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thegeminisage · 25 days

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as someone who wasn't around in 2014....can you tell me what it was like? (stucky) can you give me a taste of the gardens of babylon etc

what was it like...this is such a fun question i want you to know i gave serious thought to my answer and also discussed it at length with my 2014 friend last night and i know already it's gonna be so long. sorry that i answered your ask at fuck o clock in the morning i am scheduling it to go up later and also at the time you sent the ask in to make sure you see it

ok so like. i mean, you're on the fandom website, right, so i assume youve been in fandoms. idk if youve ever been in a really, REALLY big fandom, at the same time that said fandom was also producing content (even if the source material was not). think d*stiel post nov 5, or undert*le circa late 2015/early 2016, or z*lda after totk came out, or h*rry p*tter as the seventh book was being released. (i'm censoring to avoid a false positive of anybody's blacklist except in the case of the last one, which i am censoring out of <3 disrespect.) like there's something REALLY luxurious about being in ANY large and active fandom and it's mostly the power of crowdsourcing. st*r tr*k 2009's tarsus iv headcanons. the storm trooper lore re: the f*rce awakens before the second two movies came out. everyone just kind of agreeing that dean w*nchester was a teenage hooker. you know?

like, that's "just fanon," sure, but part of the beauty of it is that no one person makes up fanon, we all gather in the biggest writing group in the world and collectively go insane and bat ideas back and forth. there are a hundred THOUSAND fics about bucky barnes on ao3 and that's just the people who were writing, not even counting artists and gifmakers and meta-writers and people who just reblog stuff. i can't possibly begin to put an accurate number to how many people are in any given fandom at any given time, but imagine (on the low end, i'm sure) there are THOUSANDS, perhaps tens of thousands, of people going nuts about stevebucky at all times. tens of THOUSANDS people doing "yes and" with each other on the internet 24 hours a day seven days a week. it's just like being in any fandom, you log on to your dash and see what the mewchies posted while you were gone, but in a fandom so huge and so active you were getting bombarded with idea after idea after idea every single second, so if you don't like one you're spoiled for choice in what you engage with next. it didn't even matter that cap3 was two years away or that it sucked when it finally got here because we collectively wrote cap3 a million times over. like, genuinely, it was a mass creative exercise. it's the biggest writing group in the world. for better or worse, we were shaping our own version of that universe, without any input from or regard to the people who actually created the characters and movie, in a way that compelled most strongly to our own tastes and demographic.

what made this particular movie/fandom special though was a few things. firstly i still genuinely believe it was ahead of its time...marvel shit pre disney was allowed to be political in ways it is ABSOLUTELY not now. like, cap2 could say "the government is secretly full of nazis and they all need to burn" in 2014 two years before the 2016 election and 7 years before jan 6. like you just couldn't say that now. "war bad" is an oldie but goodie, but "our entire government is corrupt and needs to be torn into flaming pieces and cast into the potomac" is um. pretty radical. so is, by the way, "men as victims" and "men having emotions" etcetc. like, not in fandom, fandom all but invented that shit, but as far as dumb superhero movies go. i can't tell you the number of metas i read AND WROTE discussing steve rogers and masculinity and how all that was portrayed, intentionally or not, in that fucking film. i had entire separate universes built up in my head for steve who was born a cis girl and steve who decided later in life that "nonbinary" or "trans woman" was a better fit and then steve who was born as a cis boy and remained a man his whole life but felt weird and different ways about being queer which clashed with the weird and different ways BARNES felt about being queer. i'm not saying the film (or the fandom! good lord) was perfect, it was a product of its time, but it was also WAY ahead of its time too. it was weird to expect the next film to come out and actually, like, be good. it wasnt, but we fully believed it would be and that wasn't delusional behavior because the last one had been. i would never have that kind of faith in a marvel project now because they've been bought by disney.

oh yeah and that's the other thing too like. speaking of queer people. gay marriage wasn't legal in the US on a federal level until 2015, and you couldn't just flip on your TV and see them whenever you wanted. ten years doesn't seem like that long ago in the grand scheme of things but like, we lived on glee and cw/mtv queerbait (disclaimer that i personally only participated in cw queerbait) and that was it. we had crumbs. and like when people write gay characters theyre Just Gay, but if you decide to be crazy stupid in a slash fandom you can decide these layered characters are gay and that's even better rep than um whatever was going on in other pieces of media. these guys are both so lonely and out of step with time and lack other people with "shared life experiences" (girl what the hell was that) and their connection w each other keeps them afloat in a world that doesn't want them so like of COURSE it seems like it's supposed to be romantic. and like, i could and did make myself and my tumblr buds crrrazy (and got made crazy by them) thinking about:

how steve's size when small and again when big interacted w his gender identity and his sexuality and how that sexuality manifested. barnes's identity As A Man hinging on his ability to go to war for his country bc Thats What Men Did but now he's no longer fit because theres worms in his brain. loss of bodily autonomy which usually happens to women and natasha being later in that journey than steve and bucky are and so close to being at peace with it but not there yet. stigmatization of seeking treatment for mental health issues lessened by the presence of sam who could have been a Macho Tough Guy but actually gives off strong Talk About Our Feelings And Be Soft vibes. don't even get me started on the relationship (predatory) between steve and rumlow and how it parallels the one between barnes and pierce (and if any of you motherfuckers BREATHE a word of that h*dra tr*sh p*rty shit in my direction i will END you) and the stigma that comes from being preyed on when vulnerable As Men. steve's depression and ptsd and him getting triggered by, yes, the fucking ALS ice bucket challenge. the collective belief that he was conscious when he was frozen even though nobody said that so that he and barnes could have that in common too. the headcanon about barnes having roma heritage - shoutout to not easily conquered my beloved, and the 14k smut coda i wrote for it✌ speaking of smut, i would be remiss also not to mention there was a STRONG element of collective lust involved. i'm immune to 99% of it bc im ace but the winter soldier was uh. VERY graceful. you know? i didn't write 14k of porn because i was uncompelled. we were on one. we went fucking crazy. fandom in general but especially big fandoms have a kind of nonstop endless well of creative energy born from obsession that is the absolute envy of people like my mortal enemy grrm. we NEVER quit.

also, HISTORY (and other vaguely educational subjects). we were all so desperate to know how steve and bucky would have lived in the years we couldn't see them it sparked a sitewide interest in 1940s american history. there was a thing about bananas tasting different now because of a plague. m&ms being invented as wartime candy. stuff about how shoebox apartments looked and how rations worked. 1940s recipes and radio shows. the 1940s queer movement and how it interacted with ballroom dancing and private drag get-togethers. how amputations work and how prosthetic limbs work in real life so we could extrapolate it to fantasy. how to hand-draw that fucking arm in photoshop. why soldiers are trained to say their serial numbers when captured. what ww2 was like. what dog tags are for. what did they get in the ration packs. what brand of cigarettes did they smoke. what brand (and i am being so serious, i STILL own a tube) of LIPSTICK did peggy carter use. caloric intake of someone with a 4x speed metabolism and how much famine peanut butter he'd need to eat daily to keep from starving to death. oppression of irish immigrants and their children/grandchildren back in the 1940s. the difference between conservatives and fascists, back when there was a difference. what activities generally took place on these mysterious but ever-present new york city docks. just exactly HOW many terrible movies and tv shows has sebastian stan been in ranked by his resemblance to james buchanan barnes in each one. (i personally went through his entire imdb list at the time and then made a venn diagram.) electroswing! teachers and professors would have killed for their classes to have the kind of enthusiasm a bunch of mentally ill teenagers and 20-somethings on tunglr dot edu were showing about this one very specific set of subjects. this film also sparked my love of fight scenes. if you've read this fic or this fic and liked the Big Fight Scenes in them, you can thank cap2 for leading me down that path.

and then yes there was also discourse. my personal most hated thing was the above mentioned h*dra tr*sh p*rty (DO NOT GOOGLE THAT, i will just tell you it's nazi rape porn🤢 and i hope everyone involved is having a bad day today) and also the fact that SOME FUCKING PEOPLE can't understand "don't be shitheads about a fanfic where the author can see you doing it." but then ofc people were also sexist about nat and racist about sam and minimalizing those guys (and every other character besides tony really but sometimes him too) for the two white male leads was a whole thing. and on the funnier side of things you had (justifiably, i suppose) bitter st*ny fans who HATED what those two got in avengers and got real mad when stucky started outpacing them on ao3. and people complaining about the characters being too uwu soft. and then other people arguing whether or not barnes counted as disabled when he was missing a Whole arm. and THEN discourse about was it ethical to remove the arm and build him a new one ESPECIALLY without his consent (if people don't know they're being ableist in their fanfics hypothetically is it still ok to kill them with hammers?) and why was tony doing it if that guy killed his parents and is it ok that we keep making tony not that mad about his dead parents is it not enough that barnes stole his limelight as the guy who gets shipped with steve but what if all three of them fucked but can you really fuck the guy who offed your folks but ACTUALLY isn't it cringe to like tony anyway since RDJ and gwenyth paltrow are bad people and who says chris evans are sebastian stan are such good people etcetcetc. and let us not even get started on the plausibility of the avengers tower fanon after age of ultron came out and it turns out nobody became friends and they all still hated and mistrusted each other. and whether or not the avengers could be considered found family if the other characters were constantly getting shafted into being barnes's little support animals. and then ofc every once in awhile one of the actors of people involved creatively would say something ranging from mildly controversial to absolutely horrible on the internet and we'd all fight about THAT for awhile like a dog with a bone. i mean. typical infighting of any fandom tbh.

but i was very happy. it was all the most enormous thought experiment and creative endeavor (and semi-educational adventure??) that we all participated in daily for like two-ish years without stopping ever. i loved doing it. AND, when you click with a piece of media like that, you also click with other people who clicked with that same piece of media, so in addition to the sheer level of dopamine going into my brain at all times i also formed decade-long friendships that will certainly last the entirety of my lifetime, and when we're in our 90s in nursing homes i will be able to say, "we are friends because i wrote 14k of smut for your fanfic" or "we are friends because i couldn't get enough of your gifsets" or whatever because you know, we quite literally went to stucky together.

#liz answers asks #anonymous #personal

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maxverstepponme · 5 months

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The one thing that has always confused me about Kelly is what did she actually wanna do with her life.

You have her a 13/14 starting to do modelling, although she did only get it cause of her Dad that's how lots of nepo babies start. instead of pursuing that, which would have been a great time to start her modelling career she moved to England for School then back to Brazil to complete her high school studies.

So at this point she'd left modelling behind and decided to go to college in the US. At college she studied International Relations with an emphasis on political science and economics, so a very social science topic. She had intentions of working for the UN but when found out how difficult it was, instead of working towards it (or something similar) decide to pursuit something else.

According to her linkedin after graduating she moved into the fashion industry, first interning as a Couture buying for a fashion office, then as an assistant stylist at Vogue Latin America (which if she stayed at could of moved up through the company) and then to a publicly intern for another fashion company, and finally as a marketing coordinator at SCHUTZ. All of these lasted under a year but were solid and good opportunities. She seemed to be really invested in working in behind the scenes of the fashion industry.

During this time she wasn't do any actually modelling but would still go to events and galas. She also had some type of relationship with Harpers Bazar Brazil, she didn't model for them directly but had column pieces and a photoshoots. It's here in harpers Bazar Brazil we see her try to remodel herself as this 'It' girl, that modelled but was cool.

https://revistamarieclaire.globo.com/Moda/O-mundo-de-Kelly/noticia/2014/07/muito-prazer-meu-nome-e-kelly-piquet.html

https://www.instagram.com/p/WUvABFiafH/

She would be mentioned in a few other articles as what are the 'It girls' doing, but other than that things didn't really go anywhere. So by the looks of her ig she went travelling. she wrote a column for a traveling website blog about her travels.

https://www.instagram.com/p/X7srXNiab7/

She did try to get into modelling doing a piece for Coach Brazil that was featured in Vogue Brazil.

https://www.instagram.com/p/hMZ9S8QLgW/

After that it seemed for left New York to move back to Brazil and work at Marie Claire Brazil, and with the experience she had this seemed like a good job.

https://revistamarieclaire.globo.com/Moda/O-mundo-de-Kelly/noticia/2014/07/muito-prazer-meu-nome-e-kelly-piquet.html

While at Marie Claire she also did some modelling for Harper's Bazar Brazil.

https://harpersbazaar.uol.com.br/moda/torcida-com-estilo-lucas-boccalao-veste-kelly-piquet-para-a-copa/

Towards the end of 2014 is when she starts to do more 'photoshoots' but they're all shot at her dads farm, by her friends for her friends brands. She then leaves Marie Claire in December but seems to write column pieces for other magazines, whether they ask her or she asks them, idk.

https://www.instagram.com/p/weAdXNiadg/

Piquet Jr joins the Formula E series for its debut season of 2014-15, and in the beginning of 2015 we see a lot of Kelly going to the races. In April of 2015 she gets appointed social media and PR consultant for formula E, now actually considering her experience this was a good role for her and how active she was on ig she would have known how to use it efficiently. But do I think she would have either went for the job or gotten the job without her last name, no. But formula E was a new series Kelly had a name and experience so I don't think it was a bad decision for either part. Kelly looked genuinely happy doing the job and got to travel.

To note she also still tried with the modelling thing, but again any 'jobs' she got were her friends brands or her doing her own photoshoot.

https://www.instagram.com/p/2gHCuiiaXN/

https://www.instagram.com/p/42WF4mCaZL/

https://www.instagram.com/p/6qKIXHCaT2/

In December 2016 she left working for formula E. This could be to do with her dating Daniil or other reason, but there's really not much on her 'career' between 2016 and 2018. She seems to just travel and take photos for ig.

She 'models' for PatBo quite a bit and is put into some articles as well about it. But most of it seems like she travels and then 'models' or attends friends event for their brands.

In 2018 she launches a website and claims to be a Health and Wellness coach.

https://kellypiquet.com/en/

In 2019 she announces the pregnancy of P and pretty much her whole personality changes to become a mother, which is fair enough it's a big change and an exciting but scary thing. She throws extravagant parties for gender reveals and baby showers. It's in this year you see her pick up more on 'modelling' and photoshoots. After P is born she stays to posting new mother content and then Covid happens so the only 'modelling' she does is by friends at her dads house.

It's when she moves back to monaco in 2020 we see a huge shift into the modelling and wannabe instabaddie. I have a few theories on this, she was angry at Danil for leaving her so would post these to be like 'hey look how hot I am' or cause she wanted to impress max as this was around the time they were getting together.

At this time most of her shoots are shot by her friend Christy Barley and she seems to only use them for her ig posts.

It seems her first paid job came in 2021, no surprise after she became public with max and went to some GP's with him. She worked noticeably with APM monaco and did some ads for Dior.

https://www.instagram.com/p/CQBdXiCMv3p/?img_index=1

https://www.instagram.com/p/CVVsxTJMrTd/?img_index=1

However, it was also her friend Christy Barley taking the photos, although not a bad thing as the photos are very good quality.

She goes to her first event (held not by a friend and outside of Brazil) for Reply.

https://www.instagram.com/p/CTxJRCBMTp7/?img_index=1

Also, during 2021 her followers were increasing drastically as she was constantly posting max and behind the scenes of him. And starting to push the family, max step dad narrative.

She also continues 'modelling' for her friends brands such as At Jewel, PatBo and The Abi Project. She does a few more brand deals that year.

In 2022 she really tries to push the high-class/super model persona, but in reality no high-end brand is paying her to model or shot for them. All her shoots are done cause she's asked a photographer for a photo shoot. We also she her first appearance at Cannes and the start of her relationship with the guy who sends her LV. In June she signs to a modelling agency (once again Dutch) but obviously her dad being racist and then her as well, put a pause on her 'modelling' career for a bit and she went MIA off ig. Goes to her first fashion week at Milan, goes to about 3 shows (her stylist hates her).

Then in October 2022 we she her first magazine shoot, with Dutch magazine Mirror Mirror (no surprise why it was dutch). The shoot is fine she looks like a cross between the grinch and gollum, once again shot by a friend, in the interview claims to still be a Health and Fitness Coach.

Uses max's races and special moments (his award ceremony, Fia gala) for photoshoots all throughout the year.

Now in December we get the bombshell of a Vogue cover dropping, again its Dutch Vogue (no surprises there). On the surface people question how've her agency done that but a dutch modelling agency probably has god connections with them. Someone leaks the interview to the other blog (wtflife01), people don't beileve it but it turns out to be true.

https://wtflife01.tumblr.com/post/703798840375083008/dont-know-if-you-got-my-ask-but-i-can-confirm

https://wtflife01.tumblr.com/post/703802514798182400/spill-more-pleaseee-it-would-be-odd-if-the

^^ from the 16th December 2022 before it was even properly announced it was her

And then the official interview Kellys admits to grooming max, the same leaked stuff is in the interview.

Soon people realise she paid for the shoot to happen, it took place on her dads farm, F1 inspired (you all by now know the rest.)

I'll keep her career brief for 2023 cause we all know how this year went down.

At the end of December she signed to another agency (PageboyProjects) and the start if them pushing her into a infulcner rather than model (which is what she claims to be), we see the rise of the fake papz walk (due to them), her only going to max's races if it benefited her, in Cannes for a month, fashion shows and events. To point out her stylist, makeup artist and hairdresser hate her, 9/10 she looked bad.

But all in all Kelly is not a model, simply because little to no brands, either high fashion or commercial, pay her to model their clothes on catwalks, in magazines or adverts. She's an influencer (a lazy one )at best who is able to do this as her 'career' cause of the men in F1 in her life (her dad, brother and boyfriend). At the start she had real potential to be influential in the latin American fashion world but decided that isn't what she wanted to do but actually chase a 26 year around the world and be a wannabe model.

Now I apologise for how long this is but for all the deep dives we've done on kelly and her problematic stuff, no one has ever done one on her career (or lack of) I omitted all the personal stuff out of the years as most of us know and can hopefully fill in the gaps, like her getting more modelling jobs after going public with max, etc.

Wow, just wow. Honestly, she should be embarrassed of herself because she had the potential to be one of the good nepo babies more than once but her laziness got the best of her. Opportunities were handed to her like candy on Halloween and she didn’t do shit with them.

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kriffin-ink · 9 months

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I never see anyone talk about Emiko Queen on here, so this is my attempt to fix that.

One of my favorite issues to analyze when it comes to Emiko is Green Arrow (2016) #7, which is an Emiko focused issue. I like it not only for the awesome Emiko moments that we get, but also how it furthers her character and relationships within the story.

Allow me to explain~

So the issue itself flip flops between two points in time, in the past when she sells Ollie out to Clock King under duress, and in the present where she’s working to free her mother from working for the Yakuza.

From this simple description, we can see her growth under Oliver’s guidance. She goes from only caring about her own survival to actively putting herself in dangerous situations in order to help the people she cares about, stated more clearly when Emiko says that the last time she was more concerned about her own life, bad things happened.

The second she betrayed Ollie she felt extremely guilty about it, but she did it to save her own life, and this is kind of where her want to be a hero and her upbringing come at odds. Growing up as an assassin, she was taught that her own survival was her primary goal.

She says she doesn’t know who she is because the ideals was taught growing up and the ideals that she wants to abide by are conflicting. She’s still very new to this whole hero thing at the time of this event (at least, I think she is? Comic timelines are weird) and she’s still struggling to figure out who exactly she is. She’s not Oliver Queen, but she’s not Simon LaCroix either.

After Oliver realizes what she’s done, she has to self reflect on who she is, and more importantly, who she wants to be.

While we don’t actually get to see this reflection, she just sorta shows up and says she has reflected, I think that this is the moment where she really commits herself to being a hero. At this point in the series, she has not been using the Red Arrow moniker, she’s been waiting for the other shoe to drop and standing with one foot out the door.

After all, Simon used and manipulated her, and her and Shado have a kind of tumultuous relationship (I’ll get into this later I promise), why should the arrowfam want her around? Especially especially with all the things she’s done in the past as an assassin against them. She’s fully aware that at any moment they could decide that they don’t want her around, so she’s not going to commit to a name if she’ll just have to end up abandoning it.

But this is the moment where she realizes that she has to put her all into this, being a hero, being a part of a family, isn’t just something that you can half do.

Clock King says in the earlier issue that he can’t read Emiko like he can other people, specifically because of this crossroads that she is at. And she admits her internal conflict to that, but when her brother is in danger, she decides that her family is worth protecting.

And she is fully ready and willing to put her life on the line to ensure their protection. And while her methods are very all-or-nothing, I do think that that is still something left over from her training as a kid.

She’s not exactly Oliver and she’s not exactly Simon, she’s her own person, and now she’s trying to figure out who exactly that is.

Also, sidenote, this is one of my favorite Emiko panels. She’s scared two grown men and she’s just standing there with her hands behind her back like “:)” do you understand why I love her so much?????

Anyways, I didn’t really touch on the other half of the issue with Shado, but this post is already long enough so I’ll make another post about it, one that will more specifically focus on her and Shado’s relationship and why it’s amazing and important and shouldn’t be dumbed down to “evil mom and assassin kid” but anyways

This is my first time making a long post like this so sorry if my thoughts are out of order, idk if I’m doing this correctly

#red arrow #emiko queen #green arrow #oliver queen #arrowfam #green arrow 7 #ramblings

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wejustvibing · 11 months

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I am actually a firm hater of nico in the present but I will say on my end

1- I think their kids photo and friendship when kids was so cute and beautiful 🤒

2- I am actually fascinated by their both behaviors!! like the whole thing is really interesting, Idk much about nico behaviors towards other cause I dont keep up with him BUT I do find it embarrassing his attitude towards lewis like its pathetic, it makes you cringe

but I am also SO fascinated with lewis attitude towards him, cause say whatever you want IS SO DIFFERENT FROM everything he shows to other people

and mind you, he still gifts nico’s kids??? like? is just a very interesting “relationship”

and nico is such a open mouth, he says and talks about so many things but He never goes in depth about what happened 😬

I just find it to be a different behavior, lewis also NEVER speaks on his name, so I was shocked when he brought nico up today (unprovoked) and even called it “best days”

🚨 and yes, saying that “he is a better teammate than he was 2016” I personally believe nico is rotted in the head but maybe lewis was not this perfect little victim back them either

nobody said lewis was perfect, at least i didn't. but him acknowledging that last part or even the good times from the past is proof enough of his growth and the place he's at where he's comfortable looking back without having to be bitter. nico on the other hand constantly being miserable, looking to take jabs, hyper criticizing and big upping lewis only to make himself look good is reason enough for me to not give a fuck or a smidge of sympathy to him.

and to start with idk why everyone keeps bringing that "better teammate" comment back because clearly nico and everyone else actually misunderstood at the time, calling LH savage when he was merely acknowledging his own growth. lewis' life and career aren't defined by nico unlike nico who btw ended up getting drunk and trauma dumping on total strangers just because lewis called valtteri his favorite teammate. like all this is proof enough where nico's at. it's not a reflection on lewis, it's on nico and those of y'all who made it into something that it wasn't.

lewis has always tried to be respectful (apart from actively protecting his peace which he has every right to). i don't understand why he shouldn't be a good person and neighbour to those kids just because their father's a deranged asshole

#anonymous #also enough of nico discourse i don't wanna be the essay writing hater on this hellsite there's too many there

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shishikusas · 2 years

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ok so idk if you already know this but puppy lover on yt recently left their masa channel. truly the end of an era. but in their last video they asked for honest opinions on masa so I’m throwing my two cents to like the only other active masa blog on here hope you don’t mind👉👈 (if you don’t wanna read it just skip) what’s your opinion on mass’s songs lately??

So I really really love the onibi, sister and secret series. And ya I agree with a lot of the comments there— masa’s songs are lacking nowadays. He’s still a great guy, but all his songs sound the exact same (I believe it’s edm??) His old content was more original and actually had better pv’s.

But more than that for me they had better storyline. The onibi series had really deep lore, the sister series had a lot, the secret series had a bit too, and maha was full of it. That being said nowadays all of his songs share the same three themes of dr1nks, dr*gs and s3x. There’s no originality which made onibi such a hit. They’re all parodying off each other.

Also is it just me or is the anatomy on the newer videos a bit…off?? It seems like he’s emphasizing certain parts more than others and it makes the whole thing look a bit disproportionate. Idk if it’s just me, I’m not an expert by any means.

That being said, it’s not like his new content is bad by any means, it’s cool to listen to. And it’s nice. For a couple of times. It’s kinda insipid after that.

tldr masa’s old stuff was better than his new for me, and I miss it a lot. He’s still a good guy and the new music is cool but the onibi, sister and secret series will always have a place in my heart.

i just posted a comment on the video on puppy's channel, so i will copy it here:

i'll be completely honest in my opinion here. masa's stuff has not gotten worse, it has just changed and i still love it and listen to it, and it really disheartens me when people leave bc i feel like im just wandering around in a desert. like where did all the people go :( the community was so bustling in 2016-2019 and it just feels abandoned now.

there are some things i can agree on though. there was a time in 2019-2020 ish where i thought he wasn't living up to his full potential, or he was trying to create new stuff and hadn't gotten it completely down yet. and yes, it's easy to look through the lenses of nostalgia and miss all the lore stuff he used to do - i mean i fucking love the onibi series and all its lore but we probably aren't going to get another blog update for a loooong time.

but the reality is that masa is a different person now than he was in the early 2010s. he started creating music when he was 20 years old, and he's 32 now - that's a huge difference, he's a fully fledged adult now and probably has a lot more things to do and work on than what he used to. that's not even talking about the money aspect! obviously we know next to nothing about his personal life but he either has another job outside of making music or he relies on making these songs to support himself, and neither are conducive to making elaborate PVs or complicated lore (both which i know people revere him for and miss the most). instead he focuses on making the music he wants and PVs that fit his time, which by the way include MUCH higher quality art than in the past. idc what anyone says his anatomy was WAY wonkier back then than it is now.

im rambling, but ig my point is masa's changed, and it's an okay thing. his new EP, INSOMNIA, is really an amazing piece of work and feels kind of like the 'old' masa and i've listened to it many times on repeat, but it's not the same as the masa people became fans of him for. it's okay if you don't like it but i do, and i probably always will. unless he starts making country music or smth ;)

TLDR: i love masa's music even now and understand that his style has become much different than before, and there's many reasons for that.. he holds such a big place in my heart and i will support him thru his endeavors!

#long post #masa works design #vocaloid #ask #IT MAKES ME SO SAD I MISS THE COMMUNITY BUT ALL THE PEOPLE FROM WHEN IT WAS SO LARGE ARE GONE NOW #SOBS #COME BAAAACK

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HEY 🥸 I’m wondering if you wouldn’t mind talking about when you started your Tumblr and how you got into writing fanfic? I’ve been discouraged because I am posting my imagines and it doesn’t get a lot of engagement. It also takes me a long time to write and you seem to be able to write more so good on you, I’m wondering if you wouldn’t mind giving some tips for how to get people to read your work? Obviously your writing is exquisite so maybe tips on how to be a good writer? Or if you could talk about your journey with Tumblr that would be helpful, THANK YOU

hey glad to hear you’re writing and sure i can ramble about my Tumblr experience 🤡🫠 sorry this is long

i first joined Tumblr in like 2011? 2012? and i was a sad little teen posting very shitty poetry and photography. as far as i know that blog still exists (😳) but it hasn’t been updated in like ten years and i don’t have the password to it anymore 😂

the second Tumblr i had was in 2015 or 2016, and it was deep into my disordered eating phase. the “fitblr” trend, if anyone was online and remembers that. posting ridiculous pictures of my “progress” and my “meals”. we don’t need to talk about her. thankfully that brain is dead to us, and that blog has been fully deleted

that brings us to this blog: in i think March? of this year (2022), i, now a fully fledged adult person, made a tumblr page because i was DEEP into a renewed obsession spiral surrounding Hayden Christensen and his return to the Kenobi show. i’ve talked a little about this before, so i’ll keep it short, but basically: i have OCD, which is characterized by obsessions and compulsions. the last time i was obsessed with Hayden Christensen was somewhere around age 11? and having it return and in such a huge way was really weird for me and difficult to deal with. obviously this all coincided with some difficult life stuff i had going on, but the obsession was very uncomfortable—i was searching the internet constantly for any new Hayden content, i was watching old interviews over and over again, and it wasn’t enough to satisfy that compulsive impulse, so i made a Tumblr in order to find and interact with other Hayden fans. and it worked! and posting about Hayden and the OWK press tour became the compulsion that allowed the obsession to express itself comfortably…it’s hard to explain.

part of my compulsive cycle at that point was obviously watching the star wars movies over and over again, and (i don’t think i’ve yet told this part of the story) one night my wifi fully went out and i didn’t have access to the movies/my compulsion. this was anxiety producing for me, so the way i chose to try to cope with it was writing a few thousand words in Anakin’s perspective. those words never made it to the internet, but that’s the moment i realized writing fanfiction made me feel good/calmed me down.

and the rest is history 😂 jk, but idk, i just started maladaptive daydreaming (which i always do) specifically in the star wars universe, and then i started writing those imaginings down. it’s actually difficult, because part of me thinks that doing this whole Tumblr and fanfic thing has kept the obsession active for longer…but, the obsession is not clinical anymore, and i do think fanfic has added more joy/positive things to my life than negative things.

as for being a good writer—as i said, i’m an adult with a college degree and i’ve read a lot. if you are younger and haven’t had as much education, you shouldn’t compare yourself to other writers. i do consider myself a writer and i have been working on other writing projects for years—i was writing other stuff before i got into fanfiction, which i consider a low stakes place for me to play and not worry about the end product. just practice!! imagine stuff in your head and write it down. and make sure to read a lot, because reading gives you a lot in terms of grammar and how to put your ideas into language. how to get people to read your fanfiction? truly i have no idea. give the people romance? haha that seems to work. just keep posting and eventually people will find your stuff!! and feel free to come off anon and i’ll boost your work 😉

that was so long bc i can RAMBLE and i guess i like talking about myself haha! if you read this far, you get a prize

#star wars #anakin skywalker #hayden christensen #ocd #fanfiction #star wars prequels #anakin #anakin x reader #sw fanfic #anakin fanfic #fanfic #writeblr #ao3 writer #sw writing #star wars writing #obi wan kenobi #ocdawareness #answered asks

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fountainpenguin · 2 years

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Hi, another update. Mentioned a while ago that my laptop was no longer functional- I’m still working towards replacing that with something new. Also got a new desktop computer (Replaced a device I’ve had for nearly a decade + transferred lots of files over). Going through lots of changes (Job switch, sibling got married, got a new office, also some other things I don’t want to go into detail about on Tumblr).

No longer have access to my old art program, but I planned ahead for that and bought a new program while it was on sale, so I’ll be experimenting with that in the upcoming weeks. Expect Happy Peppy Gary art. Might be some 130 Prompt spoilers in it but at this point I frankly don’t care, I’ve been actively planning and drafting the 130 since 2016 and I’m anxious to draw for some of the major plot stuff skljdf. My hyperfixation for the last several months has been War & Peace / Great Comet of 1812 and :’) “Pierre & Andrey” is a very good song for a lot of my OCs but also for Gary and the Pixies, I swear...

May also draw some Chloes and Kevins and others. Possibly Dame Sandy, some Longwood, and maybe some Commelina because I read through all the remaining Origin chapter drafts and stuff hit me hard and I cry, idk. I’m wasp dad trash and I’m really excited to share more Origin.

Basically I’m straight-up tired of living in fear of judgment so I hope you’re all ready to remember that this is my house and in this house I post what I want.

Don’t really have the emotional strength to talk to anybody, but I’ve been reviewing my ‘fics. I really want to put the next Reedfilter Rules chapter out- been sitting on that one for a very long time. Writing RR!Anti-Cosmo is extremely difficult but... wow, I often love him more than Riddleverse Classic Anti-Cosmo SKLDFJSKLDJF. In Classic he’s often bound by social status and tradition while RR!Anti-Cosmo straight-up does what he wants and it’s fantastic. I know I’ve been picking at the revisions for his chapter for ages, but he has to be perfect when he goes public because he's very different from Classic!Anti-Cosmo and I want everything to be /chef’s kiss for me.

If you’re new here and/or not up to date with Reedfilter canon, I encourage you to check the Reedfilter Rules tag on my blog and maybe learn some interesting things you didn’t know yet :> RR is an AU of my Classic take on canon, but it remains consistent with show canon and it’s full of dumb cliches and dumb flirting and political idiots and it’s just silly and fun for me.

Should be some Frayed Knots and Origin on the horizon as well, so thank you for your patience. I am extremely anxious to move both stories along and there’s not much left to do before I post, but I’m finicky and want to ensure my buffer is stable before I return to a consistent schedule. Fingers maybe crossed for going back to our one chapter a week schedule, but not promising that yet. We’re entering my favorite part of Origin, but it coincides with the most difficult part of Knots, so it’s a struggle.

Emphasizing again that I basically have not been keeping up with reviews, Tumblr notifs, or FFN / AO3 commentary for a very long time. I thank you for sending them and apologize if you were waiting for a response you didn’t receive. Life is kind of stressful and people always need me for something, so at the end of the day I don’t always want to build up the emotional strength to search my inbox and read comments for my different stories/fandoms that might not always be nice, and even if they are nice then I don’t always have the ability to reply. Sometimes it’s easier to look at nothing and sometimes those avoidance periods need to last a long time. I appreciate any kind words that have been sent my way.

I’ve been extremely busy and still have not watched the FOP live action spin-off thing. I’ve kept my distance from fandom content and successfully avoided spoilers all this time, but I’m planning to watch it very soon now that life is starting to come back under control. I watched the first episode and enjoyed it, but blocking out enough time to binge on free trial isn’t easy and suddenly most of the year goes by... Exhaustion.

Vainly hoped I’d return to Tumblr someday and find that the divider line and/or abilities to create white space dividers with the enter key had returned to the post editor and wow I cannot express enough how disappointed I am that they have done exactly not that.

Sorry for Ask box stuff I haven’t touched in one million years; just didn’t have FOP brainpower for a long time and needed to do other things. There are some heavy topics like war, abuse, politics, discrimination, death, and affairs in my ‘fics and sometimes you need space from that type of content even when you’re the one who put it there.

If anyone knows whether Tumblr still refuses to show posts that contain links, I’d be interested in knowing more about the current situation.

tl;dr - Sorry I can’t engage in long talks; holding conversation via back and forth writing has always been draining on my emotions and frankly everyone should just call me /lh

‘fic updates starting soon? Hoping to get a buffer up, thank you for your patience while the Creature Crossing ARPG has been getting all my love on dA. Anxious to see my fairy kids again, though.

More updates on fanfic schedule to come. Will probably post new FOP chapters on Fridays once it’s mid October. Further details to come.

#The amount of fear in my body when this post went into void for 20 minutes and I had to scramble to confirm it still existed #ridwriting #FAIRIES!#Reedfilter Rules #ridlife #I'm wasp dad trash #The bat with the hat #99% true as far as we remember

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ssincielo · 2 years

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idk if i ever said it on my multi, but like. my favorite part abt suddenly building up lourdes after years of time spent away from her as an active muse to lourdes now having a solid plot line with character arcs in between is me being able to take the 3 years i stopped writing her irl & working it into her development in different ways depending on her interactions with other people.

like right now, my favorite phase to talk about / write her in is in that ‘in between’ period. the way one of the very last threads i actually wrote with her on one of my former indie pages was her telling gianni that she’s leaving. and now, me getting to actually infuse how she felt + how she acted in that time period into her current threads, because she was so lonely in 2016. now having her not be as lonely as she was then is like???

anyway! this is me rambling. and also me subtly nudging for more character dynamics where our interactions have an effect on her later on in time, tee hee.

#CAN’T BE MAD AT ME. — 𝖔𝖔𝖈

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azurish · 2 years

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tl;dr: fucking vote - not just nationally, but in your state elections.

I know everyone is. But I’m just. So fucking. Angry.

We all knew this was coming. When I was visiting Berkeley Law last month, Dean Chemerinsky told admits point-blank that Roe was going to be overturned this summer, in his Admit Visit Weekend speech about upcoming SCOTUS cases. But I guess I didn’t anticipate how hard the decision would hit - or, more pragmatically, how terrifyingly and infuriatingly the decision would threaten a century’s worth of rights (and I know it’s a draft - I’m no lawyer (yet, hah), but can we expect some of the draft language to be moderated because Alito may well get toned down by his more “moderate” right-wing colleagues? Idk, maybe. But surely not enough).

Mostly, I want to know what to do next. I remember in 2016, the professor in my seminar the day after Trump was elected asked us to go around and share one word on how we felt, to ground us. Like almost everyone there, I was just shaken and dazed and heartbroken and terrified. But this one student, who was very engaged in Dem politics (DC job lined up, quite a big deal in Young Dems at the national level, that sort of thing), said, “Ready.” And today, instead of just angry and scared and shaken, after four years in policy advocacy, I kind of feel - ready.

Not sure yet where that energy’s going to take me. I have work that I actually, you know, need to do (and, like everyone, am struggling to focus on, because the world is falling to fucking pieces around us). But once I finish my current job, I’ll have a month or two free before law school. And - I have some ideas about what I want to learn and do in that time.

I have no idea what the organizing at the national level for the Women's Health Protection Act looks like. Or whether that’s doable. And maybe it is! But as someone who was involved in passing her state’s Roe Act - my immediate reaction is to look at a state-by-state comparison of bills and then get shit together. Because if SCOTUS is going to release abortion rights to the legislative branch, and if (and I don’t know whether this is true! but if it is) Congress isn’t going to be able to overcome partisan gridlock, then state legislatures everywhere are going to be in charge of it. And it’s going to be more important than ever to fucking pay attention to local politics.

As someone who’s spent most of her time over the last few years trying to get bills passed at the state level, trying to get people to pay attention to something other than Washington - I just feel like I want to stand in the middle of a street with a megaphone and yell, “FUCKING CARE ABOUT YOUR STATE LEGISLATURE.”

Yelling in the street may not be productive, but I do, in fact, have some ideas that are, so - let’s see.

Anyways, if you’ve reached this far, do you know who your state legislator(s) are? Does your state have a Roe Act or any abortion-related bill currently under consideration? (Guttmacher lists NJ, NY, and RI as having currently active bills (scroll down to “Protecting Access”), but it looks like the database may not have been updated in a hot second.) Where does your state legislator stand on that bill? Not “what have they said about abortion” - although that’s helpful, too - but are they a lead sponsor, co-sponsor, opponent? Call their office. There are few things more powerful than a constituent call, especially at the state level. You have more power than you think.

(Someone should maybe do something about state abortion bill transparency. I think. And I’m not saying “guess who has two thumbs, designs websites part-time professionally, has worked in state legislative advocacy for the past few years, and is about to have a few months free?”, but - I’d like to. We’ll see?)

#real life #yeah it's about roe #journaling on tumblr like it's 2012 again #~someone should do something about state abortion bill transparency~#(--she says while rubbing her gay little activist web developer hands together)#this is messy and disorganized but i mostly need to scream and also plan

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MARCH/FEBRUARY DUG UP FROM THE GRAVE

The jist of these types of posts is I'll be sending older bands I've discovered recently. Enjoy!

1. Stampin' Ground

Stampin' Ground were a UK band. Not that you'd tell, this sounds like Slayer on amphetamines and NYHC combined. I don't remember exactly how I found them, but I know it was this song and I know I was going monkey over it. It's so absurdly fast and the breakdown hits perfectly. Thrash wasn't dead in the 90's apparently, metalheads just don't know where to look. Their first three albums (one in 1998, one in 2000, and one in 2003 which I'll talk about in a bit) are very straightforward crossover thrash + earth crisis kind of moshy hardcore parts (all tuned to an e flat because of course it is) and their last album gets a bit bouncier and more hxc-leaning. At the time the new wave of american metal was getting its kickstart and I imagine the band was having some internal problems, so they split up after that and haven't done anything since. Now, the 2003 is interesting, since it's a split with the fucking NORTHSIDE KINGS of all bands. Y'know, the band whose singer is famous for punching Glenn Danzig? And the band with song titles such as "Giving emo kids something to really cry about" and "Fuck The Middle East"? Admittedly not a good look for them, but they're brits so I don't even know if they had any idea of what they were getting themselves into with this. Alas, they made some good music and dipped. Next.

2. Concealment

I found these guys through Starkweather's Spotify page. They had a split together and it interested me enough to see who these guys are. And GODDAYUMMMMM THIS SHIT IS GOOD!!!!!! Techdeathy mathcore that hits extremely hard and doesn't spare a single chug or dissonant chord. Their material's just been uploaded to Spotify 3 years ago, their first release was in 2007 and their second album dropped in 2010. The band is still active apparently, as their neat lil facebook page would suggest. Wonder if they'll ever put out anything else. Also, apparently they were (or still are, idk) signed to Total Dissonance Worship, which when I found that out it instantly clicked. If you aren't familiar, that label has put out stuff like Ion Dissonance and Plebeian Grandstand (Thinking of making a video on my YT about them, maybe for Trustkill as well). I think you could make a solid case for this being early deathcore considering that.

3. Left To Vanish

FUCK DOES THIS GO. Left To Vanish are a Philadelphia metalcore/deathcore band that started alllll the way back in 2001 IN HIGHSCHOOL, and as far as I can find their earliest release was in 2005, back during the days of logos-in-impact-font-core. Very ahead of their time, kind of in the same vain as A Life Once Lost in that regard. They then were making music until 2009, but broke up only to reunite in 2016, which makes them the only band still putting out stuff actively. Their latest EP is extremely good(they have a song with jesse leach on it!!!), they've sort of moved on from this firstwavey sound into something more contemporary and it's pretty amazing how well they've managed to adjust, considering a lot of the old school deathcore bands couldn't. Go show the guys some love and listen to their stuff, they absolutely deserve it. If you like Animosity and early Suicide Silence their 2007/2008 era stuff perfectly fits in that style of deathcore.

Thanks for reading!!! That'll probably do it for the zine posts this month, unless something else really interesting comes out while march still isn't over. I might still do another new releases post for other smaller bands (and for the 2 people reading this). Besides that, I'm still working on music and I'm trying to find time to record videos for the YT channel. Stay tuned :3

#Spotify #music #metal music #heavy metal #metalcore #metalhead #deathcore #death metal #punk #rock #hard rock #music review #music release #music recap #good music

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flirting-with-psychology · 1 year

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Stayed single almost the whole year? 2015: You fucking know it

2016: Same

2017: Almost

2018: Almost, no official relationships or anything

2019: I was taken for most of the year!

2020: Nope! I had a boyfriend the whole year :)

2021: No, had a boyfriend the whole year!

2022: No, I had a boyfriend all year!

Were involved In something you’ll never forget? 2015: Yeah

2016: Yeah, band

2017: My film class

2018: Yeah, Macy’s and the film stuff I did and my house

2019: The B Flat

2020: My relationship, other than that this year was uneventful

2021: Some of the films

2022: Good Night Oppy

Tripped over a coffee table? 2015: Most likely

2016: I can’t recall but probably

2017: There’s like a 98% chance I did

2018: Definitely

2019: Yup, and all the tables at work

2020: Hit my toe on a table leg and it hurt for weeks

2021: Probably

2022: I did not have a coffee table otherwise I would have

Dyed your hair? 2015: No

2016: No

2017: No

2018: No but planning on it

2019: Kinda but it didn’t really take

2020: No

2021: No

2022: Yes! My friend helped me dye it a red ombre

Came close to losing your life? 2015: No

2016: A car cut me off at a crosswalk so maybe

2017: Probably not

2018: No

2019: No

2020: Not unless I was exposed to covid

2021: Probably not

2022: Not that I know of

Saw one of your favorite bands/artists live? 2015: No

2016: No

2017: No

2018: No

2019: I saw some musicals live

2020: No

2021: No

2022: Idk if I’d say they were my favorites, but I saw AJR and Panic! At the Disco

2015/16/17/18/19/20/21/22: FRIENDS & ENEMIES…

Did you meet any new friends this year? 2015: Yeah I did, and I got closer to old friends

2016: Yeah

2017: Yeah

2018: Yeah

2019: A couple

2020: I met some friends online in an Among Us group

2021: A couple, and I met the among us group in person

2022: Dunno if I met any this year but I definitely became better friends with my DnD groups and some people at work

Did you hate anyone? 2015: Not really hate, but dislike

2016: Same

2017: Yeah kinda

2018: I really didn’t like a coworker (but now we are friends) and a friend’s girlfriend (who I still don’t like)

2019: Not actively

2020: I hate Trump and Mitch McConnell

2021: Idk

2022: Not personally

Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships? 2015: I wish I could have found roommates

2016: I wish I had gotten closer to people on my study abroad. But my roommate was nice and I still talk to her every so often, so that’s cool. A note on last year, I’m glad I didn’t end up living with the friends I was thinking about living with because their apartment got condemned and they had to move to a suburb and commute to school, then one got a girlfriend and moved out and the other one is with her boyfriend a lot so I would have been stuck all by myself out in the middle of nowhere

2017: I kind of regret not getting closer to my roommates

2018: I regret that I don’t value some of them as much as I should

2019: Not spending more time with them once I got a boyfriend. I swore I wouldn’t be that person who ditches their friends once they get into a relationship

2020: I wish it hadn’t gone to shit in my house because of covid

2021: Maybe not hanging out and keeping in touch enough

2022: Maybe not taking full advantage of friendships because I’m awkward

Did you miss any friends? 2015: A little

2016: A little

2017: A little

2018: A little

2019: Yes but it turned out she was just out of the country

2020: I miss all my friends

2021: Yes

2022: A little

2015/16/17/18/19/20/21/22: YOUR BIRTHDAY…

Did you have a cake? 2015: It had a piece of cake

2016: No, I had IHOP

2017: No, I had pancakes

2018: No, I had chocolate mousse

2019: Yes

2020: Bundt cake

2021: No, I had chocolate fondue

2022: No, I had chocolate fondue

Did you have a party? 2015: No, I went to Vegas

2016: No, I went to brunch with my parents then played in my last home football game as part of the band

2017: Kinda, we did an escape room and then went to dinner

2018: No, just a couple of friends out to dinner

2019: We went to an escape room a couple weeks later because my actual birthday got snowed out

2020: No because of covid

2021: No, I was visiting my boyfriend’s family for thanksgiving

2022: No, I went to see a musical with my mom and then dinner with my boyfriend

Did you get any presents? 2015: Yeah

2016: Yeah, and a win

2017: Yeah

2018: Yeah a few

2019: Yeah

2020: Yeah

2021: Yeah

2022: Yeah

2015/16/17/18/19/20/21/22: ALL ABOUT YOU…

Did you change at all this year? 2015: I believe so

2016: I’m sure I did

2017: I’m sure I will always change

2018: Yes but not as much as I had hoped or in the ways I wanted

2019: Probably a little

2020: I got worse

2021: Yeah I think so

2022: Yeah, worried less about covid and put myself out there more

Were you in school? 2015: Yes

2016: Yes

2017: For part of the year but then I gruaduated

2018: No

2019: No

2020: No

2021: No

2022: No

Did you own a car? 2015: No

2016: No

2017: No

2018: No

2019: No

2020: I bought a car in September!

2021: Yes :)

2022: Yes!

Did anyone close to you give birth? 2015: No

2016: Not really close, but my mom’s ex-boyfriend’s daughter did

2017: No

2018: No but I’m starting to be friends with people who have kids

2019: No

2020: No

2021: No

2022: No

Did you go on any vacations? 2015: Yeah, I went on 2 road trips and I think a couple others

2016: I studied abroad in Italy and went on 2 away trips with the band, and about to go on a third

2017: I went to London, New Orleans, and Wyoming for the eclipse

2018: I went to Las Vegas for a film shoot

2019: I went to Israel and a few smaller trips

2020: I went to Harry Potter World with my boyfriend

2021: A small one

2022: I made up for lost time and went to visit my boyfriend’s family in Chicago, friends in St. Louis, my cousin’s wedding in California, my aunts in New York

2015/16/17/18/19/20/21/22: WRAP UP…

Was 2015/16/17/18/19/20/21/22 a good year? 2015: It was better than 2014

2016: Not as good as I hoped, but some things were good. The football team had a really good year

2017: It was pretty good. The football team did not have as good a year

2018: Overall I think so

2019: It was alright

2020: No

2021: Not really but it was a little better than last year

2022: It was pretty good

Do you think 2016/17/18/19/20/21/22/23 will top 2015/16/17/18/19/20/21/22? 2015: I hope so

2016: I hope so

2017: I’m not sure, but I hope so

2018: I hope so, I kind of have a good feeling about it

2019: I hope so

2020: God I fucking hope so

2021: If it doesn’t I don’t know what I’d do

2022: I hope so, hopefully there won’t be some new bullshit

IN THE YEAR 2015/16/17/18/19/20/21/22 I CONFESS THAT I…

Kissed in the snow? 2015: No

2016: Still no

2017: No, but there’s still time

2018: No

2019: Yep!

2020: I can’t remember

2021: Maybe?

2022: Don’t think so

Done something you’ve regretted? 2015: Slightly

2016: Some things, but nothing big

2017: Probably

2018: Yes

2019: Probably

2020: Nothing major

2021: Nothing major

2022: Probably a bit

Painted a picture? 2015: Yes, with watercolors with some girls in my hall

2016: I can’t recall

2017: No

2018: No

2019: Yes, with wax

2020: Don’t think so

2021: No, but I have painted some minis

2022: No

Wrote a poem? 2015: Yes

2016: Yes. Only one or two though, not nearly as much as I used to

2017: I don’t think so actually

2018: I don’t think so

2019: No

2020: Don’t think so

2021: No

2022: No

Ran a mile? 2015: Nope

2016: I probably did cumulatively, in all of 2016, run a total of at least a mile. But not on its own, no

2017: Maybe on the elliptical

2018: On the elliptical

2019: On the elliptical probably

2020: No

2021: I think I actually did one time on the elliptical

2022: On the ellliptical

Visited a foreign country? 2015: No

2016: Yes, Italy

2017: Yes, England and France

2018: No

2019: Yes, Israel

2020: No

2021: No

2022: No

Cut in a line of waiting people? 2015: Probably by accident

2016: Probably

2017: Probably

2018: Probably

2019: Maybe

2020: Don’t think so

2021: Dunno

2022: I probably cut a bunch of people in the Taylor Swift ticketmaster queue

IN 2015/16/17/18/19/20/21/22 I…

Broke a promise? 2015: Probably

2016: Probably

2017: Probably

2018: Probably

2019: Probably

2020: I’m sure I did

2021: Probably

2022: Probably

Lied? 2015: Probably

2016: Probably

2017: Yes

2018: Yes, but just little white lies

2019: Yes

2020: Maybe just little white lies

2021: Yes

2022: Probably

Disappointed someone close? 2015: Probably, I know I disappointed my parents a couple times

2016: Probably

2017: I know I disappointed my parents a couple times

2018: Probably

2019: Probably my boyfriend a few times

2020: I’m sure I did

2021: I know I disappointed my dad

2022: Probably disappointed my boyfriend

Had a secret? 2015: Not really

2016: A couple

2017: Not really

2018: Maybe kinda

2019: Not anything big reallyy

2020: Not really

2021: A little

2022: Yeah a bit

Pretended to be happy? 2015: Yes

2016: Sometimes

2017: Sometimes

2018: Yes, when I needed to

2019: Sometimes

2020: Occasionally, but didn’t really try

2021: Sometimes

2022: Sometimes

Slept under the stars? 2015: In a tent

2016: Don’t think so

2017: In a tent

2018: No

2019: In a tent community

2020: No

2021: No and I have no idea what I was talking about in 2019

2022: No

Kept your new year’s resolution? 2015: Some of them

2016: Probably a few of them

2017: Probably some

2018: I don’t even remember what they were

2019: Some of them

2020: A few of them

2021: Some of them

2022: Some of them probably

Forgot your new year’s resolution? 2015: I wrote them down

2016: Yes

2017: Yep

2018: Did I even make one?

2019: I wrote them down

2020: I wrote them down

2021: Yeah

2022: I wrote them down but never looked at them again

Met someone who changed your life? 2015: Yes

2016: Probably

2017: Yes

2018: I’m sure I did

2019: Didn’t meet him this year but he has

2020: Not that I know of

2021: No one who has changed it yet

2022: Maybe

Changed your outlook on life? 2015: I believe so

2016: Maybe for the worse. Hopefully I’ll get over that

2017: Maybe

2018: Idk

2019: Not really

2020: I think I got disenfranchised with capitalism and feared death more

2021: Starting to change my balance of risk vs reward

2022: Got a lot more relaxed about covid

Sat home all day doing nothing? 2015: Yup

2016: Yup

2017: I’m sure I did

2018: Probably but not enough

2019: Yup

2020: Like most days

2021: Yeah

2022: Yup

Learned something new about yourself? 2015: Yes

2016: Probably

2017: Maybe

2018: Maybe

2019: I learned what I’m like in a relationship

2020: Probably

2021: Idk

2022: Sorta

Met great people? 2015: Yeah!

2016: Yep!

2017: Yep!

2018: Yep!

2019: I think so, I honestly can’t remember who I met when

2020: Didn’t meet a ton of people

2021: A couple

2022: Got closer with some people

Kissed someone that means a lot to you? 2015: Yes, unfortunately I don’t mean a lot to him anymore. Not even sure if I did then

2016: No. I mean, I kissed one of my friends drunkenly, an she means a lot to me as a friend, but no one romantically

2017: I’m not sure yet how much he means to me. But we are dating

2018: Yes, but so far I’m not sure whether he means a lot to me as a friend or as a romantic interest

2019: Yes!

2020: Yes :)

2021: Yes

2022: Yes

Stayed up till sunrise? 2015: Yes

2016: Yes

2017: Yes, on my film project. I couldn’t even see the sunrise, I just walked outside and it was daytime

2018: Yes on a film shoot

2019: Probably

2020: Yes

2021: Yes, and always felt like I failed when I did

2022: I actually don’t know if I did

Cried over the silliest thing? 2015: I’m sure I did when I was PMSing

2016: Yes

2017: Yes

2018: Yes

2019: Too often

2020: Yes

2021: Yes

2022: Yes

Had friends who were drifting away from you? 2015: Yes

2016: Yes

2017: Yes

2018: Yeah Kylie kind of did

2019: Kylie and Shaina

2020: Yes, especially my roommates

2021: Yeah unfortunately

2022: Yeah a little

Had a high cell phone bill? 2015: Not too bad

2016: It increased a bit, but my parents pay most of it

2017: It decreased because the phone itself got paid off

2018: Lol I still have to pay that

2019: I think it’s the same

2020: No, I don’t remember if I even paid my dad

2021: Not really but I got a new phone

2022: Yeah, I always have to pay for an extra gb each month

Spent most of your money on food? 2015: Quite a bit

2016: That and clothes I don’t need

2017: No, rent

2018: No, rent and shit from Macy’s

2019: Not most of it

2020: Mostly rent

2021: No, mostly dnd stuff

2022: No, mostly DnD stuff and crafts

Had a fist fight? 2015: No

2016: No

2017: No

2018: No

2019: No

2020: No

2021: No

2022: No

Gotten sick? 2015: Yeah for like half this entire semester. Also got shingles over the summer

2016: Still dealing with my immune system’s decision to just fucking walk out

2017: yes, but not so much now that I’m not in school

2018: Yes, I had a cough that lasted 2 months

2019: I had the stomach flu

2020: I think I had a cold once, it was kind of nice not getting sick every month this year

2021: No, it’s the longest time I’ve ever gone without getting sick

2022: I finally got a cold again after like 3 years and then got another one a week later

Liked more than 5 people at the same time? 2015: Not seriously. I had brief little interests that overlapped but I don’t think more than 3 at a time that I really liked

2016: Yeah I think so

2017: Not sure

2018: Probably

2019: Not really other than fleeting attractions

2020: No

2021: I don’t think 5

2022: Not 5

Became closer with a lot of people? 2015: A few

2016: Not really

2017: A couple

2018: A few

2019: With a couple people

2020: With my boyfriend

2021: No

2022: A few

Song that reminds you of summer 2015/16/17/18/19/20/21/22? 2015: Can’t Help Falling In Love

2016: Bring Him Home

2017: In A Crowd of Thousands

2018: Moving Out

2019: Some jewish song?

2020: Epiphany

2021: Dangerous to Dream

2022: Anything by AJR because I saw them in concert

Lost any friends this year? 2015: Yes. One because she was a bitch

2016: A friend died in April, and I found out about it in June. I don’t know how he died, we had not been close in awhile

2017: Temporarily

2018: My last roommates

2019: Not really

2020: Probably my roommates

2021: Not really I don’t think

2022: Not really

When people say, “Honestly, I don’t think I’ve ever talked shit about anyone” do you think it’s possible? 2015: Possibly but probably not likely. For awhile I used to think I wasn’t judgmental before I realized I actually am

2016: Unlikely. I’m petty af now

2017: Probably not

2018: Probably not, they probably do even if they don’t mean to

2019: Probably not

2020: Probably not

2021: Probably not unless they have some toxic positivity issues

2022: Doubtful

How do you feel about gay marriage? 2015: So glad it’s legal!

2016: Same

2017: Same

2018: It’s great!

2019: Great!

2020: Great!

2021: Love it

2022: Lov it

Give me a random lyric from the song you’re listening to: 2015: I can’t really make out lyrics

2016: I’m not listening to anything

2017: I’m not listening to anything

2018: I’m not listening to anything

2019: Not listening to anything

2020: If the shoe fits, walk in it Til your high heels break

2021: Not listening to anything

2022: I’m not listening to anything

Do you think you’re approachable? 2015: Not as much as I would like to be

2016: Haven’t solved this problem yet

2017: Not as much as I would like to be

2018: Not as much as I would like to be

2019: Only by customers

2020: Not lately, I would like it if people did not approach me

2021: Not really

2022: Not really

Do you make sexual innuendos about everything? 2015: Kinda

2016: Not as much as I used to

2017: Only on occasion

2018: Sometimes

2019: Not as much as I used to

2020: Not as much as I used to

2021: Sometimes if I have the right crowd

2022: Yeah I’ve been doing it more again now that I’m comfortable with my friend groups

Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? 2015: Not unless it’s like my parents or something

2016: No

2017: Not really

2018: Not really

2019: No

2020: No

2021: Not really

2022: No

Who is the last person you texted? 2015: My friend Kylie

2016: My mom

2017: Guacamole

2018: My friend Sara

2019: The art director from the shoot last year

2020: My boyfriend

2021: My mom

2022: Liked a message from my mom

Song playing right now? 2015: Because We can

2016: Nothing

2017: Nothing

2018: Nothing, but She Used to be Mine is paused on Spotify

2019: Nothing

2020: Epiphany (but the song that was playing when I answered the lyrics question was Long Story Short)

2021: Nothing

2022: Nothing

#new years #survey

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weywyrdsis · 2 years

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Hello friend,

I don't know if you're active anymore, but I recently read your 2016 Liberty's Kids fanfiction on Ao3 on a dare from some friends to read the only non explicit m/m libertys kids fic. While it was begun as a joke, we find ourselves quite invested, and I was wondering if you would consider updating, or at least telling us what was going to happen next. Thank you very much.

A fan.

I gotta admit, I woke up to this and ran through several emotions from confusion that someone was reading that fic, mild terror that someone found my old writing, and joy that someone enjoyed my writing so much. You are right, I'm not super active on tumblr, though it's mostly bc I am...something of a lurker. About everything. The fact that you were able to track me down here I gotta say I'm actually impressed considering my digital footprint is p small and that's mostly accidental. The last time I posted on that AO3 account was I think a few years ago and I'd mostly abandoned it to the fates too, this tumblr just happens to be a attached to my main. Now I've got a whole different AO3 with different fandoms (not even the ones here I primarily write DA, SWTOR and admittedly very gay CON fics...). I still have access to that one bc I refuse to get rid of literally any accounts.

That being said: I cannot explain how much I absolutely giggled at the fact that in being dared to read the only non-explicit m/m fic for Liberty's Kids you were forced to read was the one with Extremely Graphic Depictions of Violence, Blood and Bodily injury. And, in all honesty, it probably would have gotten explicit at some point, likely not graphically so, since I was writing All In Red and Blue in highschool but depending on when I finished it and where it went. The one thing I actually don't know if I have access to is the google drive with the draft for it or outline. I'm sure you saw in the tags a whole ass OC that was to be a big part of that story who just never shows up bc I'm...terrible at updating and the only person who really wanted updates at the time was my now fiance who we just brainstormed the plot for together and then I never finished it. There's a large part of me that has always wanted to go back and rework that fic and come up with an actual plot for it, but idk if you and your friends would want to wait for me to attempt that lol.

But to truly answer your question, the short answer is: it didn't really have a plan or plot. The long answer is: I intended it to be extremely whumpy, before I knew what whump was. I had a vague outline of where I wanted it to go, with Bryan ending up being unable to return to England, stuck in a war that he can't fight in, and looking for somewhere to make a home. Eventually that was where William would come in (the oc per the tags) and there was going to be plenty of physical and emotional pain and healing including Bryan trying to let go of the events with Tom that he never had any control over or choice in, to be happy. With a large dollop of survivors guilt and finding the balance of grief and letting himself...well live. In all honestly, I'm not sure I could've written it all to be as good as I wanted back then, considering the difficult subject matter, but I wouldn't mind giving it a shot now.

I think, were I to take a stab at it now, I'd probably go with something a little less straight-forwardly hurt/comfort. The same overall aesthetic and ideas would apply, but I would probably change it to have an actual plot after the first chapter and half a second chapter that's sitting in my drafts. The easy answer would be to have him join up with the main cast and carry out the plot of the show, of course, but tbh I'd have to go watch the show again and I'm not super interested in trying to match styles with a children's show to that degree? Although a gritty rewrite of Liberty's Kids would be pretty great... Regardless, I think unlike my original plan, I'd force Bryan to get involved in the conflict again for some extra oomph. I'm not even sure I'd go for a second romance now, although I would make it considerably more slow-burn and chaste than what I was planning like 6 years ago.

I'm sure you weren't expecting such a long response to this question, but no ones asked about that fic in years and your ask gave me a lot of nostalgia and feelings. I would definitely consider reworking it and making an actual plot for it, if ya'll are really that invested. I'm also very curious if you or your friends had any thoughts as to where you wanted it to go, if you'd be willing to tell me lol. Idk, thank you for tracking me down, this was a really nice little smack in the face of nostalgia

#old writing #Im literally so fucking pleased by this ask I cant explain it #like its so funny and heartwarming that you found that fic of all fics and then tracked me down!#my fiance is going to laugh so hard #they helped me write a lot of that fic when I was still a nervous writer #we had Libertys Kids (and other fun americana) watch nights over rabbit #yes rabbit #at that was how we met/started dating bc I was the clueless Canadian and they were an actually knowledgeable about history American #that fic holds a very special place in my heart

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Let’s talk: Vlive Asks and comment/chat discussions

From @cottoncandykings: Hello! As u probably know jimin just went live recently and again he mentioned mandaggo and discussing about doing it with tae. I just find it so weird though. I mean jimin keeps constantly mentioning it and its not like vminnies were begging or dying for a vmin live everyday even before jimin mentioned it last year. Even now most including myself dont really care that much ofc i m happy if they do one together. But the way jimin keeps mentioning it is so weird. Like surely if he wanted to do it so badly he could have talked to tae privately and arranged it by now. And if tae is the one that doesnt want to do it then idk why jimin is pushing it. But what was really weird to me this time was that he said there were lots of comments about mandaggo yesterday in zoom call and yet they didnt mention it yesterday but suddenly today without prompting he talks about it. I also hope no one spammed the zoom call chat or the vlive chat with requests for vmin live (i didnt see any) bcoz thats just unnecessary and demanding. I hope vminnies wont demand/ ask for another memeber when one of them is live. Its just disrespectful. This turned into a rant sorry. Do you think it was weird too?

Since Admin 2 can’t type their thoughts themselves, I’ll relay their thoughts to you instead, since they had more thoughts/opinions/ideas in regard to this than I do, to be honest.

Admin 2 is sure that there is a good chance that we will get a vmin vlive sometime soon, which I know contradicts their original opinion and post from a few months ago, but there’s a reason for it. During the zoom meeting between BTS and ARMY they noticed something I don’t think anyone else noticed, or at least neither of us has seen any vminnies mention it anywhere, which in conjunction with Jimin’s vlive today and saying how he’d talk to Tae about doing a mandaggo vlive again, as well as another observation a little while ago, leads them to this conclusion.

So, the observation from the zoom meeting. Basically at one point when the question of Jimin doing a vlive arose Tae looks at Jimin and then he nods while smiling which in turn makes Jimin smile as he turns away from Tae and back to face toward the camera before answering the question and saying how he’ll come visit us the next day. Which he did.

Then the other observation from a while ago, this one being from their OT7 vlive celebrating their BBH100 #1 on June 29th where at one point Jimin says something but slips into satoori after which Tae encourages him to say that again but this time in the Seoul accent, so the way they actually should speak, which Jimin says isn’t difficult but he doesn’t actually end up repeating what he said.

And lastly in today’s vlive Jimin mentioned how he’s using satoori quite often but that he isn’t all that good at doing it on command or at teaching it to others, which is something he’d have to do for mandaggo but I’m sure he’d manage just fine if the time came for it.

Based on that Admin 2′s thoughts are basically that Jimin really meant it when he said, last year, that he’ll bring Tae around for a vlive, that it wasn’t a joke or a way to tease us with something he knew he wouldn’t be able to deliver, but rather that up until this point they weren’t quite sure how to do it. Which sounds a bit odd, I know, but what they mean is that if vmin were to just sit down in front of the camera and were supposed to just talk based on what the chat would give them, it would likely just turn out awkward and weird and no one, including them, would really have fun. Even more so when we take into account how idiotic the chat is during regular vlives so now imagine if those two were to do one together that’s just a casual chat. It would likely end up in disaster and honestly I wouldn’t wish it upon them to read all those awful comments that they would likely get, even worse ones than they already get normally, to be honest.

But now that the whole satoori thing was brought up, and Jimin actually mentioned mandaggo and wanting to bring it back after so many years, Admin 2 thinks that they must’ve finally figured out a solution to their problem, if you can call it that. Doing mandaggo would basically mean they would have an activity, something to do similar to how they did those ASMR videos for the Japanese Fan Club which were fun and cute, and so Admin 2 thinks that perhaps chances are we will finally get the vlive we’ve waited for so long (though like many others I’ve long given up the idea).

Another confirmation is that during his vlive today Jimin basically said that he only came by for a little while since they are quite busy and had to soon get ready for work with the other members but that he’ll return in two or three weeks for a more proper, longer, vlive. So, he could’ve treated today’s vlive as the promised one but instead he saw it more as a bridging one between the zoom meeting and the proper vlive he wants to do, so is it the farfetched to think that he had proper plans for a vlive, like doing mandaggo, but it just wouldn’t have worked out time wise today so he moved the actual vlive he wanted to make to a later date?

One last thing (well two actually) that has nothing to do with this question but Admin 2 wanted me to include it anyway is that one, have you noticed how Tae and Jimin were both on weverse around 3 am (until almost 4am (also both of them posting a comment to some post at 03:41 am KST)) one after the other (though with one day of a break in between them) recently and then also two, that Jimin was up until like 6 am (since he posted on weverse around that time) on the 8th and then during the zoom meeting Tae answered a question by saying that he’d been awake until 6 am the previous day (also the 8th) since he wanted to see the sunrise? Which is also something an anon mentioned to us. Curious, isn’t it?

From anon: I request both admins to please post this ask. So jimin wwnt live today and one of the accounts on twt posted a screen cap of them commenting 'touch your hair if vmin is real' in the live chat and jimin's reaction to it. Now idk if it is an edit or real. No matter i just want to say its not ok to bring up ships in front of the members no matter which ship it is. We dont know the reality of their relationship so lets not make them uncomfortable. Its not a joke. Its not funny. Be respectful the members are real people.

(Admin 1 taking over from this point onward) This ask nicely ties into the last one that’ll be further down in this post since they cover a similar issue of sorts. But let’s start with this one asking about, essentially, vlive comments and the things fans ask/comment, which also ties in with the above ask as well.

The thing with the vlive chat, and especially comments/questions that are like anon said, questions or “commands/requests” about touch your hair if XYZ ship is real or cough twice if you love XYZ member or, likewise, comments such as where is XYZ member or what are the other members doing, unfortunately those have been a steady and unchanging part of the vlive chat since basically forever. It’s been an issue on and off with different intensities though I feel like it’s gotten worse again this year. Particularly if we look back at the vlive Tae did with Hobi and Yoongi and how essentially the entire chat was filled with comments related to Xkook and not much else.

If my memory doesn’t fail me we once even had a situation some years ago (2016) where the chat during Hobi’s vlive was so bad, as in so full of questions about that other members instead of him, that you could see he was upset about it and eventually he handed over the vlive to Jimin, whom the chat had requested Hobi to visit, and Hobi just left. And I can’t blame him for it since the chat must’ve made him feel like basically no one cared about him so what was even the point of him being there, right?

Personally I’ve long given up looking at the comments during vlive because they just make me cringe and feel bad for the members, especially when I think back to vlives such as Yoongi’s D2 one last year where he was so excited to talk about the songs and the process of making the mixtape and yet so many of the comments were just unrelated nonsense and annoying request like speak english or can you say my name or say hello in XYZ language. If it makes me question why the people posting those questions are in the chat, why they are fans to begin with, imagine what the members must feel like, how discouraging that must feel like. After all they are musicians and yet so rarely do they get questions about that. Or rather they do get them but they are just drowned out by nonsense. Which is a shame. And also very disrespectful but any attempts that were made to remind people to be respectful, to remember their place as fans, to focus on the member that’s doing the vlive instead of asking about the others, and to keep ships away from the members have failed because some don’t care and will continue to not care.

From anon: what are your opinions on the Qs that were asked during that zoom meeting thing between BTS and ARMY?

Now I’d like to preface my answer to this last question by saying that by no means do my grievances come from a place of jealousy or anything. I’m very happy for all the ARMYs that won their spot, that they got to participate in the event and that BTS got to see ARMYs again even if only on screens and not in person still. No, my issue stems from something completely different, and I don’t want to say that the system chose the wrong people, because that would be mean and also who even knows how the winners were chosen, if it was pure luck or there were some actual criteria that went into the process, but the fact is that only a select 200 ARMYs got that spot out of however many that applied, so basically for some this was a once in a lifetime chance, right, even just getting this close to asking Bangtan a question and have really great chances of having them give you an answer while acknowledging you somewhat instead of just seeing pure words on a screen, you know what I mean?

Now imagine you are one of those 200 ARMYs and you get the chance to fill the chat with questions along with the other 49 participants of your session and you decide that asking questions such as what it’s like for Jimin to work as angel, if Namjoon ever broke a bicycle, or why JK smells the crowns of the other members heads? Or even worse, you decide to ask about JKs shower routine and in which order he washes his body? And sure, the “fault” doesn’t fall completely on the ARMYs alone, after all it’s the members who read out those questions and not some magical off screen entity, and since I wasn’t part of the event I can’t say with a hundred percent certainty that no one asked any “proper” questions, but if those were the questions that ended up being read out loud, is it that hard to guess that likely all the questions looked similarly?

Which brings me to my main grievance of it all: have you forgotten that you are fans of musicians and not reality TV stars or vloggers/influencers? I know there were likely no rules for what questions you could or couldn’t ask (except for probably ones that were 100% about shipping or far too personal), but really, you get to ask your favorite band a question, something you might never, ever get the chance to do again, and your first thought isn’t to ask about their music but instead about some unimportant nonsense like the angel question or if they differentiate between the clothes they wear at home and those they sleep in? Like sure the angel one was kinda funny, maybe, and Jimin handled it in a cute way, I applaud him for it, but was that really necessary?

I know someone asked JK about Decalcomania, as well as Tae about his mixtape, and Yoongi/Jimin about Tony Montana (season 2), but other than that were there any other questions about their music? Perhaps I’m overthinking things, maybe I’m exaggerating and maybe I’m the only one who sees an issue with this, but if I would’ve won a spot, I’d rather have asked something about their process when writing lyrics or creating beats or how they prepare when learning new choreographies, what it’s like to be on tour (though perhaps that would be a mean question seeing as tours aren’t really something that’ll continue being possible for a while still), you get the point.

It makes me wonder if it was just bad luck or if it had something to do with how old the participants were (I saw some being as young as fifteen), which isn’t to say that teens can’t ask smart questions because they definitely can just like adults can ask stupid ones as well, but somewhere something, in my opinion, just went weirdly. And maybe that was the point of it all, for the event to be casual, funny, lighthearted, but my question then is when is the time for music discussions? For fans to ask those types of questions that actually have something to do with the boys careers? When even journalists aren’t asking them proper questions, ARMYs aren’t either, so what is the point of it all then?

Then again, after the event concluded and Seokjin came onto vlive he seemed so happy and excited, so maybe they had fun (I mean they seemed to have fun) and didn’t mind at all that the questions were lighthearted and silly, maybe I’m the one making mountains out of molehills. I don’t know, but anon wanted to know my thoughts/opinions, and this is them. Once again, I don’t mean to be mean toward the ARMYs that got rightfully in, that won, and I don’t want to insult them for the questions they asked, perhaps I just expected/hoped for something a little different? And perhaps I’m the only one. I don’t know.

#answered ask #BTS #vmin #jimin #Vmin vlive

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thenon-fictiondays · 2 years

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ok.

you want ships, i'll give you ships

starting with something basic - asoryuu

*kisses u platonically* fuck yeah lets goooo

(spoilers for both games)

when I started shipping it if I did: oh boy probably literally from like. the very beginning. As in, the first time I watched case 1 way back in 2016 (whew has it really been 5 years :') )

my thoughts: I have spent the past 5 years having thoughts about them but in summary: hehe they touched swords

my thoughts (srs): bless Nuri Kazuya for drawing an excessive amount of official art of the two of them 🙏

What makes me happy about them: I'm such a sucker for friends to lovers, they just have such warm energy, honestly even without romantic context you can just feel the love and trust and respect they have for each other and its beautiful ;A; it blows my mind that they've only known each other for like a year before canon bc they are such an important part of each others' lives and like. Even after not seeing him for almost a year, even though he seems to be a completely different person and Ryuu has no idea wtf is going on, he still calls Kazuma his best friend in the world 😭 They carry a piece of each others' heart, they're so special to each other and it makes me so emotional 🥺💖

What makes me sad about them: Well, obviously, the fact that they end up on opposite ends of the world, for one :( also, I was so upset about how little they actually got to talk to each other in DGS2. The last case was ofc super emotionally impactful for both of them and I wanted so much for them to talk more about it one on one but they just didn't. I wrote more about this in a post that I can't find on my blog (thanks tumblr) but Kazuma brought Ryuu to England because he trusted him, and because he relied on him. Because he was about to go through the hardest thing he was ever going to have to face, and he wanted him by his side while he did it. And unfortunately, the way things played out, Ryuu had to go through a lot of traumatic and emotionally stressful stuff as well, but he kept his head held high and fought til the end for the truth just like Kazuma taught him. And idk I felt like they both just kind of...didn't acknowledge it that much? I still don't really know how to put it into words...but I'll stop for now bc this became an essay 😅

things done in fanfic that annoys me: TBH I haven't read all that much fic for them bc I just can't read anymore idk. I guess my biggest qualm is when writers make Ryuu completely clueless and act like Kazuma's the suave one that takes the lead in the relationship when in fact Kazuma actually sucks at dealing with emotions and Ryuu is probably the more emotionally intelligent one out of the two of them (and let's not forget, he's also quite witty/sarcastic and does roast Kazuma in canon)

things I look for in fanfic: same as with any other ships or fandoms, good writing, solid characterization, interesting plot, etc!

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: Tbh...nobody. I know that seems prude-ish but there weren't any other characters that I felt had any kind of romantic connection with either of them :/

My happily ever after for them: I want them to end up in Japan together reforming the legal system (and making trips to London to visit the squad lol)

who is the big spoon/little spoon: This is the only thing I don't have an immediate answer to lol probs switch

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: all evidence points to helping each other defend themselves in the supreme court of Japan (but other than that? probs making hotpot and bantering)

#good lord i've been writing this for like an hour #talking about otp>>>>>doing literally any of the other things i meant to be doing today #thank you for the ask 🥺💜#i will try to answer the other ones more concisely lol #dgs #tgaa #asoryuu #dai gyatuken saiban #the great ace attorney #wait should i be using all these tags just for an ask meme...?

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