#WHY are rhey giving me such a hard time with this

[marinetteplztakeabreak]

Was going to make felix and kagami kiss in my feligami fic but what if they simply made romantically charged eye contact. Thats like the same right (screams)

#WHY are rhey giving me such a hard time with this #i KNOW they want to kiss every five seconds its just #making them kiss The First time #is so hard #once the dam breaks they will not freaking stop i just cant #get them to stop being immune to showing weakness. somehow #neither of them have actually technidally said what they have going on is explicitly romantic #and both of them are like #what if they just wanna be friends #and dont want to make the other uncomfortable and mess it up #because they wnna kiss so bad theyre insane #do u see my probelm #im like maybe almosy done with the last chapter of my feligami fic #or maybe itll be another couple of months #whos to say

[the-official-account]

♦️Episode 23 ♦️

Gonna skip mseto's clovenheart and come back around in my pass for the extras

[Felix is spar's ran, androgynous, willowy, Luna sibling &therefore elven light-medium brown skin VERY curly hair, which Spar also has when not slicked back, but brown eyes, sweet smile "between them and tars, they are obviously the more delicate one"]

[Josepha has green skin]

[Merim² is Felix's sibling, spar's Om (om is an ungendered word for aunt of uncle that has become my default for that usage but which I have seen used by other peope exactly once. But I like it. So.)]

The dreams sequence was uhhhh fucked up, methinks!

[Spar's restless & withdrawn when he's angry] hough....HOUGH.

Vellum making sure Spar's all healed up...ugh. ugh. Knife through my heart.

Yk how like there's that circle of distance animals tend to keep from sitting humans and how like dogs will come up really close to like any person but cats tend to stay further away?

Sometimes I think about that in situations like this, and what vellum's doing. Being visible, being available, helping keep watch but...letting someone take their time. Giving space at the same time.

I love that Vellum and Anya get along the are SO ♥️♥️♥️

Omg 🥰carnation🥰

Ah, I'm really glad they went to get her if they were gonna give up Anya........ [Vellum expresses that while he prefers to trust people it's often best to err on the side of assuming dishonesty—mostly at work]

OOOOHHHHHHHH ANYA'S DAD BEING IN CRYSTALLIS MAKES SO MUCH SENSE

Oh my god Anya is so sweet I love her!!!!

Spar if you don't fucking open up your goddamn heart and stop shielding and self isolating every time something sucks I will kick your ass!!!! I KNOW. it's hard, but fuck!

ANYA CALLS HIM KAOLIN VELLUM THEY HAD THE NAME MOMENT RHEY HAD!!!!!! THE NAME MOMENT IM SCREAMING. YAYYYYYY OH MY GOD!!!!!!!! >:DDDDD

They have such sibling-in-law energy. They have such "gossip over tea as the run rises before making sure everyone's up and ready for the family event" energy. Your honor I love them.

OPE spars up.

The hurt/comfort ideas this episode is implanting into my brain.

JACKS LETTER. HOLY SHIT

SEVENTEY TWO HOURS WAS......TOO LONG AGO, HUH? FUCKING HELL

"it's on the list" I'm gonna strangle spar.

Narratively? I love this. Narratively, spars doing so good. Narratively, gimme gimme gimme those good good flaws

Personally? Spar what the FUCK. Spar FUCK OFF. BITCH.

IPSWITCH'S "AHEM" UFKSGSKAGSKDG

"who should even be in charge of this?" technically Vellum, right? He's the one that gives final approval on use of force?

OH SPAR FEELS HELPLESS, THAT'S WHAT'S HAPPENING. Makes sense, checks out, mhm

"QCS LIKE WHY WOULD YOU KILL A POPSTAR" FOSVSOSGSKS FUCK LMAO

Vellum trying to pull Spar's bear hug move.

Oh, goddamn, this scene is....hooooo.

"greggins is gaining a new appreciation for spar's style of communication" spar communicates???

VELLUM PULLED NO FUCKING PUNCHES ON THAT PHONE CALL LMAO

"I need to hyperventilate for a minute and then I'll get back to you" first of all, mood—

"spar has never willingly taken a vacation...usually his loved ones trick him into it" spar is SUCH a hot mess, and I love Tatiana but girl....

VELLUMS BEING A LITTLE ARCHEOLOGIST IS SOOOO CUTE

LUNAVELLA AND BRUNHILDE HI!!!!!! I hope they kick his ass (not literally just give him a good talking to because spar what the fuck)

Spar...Spar speaking to them like that is WILD to me...

"he pats her as if he's comforting her" I am going to run spar a nice hot bath with lavender Epsom salt and fucking bolt him down into it will this man let himself be comforted ONCE?

"the more important thing is that they're here now and I can't keep everyone safe." D:

Spar? Asking for help? Of course not, unheard of.

Bestie those are elven war vets who killed a puppet-master-(functionally)demigod PLEASE let someone help you.

Musician...musicia—DIAMOND. FUCK.

Also NOBODY made diamond a scapegoat in ANYTHING I love them (sincerely) but they are so annoying (derogatory)

RESIST DIAMONDS MIND CONTROL?

YEAH!!! YEAH I WOULD NOT LIKE THAT JOKER FLY CAUSE FUCK.

So diamond had contact with Grey....and wait grey was coming to sindershore? I'm wondering if diamond can mind control on the phone

HEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHE vellum said fuck

(not that he hasn't before? I havemt kaot track. But that was a DAMN well delivered line)

"OHHH! YOUR SPARKLINESS" FUEKGSKDGD

"looks like you've collected more of them!"

"which means over been watching them EXTREMELY carefully!"

Ipswitch is annoying in the best way. Ipswitch is annoying like I hope they never stop talking I have my chin in my hands, tell me all about how deductibles are a metaphor for justice.

Diamond is annoying like when I even hear the name I'm like "oh this bitch again"

WHY DID THEY CALL QC A MINION? MOTHERFUCKER—

""""""""the other one""""""""

"JEALOUS"

"it's seems that you (pointing at vellum) have joined the list of my suitors" hhhh diamond is sooooo lucky to not be real because if we existed on the same physical plane I would be stepping on the back of their heels when they walk at every opportunity. I would mix toner into their hair mousse. I would straighten the backs of all their hanging earrings and bend the backs of all their studs. I would put olive oil in a spray bottle and go ham on their closet.

"I'm being cute" that's a word for it.

BITCH "WHY?" AFTER YOU WERE FOUND WITH THE FUCK WERELION DRUGS THE PERSON YOU INVITES WENT ALL WERELION AND THEN YOU JIST FUCKING LEFT WITHOUT SAYING ANYTHING AND DIDNT UPDATE THE PROGRAMME ABOUT YOUR ABSENCE YOU HAVE GOOOOOT FO SEE HOW THAT IS SUSPICIOUS "WHY" MY ASS. """""WHY""""".

bitchass motherfucker. God.

AND OH YEAH YOUR PROBABLY MIND CONTROLLED KURT

"how is sekitan? :)" I don't trust that question at all.

"I didn't want them to be a fatality in all this" HHHHHHHHHRRNGHHH (wrathful)

[Kurt? May be green-skinned]

I loved this episode so much there are so many feelings in my heart. I was affectionately exasperated with spar, and then diamond came in and I was just exasperated. But ipswitch, Anya and Vellum are balancing it out for me. And also the scene between Spar and auntsssss that. That was so. SO. WAH. —AND END NOTES LUNA AND HILDE WERE GOING TO THE COUPLES DANCE THAT'S SOOO CUUUUTE!!!!

And ohhhhh diamond from from the plot card!! Huh!! They wove into the story so well I assumed they were, like, in the premise of the show!

But anyways I'm still bonking spar over the head with a wrapping paper roll and yelling "YOU. MUST. TRUST. YOUR. PEERS. TO-BE-STRONG-ENOUGH. TO CARRY. THE BURDEN. THAT IS. YOUR HEART. BECAUSE-THEY-CANT. KNOW YOU. WITHOUT. THAT. TRUST. SO. HELP. ME. GOD!!!!!!!!"

@threeheartscast

#half of this is me rantinf about diamond #the other half is my rantinf about spar #and oh yeah other characters exist but they dont make me angry fmsvsksvs #edil chats #edil liveblogs three of hearts #three of hearts #three of hearts pod

[mikeellee]

Twitter showed me sone terrible takes on AM and Izu, nothing new here. But here I'm to rant about this.

I have to say....I get it. No, really, I do. When people make fics where AM is either malicious or too dumb to live...I get why rhey they are doing this...I get where they formed this wrong idea.

For example, when we had a fic where AM is racist towards quirkless- note how those fics skew away from AM being quirkless himself- is bc in canon we never had an in depth on AM's life.

Was his childhood rough or easier? Did he always wanted to be a hero or was a fateful meeting with Nana that lead to his career?

Yeah we don't know. So I get why people would make fics where he is racist towards quirkless bc is easier and....the fic writer can prop up fanon dadzawa "I don't need my quirk to be a hero" (forgetting canon Aizawa usea his quirk 100%)

But ok...let's go to another type of fics. "AM is too stupid to live" and YES. I get this one. It's the basic plot where AM own stupid allows Izu to fall from grace and be a villain ...

And while I do have issues with AM's canon intelligence here (not about if he can do math or science) we would have to take in account the intelligence of every staff in UA.

I mean....BK is clearly hostile with Izu ( he doesn't hide at all) and tried to kill him several times. Please, HE HAS TRIED TO KILL THE MC MORE THAN SHIGARAKI (Like shigaraki is the villain and all that, but aside the war arc...he never tried to kill Izu or call him "useless" hey....guess who does it?) OR ANY VILLAIN! Why AM can't at very least make him stay away from Izu?

Answer: Hori and his love for the most useless and hateful character I ever come across.

The same question goes to all teachers. No one in UA tries to do anything- Aizawa gives no fucks to Izu and others and the others teachers, while I do think they don't care that much...don't have screentime- I remember seeing a post saying how maybe no one steps in bc "kids with powers can be rough"

Ok fair. But this is not the boys being boys. This is BK being 100% hostile and murderous with his victim.

And even if it was boys being boys...they won't step in? If Izu and Sero fight....UA will shrugs?

I do write fics where either UA is a terrible school milking on AM's good name or is trying to do god but there are forces blocking them.

And all the while I think AM being a teacher in UA- he has no qualifications but lets be real...Aizawa shouldn't be one and "Dadzawa!" Is popular- maybe wasn't necessary. Like, if it is to be part of Izu'a life....why not be a Consulting or smth else? Hell, AM have (?) An agency...why not take advantage of that?

"AM is a bad mentor"

I understand why people have this idea. Hori refuses to let AM be a good mentor. He is so crazy in "humble Izu" that goes against his story. The number 1 hero of all Japan wants to help Izu....but Izu needs to be humble....and Hori's defination of humble is to make his mc still think he is worthless.

Which leads to the last take I saw "Izu is a nepo baby" and like....

"Izu has everything on a silver plate while BK..."

"Izu never had to work hard while BK"

My guys....Bk never work hard in his life, Hori gave everything for his fav. Izu? He was abused, his father is MIA (I get the fathers in Japan have the costume to work overseas but Hisashi is never once mentioned and please, note how among all the fathers, even the bad ones, they are there) his house indicates he is from poor background....he had no friends...and his abuser was after him for 10 years.

Inko has no friends "ah but Mitsuki and Inko are bffs" is 100% fanon...and I think is a creation of a BdDk fan.

Izu had to work harder than everyone else...even more bc he got a quirk which breaks his bones. Everyone in UA knows how to use their quirks. They were born with it...Izu? He got recently and Hori still goes on "humble his mc"

So...please if anything BK is a nepotism Baby. He is priviliged. He shouts he wants a perfect victory but his victories are given.

Hori refuses to make any plotline that may make people see his bk in a bad light....which is impossible at this point...he is the most hateful and useless character out there.

#hori is a bad writer #the way this fandom treats Izuku worries me #mha critical #izuku mydoria #anti hori #rants

[simsparrows]

The men of the tribe were called in by Musa late into the week to arrive at the communal hut. 

When the men arrived, they found the candles lit and glowing and the space cleared of rocks and tree stump seating. 

Rhey was the first to venture to ask why the men were gathered. After all, unless it was urgent, they had wives and children to attend to. 

Musa looked around the room at the men gathered and began a fiere speech, his eyes cold. These men, he said, were not fit to defend their people. The tribe needed leadership, men upon whom the people could depend. 

He said this was the test to see which men would be put up for a tribal vote to hold positions of power.

Without missing a beat, he called Khassokk and Sky to the floor and commanded them to spar. 

Khassokk charged at Sky like a lighting strike. 

With barely a second to spare, Sky blocked Khassokk’s kick with a strike of his own leg. 

Ivanor, the oldest male teen of the village, watched the fight with rapt attention. 

Khassokk couldn’t find enough purchase on the ground to knock back Sky’s blow. 

Both sides dropped their legs at the same time. Sky went for another strike with a straight leg, but Khassokk avoided the movement by ducking. 

He let his body drop to the giant fur rug on the floor and swept his leg in a smooth semi-circle on the ground. 

Sky’s leg came dangerously close to Khassokk’s head, but he kept his wits about him and avoided a pot

Khele stood by the vine-covered doorway, his eyes bouncing back and forth the two competitors. He murmured under his breath, cheering them on. 

Just then, Khassokk’s sweep was completed. His move toppled Sky backwards in the air. 

Felix gasped, covering his mouth as Sky grunted out in surprise. 

Sky’s mind fuzzied at the corners as he fell over, his mind bearing register the environment as he struggled to place himself in space. 

In a blink, he thudded hard against the ground. Stars danced in his vision. 

Stabbakk clutched his hand to his beating heart, watching as the two men’s fighting only intensified. 

“Yield to me,” Khassokk demanded of his opponent. 

“No!” Sky said through gritted teeth. “I won’t give up.” 

Around them the room was a chorus of worry and excitement from the heat of combat. 

“Fine,” Khassokk said, baring his teeth at Sky. 

Khassokk wrapped his arm around Sky, preparing to drag him, but Sky didn’t give up that easily. 

With a thrust of his arm, Sky punched at Khassok, forcing his opponent to block him hurriedly. Khassokk grunted in pain at the contact of SKy’s fist against his arm bone. 

Khassokk and Sky were relentless fighters. The room watched in near silence now, until Felix shouted. 

“C’mon! Get up Sky!” He cried. “Don’t let him best you.” 

Sky could barely hear the calls from his friends. Khassok foot was pressing into his stomach with a sickening pressure. 

“I will make you yield,” Khassok promised, yanking Sky’s ankles back violently. 

Gharr stood, mouth drooping open as he watched the futile fight wrapping up. 

Sky had lost control of his lower limbs. No matter how much he tried to kick or wiggle out from his control, he was stuck. 

With a final thud, Khassokk dropped Sky’s legs to the floor. Sky’s chest was bobbing with the force of his breathing. He wanted to stand, but he saw with certainty he was beat. 

Ivanor frowned, eyes bouncing to the elder men around him as he waited for their cues. 

“I yield,” Sky panted, knowing he was unable to move on. 

Khassokk had bested him this time, he knew there was no other possible outcome today. 

“Better luck next time, Sky of Asgon.” Khassokk said with a high degree of smugness in his voice. 

#sparrow sims #Sky #Khassokk #Felix #Musa #Ivanor #Gharr #Stabbakk #Rhey #Sparrow Sims Stories #prehistoric era #prehistoric sims #ts4 prehistoric #sims 4 prehistory #sims 4 prehistoric #history challenge #the sims 4 storytelling #sims 4 storytelling #ts4 storytelling #sims storytelling #storytelling #sims 4 history challenge #ts4 history #sims 4 history #sims 4 historical #ts4 legacy challenge #sims 4 challenge #sims 4 stone age #ts4 stone age #sims 4 stoneage

[thatonegaybastard]

havenet finished the pokemon scarvio dlc but thoughts so far( val dont look at this post hra)

kieran and ogerpon are my favs. kieran is having such a hard time right now i can tell ans honestly? extremely relatable . i am having a hard time too buddy. i wamt to hang iut with him i love him he is amazing.

carmine is jind of an asshole but she is just. so funny. ans also a lil bit relatable roo. like. shes like the team rocket of this dlc. singlehandedly. i like her she is so.mad all the time i love it when she goes 😡😡😡😡😡

armine has rhe scarlet coloes and kieran has the violet colors

thwie whole family is like rhe village weirdos. sillies

i wish the kids selected to go with you werent just basic ass npcs with no goal or purpose or function like they went to be like "heres your friends on the trip!!" and i was sonexcited to see rhe ne characters only to meet Default NPC 1 2 and 4. i am so sad

alao now that i think about it wheres rhe god damn blueberry school????? what the fuck

ogerpon is so adorable. how could you hurt this poor thing. it dances. it sleep. it follow u sround. i love em. ey have big starry eyes. how could you hate this thing theyre just alil guy what is erong with this village. they sre just so lil how. i wish i could do ampicnic with them and my pikemon so bad

en rhey fir started folliwinf me around i was too busy gushing over how cute they were and i accidentally walked off the edge snd plummeted 10 stories to my certain demkse. thst probably traumatized them

i wish kieran was ogerpon's fave ans not me he's so sad i dont wsnt him to be sad can my character stop being the main character for two seconds so kieran can give ogerpon theyr egod damn mask plesde. then again i was the one who best the shit outts monkeydori so thats fair actually i understand now. still.

also the trio advisor lady is totally possibly evil she said shes fucking looking for terrapgos and that s not necessarily bas but i feel like shes gonna turn evil volo has made me distrust blondes also she has crystal earrings why didnt i connect is sooner

#rambling

[artreider]

Let's try to get this final live blog on my station 19 rewatch done. I'm currently laid up on my couch in mild pain but unable to do anything else.

I don't really like flashback episodes but i want one for the premiere since we are jumping so far ahead. I hate that this episode starts with a fight. But damn knowing what the fight is over, i love how loyal andy is to maya in this episode. Something ive wanted for her and the team. Qnd also jaina looks gorgeous.

The fire scene yay another fire on the fire show lmao. Feel like we missed some last year which im sure was covid related.

The marina scene ugh chefs kiss. I love how happy and giddy they are. I do wish we couldve gotten to see some of their month apart communication and their quarantining apart those two weeks when carina got back. I wrote a little something related to that and i may share before the premiere of season 5.

The quiet moment between carina saying her morning was better than those 6 weeks and then asking about mayas folks was a beautiful and real moment and i love it. So brief it could be overlooked but great choice for team.

The little bit of danielle and stefania that was them and adlibbed in this episode was so great also.

I love that rhey addressed how everyone was able to attend maskless and how safe the wedding was keeping the real world element in. Also vic love you and your chicken dance comment makes me sad that we didnt get it.

Vics parents trying to talk to her about theo is so cute.

Poor lawyer she'd be good for dean.

I understand some people dont come out until late in life but that is hard to hear that you havent loved the person youve been with for decades like you do this new person. That would hurt me so much to hear, like i couldve been with someone who is my great love if youd told me sooner. I love/hate this storyline for travis family.

Ugh if this fire had gone on any longer those poor kids and elderly couple.

Haha andy you should wait until someone answers the door for you when visiting almost newlyweds or people who've been seperated for 6 weeks lmao.

Also maya's excuse and none wet (shower) sex hair i love it.

Ugh sullivan trying to defend himself makes me so upset.

Bailey giving ben hell about second and third opinions is funny, like i figure shed be all for it.

Inara and marcus leaving jack is sad. I hope we still get to see marsha in season 5. Also if they do pair jack and jo itd be a bit ironic. I mean jo too had an abusive ex like inara.

Also jack and his marsha have similar eyes, itd be something if it came out she really was his mom.

I dont understand how maya hadnt settled on what to wear she's queen of the clipboard lmao. Just goes to show how some things throw us off course. Also i totally get her saying her outfit choice will define her forever. I judge my look in my wedding photos all the time and feel like other people do as well.

Why do i feel like this exchange between maya and carina was mostly adlibbed? It just feels so fun.

This poor family and ugh i couldnt imagine having to make the tough calls of firefighters/fire captains.

Love that all the fire crew helped put the wedding on.

I understand travis emotion here.

How'd this conversation about maya's folks get started with andy???

I love that maya and andy's friendship is restored. Also famous last words maya, dont speak the bad juju into existence.

Dean you shouldve spoken up there.

Why the chief there? I live in a city and the chief aint showing up for a house call that needs a few units. At least not until fire is out of they for some reason cant get it out.

Lmao maya freaking out about wearing the same thing as carina. Andy therapizing maya is funny.

That poor boy.

The dad comments to ben are beautiful. Also love that so many of the team know how dean feels about vic.

So why is travis getting dressed separately than the rest of his team. I mean i know its because he doesnt know about Dean's feelings and pushes vic to give theo a chance as well as allow theo and travis to talk but come on. He wouldnt get ready separately.

Also what was the point of theo going to that room if not to get ready. Sorry just annoying.

I wish carina had had someone mention andrew to her. Whether ben, bailey, maya or even any of the fire team who worked on the call with him during the crossover awhile back. Her grief during this day of happiness should've been acknowledged, even with just a remembrance table for him amd other family she lost to covid.

I do love this beautiful moment with vic though saying this isnt all just for maya.

Oh my how i love the maya confronting her father. She is the brave i want to be. Also what she says to her mom, yes chefs kiss. However when her mom shows up at the wedding, really the woman couldnt grab a nice shirt or dress to wear on her way out or on her way to the wedding.

I also love the look of pride on maya's moms face both at the house and the wedding.

Im sad we probably wont get any moments of her living with marina due to the time jump.

Ugh the choice that cost maya her promotion but ahouldnt have.

Also with all maya's options for clothes, couldnt they had dressed her mama in something borrowed from maya. Lol im sorry it bothers me so.

Vic's song for the intro is beautiful. Barrett has a beautiful voice.

Maya is so happy her mom is there and i love it. Also in my head at least one person videoing is doing it for the greys family who couldnt make it to the wedding for carina.

I also love maya singing along with vic to carina.

Queen of the clipboard forgetting to write her vows is special and funny. I love carina talking her down from a panic attack. Also her simple vow is beautiful and how carina who probably did write her vows saying we're good instead of reading them after seeing maya's mom in attendance and the look shared is everything.

I truly believe that was the moment she 100% knew maya had changed from end of season 3, was definitely all the way in. She knew what it meant for maya's mom to be there.

Love the dance montage and improved marina kiss.

Another healing theo and travis talk.

Sullivan just cant let it go and ugh trying to justify it. I just cant, still not over it. Even if he isnt captain in season 5 it still isnt right.

Sullivan you cant say you have the teams back then saying you can control them and throwing maya under the bus. Those are contradictory.

This jack and andy conversation is interesting.

This marina conversation is funny but sad when you know the end of the episode.

Its so funny that so few people know about Miller's feelings at this point.

It'll be interesting to see the travis, vic and theo in season 5.

Ben and bailey are so cute.

Wish we couldve had conversations at the wedding with maya and her mom or carina and maya's mom or the 3 of them.

Inara is so wise. I hate this for all 4 of them.

Gotta love the ole grab em and pull em back to kiss them and let them know how you really feel tremmett moment.

Too late dean, they tried to tell you.

I love marina dancing in the background ugh sullivan and the surrera rehashing.

Time for the horrible news ugh.

Everyone just looking at marina and knowing is horrible.

Great season, great episode and im looking forward to whats next.

Thank you to everyone thats been following my rewatch blogging, and for all the kind comments. I appreciate it so much, made the summer so fun.

#station 19 #marina #maya bishop #carina deluca #maya and carina #maya x carina #andy herrera #robert sullivan #dean miller #ben warren #jack gibson #inara #victoria hughes #travis montgomery #maya and carina station 19 #carina x maya #miranda bailey #theo ruiz #emmett dixon

[jeonsblackgf-writes]

ONE PLUS ONE || 2 ||

✨Summary: Trials and tribulations of Vinnie and his gf

✨pairing: Vinnie Hacker x black!OC

✨genre: agnst, just a little bit tho, but it’s fluff at the end

✨word count: 1.6k

I really like this so I may make it into a little mini series.

_________________________________________🖊

Rhey's heart dropped as she started at Vinnie with wide eyes. He only sighed and ran his hand through this curly hair. Those words that came out of his mouth put her in a bad position, and she didn't know how to react to it. She was scared.

Vinnie was her entire life and the thought of him leaving made her feel some type of way. Anytime she left the country or state to tour, he was always with her. He never missed one tour. It's hard to be away from your significant other for a certain amount of time if you were always around them before. It's like a fish without having water, she couldn't survive. With her being a huge star like Billie and Ariana Grande, it was hard to find a steady foundation in her life when Vinnie wasn't around her.

".....Are you gonna accept it?" She asked quietly after a moment of silence, fiddling with her fingers, something she did when she got sad or anxious. Vinnie shrugged his shoulders.

"If I accept the offer...I have to move. I'm gonna accept it. This is huge for me,"

Rhey's heart stopped, "Are you fucking kidding me Vincent? You weren't gonna take it up with me first?"

"Why would I? I can make decisions like this on my own!"

"Vinnie, I don't want to sound selfish, but your life is here, you can't just leave. I mean what does that mean for us if you end up leaving?" She asked, getting right to the point.

Vinnie knew she was right but it still hurt that she made it seem like she wasn't going to support him during his decision making.

"What do you mean I can't leave? Your my girlfriend not my mom, I expect you to at least be happy for me, but you can't even do that! I made sacrifices for you, do the same for me for once!" He argued, raising his voice in the process. 

"What sacrifices have you made for me other than the fact that you moved away from you and your friends old house which is 30 minutes away, to this fucking villa that WE BOTH picked out together! Please let me the fuck know!"

"All those times I've went on tour with you and I had everyone here with the United fucking States! That's one sacrifice! When you were sick so I had to cancel doing a video with James! That's two!"

"NOBODY TOLD YOU TO FUCKING COME WITH ME! YOU'RE THE ONE WHO ASKED! AND LETS NOT FORGET THAT I TOLD YOU NOT TO CANCEL AND YOU DID ANYWAY! THOSE WERE SACRIFICES YOU TOOK!" She screaming, pointing her acryliced index finger at him. He huffed and ran a hand through his hair.

"What's the point of us being together if you aren't gonna compromise. Addison sacrifices for Bryce all the time." He tried explaining, but all it did was make her even more confused.

"Please do not bring up that racist bitch in my household. I'm fine with all of your friends girlfriends EXCEPT her and Dixie and besides, she has the brain capacity of a fucking roach of course she's gonna compromise with him! You joined the Hype House and your mouth been getting real fucking reckless Vincent."

"Well...what are we gonna do then?" He asked quietly. He knew that if he left then it'd be over for him and his girlfriend and that's the last thing he wants but this was a huge thing for him.

Rhey closed her eyes as she tried to calm herself down. Everyone on her team knew how much she hated yelling, voice raising, or anything of that nature. It was in a rare occasion where she yelled or raised her voice angrily.

"I just want you to think about what you're doing. I don't have a home in Paris. Only LA, ATL, and NY. So how do you expect me to always come see you when my career still rapidly on go? How do you possibly expect this to work if you're gonna be living in Paris for the rest of your life—"

"Its not the rest of my life! God Rhey, even if it is the least you can do is be supportive!"

"Then HOW long is it? Do you know how Vogue deals work? Once you sign with the region, you can't permanently leave unless you visiting somewhere else. They need you at all times!"

Vinnie sighed, not knowing what to do. He loved Rhey immensely. She was the love of his life. They've been together for 8 years, and he didn't want all that to gown down the drain. No ever, but he was put between a rock and a hard place where he had to choose between his gf and being an actual model.

"I'm not trying to pry, I swear I'm not but I just want you to think about this. It seems like you really want to do it and if you do then that's fine. I will support you, if you don't then I will continue to support you. Doesn't matter to me, I just don't want you signing your entire life away halfway across the world away from your girlfriend and friends, but do what's best for you. Do whatever you want." She sighed, trying not to get emotional.

Before he could respond to what she said, she grabbed her phone and keys, and left the house in a hurry. He followed her outside and watched as she sped out of the driveway and down the street. Vinnie looked on life360 and saw that she was heading in the direction of the skate park that always went to when they wanted to talk and skate for hours.

He gets that relationships are never easy, and that it'll always be something that may or may not cause a break up. This situation just might make them or break them. He knew that being with your high school sweetheart after high school changes everything, but no one ever told him it was going to be this hard to the point where his heart aches and drops every time someone mentions them breaking up or even taking a break. There's a lot he can take, but to potentially not be with Rhey anymore was a sickening thought that he could erase from his brain.

"Ugh, Rhey why did you have to leave?" He mumbled to himself as he slipped on his shoes and grabbed his car keys. He got in the car and rode to the skate park, seeing her sitting under a tree. He was very surprised to see no paparazzi standing by taking photos and bombarding her.

Getting out the car, he grabbed two blunts and walked over to his girlfriend to sit down beside her. He gave her a blunt and lit it, then lit one for himself. She inhaled the smoke and blew it right back out after sucking it through her nose, dried tears on her face. Despite her high social status, he had never seen her so messed up over something like this.

"Do you wanna break up?" She asked, kind of catching him off guard. Vincent gave her a confused look

"What? God no! Baby you're the love of my life. I can't live without you! " He assured, pulling his girlfriend into his arms as he continued to smoke. It was almost 12 and it was completely dark outside.

"I can get you a deal out here. I've just gotta talk to the director and I can get you a 5 year contract. P-please don't leave me." She stated, her voice cracking at the end.

Vincent sighed, finishing off his blunt and throwing it away. He grabbed his girlfriend by both her cheeks with one hand to make her stare into his eyes.

"I'm not going anywhere, I promise. Do you understand?"

She nodded her head, making him show a small smile before smashing his lips into hers.

Once they pulled away, Rhey pulled out her phone to show Vinnie something. His eyes squinted at the screen and then widened once he saw what it was.

"You didn't..." He trailed off, his eyes clouded with tears. Rhey smiled through the tears running down her face and nodded her head.

Vinnie was looking at a photo on him on his skateboard, a photo she took of him. She used a picture of him as her album cover and he didn't know whether to cry or fuck her silly. He might end up doing both.

"That's what I wanted to show you when so got home. I finished the album, this may be my most personal album yet because each and every song is about you and our relationship. Guess what my last song is called." She laughed, waiting for him to respond. When he didn't have an answer, she showed him her track list and let him scroll all the way down. When she heard a small gasp, that's when she knew he had found it.

"Vinnie....the name of the song is vinnie."

Rhey smiled, but it didn't last long because Vinnie pushed her onto the ground with kisses, invading her personal space. He put more passion into the kiss as he rubbed her sides in a soothing way before reaching under her shirt to grab both her boobs, making her gasp, letting him indulge deeper into her mouth. He finally pulled away, giving her air to breathe, only to trail kisses down her neck and collar bone, sucking and kicking every crevice that she was sensitive to, not caring that anyone could come behind the large tree and see them.

He attempted to pull one of her boobs out but she quickly stopped him, not wanting to live life on the edge TOO MUCH.

"How about we finish this at home yeah?"

"Fuck yes! Let's go!"

#vinniehacker #vinnie #interracial #black!reader #black reader

[yoificfinder]

Any recs for the best omegaverses?

Hi nonnie~, preference is subjective so I don’t know about “best”, but here are some a/b/o stories I really enjoy(ed) reading:

a covenant with a blazing star series by @seventhstar [G to E, 56K] *WIP

The A/B/O Regency marriage of convenience AU no one actually wanted.

In which the reclusive and highly respectable Lord Yuuri Katsuki is offered fifty thousand pounds if he remains married to poor, scandalous trademan’s son Viktor Nikiforov for a year. Desperate for funds, he accepts.

It’s only one year, after all. What’s the worst that could happen?

A Silhouette of Three by Anna (arctic_grey) / @finleighsaid [E, 21K]

Yuuri and Viktor are aiming for a third consecutive Grand Prix gold as the new skating season rolls around. Halfway through the qualifiers, however, Yuuri realises that he’s pregnant. He can either tell Viktor, who he knows would freak out and demand that he withdraw from the Grand Prix, or he can keep his mouth shut, keep his mate at bay, and win the gold that he’s worked so hard for.

Easier said than done.

Black Ink by Anonymous1313 [Not Rated, 60K] *WIP

Being together was what nature had dictated them to be. Alpha and omega. Their families had thought so too, agreeing to marry them to one another once they were old enough. A joyous union between the Nikiforovs and the Katsukis.

But Viktor had decided that they would not be controlled by what their parents had set out for the both of them at a time in the past when neither he nor Yuuri even knew the other existed.

“I was hoping as soon as you turn eighteen, you’d… sign the termination contract.”

Because after all, he and Yuuri were no good for each other.

...Right?

--

"If… if that's what you really want."

 "It is. I'm sorry."

By Any Name by @kiaronna [T, 7K]

Makkachin pounces, and the white paper bag spills from Yuuri’s hand onto the floor of Yu-topia’s entryway. A printed out medical prescription—and two bottles of what are unmistakably heat suppressants.

“Beta,” is all Viktor can croak as Yuuri stops kissing Makkachin’s head enough to start unceremoniously scooping the mess back into the bag. “But you’re a beta?”

“Hmm?” Yuuri says, eyes flicking to the pill label, “oh, these are for Mari.”

“I see,” Viktor replies, gathering himself together enough to sweetly wink at his student, “Mari.”

Yuuri just squints at him, tilts his head. “Yes, that’s what I said?”

Viktor Nikiforov is convinced his student has a massive, sexy secret, and will not be swayed (or distracted)! He will be supportive! Even when the evidence isn’t lining up…

Choice by ayn2390 [E, 5K]

“Look, it’s a shitty world for Omegas, kid. I’m not going to pretend it’s not. You can either make the best of it or–” she waves her hand, beer sloshing in the bottle “–give up on it. That’s the one thing you have a choice in.”

don’t call me baby (unless you mean it) by sparklespiff [E, 9K] *Yuuri/Victor/Yuri

When Yuri got home that night, he couldn’t help himself. He lifted the fabric to his face and inhaled. Their scents had faded a little, but it still smelled like Victor and Yuuri, mixed with his own scent. This was what it would smell like if he were theirs. If they were his. This was what it would smell like every day, if he lived in a world where they wanted him. He took another deep sniff– champagne and fresh ice and saltwater and metal and Yuri– and then, instead of throwing it in the wash like he should have, he brought the hoodie with him to bed.

He wore it the next day, and if anybody noticed that he smelled like Victor and Katsudon, they didn’t say anything.

Or:

Yuri has a hopeless crush. (spoiler alert: it’s not hopeless)

hold me tender, hold me sweet by @crossroadswrite [M, 9K]

Here are a couple of things to have in consideration about the scenario Victor finds himself in:

1. Yuuri is wearing three different pairs of very soft looking socks because his feet are very cold, a pair of boxers, Victor’s blanket and nothing else

2. Victor’s never actually helped another omega through a heat. He’s barely had enough heats to know what he’s doing, choosing to supress them until his doctor’s lips were a thin line and they started talking about impact on his performance and making the supressants less effective. There wasn’t really anyone around when he had to have his heats, so it’s not like he even has the experience of watching others do

3. Yuuri’s room smells like sex, strawberry candy and energy drinks

4. Victor likes Yuuri very, very much and he has no idea what to do with himself around him most of the time

(OR: what if heats sucked a little bit and you just cuddled a lot and also being touch starved made you physically ill?)

my feelings, this love for you series by crossroadswrite [T to E, 7K]

a/b/o AU where Yuuri is a dog groomer omega and Victor is a dog clothes designer omega

My Name On Your Lips by @feels-like-fire [E, 108K]

Yuuri Katsuki has been betrothed to the High King's son, Victor, since he was just a child; furthermore, as an omega, he's forbidden from practicing magic in combat. For years, he's been able to put off the former because the Prince was traveling abroad, and gotten around the latter by practicing with his mentor in secret.

Now Victor Nikiforov has finally returned home, and Yuuri is being summoned to the capital for their wedding. He needs a plan to put off marriage long enough to find a way to break the betrothal, while keeping his practicing from being discovered.

If only the Prince didn't have other ideas.

(Or, the swords-and-sorcery arranged marriage AU. Updates weekly.)

Panta Rhei by Kashoku [E, 93.8K]

This was a mistake. Viktor needed to somehow pry Yuuri off of him and leave the room immediately. Viktor was drunk, and Yuuri was so far beyond gone that there wasn’t even a word for it. But the alpha in Viktor was having an incredibly difficult time resisting the pungent scent of cherry blossoms and ocean that filled his nose. Viktor snapped.

They had been reckless.

Take Care by @burningphoenixwings [T, 2K]

Yuuri Katsuki is an alpha.

He hates it.

Growing up, he never thought he’d present as anything. Classmates would talk about what they wanted to be — in hushed tones, since it wasn’t considered a polite subject for children—and could spend hours discussing why they were so sure they were an alpha or how this one thing that happened this one time definitely meant they were an omega.

Yuuri just wanted biology to leave him alone.

Those Three Words by @azriona [M, 31K]

Their one night of passion in Sochi left Victor Nikiforov with a bit more of a souvenir than either he or Yuuri Katsuki bargained for. Oops?

To Hold, To Have Universe series by @jaeger-babe [E, 41K] *WIP

Summary of the first fic in the series

Yuuri pulls the sheets back over himself, despite his burning skin. “My heat has come early, is all.”

“Oh!” Minami gasps, wringing his hands and suddenly looking hopelessly lost. “Should I get Lord Nikiforov for you?”

“No!” Yuuri says sharply. The fear of his Lord Husband seeing him in his heated state far outweighs any guilt he feels for yelling at his servant. “Minami, you are not to tell Lord Nikiforov that I’m in heat!”

Unintentionally Yours by articas_ursula [T, 77K] *WIP

Yuri foolishly barges in right before Yuuri’s heat starts; Victor attacks him, thinking Yuri wants to steal his mate; Yuuri nearly kills Victor for harming “their pup”; Yuri just wants his skates back.

In the present, the three grow as a family while in the past, Victor faces the events of Yuri On Ice with an ABO twist.

You Can’t Plan for Everything by RivDev [E, 168.8K] *WIP

Yuuri forgets that he has a scheduled heat coming up until it’s just a couple weeks away. He scrambles to get everything ready in time, including deciding whether he’ll spend it alone or with someone. Victor only wants to help.

@alykapediaaa’s a/b/o fics in their like an overripe fruit series [M to E, 8K]

@dreaming-fireflies’ Three Prompts AU Collection, some of which are set in omegaverse [M, ?]

@yukipri ’s Future!Verse ABO AU, a multi-media (art, comics, headcanons) Yuuri-centric polyamory (with Victor, Yuri, Phichit, Minami, Chris, and Otabek) a/b/o AU. Mostly domestic fluff with OC children. [G to M, ?]

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ETA - Other people's rec:

The Art of Scraping Through by fuzzycatsandgoofyhats, IncandescentAntelope

Thanks for the rec, @alistairvt! ❤

#yuri on ice #yoi #yoi fic rec #omegaverse #abo

[dwindlingashesburnt]

Hey mineblr I got some questions about villagers

Okay so you know the green spark things that come off, say, a baby sheep when you feed it wheat? What does it mean when those same kind of green sparks appear around me in a village, or around villagers? Example one, some villagers got stuck in a cave and I put torches down and gave them a way out which they immediately used, and green sparks appeared around each of the formerly trapped villagers. Example two, I slept in an unused bed in one of the huts in the village, then upon waking there was green sparks around me. What does this mean? My best guess was it indicated improved reputation with the villagers but...I don't know?

Speaking of reputation, what kind of things improve your reputation with a village? Does, say, taking things from a chest or taking (and then replanting, but keeping the harvest from) their crops decrease your reputation? Does putting stuff IN their chests do anything at all, like is that acknowledged?

What does reputation do. Seriously. I know if your reputation with a village is godawful, then any iron golem present might beat you up...but beyond that I know nothing. What do you get if you have a real good reputation? Does it give you better potential trades or something?

I would ask about illagers and raids but I can look that up myself so I won't

Hello yes the villagers that don't seem to have a profession....I can't seem to trade with them anymore?? Is that a thing? If so WHYYYYY. Can I make them get a profession?

I need to look up how to increase a village's population later

Okay so let's say I'm trying to expand a village by building them more buildings...Can I build them any old buildings? Or do they need ro be similar to existing ones? Or do I need to follow like an exact blueprint of how to create a village library for that biome or some shit?

Do villagers or iron golems recognise if I defend or fail to defend their village from monsters?

Same as above but for raids

Would they recognise it if I killed or saved a zombie villager. If so, would they consider killing one to be a good thing or bad thing reputation wise

Right so with the new update on PE edition, I've noticed that if you hold up something a villager is willing to trade for, they'll hurry over to you and hold up the item they're willing to give you in exchange so you can see it. For example holding up an emerald basically means half the village is gonna cluster around you, while holding up say coal in front of a blacksmith may result in them holding up an emerald....Is it possible for villagers to get annoyed at you if you hold up items like that but don't actually follow up on trading too often? I was by a blacksmith and repeatedly had coal or emeralds in my hand because my inventory was too full, but after a couple of times of this (or at least I assume that was the cause?) Said blacksmith had like...red and orange spark things coming off them and all I could guess was they were pissed. I traded with them then and the sparks went away but...what the hell was that???

Can I give a flower to the iron golem. Please. How do I do that. I've heard it can be done and I want to do it-

WHY DO VILLAGES ALWAYS SPAWN NEXT TO DANGEROUS STUFF??? See, halfway up a cliff, next to a ravine, surrounded by deep caves, near lava, extending out into the ocean. This isn't really an actual enquiry so much as protective anger over having to spend the first ingame day or more after finding a village just securing it from the stupid stupid dangerous shit around it, and that's disregarding monsters. (Although having said that I don't think I have ever seen a village in any sort of really defendable location. Why. Why do rhey make lives hard for themselves (and me)?)

Anyone who can help me out, please reblog with some answers! Even if you like, only half answer one question I am confused and want to help these dumb villagers and trade a billion things with em and help em expand

#minecraft #mineblr #villagers #what. #how do i help you!

[andagii-writes]

Orchard Party

For @aperturegaming011, mega request indeed!

You’ve been waiting for so long, and the number of characters made the entire project a lot more involved than its initial conception. I really hope you enjoy it, and that I captured your characters! It had to be its own short story so I’m slapping it under a... 

"Good grief, Rhei. You didn't say I'd be having a festival in my front yard."

With a scratch at the light stubble along his chin, Rhei grinned, and neatly skipped up the steps of the Breezy Banks veranda. He threw his arm around Kutone's shoulders. "You specified no guidelines for this event." Nodding to the sprawl of tables and vineyard decorations, as well as the townspeople marveling the spread of autumn fare, Rhei gave his friend a fond squeeze. "A bit more gratitude would be nice."

Shaking Rhei off, Kutone squared her shoulders, letting her suit jacket settle back into a comfortable position. Despite Rhei's amused snort, she tugged next on the collar of her blouse. Routine, for old business. She crossed her arms. "You told me you had some guests for me to talk to?"

"Sure do." Rhei offered his hand. Rejected, of course, as Kutone slapped away the offer, and descended the veranda steps. Still, he chuckled. "Otherwise, you wouldn't give a shit about the other farmers around the valley--ah, no, sorry--was that too much?"

She glared as Rhei matched her pace. "Oh, do carry on. Business as usual."

"So I'm not getting an earful from your fiance?"

"Business. As usual."

"Come on, Kutone. He's become something of a little brother to me. I like pissing him off."

Golden rays spilled over the visible fields of autumn fare, and glinted through amber glassware offering candied yams, cranberry sauce, homemade stuffing, plum pudding--and even more than Kutone knew she'd requested for the event. Instead of reflecting her confusion, however, Rhei maintained a proud smirk. "It's amazing stuff," he said, "when a local farmer is also a top-tier chef."

A sweet laugh answered. "Mr. Young, you realize I'm not sitting on a cake, right?"

"That's not..." He masked his exasperation well, with an amused chuckle, as he waved someone over. "I'm not talking about cake tiers, Catherine."

"I guess that one was a little obscure of me." Catherine, bright green eyes sparkling, stepped away from the table and accepted Rhei's firm handshake. Then offering her hand next to Kutone, she laughed again. "Kind of a sour face, aren't you? Life's thrown you too many lemons?"

Kutone tried a light smile, as she shook Catherine's hand. "The day's making my face pucker, maybe," she said. "Having Rhei as an associate does that sometimes."

"Hey!"

"Quite the opposite, actually!" The strands of Catherine's blonde hair bounced as she nodded toward Rhei. "The man sponsored and got me out of the sour patch known as Joja. You don't need me to say more, do you?"

"I'm not here to dredge up awful memories," replied Kutone, "for my sake or yours." She gestured to the orchard party. "Rhei tells me he invited you on business? You must have prepared the spread here."

Catherine gasped, and cast an impressed expression in Rhei's direction. "She's a sharp knife, that's for sure! Tell me that you're enjoying it so far!"

"I unfortunately haven't had a chance to try it yet, but," Kutone paused and turned in her spot, nodding to the Pelican Town residents gaily tucking in, as well as the amber ambiance. "This is beautiful, top-floor restaurant fare here. Do you have your own location?"

"Maybe I should sit on top of a cake at this point!" Catherine laughed. She clasped her hands together, as though in prayer. "Though, it is my dream to open up a restaurant. So when Young told me an old friend of his had a fantastic vineyard in the works, I had to come check it out. I understand, you'll be unveiling an original blend soon?"

At this, Kutone shot a glare toward Rhei, who uneasily averted his eyes and pulled at his collar.

Catherine pressed a hand over her mouth. "Oops, I guess I spilled some milk here? Please don't mind me!"

"I don't, and I won't," Kutone replied, digging a sharp knuckle into Rhei's side. "I'm surprised no one else has asked me, really, with this great flapping mouth of his."

"I was talking business!" Rhei whimpered, cringing and curling away from Kutone's jab. "Catherine wanted to pair some of her signature autumn dishes with your drinks, so I told her about testing your new blend!"

"He told me nothing more than that, I promise," Catherine added. "Since I had no idea if it was even a red or white wine, I prepared a variety here to take the guessing out of the picture!" She offered her hand again. "Kutone, when I make my dream come true, I'm hoping you'll let me carry your wines on the menu?"

If not her puns, her enthusiasm was infectious. Kutone accepted a second, eager handshake, as she chuckled. "So long as you're okay with Rhei being our go-between."

"I wouldn't have it any other way!"

They exchanged business cards, Rhei adding he'd send a mock-up of a wine menu for Catherine's consideration, before Catherine turned next to Gus and Elliot. Both in awe of the artistry and taste of the dishes, they already had wine pairings to discuss with the up-and-coming restauranteur.

Meanwhile, Rhei guided Kutone past the banquet tables, toward the vined arches leading to the farm's main orchards. They weren't permanent, Rhei assured, unless Kutone wanted to keep them. "Don't get me wrong," she responded. "They're a nice touch, but once this event's over, they're gone."

"Sometimes I forget you're a minimalist."

"You forget a lot of things in your age, Mr. Young, sir."

At this, Rhei crossed his arms, and turned up his lip, mocking an offended pout. "Stand yourself corrected, miss! I remember that cruel tone of voice very well!"

Cackles answered in Kutone's stead. "Big, bad businessman just got one-upped by the wino!"

Hardly the description Kutone would have used for Rhei, but it was comical enough to grab their attentions, and a legitimate frown from Rhei. Following the voice, he turned to one of the benches nestled between the arches, where two girls sat giggling.

One of them, at least, was familiar to Kutone. "Lay off, old friend,” she said, laying a hand on Rhei’s arm. “I told you about Jane, didn't I?"

"I'm assuming she's the one currently not laughing at your supposed one-up?"

"Still giggling, but yes." Kutone lifted a hand in greeting, as she approached Jane and her friend.

"You've some explaining to do," said Kutone, mocking a patronizing tone. "I don't take kindly to people other than me giving my old friend a hard time."

Rhei ground his knuckles into Kutone's shoulder. "I'm hearing the word 'old' too many times, Kutone."

While Jane, face hidden behind her curtain of black hair, giggled helplessly at the banter, her friend shrugged. Her fair features held a perpetual smugness that, when she spoke, added to her playful tone. "Well at least it's obvious who's wearing the pants in this partnership."

"It's why I don't wear skirts," said Kutone, smiling. "But giving Rhei a break for just one second here..."

Jane pressed her hands together, nodded, and pulled her phone from her pocket. After a bit of typing, she flashed the message to Kutone and Rhei.

My friend, Glaser, began the message. weve been enjoying the party and talking video games this entire time!

"Just sucks that I don't know the language to talk to you so you don't have to keep typing and playing charades, y'know?" Glaser huffed and crossed her legs, directing her attention to Kutone. "What a sharp-lookin' bitch though--you're sure you're a farmer?"

"And businesswoman," Kutone added. "Rhei here is basically my mentor."

Jane gasped, and quickly tapped out another message. It's very nice to meet you, sir!

"Good grief, finally some shred of good vibes in my direction," Rhei replied. Accepting Jane's amiable handshake, he flashed a handsome smile. "You're also a valley local?"

With a deep nod, Jane threw an arm around Glaser's shoulders.

"Both of you, eh? How do you like the Banks, then?"

"Makes me feel good to know a chica's running the place," said Glaser. "Or maybe I should be more respectful, senorita?"

Kutone shook her head. "Say whatever you want about me. I don't particularly care."

Jane landed a light but purposeful slap on Glaser's shoulder. Cheeks puffed and brow furrowed, she leveled a meaningful glare.

Glaser rolled her eyes and shrugged. "Fine, I'll be nice, just because she's your friend. And because she runs a fuckin' winery from her backyard." She shot a calculating glance toward Rhei. "And also 'cause the old man's not nearly as annoying as I thought he'd be."

Rhei threw his hands up. "Kutone, if you need me, I'll be on the other side of the estate arranging your other meetings, okay? Okay."

"Hey now, no rage quitting!" Glaser jeered, "You can't go AFK and ghost us like this! Hey!"

Kutone snickered at Rhei's retreating back, meandering back through the banquet tables on his way to the farm's entrance. Noticing Jane's concerned frown, she gestured toward him. "No need to worry about him--he's used to far more cruelty than that."

"Bet you really jerked him around, huh?" Glaser leaned back against the bench, and sagely shook her head. "You can't get to be a powerful girl without stomping over some stupid chicos, y'know? Is he your bitch?"

Jane pressed both hands to her face and deeply sighed.

But Kutone snorted. "Far from it. I'm his producer, he's my distributor. We've known each other in too many ways for too many years for us to have some better-than-thou relationship here."

"That's almost boring."

After a contemplative silence, Jane's fingers tapped out another message on her phone. She considered the words with a cock of her head, but with a nod, showed it first to Kutone, then to Glaser to fill her in on the conversation.

i think its amazing how u get along with ppl, kutone. esp when youre as close to a business partner as you are. like... it feels like u and rei are so much more than what youre saying.

As Glaser pulled a grim, suspicious expression, Kutone simpered. "We were. Once. Before we stabbed each other in our backs and realized we just weren’t meant to be.”

"So how do you get to be buddy-buddy-business-partners without killing him or being friends with benefits, huh?"

Kutone winked. "I have a fiance who's a far better match than Rhei could ever be. Rhei's already come to terms with that."

rei's kind of amazing in his own right?

"Now, why would I ever be so kind as to admit that?"

"Tell it like it is, senorita!" Glaser laughed. "You and me could have drinks sometime and talk more about this type of shit!"

She could appreciate that refreshing sort of rudeness, especially over drinks at the Stardrop Saloon. Definitely in moderation though--Glaser seemed like the type to easily rub off on people. Heaven forbid Kutone started talking to Rhei, or even her lovely boy like that; they'd surely crack and break down.

Leaving Glaser and Jane with a wave, Kutone followed Rhei's path: back across the banqueting area, along the stepping stones to the farm's entrance. Seeing Rhei in conversation--heated conversation--with other suits, she squared her shoulders stepped into the ring. "Problem, gentlemen?"

It was a rhetorical question, but an effective one to get the suits off of Rhei and on to her. Not that Morris, bespectacled pudgy face creased into an ever-worsening scowl, needed the distraction. Neither did the other two suits with him, but Morris stood to his fully unimpressive height, and adjusted the bright red, oversized bowtie at his neck. "A pleasure to see you, Kutone," he sniffed. "It's been some time since I last saw you and this community--I found myself wistful, you know."

The lie through his teeth couldn't have hissed harder, but Kutone shrugged and gestured to the party behind her. "Pardon my bluntness here, but I remember my colleague saying participants needed invitations to attend this event. Did he extend you one?"

Rhei, keeping an easy expression over his restrained irritation, crossed his arms. "Well, no," he started. "Morris here never saw your products as worthy of his attention so, I saw no point to inviting him."

"Yet I am a member of this community," said Morris, face already turning pink. "Certainly, I've been away awhile, but once a soul of Pelican Town, there's no leaving it, yes? I believe I deserve a spot in this party!"

Kutone gave a low, sage nod. "Duly noted, so, I'm keeping this short, Morris. Get out."

"I've even forgiven the assault Pierre made on me--you notice I never charged him!"

"Yes, and I'm not interested in making any deals with Joja either."

"Mighty words from someone using a Joja turncoat as her distributor! I'm saying lose the middleman--you'll find we can offer more benefits, a greater network, than whatever Young can muster!"

"An accomplishment and a half," said Kutone, Rhei snickering next to her. "Do come back some time to prove it though; I'd love to see how you can do Rhei's work better than he can."

"Brat. You think you're untouchable, don't you? You just happen to be on these people's good sides--which isn't that hard to do, might I add; country bumpkins and their magnanimous stupidity were always the easiest to manipulate--but wait until I tell them everything you kept in the dark!" With an evil snigger, Morris pushed his glasses up the bridge of his nose. "After all, Miss Kutone, you know a thing or two about a tarnished reputation?"

"I do, but you wouldn't dare--"

"Wouldn't I now?"

Rhei stepped forward, shoving hard against the suits protecting Morris. "Can the threats. You can't do anything until she signs your agreement, anyway."

"Which she'll end up having to do when her rotten name brings down revenue!" Morris reached into an inner pocket and pulled out his phone. "Just one call, Young my friend."

"Don't--!"

"All's fair in the war of business!"

At the moment Morris looked down at his phone, however, a tall silhouette behind him grabbed the collar of his dress shirt and lifted his entire body from the ground. Feet dangling, Morris flailed like a swinging sack of flour. "Who--?! Put me down! Put me down, or I'll press charges!"

Unfazed, the man lifted Morris higher, reducing the Joja Sneer into a babbling squeal. Morris flailed harder, pointing at his bodyguards. "Do something! Get this man off of me!"

Morris's men weren't moving anytime soon. That much was a certainty to Kutone, mouth agape at the metallic sheen of the mystery man's hand holding Morris aloft. Not just his hand, either--both of his legs looked like they came out of a sci-fi superhero movie. Even his eye, for crying out loud, flickered a dangerous red.

Rhei whistled. "Now I've really seen it all."

But there was, Kutone thought, a certain softness to the man's dark hair and fair features, even as he whispered, "She said leave. So leave," and dropped Morris with a dull whump.

Morris couldn't have scrabbled away any faster, bodyguards in tow and cursing something about coming back to make the deal again.

While Kutone stared, Rhei gave her a nudge and turned to their benefactor. "Appreciate it, sir. Sure felt good to see him squealing like that."

Sir? Kutone tried, but failed, to figure out how this man could be Rhei's superior.

Luckily, Rhei filled in the gap, as the man averted his eyes from Kutone's baffled expression. "If you want to know how the Empire's tearing up the Republic, you're staring at that answer. Defectors like him are the only reason why Ferngill's hanging on to what little edge it's got."

"A soldier," murmured Kutone. She pressed a hand to her chest, and smiled. "Then I have to thank you even more."

The red light in his eye faded to a curious green, as he glanced up momentarily to meet Kutone's gaze. "It's nothing."

Another man, summer-sun-caramelized features practically glowing with his amicable smile, jogged through the party area as he waved for attention. "James!" Finally catching up, he let out an exasperated gasp, and laid a hand on James's shoulder. "Good grief, James, that jump over the whole venue nearly gave Harvey a heart attack, you know! And--and now you're making friends with the hosts?"

James turned away, apparently refusing to regale his companion with a response. Rhei offered his hand to bridge the awkward silence. "Rhei Young," he said. "And the vintner herself, Kutone."

"Pleasure." The young man accepted handshakes from both Kutone and Rhei. "I'm Jake--Harvey let me in on his invitation; James through Abigail."

How all these people knew each other despite the valley's isolation was beyond Kutone. Her attention, however, fell on the metal bits poking through the skin of Jake's left arm. If James was anything to go by... "You're a soldier too?"

"Was," Jake corrected. "Can't do much jet piloting with a busted arm and cruddy grip."

"At least it's an honorable discharge," Rhei replied. "Thanks for your service."

"Flying across Hell and back was well worth it, I'd say," said Jake, "since it meant we protected the lives and magic Stardew Valley has to offer. I mean, all this good food, and good wine? You're an inspiration, Miss Kutone."

"Nothing compared to two men who've been to Hell and back," said Kutone, simpering. "I'm guessing you're local to the area as well?"

"Along with James here. We'll be sure to stop by and offer some of our goods too. Right James?"

James had finally settled on watching Kutone with a placid expression. At Jake's question, he nodded, the flicker of a smile barely ghosting his features. He needed some work, thought Kutone, but she found him likable enough. Somewhat and adorably reminiscent of her fiance.

Rhei, checking his watch, pressed a hand into the small of Kutone's back. "We've got an unveiling, Kutone," he said, gesturing back to the orchards. "Time to bring up the barrel and tap, don't you think?"

A spirited glint sparked in Jake's eyes. "Maybe I can help in some way?"

As Rhei and Jake marched off, Kutone laid a light touch on James's arm, and offered him space to walk with her. "I could use your help again as well," she gently murmured. "If you'd be so willing?"

Another small smile. He wordlessly matched her pace, slow as she was in her pumps, down the stone path leading to her veranda. Rhei and Jake were already inside heading into the cellars, as Kutone and James ventured after them.

It was then he spoke again. "What did you call it? Your wine?"

She stopped at the threshold, turning to face James, as well as the orchard party before them. Sunset skies burgeoning into the deep indigo of twilight, the scenery, she admitted, matched the mood of the wine she'd created. Behind her, inside the house, Rhei's and Jake's voices echoed up from the cellar, as well as her fiance's voice irritably bantering with Rhei.

"Rosé Memoria," she replied, pressing a hushing finger against her lips. "Like the semi-sweet recollections of a bygone summer. Or of meeting new people. Catching, isn't it?”

#stardew valley #ocs #andagii answers #rhei #kutone #a drop echoes #aperturegaming011 #anda's ocs #andagii writes

[ariesrising31]

Dealing with minor loss

I thought that this might be an interesting topic to talk about seeing as I’m still struggling with it.

Losing something is always shitty. A job, a house, money, your keys, your lucky charm, your favourite toy… But what is far worse is losing someone. Although most of the times you don’t really lose them because you can still see them and act with them it is still hard. To know that you blew something great. Wheter it was a friendship or romance it is incredibly difficult to see this person and don’t recognize them anymore or to meet them and know that they don’t want to talk to you. Or the worst: if you feel the urge to contact them but you can’t.

It’s storytime! Last August I met someone great. Perfection (in my eyes) from top to bottom. To be honest I loved every single blood cell in their body and I would have walked through fire for them. Naturally I talked to them about my feelings and we tried dating. I was so happy. This shining, happy feeling that people try to tell us about was there. Just like in the movies. We texted all the time and my heart made a jump everytime I heard their default ring tone. Yes, they clearly had their own ring tone seeing as no messages were important except of theirs. When I could finally touch them it was like little fireworks going of under my fingertips whenever there was skin I could touch. Sleeping alone just wasn’t an option anymore because I had to hold them and know that they are here with me. After some time however they told me to end romantic things because they only felt ‘platonic’ thoughts towards me. Well, shit. What to do now?

Well the first step is to cry your fucking eyes out. Let those waterfalls fall and don’t give a damn about sobs that you’re making. Let it all out. Maybe it helps to listen to music? Did you have one song just for the two of you? Perfect! Play it on repeat till you feel like there are no fluids in your eyes anymore and you are drowning in a sea of tears beneath you. If you are really hardcore, crying won’t be enough. Fall on your knees, crawl into a ball of self-pity, scream your lungs out, hit a cushion, … do whatever you feel like doing. As long as you don’t hurt yourself this will clean your body.

Now that you had the chance to take everything out and you feel incredibly empty you can fill yourself again. With chocolate, ice cream, pizza, … whatever you want. After that do something to fill yourself with laughter. Watch cat videos, watch ‘Try not to laugh’ videos, watch a funny movie, read something funny, spend hours on 9Gag, invite your best friends and let them in! They will want to help you and it will be good for you. Just hug them, laugh with them, etc.

If you ever feel angry don’t hesitate to let it out as well. Destroy a picture, burn a letter, delete all of their text messages, throw something small and out of paper into a near river, delete pictures from your phone, block them for this time on social media, write them angry letters (theoretical letters. Do not send them!) Whatever your angry heart desires to make it stop burn.

Here comes the most important part. However hard this may sound:

Don’t let it take you down forever!

Yes you need to cry and let your feelings out and stuff. But if you did it once it is not worth doing it twice. You need to get up and put your mind on other things. Some people might say that you need to stand up, fix your crown and walk away with your head held high. This is true. Whatever someone did to hurt you this much you can’t let them ruin your life for more than one night. If you love to dance find new songs and dance. The same for singing. Let your voice out and proof to yourself how strong and confident you are.  If you are an active and sporty person don’t sit around in your room and go for a run. For me things were different because I had to find out things on my own. Thoughts were racing in my head and I had to move so I went for a really long walk around my town. I took two extra batteries and my headphones with me. When I arrived at a river I was reminded of something. “Panta rhei” - everything flows/changes. Just like a river never is the same river, one’s life is always changing. Because I thought that this river was so beautiful with the reflection of the sun I took a picture. And in this picture I found beauty again. So I wandered around and took pictures of literally everything. I played with different angles and lights and filters. This way I was able to see the beauty in this world again.

So those are things you can do for yourself. However there comes a point in this grieving process where you will come to the realisation that the person you lost is probably also suffering. “Why?”, you may ask yourself. Well, because they lost someone important to them, obviously. In some cases they might even suffer much more than you because it might have been their ‘fault’. This can bother them for a really long time. Maybe they just feel bad for making you suffer. Maybe they hate themselves for making you cry. Those feelings can manifest into awful mental health issues if not dealt with correctly. In my case I had to grow up and stop pitying myself after 24 hours because in the night of the break up my significant other drank… a lot. The next day they were too depressed to get out of bed. When they had to go to a party in the evening they suffered from a panic attack… If the person you lost always talked to you about mental health issues all of this can grow into a really big problem. So please take my advice.

Stop sulking around in a corner and get your ass up. Even if they broke your heart they might still need you. There was a reason why you felt something for them. Well, guess what? It hasn’t vanished into thin air. You probably still love them at this point and it is in your best interest to help the people you love. So figure things out, talk to each other and it sounds awful but act grown up. Show empathy. You would like to be treated the same way if you were in this position, right?

Those are my tips. Maybe it helps someone.

#my thoughts #heartbreak #loss #relationship #sadness #depressing thoughts

[trippinglynet]

Burning Man 1998/99 | Jack Rabbit Speaks, Oct 30, 1998 on pending permit issues

Jack Rabbit Speaks October 30, 1998

Subject: #BManUpdate:V:3:#6 Date: Fri, 30 Oct 1998 16:54:49 -0800 (PST) From: Maid Marian <[email protected]> To: [email protected] JRS/V:3#6/10.30.98 Sorry this is even later than I expected, but I just got off the phone with Mike Bilbo. Our conversation has caused me to update some of my commentary. WARNING: This is a lengthly email outlining the approach Burning Man participants need to take in responding to the "Sonoma-Gerlach and Paradise-Denio Management Framework Plan Amendment and Draft Environmental Impact Statement" (MFP Amendment and Draft EIS). http://www.nv.blm.gov/Winnemucca/BlackrockEIS.htm.

It effects our future on the Black Rock Desert. Please take the time to PRINT this email, the companion documents and digest the information. Contribute to this process. In actuality it's all rather interesting...particularly if you've ever studied witch hunts. All the relevant links (4 so far) are available on our web site at: http://www.burningman.com/travel/environment/politics.html. Larry Harvey is currently crafting an overview for that page which will be available late tonight or Sat. morning. (10.31.98). All but the EIS are suitable for printing and framing. ~~~WHAT'S IN THIS EMAIL ?

1) An Introduction 2) What we need to accomplish 3) The URL of an article written for the Summer 1998 "Building Burning Man" newsletter in which we outline our Long Range Plan for use of the Black Rock Desert. 4) A dialog between Larry Harvey and Darryl Van Rhey that easily outlines what Burning Man sees as the fundamental problems of the current Draft EIS. (read first?) 5) URL for the Sonoma-Gerlach and Paradise-Denio Management Framework Plan Amendment and Draft Environmental Impact Study, http://www.nv.blm.gov/Winnemucca/BlackrockEIS.htm 6) A Summary outlining the document shortcomings with a link to a longer Cheat Sheet which will give specific references and rebutals to the Draft EIS. (PLEASE print the Cheat Sheet out to reference if you choose to review the Draft EIS, it is designed to make slogging through the EIS a less than odious chore, and could be digested instead of reading the complete EIS.) 7) A reminder of the public meeting schedule if you're able to attend, and tips on meeting format and what to expect. 8) Where to respond for paper-based commentary. ~~~INTRODUCTION TO THIS EMAIL ---- The 1998 event site is Clean! First of all. We are proud to report that the BLM has visited our event site, and given us a clean bill of health. Will Roger and his band of hard workers have finished the job. Will and Crimson Rose met with Mike Bilbo of the BLM last Thursday morning. There is a bit of detail work that could still be done, but at the moment the playa is under water. In addition, work is still being done to "winterize" the 80 Acres where our event supplies and equipment are being stored. Will plans to send a wrap-up report to me next week for posting on the JRS. ----Why is this important to you as a Burning Man participant???? A quick review for those that might not be up to speed on this issue. For several years the BLM has been under pressure by special interest groups to amend the current land use plan for the Black Rock Desert. The current plan (the Sonoma-Gerlach and Paradise-Denio Management Framework Plan - MFP for short) was implemented in the early 1980's and doesn't provide for increased recreational use of the desert including more Special Recreation Permit applications. Burning Man, in addition to several other special user groups (land speed record attempts, AeroPac rocketeers, and others) qualify for and apply for Special Recreation Permits (SRP). In January of 1998 Burning Man applied for our permit, and found our application returned due to the fact the Winnemucca district staff members were otherwise busy writing the Amendment and Draft EIS. Fortunately many of you phoned, faxed, email and sent paper-based letters to the Winnemucca office of the BLM and helped overturn the proposed decision to NOT process our permit for the 1998 event. This was a LANDMARK move for us. Public pressure prevailed. We will be submitting our permit application for 1999 in the next few months. The issue at hand right now is NOT the 1999 permit, but our use for the next 20 years of the Black Rock Desert playa. The Draft EIS has some notable flaws, the most important is that it limits our size to 10,000 people for 3 or 4 days, and forces us to engage in a Common Pool for use. This number was chosen arbitrarily, and doesn't take into account our record in 1998. It is vital to our long term survival that you take advantage of the EIS availability on the web (thanks BLM), and voice your thoughts. It will undoubtedly work in our favor as it gives those of you in far flung places (including international) an opportunity to express your opinion. ~~~WHAT WE NEED TO ACCOMPLISH

Effect significant change in the Draft Environmental Impact Study for the Black Rock Desert. If you are not already familiar with the EIS, I recommend you read the interview with Larry first. It's meant to provide an overview of why the EIS is troublesome for Burning Man. The Summary (below) will prepare you for the Draft-EIS Cheat Sheet. Finish off your research with the Long Range Plan article. If you are able to attend a meeting, please do so (see locations and dates below). The majority of you, however, should take the time to craft an articulate letter to the BLM outlining your understanding of the shortcomings of the Draft EIS with suggestions on what should be changed. Forward this email far and wide. Print out all the appropriate documents (except the Draft-EIS) and share it with the Internet challenged. This is an important political issue, and we need several hundred letters. Anyone that uses the Black Rock Desert, and particularly those that support our presence on it should take the opportunity to effect the process. It worked last time, and we are assured if we voice our opinion we will be heard again. This effort is VITAL. I am confident most of what you'll need to understand can be found using the resources I'm providing you. Should you work your way through all the available information and still have a question, PLEASE feel free to ask me. I'll do my best to respond quickly and accurately. ~~~STRUGGLE FOR THE DESERT - SUMMER 98 Newsletter

If you haven't read the Summer 1998 "Building Burning Man" newsletter or need to be reminded of the "Struggle for the Desert" article, please find it here. It will give you a beginning point from which you can understand how we've found ourselves in a struggle once again, and some of the ways we plan in keeping the desert available for us and others to use. ~~~INTERVIEW BETWEEN LARRY HARVEY AND DARRYL VAN RHEY. THE NUMBERS GAME ~~~WHERE TO FIND THE EIS The Sonoma-Gerlach and Paradise-Denio Management Framework Plan Amendment and Draft Environmental Impact Statement has been posted by the BLM. http://www.nv.blm.gov/Winnemucca/BlackrockEIS.htm Hard copies can be obtained by calling Gerald Mortiz of the BLM at 702.623.1500 ~~~DOCUMENT SUMMARY

It has taken a number of passes to fully digest this document. On the one hand it's rather redundant at times, and it's also rather interesting. The Draft EIS proposes a number of things that would virtually eliminate Burning Man on the Black Rock Desert. In addition, it in no way really solves one of the problems of evaluating large-scale user groups. Burning Man, however, does have some suggested changes and additions to the document. PROBLEMS w/ Draft-EIS: -- 50,000 user day Common Pool for all Special Recreation Permitees -- 10,000 person population limit to all large scale events -- no equitable process for evaluating large-scale permitees as viable and responsible -- Limits of Acceptable change study done concurrently with plan implementation and population limit can not exceed 1997 levels -- large scale events are scapegoats for casual uneducated users and their impact to sensitive and historical areas, while there currently is NO full-time/year-round visitor station in the area to distribute directional and environmental information. The BLM endeavors to find an equitable method of Special Recreation Permit allocation, so they are proposing a rather dubious solution of a Common Pool permit allocation system. The total available for several large-scale groups would be 50,000 user days. A user day is one 24-hour period. A large-scale group is definied with any one of the following to be true: 1.) Over 4,500 people, 2.) Over five square miles required for an event. 3.) Linear area longer than four miles. 4.) Rocket launches exceeding 10 miles altitude. 5.) Requirement of extended closure beyond three days. 6.) Over 40 hours staff time needed to process permit. 7.) Events in which 25 or more vehicles participate. 8) Duration exceeding one week. No one group would be allowed any more than 85% (42,500 days) of the available pool.

Large scale events would be limited to 10,000 people per event within a fiscal year.

Large scale events would be restricted to designated locations on the playa.

Unfortunately the 50,000 user days and 10,000 person limit are arbitrarily chosen based upon 1997 Special Recreation Permits and large-scale event use of the desert. The goal is to avoid degredation of fragile cultural areas.

The BLM needs a scale from which they can determine what is an acceptable change to the desert. They propose to spend 3-5 years examining the growth and impacts of the large-scale events (and all users) with a Limits of Acceptable Change (LAC) study. The examination would consist of photomonitoring and visitor use data collection. The final tally would give the BLM variables by which they can determine what actually is considered an adverse impact in this area, and who does the impacting.

There is currently no accurate data. The LAC, however, would be conducted concurrently with the EIS implementation, and to do this the BLM proposes REDUCING large-scale event size to 1997 levels (10,000 persons).

Burning Man increased in 1998, and followed all permit stipulations, contained ourselves away from fragile areas of concern, and were given a clean bill of health on the post-event site. It would stand to reason, then that the base-line of 10,000 visitors maximum is far too low. We propose that the BLM remove this number entirely. It has no valid purpose and is arbitrary.

------ The Common Pool should also be removed.

There is no way that a Common Pool fosters support between user groups. Currently, volunteers from various user groups work together to do monitoring, visitor data collection and clean up projects. The Pool has the potential to pit users against one another and set up a very unhealthy competition for use of public lands that currently don't even see 40,000 total users a year.

In addition, it aims to LIMIT the users groups that are LEAST likely to be the cause of degredation and adverse impacts to the surrounding area. Most large-scale events and Special Recreation Permitees have easy access to BLM maps and back-country information. They return year after year, and many are also BLM volunteers. So, it stands to reason that the large-scale events (including Burning Man) are actually the better educated users of the Black Rock Desert.

Burning Man currently has a number of BLM documents about the Black Rock Desert and the Winnemucca region on the website. We successfully preached the Leave No Trace ethic, the Survival Guide (of which there were 12,000 copies) took desert safety information directly from BLM guides. It also included a history of the desert.

Burning Man took the initiative to educate users. Unfortunately, casual users to the Black Rock region are not guaranteed to find the temporary-trailer less-than-part-time visitor station open. It would be fair to assume that the LESS knowledge a person has about the desert the MORE likely he/she might wander into a historical or cultural area, pick up artifacts and take them home, tear up fragile dunes or leave a hotspring area in a mess. In addition to a full-time visitor's station a comprehensive educational outreach in surrounding elementary and middle schools needs to be started IMMEDIATELY.

------ A fairly massive hysteria is being waged against large-scale events, and Burning Man specifically. It would seem that two other issues concern those with the paranoia. The only indirect impact has possibly been through the national and international media attention which focused on the land speed record and the Burning Man event, and as a result could cause an increase in recreational tourism. But, since the bulk of the media attention for both was in 1997 it is only an assumption that this will cause a quantifiable increase in tourism to the playa. In any case, tourism in this region was growing before we arrived and is certain to grow regardless of whether we remain.

Looking at the long range view, which is the purpose of this proposal, it seems clear that the only way the continuing growth of tourism in Nevada can be prevented is by carpet bombing the western seaboard. The issue to be addressed is not the quantity of visitors. This is inevitable. Increased restrictions can only prevent the deserts use by responsibly organized groups. The real issue is the quality of such tourism.

Nor will a reduction solve one of the other favorite paranoias: "Burning Man "returnees" might be responsible for adverse impact and degredation." Huh? I suspect that many Burning Man participants would never travel to the Black Rock without a parcel of friends along, and most that do camp in the Black Rock are very aware of back-country use ethics of Leave No Trace and Tread Lightly.

Burning Man is not the scapegoat for the lack of informed returning or new visitors. The Draft EIS actually indicates that during 1997, 60% of the visitors are from California. This is a state with a comprehensive recycling program, initiative for electric cars, and no smoking in bars (SF). Also known for radical environmentalism.

During high traffic weekends in 1997 and 1998 (Memorial Day, July 4th and Labor Day) the Draft EIS says the majority of visitors to the playa are Nevadans. The assumptions the BLM is making on this issue of returnees and increased tourism with regard to Burning Man and land speed are wild supposition.

----- If we remove the 50,000 user day Common Pool and throw out the absurd population limit that has no basis in real fact or data there needs to be other options to fill the void and assist the BLM in determining which requests for a Special Recreation Permit are granted.

--OPTIONS: A more equitable method for permit allocation would involve a number of variables that are not even being considered anywhere in this document. These possibilities would actually help evaluate the large groups that plan to have more than 4,500 participants.

The fact of the matter is, Burning Man is the only permitee to fit the definition of large-scale simply by sheer numbers. So, this unique category could be called a Type 1 permitee. It is our size that seems to send fear irrationally rippling through those that love the Black Rock Desert.

It is true that should another large group come out of the woodwork and apply for a permit, the BLM's current land use plan makes no accomodation for evaluation, but the following evaluation variables should help. Does the Type 1 permitee have a plan for containment and cleanup? This will go a long way towards protecting fragile and sensitive areas DURING an event.

A Type 1 permitee has to take responsibility for containment as it's NOT only an environmental issue, but a public safety issue. Does the Type 1 permitee have a comprehensive program for educating it's participants/users? The BLM shouldn't have to educate every single user in a large group. It should be up to the group to disemminate information. Along the way it is highly likely that such users will be more fully educated about the area than a casual user. ie: Building Burning Man (the twice-yearly newsletter) The Burning Man Survival Guide, Jack Rabbit Speaks and web site info. Leave No Trace was found everywhere during the event, on the radio station and in the onsite newspaper the "Black Rock Gazette".

Does the Type 1 permitee show a committment towards the desert? Have they contributed volunteer services to the stewardship of the desert? Doesn't it make sense that those that use the desert should care for it. Should this be a mandatory qualification to receive a Special Recreation Permit? Burning Man has signed a Group Services Agreement, and have had 22 volunteers trained. In addition another 12 individuals were part of an arduous "Leave No Trace" course 2 weekends before the 1998 Burning Man event.

What is the previous history of the Type 1 permitee with regard to use of the Black Rock Desert or any public lands? How can the BLM fairly evaluate a potential permitee unless the permitee has shown responsible interaction with the desert?

These are four variables that are not even being considered when evaluating "large-scale" events.

Again, I argue that the real concern evidenced by the tone of the Draft-EIS is the size of OUR event. We continue to prove ourselves good tenants. The above variables would more equitably evaluate any future large-scale group requesting a permit.

The Draft EIS continually mentions that "restrictions on large-scale events will reduce or eliminate adverse impacts" to the desert. It's fairly clear to me that the wrong dog is being kicked. The desert can be preserved for centuries to come without reducing the size of the largest user group. All users need to come under one umbrella and work together to keep the desert open and available for everyone while still maintaining a reasonable cultural, historical and environmental integrity that doesn't eliminate recreational use.

If you think you know enough to write a letter, then go for it. Check out the address and further tips below. If you would like to peruse the Draft EIS along with a detailed point-by-point analysis of the shortcomings please visit the Cheat Sheet which just carved a few years off my life while writing it. [Link no longer valid] I won't be insulted if you find it tedious, but it is thorough.

~~~PUBLIC MEETING SCHEDULE

November 2, 1998 Red Lion Inn, 1401 Arden Way, Sacramento Ca

November 3, 1998 Nevada State Office, 1340 Financial Blvd., Reno NV

November 4, 1998 Lovelock Community Center, 820 6th St. Lovelock, NV

November 5, 1998 Winnemucca Field Office, 5100 E. Winnemucca Blvd., Winnemucca, NV

November 9, 1998 Cedarville Field Office 602 Cressler Street, Cedarville, CA

November 10, 1998 Gerlach Community Center, 410 Cottonwood, Gerlach, NV

The meetings start at 7:00 PM. Mike Bilbo of the BLM has informed me that the format for the meetings will be conducted as follows: There will be a brief introduction, and then meeting attendees will be given an opportunity to approach a subject-related table and express his/her thoughts on an issue. The BLM representative will also answer any questions and clarify misunderstanding. After 30 minutes of this, the group will return to seats and attendees will be allowed to voice their thoughts to the group.

I ENCOURAGE YOU TO DO THIS. It's not a debate, and others should hear what you have to say. You could effect another person's thinking in a positive way. Print out all the documents listed, and bring them with you. Distribute them to friends ahead of time that might be attending. Arm yourself with information. Take the time to explain which elements of the document are unfair and why arbitrary limits and the Common Pool aren't fair to anyone.

Of course, this isn't the right time and place to let everyone know it changed your life and you've quit your job with Oracle to move into an art studio. Or, that you're still with Oracle but your disposable income is being spent on your "Elvis Lives" theme camp for Burning Man 1999. ;-) It is the right time to reveal who you really are and why the open and varied use of the desert is important to you.

Attending the meeting takes some preparation. If you are able to go please read what I've shared with you and attend. We need your support. Burning Man organizers can NOT do this without your voices. Use your own experience with Burning Man and the desert to express what you need to at the meeting. At this time I plan to attend the Sacramento and Gerlach meetings. Will Roger will attend the Gerlach and Lovelock meetings. Possible I'll be at the Reno meeting. Possible others such as Larry Harvey will attend the Sacramento meeting. It's MOST important that YOU the user and participant attend, as the BLM already knows what the organizers of Burning Man think.

~~~WRITTEN RESPONSE TO THE EIS Letters addressing the EIS should be sent to: Gerald Moritz, EIS Project Manager, Bureau of Land Management, Winnemucca Field Office, 5100 E. Winnemucca Blvd., Winnemucca, Nevada 89445. Educate the BLM on who you are, where you're from, how often you've visited the desert with or without Burning Man and your understanding of the back-country use ethic. Then point out the features of the Draft EIS that are unfair and arbitrary (population limit and Common Pool). Add the evaluation points that we've suggested would help the BLM determine large-scale permitees, or include your own suggestions.

Please try to craft and articulate in your own words, it will sound much better than repeating mine. They know what I think!!! (tho there are only so many ways you can say something....I do realize that) If you have time and room remind them of the economic impact your visit had on the area last year.

The public comment period is open until January 15, 1999. I'm posting this information at this time to give you a head start on responding. The holidays are NOT the best time to reply to an EIS, so I encourage you to do this as soon as possible. PLEASE support Burning Man, and take a moment to write a letter to the BLM.

If you feel compelled send us a copy of your letter to: Burning Man, P.O. Box 420572, San Francisco, CA 94142-0572. Okay, I'll get off the soap box, but this isn’t the last you'll hear from me on this subject. To get all this info and more visit our website. This URL is not available FROM the web site, however, as i would like to focus the direction this takes for now. It's possible I'll provide a link in a few weeks. http://www.burningman.com/travel/environment/politics.html

Maid Marian Mistress of Communication Burning Man 1999 LEAVE NO TRACE http://www.burningman.com

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Turning Point

I was happy until i came to my realization that there is more to life that just this...

I ended up a long term relationship and hoping to change for the better... Its been 6 years 8 month journey i shared with someone i love... But after my realization that i really wanted to have a family.. A loving wife and beauyiful kids... It took me a long time before understanding that i really needed change so badly...

To give you an overview before i proceed here are some of the few things relevant to my realization... I am 28 years old and i have been a bisexual since college... I had multiple relationships with girls and guys for the previous years... It started after my last girlfriend left me broken around 2008? Cant remember my dates right..

I was a class president... Student body president.. Active in clubs and in student counsil... I have scholarships... I am pretty much doing good on all of these aspects.. I may bot be a wiz kid but i can still see all of these through.. Until i met this girl who changed everything... All of my frieds told me na i should not let anyone treat me like shit... She is beautiful as hell.. Korean superstar...since weakness ko ang mga chinita at mapuputing babae i was totally head ovdr hills to her... We were ok.. I guess, i'd follow her around.. Trxting her pretty often, calling her when i got home and updating as much as i can... But things went sour after a couple of months... She started to ignore me... She started to make me feel that she dosen't want others to see us together... Making me wait for her after school then magmemessage na nakauwi na pala sya... Things like that.. I confronted her and asked why? Since my classmates are already furious.. Imagine i have my whole class backing me up and ready to attack the girl i love because i am treated poorly... They literally have my back... But i still tried to convince them not to intervene since its my relationship... Well the day comes na kinausap ko sya on our way home... Ayaw nya magpahatid at sapilitan pa ang pagtabi ko pauwi sa bus... And she said that her best friend might see us.. So hindi pwedeng maging sweet... Her best friend is gay.. But nanligaw daw sa kanya dati... So now rhey are bestfriends.. Like he is a full pledge college student na gay with make up lipstick and funny attitude... I have nothing againts lgbt memebeds that time but i was very confused... So our simple conversation did not ended up as i thought.. I asked why but she did not gave me an answer.. Instead bumaba na sya dahil malapit na sa kanila...

I never heard anything from her since then.. It lasted for a week ata.. Kahit ilang bess ako mag text.. Tumawag... Or hanapin sya sa school she is always getting away para hindi ko sya makausap.

Then one time i was drinking with my friends... Sa bahay ng tropa.. She called their house and asked to talk to me.. I was a bit drunk na that time... Had a couple of shots (matador pa uso nun at generoso) she asked my classmate if i can talk to her.. So i ended up talking to her in my drunken state...

She wanted to break up... And i immediately asked why.. Sabi nya wala lang.. Gusto ko lang... I disagrreed.. I tried to figure out what is wrong... But our ended up crying so hard and since i was drunk she asked me to talk to her when i am sobef already...

I kept drinking... Poured my heart out sa classmates ko.. Kinukwento ko what ive done for her... And to her friends... I cooked for her and all of her barkadas on our 7th monthsary... 4 or 5 dishes that i woke up really early to prepare... Every month i try to impress her and do crazy stuffs to make her feel that i love her... But i guess it was just not enough...

So to cut the long story short she ended the relationship.. I was devastated... It felt like i am going to die literally when i heard the words "break na tayo.. Nakakapagod kana eh" comming from her... I drinked a lot go home late go out on weekends to drink more and going home so drunk that there are times i dobt know how the hell i was able to sleep at my room and changed my clothes...

Then i gained new friends while i am sulken and grieving from my dead heart as i call it... When iet this guy.. He is gay but a bit more masculine... He dosen't wear funny clothes... But he dress up casually.. He was there when my world is in pieces and he started to make ligaw and making me feel special.. That is the start na nagkaroon nako ng rrlationships sa same sex...

So nagtuloi tuloi na up until nakilala ko yung x ko.. Di ko na idedetalye how my life changed when i became like this... Haha maybe next time sa next entry..

So our relationship lasted for like more than 6 years.. We spent so much time together... Emotional investment... I was dependent emotionally sa kanya and it can change my mood really quick.. Sabi nga ng close froends namin kasal nalang ang kulang saming dalawa...

Then recently.. Siguro mga few months ago.. Mi am begging to be confused lung masyaa paba ako o hindi sa relationship namin... I love him no doubt.. And i dont have third party... Pero parang may kulang... I tried reflecting.. More me time.. Pauwi galing office.. Habang palasok and all that then after a few months of trying my hardest to make peace with my emotions and feelings.. I decided that i needed to change... I want to enjoy life like a normal person can... To have a loving wife and kids...

Napaisip ako na.. Dahil sa babae kaya ako nagkaganito... Pero dahil din sa babae kaya gusto kong magbago... Ironic ano... But meron akong si the one who got away sa buhay ko.. Maybe ikwento ko sya next time... But for now ito na muna... Para tuloi akong nadaan nanaman sa panibagong stage ng identity crisis hahaha.. Ganun yung feeling... Difference lang is i know what i want... Comapred sa your figuring out who you really are.. Hahahaha

Wala mang sense sa ngayon... Pero gusto kong makatulong sa mga taong nagbabalik loob.. Hahaha i want to inspire people that there are things that can be changed... I am not saying na mali ang lgbt.. But what i am trying to point out is.. Changing preferences is not pointing out na mali yung nakasanayan na... Maybe its just how and things should be... Para matutuo tayo.. Thats the way of life in teaching us lessons that is valuable for our well being...

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