#and also we are having some kind of meeting with food etc tomorrow in the office upstairs but also rhe atmosphere is so not it and dudes not

[catchmewjsn]

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#honestly they moved me to a different office right now so im not alone in my place anymore and tbh i should not be complaining bc at least #this one gets warn fast and im not in the open first to call usually and all but idk i feel like an intruder there and miss having lots of #place and the fact noone seen my screen etc and just overall i would prefer sitting next to the guys but also 😶 idk i just dont like anyone #hearing my phone calls etc and also i fucked up at work today BADLY but noone knows yet and this sounds like i fuck up a lot but i always #called the smaller mistakes this too i guess shskd also i almsof argued with a man who's our client on the phone but for gods sake i do know #i am right and idk if he's making me feel stupid or something or is he using one of my mistakes for his own good idk idk idk it will be a #nightmare to make this work now #and also we are having some kind of meeting with food etc tomorrow in the office upstairs but also rhe atmosphere is so not it and dudes not #at work tomorrow and he should be the one in there and like idk it all works like a fucked up chaos i also almost argued with the d irector #today bc of this lmao almost on dude's behalf bc tht waa the situation that pissed me off first #and i got to walk or catch a bus home tomorrow and like my mind does work so fast and keeps overthinking lately 😕 #walking isnt the best best for me tbh #also i made plans with my friend and i do hope i open to her during the weekend bc i want to talk about everything so badly but at the same #time idk like i cant talk about personal things anymore (except here) she doesn't know what is making w suffer 😔 #i think i made a decision about monday tho not the best one but both were bad so at least here i am... #anyone i am still helpless and that's what the sentence will end at bc i don't want to say the same thing again and again and again #anywya i have to delete this bc its too much details soon

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Keep an eye out for the public release of the study materials on the FRA long-distance study website (which you can reach by clicking here), but here’s a brief rundown of the 15 new routes FRA offered up for our consideration in the upcoming Round Four later this spring: 1 – Chicago to Miami, via Indianapolis, Louisville, Nashville, Chattanooga, Atlanta, Jacksonville, Orlando, and Tampa. 2 – Dallas/Fort Worth to Miami, via Marshall, Baton Rouge, New Orleans, Pensacola, Tallahassee, and Jacksonville. 3 – Denver to Houston, via Trinidad, Amarillo, and Dallas/Fort Worth. 4 – Los Angeles to Denver, via Barstow, Las Vegas, Salt Lake City, and Cheyenne. 5 – Phoenix to Minneapolis/St. Paul, via Flagstaff, Albuquerque, Amarillo, Newton, Kansas City, Omaha, and Sioux Falls. 6 – Dallas/Fort Worth to New York, via Oklahoma City, Tulsa, St. Louis, Indianapolis, Cincinnati, Columbus, and Pittsburgh. 7 – Houston to New York, via New Orleans, Mobile, Montgomery, Atlanta, Chattanooga, Roanoke, Lynchburg, Lorton, Washington, D.C., and Philadelphia. 8 – Seattle to Denver, via Portland, Boise, Pocatello, Salt Lake City, and Grand Junction. 9 – San Antonio to Minneapolis/St. Paul, via Dallas/Fort Worth, Tulsa, Kansas City, and Des Moines. 10 – San Francisco to Dallas/Fort Worth, via Merced, Bakersfield, Barstow, Phoenix, Tucson, El Paso, and Midland. 11 – Detroit to New Orleans, via Columbus, Cincinnati, Louisville, Nashville, Montgomery, and Mobile. 12 – Denver to Minneapolis/St. Paul, via Cheyenne, Pierre, and Sioux Falls. 13 – Seattle to Chicago, via Yakima, Kennewick, Spokane, Sandpoint, Helena, Billings, Bismarck, and Fargo. 14 – Dallas/Fort Worth to Atlanta, via Marshall, Jackson, Meridian, and Birmingham. 15 – El Paso to Billings, via Albuquerque, Trinidad, Denver, Cheyenne, and Casper.

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[twoset-updates]

[100623 hong kong vip meet and greet audio recording + transcription]

link to recording: https://www.bilibili.com/video/BV19h4y1G7zp/

transcription of Q&A section below:

notes:

transcription/translation has been done to the best of ability; some parts were unclear due to noise, slurred speech, etc. 

note that as there is no video, there may be missing context from facial expressions or gestures.

any participants’ names mentioned are not written here as we do not know how their names are spelt.

those asking questions are referred to as Q[number].

approximate time stamps have been provided at intervals.

minimally edited for clarity. (they say “um” way too often.)

00:19

Staff: So we’ll first start off with a Q&A session, and afterwards it’ll be a signing, of course, there’s... so I’ll give the floor to Brett and Eddy. Thanks.

Brett: Thank you, thank you. [away from the mic] Can you guys hear me? [into the mic] Do I need this? This is better?

Eddy: Hi. Oooh.

B: Okay, we can use the mic.

E: I wanna see if there’s autotune. [sings offkey]

B: That’s a A?

E: [sings note] That’s an A. [sings again] Anyone with perfect pitch? No? No? Okay. Oh, in the front, nice. [sings again] That’s an A, right?

B: That’s an A?

E: Just checking, nice, nice.

B: [sings note]

E: Sounded a little bit sharp.

B: [sings the same note in a lower octave]

E: That’s sharp.

B: That’s not an A. [sings again in a higher octave]

E: That’s an A, but it’s sharp.

B: A-sharp.

E: No, it’s not A-sharp.

B: Okay, I’ll stop embarrassing ourselves.

01:14

B: Well, everyone, thanks so much for coming. This, we’ve actually been in Hong Kong for a few days now, right?

E: Yeah.

B: Um, it’s been like, five days? Six days? Can’t remember. It’s been a– This whole week has been a blur, because we’ve been preparing for our very first concert—tomorrow—of the tour. And it’s actually a special one ‘cause it’s with the HKFO orchestra, right? And so there’s a lot of moving parts, and this week, I don’t know, Eddy, what has been your favourite part of food in Hong Kong, so far?

E: I don’t know, I think Hong Kong just has some of the best, you guys have some of the best food in the world.

B: I have to agree, like—

E: And it’s not just like, Hong Kong food, it’s like, all different cuisines. Like yesterday we had a buffet, and it was just like...

B: Everything was there.

E: All the different styles, I’m like...

B: We even had pizza. And it was pretty good.

E: Yeah, and we even had like chicken rice, and like, [quietly] to be honest, I think it was better than Singapore, but... [normal volume] Can I say that? [laughs] Yeah, so I think the food here’s been great. The weather’s nice, actually. I know people think it’s really hot, but, y’know, Australia and Singapore also get pretty hot, as well, so... We’re used to it, I think. Yeah. 

02:33

E: Um, so yeah, it’s been really crazy, and we’re really– we really want to– I can’t wait to show you guys the show, but we– we think we should keep most of it a secret. I am just curious though: okay, raise of hands, who here plays an instrument? [pause] Nice. Okay. Can I– I’m curious, who– Keep your hands up if you have done, like, a music exam before, like ABRSM. [pause] Nice.

Brett: [laughs]

E: I think you guys will enjoy tomorrow’s show, then, ‘cause it’s– we wanted to– it was inspired off, like, we want to make it kind of relatable to what it’s like being a music student growing up, but... Yeah, I don’t know if there’s anything you want to say before we go to Q&A.

B: [mic malfunctioning] Does anyone– [inaudible] Hello? Hello? [mic works again] Hello? I think I can– [quietly] I think I accidentally turned it off. [normal volume] Anyway.

03:33

B: Did anyone go to our last show?

Fans: No.

E: Oh, wow.

B: Well, no one– no one came back. [fans laugh] Well, this might be your first and last one, too! [laughs]

E: Oh, no.

B: No... Okay, no, it’ll be fun. We can’t say too much, but Eddy kind of hinted at what it might be like, so I think I’m super excited. It’s also like, when it’s the first show, it’s– we never really know what’s gonna happen, too. So it’s kinda just, we’re gonna get thrown into the stage, just see just (a) pit of people, and we’re gonna just go from there, see what happens.

E: Yeah. Um, I mean... Yeah, ‘cause it’s like, we try to come up with a script, and a storyline, right? And we put in, like, jokes that we think, or we hope, are gonna be funny. But again, like you guys will be the first ones to hear this. So I’m really hoping there’s not gonna be like, dead silence, just like, no one laughs at your joke—ugh, just die on the inside, right? Nah, I think it’ll be fine.

04:38

E: Should we open up for some Q&A?

B: Yeah.

E: I’d love to chat with anyone that has some questions. Okay, lady there in white first?

Q1: Actually I have two questions. Number one is, your YouTube channel has been established since 2014, and that time you came in that your dream is to bring classical music to more people, and continue to inspire the next generation. Now, I think your dream is come true, right? So, then, what’s your next career path? What will you do, say, after twenty years? Still the YouTuber? Or do a few, some music school to educate the young– [inaudible, fans cheering] Ling Ling School.

B: I don’t know, I think Eddy wants to become a TikToker next. [laughs] Just kidding.

E: I’m too old for that, man. [laughs]

B: That’s a really good question. I don’t know how to answer that. I think...

E: I think if anything, you should show them your, uh, Arigatou dance, that you’ve been practicing.

[fans cheer]

B: [laughs] Let’s not preempt anything for tomorrow.

E: [laughs]

Fan: We can sing it for you!

B: [laughing] Oh, no no no.

Q1: [inaudible] Professor in Hong Kong.

06:06

B: Oh, professor in Hong Kong. Okay, look, I think for– [sighs] it’s tricky, because if you asked us ten years ago, what we would do, and say, ‘Look, we’re gonna make YouTube videos, or do these skits online, or tour over the world,’ we wouldn’t have believed anyone, right? We wouldn’t know. And one thing is for sure, is we never really know what would happen in ten years. We can only kind of guess where we’re going, kind of like, which direction we’re going. 

And we’re r– Actually we’ve– First of all, we’re really fortunate to have people watch our content, and then doubly fortunate to have people also inspired to pick up an instrument. Like we’ve seen that countless of times, wherever we go. I don’t know how it happened; I think, maybe we’re just someone there that... I mean, when we were growing up, we were basically watching violinists like Oistrakh online—like, black and white. That’s all we had on YouTube. And I remember my lap—like my violin’d be on my lap, I was watching, (and I’d) like play (the violin), trying to copy the violinist. But there wasn’t actually any YouTubers, like, in those times.

07:10

But in the future, I think educators is also definitely something we wanna do. Definitely always trying to—what’d that say?—make the pie bigger, or something. Like, so more and more people can come into classical music. And I think, I feel like, it’s not just us, it involves a lot of– more people as well. So, more– I mean, the last three years, there’s been a lot more classical music content creators. Which is a good thing. We’re bringing into more awareness that classical music is something that is just generally good for us, yeah—all the practice we do. And it has– I think it has good value, since practicing, you know, hard work, discipline—these are the things that we learn being a classical musician. Um, yeah, hope that answered your question. Um, [laughs] I just–

07:52

Q1: And the second question is, so, will you have the pressure from like, negative comment? Especially when you have, sometimes, [unclear]. How do you handle the haters and release your tension?

B: Wait, I just heard, what did I– is it back pain? Or–

Fans: [laugh]

B: Oh, Blackpink! I heard back pain!

E: Yeah, my back’s a bit sore, like– [inaudible, fans laughing]

B: I legit heard back pain.

E: [laughs]

Q1: So, how do you handle the haters, and like, let it out?

E: [groans] I mean, do you wanna answer that one?

B: I mean, I get back pain.

Fans: [laugh]

E: Like I think... Let me quickly ask Paganini. Because it wasn’t us, so it’s Paganini that had all the haters. So now, I’ll quickly call Paganini. 

Yo man, Paganini, how’d you handle the haters? [pretending to be Paganini] I just flex on them with my Paganini 24 Caprices! [inaudible, fans cheering]

08:56

Um, I don’t know, I think... I remember very clearly that day that we posted the video. And the first one or two hours were just, like y’know, Twoset subscribers, fans, watching it. They were like, “Oh, this is so clever, this is funny,” right? And then I remember at the time, we posted around our, like, midnight. So I was like, “This is kinda too calm. It’s like the calm before the storm.” I was like, “I’ll try to go to sleep,” but I couldn’t sleep that night, I was just like, “I feel like something’s gonna go off.” But eventually, y’know, after lying in bed for one or two hours, I fell asleep. Then I remember [laughing] when we woke up—

B: [laughs]

E:—it’s like, all my phone notifications (going), “DING DING DING DING DING DING DING!” I was like, “Oh my god.” And then so I remember reading through (the notifications/comments). And, to be honest, it’s like we kind of– I mean, we know how the internet works, and we expected the possibility that this would happen. So when it did happen it was like, “Okay, fair enough.”

10:00

I think, the– I did think one thing that caught me off guard at the time was, I was shocked at how much they went not just at us. ‘Cause I knew they were gonna come for us and say things about [inaudible]. But I was shocked that they came for everyone we knew. So I remember at the time, we met, like, James Ehnes—that soloist—the week before. And they were like, threatening him. They were sending– and he– I remember he, like, messaged us, and he’s like, “Who’s Blackpink?” ‘Cause he had no idea, and we were like, “[groans] Okay.” So we had to explain all that. And I remember the time they were trying to cancel our Mendelssohn with the Singapore Symphony, and so that was a little bit, like, shocking.

10:47

Um, but I think, I don’t know ‘bout you, but for me, it’s like... it was like– Okay, so first of all, when all the hate started coming in, I remember thinking, first of all, a lot of it was, like, kind of not very... intelligent comments, right? It was just like, vomit emojis, and poo emojis. I’m like, “Okay, I haven’t really read anything that’s legitimate,” you know, so I’m like, “Okay, that’s okay.” But then, I remember, like, it was really interesting to see, during that time, my– our close friends really stood up for us. So I think that was really... thankful. I mean, ‘cause you still feel it, right? You know it’s gonna happen, you know it doesn’t make sense, but you still kinda feel like, “Whoa, what is–” There are these people telling us to, like, literally do all these bad things and stuff, right? So I think it was cool, just how, like, our friends supported us, and be like, “Oh, just don’t listen to them.”

11:46

And then, obviously, I remember there was, like, after six hours, then a bunch of positive– you know, a lot of Twosetters came to support and defend us again. And that really helped, seeing people, like, stand up for us. I think it was really funny too, like then– it became like a fan war, as well. Like, BTS ARMY people were standing up for us, and I was like– I don’t know, it became like a battle between them, and I was like, “I have no idea what’s going on, this, like, K-Pop thing,” but um, yeah.

12:17

I think, going back to your question, how do we handle the hate? I guess... yeah, like, it just helped having friends and knowing that– and having, like, fans support us. I think that was the most important thing. I think if everyone was telling us what we did was bad, then I’d probably actually have a existential crisis. But you know, we had friends that was like, “No, I think what you did was fine, don’t worry about fans”—like you guys, you know—“it’s okay.” And then, also just knowing– ‘Cause I think also knowing, deep down, I think what we did was, like, it wasn’t... wrong. Like, I think– I mean, come on, standing up with– The whole theme of the song is like, you have to, at a certain point, stand up for your own values, right? And so, deep down, I– we believed in what we were saying. And when we looked at the comments, no one made us change our mind, because every comment was just like, poo emoji, so I’m like, “Okay, I think we’re still in the right,” y’know, so... yeah. That’s my perspective, I don’t know about you.

13:25

B: Uh, I think I forgot everything, it’s just [inaudible, fans laughing]. No, okay. It’s the same, I– Look, “haters always gonna hate”, we all know that line. And that was definitely, like, the most we’ve ever gotten. And Eddy was right. I remember watching the video, also kind of lying in bed. I was thinking, “I should probably go to sleep, this video... took a while to work it out.” And nothing happened, I was like, “Oh wow! Eddy, I don’t think we went hard enough.” No, I’m just joking. I’m like– And we did have a lot of iterations of the...

E: The lyrics.

B: The lyrics. So the one that we put out was actually quite mellow, [laughs] [unclear] what we had. But we did think that our original one was too far, so we’re like, “Okay, no, let’s just turn it back.” But like, it’s just another... you know.

E: It wasn’t us, it was Paganini, by the way.

B: Yeah, yeah. Oh yeah, it’s, uh, Paganini, yeah, yeah. And then Mozart kinda just pranked Paganini the whole time, too, so.

14:29

[staff speaking inaudibly]

Yes. Oh, okay, okay, okay, sorry. We gotta get on to the next question. So sorry, let’s get on to the next question. [Brett and Eddy talking at the same time, Brett laughs.]

E: Do you want to choose? [Brett speaks inaudibly] Um... I don’t know, you choose. I picked the one before.

B: White mask.

E: White mask? 

[some people speaking, trying to identify which person]

E: Okay, yeah.

Q2: Hello, Brett and Eddy.

B: Hello.

Q2: I’m [name], and I have been a fan since the Ben Lee video, in 2019, and–

E: Since which–?

Q2: The Ben Lee video.

B: Oh, Ben Lee video– [inaudible, fans laughing]

E: Sacrilegious.

Q2: And it’s really a dream come true, to get to meet you in person. And so I would like to ask, out of the many videos that you have made, except for those million (subscriber) drops, do you have any particular videos that you like the most, or you feel (are) very memorable?

E: Mm. Um, sorry, can I just check, uh–

[commotion, sounds like some kind of accident happened]

Someone: You okay?

Q2: Yeah, I’m okay.

15:43

E: Okay. Um, “out of all the videos which ones we feel are memorable”, is that the question, right? [pause] Okay, this is recent, like, just ‘cause it’s fresh off my mind, but actually the video we posted yesterday. I don’t know if you guys saw, it was really fun. But we got invited to a univer– our old university, to be adjudicators. That was really... it felt really special to us, because it was where we studied, and we both did the competition before. And, uh, I didn’t win it, so.

Fans: [laugh]

E: But now I’m the adjudicator, so I was like, y’know. But I think that was really fun. There’s so many that I really like. Have you guys seen the video with, um, where we spoke Chinese, and the two spoke Korean, Hyung and Angie? That was really funny. And like, “ddongssa”, and we thought that was rosin? I really like that one. I don’t know, Brett, do you have any that stick out for you?

16:49

B: Uh, for me– Okay, that adjudication video we did, posted a couple of days ago, was special. One that stuck out straight away was the Among Us video we did for the Mendelssohn octet. I don’t know if you guys seen that one. That was really fun, especially playing with other people, and trying to figure it out, all that stuff. So that was definitely special. And... what else is there...

E: We did a video with HKFO actually, this week. And that was a really fun one, so–

B: Oh, that was it, that was good.

E: I’m pretty excited for that as well. Yeah, so many (videos), I don’t know. It’s like, it’s been ten years of making videos, almost. I think this is our tenth year, right?

B: Yep, [inaudible]

E: Yeah, so um... yeah.

B: The back pain is real now.

E: Yeah, the back pain [inaudible]. Yeah. Any other questions? Uh, yes?

17:47

Q3: Actually, it’s you guys who inspired (me) to study music next year. And I have grant to study abroad, to UK, [inaudible]

E: Oh, nice. Exciting.

B: Oh, congratulations.

Q3: Thank you.

[fans clapping]

Q3: And I want to ask, what’s suggestion would you guys give to someone who’s going to study music?

E: Uh, can I ask what instrument you play?

Q3: Trombone and piano.

E: Trombone and piano... I don’t have– I don’t know trombone advice.

B: I’ve never heard of that combo before, trombone and piano. Do you– Do you have a– Do you have one that you like more?

Q3: I think trombone.

B: Ohhh......

Q3: ‘Cause, like, the ratio of female and male trombonist is, like, one to nine. So I–

E: One to nine?! Wow.

Q3: I’ve only met around, like, five female trombonist in Hong Kong. But, yeah, but imagine it’s like, 100 people who play that.

E: That’s true, I’m trying to think about all the orchestras we played in. How many female trombonists have we seen?

B: None.

[fans laugh]

E: Queensland Symphony was all guys. Sydney Symphony?

B: None. They’re all–

[fans laugh harder]

E: Wow.

B: They’re all, they’re all usually on french horn.

E: Yes, usually.

B: Female players usually play on french horn.

E: Or trumpet, [inaudible]

B: Or trumpet, yeah, trumpet and french horn. Trombone, wow, you’re a first, I guess.

19:17

E: Actually, can I ask? How do trombone players view tuba players?

Q3: Can you repeat that?

E: How do trombone players view tuba players? Is it kinda like violin and viola?

Q3: Yeah, it’s like violin but it’s– there will be a few notes in one position, and you need to memorise them.

E: Okay.

Q3: Yeah.

E: Interesting. Yeah, I don’t know. What advice would you give, going to study in the UK?

B: You gotta book out all the practice rooms in advance. I know a lot about students’ struggle with that overseas, like UK, or the US.

E: Oh, what school? Have you– do you know that?

Q3: Um, that is [name] School. It’s a girls’ college–

E: Oh wow.

Q3: –and I got the scholarship

E: Oh wow. ‘Gratulations.

B: Lowkey flexing. [laughs]

20:02

E: Um, I think... hmm... I don’t know, I don’t know how to give, like, advice very well, ‘cause I feel like advice is always best when it’s like specific to your situation, that’s why–

Q3: So like, what would you suggest to adapt to this new environment?

E: Oh, okay. Adapting to new– you mean, in a different country, or in like a music school?

Q3: Music school, yeah. And I think it works in different countries, as well.

E: Mm... I think, um... My mind’s blanking, [unclear]

B: There’s like, numbers coming out of his head. [high pitched calculation noise] [laughs]

20:50

Okay, I’ll say something. I think when you go– are you going by yourself?

Q3: Yes.

B: Okay, I think, first, definitely meet– you’ll meet a lot of people, right? And always try to get with the community there, the people around you. Because I think when we’re studying, the one thing that’s important is about the people you spent the time with, right? So all the musicians are there, they’ll make you practice, they’ll keep you kind of in check. It’s definitely important to kind of mingle with them, and– I assume you’re, might have to try and get used to the lifestyle there? I mean, I don’t know what the lifestyle is like, but I know that brass players also drink a lot. [laughs]

Q3: Stereotype!

B: [laughs] Sorry. And you’re doing two instruments as well, so definitely... This is like a Sophie question, ‘cause she plays violin and piano, quite well.

E: Yeah.

Q3: I played violin before but the teacher was–

B: Whoa.

Q3: –so weird, that playing the [unclear], like, throw the [unclear] or something, if I play wrong notes, yes.

B: Was your teacher a Blackpink fan? [fans laugh] Just kidding, just kidding.

21:54

Okay, like, look, yeah, I– look, you have to just go with the flow. I know definitely it’s going to be chaotic at the beginning, but just know, after a few months’ time you’ll start settling in. I know when I first moved to Sydney—this wasn’t studying, but when I went to play with the Sydney Symphony—it was very chaotic. Just– I checked my schedule, like, everyday, just trying to make sure I’m on time. But after a while you get used to the flow, and then I think your normal practice routine will be back. So just– if you– it might be stressful at the beginning, so it should be alright, eventually.

E: Yeah, I think it’s just really exciting.

Q3: Yeah.

E: Sounds like a really big step in your life, and just, I think, make the most out of it. I don’t– You seem like you know what you want. You seem... I actually don’t think there’s much advice, other than just to enjoy it as much as you can. You will look back when you’re our age, thirty, like us, going back to uni and be like, “Those were good days.” So yeah, have fun!

Q3: Thank you.

22:57

[inaudible speaking]

E: We’ll go for a few more questions? I think we’ll go for a few more questions, yeah. Thanks. Uhh, Brett, choose.

B: I don’t– uhh, one in blonde.

Q4: I’m so nervous, I typed the question down on my phone, so I will [inaudible]. Since you guys started running your YouTube channel as a hobby, and it turned into a second profession other than being a violinist, I want to know how do you keep the passion alive to work in this situation? Because I’m also turning my hobby as a kid, drawing, to my future career. I’m going to attend art school this year, and I got into my dream school this year! Hooray! Uh, and, so I just wanna know– uh, so I’m already starting to see drawing as a work that has to be done, and I lost the motivation to draw as passionately as before. So, how do you balance– how do you balance it? And how do you [inaudible]. Thank you!

24:01

E: That’s a great question. Brett? [fans laugh] You guys are asking some really difficult questions, actually. That’s a very deep, philosophical... I think we need Wise Yang Sensei, with the life advice.

“How do you keep motivated when your hobby becomes your work,” is your question, right? Um... I think, for... Okay, I think for us, it’s about remembering why, and not losing sight of that. So it’s like, why do you love doing what you do?

24:52

And because it’s... it’s tricky, right? Because we always have to balance things with, kind of, reality, you know? I can’t– Sometimes, once it becomes your work, you have to meet deadlines, you have to work with clients, and sometimes clients might want this or that. And, you know, it’s part of what it’s like to make it your work. But I think if it feels like you’re losing motivation, maybe it’s time to kind of– rather than facing outwards, kind of go back inwards, and reconnect with the reasons why you love doing this—like a “why do you think it’s a good thing”.

25:38

That’s been it for me. I think, like, for example—I said this all the time—like, with YouTube as well, it’s like, it’s easy to fall into that frame of, like, “Oh, as a content creator we’re just chasing views, and then making content.” And there’s definitely been times where we felt the pressure to just make a video to keep making videos, or to make sure we get views, ‘cause if we stop making videos then it’s the internet and people forget about us in two days, you know, things like that, right? 

But then, at the end of the day, it’s like... You know, we did take some time off, and that was scary at the beginning. And then we realised, “Oh, it’s okay, people are still here.” And over time, you kind of decide, “Well, okay, these are the type of videos that we do want to do, because we know we’ll genuinely have fun. And then some video ideas, we know, probably will get a lot of views, but it’s just not something we want to do.” And then so, we’re like, “Okay, y’know, might be a good video but we won’t do it.”

26:46

So, I guess it’s to strike that balance between the job, or what you have to do, and fulfilling what you want inside. And if you don’t feel good, always just to– it means the balance might be a bit too much that way, (so) just kind of (pull) back a little bit. I don’t know if that answers your question.

Q4: Yes, [inaudible].

E: Alright, thank you.

Q4: Thank you!

E: Do you have anything to add?

B: No, I think you answered the question.

[all laugh]

27:12

E: Sweet. Any more questions? Uhh, I saw you raise your hand? Yeah, in black.

Q5: Thank you, Brett and Eddy. What is the most significant critiques you received from your comments, and how do you take that and make improvements? Maybe each one of you?

E: Ooh.

Q5: Thanks.

B: Full of vomit emojis.

Q5: So Brett, you cannot say, “Eddy, you answer the question,” okay?

[all laugh]

E: That was a critique right there.

B: [laughs] Critique. Most significant critic– criticism.

E: I think the most significant critique on comments is, “Eddy, stop doing paper in scissors-paper-rock.” But I never learn from that—I keep doing it anyway. I don’t know, I feel like... I can’t actually think of any off the top of my head. Most comments I can think of have always been so positive. Um... Can you think of any?

B: I honestly can’t. I think– in terms (of) criticism, most significant criticism...

E: Gonna pull out the comments to our latest video.

B: Yeah... I–

E: [laughs]

28:31

B: I mean, when you say criticisms, without the “comment”, I start thinking about me being in my violin lessons—my teacher saying this and that. But in terms of online, it usually feels like... It’s actually just a lot of positive comments usually, honestly. I know a lot of people—you know, we have like, 100 positive comments, one bad comment—people are gonna zone in on that. But we’ve kinda gotten used to that? And we just been treating comments as a feedback, for us to see what people like, what they enjoy. And in fact, I’ve really enjoyed some of the comments people make. Like, they make really clever comments, or– things like that gives me a laugh. And that just keeps us going, doing our own thing. Um, and– I don’t know if there’s a specific one, but I also enjoy reading a lot of– ‘s not really criticism, but when people have a story to tell in their comments. Like what they went through, what they’re doing, how they got here, what things have been happening, you know—these things kind of help us– well, they inspire us to keep, kind of, doing what we do, so. I don’t know if I really answered that question, but yeah.

E: Yeah. Yeah, I can’t think of any negative comments of the top of my head as well, but I was just quickly scrolling through, just then. And there’s so many funny– you guys come up with the funniest comments. Someone was like, “If you can adjudicate slowly, you can adjudicate quickly,” ‘cause we took so long adjudicating that day. But yeah, I think that’s... yeah.

30:04

B: Are there any more questions? Uh, the pink.

Q6: Hello, Brett and Eddy, I specially flew here from Chengdu to see you, so I wanted to hear the both of you speak Chinese (Standard Mandarin)—

B: [groans]

Q6: I wanted to ask if you have any plans to tour Mainland China this year, and do you have anything you'd like to say to fans in Mainland China? Finally, I'd like to welcome you to Chengdu to look at pandas and eat hotpot.

E: Oooh, hotpot.

[B and E discuss inaudibly]

B: I only heard "eat hotpot".

Q6: Are there any cities you want to go to; any tour plans?

Someone: Any plans for tour in China?

Someone else: In Mainland China!

B: Oh, right!

E: Brett, I thought you were practicing your Chinese, why don't you understand?

Someone: And do you have any preference, for the cities?

31:08

B: Ohhh, okay okay. Do I have to answer in Chinese?

E: Yes, she said she wants to hear us speak Chinese.

B: Uhhh, I like to eat hotpot. I would like– I would also like to go to Ch– Chen...

Q6: Chengdu.

B: Chengdu.

E: Also, I want to—what was that city we went to last time—Guangzhou. We want to go to Guangzhou.

B: Oh, right. I forgot.

E: Yeah. We’re not sure, we were thinking we could do it next year, maybe, but the plans haven't been, like...

Someone(?): Confirmed.

E: Confirmed, yeah, we haven't confirmed them. We just have some ideas. Also, maybe Shanghai? I think Shanghai—

[fans cheer]

31:59

E: Oh wow, okay. Yeah. Because the both of us have been to Shanghai; Brett went with the Sydney Symphony.

B: No, it was to Beijing.

E: Oh, you didn't go to Shanghai?

B: We went to Beijing.

E: Oh, so it was Beijing.

B: Right. [fans laugh] Yeah.

E: Oh. Wait, so have you been to Shanghai?

B: Nope. [fans laugh] I want to go though.

E: I've been before, I joined a tour group with a friend. And I remember, was it Pudong, Puxi, or something? You know there's that river—

Fans: Huangpu River. [T/N: Pudong and Puxi are districts to the east and west of the Huangpu River respectively.]

E: Huangpu River. And so many people were taking wedding photos there! Everyone was—I remember there were weddings everyday. Yeah, there were like five people getting married, I'm like, holy moly. Yeah. So maybe Beijing, Shanghai, Chengdu, Guangzhou; we really want to go, yeah.

Q6: Is there anything you want to say to the fans (in Mainland China)?

E: Thank you for all your support, and we'll continue to practice 40 hours every day. Yeah, cool.

33:15

Like, it’s 5:10, maybe two, three more questions?

B: Okay.

E: Maybe it’ll go to 5:30 [inaudible]. Yeah, uh, few more questions, yeah.

B: Uh... okay.

Q7: Okay, I come from Guangdong, and I will [inaudible].

E: Oh, nice.

Q7: Yeah, and I will ask the third question from my friend, I’m a [inaudible]. She asked, is tomorrow allowed to take any pictures during the performance?

B: If you’re allowed to take pictures?

E: Taking photos during the performance...

B: I think so...?

Staff: Not during the performance.

B: Oh, okay. Yeah, not during the performance, but...

Staff: Afterwards.

B: But afterwards.

Q7: But afterwards. Okay, [inaudible], thank you.

34:06

B: Okay. Do you have another question? Uh... in the white [inaudible]. Yeah, third row, yeah, yeah.

Staff: Sorry, which one?

B: [unclear]

Q8: Uh, hi.

B: Hi.

Q8: I am [name].

E: Hello.

Q8: A casual question: so I am really into MBTI.

B: Oh!

Q8: So, I really want to–

E: Oh, I love MBTI too!

Q8: Yeah, yeah, I love– I really want to ask you guys, what is your latest MBTI test results?

E: Can you guess? What– Do you know what we are, in the past?

Q8: I? Uh, no, I think Eddy is E.

E: I’m E? Think I’m a E? Guess what we are!

B: Oh, if you know, don’t tell her! Just let her guess!

E: We’ve talked about it online before, so if you know, don’t tell her.

B: Don’t tell her, keep your mouth closed, keep quiet!

Q8: Yeah, but like, because MBTI changes, it always changes.

E: Oh, okay.

Q8: Yeah, so some– for some people it always changes, so I would really want to know that– did your MBTI change, of any sort?

35:04

B: Oh, I guarantee Eddy hasn’t changed. [fans laugh] It’s very potent. Okay, guess– do you want to guess Eddy’s first?

Q8: Uh, I?

B: Yep.

Q8: S?

E: Maybe? Just keep going– [unclear] it’s okay!

Q8: IS... F... Is it F? No, it’s T– No, I think it’s T. [laughs] Uh... IST... P?

E: ISTP? That’s not–

B: Pretty close!

E: That’s the yellow dude, right? ‘Cause I [unclear] their colours. Is it yellow, or is it blue?

Someone: Yeah, yellow.

E: Yellow, he’s yellow.

B: Yellow, okay.

E: ISTP... He’s the guy with the toolbox, I think... With the tools, the drill!

B: Yeah, the drill.

E: Yeah! Close, close—I’m actually a INTP.

Q8: Ahh, okay.

E: So I’m the purple scientist, who just like– yeah, just stays in my room and practice all day.

Q8: That’s good, that’s good.

36:12

E: Yeah. How about Brett? Can you guess Brett?

Q8: I... N...

B: [laughs] She’s on the spot.

Q8: Yeah, you put me on the spot!

B: IN...

Q8: FP?

B: Wow, you’re very close on both.

E: Close, close.

B: I’m actually ENFP.

Fans: Whoa......

B: Whoa, why is it like “whoa”?

E: You know what’s a really funny story about this, actually? Even Brett didn’t know he was extroverted, in the beginning. So when he first found out he was ENFP he’s like, “What?! I’m not extroverted!” And then our friend was like, “An introverted wouldn’t yell so loud.”

B: [laughs] I remember that.

E: Yeah, he was like, “What?! I’m not extroverted!”

B: Yeah, [unclear] “The introvert would not do that.”

E: Yeah.

B: And I think I was telling everyone I was...

E: You thought you were INFP, initially thought, too.

B: Yes, yeah. And I was telling everyone, I was like, “No, I’m introverted, I’m introverted!” And [unclear] was like, “...dude.”

E: [laughs]

B: “An introvert would not do that.”

E: Yeah. So you’re very close, actually, yeah.

Q8: That’s good, thank you–

37:20

B: What are– what are yours?

Q8: Oh, mine is–

E: Oh, I wanna guess!

Q8: Yeah, sure, guess!

B: [inaudible] gonna guess?

Q8: Yeah, I’m going to turn you back right on the spot!

E: Um... I think you are...

B: [quietly] How are you gonna guess?!

E: INFP.

Q8: No.

E: Aw, damn.

B: My turn, my turn. So I have one-in-fifteen chance.

E: Yeah.

Q8: Sixteen.

B: Sixteen?

Q8: Oh, no, sorry, fifteen, yeah, sorry.

B: No, one-in-fifteen, right? [to Eddy] You said INFP, right? No no–

E: Actually–

B: –no no no no no no no no let me– shhhh.

E: What colour do you think she is?

B: Uhh... ESFP.

Q8: Right. You’re–

[everyone cheering in shock]

38:08

E: Damn.

B: You know what gave it away?

E: What?

B: I think the way she dressed, it’s very outgoing. “Look at me, woo!”

E: ESFP... ESFP is the yellow one with brown [inaudible]

Q8: Yeah, it’s the Entertainer.

B: Wow...

E: Makes sense, makes sense. Nice.

B: Wow.

E: There’s uh, charades telepathy.

B: Do I get bubble tea?

E: [laughs]

Q8: Sure, sure! [laughs]

B: [laughs]

E: Nice.

Q8: Thank you!

E: Cool, thank you. That was a fun question.

B: [inaudible] we do one more question? Do we have time?

Staff: Maybe two more?

B: Two more, okay, cool. You can pick.

E: Um, alright. In the back, there?

38:51

Q9: Just a normal question: What’s your favourite movie, and why do you recommend it? Or which one do you think is the best use of classical music or violin?

E: Ooh, a movie.

B: That use–

E: Best use of classical music or violin.

B: Dude, that’s not a normal question, that’s a hard question. Whoa, that’s... Favourite movie...

E: That’s tricky. I’ll be honest, I don’t watch that many movies, so already that’s a bit hard for me.

B: Does anime count?

E: Yeah, I was gonna say, I watch anime. 

[fans say it counts]

E: Anime... but then there’s not that much anime with classical music. Obviously there’s Your Lie In April, there’s Nodame... They’re not really movies, they’re like series, right? What movie would you recommend, Brett?

39:59 

B: I’m still thinking, just– I’m not sure yet, I just– It’s– Okay. I have favourite movies. But the classical music part, it’s... I’m not sure I have one that sticks out.

E: Yeah.

B: But, uh... Grease– There’s always all time favourites, like the ones from... You guys know Inception? It’s been a while now, right?

E: Mhm. I like Inception.

B: The dream in a dream—that was pretty cool. In fact, actually, there was an anime that had that, called Paprika. Right, Paprika?

E: Mhm.

B: They had the same concept, with the dream in a dream. But in terms of classical music, I can’t really access that right away.

40:37

E: Yeah, nothing sticks out in mind, I just remember the bad ones, and like, not good ones. But, I mean—I actually haven’t watched this movie—I’ve heard The Pianist is really good. I’ve been meaning to watch it, but I haven’t gotten around to it. Apparently it’s really good, The Pianist.

B: Oh, The Pianist.

E: Yeah. But apparently, it, like, makes you cry. I hate watching movies that make me cry, ‘cause then I’m just like, a mess. The most recent movie that I watched that made me cry—have you guys seen Coco? (The) Disney movie? I know it’s not classical music, but it’s a very musical movie as well, and dude, that movie wrecked me. It was like, so sad, so.

B: I didn’t know that.

E: Right, ‘cause you think Disney’s like, just for little kids and stuff, but it was like, full deep. And it’s about music, and stuff, so. Yeah, that was a cool movie. I don’t know if that answers your question.

Q9: Did you guys watch the new Spider-Man movie?

B: Oh, I haven’t seen it yet.

E: Wait, which one is the new one? But is it the one with the three (Spider-Mans)?

Someone: Across the Spider-Verse, it’s the animation one.

E: Oh, no, I haven’t watched it. Is it good?

Q9: It’s really good.

E: Ooh, okay. Cool, we’ll keep that in mind. Thank you, thank you.

41:56

B: Oh, one more question. Uh... Okay, in the front.

Q10: Hi, I’m [name] and this my girlfriend, [name].

B: [laughs] You guys saw that? He just put his hands all like...

Q10: Well, we are both violinists, and we’ve been dating for, like, five months. And I just have one question, that, um... Do you guys, like, get competitive all the time?

B: Wait, wait a second. Is this– are you asking for a friend, or like...?

E:  Is this relationship counselling right now?

Q10: Friendship-wise, but like, do you get competitive all the time, and like, arguing who being the best– who being the better one? And if yes, how do you overcome it and deal with it?

B: So... does she ask?

Q10: I ask this question.

B: Ohhh.

E: Somehow I feel like the question’s not really about us.

[laughter]

 43:03

E: I don’t think we really do go competitive. Even like... okay, even back in uni, where we had some competitions where we’re against each other, we were never, like, competitive, you know? In the sense that we would still play for each other—like before our competition, we’d be like, “Hey, can you listen to my Mozart?” Or I’ll play my thing for you and just, you know, listen to each other, gives each other some feedback. I know there were definitely some students that were a bit more, like, weird about it. I remember, um...

B: Actually, for me it was similar. For the competitions, it was always about just making it through. Like, “Oh, you’re next, ohhhh.” I always thought about “Oh, who’s going first, who’s going second,” you know? And you can start playing these mind games with yourself.

E: Yeah.

B: So we don’t really get competitive. And honestly, I feel like I’ve never had the capacity to be competitive when I walk on stage. I just get really nervous, and I’m just trying to make it through the whole piece.

E: Yeah, same. It was almost like we’re both sharing the pain of going to this competition together, it’s like...

B: Yeah, but it’s not about us, so...

44:17

E: Oh yeah, that’s right, this question’s not about us. That is interesting though, actually. I have heard, you know, about musician couples. I don’t know, though. I don’t know what to say, Brett. Wise sensei, Yang-sensei. [laughs]

B: Okay, look—do you guys get competitive?

Q10: Sometimes.

B: Sometimes! Ohhh!

Q10′s girlfriend: Because we’re very, like, close in, like, level, and we’re gonna go to, like, university soon, and we’re both gonna study music.

B: Wait, so– but are you guys competing in the same university?

Q10g: Probably.

B: Probably? Have you got in the university yet?

Q10g: We have got in, and we both have full scholarships.

B: You both have full scholarships...

Q10g: And the same teacher.

E: Okay–

B: Whoa... Okay, this is– okay–

45:07

E: This is– okay, I have two ways of thinking about this, actually. I have the practical answer, which is interacting in normal day life. And then I have, like, the bigger picture—what I think about relationships.

So, I think, in life, meeting people that are genuinely close, that you form, like, life-long relationships with, is something that is so rare, and so meaningful. And that, to me, is always gonna be more precious than winning some competition. Like someone that you can trust, that you know that you guys will support each other. 

45:48

And so for me, like for people– like, for Brett, for example—like, I think it’s always that you should want the best for the other person, and you should also know that they want the best for you. And so, you know, if you see someone else exceed—even if, let’s say, for example, he won the Bach Prize and I didn’t, for example—even if in the moment I feel a little bit, like, jealous or envious—I’m not saying I did, I don’t remember how I felt, but if I did—I think at the end of the day, you should still commit. And there’s something you can practice, actually. Just practice being like, “No, I’m going to congratulate them, I’m gonna feel happy for them, because I want the best for them.” I think that’s really important, if you want to have a long–term– not even just relationship, like, a friendship, like a close friend, you know.

46:47

B: Yeah, I think you made a good point, like– Envy consumes you, if you’re not careful. Because it’s all inside you, you know. And there’s nothing to gain from envy—there’s literally nothing there, it’s just– you harm yourself inside. And it’s like Eddy said—yeah, envy happens? That’s why it’s one of—what’s that, like—seven deadly sins, or something. Like it happens, but it’s part of us to try and practice a way out of it, you know.

So you might feel it. It’s okay to feel it, you don’t have to be like, “I feel envy. Oh my god, I’m a bad person. Oh my god.” Just kind of be like, “Okay, well, it’s there, but I’m not gonna act on it. And I shouldn’t respond to it. I just look at it.” It’s like, “Oh, hi, envy. How’re you going? I’m going back to practice.” Just ignore it. And then, what Eddy said—it’s like, you practice congratulating the other person.

E: Mm.

B: So– and that’s– You’ll find that’ll help you in the long run, because then both of you, or who you’re congratulating, will help each other. And they say, “If you wanna go fast, you go by yourself; if you wanna go far, you work as a team.” So that’s really important.

47:52

E: Yeah. Even in the– I mean, even... Actually, that’s a really good point, right, like, when you’re young, it might feel like it’s just about who plays the best, who practices the most, who wins competitions. But actually, later, when you’re actually touring—and y’know, we meet a lot of soloists as well—who you know does matter a lot. And even if you’re the best player, if you just piss everyone off ‘cause you’re so competitive, no one will want to work with you. So that’s really important. Um, and–

B: He’s just– [laughs]

E: [laughs] Okay, but– [laughs] on a more day-to-day, practical level, I think—‘cause like, I have heard stories about this—I think the main thing is if someone else is practicing, don’t give advice unless they ask for it.

B: Oh yeah, don’t do that.

E: Don’t just walk into the room, be like, “Yo yo, I think your B-flat’s a bit out of tune, I think you should uh, work–” Like, don’t do that, don’t do that!

B: [laughs] [unclear]

48:53

E: It’s funny, though, ‘cause I’ve– we know, like, musicians that are musician couple—it’s a really common thing—and the insecurity... I have heard from– especially from couples where maybe one of them is more ahead in their career than the other one, it can feel like–

B: Or they’re in a string quartet.

E: String quartet is a big one as well. So, it’s– yeah, it’s not–

B: Oh, you guys in a string quartet?

E: Like it sounds funny, but it’s actually a tough challenge, and I hope– I wish you guys the best. Yeah.

Q10: Thank you.

E: Cool.

B: Alright, I think that’s it, right? Thank you, everyone!

E: Thank you, everyone, thank you!

49:34

Q&A session ends here. remainder of the video contains audio from the photo session, and op’s conversations, which will not be included here.

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[leighsartworks216]

Oh, if it’s songs you need to listen to, then boy howdy, I got a request for you!

In lieu of the absolute tragedy I’ve asked for in the past, perhaps we could do a Warfstache x Reader based on Livin’ It Up On Top where the reader is still the DA, but it’s more of a happier piece where the DA returns to the egos after each of Mark’s adventures, and Warfstache heads the celebration for it?

~ 🌺

I am SO sorry this took so long. My brain unexpectedly switched from hyperfixating on egos to like 4 different fandoms and it hasn't switched back to egos yet

This isn't really based on the song (I couldn't get into it sorry) but you've been waiting so so long and my brain is kinda mush so here's headcanons on Wilf welcoming you back home after an adventure w Mark instead

Warnings: mentions of food and drink but it's not specified what

Masterlist

AO3

Acting as a main character in one of Mark’s stories is exhausting

Esp when you weren’t trained to be an actor

But you weren’t really an acting DA anymore after “the incident we don’t talk about”, so Mark dragging you along on make believe adventures was the best option

Sometimes you’d be gone for a week, other times you’d be gone for months

(One time you were gone for a whole year)

When you would be back was always relayed to the Egos, but sometimes Wilford knew before anybody else

They would get the message you’re returning tomorrow and Wilford has already been planning for a week off a “hunch”

He always makes sure your favorite food is prepared - everything from snacks to dessert

He sets up banners and streamers and large stereos, usually with help from the Jims

The moment you step into the door, you’re greeted with your favorite music, favorite food and drinks, and the man who planned it all pulling you into his arms in a bone-crushing hug

Wilf always calls you cute little nicknames too like “sugarplum”, “sweetheart”, etc etc

When you’re finally released from the hug, he always asks how the adventure was and gave you absolute free reign to rant about Actor to him

All the while he’s looking you up and down, making sure you’re not hurt or actually too tired to have a party

He doesn’t even know he does it, he’s brimming with too much energy to notice

You’re never hurt, thankfully (God knows what he would do to Actor if you were)

But if he sees you’re too tired for the party he set up, he slings an arm around your shoulders and in a snap you’re both upstairs in your room, already dressed in PJs

The food and drinks (or maybe a copy of them? You still weren’t sure) also managed to find their way spread along your desk

Wilf would act as a little servant, bringing you drinks and food (if you wanted any) and making sure you were totally comfortable

He always beelines right for the dessert, cursed with the world’s worst sweet tooth

And you’ll hang out, mindlessly talking about anything and everything you missed or experienced, sometimes sharing bites of each other’s food

Everybody else (who cared to take part in the celebration) could rock it up downstairs all the while you relaxed upstairs

If you weren’t too tired from your long excursion, Wilf would drag you along into the party

He’d reintroduce everyone like you were meeting them for the first time, but everyone would play along and welcome you back

You’d have to say hi to Dark later; he hates parties of any kind, and Wilford can only drag him into one so many times

Some of the egos would give you hugs, but if Wilford thought they were lingering too long, he’d drag you to the next person and glare at whoever the offender was (He’s jealous shh don’t tell him)

You could eat, drink, dance, whatever until the sun came up

But Wilford would always stick close by, prepared to carry you upstairs and tuck you in when the exhaustion finally hit

Because no matter how much he loves parties, he loves you more

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[cinemastyles-blog]

Iced Vanilla Latte

Summary: A Wattpad request by madxxstyles - “Also maybe rich Harry and y/n who meet somewhere (coffee shop, restaurant, shops, etc.) and hookup after first date??Or something like that Imao”

Warnings: SMUT18+, strong language, first date sex, quick and dirty, unprotected sex, fingering, mentions of alcohol, fluffy beginning, filth ending

Master

HARRY’S HOUSE HARRY

“Hi, can I get a large iced vanilla latte please?” You stood at the counter, patiently waiting for the barista to give you your total.

“Four sixty five.”

You nod and dig into your purse, only to find that you don’t have you wallet, “Shoot. I’m sorry, I must have lef-“

“I got it.”

You look up to see a tall, man in sunglasses with a freshly showered look, “You don’t have to.”

“It’s okay.” He smiles at you and hands the barista his card. You blush, slightly embarrassed, “Thank you. I’m so, so sorry.” You look back at the line and let out a slight sigh.

He turn to you after ordering and pushes his sunglasses up on to the top of his head, revealing his captivating green eyes, “How about you make it up to me with a date?”

You’re kind of caught off guard at first, no man has ever been this forward with you.

You feel a connection with this man, so you smile and nod, “I’d like that.” You hold out your hand, “Y/n.”

He places his hand in yours gently, “Harry.”

“Large iced vanilla latte.” The barista slides the drink on the counter. You smile and grab it, “Thank you again.”

“Where are you off to? Maybe I can walk with you?” He smiles and steps aside so the other person can order.

“I’m just heading to the office, do some paperwork for my boss.” You nod quickly, “But yeah, it’s two blocks that way if you want to walk with me.”

He smiles, obviously captivated by your stupidity, “Sorry. I seen to be having a terrible day.”

He chuckles and shakes his head, “We all have those.”

He grabs his coffee and leads you out of the shop, “So. Y/n. Do you live around here?”

You sip your coffee and nod, “Yeah, born and raised.”

“Really, that’s nice.” He takes a drink of his coffee and you look over at him, “So I’m obviously going to ask, you’re not from America are you?”

He shakes his head, “You got me.” He laughs, “Yeah, no. Im from England. Born in Redditch, raised in Holmes Chapel.”

“Neat.” You raise your eyebrows and nod, “I’ve always wanted to visit there. England, I mean.” You close your eyes and shake you head.

He probably thinks I’m some crazy person who’s escaped from the looney bin, you think as you try to ga your nerves.

“Maybe you can one day.” He glances over at you and smiles slightly, “If you ever need a tour guide I’m sure we can work something out.”

You smile and nod, “Sounds like a date.”

He stops and points to you, “Speaking of.”

“Oh yeah, I owe you one for this coffee.” You hold up the half nervously drunken cup of coffee and smile.

“When are you free next?” Harry tilts his head, “Right now my schedule is pretty flexible so I can work around yours if need be.”

You look up and tap you cup as you think, “Is tomorrow too soon?”

He shakes his head and smiles, “Tomorrow is perfect. I can meet you somewhere, pick you up, doesn’t matter to me.”

“I can meet you at Hilton’s Brewery? They have a bunch of delicious food and drinks if you’re into that kinda thing.”

He nods, “Sounds good. Does six work?”

“Six works.”

——

You take a deep breathe, smoothing out your dress as you walk up to the doors. You stop when you notice Harry sitting on the bench outside, “Oh, gosh. Am I late!” You look at your phone and he stands up, “No, no. I’m just early. Or I was.”

He laughs and runs a hand through his hair, “You’re perfect. Right on time.”

You smile and blush at his words, “Alright, then. Shall we?” You point to the door and he nods as he opens it, “After you.”

You walk in and Harry follows. The host seats you and leaves you to look over the menu.

“What do you recommend?” Harry asks glancing up at you, “I’ve never been here before.”

“Well, harry. I can assure you that the fries here are to die for.” You smile and tilt your head, “Also, the raspberry mash cocktail is..” you kiss your fingers, “Chefs kiss.”

“What ever you say. I’m trusting you.” He smiles and goes back to looking over the menu.

“My mate Niall, from back home, just did something with Guinness along with his mate Lewis in Ireland I think.” Harry nods, “Documentary or something like that.”

“Really? That’s awesome. I’ve also wanted to go there too.”

“I’m sure Niall can hook us up with a tour, that’s where he’s from.” He smiles and you smile back at him.

A little while later the waiter comes up and takes your guy’s orders, “I’ll be right back with those drinks for you.”

“Thank you.” You smile and look back at Harry, “So I have a question, and you don’t have to answer if it’s too personal or whatever.”

He smiles slightly, “Hit me.”

You look at him and laugh slightly, “The bag you were carrying yesterday.. what do you have in that thing?”

He smiles fully and shakes his head, “Oh gosh, we’ll I just came from the gym at the time, so gym stuff, I guess a book might be in there, too. I don’t know.” He laughs nervously and shakes his head.

“If it makes you feel any better, I carry everything in my purse.”

“Everything but your wallet.” He snickers and glances up at you.

Your mouth drops and you point at him, “Okay, Harry. You got me there, Mr.”

“That’s okay. If you didn’t forget your wallet, you probably would have left before I even had the chance to say hello.” He sips his water and shrugs, “So I’m glad you forgot your wallet if you ask me.”

You smile and nod, “Yeah, me too.”

——

As dinner is coming to an end, and the drinks you and Harry got to try settle in, it’s time to leave and you make your way outside.

You stand there for a good minute, taking in the fresh hair instead of the hot air that filled the place.

“That was nice.” Harry says turning towards you, “I had a great time tonight.”

You smile and nod, “Yeah, Harry. Me too.”

“Do you want me to walk you home?”

You bite your lip, still smiling, “Please.”

You lead him in the direction of your apartment and look around at the night life filled streets, “It can be so nice here sometimes.”

“I caught onto that. I like walking around. Good for clearing the head.” Harry looks over at you, taking in the beauty of you enjoying the walk.

You look over at him, “What?”

He shakes his head and smiles, “Nothing.”

You smile and look down. Your hand brushes against Harry’s as you walk next to him and he doesn’t hesitate to interlock his fingers with yours.

You squeeze his hand, not wanting to let go. You rest your other hand on his arm and head on his shoulder as you walk with him.

You two enjoy the company of each other as you stroll on home.

“This is me.” You smile and step in front of Harry as you point to the apartment building. You look up at him, “Would you.. want to come inside for a little?”

“Only if you’re certain of that.”

“One hundred percent.” You smile and watch as he smiles, “Alright then, lead the way, love.”

You smile and pull him with you up the steps to the front doors. You make your way up to your place and unlock the door.

You push it open and Harry holds it as you walk in, “Thank you.” You smile and hand your keys and purse on the hook next to it.

“It’s not much but, at least it looks clean.” You laugh and take your heel off, walking them to sit them around the corner of your bedroom door.

“This is very nice, y/n.” Harry smiles and takes his jacket off, laying it over the chair.

“Would you like a drink? Something?” You ask as you open the fridge. He nods, “A water is fine.”

You grab a water and walk over to him. His hand brushes against yours and you look up at him. Both of you having the same idea.

The water falls to the floor and he pulls you into him with a slight force. Your body slams against his as his hands go to your neck and your lips move in the absolute most perfect sync.

You moan against his lips, sliding your hands up his chest, gripping the collar of his shirt.

“You’re so beautiful.” He breathes out.

You smile and step back, slipping your dress over your head and tossing it to the floor. You walk him back to the couch and he sits down. You straddle his lap, your lips moving back onto his.

His hands slide up and down your bare body, his fingers drag down your back, “Fuck.” He moans as you grind down on his growing bulge.

He undoes his shirt and slips his arms out, his hands going right back to your waist. You reach down, kissing down his neck as you fumble to get his pants undone.

He helps you and pushes them down. You free his cock and he reaches down, sliding your panties over and rubbing your folds with his fingers.

You grip his shoulders and moan out, “Fuck that feels good.”

He bites his lip, watching your face change as he plunges two fingers into you, curling them.

His lip part as you moan out his name, grinding your hips down onto his hand, “Fuck, fuck.”

“Gonna cum for me?” His fingers dig into your skin, “Fuck.” His head tilts back into your hand as it slides onto the back of his head. Your fingers tangle into his hair and pull, earning a moan from him.

You clench around his fingers, whining as his thumb runs against your clit, “Shit, Harry.”

You push your hips down onto his fingers, squeezing your thighs together as you cum.

He guides you through your high and pulls his hand out, flipping you over so your back is against the couch, “That was so fucking hot.” He groans as his lips smash against your.

His hand slides down and pushes your leg open, gripping his cock so he can align it up with your pussy. He pushes the tip in, gasping slightly as he moves his hand up to your cheek and thrusts in.

You let out a moan and wrap you leg around his waist, “You feel so good.” You lips part as you moan and Harry lays his thumb on your bottom lip.

He watches as you suck his thumb, smiling as you tilt your head back.

He smirks, “You’re too good to be true.”

You pull him in for a kiss, wrapping an arm around his neck. His hand slide does your body, gripping your thigh as he thrusts deeper into you.

You moan against his lips and pull him closer with your leg, “I’m so close again.”

“Yeah, yeah, me too, baby.” He nods and pushes his tongue against yours. You clench around him, arching your back and pressing your chest against his, “Fuck.” You gasp and dig your nails into his shoulder, dragging them down his back as you cum around his cock.

“Shit.” He groans and buries his face into your neck, nipping and sucking at the skin until his thrusts suddenly get sloppy and he pulls out, stroking himself as he cums on your lower belly.

You lay there panting, watching his face scrunch up and relax before he opens his eyes and smiles at you.

You smile up at him and brush hair from his face.

He grabs his shirt and wipes you off, “I think I got it all.” You bat the air, “we can get a shower then.”

“We?” He asks with a smirk.

“Yes.. we.” You sit up and lean over to grab a blanket, “You don’t think you’re getting away that easy do you?” You laugh slightly and look over at him.

A smile rests happily on his lips, “I was hoping you’d say that.”

You lean over and kiss him and he moves down to lay with you on the couch. And to think, It all started with a large iced vanilla latte and now the rest is history.

——

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[stop-or-ill-tell]

I have so many thoughts on today's episode holy shit

1. Birds of a feather flock together (Minwoo and Attorney Jang). Fr though I was cringing so much. I have really bad second hand embarrassment even for people I don't like and watching Attorney Jang fumble through that case was truly painful

2. I always feel conflicted about Choi Suyeon cuz on the one hand she's got a very frustrating mindset about autism and Youngwoo but on the other hand she can't stand seeing her suffer even when she's not around to hear the things being said etc. It feels like she either pities Youngwoo or thinks Youngwoo can't handle herself or she doesn't and is just a genuinely decent person who rationalizes her actions in an ableist way cuz she doesn't have the language to explain why she actually likes Youngwoo when others don't (and ik she shouldn't have to defend her friendship to assholes but she has now been asked to do so by assholes on multiple occasions). Some of her actions lead me to think it's the latter but I just can't believe that's true because she likes enemy #1 Kwon Minwoo which only can be explained by the former. I'm not sure if they didn't know what they were doing with her or if she's going to have more explanation. Ig we'll find out tomorrow. Because let's be honest, it's way to late to redeem Minwoo and Suyeon won't be the one to educate him (see their conversation about how they can't act like Youngwoo 🙄)

3. I didn't say anything about last Thursday's episode cuz I didn't have time. But I'm not worried at all about Junho and Youngwoo. Everything points to them getting back together. Especially after the chat they had this episode. My guess is Junho is now just taking his time to fully absorb her reason for breaking up with him and considering his options. But I think they'll be fine

(Also, complete side note, but the way everyone is comparing this to 2521 is so funny and so sad to me cuz 2521 is my favorite kdrama and I actually liked the end. Ik I'm in the minority but I really appreciated it, I made a post about that when it came out tho so I won't reiterate it here. And I don't think this is the kind of show where we have to worry about anything like that here. Especially because we knew it was coming in 2521, the seeds have not been planted here. Even if Youngwoo and Junho don't end up together, I think they'll have a satisfying ending)

Junho can tell how much she misses him. From the beginning of the episode he noticed her waiting to see him and he knows she just has to see him and that's it. But also that scene in court after the plaintiff took cyanide he wanted to help her so bad. Also also I think both his and my heart cracked when Youngwoo said she was afraid of making him feel lonely because she likes him so much 😭😭😭😭

4. THAT TRAILER!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHES GONNA MEET HER BROTHER!!!!!

5. Attorney Jang pissed me off but I genuinely laughed when he pushed the rookies to the reporters and then hid sneaking into the car... although driving away without everyone felt very out of character for Junho

6. HARY'S PLACE HAS BECOME THEIR HANGOUT I LOVE THEM THEY ARE SO DRAR TO ME

7. SPEAKING OF DEAR TO ME! ONCE AGAIN THE WAY YOUNGWOOS FRIENDS IMMEDIATELY BONDED WITH JUNG MYEONGSOEK!!!!!!!! I hope they're friends forever. The fact that a) they visited him in the hospital and b) that he made foOD FOR HIS MOTHER - save it. I wanted Hairy and Suyeon endgame before but I take it back. If we don't see a hot and heavy Attorney Jung/Hairy make out scene in the finale I'm staging a protest

#eaw #extraordinary attorney woo #jung myeongsoek #attorney jung #attorney jang #kwon minwoo #choi suyeon #woo youngwoo #hairy #big fan #cant wait for tomorrow #also holy shit fuck both the ceos #why ruin every fucking ones life #its petty and unnecessary #im on a plane as i write this it took me 20 minutes

[cfs-crohns-colitis-warrior]

Happy Valentines Day everyone! Sending love to all my chronically ill peeps!

I’ve never had a reason to celebrate this day before, but this year I finally have my first boyfriend and I was able to go to his house after he finished work and spend a few hours with him. If only I could’ve stayed overnight but he has to be up super early for work tomorrow so I’ll have to wait for Friday night to share a bed with him again!

Living with a stoma, you’d think I’d always worried about finding someone who would love me, however my bag never worried me in that regard. I did still worry I wouldn’t find anyone, but it was more down to my other health issues that hold me back, whereas my bag helps me go further.

I know for a lot of people having a stoma presents issues in regards to finding someone and intimacy, and I just thought I’d share a couple of things in the hopes it could help.

First off, being single with a stoma can make you worry you’ll never find anyone, but the right person will not care at all, and will embrace it and you. I was on a dating app for like 3 years before I met my boyfriend, and it took so long because I’m a little picky, and conversations with decent guys usually fizzled out after a little while and I was struggling to find the energy and/or courage to meet up with people.

Part of that was that the first guy I was meant to meet up with kept cancelling and messing me about, so I was always kind of chatting to other people but hoping that would work out. Then I actually met up with a guy and it just felt so uncomfortable. Anyway, in the end I figured the best way was to FaceTime a guy before meeting, because at least then it was less energy from me and easier to see if things clicked without having to meet up.

When I first FaceTimed my boyfriend I had a guaranteed out because I had food on the way, but in the end I didn’t want to have to hang up. We met up a week or so later after he got back from a holiday and got together officially that very weekend.

With him, I told him fairly early on that I have a stoma bag, and he was fine with it. With anyone else on the app I also told them early, as long as the conversation allowed for the topic, and I can’t recall anyone rejecting me because of that specifically. The truth is, there will always be things about you that people can reject, whether it’s a stoma bag, another health condition, or just your personality (pretty sure my personality is what put off almost every guy who stopped talking first).

Anyway, the point is, even if you’re worried about being rejected because of your stoma bag, or any other chronic illness/disability, you have to try not to let it hold you back and just get it out there. Like I said before, the right person will not care and may even love you more for it!

As for intimacy, well, a stoma bag can make intimacy a little awkward, but my tips are to empty it beforehand, try and fold it up out the way if you’re able to, and otherwise, just try and focus on everything else and forget about the bag! When I was first intimate with my boyfriend, my bag didn’t even cross my mind! I was too busy thinking about everything else that was happening at the time, and not once had my stoma bag held me back when I’ve been intimate with my boyfriend.

So, all in all, I guess my advice would be to tell people early on, and try and forget about it and not worry too much about it when it comes to intimacy etc. Of course, that’s much easier said than done, especially for some, but I promise you, you deserve love no matter what, and the person will love you regardless of any issues you have!

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[imlearningtudraw]

Episode 7 of Under The Queen's Umbrella

I knew that Queen Hwaryeong had a plan to get Crown Princess Hwibin, the Grand Heir and Grand Princess out of the palace! I like that she said that she'll bring them back to the palace at a later date. Hwaryeong really does love her family and it showed, again, in this episode.

Again I understand why Grand Prince Seongnam/Kang is sometimes combative and not trusting in Queen Hwaryeong because of him growing up outside of the palace etc. But I wish he trusted her enough to ask her what's going on first, instead of just jumping straight in accusing her of betraying the crown princess and grandkids in order to save her Queen title/position. Like I get that it's completely plausible reason but also like he must know her enough to just say "hey ma, what is going on?" when she does something out of character. Am I making sense? I hope I am.

I knew that the takhyeong (spelling?) was bound to happen but I like the way Hwaryeong decided to let it happen. Also I liked the scene of her, the Queen Dowager and Minister all meeting and openly discussing the game/mess/situation that they're in. I love it when characters drop pretenses and say it how it is. It felt very really and natural. I wonder how many political figures have had those kinds of meetings over the course of history. Countless I'm sure.

Grand Prince Muan, Gyeseong/Hwan and Ilyoung/Yul visiting their Hwaryeong and bringing her food after one of interrogation sessions was so sweet. Them accusing each other of being more worried about her made me laugh. Also liked how Hwaryeong was honest about being afraid for her sons safety to Ilyoung/Yul and that she will do everything that she can to protect them. I love how much they all love each other and how obvious it is to them and to us. Also Hwaryeong noticed some colour on Gyeseong's nail, what else are they going to do with that storyline?

The Crown Prince selection contest is going to be an interesting episode! Prince Hodong is adorable and also I noticed that he had the brightest outfit lol I'm sure they made sure of that so that he's easy to spot with how tiny he is 😂🥰 that's my baby!! He's so cute!! In regards to the other sons it'll be interesting to see how they get on. Will there be side missions maybe? Like having to help elderly people and kids and random adults? (Sidenote : Seongnam is going to run into Lady Chungha for sure though! I wonder if she'll meet any of the other princes.) You know to exercise and prove their wisdom and knowledge etc. Also I wonder where the finish line will be? Will it be the palace or somewhere significant to the royal family or just a random spot we haven't seen yet? Also one of the show's posters features only Grand Prince Seongnam/Kang, Muan and Gyeseong/Hwan and Queen Hwaryeong but Prince Ilyoung/Yul isn't on it. Many of us have noted his absence and I wonder if the Crown Prince contest might be where we lose him? Or will it be later on in a different storyline? Or am I just being dramatic? Something is bound to happen to him though, because why else would they not include him in the poster? Anyways ja please it just be my imagination running wild and nothing more. I wonder what tomorrow's cliff hanger ending will be?

Also what business do Physician Kwon and Master Toji have together? Kwon called him Master so we know that he's his teacher but I also want to know how he fits into the Crown Prince death besides what we know. Gosh I'm so scared/nervous/confused!

Anyways as always I love Hwaryeong and her family

#under the queens umbrella #this show yeah

[187days]

Day Twenty-Seven

I was kind of a hot mess today. I mean, no irreparable damage has been done, but grrr. I don’t like it.

First of all, I made a scheduling goof. There’s an early release day tomorrow, so I was going over the schedule with my ninth graders, but I forgot that the admins had changed the schedule because they want to hold class meetings (and I read that email, I have it written down, I just totally spaced it). I posted the correction on Classroom, and I’ll apologize tomorrow in class for any confusion it may have caused. It really isn’t a big deal. I just can’t believe I did that. 

I also got a bit snippy during my Block 3 class. Some of the girls had to leave early for an away game, and two were lingering in the doorway while the third packed up her stuff, which would have been fine if they had been waiting quietly. Instead, they were distracting their classmates as I was trying to continue teaching, so I finally snapped, “Just go!” at them. I didn’t raise my voice- I rarely ever do- but it’s obvious I was annoyed. Again, not that big a deal, but it’s atypical, and now I’m flustered.

I’ll get over it, though.

Everything else went really well today. We had a solid test review session in APGOV. I fielded lots of questions (no more silent GOV class, woohoo!), we played a round of Kahoot, and then I let them study on their own. In World, I had students complete a comparison chart about Judaism and Christianity. After that, we watched a video clip showing a day in the life of a Christian priest, and- predictably- I assigned an annotation on Islam. More on that religion next class, and next week, as well, since it’s the one they’re least familiar with. 

Ooh, and the culinary students did a “soft opening” of their cafe, so Mr. F and I went down to get lunch. We’d both packed food, but this was better. I had a meatball sub and a salad; he had soup, salad, and a whoopie pie. Delicious.

I spent my prep time jotting down lesson plans for GOV in my plan book because we’ll be starting a new unit next week. I like to map out my units so that I can post dates for tests, projects, papers, etc... I’m totally fine with changing them if need be, but it’s good to have some idea of what’s happening when. I was on a roll, so I ended up staying late to finish that up. It helped me shake off the messiness of the day, as well. 

We go again tomorrow!

#teaching #teacher #teachblr #edublr #educhums #education #high school #social studies #being a hot mess #day twenty seven #holla at the career tech department #Mr. F

[lucysweatslove]

8.25.2022: Journal (+ rant)

Probably TW, can’t tell for sure but I have a lot on my mind regarding weight and my current body and calorie counting and all the things I’ve ranted about before.

Oh and also TW for pet death.

Husband was out of town yesterday, which is not a rare occurrence as he travels to our old “city” for work sometimes to see colleagues, attend after work functions, meet with clients in person, etc. I’m not usually bothered by this, although I miss him when he’s gone, but last night his colleagues had dinner up at one of their cabins which has terrible cell service, and the entire evening my anxiety was sky high because I couldn’t communicate with him to make sure he was okay. They were out late and all I wanted was to call and say goodnight but couldn’t. This made for a terrible night’s sleep, even though I had the bed to myself and some good Oreo snuggles.

This morning I had a bit of a panic when I saw I was training My Replacement today by myself on a very busy clinic day that I didn’t know I could even complete on my own. Usually I have help; today I had none scheduled. Oreo was refusing to eat his breakfast while I tried to get my breakfast prepared (overnight chia oats, added protein powder and a banana) when my husband called. **TW for pet stuff; I’ll keep it to this paragraph.** His friend’s girlfriend’s dog nearly drowned. She was resuscitated but was not stable, and they were going to transfer her to a pet hospital in the city I live in, and Husband asked if Friend’s Girlfriend could stay with us while Pup was in the hospital. Of course I said yes, but our house is a MESS- not just messy but currently “dirty underneath” as I’ve had no time lately. I started to have panic from the emotional news and everything in my plate already. Instead of eating I tried to hurriedly pick up a bit, but I had to start work. Husband orchestrated his day to drive home so he would be home when our guests arrived, but shortly after he got home, his friend called with the worst news for the pup- her organs had failed and she passed away. There has been a lot of pet related sadness lately. My sister’s Guinea pig also passed recently (Monday, overnight), Oreo’s not eating well, I see tons of lost pet flyers and ads, my best friend’s cat is getting older and losing weight on his way out. Friend’s Girlfriend’s Pup was also named Lucy and we have snuggled before, so honestly her death hit me harder than I thought it would. And my husband decided to comment about how bad things come in threes, and with Pip and now Lucy, I’m scared about the superstitious #3 being out baby pug.

In less depressing news, work actually went alright. A resident was working today and she took 1/3 of the patients so I could keep up pretty easily in my own. I couldn’t give too much actual training to My Replacement but sometimes just watching the flow can help ease anxiety. She will start notes tomorrow assuming I have help with that clinic.

I’ve been kind of trapped in this place of not knowing the “right” way to proceed with health stuff recently. My husband tries his best to be supportive, but I don’t think he understands how or why “just have a glass of water” is bad advice/inappropriate when I comment on being hungry after dinner/near bedtime. One, I get plenty enough water- both actual water and water from food intake. I’m not thirsty. I get sick if I drink too much water, actually, so just adding water isn’t a good idea. Two, fluid that close to bedtime may wake me up to pre. Three, water doesn’t actually suppress my legit hunger cues. Four, *my hunger is legitimate and when I complain about being hungry at night the appropriate response is to tell me go eat something. A couple nights ago my bedtime snack was blueberries and walnuts because I was hungry. Husband’s response is well-intentioned I think, because he knows I’m unhappy with my body shape and size and wants to support me in whatever goals I have set, but my primary goal isn’t simply to lose weight/fat. Yes, I’d like that, but not at the expense of losing my connection to my hunger cues again. Not at the expense of my psychological health.

Sometimes I think all people, including the people who know my history and lived some of it with me, forget the hell of restrict EDs, or they just see a fat person now, not somebody with a tenuous history. I think about the message we send to others (the message others send to me) because they have been sent to us, and we don’t realize how damaging and unhealthy they are. If a person who looked even a little “chubby” wanted to lose weight and expressed hunger at non-meal times, I think most people trying to be supportive would give the same “drink some water.” However if a person who was already relatively thin had that same goal, we would realize that’s not healthy and encourage them to eat when they’re hungry. What’s the difference? What’s the message we’re sending? I think the difference is that we are conditioned to think, however subconsciously, that either 1) people who we are as having any amount of “excess weight” don’t actually know when they are hungry or full (eg confusing appetite with physical hunger), and/or 2) actual, physical hunger doesn’t have to be, and maybe shouldn’t be, honored when somebody is “fat.” The messages here to me range from “fat people can’t trust their bodies,” to “only thin bodies deserve a positive relationship with food,” to “hunger is desirable for fat people to ignore.” As a fat person with a former restrictive ED, that last one feels particularly egregious. It glorifies what to me was an absolute obsession. At my “peak ED,” I felt truly addicted to feeling that emptiness. I would chase it. No, it didn’t give me a high from substances, but I needed it to cope. I needed it to feel better. I needed it more than I needed to be a good partner or a good student or a good sibling or a good friend or whatever it was.

Now I want to be clear that I don’t think many if any people are outwardly saying fat people need to get to that level. Nobody I know, even the biggest asshats, have expressed wanting fat people to learn to enjoy hunger and the sensations that accompany starvation (like the low glucose and low BP after an intense workout lightheaded shakes and passing out 🙃). However, there does seem to be a fairly widespread belief that fat people need to just “suck up” feeling hungry- that ignoring hunger is a positive thing. I am fully aware that I PERSONALLY take that to the extreme in my mind- but that’s how my need started. I was told that hunger doesn’t actually mean I need to eat, that I shouldn’t eat when hungry sometimes if I wanted to lose weight, and that played a huge role in MY personal spiral. I worry about the role in plays for others.

Further, the idea that fat people just don’t know how to tell it they are REALLY hungry is ridiculous. Why do people think we know anybody else’s “real” hunger cues better than the person *actually experiencing them?* ALL people can absolutely ignore or misinterpret their body’s signals, and I totally “lost” hunger cues in my ED likely because I was so disconnected from my body. But somebody being fat does NOT mean they have lost those cues. Even a fat person with BED doesn’t necessarily have “broken” hunger cues- many know full well they are physically full and there is something else driving their binges. Really, I think this one comes down to people assuming the only way somebody gets fat is by constantly overeating when they aren’t hungry, and the way non-fat people may rationalize this is that a fat person just can’t tell when they are TRULY physically hungry. This is perpetuated by all the messages about what else can make us “feel hungry” such as dehydration, exhaustion, and heavy emotions. Since those are common experiences among people of all weights, it isn’t hard for us to take a leap and assume this is the cause of overeating leading to weight gain. Which is a whole different topic to unpack for a later date. The point of the rant here is that instead of being curious about what a fat person is experiencing when they express hunger, it’s accepted in society to initially assume that the fat person *is wrong* if a thin person thinks it’s not an acceptable time to be hungry. As if thin people are somehow hunger police. “I succeeded in being thin and therefore I am more qualified to tell you about YOUR hunger than you are.”

I guess my point is, when somebody says “I’m really tired today,” we don’t question how tired somebody is. If somebody says “my neck really hurts today; I think I slept on it funny,” we don’t insinuate it’s not *real* pain. If a light is too bright and it’s starting to trigger a migraine, we don’t tell them it’s a perfectly fine level of light and they’re just misinterpreting a normal headache as a migraine. In all these situations, we accept whatever that person needs to do to safely resolve their physical cue: get some more sleep when you safely can, take a Tylenol and stretch, dim the lights and/or wear sunglasses and take rescue meds. So why, when somebody says they are hungry, is it ever socially appropriate to suggest that the hunger isn’t real or that if it is real it doesn’t deserve to be resolve it may even be desirable.

Anyway speaking of body cues, my body is telling me it’s exhausted. In honor of my exhaustion, I’m going to sleep.

#personal #journal #Lucy rants

[teen-adulthoodguide]

Documentation in the workplace is extremely important!

Summarized from this post

Be careful what you put into an email. It never really goes away and can be used against you. But it can also be a powerful tool for workplace fairness.

You should summarize conversations for basically anything, but especially ones with your supervisor that include:

your supervisor asking you to do something illegal or against company policy

your supervisor asking you to stop doing something that is perfectly legal (like discussing wages)

something that could go wrong, and your supervisor will deny that they told you to do it

your supervisor wants to push back a project

your supervisor wants to temporarily change something like your schedule or tasks

Sample email snippets:

"I just want to make sure that I understood correctly that you want me to do [something that is not allowed by law or policy]" Quite often, once they see it in writing, they will change their mind about having you do it. If not, you have documentation.

"I'm happy to help out temporarily, but just want to make sure I understand correctly that I will get my old schedule back after [set time] as you promised."

"I want to clarify the discussion we had earlier - you told me to focus on Project B to the exclusion of Project A for the next two weeks, even if that means Project A will miss its deadline; is that correct?"

What do I do when the boss doesn’t reply to my confirmation email, then says that they never approved the project delay?

(For this to work you have to be militant about sending summary emails and firm with coworkers and supervisors that you will be documenting project plans via email, but once they're used to your habits it's worth the work)

In person or over the phone you say "that doesn't match with my memory of the project but let me check my records and I'll get back to you about what happened on this project."

Write an email to the boss

CC: work group, team lead, project partner, direct supervisor, etc.

(Depending on severity of problem) BCC: your personal email

Sample text: "Hi Boss, I'm trying to resolve some confusion here. After our conversation about priority projects on [date] I reached out to you for confirmation of these details (see attached outlook item) and didn't receive an update to the timeline since that communication. I have been working from the agenda we discussed (summarized in attached outlook item from [date]) in absence of further direction. Do you have a copy of your response updating the changes or correcting mistakes in my summary? It's possible that I didn't see your email and I'd like to identify where a communication was missed so that we can avoid issues like this in future projects."

If you don't have this kind of job but someday you'd might: start practicing.

After a casual conversation with friends, write up a brief synopsis of what you discussed & agreed to. (...Do not email this to friends unless you have their agreement that this would be a fun group project.)

"A, B, and C had a brief meeting about food options after the big game. We decided on pizza, with A and B agreeing to contribute X dollars each, and C agreeing to contribute Y dollars and also bring soda. A will call for pizza on the day of the game and schedule it for delivery at 8:30 pm."

"A, B and C discussed movie options. A wanted something light and fun; B wanted something scifi; C was fine with anything but horror. Nobody wanted superheroes. Decided on Lost Space Wanderers which opened last weekend; C agreed to research theatre options and report tomorrow."

#becoming an adult #workplace #legal

[laura-apexart]

DAY 26th 8.2.23

It’s been a process to get to see a synagogue 

Unlike the other religious institutions, where I could just walk in, I have to coordinate and send my passport for security reasons and then I am given Vivianna’s number to contact and she gives me a time and the address. I notice the building appears to have the same marble stone on the outside as fragmentos —yellow, cream, not recognizable as a Synagogue until you look up and see a kind of Star of David latticework on the windows of the building inset behind the wall.

We meet at 1:45 and she welcomed me warmly and takes me first inside a smaller temple that’s mostly gray with a skylight of stained glass. We sit down in the wooden chairs to chat-she asks if I’m Jewish and I tell her a bit about myself.

She explains the layout of the space. We are currently sitting in the chairs directly around the Bemah which is in the center of the temple because it is an orthodox Sephardic

Synagogue, and because no one is currently praying we can sit in the center.  Everything is always built, directed eastward toward Jerusalem (where the Torah scripture and scrolls are stored). She points out that since men pray three times a day they get to sit around the Bemah whereas women are not required to pray three times a day so they do not have as much seating and they sit at the back in two rows close to the door which are separated by a low wooden fence. 

There are only around 3,500 practicing jews in Bogota and 4 synagogues (with a few smaller ones in schools). The Jews that do practice and observe are largely orthodox. I ask about anti-semitism. She points out that the Star of David is on the inside of the door -it’s not advertised but people are generally accepting and respectful. Later I will go home and notice that the tiles of the floor at my Airbnb have a pattern with a striking resemblance to the swastika –was this intentional?---which is very upsetting and hard to believe, and makes me feel very naive, and I try to focus on the shapes that the negative space makes. 

She gives me a tour of the rest of the complex-a big interior courtyard with the bones of a Sukkah, the bigger synagogue that is having some work done, in this one the chairs are folding like in a movie theater and there are big crystal chandeliers which prompts me to notice the balcony where the women are separated from the men to sit and look down, participate from a far.  There is a small kosher grocery store with essential provisions, a playground, community center, it is a whole world unto itself. Then she takes me to see the mikvah —where women go before their wedding —it’s a whole process, you have to remove all nail polish and jewelry and clean dirt from fingernails etc. and then each month after their period, some women also go. I ask about menopause.  I ask why it must be fresh, running water, bc scripture says so. 

There is a smaller mitzvah for cleaning dish wear too.  

In the evening I walk to Dame Tu Lengua where I am supposed to go to Kitchen Club and learn about cooking Cuban food/ The cooking class is canceled because the teacher has Covid so I walk up the mountain to go to Diosa bakery where I had incredible cookies at the liberate the coca festival. The neighborhood seems fancier and full of good looking restaurants. I get an assortment of baked goods to share and bring on the hike tomorrow.

#Laura Bernstein

[kurdistann]

Chapter 4: Ferris Bueller’s Day Off

The next day, Tuesday, we were supposed to go meet the Prime Minister of the KRG. Jack and I played hooky from this and instead wanted to explore the bazaar in the “real Erbil”. We wanted to experience breakfast outside the hotel, and really dive into this old part of town. So, Jessica, Dilan, and Natasha (friends of Azad’s) took us first to a local breakfast spot where they ordered up naan, cheese, yogurt, etc. and we set at a little table in an offshoot area of the market. Now this was diving in! Not only did Jessica, Dilan and Natasha order breakfast, but they paid for it, over our protestations. You’re our guest, they said. These 3 ladies were such incredible guides and hostesses, I am forever grateful to them how they revealed the essence of this city. By the end of the week they too would be my Kurdish sisters.

It was so fun to be where the locals were. We walked around the bazaar, bought some manna from heaven, a pistachio, white candy, and had fun with the vendors. I loved it when we would pass a stall, and one of the gals would say “you must taste this” or, “these chickens on the rotisserie are the best”, or “here they have the best pickled vegetables you’ve ever had". (Evidently they pickle all their vegetables and it’s very popular). We loved hearing about their lives here too. There is one 24/7 restaurant called Pacha. The Pacha market serves a serious protein concoction of organ meats, liver, etc., and it’s Azad‘s favorite place. They actually took him for his birthday there at 4 AM, their busiest time! It sounds gross to me but supposedly it’s really good. In our anticipation and excitement, we said, yeah, let’s go there tomorrow! 5 AM! Yeah! At the time we thought we could do everything…

The bazaar, to locals, is an area, not just the covered stalls. Jessica showed it all to us, and we walked around for hours. There’s the beautiful fruit and nut section you see in the photos of Erbil, and I loved all that, but the most fascinating part to me was the parts section. In Erbil, you fix everything, you don’t throw it away. For example, her Vitamix broke, and she brought it to this section of the market and they fixed the motor for four dollars. We walked past stalls with just computer boards, thousands of computer boards. Another stall had old TVs. All those flatscreen TVs that we throw away? – they fix ‘em. Stalls with motors, all kinds of motors, fans, equipment parts and pieces and I didn’t know what they were, but if you had any handyman in you, this was your heaven on earth. I also love that they try and fix everything before throwing it away.

Another street – I’ll call it the housewares street, had the biggest aluminum soup pots you have ever seen. You could literally fit a person in one of these pots! Jessica said she might have to come back and get one of these bigger pots for her refugee camp, an NGO she and her husband run. NOTE: she would want the pot for food, not to put a person in.

There were two great things about walking around the bazaar, which is a huge area. One is we crossed over from apprehension to totally comfortable. We felt safe and secure after this day of mingling with the people of Erbil. While the armed guard at the hotel may have caused us concern, it was the actual people themselves that erased that concern and put us totally at ease. Jack said he felt that if any bad actor, say, tried to kidnap you here, 500 men would stop them.

The other fun aspect was my attempt to communicate in Sorani with the locals. I had been speaking the little Sorani I had learned in the days prior, while in the official meetings. When I would say to them in Sorani “Hello, my name is Ann, it’s so nice to meet you, we are so happy to be here, thank you for your hospitality,” their eyes would light up. They absolutely loved it, and I could tell by their reaction how much they appreciated my efforts. Visitors to Erbil typically don’t try to learn their language, evidently. We just expect them to learn ours. They so appreciated that I had taken the time to learn just a little, and they were so graceful because I know I messed up many, many times, and probably said some crazy things! For example, the phrase “This was so nice“ sounds almost exactly like “We were so nice“, haha. I am so very sure I said “We are so nice” to whomever had just hosted me instead of “This is so nice”! But, I would always follow up that phrase with “Thank you for your hospitality“ in case I screwed up. The bottom line is a little bit of effort on my part went a long way. In fact, there were several times when we were trying to communicate, and the Americans actually asked me to help communicate with someone who spoke zero English. And it worked!

We stopped and had tea with Jessica, and it was wonderful and fascinating to hear about her life in Erbil and the daily intricacies. The power goes out several times a day for maybe a minute or so. Her 5 kids yell, “power’s out!” each and every time. When it happened to us later, we looked at her and said, “power’s out!”. You have to drink bottled water. I think she said that dysentery was quite common. Many of the women get nose jobs. Most of the women have their babies by scheduled C-section for various reasons. (Jessica had all five of hers naturally, in a pool of water). Many of the taxi drivers are retired Peshmerga or retired Asaiid security forces. There are cameras everywhere, so people know bad actors. Peshmerga checkposts are dotted throughout the countryside, trying to keep ISIS from threatening them again, as they did in 2014. In her refugee work, she said, most of the adults devolve into an entitlement mentality, with zero gratitude for their efforts, but she keeps plugging away because she’s doing it for the refugee children, who have no other options. She makes her own essential oils, and is what I would call a true granola girl. She said she does have trouble finding pure Shea butter, which confused me because I thought we were experiencing purity in all of the products… OK maybe my Pollyanna view is skewed a bit.

And at this point, I have to discuss the bathrooms. Skip this paragraph if you don’t want to hear about this. Basically the bathrooms are a squatty potty with a hose to spray yourself off, so the floors are totally wet. Even the nicest restaurants may not have a western toilet. You would flush the squatty potty, but you had to remember to take toilet paper with you in many instances. We were always “relieved“ when we saw one of the stalls was indeed a western toilet. For the life of me, I don’t understand, healthwise, why you wouldn’t choose toilets over a spray. Might cut down on the dysentery problem.

That afternoon we caught up with the rest of the Sister Cities folks at the bazaar. Three of us girls all had custom dresses made with fabric from the one of the stalls. Our “local team“ was there with us at all times to help, because the tailor spoke zero English. I mentioned Jack ordered his shirts, and they came out really nice… But my dress is kind of a mess and not at all what I requested. The women wear their clothes so huge, that the tailor wasn’t even going to put a zipper in! And even though I described how fitted I wanted it, well in the end he added about 6 inches on each side! Guess he’s not used to making form fitting women’s dresses. Oh, well… I’ll have to have it re-made here in Nashville.

Another must-see in Erbil is the Jalil Khayat Mosque. Here you had to wear a head covering. Beautiful structure and there is no way a camera can capture it’s beauty, but we tried. We had to run in and out real quickly because they had just issued the “call to prayer” so their service would start soon.

Dinner that night was at a local’s home in “new” Erbil. It was set up by Kanaan, an elected representative who’d come to Nashville last summer, whom we all remember as the handsome guy who sang a Kurdish song at Becky Sharpe’s reception at her home. He is a rising star politically with the KRG (Kurdish Regional Government). We were in a really nice residential area of gorgeous, huge homes, and the street scene is what I imagine Dubai nightlife to be: upscale cafés, bustling activity, festoon -lit restaurants, a typical cosmopolitan international city. We didn’t go into any of these cafés or bars, but it was indicative of the two Erbils: old and new. We’ve been at the old one all day, now we were at the new.

Our hosts were a young family, Naz and her husband, a doctor. Naz was a small woman, juggling a toddler and a five-year-old. She also worked as a banker, and I gathered quickly that she was from a well to do family. We ended up sitting together at dinner, and she came across as a tiny dynamo. I told her the biggest obstacle, in my humble opinion, to the Sister Cities exchanges and a developing relationship was the media portrayal of Iraq over the past 25 years. Of course, Kurdistan is not Iraq, culturally, but most people don’t know that. So, I told her, to me, the media is our problem. She said “well, maybe it’s time for a PR campaign“. I knew right then and there that this lady is a problem solver and she has or can access the resources to get things done.

I think I made a big faux pas, though. The live music started, they had a famous Kurdish singer, and the music they were playing just beckoned for dancing. The Kurdish dancing is really just a big circle. You join hands and do a simple step advancing the circle. Kurdish line dancing, if you will. I tapped Naz on the shoulder and said, let’s get this dance going, we started a dance for about 15 seconds before she was told to sit down.. Not sure why, but I sat down too. Later, Omid, my personal pesh, started the dance, and we all joined in. (Naz did not, interestingly.)  It went on for 30 to 45 minutes, the longest song I’ve ever heard! The governor and Kanaan and the Kurdish gals and a few of us Americans participated. It was really fun.

Naz gave us books by her father. I have no clue what it says, but anticipate it to be a pretty serious work. I thanked her profusely in Sorani. I had brought hostess gifts from Nashville, hemstitched cocktail napkins (or tea napkins if you’re in Iraq), embroidered with Tennessee flowers. But tonight I’d given my hostess gift to the wrong host – Kanaan‘s wife!  Another faux pas on my part, and another hostess gift I’ll need to send out when I get home.

Jack estimates the homes in this area to be $25 million. But, the bathroom situation? You got it, a squatty potty from what he saw. (of course he didn’t see the whole house.)

[survey--s]

497.

Was there anything that you planned to do today, but didn’t? Nah, I didn’t really have anything planned for today and I’ve pretty much done nothing, lol. I’ve spent most of my day messing about online and watching “Meet, Marry, Murder” on Netflix, lol.

Is there anyone you interact with often on social media but not in person? Sure, mostly family and friends who don’t live nearby.

What colour box does your favourite cereal come in? Orange - I don’t really eat cereal often, but I do love Crunchy Nut lol.

Do you have any plates, dishes, mugs etc. with pretty illustrations on them? No, not really. Most of them are plain or they have hearts/polka dots on them.

Does anywhere on your body currently hurt, or feel sore? For once, nothing is hurting or aching! I suspect that’ll change when I go back to work tomorrow but for now I’ll make the most of it, lol.

What is your favourite snack to eat with a hot beverage? Okay, I had the most AMAZING peanut butter and jam blondie on Friday with a cup of coffee and it was incredible, lol. Generally I don’t have snacks with hot drinks but I do love a bit of cake with my coffee sometimes.

Is there any advice you have been given, that sticks in your mind? "Don’t sweat the small stuff”. I used to think it was really trite bollocks but it’s SO true and makes so much sense.

What’s the nicest advice you have ever been given about love or relationships? I don’t really remember getting much advice about that kind of thing.

Do you own any adult colouring books? What kind(s) do you like? I have like 5-6 of them but I haven’t used them since lockdown. They’re just the ones with random patterns on them - Mandalas and stuff like that.

When was the last time you got some new headphones? About eighteen months ago and I think I’ve used them twice lol.

Is there a lamp in your living room? What colour is its shade? No - we have two regular overhead lights and then there are warm white fairy lights going all the way round the room which I have on whenever I’m home.

Do you know anyone whose name starts with the letter X? Not nowadays, but I went to school with a Xavier, and I also have second-cousin called Xavier, but we’ve never met.

Have you eaten any rice or pasta today? Yeah, I had chicken korma with rice for lunch.

Name a food that you dislike the texture of. Bruised bananas.

Which of your friends do you confide in the most? Probably Emma.

Have you ever fallen out of love with someone?  Sure, these things happen - people change and things happen.

If you have pets, do you talk to them? Duh, lol. I mean, are there really people out there who don’t talk to their pets?

Are there any TV shows that you strongly dislike, but others seem to love? Game of Thrones. I’ve tried to watch it about five times but I get bored after the first season and give up lol.

Is there anything you haven’t done lately, that you’d like to do soon? I need to get some new clothes, but I’m holding out until next weekend as I’ll have been paid properly then.

Have you experienced any kind of food cravings lately? Roast potatoes.

Have you watched or read the news today? No - I just get my news via social media and reddit.

Describe the cover illustration of the book closest to you. There aren’t any books within arms reach of me.

Are there any take-away or fast food places close to your house? Yeah, there’s a chippy about 50 metres up the road, lol. Our town also has another chippy, a Chinese, a pizza/kebab/burger place and an Indian place. Most of the regular restaurants do takeaway too.

Is there anything happening tomorrow, that you’re looking forward to? Nah, I’m back at work tomorrow and I really CBA lol. I’m sure it’ll be fine once I’m back though.

#survey #surveys

[kinetic-elaboration]

January 11: This Week So Far

I made it through the first two tough days of this week, and to Wednesday, which is just a Normal Day. I am such a creature of habit, I get all worked up about any change to the normal day routine. So the early part of this week was rather stressful, in a low-key, I-shouldn't-be-stressed-about-this-thing-but-I-am way. Tomorrow I have a meeting, and Friday I have several events--all good/fun things like staff breakfast, lunch out, a TS meeting (counts as fun, we never do work during those), etc., and even the search committee meeting is something I'm looking forward to because I'm curious to hear people's opinions on the candidates--so today is really the only day where work was just 8 hours to work on whatever I want and after-work is just...well, admittedly most of my days are like this, but basically, free and open.

Work was pretty successful. I think I have already veered from Deluge to Drought, which makes me pretty annoyed at all the stress I let myself feel last week, despite my best efforts. But I am feeling more under control, which is good. After work, I did NOTHING (no regrets, except for how late I'll sleep). All in all, a very neutral day for the middle of the week.

On Monday, I had my rescheduled dentist appointment, which went very well. It was extremely efficient and my teeth were fine, which I always worry about at this point, just because I've had these teeth for nearly 30 years and you never know what they're up to. Then I stopped by the Food Lion on my way home and also the Starbucks. Somehow got a blister on my toe...extremely sad since I wasn't walking that much, but oh well.

Then Tuesday were the candidate interviews, which went very well, but did eat up a hug chunk of the middle of the day. I liked both applicants a lot, and I think that was the general consensus. We were up in the Faculty Library ("by tradition" lmao--okay, I have never seen a library person interviewed in the Faculty Library and I've been here for years and seen like half the current stuff interviewed but okay, a tradition from the vault), which was sort of disorienting actually. But cozy.

After work I went serious grocery shopping, which also went very well since I didn't have much to buy. I need to keep that energy up--no extraneous grocery purchases in 2023. The Mart is in the midst of some kind of huge rearrangement of its grocery section, which made stuff hard to find, but ultimately I got everything I wanted. I'm curious what it will look like when they're done.

So I have accomplished much this week... a couple more days to go. I should probably actually be productive after work tomorrow because I have some home-things I haven't done but... we'll see. I am very tired and want to sleep.

#the year 2023 #2023: rl