, since i put a lot of work and passion into them. ofc, i enjoy seeing you and ryu on the dash as well and get extremely giddy whenever i receive replies/asks from you.
like, i don’t exactly make it a secret that i love your oc, bUT THERE ARE TIMES WHERE I ADMITTEDLY GET ANXIOUS OVER WHETHER OR NOT MY ENTHUSIASM MIGHT BE TOO MUCH, because i had several instances now where people secretly found it annoying, only to never tell me. and i’ll find myself wondering if i should just tone it down to avoid overwhelming you. either way, i’m glad the interest is mutual, for admittedly, i also find your presence on the dash to be immensely enjoyable! seriously, ryu is such an incorrigible yet endearing oc, getting to see more content of her is serotonin inducing.
either way, don’t worry about it! with writing now taking a lot out of me these days and me actually starting my new job on the 29th, i too might become slower than usual; still, please don’t feel as if you need to respond straight away! in fact, we can both be slowpokes together. i mean... granted, i don’t really have piles of drafts or a gazillion amount of asks in my inbox to tend to like other rpers do, but adulting and workplace obligations is still a thing, so /LE SHRUGS. )
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marvelyningreen · 3 years
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Aftershocks - From the Series Finale (a deleted scene)
Night 1 | Night 2 | Night 3
[Summary: You’d traveled to Westview to rescue Peter. Getting locked away by some sinister witch might’ve delayed you a bit, but you’d escaped, and you weren’t going to be stopped again.
Warnings: mild language, references to injury / mind control / death
Notes: Peter Maximoff x reader. This was meant to be a flashback during Night 2, but it turned into way too long of a digression. So, here it is: presented as a deleted scene while I finish Night 3. It’s a bit sparse in the places where I would’ve just been summarizing the episode, but I figure you already know the details. Into Tomorrow is a continuation of the scene, more or less.
Tag list: @cowboyenorgy ]
After an indeterminate amount of time sneaking around Westview, trying to find your way back to the street where Vision lived, you’d finally done it. It might’ve taken days, or maybe it’d only been hours. It was so hard to tell here.
One minute it was spontaneously Halloween. The next, the entire layout of the town kept shifting around you until you were completely lost. But you’d made it.
As much as you’d wanted to go straight to find Peter, you knew you couldn’t do it on your own. You didn’t know how to counteract the witch’s powers. Vision seemed to know something, though. He was your best chance.
Unfortunately, his house seemed to be deserted. From your hiding place, you couldn’t see any lights on, or any signs of movement. Maybe he was at work? You’d waited this long already; you figured you might as well stay put until he came home.
And just as you’d decided on that course of action, the sound of breaking glass erupted from the neighbor’s house. The attic window shattered outward, and two people crashed through it, landing on the lawn.
One of them – a woman you hadn’t seen before – stuck a perfect three-point-landing more or less facing your direction. The second – a man – didn’t land nearly as gracefully, but still seemed unhurt. You couldn’t see his face, but you were certain it had to be Peter.
He stood, moving as though to cut off the woman’s escape route. He gestured for the woman to get up.
“I can do this all day, babe!” he called.
Scowling, the woman straightened up, dusting herself off and clearly getting ready for round two. The witch was nowhere in sight. Maybe you’d have a better chance of getting through to Peter if he was on his own. You scrambled out of hiding.
“Peter!” you shouted.
Confused, they both turned to look your way. You didn’t have a chance to say anything more before Peter sped over to you – and you just then noticed how weirdly slow he was moving. Instead of almost appearing to teleport, he was a visible blur that your gaze could follow as it approached you.
Peter stopped directly in front of you. He smiled.
“Hey again,” he said, and cheerfully threw you halfway down the block.
You landed hard, skidding another yard or so before coming to a stop. You thanked your lucky stars that you’d landed on somebody’s lawn, not on the pavement. When the hell had Peter gotten superhuman strength, anyway?
As you sat up, the woman ran to your side.
“Are you alright?” she asked, casting a wary glance back towards Peter, who was strolling casually towards you both.
“I’m okay,” you said. You were winded, and you could tell already that you’d added some new scrapes and bruises to your growing collection, but it didn’t seem like you’d been hurt.
“Captain Rambeau,” she introduced herself, offering a brisk handshake.
“You can call me Ace,” you said, “I’m… a friend.”
“Of his?” The captain raised an eyebrow incredulously.
“Yeah, well, he’s not exactly himself at the moment.”
Peter had stopped a ways away from you. You weren’t sure why he didn’t try to attack again.
“You called him ‘Peter,’” said Captain Rambeau. “Is that his real name?”
You nodded.
“Listen, ladies, if you wanted to make this a threesome, all you had to do was ask!” Peter called.
“And I’m guessing that’s not his real personality,” said the captain, catching sight of your disgusted expression.
“Not remotely,” you said.
The captain shrugged. “Well, guess we know what Agnes is into. The witch,” she explained. “The one who’s controlling him.”
“Why’s he just standing there?” you asked. You weren’t opposed to getting a second to breathe, but it was weird.
“I think he’s just supposed to stop us from getting to Wanda,” she said.
At that point, you hadn’t the faintest idea who Wanda was or how she was part of this whole mess, but you figured you could ask later. As you looked over at Captain Rambeau, you noticed her eyes glowing an unearthly blue. That was… unexpected.
“It’s that necklace,” she said. “That’s how Agnes is controlling him. If we can find some way to break it… But he’s too fast.”
Fast? Maybe by normal human standards, but he was moving at a crawl compared to his usual speed. Wait. That was it.
Your abilities didn’t work well in this world, but maybe they’d be more effective against something from your own world.
“Listen,” you said. “I think I can slow him down for you, if you think you can get that necklace. Act like you’re going to make a break for it, and when he tries to go past me, I’ll catch him.”
Captain Rambeau nodded, and took off down the street. Peter immediately gave chase.
Back home, Peter was far too fast for you to ever catch. But here, with him moving like he was running through quicksand? You might actually stand a chance.
You took a deep breath, reaching out. You felt a familiar resonance, and the sensation of something setting like a fishhook.
Peter slammed to a halt like he’d hit a brick wall. He paused for a moment, seemingly confused. He tried to run, but only managed a casual jog. It was working.
Then Peter turned back towards you, his expression something between furious and impressed. Your arm began to shake as you felt him struggling against you.
You really hoped this Captain Rambeau wasn’t going to leave you hanging.
“Well, looks like you’re good for something after all, huh, babe?” he said, strolling towards you.
“Peter would know,” you said, trying to keep his focus on you. “I don’t just break the laws of reality. I can enforce them, too.”
Peter sighed, shaking his head. “I really wish you weren’t complicating things so much. You could’ve just walked away, but-”
At that moment, Captain Rambeau dashed in, grabbing hold of the necklace and tearing it from Peter’s throat.
With a gasp, Peter’s smug expression shifted into a look of horrified panic. He looked at his hands like he was shocked he could move them. Then his gaze snapped back to you.
Your name – your real name – burst from his lips in a strangled cry. He rushed towards you, but stopped short, eyes widening as he took in the state of you.
“Oh, God… What did I-?”
“It’s okay, Peter,” you said. “I’m okay.”
You took his hands, and for a second you were worried that he was going to collapse.
Peter shook his head vehemently. “But you’re hurt!”
“Are you kidding?” you said. “Raven’s kicked my ass worse than this in training.”
Which was a lie, but at that point, you would’ve said just about anything to calm him down. It seemed to work, but only just.
“You’re here,” he said. His voice was quieter now. “You’re actually here.”
“Of course I’m here,” you said. “I came to bring you home.”
That wild look hadn’t left Peter’s eyes as they stared into yours. Gently, you took his face in your hands. At your touch, his eyes closed, and his head bowed just a little. You moved closer, pressing your forehead to his. He laid his hands on yours. His shaky breathing began to grow steadier.
Before either of you could say anything else, you were interrupted be the honking of a car horn.
Or rather, a funnel cake truck horn, to be exact. The driver – a bespectacled brunette – leaned her head out the window.
“As adorable as this is – and hi, by the way,” she called, “I think we’ve got bigger problems right now.”
Peter blinked rapidly, trying to pull himself together. He turned to Captain Rambeau.
“She’s right. Those kids are in danger. We have to do something. I’ll explain everything later,” he said, looking back at you, clearly distressed. “You’re already hurt. Just… stay safe until we get this under control, okay? Please.”
It killed you to think of letting Peter out of your sight after you’d only just gotten him back, but you nodded. You didn’t know what was going on or what kids were in danger, but you and Peter were X-Men. The safety of civilians always came first.
“It looks like they were headed downtown, Darcy,” Captain Rambeau called back to the driver. “Take Ace and follow us there, alright?”
With one last backward glance, Peter took off after Captain Rambeau.
As quickly as you were able, you climbed into the passenger side of the truck, smiling awkwardly at the driver as she put it back in gear and started off.
“Dr. Darcy Lewis,” she introduced herself, side-eying you. “Not the kind of doctor you clearly need, though. Sorry.”
“Nice to meet you,” you said. There was silence for a moment.
“So…” she said, “You and fake Pietro, huh?”
“His name is Peter,” you said, “But, yeah. I came to rescue him. We’re… not from around here.”
You were honestly too tired to explain more than that, but Dr. Lewis seemed to accept that explanation.
“Well, it’s not the first time I’ve met people who aren’t from around here.” She shrugged. “You ever heard of Thor? God of Thunder? He’s a friend of mine. Nice guy; great muscles.”
She said it so casually. Any other time, you would’ve thought this woman was nuts. But after time in Westview? Her claims didn’t sound that outlandish.
“Huh. Nice.” You nodded, impressed. Then, “This is gonna sound like a stupid question, but, uh… Who’s Wanda?”
Dr. Lewis gaped at you incredulously for a moment.
“Oh, boy…” she sighed.
Dr. Lewis gave you the rundown on the whole situation, and frankly? It was a lot. Parts of it – stuff about Avengers and Infinity Stones and snaps and blips – didn’t make any sense to you. But you did manage to grasp some of the more immediately relevant bits. Namely:
Wanda was immensely powerful. She had a twin brother named Pietro who – like your Peter – had superhuman speed, and who had died saving lives, leaving Wanda completely alone in the world.
Vision was apparently some sort of android, and also technically dead…?
But some real piece of work named Hayward had recreated a brainwashed zombie version of Vision and brought it to life using Wanda’s powers, and he was now trying to kill Wanda to cover up his crimes.
How the witch named Agnes and her kidnapping and mind-controlling Peter played into this, Dr. Lewis wasn’t entirely sure.
“Finally!” she said, apropos of nothing. “I swear, Wanda must’ve changed the whole layout of the town. The center is just up ahead.”
There was some sort of commotion overhead, and on the ground, too. Two young boys (probably the kids Peter had mentioned) stood in the street, facing down some military-looking types.
You and Dr. Lewis both shouted in alarm as one man pulled out a handgun and aimed it directly at the kids. From around the corner, Captain Rambeau and Peter ran in, and –
Shots rang out. You could only watch in horror as the man opened fire.
The strange blue blur that was Peter struggled to catch and redirect as many as he could, but it wasn’t enough. Two rounds tore through Captain Rambeau’s midsection, but…
You were still too far away to see exactly what happened, but Captain Rambeau seemed to glow, or phase out of sight for a second, and then she straightened up – unharmed. One of the boys raised his hand, evidently catching the single bullet that had gotten past Peter and the captain.
The man – Hayward, judging by the doctor’s lurid swearing – threw down his gun and hurried to climb back into his vehicle.
“Oh no, you don’t,” Dr. Lewis said under her breath. “Ace, hang onto something.”
“What are you- Oh, shit!”
You grabbed the door to brace yourself as Dr. Lewis gunned it down the street. Before Hayward could begin to make his escape, the funnel cake truck slammed into the side of his Humvee, pinning him inside.
Hayward turned, glaring daggers at Dr. Lewis.
“Have fun in prison,” she said cheerily.
You know what? You take it all back. Dr. Lewis was, in fact, kinda nuts. It was still a pretty badass move, though.
As steam began trickling from the truck’s busted radiator, Dr. Lewis unfastened her seatbelt.
“Well, looks like this thing’s not going anyplace, and neither is he,” she said, nodding at Hayward. “We might as well – I dunno – see if we can help or something.”
As you followed her lead, you heard Peter shouting: “How was that in any way ‘staying safe?’”
“Yeah, well, that’s what seatbelts are for,” Dr. Lewis called back. “And you’re welcome, by the way.”
Peter was there beside the truck as you stepped down out of it. You shifted your weight experimentally onto your injured leg, and let out a strangled yelp. Okay, bad idea. Peter immediately looped your arm around his shoulders and wrapped his arm around your waist.
“Lean on me, lean on me,” he said, “I got you.”
You fought the impulse to collapse against him completely. You’d spent… days? You didn’t know how long – scrambling and searching and breaking out of hospitals and hiding in hedges just to get back to him. You just wanted to hold him and sleep for at least a week.
But the whole business wasn’t over yet. As Peter helped you limp around the truck, you saw that there was another man standing by the kids and Captain Rambeau, talking to Dr. Lewis. He skin was an unnatural shade of red (was that face paint or something?), and he was wearing this strange caped costume. Catching sight of Peter, the man’s eyes narrowed.
“No, it’s okay,” said Dr. Lewis. “He’s cool. He’s with us now.”
The man didn’t seem convinced. His gaze shifted to you, and he tilted his head curiously.
“Ace?” he said.
You blinked. “Vision?”
The voice was the same. The eyes, too. You wouldn’t have recognized him otherwise. He was the only friendly face you’d seen in this place. You couldn’t help but smile at seeing him again. Still, you remembered what Dr. Lewis had said – you’re talking to a ghost.
“Do you two know each other?” asked Dr. Lewis.
“We met, briefly,” you said, “When I first got into town. I’m glad you’re alright.”
“So, the friend you were looking for…?” Vision inclined his head inquiringly towards Peter.
You nodded. Peter waved, letting out a stilted, rueful laugh.
“Your children…?” you asked, gesturing to the boys.
Vision put his arms around them both, a proud smile brightening his worried expression.
“My children,” he said, “And… up there is my wife.”
As one, the whole group looked up to the two women still locked in combat above you.
Captain Rambeau frowned. “Can’t we do something?”
“I tried,” said Vision, “But it seems that Wanda wants to finish this on her own terms, unaided.”
The others kept worried eyes on the proceedings, but Peter turned his attention back to you, helping you to sit down on a nearby bench. He knelt in front of you.
“Scale of one to ten,” he said, “How worried should I be?”
“One,” you said. “I’ll be fine. I don’t think anything’s broken, so I’m calling that a win.”
“Hmm, nope. Still worried. Less dire question – why is everybody calling you ‘Ace?’”
“The professor said not to tell anybody my real name,” you said. “There was no way of knowing what I was walking into. We didn’t think we should tell anyone too much.”
“Oh…” Peter’s mouth twisted into a guilty grimace. “I kinda told Monica everything when we were running over here.”
Red light flashed blindingly above you, drawing your attention upwards.
[The battle proceeds as in canon, ending with Agatha’s defeat.]
Wanda turned back to the others, smiling. The boys ran to hug her, and Vision was close behind. You were too far away to hear what was being said, but at Vision’s words, Wanda’s smile faded. Putting their arms around each other, the family walked a little ways down the street.
“What’s going on?” you asked.
Peter shook his head. A pained expression crossed Captain Rambeau’s face. She closed her eyes, turning away.
“This Vision was never real to begin with,” said Dr. Lewis, her tone oddly solemn. “I think he’s saying goodbye.”
At that, she, too, turned away. Whatever passed between Wanda, Vision, and their children – their farewell wasn’t for prying eyes to watch.
Peter seized your hand and leaned his forehead against your shoulder. You bowed your head over his, closing your eyes. After a moment, you felt something pass over you.
It was that same feeling of overwhelming grief that’d struck you when you first entered Westview, but you understood it now. If you had lost Peter – truly lost him, for good – you imagined that it’d feel something like that.
It only lasted a second, though. In its wake, everything felt brighter, colder.
When you looked up, you cast an uncertain glance back down the main street. There stood Wanda and her children.
Vision was nowhere to be seen.
Wanda pressed her hands to her mouth and slowly sank to her knees. The boys knelt beside her, crying openly, and she pulled them close.
Your heart broke to see them, and you turned away again. It felt wrong to intrude on their grief, even from a distance. Westview had changed. The town seemed faded and dull, somehow desaturated.
Peter had changed, too. His hair was silver again, instead of that strange dirty-blond shade, and his clothes were the same ones he’d been wearing when he was taken.
“You’re all yourself again,” you said.
Peter looked down at himself in surprise. His eyes widened, and he frantically felt his pockets before letting out a sigh of relief. Something about him looked too bright for your pale surroundings. Maybe it was the fact that neither of you belonged to that world, or maybe it was the fact that you were so damn glad to have him back.
Or it might’ve been that this was the first time you’d seen him smile since he was freed from the witch’s control. You leaned in and kissed him.
“God, I missed you,” he said.
Before he could say anything else, another conversation interrupted him.
“I don’t know what to tell you,” Dr. Lewis was saying. “I was just trying to keep him from getting away.”
She and Captain Rambeau surveyed the dented Humvee in which Hayward was still trapped.
“Well, we’re gonna have to get him out of there somehow,” said the captain.
“Can’t you do some sorta…” Dr. Lewis extended her arms, wiggling her fingers in the direction of the vehicle, “Now?”
Captain Rambeau laughed, shaking her head. “I don’t think that’s how it works, Darcy.”
Suddenly, the former funnel cake truck lurched. With a strained metallic groan, it was dragged slowly back and away from the Humvee, leaving just enough space for someone to hypothetically get through and apprehend Hayward.
“What the-?”
Captain Rambeau turned to look back towards you and Peter, or rather, to the street behind you. You caught Peter’s eye just before turning to look yourself, and smiled. Of course.
Peter’s eyes widened again. “Dad?”
“Professor?” you exclaimed.
You might’ve expected Mr. Lehnsherr to come after Peter when he found out what’d happened, but you certainly didn’t expect to see him standing on the main street of Westview with Professor Xavier at his side. Peter stood up, but anything he might’ve said was cut off – once again – by Dr. Lewis.
“Hey, cheekbones!” she called out. “Nice one.”
Upon realizing that he was the one being addressed with that remark, Mr. Lehnsherr gave her a perplexed smile and lowered his arm. But his expression turned serious again at the sound of approaching sirens.
“It’s okay,” said Captain Rambeau. “Agent Woo is with is. I’ll talk to him.”
She and Dr. Lewis went to meet the approaching vehicles, while Mr. Lehnsherr and the professor moved quickly towards you.
“Are you two alright?” the professor asked.
“We’re fine,” you said.
“I’m fine,” Peter corrected. “You can barely walk.”
The professor’s brows furrowed in concern. “I shouldn’t have let you go alone.”
“I’m glad you did, though” you said frankly. “I wouldn’t wish this experience on anybody.”
Peter turned his attention to Mr. Lehnsherr, eyeing him with an expression that seemed a little incredulous, but pleased.
“So. you really came all the way from Genosha for me?” he said.
“I heard you’d been abducted to another reality; of course I came back. Something this ridiculous could only happen to you, Peter,” said Mr. Lehnsherr. Then his expression softened, “I’m glad you’re alright, son.”
“What happened here, exactly?” asked the professor, as he surveyed the street.
“Well, my perspective on events might be kinda limited, but you can see for yourself.”
You leaned towards the professor slightly, offering your thoughts. He touched your temple, and that odd dreamlike sensation washed over your mind as he sifted through your memories of Westview. You were glad you’d asked Dr. Lewis to explain things to you. Maybe the professor could glean more meaning from the story than you’d been able to.
When you opened your eyes, the professor looked pensive, and no less concerned.
“I think it’s high time we get the two of you home,” he said.
“Not that I want to distrust government agents,” said Mr. Lehnsherr, keeping a wary eye on Hayward’s arrest in progress, “But I’m inclined to agree with Charles.”
Peter frowned hesitantly. His gaze had drifted to Wanda and her sons.
“Just… give me one minute, alright?” he said. “There’s something I wanna say first.”
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Unus Annus is a Tragedy
This is a big ole theory that comes after a lot of discussion on the lore hunters discord, so I can’t take all the credit for these ideas, but this is definitely my particular take on it. Hopefully it makes sense lol 
Mark and Ethan made a deal: to have one whole year to create whatever they wanted without worry or consequences. No fear of ad revenue or views, just the opportunity to make exactly what they wanted. 
They, at least metaphorically if not literally, shook hands with Unus and Annus, and the deal was done. One year of free time, no consequences. Since then we’ve seen them laugh, cry, get angry, go through hardships, and achieve victories. We’ve seen them live, and we’ve also seen them die. Literally in Ethan’s case (”How to Start a Fire”). And then we’ve seen him back in the next video, good as new. We’ve also seen Mark lose touch with reality (Hee Hoo) and return to his usual self by the next video. No consequences. 
But something else interesting has been happening. We’ve seen secret messages hidden in the videos, deciphered and read pleas to stop the clock... Someone doesn’t want it all to end. Even before Mark and Ethan opened the coffin in “The Truth of Unus Annus” and were (presumably) replaced by Unus and Annus, someone was begging for more time. 
(Buckle up. This gets long and I didn’t want to fill up your dash lol)
Who is this person? We should help, shouldn’t we? Don’t we all wish our beloved channel could survive the year? If there wasn’t a chance it could be saved, these messages wouldn’t exist... right? 
Well, no. I think the channel will be deleted as we’ve been told from day one. I think this battle we’re seeing (and some of us fighting in) is one that’s been going on since the beginning of time, and Mark and Ethan just so happened to get wrapped up in it by making the deal. We’re only seeing it now, because this is the first time it’s been documented like this before. 
It’s the battle against for time. 
Unus means “one.” He wears black, a color that often symbolizes death. In the newer ending animations he passes Annus a clock and also wields a scythe. He is the grim reaper. He is death. 
Annus means “year.” He wears white, a color that often symbolizes life. In the end animations when Unus swings the clock to him it becomes a skull. He then holds a flower, a symbol of life, which ultimately wilts. He is the present. He is memories. He is the life of a year. 
I don’t think the clock and videos in general are beginning to glitch (the clock going back for a second in “Blood Bath,” static, weird audio, strange jumpcuts especially in “Accepting the Truth,” and of course the hidden codes.) because of anything Mark and Ethan alone are doing. Someone with more power has to be using or working with them to get more time. 
Someone like Annus. 
Now, I don’t see Unus or Annus as good or evil. Neither is the villain of the channel. As Mark said in “Who’s Cutting Onions in Here?” death isn’t the opposite of life, but part of it. Unus and Annus may say they hate each other (as they have insisted in several videos), but they are two sides to the same coin. They are brothers. They both have a role to play in the universe: Annus must live and create memories in the time he’s given, and Unus must end things. 
The glitching we’ve been seeing occurs when a well oiled machine begins to break down. When Unus and Annus try to take more than they’re given. Annus is trying to take more time (with or without the help of Mark and Ethan). He doesn’t want the year to end, he wants to stop the clock and live in this moment for longer. 
For Unus, he tries to take things before their time. For example, when Mark kills Ethan at the end of “How to Start a Fire.” Or, as Mark scolds him in “Brutally Honest,” for trying to end videos early. (While in my opinion, this is just Ethan being Ethan, I think another fun connection is how Ethan usually quits hard/gross food challenges before they’re finished lol). It can’t be easy being the ender of things, so I can understand why it might seem less painful to end things as quickly as possible. To stop before there is time to miss what’s gone. 
In greedily trying to take more than they’re both given, they have disrupted the harmony of life. Maybe the only way to fix things and bring harmony back to the universe is by allowing the channel to die. Let the channel be erased and let Mark and Ethan move on. 
If we let it end, as nature intends everything to one day end, then we can “push reset” and start anew with whatever comes next. 
Now does this mean all of our code hunting and fighting was for nothing if all we really have to do is let it die as intended? Not at all! A year is an excellent cause to fight for! These memories have meant so much, and we absolutely should be solving every puzzle we can, but when it comes time- the true time for the end, we have to accept it as part of life. 
I have a theory that Unus knows how this works: they have a year together, it ends, but then life begins again in a new year. He is death, he remembers it all. But Annus never remembers this cycle or the past years/lives, because for him they always have to end. He resets and is a new year, a new Annus (at least mentally). 
I bet it really takes a toll on Unus to have to end things every time, despite the fight Annus puts up to stay. And he should fight for it! Life is an amazing, beautiful experience even through the hard parts! It is worth the battle, but again, death is not the opposite of life, but part of it. And it always must ultimately come. 
I get why Unus would get greedy and want to make things shorter. The sooner it’s over, the sooner it can begin again. It must be so painful to hurt your brother in this way over and over again, because he can’t understand and never will. 
*coughs* um, is this a theory or a fanfic? I’m not crying you are. Sorry lol.
But I think the point here is to rage against the dying of the light anyway, but that the only way to win and beat it is to let it happen when its time comes. We got our year, and now it will end as it’s supposed to. And something new and amazing will begin again! 
I also just wanted to point out a fun little thing I noticed in “The Truth of Unus Annus” that kind of goes along with my theory a little bit. When Ethan and Mark open the coffin they are facing one another, a united front. 
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And when the coffin closes, and Unus and Annus are there in their places, they are facing forwards and away from each other. No long united. 
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THEY JUST GLANCE AT EACH OTHER AND SEPERATE 
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I’m crying
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Anyway, if you’re still here you’re a star. I hope this even vaguely made sense and there weren’t too many typos. It’s a lot, I know lol. 
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