Having bpd to me is like I'm the loneliest person on the planet, no matter how many people I talk to, no matter how many connections I make or have, I'm a lonely void who will die alone. I have to be talking to someone or with someone every second of every minute of every day. I love people so much, I need people. There's so many people out there with different things to teach you. And then, if I have to talk to one person for more than 6 seconds today, I'll kill them. I'll kill myself. I need to be left alone for the rest of the day, I need no one but myself to be happy. I don't want to partake in anything with anyone because it's all draining and taking out of my alone time. Everyone is the same, they're all boring and self-absorbed. Every conversation feels like I'm forcing myself to be actively present. I just want to be alone in my room with nothing or no one. I don't see a future where I'm happy with anyone other than being by myself.
Today’s Crew Shoutout: the unequalled @oneill.con who plays Izzy🏴☠️ Part 1, because there’s more great shots. Also spoilers☠️ Oh and flipping me off just means ‘I love you’….⚔️
Making a mechanical compass—指南车 (zhi3nan2che1; south-pointing cart), a cart with a figure on top that points south no matter how the cart is turned. Its origins are not very clear, as it has been lost and reinvented many times, but the earliest reliable historical record reports it was invented by Ma Jun (马钧) during the Three Kingdoms period.
Only detailed records of two Song dynasty carts exist, and so it is unknown if the carts of other dynasties used similar mechanisms. Both carts are completely mechanical, and based on the descriptions, seem have the figure connected to the wheels via gears, where two of the gears would lift and lower such that they would not be connected when the cart is moving in a straight line, but would move into working position when the cart was being turned, thus rotating the figure proportionally.
Since only the structure of two carts are known, there is much speculation as to how the inner mechanisms may have worked in the carts when reinvented and in other eras. One popular theory is the use of differential gears, which are what are used in modern cars. OP uses this mechanism in his recreation.
This is part one of a two-part series. Second part here.
chonny jash/cccc fandom PLEASE rb + share how you got into chonny jash i wanna know!! thru his covers, animation, a recommendation or somethin else?! can be a super long or short explanation, im so curious as to how we all ended up here lol
i'll go first(kinda lengthy so its under a readmore)^-^
I had a whole miracle musical/tally hall phase in the summer of 2022, was obsessed with The Mind Electric, and i made a yt playlist w like 50+ versions. fastforward a year later, in the middle of 2023, i found a crazy 12 minute cover by this weirdo named Chonny Jash(what kinda name was that??) and gave it a try and holy shit my mind was blown, the three songs were easily the best covers i'd ever heard and i fucking loved them so much
at first i was just a fan of those three songs, but slowly thru the end of last year but surely i started listening to his other covers, like Hidden in the Sand, Variations on a Cloud, Ruler of Everything, The Bidding, and The Whole World and You, in that order(they all have a soft spot in my heart cus of it). I realized thru The Bidding that the songs were actually all connected so on the last day of 2023 i gave the whole album a try and fucking loved it, both song and lore-wise and from then on I was a huge fan. i've since listened to a lot more of his music tho not everything yet
it's kinda crazy that I've only been super into it not even for that long, but my journey def started like almost a year ago now lmao. you could say i fell very slowly into a hole i couldn't s