#also my grandma isnt well

[livsspecialinterests]

idk what specific pathology is responsible for this but whenever I feel bad I literally cannot comprehend ever not feeling bad again

#this isnt that deep im just tired and anxious #and have studying and loads of unpaid work stuff to get done #the state of uk healthcare and the general state of the uk rn makes it hard to find extranl sources of motivation #have got to make my own motivation and so on days where i feel bad it just all goes to shit #also titrating my adhd meds and was told that things might get worse before they get better #which i understand but i wasnt prepared for the reality of it #also my grandma isnt well #not like on the brink of death but shes old and frail and sick #me and my mum are both worried that she's just going to get worse quite soon so thats like a cloud over the head too #actually i take back the its not that deep #i do kind of feel like shit lol

[leon-on-the-froggy-chair]

my mom signed my christmas presents with year with dante/my dead name and yknow what. thats progress.

#my mom is lowkey finally coming around to me being trans and shes recognizing my behavior in childhood was pretty indicative of that #other day we were talking abt it and she said “yeah you always seemed to have an innate sadness to you growing up about who you are- #“-and you seemed constantly scared of the idea of womanhood. i thought that just meant you didnt wanna grow up #“-never wouldve pieced together it was because you were having an identity crisis.” #shes also starting to really listen to trans voices online and lean into debates and has been educating my grandma as well #my mom has always been open minded so this isnt surprising #didnt expect it tho because she was so quick to be invalidating and put extra effort into misgendering me when i came out years ago #progress is progress though and I do believe people can change and she isnt denying having been hurtful and ignorant before #i very appreciate that #anyway yeah lil personal ramble in the tags

[nomaishuttle]

also i loved stella as a kid bc she reminded me of smurfette and im smurfettes number one fan

#i have a umm handmedown stuffed smurfette doll and shes sooo cute her dress is a bunch of the original comics... shes very awesome and i #love her so bad . she was my moms grannys #i never met my moms granny shes one of my plothole relatives #by which i mean. ok. so. on my dads side easy peasy i have my great gran Died in 2015 sad. i had another great grandmother who died ehen i #was like A itsy baby. normal amt of great grandmothers to have. #on my moms side i had my gigi died in 2015 Sad. and i have my grandma Still living yay ! #but neither of those r my moms favorite granny who died b4 i was born . so whats going on why 3 of them.... #bc im pretty sure gigi was grans mom. bc well my grans brothers were always there for gigi christmas's. and im oretty sure grandma is #grandpas mom bc grans family isnt there at grandmas usually. and also bc they look kinda similar.. #but then. who is my moms granny... unless maybe my moms granny is a my grandma situation where you use the like grandma even tho shes a #great grandma. i never considered this.... this would make a lot of sense.

[autism-corner]

i love handsewing but man this would be 100 times easier if i actually had a machine.

#ive been at this lil sack for two hours and its not even done. if i had a machine it wouldve taken 30 mins. MAX. probably not even. #some things you sew just for the fun of it but this like. has an actual use. i kinda need this done. #im making a lil thingy to put train-check-in-card-thingie in =w=bb #its a pain. #i couldve probably asked to use my grandma's machine but 1) anxiety 2) shes on vacation i think 3) id have to learn how to first. #i think learning would be fairly easy especially since this is just some straight connective borders but :/ ya never know. #also. im not using sewing pins. im holding everything together with prayers and two magnets. its not really that hard luckily but. #i really am just making it 10x harder for myself. #to get the fabric flat i ironed it but i didnt wanna get the ironingboard so i just did it on the floor. which isnt good either probably. #oh yeah also i used a frozen pizza cardboard box as structure. which is still a bit visible through the fabric aswell. just a bit. #in conclusion: this all is a mess and probably the least efficient way but :p we ball. #its cute & yellow <3 #yay #anyway i really hope it works through the cardboard bc otherwise this'd all been for nothing. #ig i could take out one of the cardboard sides if i really need to. #its almost finished tho!!! only need to do a lil flap and the button. #these will also be done in incredibly inefficient ways but !!!! OH WELL. #im just glad i dont have to spend 10 bucks for the same thing ig <3 /hj #sillyposting

[angel-of-sweet-revenge]

The only thing that Eliphas and Don can agree on regarding Astral is that if someone picks on him then he should punch them in the face.

Therefore it's not very surprising that Astral has been in many fights (mostly with Vector)

And when the school calls, Eliphas just sends Don to deal with it.

And Ena just watches. She is SO DONE with these big boys and their 'parenting'.

Mr Kay: Astral, why'd you punch Vector in the face?

Astral: Papa said it was ok. Dad said it was 'quite alright'

#zexal #astral zexal #ena #eliphas #don thousand #yes that audio is my main inspo of this #and also Astral's parent numbers are NEVER consistant. one day he has two days the next a mom and dad #and THE NEXT a completely DIFFERENT pair of mom and dad #the teachers gave up a long time ago trying to work it out #he isnt planning on explaining he's being raised by three adults in a qpr as well as a married couple who adopted him #and the grandma #edit: i meant one day he has two DADS geez

[burymeinblack2022]

in my charli xcx vroom vroom era 🤠 🏎 🚗 💨 💥

#beep beep so lets ride #they say gays cant drive but they never said anything abt the bis #i'm seriously trying NOT to be 'all men are trash' but these men do be seriously testing me #dude started yelling at me to calm down after the 1st thing i did was put in the wrong gear that was right next gto it #bc i pushed sliiiightly too hard and i couldnt understand what he was being omnious abt and so it was just like #me minding my business and a guy just telling me to calm down and i wasnt doing anything like a hysteric 18th century maiden #also then i get home and my mom was like 'this guy was in an accident yesterday i think he went to school with u #and it was a ukranian guy who was a total menace in 3rd/4th grade like BAD BAD....and shes just like 'well hes gone' like damn ok #i just got my license (somehow bc the guy was stressing me to the point of breakdown) and ur telling me abt a guy dying in a crash like pls #me when my grandma leaves the sub here: im going on a hero's journey (to her hosue to see my dog <3 <3) #olivia rodrigo WHOMST I SAID ! #wow anna said something #i was listening to bmth lost in the morning and wow isnt that a big mood #like i need a drink frfr pass the licquor #anna's shitposts

[songtwo]

had a great morning despite my bloody knee i was great at driving today and i was so happy and then i got ice cream w my mom and then chips and the woman had lots of tattoos and piercings and a cool haircut and i went w my mom 2 see a doctor and i read a book my uncle used 2 read 2 me and my cousins in Halloween when we were children and then we bought bread <3

#the book was soooo cool it was about local urban legends<3 #i ♥️ living in a historical place #well not Historical but there is not a single space here that isnt historical #it's so cool actually like the ground where my house and my grandma's are used 2 be a place 2 hang people during the war #< not that that was cool but theres a lot of history in every single place #theres also lots of caves and tunnels all over town they also used 2 hide during the war #and im sure theres a lot more im not aware of bc the indigenous population here is very minimal #and now . Moving out time 🥴

[be-good-to-bugs]

once my brain stops trying to eat itself i WILL learn to crochet

#the bin #maybe my grandma can teach me. she tried to a long while ago but i also lived too far away to see her often so it didnt stick at all #she had given me a book which was really helpful but i got stuck on something and then the boon got chewed up real bad by mice #and that was the end of my learning to crochet for awhile. i tried learning to make granny aquares last year but i didnt end up doing it #i miss knitting too. i literally never finsihed a knitting project even once tho. i kept reknitting the same small ball of fluffy yarn over #and over again. i coudont decide what to makw with it so i kept taking it apart. it felt really nice to knit with so i was just making a #square over and over and restarting again and again. the process of knotting is pretty plesent to me but the yarn starts to hurt my fingers #after awhile but this was super soft baby blanket yarn so that didnt happen #theres a few things of super soft fluffy yarn here rn but they got dirty so im gonna have to wash them before i can use them which is a pain #well. at least washing fluffy yarn isnt too bad. washing an entire big thing of regular yarn is awful but the fluffy ones are pretty short #i miss it. i dont have any idea where my needles are tho. well. when i move i can get back to doing that

[this-doesnt-endd]

I used to have a really giant family like tons of tias and tios and cousins and i say used to cause like it seems like after my grandparents died on both sides both families seemed to never speak again and i had no chance to even try and keep hold of those ties i was in elementary school watching my parents marriage crash and burn in real time dealing with major death in the family and then subsequent family abandoning me at the tender age of 11. Hell my brothers were older and jumped ship it was just me and the horrors

#my moms dad and my dads mom were like the heads of their families and they both died really close to each other #but my grandma and a tio on my moms side died within 3 days of each other after being in hospice literally 3 doors away from each other #for months and my parents both took the roles of like taking care of everything and being the descision makers cause no one else would #which im sure was super traumatizing in everyway possible but their siblings both seemed to resent them in ways #when they didnt want to be those people but had to be and they arent even the oldest siblings they are both like 3rd youngest #but like it just ruined the families and me and mom and my dad were all at the hospital or hospice center for months #we were there every day and night i remember it so much i can get anywhere in any hospital in my town using the stairwells #like i knew them that well #it also likely ruined my parents marriage which was bumpy before the intense major tragedy #which like yaknow what fair it was a lot to deal with ontop of like trying to crawl ur way out of the recession #but after all was said and done i talk to no one on my dads side i bearly talk to my older brother #and i talk to like my nina and two tias on my moms side and occassionally a few cousins #when theyre arent being fucking insane and unhinged #idk i loved having a huge family the like going to 5 houses on christmas type #going to birthdays or weddings and seeing everyone taking at least 45 mins to say bye to everyone #and now its gone and i wont ever get it back #and its by no fault of my own cause i was literally 11 and every adult decided i was gonna pay the price too #like i think abt when i get married its not gonna be what i thought itd be or when i get my first movie in theatres #im not gonna have the major family celebration ill have all my friends which im so greafull for #but its not the same yaknow #and id love to have that relatiomship with my family again but like where do u start when its been over 10+ years #like they remember 11 year old me if they remember me #and thats part of the problem #like on my moms side specifically i have some family who acts like theyve never met me before when i used to see them every weekend #and it was a major failing on my part as an 11 year old for not keeping in touch even tho we did my mom calls everyone and she tried #but people didnt want to return it #and as for my dads side its the same and if it was a moral failing for me as an 11 yr old to not reach out and they didnt like my mom much #my grandma fucking loved her but the rest of the family didnt and like i lived w my mom and was fucking 11 i couldnt go anhwhere by myself #and i didnt like not being places without a parent and i hated sleepovers i refused and they took it so personal #and they stopped talking to my dad and bad mouthed him and still do nd ill never allow that around me my dad isnt perfect but hes a good man

[nychthemeron-rants]

So I'm planning to start weight-loss drugs soon because Im big enough to have it covered by insurance, and Im already wondering when the comments I'll get on my body will go from "good for you!" "You look so much better" type bullshit to "You should lose even more" type shit.

#my goal isnt to be thin #my goal is to get to “mid- size” #and its mostly because i have severe medical paranoia and my current weight makes it worse #so im dreading the compliments just as much Im dreading the eventual “lose more” comments #why cant people be normal about other people's weight? #like i told my grandma and aunt that i wanted to pursue weight loss drugs and their gave me the whole 'we were so worried about your health #and “about time” comments #which really stung because while im big #im not big on the level of having health issues #and ive been tested for shit to back it up #I wanted an “oh okay” “Hope that works out well for you” reaction #like please please just support people where they are at and if you arent their doctor keep your opinions to your self #tw weight #tw weightloss #weight #weight loss #weightloss #vent #also im dont hate my body beyond the anxiety it gives me #i think i look fairly pretty

[the-acid-pear]

was watching a video on wendigoon going over all the controversies and shit and i'm not here to talk about it i'm just here to say that im so glad someone fucking cleared up the whole "he's white" thing because for as race blind as i fucking am i was pretty sure that man Was Not white 😭 but hey how could i be sure when ppl like charlie white exist... 😞

#luly talks #i took until like 2020 or past to find out he wasn't asian i was like so fucking convinced of it #but yeah no like wendigoon isn't even that fair skinned #btw today i was literally thinking about my race blindness bc like that's literally how i was raised when i was a kid i didnt know race lik #a thing. yknow. #i understood nationalities for sure i understood China existed becuase well there's a lot of chinese immigration over here esp when i was #a child (now its rarer isnt it? i mean i cant fucking blame them lmao but i really feel like you dont see as many chinese ppl anymore) #but the whole idea about skintone meaning something or fucking. facial features was just. something i didnt think about #i did apparently get very surprising when i saw a african man for the first time according to my grandma #i was a fucking toddler i was like 4 or 5 btw i didnt know any better 😭 #i did also call a horse a big dog like i was just a easily confused child #anyway when it came to my peers like. i even learnt about our country's native ppl and the diff tribes and their culture #(to an extent. which is super cool btw) in primary school BUT EVEN THEN i just. #like i just grew up in blissful unawareness i didnt think there was any difference between ppl like #we live in the same country and we speak the same language that's all i need to know you're like me 👍 #being a child truly is of the silliest it gets

[tropicalscream]

blah blah Bethesda bad anyway

my favorite thing about Elder Scrolls is how goddamn fuckin weird it is

like on surface it's just some dnd game but like even a cursory glance shows tis fucking insane like:

The moons is the corpse of a god

the stars are actually holes in reality when alot of primordial spirits hated that mortals were becoming a thing and fucked off

The demon lord of forbidden knowledge/resident Cthulhu stand-in might also be the beta version of the entire fucking universe made sentient when it wasn't chosen to be the used reality

there are cat ppl that take the form of furrys, lions, or regular cats, so you can have a cursing Pirate legend whose an alcoholic & wanted in 5 countries but is also a like basic tabby cat

the wood elves are so pro-nature they're cannibals and also they murder vegetarians

Vampires came from the Lord of Rape doing well ya know

Werewolves came to exist bc the lord of hunt got bored and is a furry

sex is treated like a fucking ip copyright contract on what aspect of sex is happening and what god it's under. There's been many religious wars about this

The lizard ppl are part tree

the Dwarves all fucked off somewhere and disappeared bc they were so atheist they did math to break relativity and literally no one has any idea where they went God or mortal (except maybe Cthulhu and hes not telling)

Said Cthulhu stand-in treats hiding your grandma's secret cookie recipe & hiding a spell that would end the universe and slay a god the exact same and he will murder you for either

Everyone wants to fuck the Orcs but will never admit it and they got so bent out of shape that a demon god killed the og orc god, ate him, and shat him out bc she couldn't deal with everyone complimenting them all the time so now all Orcs are cursed to be hated but they're all still sexy & so is their god

And all this isnt even the tip of the iceberg

#tes #the elder scrolls #tesblr #daedric prince #elder scrolls online #eso #skyrim

[that-cool-guy]

PARRTT 4 BABBYYYY lemme know if things don’t make sense please HUEHEHEUHE

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(i can be serious sometimes) Lemme know how you feel about the colouring and the new formatttt :O

I tried to make it sorta coloured but also not, just so it’s easier on me to put out lmao

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John Dory: No- How about we head back to pop village and sort this troll out Floyd: I agree Clay: I'm on to you John.. Branch: mmm.. if we have too Past Jd: WAHHHHH IN RHONDA Past Jd sniffles and Rhonda is unnerved Branch (internally): OH MY TROLL... why does this troll look so familiar. John Dory said it WASNT his kid but that doesn't explain why they look so similar- and the way John Dory acted earlier- AND THE WORM- Young Branch: Grandma? What did my brothers do when they were here? Rosiepuff: Ahh your brothers! Well.. let me think now Floyd was fascinated about leaving the tree. he'd learned that many years ago other trolls had left, so why couldn't we? Clay loved to read! I swear that boy read a new one everyday! He tended to gravitate to the sadder ones.. Spruce loved his "me time" or at least that's what he would call it. He loved to just take a moment out of the day and just relax. I really need to take a page outta his book huh? hehe Roisepuff: And John Dory oh that boy always LOVED outside. He'd be out there for hours and when he'd come back he would always look a MESS! I'd always had to pick the sticks and leaves outta his hair Branch: no... that doesn't make sense... this troll surely isnt JOHN DORY right?? a check list next to Past JD says looks a mess brozone pants? leaves/sticks in hair Johns goggles TINY RHONDA??? Branch: This cannot be the same troll that left me

#fanart #trolls fanart #john dory trolls #trolls band together #trolls john dory #clay trolls #trolls clay #branch trolls #trolls #dw trolls #floyd trolls #trolls branch #trolls floyd #trolls spruce #trolls rosiepuff #trolls au #I’m kinda getting how tumblr works LETS GO GRANPA IS GETTING HIS GROOVE

[iwantabatlleaxe]

Ok. Alright. Im gonna vent in the tags because my journal isnt with me.

#wishing someone would die sometimes is mercyful. especially when they also wish that #but i do feel a tad guilty wishing those things for both of my grandmas. i just wish they didnt have to suffer any longer #and like im dealing with them super well. ive said my goodbyes. but i absolutely Suck at helping my dad bc Im not emotional in these moment #like oop. your mom died sorry anyways what legal documents do we have to sign and where is she getting burried? #i... have a complicated relationship with her. and im ending my semester which means I have so much to do and so little time #and organizing a funeral - because hell I know I'd do it since my dad wouldnt function- isnt exactly in my plans #and i know that sounds cold as fuck. but i dont care. its how i feel. #i just wont say that to my dad #tw death #death #i wish I could hug my friend rn.

[rayroseu]

happy april fools!!!

my joke for today... maleficia being forced to wear minimalist clothes so as to disguise as an employee.... inspired by that voiceline of Malleus being uncomfortable to clothes he doesn't wear XD

also ... a little hc where Maleficia is the type of grandma to say "its because you're always on that phone" (bcs i think she dislikes technology esp bcs its a human invention that give power to the humans to defeat the faes lol)but in her case, its just malleus and his little gao gao dragon 😭😭💥💥 its confiscated from him now for all eternity,,,😔😔💔💔

and the funny thing is,, she aint wrong XDD Gao Gao was one of the perpetrators in overblotting Malleus,, giving him ideas of eternally cursing us to a repeated happy dreams😭😭💥💥

you'd think Yuu would be better but they also said "yes" if there's a way to keep everyone with you 🧍🏻‍♀️💥 why are Malleus' friends such a bad influence to him....

ALSO YES IM STILL NOT OVER GUYS. IM MANIFESTING IT SO BAD, I KNOWWW THEY'LL REVEAL QUEEN MALEFICIA... IN QUEEN DRACONIA, WE TRUST 🙏🏻🙏🏻✨💖💖

also I still believe that Queen Maleficia IS THE MOST FITTING person to beat Malleus... Think about it, shes aware of the pressures of being a royalty, shes a person who loses loved ones, and shes someone who has troubles fitting with the average because of her power, like I'm JUSTTSJFGK She's so relatable to Malleus 🥹 If there's any character that would COMPLETELY understand Malleus' struggles, it would be HER. ALSO because she's more powerful than him XD ALSO because if theres anyone that could crush Malleus' prideful attitude rn, ITS HER. 😭

the way I jaw dropped when Malleus seems to be ready to go against Maleficia ☠️☠️☠️ like oh.... hornton.... thats not going to end well for him isnt it skdgkd,,, 🙏🏻🙏🏻☠️💥 plus isn't pridefulness the downfall of Maleficent in the original movie... Malleus' pride increasing so much, he convinced himself to turn against his grandparent WHOSE teaching like "you must always protect the smiles of your people" has been his life oath.... 😭😭😭

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[am-i-the-asshole-official]

would I be an asshole if I stopped hiding my tattoos from my grandma?

I (19X) have two, in my opinion, tasteful tattoos and am planning on getting more. I have a shark above my knee and a whale and squid on my bicep I can hide both of them with ease and often do. (ignore the crocs please it was a long car ride)

I, personally, don't care if my grandma knows if I have tattoos. my other grandmother (dad's mom) knows and sees them often. she isn't over the moon about them but she doesn't really care enough to say anything about them unprompted.

when I got the shark in spring, my mom told me not to tell her mother, which I had no issue with as I live over 250 miles (~400 km) away and only really see her over facetime.

but my mother accidentally showed her a photo of me where the shark is very visible and told her it was a stick on from the aquarium we were out and has even asked me to edit them out of certain photos, which I have. a lot of lies.

the reason she doesn't want her to know isn't necessarily because it would upset her, but because she would "complain about it for two years again"

my older sister got her septum peirced a few years ago and my grandmother did complain to my mom about it, mostly about how she could let her do that, even though she was an adult who paid for it with her own money and didn't even tell my mom she was getting it.

my mom is mostly in charge of caring for and supporting my grandparents so she would not be able to just avoid my grandma.

not to sound grim, but my grandma is in her mid-late 70s, and isn't the healthiest woman and isnt doing well right now, so I don't know how long she'd have to hear about it or if my grandmother would even remember for long. (I also don't have the best relationship lol)

on one hand, I don't really give a shit if I upset my grandma or annoy my mom for a few hours maybe twice a week because its annoying to need to go find a sweatshirt or long pants evrytime i get a FT request. on the other hand, I don't want to add on more to my mom's plate and put more strain on her and her mom's relationship

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole