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#and honestly im not even excited about it because i know i cant live how i want anyway because everything will be gone
malkaviian · 1 year
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i am having a great time here on life dot com
#/s#i only ate a scrambled egg today; i couldnt finish it and i feel sick#something else happened today that just showed how this girl is even more manipulative. how did you turned out like this.#or maybe you were ALWAYS like this and youre just showing your true nature now? how i didnt realized this before? we were friends for years#and honestly at this point i would say whatever ruin your life; nobody is going to stay that long around you like we did.#but you have A WHOLE ASS CHILD. A 4 NEARLY 5 MONTHS OLD BABY THAT DEPENDS TOTALLY ON YOU!!!!#STOP BEING SO SELFISH!!!! AT LEAST THINK ABOUT THE SON YOU CLAIM TO LOVE!!!!#maybe im exaggerating but i feel betrayed by someone i saw as a sister + i saw her son as a nephew.#i already lost a 11 years friendship last year why is this happening to me again. and is ending in a horrible way#sorry that the rest of the group dared to still do friend stuff even after you became a mom and thus became unable to do certain things now#i *get* it; you feel envious. but we cant stop our lives just because YOURS changed. we told you multiple times we love you and your son#we love when you bring him with you because we love him; and two of us dont even like kids that much. we were excited the whole pregnancy#we supported you because we can imagine how difficult being a young; single mom is. we did that because youre important#but we committed the horrible sin of doing things without you; because you yourself said you couldnt and/or dont want to go#we committed the horrible sin of still being friends with each other and eventually bring in another friend#whom we tried for you to get along; but it didnt happened and were in the wrong for still hanging out with him.#we tried to talk about you feeling excluded from the group; but you only told us 'i dont know'; because if you directly said#'i dont like that you three have a social life together without me even when im literally unable to follow your steps now because im a mom'#you would sound extremely selfish. and you know what? you are. i get missing the stuff youre not able to do now being a mom; its normal#but its not a fucking excuse to try to destroy the rest of the group. i love how youre pretending to be the victim in this case#by saying 'oh [x] said she felt uncomfortable with me she doesnt want to be friends with us anymore :((' when its not what happened#she said the problem is YOU; not the rest of us. she told you the problems she has with you; we saw the fucking convo#and youre twisting her words to make her look like the attacker. plus trying to make us think she also wants to stop being friends with us?#literally not whats happening. you think were just going to take your word anyway and not ask her about it?#even when breaking a friendship out of nowhere is pretty important? were just going to go 'oh [x] is a bitch' without asking anything.#also we know now she has been your punching bag for so long. we saw convos and your recent attitude towards her confirm it.#anyway youre a fucking selfish manipulator who cares about things going her way only. and were seeing it now#well; i guess at least it means were aware of your true nature; even if we feel betrayed for how long you pretended towards us#things are going downwards and is literally your fault#negative
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omanu · 8 months
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#hey god (you guys) it's me again#ive been living my life as i can but there are times when i get paralyzed bc of the state im in#i feel too old to be at this point in my life and in theory i dont care but it has its effects in real life like#im a 26 year old person who is still in college with no friends in college#the age factor is not entirely responsible for this but it is a lot anyway#the 20's ppl in my classes are too childish and lively and just at some place im not anymore#im still a girl which i really am not but i cant not be a girl right now#but i am#and i just keep thinking how embarrassing it is to be like this#and i cant really do anything about it#i will get too old when im able to and at that#everything will be harder for me when i can change#and honestly im not even excited about it because i know i cant live how i want anyway because everything will be gone#the moment is gone#and i will keep hating myself#cuz i want to and cuz im unable not to#like. there is no other way#and no one is talking to me no one cares enough about me for that#i will be 30 a pathetic virgin who cant connect with anyone#an ugly bitch until i die i think this is the most tragic thing of it all#no its not okay no i wont find anyone no one will find me#it's not right ive never lived right#and i have always hated it and i always will#im just trying being patient. one day i will die#one day i will#be patient#nobody can empathize with me nobody can reach me#it sucks i hate it but apparently that's what i want
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immamapletreekid · 1 year
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doing so well so fine then bam i remember jjba is a thing
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xsoleil boys x reader || wedding day
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a/n: im bored as hell now guys 😭 im just gonna like post a bunch of headcanon stuff LOL i might post like fanfics, but thats a maybe wwww ALSO ALSO starting to reaaally like the later waves of niji, so ill prob focus on mainly xsoleil, noctyx, iluna, etc. ill dribble in some luxiem from time to time, but like the other waves need attention too 🙌 i might do some of the fem waves, but im not sure how to write those LOL
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HEX HAYWIRE
bro this man's voice makes my brain go haywire
anyways uh
would definitely just be like very happy and stoic during yalls wedding
he'd treat you like his pretty princess/prince
anyways uhhh he would be that kind of romantic person to like take your hand and kiss it once you go to the front
oh my lord, im struggling to find his green flags when all i listen to from his asmrs are the yandere ones
UHM...... i mean like reception would be cute, like he'd dance with you
like beauty and the beast vibes ykkk
help im genuinely struggling w anything thats positive about marrying him 💀
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DOPPIO DROPSCYTHE
AWWW HED BE SMILING AND LIKE EXCITED
LIKE HE WOULD BE WAITING FOR YOU EXCITEDLY AT THE FRONT
i feel like doppio would just be generally so excited and happy hes finally marrying the person he loves so much
he would fix his hair JUST FOR THIS
this is also the only event he will never be late to
oh god he would be so nervous when the ceremony actually starts
like hes worried he'll mess up his parts or someone will object
BUT it probably wont happen and itll be a great wedding!!
reception!doppio would be fucking lit
HE WOULD BE THE LIFE OF THE PARTY
he'd already be making dad jokes even if he isnt a dad yet
i swear, he would be kissing your forehead or cheek every few minutes
oh my goodness, drunk doppio would be so sweet
like i can just imagine him getting tipsy while like the maid of honor and the groomsman doing their little speech things and him getting really emotional
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VER VERMILLION
honestly, i think he would cry at yalls wedding
like, he just screams 'emotionally fragile man on occasion'
the second he sees you in your wedding dress/suit/wtv, he'll start tearing up knowing that yall r gonna be married
and he loves you ya know
he'd hide the fact he was tearing up when you get to the front www
five bucks, doppio would be stifling his laughter when he sees ver crying
reception would be wholesome
ver would be whispering things to you while you guys dance
and not just random things
like i mean in korean
yeah his cute ass voice when he talks in korean
the voice where you want to keel over and throw up because it's really goddamn adorable and kind of attractive because people who speak more than one language is always somewhat attractive
tipsy ver is something to live for
it doesn't always happen but when it does its either hilarious as fuck or really cute and wholesome
like when he gets drunk, there's a 50% chance he starts to emote on the dance floor with an equally drunk doppio
or he could be holding your hand the whole time and staying by your side
a/n: WWWW im sorry i half assed hex's hcs LMAO i just genuinely cant see something that isnt overly explicit or kinky that wouldnt happen on ur wedding so thats why his is like the shortest lmao 💀 errhmm yeah, also ver is my #1 oshi thats why he has like the uh longest one LMAO UHHM yeah whatever lols have a good timezone
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project-sekai-facts · 6 months
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Sorry if this spoils you um... TSUKASA FOCUS!! What are your thoughts on what might happen? Based on the event description and then bunny plush being w tsukasa in the untrained.. im inclined to think because he's been cast as a minor role, he's kind of. like. What if i cant cause many smiles because of where i am.. and then meikos like you silly goose. you're the brightest star in someones universe and the bunny is there to remind him . AUGHH. AUGH
dw daichan already spoiled it on the stream last month lmao. Oh this event looks so interesting and frankly!! it's perfect for tsukasa's character arc!!! sorry about the excess of exclamation marks i'm excited about the possibility that people might finally understand him after this event and finally free me from writing analysis posts about him haha.
him being a minor part is literally what he needs to improve his acting. he's always either the lead or a major character, taking a step back is like another slap of realism for him and honestly, it might even be better for him than the challenges he's faced before when he struggled with lead roles. because he can't always be the lead, that just isn't a possibility. no matter how good an actor is they will not be the lead in everything they star in. he's pushed his limits to get lead roles before (Torpe, Rio, also the secondary lead Bartlett), so i think approaching a minor role is going to be a whole new experience for him.
I'm especially interested in the fact he's tasked with making the character feel real because we all know what that means: some good old fashioned Tsukasa unpacking his emotions. we don't know yet exactly what this minor character is doing, so i can't really make any guesses as to what is meant to feel real about it since we don't know their motivations and conflicts yet, but i get the feeling it will play into the fact that Tsukasa got the minor role, like how Rio played into his weaknesses and Torpe connected to his younger self.
As I said, Tsukasa is pretty much always the lead or some significant role. In this scenario as well when what he’s trying to do is improve his acting, such a minor role could feel like nothing. I think those feelings (be it annoyance or disappointment or whatever it may be in the story) are somehow going to play a part in how he has to make such a minor character feel real.
Also I think one of the aspects Tsukasa struggles with most is understanding the characters he plays. With Torpe he couldn’t relate to him and therefore struggled to play the role because he couldn’t get his head around how the character should act. With Rio he struggled too, and tried to replicate some of the character’s struggles in real life to help him try and get into the mindset of the character. But those two were MCs, a minor character with three lines is a whole different story because they don’t have an arc. However, all characters in a good story will have some sort of motive and you will be able to tell what that is from only a few lines. Good dialogue should be able to tell you a lot about a character. I think that’s what Tsukasa is going to learn in this event. Minor characters are not irrelevant even if they don’t contribute to any major plot points. All the characters in the world of that story are real people with individual lives and thoughts and feelings.
And to steer this away from me talking too much about screenwriting I think a minor role as you pointed out could be a hit to his desire to make people smile. Because who cares about a character with three lines? The hero makes people smile, not a forgettable background guy. The forgettable background guy won’t mean anything to anyone, he won’t make anyone smile, and he’s not a star.
Also the preview and title I think will play into these insecurities and lessons. He can’t be the lead every time, he can’t always be the big star of the show. However he can make a small role into a highlight, and even if he isn’t the frontman, there will always be people who will view him as the star of the show regardless, like Saki (Usa-chan) and WxS, and he can at least make them smile.
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mountslove333 · 1 year
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MASON MOUNT - FIRST TIME x reader
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BLURB??
yours and masons first time sleeping over at his house.
this sucks so bad im sorry but cant not post it as it took forever to write so please please please request something juicy
 thankyou sm for all the love on my last post :)))))
and please request ideas (maybe something angsty????) cos im so bad at coming up with ideas
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You were getting ready nervously to go to one of masons matches, you were nervous because you were sleeping at his place afterwards. 
You and mason had been speaking, going on dates and getting to know each other for a couple months, you both longed to spend the night with each other but due to the world cup, your work and just both your schedules you hadn't had the chance to spend the full night with each other as something always got in the way.
But one thing you knew is that you really liked mason, how couldn't you? he was perfect. Always caring if you were okay, having the best sense of humour and his looks certainly helped. You just really hoped he liked you as much as you liked him.
you finished off your makeup, tying your hair into a cute ponytail, then went to wear you laid out your clothes to change into. Some leggings and your ‘mount’ chelsea shirt which he had given you after you first trip to watch him at one of his matches. putting it on you remember the butterflies in your stomach and the smile on your face when he gifted you this and the way he would grin when he saw you in it so you certainly didnt complain each time you had an opportunity to wear it.
When it was time you grabbed your bag of your overnight stuff checking you had remembered everything before grabbing your keys and heading to your car beginning to drive to the stadium.
Arriving at the stadium you smiled, you loved watching mason play. you headed inside and too your seats you were meeting your friend, a long time chelsea supporter so when you went to watch mason she never minded coming with.
“hey millie” you greeted hugging her 
“hey, come on sit down its starting soon” she grinned standing back allowing you to reach your seat
“anyways you excited for tonight” she smirked
you had told her excited last night about mason offering you at stay at his, and about how long you had waited to spend this time with him.
“yes definitely, but also nervous what if it makes him not like me or something” i told her honestly
“don't be silly, it will make him like you more” she reassured me
“i hope so” 
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The match was amazing, whenever he could mason would lock eyes with you even send you a wink occasionally making your stomach spin, and to top it off chelsea won which you knew would lift the mood for the night.
but now you were walking out of the stadium after saying your goodbyes to Millie your nerves heightened, heart beat speeding up as you got closer to him but that all seemed too disappear when your eyes met masons.
“hey you” he greeted as you got closer wrapping you in his arms, grins plastered across both of your faces
“nice shirt” he smirked pulling away from the hug
“it is isnt it” you said looking down at it
“well done by the way mase, you were amazing” you gushed 
“thankyou darling, now come on lets go its freezing” he said ushering you into his car
you had let millie take your car home and were going to collect it tomorrow as she didnt live far from you at all.
You got into masons car placing your bag in the foot well, you looked up at him finding him already looking at you
“i missed you y/n” 
“i missed you too mason” he placed his hand on your cheek bringing your face closer to his, your heartbeat began to quicken again before you lips finally met.
you moved in sync reaching your hand up to place it on his face, you pulled away for a second smiling, just taking him in. you really were lucky. you pecked his lips one last time before going back to sitting normally in your seat.
he started the engine smirking to himself, before beginning to drive,
 the radio filling the comftable silence that fell over you both mainly due to how wide your smiles both were and the red that grazed across your cheeks.
eventually you began catching up on anything and everything, just enjoying each other's company before reaching his home, he took you bag for you once you got of the car and you began to walk inside
his home was beautiful, it was so mason you loved it. you loved how everything was so him it felt so nice to just be surrounded it.
“wow mason it so nice”
“why was you not expecting it to be?”
“no, no that's not what i meant i-” you began to panic 
“im only joking y/n, thank you” he laughed putting his arm around you
“that wasn't funny” you told him half serious hitting him softly on the chest
“sorry couldn't resist” he smirked sheepishly
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He showed you around his home before finally reaching his bedroom showing you where to put your bag, how everything worked ect,
“im going to take a shower, make yourself at home the tv remote just there” he said gesturing to his bed side table
“ill not be long” he said placing a quick peck on your lips
“okay, thankyou” you said your eyes not leaving him as he walked to the bathroom.
you decided to get changed into something comfier as you hated sitting on beds in clothes you had worn outside, you had just packed some joggers and a small top along with your pyjamas and essential toiletries. you chose to change into the joggers and top.
you sat on masons bed scrolling through you phone before you heard the water shut of finally, looking up as you heard bathroom door opening your eyes were met with a partially clothed mason he only had some grey joggers on and was mid way through putting his top on. the wet hair made the sight even better, you couldn't help but stare.
he smiled catching onto your staring 
“you okay there?” he questioned smirking
“yeah perfect” you smiled back.
he laughed shortly, joining you on the bed, you went to lay beside him your head resting on his chest as he pulled out his phone
“you want something to eat?”
“i was thinking of ordering something cos we both know it will be nicer than my cooking” he questioned looking down at me
“yes please”
you both picked what you wanted mason than he placed his phone down and put his hand on your back tracing soft circles, you stayed like this for a while, content. watching whatever mason had put on tv.
“mason?” 
“mhmm”
“i really like you” you told him turning your head to face his
the corner of his lips have never formed a smile so fast
“i really like you too” he placed his fingers below your chin to lift you head up to softly meet his lips, you moved positions to deepen the kiss, your fingers getting tangled in his hair as he pulled you closer
his lips began to trail down you neck sucking softly before returning back to your lips, you fought for dominance, eventually he won flipping you over so he was hovering above you. 
he pulled away breifly smiling at you, pecking your lips before starting to take of his shirt.
the ringtone of his phone rang loudly throught the room startling you and making mason curse under he breath, he glanced down at his phone
“shit the foods here”  
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allamericanb-tch · 2 months
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crimson rivers thoughts (9)
@tastetherainbow290 long (ish) one today
chapter 17
author says they’re excited for this chapter… should i be scared
yeah. i’m scared.
SYBILL!!!!!! AND LILY!!!!!!!! AHHHH
dumbledore mention
omg i love sybill and lily
im obsessed with lily actually
are they like district 13 or like what is this. is dumbledore president coin
poppy!!!! ok i am liking this chapter a lot
remus sacrificed himself for lily ❤️‍🩹
oh. lily thinks remus is dead. and remus thinks lily is dead?! remu and lily reunion when
i gasped
sirius pov ok
frank mention!!
evan 💔
james and reg ☹️ ugh i just feel so bad for everyone
dorcas!!!!
molly!!! 
rip fab and gid 💔
oh no molly doesn’t know
dorcas what are you doing you have to tell her
ok she’s telling her but did molly have to strangle her 😭
order mention!!
sirius pov
pandora my love <3
james talking to sirius omg i’m going to cry
regulus jump scare
“I’m just saying, maybe you'd appreciate it if I put them down yours instead” JAMES
wolfstar eeeeee
me trying to contain my happiness bc i’m in a silent classroom
oh no now it’s getting sad
oh yeah. i forgot remus has to stay here.
AHHHH FINALLY they’re kissing
WHY IS THE FIRE ALARM GOING OFF RIGHT NOW READ THE ROOM NOW IS NOT THE TIME FOR A FIRE DRILL
“if you like you could do it again” smooth, sirius.
and they’re doing it again
“is it too soon to be sure i love you” i have goosebumps rn
ok this was a good chapter
chapter 18
remus pov!!
mary mention!!!! i hope we see her in this i love mary so much
SIRIUS LICKED JAMES 😭😭 yeah he would.
eeeee they’re kissing again
remus being sirius’ first lover 😯
and they’re kissing again
PANDORA NO 😭
ugh i love her so much
james pov again!!! this means the game which means sadness but JEGULUS
“Oh, look at that convenient cave over there,” yeah james that’ll work
unrelated but my neck hurts really bad rn
james only surviving for regulus ugh. i love them. 
james being a hopeless romantic
“if you tell me what the mitochondria is, I'm not sure I'll be able to restrain myself” BAHA JAMES
regulus writing about james in his journals he is so me
he burned them?! he really is just like me. 
james being regulus’ first crush ahhhhh
“you made me feel” AHHHHHHH
not regulus almost killing peter and then just LEAVING
reg pov!!
regulus being…. silly
hmmm maybe these thoughts you’re having about james mean something? did you ever consider that?
not regulus thinking james ABANDONED him sweetie no james would NEVER
chapter 19
JAMES!!!
did i just predict that
regulus you do trust james don’t lie
ugh
"I'll kill them if they try it. I'll kill them all before they ever got a chance to lay a hand on you." REGGIEEEEE AHHHHH
vanity!!!
yeah. how are the rest of them gonna die. like. aghhhh i cant think about this now
“at least no one is calling him lover boy” nooo don’t think about evan
ant juice 😭 poor vanity
oh no the fires. this is just like what happened to rue.
oh no. they’re all going to die. ahhhhhh
peter is doing it 💔
LITTLE LOVE BLANKET IM CRYING
vanity is so cute im not ready to lose her
confession time (5) ive had to pee so bad for the last like 2 hours but i’ve just been reading this and i don’t want to get up 
vanity and hodge unexpected duo
vanity is so me rn
her asking james about kissing 😭
james “love isn’t even that great” potter, everyone.
i love that the harry potter lingo is used in this. like hallow, auror, horcrux. it just is so silly
vanity PLEASE do not die. i am literally begging you do not die right now.
vanity naming the hornet 😭
IRENE AND PETER 😭 jump scare but honestly good for her
oh poor james
him blatantly lying about him and reg i just know sirius knows
i live for jealous regulus
irene is an ICON i am not ready to lose her
i feel like vanity is going to try to smuggle vespa and then someone is going to die because of it
regulus calling james the sun. even as a joke im giggling rn 
ahhh kiss kiss kiss
nooo they’re leaving
should i read another chapter??
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fatuismooches · 6 months
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FUCK I TOTALLY FORGOT TO SEND YOU AN ASK ABOUT THE FIC... i just got hit full force but like 89831 different fucking projects all at once MY BAD POOKIE BUT UGHHHHHHH oh my god.... part 2??? yes.. all of it is soooo YESS
YESS you visualized everything what you've been talking about how reader would react when they first wake up after centuries and honestly hella realistic EVEN THOUGH I JUST WANNA HOLD READER AND KISS THEIR FOREHEAD 😭😭😭
reader interacting with the segments has my HEARTTT oh my god.. especially omega.. he's SUCH A DEVIOUS MOTHERFUCKEGUJK,,, also reader naming the segments UGHHH i adore that idea so much pleaseee ,, i love how the segments who didn't give a shit suddenly changed their minds when reader said they wanna give them names... THE SWITCH UP AND THE IMMEDIATE DENIAL...
READER MEETING BABY ZANDY ,,, FUCKINGG hell got me sooo soft i wanna hold baby zandy and treat him soo nicely 🥹🥹
ALSO YESS omgg,,, this part has me sooo fucking soft like reader making friends??? with the other harbingers??? i love it... omg they'd be such good besties with columbina,, i think pantalone helps reader adjust to present time as well, especially with it comes with money or the economy (if you ever ask him about it)
but oh.... to top it all off nicely, you gotta sneak in some subtle angst!!! smh... (im so proud of you tho!! like yasss sis feed me sad shit >:333) poor scara and reader :( i think they would've gotten along if reader wasn't dottore's lover n' scara wasn't dottore's experiment ,,,
ALL IN ALL. fuck you pookie im not excited for the next two parts (im kidding I AM IM JUST... NOT READY... pleas epost it next year so i'll be ready enough thank you /jjj) NO SERIOUSLY THIS TIME,, THIS WAS SOOO GOOOD and i love it so much, really popped off honestly (evil laughs because it's dottore)... like im soo happy to see how much you've grown esp thru writing !!!
have a good day pookie, im going back to my grave where i died for the next few days 💗💗
ALSO I WAS GONNA SEND IN ANOTHER DOTTORE IDEA but i fucking forgot again. FUCKS SAKE i hate not writing shit down...
POOKS DONT EVEN WORRY!! Just make sure to take care of yourself ok?? School can really be an ass i understand-
BUT OMG GRENFRG AHHH YOU'RE MAKING ME SMILE TOO MUCH POOKIE AHHWQ I'm so happy you liked it 🥺 BUT NGL I WANNA GIVE READER THE BIGGEST HUG TOO 😭 i put them through too much don't i 😭 dw they will be getting Dottore comfort next chapter!!
Bro i love writing Omega as a devious mf so much 😭 IM SO GLAD U LIKED THAT PART BC I WAS GIGGLING TO MYSELF ABT HOW THEY DGAF ABT THINGS BUT THEN SUDDENLY THEYRE INTERESTED WHEN UR A PART OF IT
AND YESSSS READER MAKING FRIENDS RAHHHH that part was probably really long for a Dottore fic but. i feel like having friends is so important and fragile reader really deserve some niceness in their lives 🥺 AND OMG NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT. Fragile reader would be freaking blown away from inflation. i don't know how prices were four hundred years ago but they would probably be shocked to their core when they see how much expensive things are now?? imagine fragile reader trying to stop Dottore from buying things for them because of how expensive things are now, and they're having flashbacks to being a broke Akademiya student 😭 And Dottore is just honestly finding it amusing to see you freak out and beg him to save his money (it's okay, he's a Harbinger he's loaded) (as long as he's not spending it on experiments)
BUT YEAH MAYBE IN AN ALTERNATE UNIVERSE... reader and Scara could have been friends :( we'll never know... but yasss i will continue to feed you sad shit >:) hehe I CANT WAIT TO POST THE FINAL PART!! ngl the ending of the fic was like. the first thing i wrote for it because it hit me and i was like i CANT forget this. im telling you pookie its gonna be pretty juicy. BUT THANK YOU YOU'RE BEING SO KIND AHHH it's really sweet of you. thank you for being here for so long in my writing journey (and my descent into Dottore madness) ily 🥺
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fairlylino · 1 year
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SECRET SECRET / hwang hyunjin au / CHAPTER 1
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authors note; im so excited to be sharing the first episode of secret secret with you guys! im hoping that you enjoy reading this as much as I did with writing it !
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Hyunjin loved it. He loved every second of doing this. 
He felt so much at peace, so much comfort and so much relief in what he is doing. 
Drawing, painting, sketching. 
In his apartment, alone, with soft music playing in the background of his slight messy room due to paint brushes and paper, with his hair being brushed back with a hairband, and wearing a glove to not get his hand messy. 
His friends always call him an old soul. They cant seem to understand the passion the long haired male has for art. 
But he didnt mind that. 
They got along nevertheless, having the time of their lives together, being best of friends ever since attending highschool. 
Now theyre adults, free from school and deciding to work together. Even living at the same place. 
Hyunjin, Bangchan, and Jisung. 
Its a weird trio, honeslty, because their interests are nothing alike. 
Well, only some of them aren’t.
What they equally find interesting is music. Making, producing and dancing to music. They loved it.
Thats the reason why the young three males own a little group, gaining a bit of followers on soundcloud, following to grow even bigger on youtube.
Jisung being the songrwriter, Bangchan the producer and Hyunjin the dancer.
They loved what they were doing. Music was like a golden pear keeping them as best friends.
They do say you get along best with people that are nothing like you.
No one believes the story on how they met. Because how can three people who absolutely hated the guts of each other, end up sharing an apartment, living together ever since?
They dont know how that worked out, but it definitely did and theyre glad it did.
All three have different kinds of interests besides music, and they all respect that.
Hyunjins interests just happened to be art.
He loved painting his surroundings, his thoughts, pictures he captured, moments he shared with his friends full of joy and happiness.
As well as his dreams.
He cant seem to get tired of it. Ever.
Ever since that one dream.
It was something about dreaming, that inspired him so much. He found it so interesting to think how the human brains works and how it processes past experiences through dreaming.
Every now and then he remembers another detail of the dream, immediately sketching it, so he wont forget.
See, some people write down their dreams, Hyunjin likes to draw them.
Which is honestly way more difficult.
Since with every day that passes, the fear of forgetting grows bigger.
Sketch after sketch he would try his best to draw every detail of the female.
Why was he so invested in it?
Because it was the first and last time he’d seen her. Every night he would pray to see her once again, how he would do everything to talk to her, hear her beautiful voice again, looking into her angelic eyes again.
But nothing.
Thats what made him so invested. He understood every reason behind his dreams, associating them with his reality and experiences. But what was this one about?
He softly drew her hair, how they swayed in the wind and breeze, the hem of dress following the movements, and her gentle, sparkly face.
Her eyes were the most difficult part.
Why is it that, the part he remembers the most were her eyes, but also were the hardest to draw?
Sketch after sketch he’d try again, thinking the more he’d draw her, the more perfect he would remember her.
Did he tell his friends about his dream?
Yes.
Did he tell them she was the girl he kept drawing?
No.
They didnt, and shouldnt know anything about him drawing the girl of his dreams.
What they know is that one dream keeps him up at night, that he wishes to dream the same thing again.
His friend realised ever since that one specific dream, he has been acting different.
As if he got reminded of something bad happening in his past life.
But they never dared to ask. Because even Hyunjin didnt have an answer to that.
With a knock on the door, he got distracted from his thoughts.
“Jinnie, we are going out to eat, wanna come?” Jisung asked, not fully entering and only reaching his head out the door.
Hyunjin sat on his bed, the sketchbook in his hand taking a look at it again.
He hated it. It looked nothing like her.
He always messed up her eyes.
He sighed.
Maybe he needs a break, some fresh air.
“Sure, I’ll get ready.”
They were at their favourite cafe, being regual customers ever since they moved here, across the street. It was small, never full and fit their vibes and comfort just perfect.
“Not going to lie I am a bit nervous…” Chan fiddled his fingers, playing with the straw of his drink.
Jisung rose an eyebrow. “Why? Everything will be fine. We’ve been waiting for this since forever,” he replied.
Chan sighed, nodding. “I know but… arent you nervous one bit? After all we have been working with them for so long, and are finally meeting them in real life…”
Hyunjin agreed. As much as he was excited to finally have some movements in their career, he would lie if he said he wasnt nervous or anxious.
What if they dont get along? What if they’re completely different than what they acted like through all the video calls?
“Listen, guys. We know them for what, six months now? We know them, theyre our friends. We are finally going to meet and work with them. Theres no need to be scared.”
Jisung was right.
They werent strangers.
"Im really excited to see Changbin. That man is a genius," Chan praised his internet friend.
How they met wasnt really anything special. Chan just happened to scroll through instagram, seeing one of his mutuals follow Changbin, talking about how thankful he is to be promoting their newest work.
Chan checked Changbins page out. And was immediatly amazed.
Changbin was also a producer of a small group of 4.
The male never showed shame to slide in his dms, complimenting Changbin for his amazing work.
And thats how they met.
Talking about music from day until night, they eventually started to work on tracks together.
Which finally lead them to see each other after 6 months of working together.
"Im excited to see them all," Jisung added.
"There were two people we havent met even online though, right?" Chan asked.
Jisung nodded. "Yep, We heard them, but didnt get to see them yet. Cant wait."
Bangchan pulled out his phone, opening instagram. "I think Changbin posted a pic recently with them,” he said, scrolling through Changbins page.
“Oh my god, that guy looks so cute,” Bangchan said, zooming on the blonde guy, face covered in freckles and his smile brighter than the sun.
“Damn, and the other one looks… intimidating,” Jisungs eyes widened slightly, grabbing Chans phone out of his hand to see if theres more.
“Wait, whos the girl?” Jisung asked, showing Chan the photo on his phone.
Chan looked confused, since he has never seen the girl before. But on the picture Changbin looked very close with the female.
“Friends, I guess? He would’ve introduced us to her if she was in their group as well.”
Whilst Chan and Jisung were scrolling through Chabgbins Instagram page, Hyunjin took his time to get out his sketchbook again.
He took every chance he could to spend time trying to perfect his drawings, yet he was never ever satisfied.
“Your book is going to be full again if you keep redrawing, Hyunjin…” Jisung interrupted him, making him sigh.
“Is it still about the dream?” Chan asked.
Hyunjin was embarrassed. Because it was still about the dream. It has always been ever since the dream.
“I just cant get myself to like it. Its never the way I saw it,” Hyunjin sighed, closing his book.
“Maybe if you’d actually show us what you’re drawing all the time, we could help.”
But Hyunjin never showed them. Even he thought its weird that hes obsessing over that, so what would his friends think if they see him draw him a girl 100 times a day.
“I want to show you guys when im fully comfortable with my work,” he explained, which he said everytime.
And his friends respected that.
“Are you drawing us maybe? A little gift?” Jisung pouted, making Chan giggle and hitting him on his shoulder.
“Yeah yeah,” Hyunjin laughed. “Sure Jisung.”
The rest of the night the three guys took their time to get back into work, being in their full element of doing their thing.
“You two better at least today get some sleep. We need to be fit and presentable tomorrow,” Jisung yawned, slowly making his way to the door, to his room.
“We’ll try,” Chan smiled, waving his friends off.
When it was just the two, Chan stretched himself, walking towards the blonde male. “You’re ready to sleep?”
Hyunjin shrugged his shoulders. “I have to try, but before that i will clean my room a bit.”
“Good, then go, ill finish up some work and will head to bed as well.”
Which was a lie.
Chan cant sleep, hes been struggling with insomnia since forever, yet his friends still encouraged him to try, though it was helpless.
Hyunjin on the other hand, was just a night owl. He loved sleeping, but also enjoyed the silence, peaceful nights.
So the second he plopped on his bed again, he took out his sketchbook.
Flipping through the pages, he took his time to observe and focus on the details.
Her eyes.
Her eyes stood out the most, her eyes were the first thing he noticed and the last thing he remembers.
So why, why cant he draw them just like he has them in mind?
He shook his head, closing the book. He knew if he goes into grabbing is pencil, hed not stop until its daylight.
Hyunjin wasnt a perfectionist, yet he wanted the girl of his dreams to look perfect, just like he remembered her.
He hopes, he wishes and prays to see her just once. This one more time.
And it looked like his prayers didnt work out once again, since he groaned with a stretch, turning off his alarm clock.
But its fine.
Thats what he always tells himself after waking up.
At least today, he tried not to think about it too much.
Today was all about meeting the other boygroup.
What do you wear when you’re first meeting up with people?
Though Changbin and his friends saw each other at their most comfortable state, in nothing but joggers, oversized pyjamas, he still wanted to look good, to at least have a good first impression in real life.
Everyone admired Hyunjin for his sense of fashion. He enjoyed simple things, yet his style was far from simple.
Even if he doesnt try to be stylish, and just puts on whatever, he always manages to style any outfit.
Today was all about black pants with a white buttoned shirt. He decided to keep his hair in a side part, and finished himself up with some perfume.
“We’re going to meet our friends, not a royal Family,” Jisung dropped, after Hyunjin entered the living room.
He stopped and looked down at himself, “Too much?”
With a “yes” from Jisung and an “Only if you’re next to us which is always the case” from Chan, Hyunjin decided to leave it on.
And just like that, they sat at their place in the diner again, waiting for his friends to arrive. It might take awhile, but they werent sure for how long.
“If they take any longer im going to fall asleep,” Jisung sighed, dropping his head on the table.
“Im sure theyll be here soon,” Chan said, starting to lose patience too.
“Ill just go to the toilet,” Hyunjin said, and as he was about to get up, Chan grabbed him.
“But they could be here any minute.”
Hyunjin sighed. “You said the same thing ten minutes ago, itll be fine and im quick.”
Hyunjin went to the bathroom with his head tilted down. He was so upset with himself. Washing his hands he looked up to his reflection in the mirror.
He hated it.
He hated how obvious it was that he's not in the best mood. He doesn't remember the last time he looked cheerful or actually enjoyed doing something.
Even his most favourite activity was pressuring him, so he couldn't even enjoy what he loved doing most.
He kept repeating in his head that he got this, trying to cheer himself up with a sad smile on his face.
He didnt even understand why that dream was affecting him that drastically. And the fact he has no other drives him even more insane.
Trying to shake the overthinking off, he walked back to their table, where he stopped walking midway, when he saw that the new people arrived already.
He didnt realize how long it has been since he last met new people. He was praying his first impression wouldn't be a complete disaster.
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sorryyy its late and i am filled with joy and whimsy. i love them so much, my sibling always gets annoyed with me cuz theyre all i talk about.. can you blame me? to have that vast boring nothingness shift into excitement and happiness and real true love? if you were me, youd talk about it too
its so funny cuz my life seems to move in cycles, familiar patterns that ive grown really sick of.. traumatizing and terrible, horrible bloody mess.... and then the most long drawn out boring slice of life youve ever witnessed. trauma! nothing! trauma! nothing! really tired of that.. i never thought that my nothing could be broken with joy, isnt that strange? for once, im not really hurting anymore. when i do hurt, i can handle it on my own and let go, and if its too much then i know im safe to express it
ive come such a long way, i dont tend to see myself positively, but.. its hard not to be proud. guys it turns out all you need to be happy is like. LOVE isnt that so corny isnt that so unbelievably predictable... APPARENTLY its true, i guess it feels different when yr actually experiencing it firsthand
im like on the verge of tears right now but. theres no sweeter joy than this, its so fucking BIZARRE. how did it happen this way? all the little bits and pieces that fell into place, delivered me angels and made me whole again.. cheesy, i know im being cheesy but i cant help it!! im sweet on them as often as i can be but theres still a lot of things i just.. dont have the strength to say directly. so i say them here, im sure only one of you will see this anyways. but i dont need either of you to see it, just speaking my feelings out into open air eases my mind a bit more
sometimes im like wow! theres no way this is healthy im . can i really experience true love? love that doesnt hurt? love thats REAL? as much as im tempted to deny it, im living it every day!!! i wake up and theyre both there to greet me, isnt that sweet? the first people i speak to when i wake up, the last people i say goodnight to when i go to sleep
i think i just need someone, i think im the kind of person that just.. ive been alone for a while, its OKAY its whatever, ive definitely grown used to it but. i thrive when im with them, its so? maybe all i need is someone else to keep me here.. ive got two!!!!!
maybe thats not clear enough
the way id get through that droning loneliness is escapism, nonstop daydreams and dissociation, i was barely here. only to eat and take care of my body a little bit, then its back to fantasy, because .. theres people who love me in my dreams! but.. im honestly finding it so hard to slip back into that habit now. its scary, because its whats kept me safe. hiding in fiction has kept me safe, kept me calm, happy.. but i cant shake it out of my head!!!! any time i try to fall back into those routines, the only thing i can think of is THEM.. like yeah this is great and all but.. i dont want to be trapped in my head anymore!!! theyre out there, i want to be out there..
if im honest? its terrifying. im forced to come to terms with ME as a person, who i am, something ive neglected to acknowledge for my entire life, but. im so completely wrapped up in my love for them that i hardly think about that!!!!! for once, it sorta almost feels like time is moving how it should be.. like every day that passes is different, every day that passes is SPECIAL. it hurts me to say this, but i think i love being alive? can you imagine that? how is it possible that two strangers could just.. fall into my life one day and before i even know it, im healing, im happy, im whole. MAKE ME SICKK its so foul. its almost pathetic!!! is that really all ive needed? this whole time, and i couldnt find ONE proper candidate throughout 20 years of life? its hard to really be upset about it, cuz.. ive got them now. thats all that matters
idk, i just. i think its really telling the kind of people they are, i know im only me, but.. for what its worth, theyve improved my life so drastically, i wouldve never thought id see myself happy like this. they do that for me, they do that and so much more. i love you 💞
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eldritch-spouse · 1 year
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Living Meat Anon here! ah Pinnie that wasn't gross at all! Id honestly love to smash the mimic! He wants to blend in so bad maybe he should learn more about what humans do for *fun*, cue his curious little human roommate teaching him about various sexual positions and kinks, which he insists will help him in the process of attacking his lunch when they're at their most vulnerable, which ofc he'd never actually do cuz these acts are reserved for him and his roommate (tho he'd never tell them) (1)
I also like the idea of him having no concept of space or boundaries. No you cant follow me into the bathroom! No you cant watch me shower! Do you even need to- wtf why are half of my clothes missing!? Sometimes having to be dominate, or keep him on a leash so to speak (oop- is that me projecting my tastes??) The closet scene with the regular mimic in the vid i shared tho did have me sweating haha...I could only imagine how his hypothetical heat would be like! Scary stuff...but still so fun! I also love the Host! I imagine him to be a touchy slut you have to be cautious about cause he has the potential to kill you if youre not careful or get him upset. I could see a human making a deal w/ a host in return for their life where theyd agree to bring him some humans he can infect w/ his spores or eat. Considering there are only a few hosts in the world, i can see him curious enough to try mating with his human accomplice to continue his bloodline even if theres a 0 chance itll work. Im surprised you didn't comment on the monoliths tho! Id smash them too, even tho we don't know much about them yet and they don't really move. They're tall asf and I'd worship the ground they stand on! Side note, I'd keep a Trimming as a pet, they're so ugly it's cute XD Anyways, sorry for the word vomit I just got excited to share my thoughts on this with someone! I haven't gone through everything myself either but ive been enjoying things so far! Love ya! - Living Meat Anon, Monsterfucker
I have to agree on the closet scene, that was fucking beautiful, I'm a sucker for chase scenes. And though it saddens me that we don't get to see clearer shots of them, I understand it's a production choice.
I don't know if you're going to have a lot of luck with leashes, or maybe you will, I bet it mostly depends on their temper.
I also like to think, although this has no scientific basis, that the mimics may enter a heat after they transform into an elder mimic (or the alternative route)- Because that might be their peak physical form, aka the state in which they're likely to attract more mates. And if there aren't any other mimics around, then chances might be high that the elder will snatch his little human up, given there's a lot of visual and behavioral compatibility. It's a good concept, in my eyes.
With all those roots, I have to agree that the Host is probably a touchy one. But you can make this scenario a whole lot more horrifying if you consider how clingy these beings may be. Putting hunting practices aside, I can imagine Hosts get lonely. Bored. And they wouldn't want their pretty human away for too long, right? Because what are you up to then? Moving expends quite a bit of energy, so why won't you just stay still next to him and be good? There's definitely always the threat of spores, which they'll probably use to keep their little bait-human compliant.
I didn't mention the monoliths, not from lack of interest, but mostly because we have so little to work with. Plus, they kind of look like stick men with very undefined bodies. I'm not shitting on the author/artist, they're talented, I just don't have a clear idea of what to do with monoliths yet. Imagine one of them was just ripped, like shredded. Lmao.
Trimmings remind me of hairless cats, I would also like to keep one. You could probably train one to alert you to the presence of mimics or other, more nefarious types of carnis. Plus, they're not that hard to feed. Good pets!
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ALSKDKDJF OKAYYY !!! I’m glad it’s not a bother !!! I overthink sometimes alskdkjf
urgh so I am having A WEEK :( I hope it’s okay I rant a bit … alslkskdj
helurf okay so after midterms last week, I’ve been trying to like relax and give myself time to rest but IVE HAD SO MANY ASSIGNMENTS :((( and I’m so tired and burnt out and stressed cause I need to start studying for finals and ahhhhhh alsksjjdjf :(
okay now for some more fun updates!! i had fun at uni yesterday!! we had a super fun soil science lab we got to go into soil pits on the farm our campus has and analyze soil (ph, diagnostic horizons, colour, structure, texture etc) !! It was a lot of fun I’m gonna miss the class and my prof :( (it was my last lab)
another fun thing is its art market week at my uni so time to drop a ton of money on prints, stickers and crocheted animals !!! :D
AND okay so I made it into a special like abroad research kinda program/course in like that’s usually only available to upper years students but somehow I made it in alskkskdjdj . Anyways, we get to go to South Africa from like May 14-June 9 to do research and stuff in the field!!! and like IM SO EXCITED??? So anyways, the 19 students that also made it in (it’s a highly competitive program to get into) we had our second group meet up plus our prof (who taught my favourite class by far last term) yesterday and it was a lot of fun and we got free dinner which was super super yum and I can’t believe I’m actually going ahhhhh
and then I went to a friends house for dinner (yes, dinner again) which was fun we like catch up at least once a month and yeah
Anyways sorry for the truck load of information about my life weh
HOW IS YOUR LIFE STAR!!! I WANNA HEAR ABOUT YOU!! (With whatever ur feeling comfy sharing 💗)
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UGH I always forget how close together exam season is WHYYYY ARE UR FINALS ALREADY RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER….. 💔💔 I believe in you angel manifesting all the best for you frfr you’re smart I know you got this 🫶🫶🫶🫶
AHHHH UR UNI LAB SOUNDED SO FUN I love labs where you just get to go outside and do stuff in nature it’s fr so healing 👼 I took a geology course in college where we got to go to this creek near my school and like test the ph balance of the water and it was so much fun being outside instead of cooped up in the lecture hall fr one of the best labs we ever did. AND the art market this week???? RAHHH HAVE SO MUCH FUN we used to have something similar at my uni and I would drop SO much on stickers not even joking my laptop is covered in them still :’)
ALSO OH MY GOD??? TO THE STUDY ABROAD PROGRAM?????? STOP THAT SOUNDS SO FIXKIFNT FUNNNNN IM SO EXCITED FOR YOU WYAHWJDNRJ CONGRATS ON GETTING IN BB ‼️‼️ I didn’t have to do study abroad when I was in college bc covid hit but I can’t wait to hear all about yours and live vicariously thru ur updates AHHHH and it’s coming up so soon !! WOWOWOWOW HAVE THE BEST TIME ILY ILY THATS SO FUN
My day was honestly vvvvv boring but it was productive! I had work and then I had a shit ton of laundry to do but I was tired as fuck and I have cramps bc my period started today so I got coffee first to wake me up and then after cleaning the apartment I caught up on Ateez vlogs and now I’m simultaneously writing and watching Zelda gameplay 👼 I think my emotions are like ten times worse rn because of my period so I’m just taking it easy but I have a huge party to go to this weekend and a lot of my friends are gonna be there so I need to get my shit together and stop being sad bc I don’t want to bring the mood down ☹️ why do I always have a party in the same week I feel like shit LOL the last time I had one my situationship and I got into a huge fight and my sister had to be checking on me like every 5 minutes bc I was borderline crying the whole night it was so embarrassing 😭 (I am so tired of crying over this same girl oh my god)
ANYWAYS I LOVE U ANGEL IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU AND I CANT WAIT TO HEAR ALL ABOUT UR STUDY ABROAD TRIP RAHHH THATS SO EXCITING CONGRATS AGAIN ILY ILY 🩷💖💞💘💕💓👼
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genuinely i genuinely love ur howls moving castle au chuuya like i cannot even pin down why because i just have him like. rotating in the brain. i think it's cause you nailed down the vibes with sophie, how she doesnt have huge goals, she just wants to be rid of her (and later, howls) curse. aside from that, living a peaceful life is alright, but she also this quiet wonder with magic.
AND YOUR CHUUYA IS THE SAME. like yeah they grow to be somewhat heroic with the whole "stop fyodors magic destroying ritual" but the agency is just so.. domestic? i honestly cant come up with anything but peaceful. each of them has this feeling of...being content. belonging. and it feels like, even with the whole heroic adventure going on, chuuya (and dazai) are like. also beginning to feel this belonging with the ADA.
i think im saying this now cause of chapter 17 hhhhh (with the castle being destroyed but the agency going "everyone important is safe after all" and kouyou knowing that chuuya will probably want to travel with them sometimes) i have,, so many feelings.
it just feels fulfilling. peaceful. the action is so so good, and the way you describe whimsical magical things is SO vivid i LOVE IT. but i'm always so touched by the found family that is the ADA. something about home and comfort and protecting their own.
hhhhh now im shyyy. this was a really long ask and i couldve just commented on the fic but i was looking at ur art and i got excited,,, chuuya is so pretty too, i think its his braid. its very pretty, your art style reflects that quiet comfort. domesticity.
i have. so much to say abt chuuya but it would just be incoherent so ill end the ask now,, just know he is like. this is like, genuinely, one of the ebst fics and i will literally never forget this, i think ur writing is so fucking amazing hhh- thank u for all the effort and time u put into this masterpiece
!!! Aaaaa thank you!! I’m really glad—cause yeah!!! All of this!
I love Chuuya’s character, and have spent so much time rotating in my head—just in general, but also specifically because of this AU, because it was a more serious attempt to write from his perspective. For some reason I feel like Dazai’s character clicked easier for me when I first started writing these two, so Chuuya took more actual work —so this makes me so happy! I want it to be a good vibe for his character :0 I wish canon Chuuya could just have an arc of getting to belong somewhere safe and just breathe a bit ;; so yeah!! I wanted the ADA to be a part of him learning to rely on other people and really accept comfort and support
And I love the magic vibes in Howl’s Moving Castle, so hearing that those parts are coming across well is great as well!!
Anyway!! Thank you for this anon, I’m glad you’ve been enjoying it, and I hope you enjoy the rest as well once it’s done! :’D
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Girl, im in the same boat as you. After the pandemic, things are finally starting to pick up pace for me and I began this year busier than ever. My twitter account was starting to collect dust and spiderwebs, and I said ok, perhaps this is it. It may be time for me to find a different hyper fixation or a new hobby. But these bitches saw me walking out the door and pulled me back in. See? Now this is why I got into kpop. It takes so little to make a woman's heart soften, and yet most days I had to sit through the most unhinged and boring drama ever. Listen, I just wanna be entertained, is that too much to ask?
Well, today it looks like my prayers have been answered. I woke up to some delicious baemin content. Loved that they showed us a little bit of the rehearsal, and have you seen how jimin talks to his hyung? I don't know how taeyang deals with the urge to pick him up and take him home. He's so strong and brave 🫡 then we finally got the live jimin has been promising since last year and i cant believe he keeps getting prettier and cuter every time i see him. How can a grown ass man be that cute and lovely? And he keeps talking about how much he's working and all the things he's preparing... honestly I'm trying not to get my hopes up, but really when it comes to jimin i cant help but get excited. And then, jk's weird ass back at it again! which i was especially glad for because I missed his live yesterday AND with the addition of jimin's comments?? he really got me feeling things ngl I was giggling and kicking my feet, I can't say I wouldn't pay them money just to see jimin tie jungkook's hair. I'm just a girl you know...
So yeah, just like that, I missed a good chunk of my morning looking for translations and staring at my phone like a dumbass. Maybe some other day i will find a more productive way to waste my time, but for now it looks like I'll stick around 😮‍💨
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We're having almost the same experience 👀
In my case, I don't need another hyper fixation or anything. I've had enough of such intensities since 2020, but as you said, mostly it's just witnessing mindless drama and the usual bullshit. And on top of that, in terms of the music and other content, what is there left for now? I've been through almost everything BTS. I'm not gonna write about the same thing until I get grey hair. Which means I'm left with paying attention to the solo projects. And since life's too short for me to spend time writing or watching what people do, especially if I don't care much about them, I'm left with the biases. Jungkook is on a break (those saying he's not getting work because the company doesn't offer him opportunities are simply demented) and the only one left is Jimin. And his solo work is starting to pick up and it's really the only relevant thing right now for me.
The problem is that it's become a habit. Keeping up to date through social media, which means that as much as I try to avoid it, I still have to see things and people against my own will and I'm too far into this thing and in my life in order to pretend that I still want to pay attention and write about it. I mean, lately I've made my position even clearer than it was before because it just doesn't matter at the end of the day. I'm in a speeding train caught on fire and at some point I will have to jump. Because I know what awaits me out there. Instead of reading and debating daily fandom bullshit, I can dedicate more of my time to watching films and pick up my dusty books from the library, knowing that there's no way I can be as disappointed as I feel after 2 hours in bts/fandom spaces. I need that dose in order to remind myself that there are things that bring me joy and I don't have to witness stupid people writing nonsense on twitter.
I also have fun here, with its ups and downs. But there's the risk of becoming repetitive and that's the death of passion. No thank you.
And then there's days like this in which it's fun again, starting with that performance rehearsal and ending it so nicely. I missed it. Like you said, I want to be entertained. That's all. And that includes everything, from frivolous aspects like watching JK eat chicken on a vlive, to a song release, a Fashion Week appearance or putting out a fascinating portfolio.
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Star Wars Rebels Asks bc idk if anyone would actually do it so im just gonna give the answers
What is your absolute favorite episode of the show? [The Honorable Ones, obviously!! Or Family Reunion - and Farewell, or Shroud of Darkness...]
Which episode did you not like at first, but grew on you after one or more rewatches? [Hm I honestly don't know, possibly Legends of the Lasat? I don't recall not liking it, but I don't think it was my favorite when I first watched, now I love it for sure!]
How do you feel about the Ahsoka show being live-action Rebels season 5? [I CANT WAIT!! I do know though that if Kallus and Zeb aren't in it, I am going to lose my mind]
Who is your favorite one-off character on the show? [Zare for sure! He's in a few episodes, but I have to give credit to my boy]
If you could change one (non-death-related) plot point in the show, what would you change? [I might have to edit this one later, I genuinely cannot think of anything]
What are your two favorite ships from the show (canon or not)? [KALLUZEB AND KANERA!!!]
Who is one character you feel isn't appreciate enough by the fandom? [Probably my boys Jai and Zare]
If you could've added an episode/story arc to the show, what would it be about? [KALLUS AND ZEB ON LIRA-SAN BEING MARRIED AND GAY AND HAPPY]
Obligatory "who's your favorite member of the crew" question. [Chopper, obviously]
Aside from season 4 episode 10, which episode made you cry the most? [Oh my god, probably the finale]
What is one joke/moment from the show that always makes you laugh? [Chopper's reaction to being used as a bet gets me everytime]
Which design for Sabine's hair and armor is your favorite? [Season 4 with the white and purple hair!]
Chopper vs Palpatine- who's making it out alive? [Chopper. Is this even a question?]
What is your favorite moment of the crew being a family? [Probably any episode where they all do something to help one person (The Mandalore Arc, Hera's Kalikori, Ezra's parents, Lira San]
What is your favorite Kanera moment? [I wish..I could see you...]
Who is your favorite villain/antagonist? [Early seasons- Kallus. Late- THRAWN]
What is your opinion on the World Between Worlds? [I love it. I cry every time]
Where do you think Ezra has been all this time? [Somewhere in hyperspace or stuck on a remote planet,,I guess we'll find out soon!]
What is one of your favorite Kanan moments? [This is my excited face :)))]
What is one of your favorite Hera moments? [I DONT CRASH, I HAVE VERY EXCITING LANDINGS!!]
What is one of your favorite Chopper moments? [I am getting this motherfucking leg if it's the last thing I do...and also him holding Hera's hand in Dume and him with Jacen]
What is one of your favorite Zeb moments? [Any moment he's with Kallus]
What is one of your favorite Sabine moments? [Her darksaber training arc]
What is one of your favorite Ezra moments? [I'm in space..AND IM ABOUT TO DIE!!]
Which of Ezra's two lightsabers would you rather have? [His blue one for sure!!]
Would you rather be stuck in an elevator with AP-5 or Lieutenant Lyste? [AP-5 because I'm sure we could find a topic of conversation]
Which plot point do you wish the show had expanded on? [We didn't get enough of Rebel Kallus >:(]
Favorite recurring character? [KALLUS!!!]
Favorite piece of music from the show? [Kallus is really good!]
Most under-rated episode? [A Princess on Lothal and Stealth Strike!]
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sapphsorrows · 4 months
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hi! sorry if this is a weird thing to say but ive been lurking radblr for a while im a teenage rad-leaning fem and i live in a town thats like.. surprisingly trans acceptive considering how conservative half the adults are in town. and i have a friend who im like... best friends with, but im just so shocked at everything going on with them (i honestly cant even bring myself to call them a she because i just feel kinda bad), theyre 15 and theyve been on puberty blockers for a few years now, and a few weeks ago they had to go get a literal bone scan cause they were at risk of literal osteoporosis, but theyre still going on about how excited they are to get top surgery next year when theyre 16, this is canada also so theres less policies against this kinda stuff but im genuinely just so surprised because they ALSO advocate for kids our age and younger to get surgery and stuff too, and im just so shocked because theyre literally fifteen, and theyre getting top surgery next year.
tell them your concerns, but honestly... sometimes you just have to accept that people will make their own mistakes. like at this point it's out of your control, you can't get canada to change their policies, you can't force your friend to change her mind. all you can do is tell her your concerns and slowly introduce her to feminist theory.
ask her why she wants it. ask her what she hopes to achieve by getting it. tell her to imagine what it will be like post-surgery. tell her to imagine herself 10-20-30 years from now. will she still be happy with it? does she know all of the risks? if not, tell her.
idk sorry i'm not the best at giving advice
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