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iron-fifty-nine · 1 day
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Guys I love being fat. I do. I love being large and I love having huge thighs and stretch marks and round cheeks. I DO!!! I am fat and I love my body. I’d be weird skinny. I’d be wrong if I was skinny. I’m meant to be fat and I don’t want to change it in any way!!! Being fat is part of my family’s history. My grandpa, my genetic flesh and blood, survived WWII and immigrant camps and Ellis Island and his genetics said ‘we will not let starvation happen again’! I experienced child neglect and my body said ‘we will not let starvation happen again’! I’m fat because my body loves me, because it said these terrible things will not happen again!!! I am fat because food makes me happy and I deserve to be happy! I deserve to eat wonderful things and as much of them as I want!!!
I’m not fat because I don’t care or I hate myself or my body is broken, I’m fat because I’m supposed to be. My body is fat. My body loves me and I love it right back. We work together, and we are happy together. We fight for each other. I will give my body the food it deserves and needs and it will give me the body I deserve and need. And that body happens to be fat!!! It is fat because of love, because of my family refusing to give up, because of my younger self refusing to give up. Because my mom worked so hard to make sure I could eat. Because I work so hard to make sure I can eat!!! Because food is tied to mental health, and my body and I are working very hard on that one!!! we are a team, and hating your team for things they can’t control won’t get you anywhere.
I am fat because my body loves me and wants me to survive no matter what. And not just survive, but thrive. To have good food. To get more sun on my skin. To look even better in my clothes. To have something to show for the hard work it does. My body is doing everything it can to keep me happy and safe and I am. Thank you body I’m proud of us both.
Eat if you’re hungry. You deserve a snack. I’m proud of you and you should be too. Your body loves you and is doing its best, you just have to try to appreciate its efforts. Millions of tiny cells work so hard to keep you going, and they all love you and want you to succeed. They’re making the best version of you they can. You are the best version of you you can be right now. You will grow, you will change, and you will love yourself. If not today, then someday soon.
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dante-mightdie · 2 days
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Omg Ive got another idea about the cult!au:
So simon now has this cute dumb wife who just won’t shut up about how weird stuff around her seem to be lately and she just keeps talking about wanting to see what would happen if they went out without price knowing, just out of pure curiosity yk? She constantly talks about hearing people outside, on the hills surrounding the little village they have, what could they possibly be? Maybe they’re monsters and not humans? But they seem so small and fragile just like the people in their own community 
And every time she mentions anything related to the topic simon is DEVASTATED, not because of his wife, but because of john. he knows that if his wife mentions anything like the stuff she blurts out when they’re alone price would straight up kill her and leave no proof of her ever existing before that, he’s seen it happen a few times with his own eyes
And when he remembers the terrified looks people had on their faces before being buried alive, just makes him nauseous cause he can’t imagine his wife’s beautiful face that scared.
But no matter what he does, she just won’t listen! If it was anyone else simon wouldn’t even hesitate to kill them with his own hands to show price his devotion, but it’s not anyone else, it’s his wife
So he decides to take matters into his into his own hands, he’s the one that has the keys to the gates after all
So he tells his precious little wife that he’s going to let her see the plains surrounding the village for an hour and if she liked it, they can just leave together :)
And the way his wife’s eyes just filled with excitement melted his heart, little did she know simon was going to make her want to stay
So maybe she sees something scary outside, and she runs as fast as she possibly can ,and just hugs simon with tears running down her eyes, saying that she was so stupid to think anywhere other than the warm community and her loving husband’s embrace would be safe for her
Maybe with a sprinkle of smut…? Just maybe! Just a silly little thought yk!!!
please grace us with your amazing writing, cause this cult!au is living in my mind rent free 😢🙏🙏🙏
hope you guys like the cult!au because it’s all you’re gonna be hearing for at least a few days. gonna call this version of simon ‘gatekeeper!ghost’
c/w: dark content, cult!au, gatekeeper!ghost, murder, manipulative tactics, implied mentions of pregnancy and children
your husband worries that you’re a little too oblivious sometimes. not truly understanding how the things you say and do could end in serious repercussions. perhaps you’re certain that if it truly came down to it, simon would defend you over anyone else. and to an extent, you’re right. however, that only applies when he’s actually there to protect you and if you think that price wouldn’t account for your guard dog husband when exacting out his revenge, you’re dead wrong
so he decides that he needs to help you see that. perhaps if you see with your own too eyes that the outside world is really just a pit of wolves waiting to feast on the soft flesh of his naive trusting wife, you’ll stop all this nonsense about the outside. so he decides to kill two birds with one stone by using a member of the community, who price had asked simon to get rid of anyway, to give you a fright
the man had been sowing discontent into the community for a while anyways. not pulling his weight with the mandatory community chores which everyone contributes too, apparently harbouring some resentful opinions towards key members of the community including himself and simon. it wasn’t long before price had enough of the disrespect and ordered simon to dispose of him and dump his body in the incinerato
simon decided to take a little detour with him first, though. leading him out past the gates before swiftly ending his life. he spends some time setting up a scene for you to stumble upon, making it appear as though this man was another member of the community who got too curious about the outside and had been mauled by some creature. whether you assume that creature is just a wild animal or something more sinister is irrelevant to simon, you won’t be seeing it anyway once he gets you back behind the gates. poor thing’ll be too frightened to ever wonder about the outside world again
your husband comes to collect you after hours once everyone in the community is asleep. you step out the gates with caution, as though the ground may not be walkable nor the air breathable. you soon relax once you realise the scenery and nature is not all that different to the community you were raised in your whole life. he hands you a map, one he edited to ensure you’d follow all the right paths to find the body and be back at the gates all in under 10 minutes
“back ‘ere. one hour. ‘m trusting you here, sweethear’, yeah?” your husband grumbles, zipping up your coat to protect you from the cold of the night but not before slipping a tracking device in lining. you look up at him, nodding along to every word he tells you about the paths, how to find your way back if you get lost, how if you’re not back in one hour to find somewhere safe and he will come and find you
gives you a firm kiss on the forehead before letting you go on your way, watching your form until it quickly disappears into the dark. the only thing visible of you is the slight glint of the torch he gave you. he looks down at his watch, he told you an hour but if you’re not back in 10 minutes then he knows you’ve strayed from the path he told you to go down
he counts down the minutes, softly whistling to himself as he leans on his rifle. 6 minutes was all it took for him to hear your bloodcurdling scream echo throughout the trees. he sets off, running until he eventually meets you halfway on the walk back. he feels guilty, don’t get it twisted but he’s doing it for your own good. doesn’t stop his heart breaking at the sight of you running towards him, hands reaching for him with tears streaming down your face
you throw yourself into him, sobbing into his chest as you struggle to get the words out about what you saw. as he predicted this outcome, his arms instinctively scoop you up after he slings his rifle round to rest against his back. let’s you cry to him about the awful thing you just saw whilst he carries you back towards the compound gates, cooing that you’re safe now and he’ll get you both home and safe
your home isn’t far from the gates which means your home after a short walk. you refuse to let simon leave your side, whining that you’re scared whatever got that man is gonna come and get you
“don’t be silly, lovie. they’d ’ave to get through me first.” he says, planting a kiss on top of your head whilst he strips you both down for bed. you just look up at him with a pouty lip, “I think you’re just getting too bored at home, aren’t ya, sweets? not much to keep ya busy when i’m not around. maybe some little troublemakers running about the ‘ouse will keep ya busy, yeah?”
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i-yap · 2 days
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Batboys x quiet! reader(who is not quiet in private)
( some of the reasons for the quietness is a bit traumatic so uhh warning)
Dick grayson -
opposites attract is possibly my favorite trope ever. And that is exactly what you guys are . Not exactly golden retriever x black cat though people who didn't know you guys well assumed such .
Dick would get exhausted spending forever being charming and charismatic for even the most extroverted of people get tired when they had to manage multiple superhero teams, a detective squad and the whole batfamily.
You were silence, peace serenity almost..until you weren't. Grayson was worried about this relationship in the start, after all you guys were really different. He was afraid you were going to be annoyed by his sunshine self, and that when he isn't feeling like talking, the conversations would go silent.
But you really are so different when comfortable with someone, and its tough not to trust and drop your shield with grayson.
It took him by surprise slowly seeing you open up and show your weird side. It somehow made him cherish it more and even want to show sides of him that only you got to see.
When he asked you why you weren't like this with everyone you said " My parents had a habit of talking over me, sometimes outrightly not hearing me speak at all. No matter how loud I spoke..i wondered if they couldn't hear me...if anyone even wanted to you" "why me then?" asked dick , "you're nothing like my parents, I know you care" and he does..he really does. He won't ever let you feel like that every again. He will make sure everything you want said is heard, and if not he will burn it into the skyline
Jason todd
he appreciated it, a quiet person in public. He hated being in public, he hated the buzz the noise the push the touch of humans around him. He felt strange
till he feels you hold his knowing you felt just as strange as him. Leave the gala and walk around the library , one earphone in each ear listening to whatever you wished to play.
Pulling you close in crowded areas- was it for you or for him? Glaring at anyone who dared tease you about your quietness. A single glare usually does the job but don't worry ...other ways exist too.
He loves that when you two are alone, you are a completely different person. It makes him feel special, like he is the only one who understands you. Because you're the only one who understands him.
When he asks " well I guess I never felt like people liked what came out of my mouth.. my humour too dark, my words too dumb and I didn't make sense. So I stopped trying" don't worry about being cringe..he understands you completely
Tim drake
he is intruiged. How do you pull such a perfect facade. How does one look so poised and collected with those rich assholes and so wild and untamed with him?
He could never really perfect the act the way you did. He's seen you grow up, but somehow its like you were born with two people living in your brain.
If you're this mysterious to your childhood lover, how does anyone in the world even think that they could know you, both versions of you.
Dont get me wrong, he loved it, A mystery he never could solve, not even with your help.
" Teach me your ways master" "I remember you wanting me to call you that last night..oh no wait it was si-" "shut upp" "fine ill tell you timmy boy, I just believe those rich stick up their ass puppets don't deserve to see all ..this.." "what about school kids, friends , teemates-" "I don't need anyone to get me as long as you do"
He will never get it, even if someone engraved it into his skin he wont understand everything about you , you'll always be the case he couldn't solve.
AND WE ARE BACK BICHES , send in requests and stuff, inbox open again blah blah I'm feeling much better now but I might push angst stuff more
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stnaf-vn · 2 days
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DUDE!
THERE'S A WHOLE YANDERE ALPHABET!
https://www.tumblr.com/loveundrwrld/744165546988322816/yandere-alphabet?source=share
Sending this to so many blogs omg
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Affection: How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get? Friend shows his love and affection through gift-giving, words of affirmation and physical touch.
Blood: How messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling? Whatever it takes.
Cruelty: How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them? Sure you'd be chained up in his basemen by your ankle with only a hatch as an escape, but he'd make sure you are fed and clothed and taken care of. Whatever you ask for (except for leaving), he'd do.
Darling: Aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling’s will? No. Unless you count threatening anyone who is trying to get close to you.
Exposed: How much of their heart do they bare to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling? Friend wears most of his heart on his sleeve around you. I'd say a good 90%.
Fight: How would they feel if their darling fought back? He'd feel upset, but he knows it's just from shock. You'll be fine.
Game: Is this a game to them? How much would they enjoy watching their darling try to escape? He'd hate trying to see you escape. He needs you, you're his lifeline.
Hell: What would be their darling’s worst experience with them? His anger and his jealousy.
Ideals: What kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling? Whatever future is you by his side and not you worrying about anyone else, he will accept.
Jealousy: Do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope? He does get jealous, a lot. Like, a LOT. He can hold it in for a period of time but if it keeps piling up he's bound to explode.
Kisses: How do they act around or with their darling? Like your best friend! Your charming, sweet best friend you've known for years.
Love letters: How would they go about courting or approaching their darling? Friend already knows you, knows what you like. He'll copy whatever way you enjoy most. He can be direct, he can drop hints, anything.
Mask: Are their true colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else? Y e s. Friend hates people, almost all people. Except for you.
Naughty: How would they punish their darling? Emotional blackmail and manipulation.
Oppression: How many rights would they take away from their darling? You can't go outside, you can't talk to anyone else. You can stay right there in the little environment he has created for you, surrounded by all the gifts he'd give and the comfort he provides.
Patience: How patient are they with their darling? Friend can be patient, very patient.
Quit: If their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on? No. If you died, he'd kill himself. If you left or escaped, he'd search the ends of the earth to find you. No stone unturned. No matter how long it would take.
Regret: Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let their darling go? Friend would feel guilty about it but he assures himself this is how it is meant to be. No, he would never let you go.
Stigma: What brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)? His immediate family died, all of them, in a car crash. He cared deeply for his sisters, and now they are gone. Then, you tried to leave him for other people.
Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves? He'd be very patient and attending, trying to help in his own weird way.
Unique: Would they do anything different from the classic yandere? Friend does not resort to physical violence against you. He just will slowly break down your spirit. He also is fine with not dating you, you just still can't leave him or be close to other people.
Vice: What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape? Say you'll stay with him. Be as about him as he is about you.
Wit’s end: Would they ever hurt their darling? No.
Xoanon: How much would they revere or worship their darling? To what length would they go to win their darling over? Friend basically kisses the ground you walk on. Behind the charming, silly facade of your best friend, he will do anything and everything for you.
Yearn: How long do they pine after their darling before they snap? Friend is patient, he can wait. You don't want to date him? That's fine! Just don't expect him to let you have other friends too.
Zenith: Would they ever break their darling? Mentally and emotionally, yes.
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tommyandbuck · 9 hours
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Thinking about how Tommy probably thought he’d never find a long-lasting loving relationship. Sure, he had boyfriends, but none of them were close to serious. And he was okay spending his life alone, he’d gotten used to it. Besides, he had hobbies and work. Life didn’t seem too empty.
Sure, he was yearning for a family but his fear of ending up like his father was too great, impossible to overcome. What if he fucks it up the way his father did? And this fear kept him from going out there and searching for it.
And then his old friend and coworker called who once saved his life. And Tommy vowed to himself back then that he’d always answer his calls. So, he answered that one. His friend brought two coworkers with him. With Hen joining them later. They went on a mission, saved everyone, and it was thrilling. And Chimney’s friends welcomed him into their world.
Sure, Eddie was great. They had so much in common, and they clicked and friendship was instantaneous. Evan was adorable, like a puppy, except a little weird. And it hit him later that Eddie and Evan had this dynamic, this friendship, forged in the countless fires they put out, that no one could get in between them. That’s why Evan was acting weird. Because he ended up getting in between them.
So he came over to Evan’s to clear the air. To tell his truth. Letting go of his friendship with Eddie wasn’t something he planned on doing, no matter what Evan thought. But he’d step aside if that was needed.
Except Evan didn’t even worry about his friendship with Eddie, because they were solid. No, he wanted him. HIM. And if Tommy’s heart skipped a beat or two, it wasn’t because of Evan. Probably just arrhythmia.
He put everything on the line by kissing Evan. Everything. These new friendships he formed with the 118, with Eddie, it could all be gone if Buck didn’t accept his advances. He would have to go back to his old life, suddenly very dull and empty. Yet he risked it all.
Everything inside Tommy lit up because this guy made him feel things he hadn’t felt for a long time (maybe ever). Their first date wasn’t perfect, and he was on the verge of losing everything once again. Yet Evan came back, stronger, wiser and more determined to see where this relationship could go.
His fears came back to the surface, every single one of them. But with Evan by his side it wasn’t as scary working through them. Tommy didn’t let his fears drown him. With his mind getting clear, a vision of a family started to take shape. A family, maybe kids, maybe pets, and a house filled with love. And Evan by his side.
He’d gotten used to the idea of never having that, of being alone forever. His life was fulfilling but something was always missing. Turns out there was an Evan Buckley shaped hole in his heart. And once Evan showed up in his life, his heart began to heal. And having a family wasn’t such a faraway thought anymore. And he wasn’t going to end up like his dad, because he had Evan by his side now. And with Evan everything seemed possible.
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cowpokeomens · 1 day
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Good morning I saw this post and it rotted all three of my remaining brain cells because
Word gets around to you that sweet Matty is a virgin, and by no means are you one to take that lightly! But :-/ you know as well as I do about his MCE, and you just wanna take the horse for a ride 😔🫶 and he’s been flirting with you for months now in his own weird passive-aggressive mean way! So it’s not like your feelings aren’t reciprocated! It’s fine! You’re fine! Nothing morally corrupt to see here! So yeah just imagine your shorts get shorter as the months get warmer :-/ you ditch the hoodies for crop tops, then you ditch those for bralettes because “it’s sooooo hot Matty what the hell is up with this weather??” And you know you’re getting under his skin with the way his hands linger on you, at the small of your back, direct skin to skin, as he guides you in front of him somewhere busy; the way his eyes are absolutely lingering on your legs in your tiny little shorts :-/ you laugh at his jokes with your chest because you know it makes your tits bounce :-/ you press your whole body against him in a way that never mattered when you wore hoodies and sweatpants, but makes him shove you off now with pink cheeks. It all comes to a head when you’re getting ready to go out with some gal pals. He’s hanging out at your place while you get ready; once you’re done with your makeup and changed into your clothes, you do a little twirl to show him your outfit- which is absolutely lingerie and a mini skirt :-/ your fishnets have a few suggestive holes ripped in them, the boots you wear elongate your legs without having you teetering on a heel precariously :-/ Matt sighs, which makes you genuinely frown. You ask “What is it, Matty?” To which he responds “I dunno, it seems like you’re dressing really… provocative lately.” And you try not to focus on how that hurts because he is right after all!!! And you’re gonna respond when he mumbles “it’s distracting.” And oop! Wrong thing to say Matty! Because you drop your eyelashes and walk over to him slowly, sitting so close to him you’re practically on his lap. “Distracting? How?” It sounds innocent enough, right? No ulterior motives here! And his cheeks are sooooo pink omg baby is soooo flustered by your proximity and your question and your everything. But he’s nothing if not honest! So he says “it’s just, like, I’m straight edge, right? So the idea is that you avoid…. Promiscuous sex. But like-“ he pauses and you nod to encourage him, sensing something big is coming, “I’m just not sure what constitutes as ‘promiscuous’ if that makes sense? Like do you have to be married? Do you just have to really care about the other person? What are the parameters?” And you can’t help but tuck a little piece of hair behind his ear, thinking before you respond. “I think,” you begin slowly, “that sex is a natural part of being alive. It’s fine if you don’t want to have it, it’s fine if you do what to have it. But it seems unfair for some straight-edge higher being to decide what the ‘healthy’ limit looks like, because that limit will be different for everyone.” And his wee shoulders relax a bit which makes you fight back the urge to beam with pride but then he says “I’ve never- I haven’t like, done it before. What if I’m not good? What if no one wants to stick around because I suck at it?” And your little heart just breaks because :-( Matty :-( so you tell him that anyone who only cares about sex obviously has different priorities and isn’t worth keeping around! And then you can’t fight the urge to say “but. If you want to practice. I’m always here for you < 3” hehehehehehe and his eyes get all wide bc?? You’re so hot?? And he just admitted he’s a virgin?? And you offered to fuck him??? And maybe :-/ maybe you offer to take some of the edge off for him :-// maybe he just needs to relax :-/// and he seems perfectly willing to hear you out so you slide onto to floor between his knees and his breath hitches as you start to palm at him where he’s absolutely chubbed up and you were right- Monster Cock Energy! Yippee!
Anyways! You pull his cock out and it’s so pretty and pink and you want it in your mouth so you flutter your eyelashes and ask if you can suck on it and he stares at you open-mouthed for a minute before saying “it doesn’t. It doesn’t count, right? Because I’m not fucking you. So it doesn’t count.” And you nod because that’s what he needs right now and reassure him that no, it doesn’t count, Matty :-) what you don’t say virginity is a social construct that you can hit reset on whenever you want bc it’s not real but that’s a conversation for another time bc right now Matt’s cock is in your mouth and it’s hot and heavy on your tongue and you think he might actually pull a muscle with how hard he tenses up :-/ he’s soooo vocal ugh never learned that men are supposed to be stoic and silent so he’s moaning so so so prettily and clawing at the cushion underneath him as you take him deeper and deeper and when he hits the back of your throat he’s gargling out shit like “holy fuck, oh my god, you’re perfect, you’re so hot and perfect and I’ve thought about this for weeks now-“ and you’d be bashful if you hadn’t been so intentional in your seduction! Oops! He’d manage to get a hand into your hair and it’s over from there, once he gets a taste of fucking your mouth he’ll never recover I fear! It’s wet and messy and there’s lipstick all over your face and mascara running down your cheeks and his thrusts are erratic and fast until he finally cums with a loud, breathy moan, pulling you down to the base and keeping you there for a solid 10 seconds as he shakes through his orgasm :-/ doesn’t hesitate to pull you right into his lap to kiss you deeply, smearing cum and lipstick all over himself now too :-/ anyways that’s all I just wanted to share thanks for letting me have the conch bye!
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ilikekidsshows · 1 day
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I'm curious now, what do you think about the scene in Glaciator 2 where LB throw CN to the trash can? People said it's supposed to be a joke but personally not only it's not my type of joke, I don't remember when a slapstick joke like that make a character traumatized by said "joke". I said traumatized because the thing that LB do affected him more than a joke supposed to be. 🤔
(on the side note the episode also showed interesting reaction from both Marinette and Gabriel when they saw/feel Adrien's feeling down, where we got the rare moment Gabriel "trying" to father, while Marinette find it as an opportunity to woo him without caring about how he feels at that moment.
This is another example of what I meant when I say Miraculous is a substanceless show that's written only with "cool" scenes in mind where they don't even consider the implications of anything.
Ladybug doing an exaggerated bodythrow on Cat Noir that lands him in a trashcan is slapstick, but there are several reasons why it doesn't fit in Miraculous, or fit into this specific episode.
Miraculous doesn't do this kind of slapstick. While Cat Noir can get tossed around comically by Akumas, or get put into weird physical scenarios by Ladybug, the extent of Ladybug physically punishing Cat Noir is letting her yoyo fall on his head.
It's a punishment. Ladybug manhandles Cat Noir as an explicit physical punishment that leads to him groveling to her for forgiveness. This isn't some dope slap (or yoyo drop) that's over and done with in a moment, it's explicitly used by Ladybug as a way to try to control Cat Noir's behavior.
Cat Noir is bothered by it. A key element of slapstick that makes it funny for most people is that the characters getting tossed around, exploded and dropped off cliffs don't actually get hurt. Wily Coyote is back in the next scene to chase the Roadrunner every time. He doesn't stop to think if maybe he should do something else with his life because this is bad for his health. Cat Noir is forced to tell Ladybug that he'll stop, what, expressing his feelings? Having them? Still, he is brought to this point by Ladybug physically harming him, no matter if it didn't actually physically injure him, he wasn't fine with it and agreed to do whatever it took to make sure it didn't happen again.
This happens in a season where Ladybug consistently treats Cat Noir as less than a person and Cat Noir isn't allowed to have feelings about anything because that's such a bother for Ladybug.
Marinette will only stop trying to seduce Adrien when someone other than Adrien needs her to try to be supportive. It's especially egregious because Gabriel manages the bare minimum of trying to be a not-totally-rotten person to him, which shows to the audience that Adrien's emotional state is serious business, so Marinette actually comes across as really entitled here. What a good way to remind the audience that Marinette never treats Adrien as a person with his own feelings and wants, no matter what identity he's in!
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frostytherobot · 3 days
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Alright. Because I’m thinking about Creep as a film series because they just announced more Creep in the form of THE CREEP TAPES (I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR SO LONG… it’s not a movie but a TV SHOW!!!) I’m just gonna ramble a little bit about why those movies are so important to me.
First, though:
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^ That’s my Creep tattoo. I got it over a year ago and show it off whenever I can.
So, onward.
I watched the first Creep movie for the first time during quarantine lockdown. It was like March of 2021? (Hold on, let me link the episode of my podcast for that.) (Yup. Don’t mind my pre-T voice.) That was like one of the loneliest times of my life. You know how it was, you were there, too. Fucking. Awful. I felt like there was just this bubble of sadness around me and nobody could get through to me. Sure, I had friends I could talk to over the internet, but that can only get you so far. Especially when they have their own lives and you can’t see them face to face.
One night, my two best college buddies and I decided we should watch it for our podcast. That was the one thing we could do that we could talk to each other consistently with, so we went for it. And, fuck. You can hear in that episode how freaked out that movie made us! We talk about human behaviors and the compulsion to kill and where that stems from, the relationship between politeness and gender roles, and lot of other related topics in that episode. It’s a smart film that knows how to suck you into the reality; you see these two men up close and personal, their odd behaviors, and the found footage formatting and intimate setting make you feel as though you are there witnessing all of this with them. As them. Those awkward moments make you cringe; watching Josef admit to stalking Aaron, catching Josef on the lies, tubby time. Oh, god, tubby time.
And then there was the ending. The moment where the camera is left in the car, you’re left in the car, and you just have to watch as Josef puts on the Peachfuzz wolf mask, flourishes his jacket, and buries that axe into Aaron’s head. The shot is static. It’s matter-of-fact, and that’s why it’s so horrifying. He’s dead. You followed this shy, awkward guy on his journey getting to know an oddball all the way to the lake, and he’s dead now. And then, the murderous oddball looks directly into the camera, and while he says Aaron’s name, he’s looking at you as he says, “That is why I love you. And that is why you will always be my favorite. Of them all.” Like he was thanking you for witnessing this event.
I felt like there was someone behind me for hours afterward. Josef had somehow gotten into my home. And that’s how it started.
Months later, we watched the second one. (Episode link here.) Of course we loved it. I loved it. It wasn’t as scary as the first one, but the intimacy and emotional connection was still there. That feeling of watching two people through their own eyes was still there. Only this time, they were trying to out-weird each other, or at least come together on a level they could both understand. The thing is, they were still misunderstanding each other. Sara is only comfortable with Josef’s Aaron’s freakiness because she thought he was lying to her when he wasn’t. The moment she starts to take it seriously is when she decides to leave, and that’s when Josef Aaron pulls out the lies and the deceit to bring her back in. And when she comes back in, that’s when she starts being genuine, letting her guard down, and that’s when she gets into trouble. She starts to believe in the watered-down version of Josef Aaron, seeing the front of softness as a vulnerability in him, and to a point, it is. But she totally disregards everything else that has happened during this day as some kind of ruse, when she should have kept those moments in mind. He’s still a killer, and dangerous, even if he plays it like he isn’t.
Sara ultimately pays the price for entertaining his whims. I guess Aaron did, too, but in a different way. While Aaron died and became a part of Josef, Sara now cannot get rid of him. He tries to kill her, and she runs, refusing his gift of death and absorption into himself, but now he follows her. She’s literally moved on, but like a ghost or a bad dog with attachment issues, he still follows her. He gave her his heart, after all.
And then I got to putting two and two together on why exactly all of this was appallingly appealing to me. I was alone. I was drifting further into this state of paradoxical nothing-pain. And suddenly, I was being welcomed into a dynamic in which I was wanted. It was an obsessive want, but I was wanted. He got me. They all did. Josef, Aaron, Sara. Suddenly I’m seeing aspects of my loneliness on screen. The slow reveal of the odd personality traits, the waiting to see the reaction. Pulling those traits back in when they’re not met with the tolerance I wish was there. The staying when I feel so uncomfortable because I want to understand. Upping the ante in an act of bonding. Feeling like I’ve found someone who’s on my wavelength, only to find they weren’t as okay with the whole me as I thought. The sudden urge to end it all. To kill the relationships. Move on, knowing they were dead, but I could still have the memories. They were getting distant. I could do it, you know. Just end it all right then.
Of course, I didn’t do that. But I felt it. I felt it a lot during that time.
I’ve not been super mentally healthy over my time being alive. I’ve been hospitalized for it. Not a fun experience, by the way. But that was another aspect that just drew me closer to Peachfuzz. He’s funny, and weird, and unstable. Always lying to appeal to the people around him because he wants them to stay, for sincere and sinister reasons. He’s terrible and lonely. I was terrible and lonely.
And there it was. Crystal clear. Los aguas milagros de corazón. I was taking comfort in a manifestation of something dark that I saw in myself. A mischievous, funny, isolated, totally fucked-in-the-head, murderous darkness. I wasn’t alone in that room anymore, and yeah, perhaps my company should’ve been something not so, well, creepy, but I thanked him for being there. I could put a face with the feeling, and the nothing-pain started going away.
He’s a friend of mine now. And I love him a lot.
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What are emergency exit's dynamic with each other? Like how do they interact?
Snap is pretty quiet and composed despite it all lol… she’s pretty serious at times and wants Emergency Exit to take off because she wants to be known for music. She often loses herself in the frustrations of trying to manage to make a popular well liked band.. but overall she wants to make music just so she can make MUSIC. She’s usually the one who tells Sink to take it down a notch. She doesn’t talk much and is shy to share her thoughts, unless she feels it’s necessary to achieve a goal she has in mind. Because of this it’s hard to get her to open up.
Sink is just happy to have a life outside of her original clan that is fun and exciting, even if there are problems, she’s very positive and takes it with ease. She’s a down-on-her-luck salmonid who is only alive thanks to Shima. She knows her way around places with ease, gets along easily with others, and often is able to speak for the group in a more positive manner that wins others over. Which works since Shima tends to be too direct and thinks too analytically about things…. She often underestimates how charming and easy-to-talk-to Sink can be towards complete strangers.
Sink can be a little obnoxious at times, but she means no harm.
Struggle likes to work, they’re obsessed with music and perfecting thier sound and want to perform and show off her music no matter what it takes. She will invade a local city and spark a big run if it means she gets to play in front of an audience. If there’s ever financial work that needs to be done it is left to Struggle and Snap… Sink is still learning to read.
Struggle is a King Salmonid who keeps abandoning local Salmonid Clans and Cities who try to lure it over. It doesn’t want to have children and doesn’t want to partake in a homerun… which is weird, since running salmonids usually run on instinct at this stage, it seems Struggle is (mostly) still able to be reasoned with. It seems her desire to make music has somehow outweighed the desire to head upriver. Local Clans have gifted her the name Electric Death, and that’s her name in Grizzco Field Guides as well.
Struggle can be a little dopey at times, because the only thing she yearns to do is make music, she wants NO part of anything else, the only way to impress Struggle is with tickets to a concert, or a really hearty barbecue. If you don’t like her music… she does not take constructive criticism, and she reacts with destructive responses.
Sink usually speaks extremely formally towards Struggle, because she has never seen a king salmonid alive before, she tries to be as polite as possible. Even now, after knowing her for so long; she still slips up and uses formal terms.
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a-pastel-edgelord · 5 hours
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Rintaro Suna believes there are absolutes in life. For example, he'll never score higher than a 75 in social studies, or that chuupets taste best on a hot day... Oh, or that you are totally and completely unavailable.
You call Kita, Shin. You always have ever since he met you. He calls you by your first name as well. He always has ever since Suna knew of your existence.
It's impossible to miss—Kita lives in such a methodical way. Like clockwork you show up in the gym just as practice ends. You help clean up. You make small talk with the team. You wait until Kita is done. Then you walk home together.
Suna didn't think much of you at first, just another person in his orbit. But then, during practice on a particularly hot day you showed up with popsicles and watermelon for the team. Kita scolded you for it, talking about how you spoil them. You shrugged it off, saying you have the right. The rest of the guys rushed to get their treats, Suna gave it a second, too sluggish in the heat. Something cold pressed against his temple. It was you, poking him with a pack of chuupets. You'd gone out of your way to refrigerate them. "You like these right? I saw them on sale so I got you some."
That day, something in his brain stuttered. But not that it mattered because you were taken by the captain of the volleyball team. Even if Kita is a bit of a weird hardass robot kind of guy, Suna likes him. Respects him too much to even entertain the notion of flirting with you.
"Maaaan!" Atsumu whines in the locker room. "I wanna show off my service ace." He's been complaining about you not coming to watch a practice.
Akagi rolls him eyes. "Some people actually study, y'know. Apparently Kita-san is eyein' some fancy university in Tokyo."
"Yeah, Tsumu." Osamu drawls. "Kita-senpai doesn't have volleyball brain like you. So studyin' ain't a lost cause."
Suna pauses halfway through putting on his jacket. "Kita-senpai?" The words are foreign in his tongue.
"Huh?" Gin looks at him. "Yeah. You know. Kita-senpai. They're cousins. We call 'em Kita-senpai so we don't get confused with the captain."
Suna appreciates another absolute as he throws on his shoes and sprints down the stairs to where he knows you're waiting for your cousin. The fact that he is an absolute idiot.
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Synastry Observations: Frenemy/"enemy" edition part 1
DISCLAIMER: I am not a professional astrologer, this purely my observation based on repetitive patterns I notice within the signs, placements, houses etc. Take what I say with a grain of salt and understand not every astrology observation will resonate.
↳Heavy 8th House Synastry and/or negatively aspected 2H synastry↴
This one is a doosey. Personally, I never had 8H synastry with anyone that I have ever considered a friend, but I have seen this play out with other friendships. This synastry can suggest an imbalance of give and take, as well as a friendship that can be "obsessive". Feelings of jealousy, envy, and even resentment build over time. I've seen this also manifest as jealousy over the person's other friends, family, and sometimes even romantic partners. Very karmic & a difficult bond to break, but it could also be very emotionally harmful. It also highly depends on the emotional state of the people involved, especially the emotional state of the house person as they seem to be the most "reactive" in this situation.
↳Sun/Moon/Mercury/Venus in 12H↴
These placements can definitely indicate secrecy created in a friendship dynamic. Either the friendship itself is kept secret, or one/both parties feel suspicious of the other, no matter how much time has passed or trust has been earned. Another heavily karmic synastry aspect to have. Usually the planet person is more aware of the pain each other causes, but the house person also feels the intensity. A lot can be ruined due to misunderstandings with this placement, but in the same regard -- this placement does also indicate two people who are magnetically connected, but eventually have their perception of each other morphed over time into something more negative. Truth be told, both parties see each other in a more "tainted" and deluded way as time goes on because both parties are secretive about their suspicions. Suspicion left undiscussed only has room to grow. Not always the case, but when this manifests in an "ex-friendship" or in a synastry chart of frenemies, its easier to see the ways either one or both have deceived each other in a connection. I've also noticed specifically with Moon/Mercury (sometimes venus) in 12H synastry shows how one person "prys" in the other's life. For example, having Mercury in 12H synastry could mean that one person oversteps and over-inquires about the other. Maybe this person listens to, inspires, encourages, or spreads misinformation about the other. Or, this person generally feels "superior" in the themes of mercury like communication, travel, intelligence, logic, etc. It also gives "pick me" vibes, or like those female friends you have that enjoy laughing at you or embarrassing you around others for validation. Icky.
↳Chiron conjunct personal planets and/or the nodes↴
These aspects are the definition of fated to me. When this is present in the chart of two frenemies, I know these two really hurt each other in various ways. When its chiron conjunct sun/moon for instance, I see a lot of damage to the ego, and self-confidence when dealing with each other. One person feels massively insecure in the presence of the other, and in enemy cases, its almost as if one person (usually chiron person) clings onto sun person even if chiron person harbors hate, bitterness, or resentment towards the sun person. Chiron conjunct personal planets can bring a lot of instability on so many levels -- on a soul level, physical / material level, emotional level, 3D, 5D etc etc. These connections are usually very painful because at one point in time, these two individuals could have been very close or trusted each other, and things took a left turn when both began to trigger each other. I've also seen this in complicated friendships where the two are not exactly true friends, or honest/genuine friends to each other, but there's a weird sense of loyalty toward one another. Maybe you two are in secret competition, and you feel the other person does not like you. Typically you would end communication with someone like this, but with this person, you find excuses for them and reasons to remain in their energy. kinda odd tbh. Chiron conjunct the nodes says all the same but speaks more so to the soul missions of the individuals. This could mean you both agreed to be here to have problems and to learn lessons together lol. But with chiron conjunct NN/SN, the connection will feel very electric but will most likely fizzle out over time.
↳Busy 3H synastry / lilth 3H / Chiron 3H / Pluto 3H / Neptune 3H↴
Ugh, the gossip. The lies. The bullying. the fakeness. This synastry is like toxic sibling rivalry except they're supposed to your friend. When you have this synastry with a frenemy, you will experience a lot of bs from them and vice versa. These placements also suggest heavy gossip about each other and usually what's being talked about involves the rough stuff. I am talking, the stuff you told this person with confidence that they'd never tell a soul. These people can hit below the belt when they're scorned. I've seen these enemies being very direct towards each other as well, so not only is there open gossip involved, this person will also own up to it! They're the type to be like "yeah b!tcH! I said that. Do you want me to repeat myself??" very confrontational, which could also lead to yelling matches or serious mutual moments of rage. Lilith in 3H is roughest when it comes to exposing the other person's darkness when scorned. When you have this aspect with someone, you should probably be cautious of what you tell them because you might think they forgot, but really, they just stored it in the back of their mind to use for later. Pluto 3H will force one or both people to evolve in terms of how they communicate -- harsh lessons about communication, connection, community, and even relationships with others come from this aspect. Chiron in 3H (and even Neptune 3H) will really put you through the ringer. You will have to go through hardships that can constantly trigger your communication and intelligence wound with this person. One last thing I have noticed is that these people were (or still are to a weird degree) typically close to the point where their families are very intertwined with one another. This can manifest as one or both of them getting each other's families (specifically cousins and siblings) involved with their drama, or "picking sides".
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Stephcass is like,heavily autistic4autistic-coded to me and imo there's as much evidence to it as comphet lesbian Cass.With autistic Cass i don't need to explain since you understand her so well but for Stephanie it's like.She has all the symptoms but also her gender presentation feels very autistic girl swag to me and the way she's treated by the narrative feels a lot like how not just girls but AUTISTIC girls are abused irl.This also increases the appeal of Stephcass to me because Cass is one of the few consistently kind and stable people in her life.Thoughts?I love your takes so i'd love to hear your opinions !!
I fully agree and honestly I've actually been thinking about autistic Steph a lot lately haha. Like reading comics Cass was obviously the first one who pinged my radar but reading more Steph, especially how she feels constantly on the outside despite trying so hard to fit in, made it click for me. That feeling of being too much, missing social cues, not being able to understand the layers to conversations, not fitting in fully no matter what group it is and how hard you try... Yeah I definitely see her as autistic. I think young Steph tried so hard to mask constantly but never quite fully managed to blend in perfectly. Especially in early Robin issues the way she and Tim both exhibit autistic traits but their socialisation as boy vs girl paints two different reactions to their autism. Tim is blunt and steps on people's toes sometimes and doesn't care at all because he's confident in his knowledge and his worth. People can be mad at him for missing a social cue but ultimately who cares, he's got his own mission and that's what matters.
Meanwhile Steph wants so hard to project an image of not caring. Like she wants to he confident and proud in being a bit "weird" but you can clearly see how desperately she wants to be accepted. And she's learnt that she won't quite fit the mold but she wants to keep trying anyway, keep showing that she can twist herself to fit in to whatever Batman/Tim/her school peers need her to be. She's just like Tim in missing social cues and getting hyperfixations but she gets even more anxious about social situations even though she tries really hard not to let it show because she's just a Totally Normal Girl with totally normal reactions to situations.
It's interesting because on the surface she can come across as far more confident and self assured than Tim, not afraid to be loud and messy. But there's so much insecurity behind it and her mannerisms and character beats come across as not just autism to me, but very specifically teen girl autism. Which is one of the reasons why I love her Batgirl series. We get to see her in all fully confident in her autistic girl swagger. And good for her!
Sorry if this is rambling and incoherent but I have a lot of thoughts on autistic Steph so thank you so much for the ask skshdshshh.
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I usually don't post Feelings about properties I like, but I feel like I'm the only one who thought Blitzø was treated unfairly in Stolas' confession towards him. While Stolas rightfully understands that his arrangement with Blitzø was wrong, and made a good effort to make up for it, his decision to attach all of that to a love confession, and him getting upset when Blitzø calls him out on both that AND his proven disregard for many people beneath him in class status is. While understandable, pretty fucked up.
Not that I think the show itself is unaware of this, I just see far more people empathize with Stolas over Blitzø, and it's so weird for me given I walked away feeling the complete opposite about it. I do feel for Stolas, and recognize Blitzø was perhaps a bit too cruel in his assessment of the situation, but like. As brutal as it is to say, he really wasn't that far off the mark. In a way Stolas' reaction indicates how much more he needs to grow and reflect on how he's been treating Blitzø.
I mean, they both need to do some serious soul-searching on their relationship, but whereas Blitzø needs to learn how to accept love from other people, Stolas needs to learn how to give it, and what love actually is--and it's not a gift and a confession you spring on someone after months of essentially using them for meaningless sex and intimacy (which is exactly what he did, no matter what feelings he may have had for Blitzø).
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So, the next chapter of "Dizzy Edges" is actually not the doozy chapter I thought it would be. I'm doing a small (I'm limiting myself to 3,500 words) chapter following Tim in the (slightly) distant aftermath of Ch. 26. He's going on a field trip! Then, it'll be time for the big chapter that may destroy my brain (parallel Dick and Tim POVs as they have one-on-one conversations with two guest characters--can you guess who?)
BUT... I found this note in my phone and I think it's a pretty good breakdown of Helena, Dick, and their relationship to Tim in this story (makes sense because I wrote both the note-which I forgot existed-and the story). Helena isn't a terrible caretaker... She's just not equipped to be what *Tim* needs all the time (~sometimes~ her ability to just let things go actually *is* a benefit to Tim...) He's pretty good at balancing himself out of given time and a little space to think things through. Even in RR he's fully aware he sounds crazy and he might be wrong... He's got some level of self-awareness even if he ignores it.
So, here's the note and I hope it helps make sense of a few things that have happened:
Helena is fighting for Tim but in the way she *thinks* he needs her to: taking down crime, with prejudice, in Gotham. The reason she got to know him in the first place is because the usual systems *failed* this kid so she has to work outside of them to *fix* things on his behalf. It's an intentional parallel that she *leaves* at night to fight the problems that plagued him and he *left* at night to escape those problems. He had to leave to find comfort, by leaving she (accidentally) isolates him *from* comfort and stability so he finds himself wandering the city again looking for things to do to take his mind off... Just everything. Tim appreciates her dedication and is aligned in her goal to protect the innocent (even if he disagrees on her methods). But she isn't fighting *for* him the way he actually needs her to (just by being there to listen and being open/honest with him).
Dick is fighting *for* Tim... He wants to protect Tim and that's his number one goal when he thinks of Tim. Long-term goal may be to fix/break the system, but short-term he's concerned with Tim's well-being (physical and mental). He wants him to keep existing yes, but he also just *needs* Tim around. His support and his jokes and even that incessant little head tilt. He listens to Tim and remembers what he says and values his steadiness and adaptability. He keeps showing up when Tim is out looking for a distraction, for comfort. If Tim asked Dick to stop doing something on his behalf, he would because he's fighting for Tim in this scenario and he actually listens to what Tim says he needs (even if Tim is wrong about that).
Helena loves Tim like a brother (genuinely), but that means she thinks she knows best what he needs and doesn't ask Tim what that might be. Dick *is* Tim's brother and he trusts him to make the right call when it matters. He'll catch him if he falls. That's the difference. Helena would kill for him, Dick would *spare* someone because Tim asked him to. And Tim would ask him to stop to save *Dick* from having to grapple with the guilt and the consequences of a choice like that. They're each other's life raft and lighthouse. Saving each other and guiding each other in the storm. Each is the other's biggest supporter and, honestly, one of their most trusted advisors.
Sorry if this isn't interesting. But if you stumbled across this by accident maybe give the first few chapters of this weird and overly long story a go.
Either way, I hope you have a great day (or night).
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Genji Shimada NSFW Alphabet
MDNI!! Warnings for NSFW under the cut!
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A = aftercare (what they’re like after sex)
Overwatch Genji is a respectful lover, aftercare always I includes him getting a cloth for you to clean up, a glass of water to drink and of course lots of loving words and thanking you for a great time. During his blackwatch days aftercare would be laying in silence, maybe just leaving you be after the fact. Pre-incident Genji would either be out like a light or leaving, thanking you for a good time but he enjoys being single.
B = body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)
Genji really can't decide. He loves how your arms wrapped around him, giving him that familiar sense of heat that he often lacks. He loves your eyes and how you look at him with such love even if he's a cyborg. Genji loves how your neck feels on his teeth as he's rutting in and out of you at a furiously fast pace and the taste of iron that spirs him on more. Everything about you is precious to Genji.
C = cum (anything to do with cum, basically)
Genji's cum is watery, and has a distinct taste that isn't good but isn't horrible. He has a proper diet, but he doesn't eat many acidic fruits, which could improve the flavor. Genji also cums alot, he can go a solid week without touching himself and he gets pent up because of it. When he cums, his stomach is covered, and you can feel every spurt of it inside of you
D = dirty secret (pretty self-explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
Genji always dreams of what it's like to cause a bit of pain. When he first was experiencing the joys of sex he'd dabble in light bondage and biting but not much more. When he first became a cyborg, that anger festered into more.. out there fantasies, including more hard-core acts such as complete domination and blade play. After he grew to accept himself those thoughts of trying out more painful ways still stuck, when alone he pumps his cock drooling at the thought of forcing you into a chokehold while clawing into your sides drawing blood. One day, he wishes to try it, but for now, he wants to keep you happy, not bring you any pain.. yet.
D = experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)
Genji was a major player in his younger days. Girls loved to flock around him, and Genji never was alone. He gained alot of experience, knowing all the right ways to make a woman cum around his cock and he takes pride in that. Even after the accident, he still knows all the exact pinpoints to make anyone crumble beneath him if he desired it.
D = favorite position (this goes without saying)
Genji likes a lot of ways to do it, mating press gives him a perfect view of your face and total control over you. He likes cowgirl when he's feeling a bit lazy and wants to enjoy the show. But Genji's absolute favorite is you pressed against a wall, him allowed to ram into you at any pace he likes while feeling your legs grow weak. He loves how you rely on him to keep you up, and he loves how he can press you into the wall at any time for easy access no matter where you two are.
G = goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)
Overwatch and pre-incident Genji can be playful, always teasing you and making you feel a little embarrassed before ripping a moan out of you. He can be a jerk, but the way he keeps you feeling good makes it acceptable and, in fact, something you look forward to. Blackwatch Genji is totally serious. He never jokes outside of the bedroom, so why would it be different? He's mean, constantly belittling you and blaming you for how he feels. So just take it and let him let out that anger, he'll make it feel good.
H = hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
Genji always kept himself trimmed, not totally shaved because he thought it looked weird but enough to keep it under control and presentable. His pubes are black, and around that area, he doesn't have any hair.
I = intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)
Pre-incident Genji is not romantic at all. He's there to get his rocks off, but everything else comes second. Including you, he will make you cum out of curtesy but don't expect him to whisper sweet nothings in your ear. Blackwatch Genji is mean, he's so mean during the act. Any shred of intimacy you think is there is replaced by harsh insults and biting. Genji's romantic side only comes out after he finds himself, after he accepts what he was. He realizes that you truly care about him if you look past his mostly metal body, and Genji takes true affection from that. Expect to have crazy passionate, needy sex with him all the time. It had been so long since he had last felt the touch of another person he will make it special every time it happens.
J = jack off (masturbation headcanon)
Genji is a needy man. Back when he was active a lot, he never needed to use his hand, but after becoming a cyborg, that lack of action got to him. He would jerk off 2-3 times a day, at least. He didn't care if it hurt because at least the feeling distracts him from everything else. As Genji grew more accepting, he tones it down to maybe twice a day, one in his morning shower and the other before bed. He only uses his still human hand, and the metal hurts. (He's tried)
K = kink (one or more of their kinks)
Genji is a very kinky individual. He's tried a lot of positions, kinks including the more taboo ones. He really enjoys bondage, knife play, marking, free use, blood play, and pet play. Pet play was something he tried once and really enjoyed, the idea of having his own little pet on a leash abiding to his every command made him harder than he thought he could be. Genji also loves being edged when he's in a more sub mood, feeling you bring him so close then removing your hand just as he feels that coil begin to snap gets him hard. He's whimpering and groaning each time he's brought to the edge. Make him cum and he's moaning loudly, edging makes cumming that much better and it's a favorite of his.
L = location (favorite places to do the do)
Simple. Anywhere. Genji has always been a bit of a voyeur. He's done it outside and in public alleyways. The risk is what gets him going, the idea that anyone could see you like that makes him insatiable and want to claim you as his even harder. He has good hearing and a great reaction time, so you don't really have to worry about anyone seeing you.
M = motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)
Genji is simple, offer the idea he's on board and stripping his pants off while tackling you. Wear something tight or revealing, and he will not look away and will definitely initiate when given the chance to.
N = no (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)
Genji does not like praise or being mocked. He's okay with how he is. Overdone praise makes him remember the state of his body, and he hates it. Mock him for it, and it's over. He just can't focus on the act when your words are replaying through his head. Genji also doesn't like the sounds of being hurt himself. He's in enough pain as it is, and he doesn't need more.
O = oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
Genji loves it both ways. When he was younger, he was selfish and liked the feeling of a warm mouth bob up and down his shaft, but now he can appreciate his lover. Genji lives to hear any whines and groans come out of you. His mouth is still human, and he treasures it. Tasting you feels like heaven, and he's proud every time you come on his tongue. Feeling your legs close around him feels so hot, choke him with your thighs a bit and he's coming hands free.
P = pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)
Genji had always been the same. He likes it fast and rough. He has the stamina too, so why not use it? Genji lives to make you go dumb around his cock, the fast speed making the pleasure feel even better to him and you. Genji loves things to be fast and intense. Passionate sex is the best when rough and overwhelming.
Q = quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
Genji loves the idea of them but they never do stay quickies, he lives initiating one under the saying 'only one round' and soon that quickly turns to 3 and whatever plans you had gone just like your energy as Genji fucks the 5th orgasm out of you. Genji loves you so much, and once he gets a taste, he's not going to stop.
R = risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)
Genji is always down for something new, no matter how taboo or strange he'll give it a try. It's how he learned his favorite kinks, so what's more experience? He will try anything once as long as it doesn't cross either of your boundaries.
S = stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)
Before becoming a cyborg, he was pretty good with stamina to begin with. He could make it 2 or 3 rounds before having to stop, each round being average in length, but he made up for it in his experience. After becoming a cyborg, his stamina is near infinite. Genji can go for as many rounds as he wants, and if you're okay with it, he's happy to use you for hours on end.
T = toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)
He doesn't use toys, open to trying them but he'd much rather make you cum from his fingers then a vibrator anyday of the week. But with enough asking, he might allow a dildo to be used on him to expierence the feeling.
U = unfair (how much they like to tease)
Genji si the definition of unfair, edging you is a garuntee and making loving jabs at you only adds to the lust and frustration you feel at him. He can be such a tease in the hottest ways, he can seductively whisper sweet nothings in your ear as you spar in the morning and leave you no chance of getting back at him all day. He then always makes dun of you for being so desperate, yet he started it.
V = volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
Genji is LOUD. Do you know how he sounds like when being frozen or burned? Yeah, he's louder. He's always saying something or grunting in your ear. But can you blame him? You feel so good, and he needs to let you know how close he gets from you alone.
X = x-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)
W = wild card (a random headcanon for the character)
Genji definitely has a habit of smelling your clothes. It's a sense that reminds him of his humanity and the fact it's your smell it gets him going. His imagination goes wild when you're away, and a spare pair of underwear is there calling his name. He definitely will cum on them and leave you them to find.
Genji's cybernetic parts stop above the waistband of his boxers, the metal legs only begin 3/4 up his right thigh and his left knee down. The rest is made of flesh, so he can still jerk off as much as he wants with everything still in tact. Genji's cock stands at an average 5.5 inches with a dusty rose tip, he takes care of it and he's clean.
Y = yearning (how high is their sex drive?)
Genji is the most down bad hero. He's game for it anytime and anywhere. Never one moment goes by that the thought of you flashes his mind. If he focuses on those thoughts, he's hard and bothered and definitely will track you down to help.
Z = zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
Genji, before the accident, would fall asleep quickly afterward. He didn't care much about aftercare and more about how tired he felt. Now that Genji is a cyborg, sleep isn't really needed. He more sleeps out of habit, over necessity. Genji often watches you sleep, he lives how at peace you look and how you trust him enough to sleep beside him. Genjiw catches you for a while before drifting off to sleep himself, happy about how amazing his partner is.
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My thoughts. Please don’t come for me.
Ever since that man is has been introduced back on our screens, and is now kissing Buck, it’s like we aren’t allowed to view Eddie anything other than, straight? It’s so interesting because we all over the years whether or not people shipped buddie, people viewed them as queer coded. Therefore, queer individuals identified and connect to their story. Now, we can’t because…… NOW it matters what’s canon in show? NOW, it matters what the actors say? REALLY NOW? Did we forget throughout the seasons, the SR and Oliver when discussing buck, classified him as straight… because at that time, he was. To buck and BuckTommy fans, you NEVER viewed buck as bi or queer coded DURING his previous relationships when he was CANONICALLY straight or when Oliver and co said he was straight in interviews? how he talked about his relationship with Natalia pre s7. Bi buck wasn’t even supposed to happen this season. So now they are tying to use Ryan’s comments as a “gotcha”…. They love to throw out the term “actual representation”.. but it’s like, you talk about “actual representation” but bi buck was simply a LAST MINUTE decision. They were gonna continue with buck and Natalia. But due to scheduling it fell though. Then it was gonna be buck and Lucy (same thing). Then Eddie and Tommy. AND THEN WE GET to buck and Tommy. They think Tim is master and this “great love story” but if that was the case, they would have planned them from the start. Not a last minute decision as Oliver admitted. Why have these scenes if you want the audience root for them. For example, their first date. Why include Eddie? Why make it awkward for buck. Why did Tommy leave buck stranded on the sidewalk looking like an idiot. It’s NOT Tommy didn’t have a right to leave. What we are saying is the “joke” wasn’t funny. Why even say it? Especially since Tommy is “so confident” Second, if Tommy knew he wasn’t ready, why continue with the date after buck made the “hot chicks” comment. He clearly saw and realized, and buck TELLING HIM. “THIS IS MY FIRST DATE WITH A DUDE, and IM AN ALLY”. Like…. It’s not rocket science. He led him on. Why not show the continuation of the date? They could have easily done that. But they mirror bucks and Natalias where they only showed like 5 minutes. Buck thought they were continuing with the date to go to the movie. Tommy couldn’t give him the benefit of the doubt. Especially he KNOWS what buck is going through… Tommy immediately, seconds after coming outside of the restaurant ordered the Uber and WAITED until he opened the door of the car to tell him. That’s fucked up and fuck him for that. Then they had buck apologize because he wasn’t ready to come out? LIKE HUH? Or Tommy’s continuation comments of being jealous of buck, the 118, and the way he belittles buck. “Enjoys while it lasts” after earning his medal? Like do you have to be a POS. WHY WHY for the life of me, have his LI say that if you have the audience to like him. The “daddy joke”. Really? In ANY other context, awesome! But there? I simply can’t. The way I have been watching since s1 and have never seen this much pushback to like a character or couple. None of bucks previous LI had this many “defenders”… AND HE ONLY HAS LIKE 15 minutes of SCREEN TIME. It’s weird.
Now, the plot hole that is 7x04 What stopped buck from reaching out to Tommy after the air hanger. NOTHING? He never called or texted… also, idk if anyone realized buck Tommy knew he was goi he to hang out with Eddie, and YET CONTINUED to invite buck… why show us the last maybe minute before they begin to talk about Eddie and where Eddie is NOW in the frame. Why didn’t they show the beginning where buck comes and meets Tommy? Buck getting upset at Eddie circling the basketball game? Buck grilling Christopher on his thoughts about Tommy? When did he care about Christophers thoughts before about his dads girlfriends or friends? Accusing Tommy of lying to get bonus points with Chris. You think he truly cared which movie is better? Why does he try to make him a bad guy to Maddie? He really didn’t have the time to talk to Eddie to go to the basketball game? Really? You mean to tell he HAD to wait until the gym scene? Or hell… even ask Tommy. When he does talk to Maddie after hurting Eddie, he says “i felt left out”. So that tells me something, he felt left out over not being able to do things with Eddie. the fact that buck didn’t know they were hanging out for 2 weeks? Not that he was trying to get Tommy’s attention
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