#but I need you to know my frustration

[quibbs126]

And you want to know what makes it worse? I don’t even have anything going on creatively in my mind either

I like to go on walks in the morning, around 30 minutes to an hour, depends on what I feel like (or the weather), and during that time, I listen to music and I think about scenarios in my head, like characters talking or a scenario they’re in. They could be characters of my own creation, they could be characters from a series I currently like. But usually, it goes with the vibe of whatever I’m listening to (or it devolves into something else, but that’s a gradual thing). But now, I can’t come up with really anything, and so I’m stuck revisiting whatever I came up with beforehand, and I can’t think of anything new. And like, it’s getting annoying, only being stuck with like, 3 things, not to mention I’m just repeating the conversations over and over again each time

I know that’s a weird, specific thing, but it’s a thing, and I thought it should mention it

But going to something more general that makes more sense, another thing is that I just haven’t made that much art. Like I’ve been doing less and less over time, and I know y’all know it. And I want to make art, I just can’t make myself, both out of lack of ability to force myself to, and because of a lack of creativity (which is what I’m focusing on here)

Or like for my fankids, I’ll be looking at my list, either in my notes or on Procreate, and I cannot make myself do anything with them. And I’m doing this with characters in general, I‘ll be looking at a blank page and have no clue what to do with it

And the current most infuriating thing, I can’t make new characters. Maybe I can push through making fankids, but I cannot make my own original characters, and I cannot create a new original story to work with. Sometimes I’ll have random ideas, and I’ll write them down, but I can’t do much with them. And what makes it infuriating is that I feel like I am on the cusp of something, some new thing should be happening (and at this point I need it for new ideas), but nothing’s coming up, the thoughts won’t form

I suppose related to that, I’m trying to redo the fusion project once more, but I can’t figure out where to start with the characters, and so I can’t do anything. I have ideas, like Berserk is making me think of something to do with the characters, but I don’t know what that something is, or how to achieve that thing. It had to do with each of the party characters and how they’re introduced and what they bring to the party, but the thoughts won’t form enough for me to understand what it is

That’s the main thing, thoughts are floating my head, there are points that formulate, but the refuse to connect into an actual line of thinking or creativity, and it’s infuriating!

None of that made sense, did it?

I noticed this on Sunday when I was out with my family for lunch. I had my iPad to draw, but I couldn’t think of anything to draw, so I just sat there, trying to think of something. I mean thankfully food came relatively fast, or else I’d be stuck there for ages in an infuriating creative limbo

#I said “infuriating” way too much #and I think this post made much less sense #but I need you to know my frustration #because I can’t take it #it’s hell #I want to draw I want to create #but I can’t #and I hate it #real life stuff #creativity #art struggles

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[turbo-tsundere]

Kokichisake-onna

*Happy anime narrator voice*: “And thus, Kokichi has once again successfully evaded the dread of emotional openness!”

Also here’s a random selection of derpy concept doodles for this comic :)

Thank you byeeeeee

#gonta gokuhara #gokuhara gonta #kokichi ouma #ouma kokichi #kokichi oma #featuring shuichi xD #ougoku #awwgoku #my art #I wanted to post it on ougoku day but work and migraines piled up on me and I really wanted to give this one the time it needs! #If you know the legend you know why Shuichi is panicking XDD #Look into Kokichi's eyeballs in panel 3 and see the sad hope against hope and yet! he still actively sabotages any comfort coming his way! #Is Gonta just kind or is his compassion a warped mix of compulsive fawning and misplaced empathy that keeps inviting menace into his life? #there's a secret sadness to this silly comic lmao and it's those poor sods' autopilots #I say laughing but by god do they need help #anyway enjoy! I might try posting more of Gonta ships I like - like this one; or with Shuichi; and some others 8D #btw I LOVE Gonta's scariest sprite - fantastic detail bc it does look like a snarl and ofc a wild child would imitate animal expressions! #and 2 out of 3 times he uses it he's actually NOT angry but hyped or frustrated - both cases also smth I appreciate for certain reasons #his actual 'serious angry' sprite is far more toned down in comparison

[bixels]

While I do think anon was rude, I do think it's pretty shitty to set up all this stuff you were going to add the au and then just drop it. It's disappointing. Definitely unfollowing.

Bye.

#ask me #anon #once AGAIN. #I am not dropping anything #the au is not getting cancelled. more than likely i'm gonna take a break from it until i find motivation again #But I've been drawing the AU for half a fucking year #In that time I've only drawn 5 things that aren't mlp related #I'm getting tired and my last few posts didn't do as well as I'd hoped #And I'm not about to burn myself out on mlp au art even if I really do love making it #I'm still gonna make comics. I have a bunch of ideas. #Tulli and I still wanna do the limited run merch shop #Discord is still coming. Sunset is still coming. Sombra is still coming. I have so many ideas #But I need to do something else for my own sake. Did you know I was supposed to get the background 6 designs done by now #But I didn't because I'm TIRED #I've been keeping myself on a schedule to keep content pumping despite travel and school and family and I'm tired #what i'm getting isn't matching what i'm giving and that's nobody's fault. i'm not frustrated at anyone. a slump was bound to happen #drawing the au was fun until it become my Thing. Because when your Thing––your identity––starts to faulter #it can really make you freak out #And that's not healthy for the project or for myself. I need to find the fun again and I'm sure I will #I'm really appreciative of everyone's support in my inbox and replies it really does mean a lot especially given that about 2/3 of my #followers followed for mlp. But if you're gonna react to me saying “i'm gonna cool down on mlp art and draw my own stuff” with “i'm #disappointed in you." then Leave! I think it's good you're unfollowing #you are not obligated to stick by my side! But don't act like I'm doing you a disservice by turning my attention elsewhere #I didn't promise anyone anything and I definitely didn't say I'm breaking any promises.

[squeakadeeks]

"In this world, I'm known as...the Winter King" 🌨❄️🌬

This cosplay was so so close to never seeing the light of day, as this was the aforementioned project I rage quit to procrastinate with Nekomancer on haha. I really adored the fionna and cake special (and adventure time in general) and wanted to cosplay from it for eons...although I will admit this project was intended to be "generic blue and silver winter regal outfit for a variety of characters" and it was a toss up on whether or not the first run was going to go to the Winter King/Simon or Jack Frost...but I couldn't find my jack frost wig so here we are!

This was my first time working a lot with velvet and low key....I loved it and would love to use it more.

#my cosplay #adventure time #fionna and cake #simon petrikov #LISTEN listen i try not to be negative #i know theres no reason to be your own hater #but this project has been a whoumph from day one #making it was frustrating and the end product feels disappointing #kind of a bummer end to my cosplay year BUT #all the more reason and motivation for me to focus on non-cosplay things for awhile #since im pretty sure the reason this costume fizzled is i just didnt put in the extra care and attention it needed #which is just...not really possible when youre making a new costume every single month on top of a demanding job #ALSO IM SOWWY NO GLASSES MY NOSE WAS WAY TOO TALL FOR THE TINY ONES I HAD originally for jamie heinemann if you believe it

[catwouthats]

Southerners: I can barely fucking stay alive. The system sucks.

Conservatives: omg how cute >_< This is why we are going to not do anything about your situation and instead say that more people should be like you 0w0

Southerners: Did you not hear me? I’m living paycheck to paycheck! That’s not fucking cute!!

Conservatives: Cutie >_<

Southerners: *turning to city/coast/suburb leftists* Okay, y’all have energy and time. Can you listen to me?

Privileged/white/new “leftists”: Hell no. You elected officials that are terrible, so you are a shit person too.

Southerners: But the system’s fucking broken! Voting doesn’t work! And those laws affect and hurt the people here the most!

Southerners: *turning to the (mainly) bipoc leftists of cities/coasts* Can you please talk some sense into them?

Bipoc/tired/old leftists: Well, they won’t listen to me unless it easily makes them look like a really good person. So this is gonna take a while…

#if I mis said anything or if there is anything to add please let me know #add anything you like #this is just my interpretation of what I personally see #rant and yell as much as you need to in the comments #yell at me even if you want to #idk #all this shit is frustrating #leftist #the south #politics

[uncanny-tranny]

I've talked before about how the way people treat suicide can be unintentionally devastating to the suicidal person, but I don't think I really ever said how to avoid that.

Speaking about suicide in how selfish it "is" ("think about how you'll transfer your pain to your loved ones!") might seem like a way to put logical sense into the suicidal person, but, honestly? It runs the risk of massively increasing their shame and guilt about being suicidal. Suicide is not inherently a revenge fantasy or a way to "get back" at someone's loved ones, so when the suicidal person is treated like a criminal of a "crime" they haven't even committed yet, you can imagine how unhelpful that can become.

Instead, if you want to point out how cherished your person is, frame their relationships as something they can keep fostering.

"Your cat will miss you :(!!!!" becomes "you and your cat seem close, right? I'm sure it's beautiful having a close friend like that!" and maybe include ways that they and their cat are close and meaningful to each other, tailored to that relationship.

That's only one example, but when you shift the focus away from why that person should repent and feel guilty for being suicidal, you can instead focus on why they would live for that reason. See how you can frame that as a positive? Whatever is keeping that person tethered should never be used as a bludgeon, I think, because then you're taking away why they're living, the positivity of why they are here. Whatever they are here for should be remembered often and honoured.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #mental health support #suicide #suicide tw #(after this i'm going to rant about being told the unhelpful narrative i included above) #when i was younger the thing i was told the most was that suicide would only transfer my pain to others... #...and is that true? maybe. was it helpful? no. #why was that unhelpful? #because i started using that as yet ANOTHER reason to feel guilty and to lash out against myself... #...because that didn't magic away my suicidality like it 'should have'... #...and that was ~obvious~ proof i didn't care enough about my loved ones to keep them out of harms way... #...and it can be really hard not to do that (give advice like that) because if you're not the suocidal person... #...you have the luxury of thinking without the burden they are labouring under... #...you can see 'logically' and make assumptions about what the other person 'needs' #it's just frustrating because i know that people like this want to help but i worry about *how* they are helping... #...in the sense that i want their efforts to actually help their person and bring them closer

[kimodraw]

buffy fanart from the past few days,,,,catching up on the real hashtag classics first two are kind of mignola studies and the last ones are me enjoying oz and willow's puppy love :))

#buffy the vampire slayer #buffy summers #spike btvs #willow btvs #oz btvs #am only on season 3 its fun its lovely i know willow's a lesbian i still deeply enjoy her relationship with oz........theyre cute #cordelia's my fav but i havent really drawn her yet.......need to draw her and buffy angrily making out its IMPORTANT #when her and xander first hooked up do you know how frustrated i was it wasnt with buffy. hungry for yuri #i lvoe spike also obviously hes very fun. i think he and constantine from the dc verse would fuck #also. oz. most transmasc guy ever. that is all

[sergle]

I really truly, from the bottom of my heart, hate you bitches so much, because on the tiktok of literally COCK AND BALL jokes w brittany broski, there were a few notes/messages like this:

And I KNOW you don't think anyone's going to check. You had someone go into your askbox and say "hiii brittany broski is shitty about palestine she's really ignorant :/" and you went oh omg I didn't know!! thanks for telling me! So I checked! This is in reference to her talking in her podcast, because people were asking why she hadn't done any big press statements about Palestine, you didn't retweet this or that, you must not care, don't you care, what's your stance, etc etc please say more OKAY COOL. So what's going on there? What did Brittany say on her podcast? Is she a Bad Person? Can I have some transcript, please? ____ "Hey guys, before we get into this week's episode, I want to talk to you about the ongoing and prolonged suffering and loss of life in Gaza, in Israel, and the oppression of Palestinian people widespread. I don't ever want it to be a question that I would ever not be against the oppression of any group of people, that I would ever stand on the side of the oppressor." "There was a lot of fear of misusing my platform." ... "I will admit that I was nervous to talk about it, because I don't want to say the wrong thing. And this is too fucking serious of an issue to misspeak, or to spread misinformation, or to speak over or for someone." ... "So I want to take a moment on my biggest platform- which is this podcast, to say that I stand with the people of Palestine, I stand for the liberation of Palestinian people." ... "Every day, to log on to social media, and be just inundated with graphic, unimaginable violence, and loss, and grief, it's just--There are no words." ... "And I feel helpless. That's part of it too, when you feel helpless, the last thing you want to do is talk to people about it-- but visibility is a resource in and of itself. And I can offer that." ... "The outpouring of rage and passion online, and anger at what's happening, I would argue needs to be dedicated and focused on our elected officials. We live in a democracy- albeit an inherently flawed one- we live in a democracy where we have elected officials who were elected and put in power to represent us, and if we feel misrepresented, if we feel underrepresented in foreign affairs? These officials have public phone numbers and emails. There are scripts available online to express your disdain and your rage, and unfortunately that's one of the only ways we'll see actionable change."   "If you expected more from me, it's a terrible feeling- but I don't want to center myself, this needs to be all eyes on Palestine right now, where the real activism is happening. I would encourage you to follow journalists that are on the ground, people who are in Gaza, we need to be listening to them. I would also hope that we're at a point in this conversation where I can express my desire to stand in solidarity with the people of Palestine and that NOT meaning or suggesting or condoning anti-Semitism of any kind. There's a rise of anti-Semitism and islamophobia in the United States and it's just-- it's disgusting, and it's scary, so I want that to be said too. I just wanted to share that I am experiencing part of this collective sense of helplessness and hopelessness-- but it DOESN'T HAVE to be hopeless. I'm going to include a phone number in the description of this episode where, if you don't know the name of your senators or your Congressman, it's never too late to learn, and you can reach out to them." _______ Hm. What a bitch!! Yeah, just so ignorant and uncaring. Obviously she's not keeping up with anything. Should've retweeted more shit ig!

#sergle.txt #I will turn off reblogs on this so fucking fast I swear to god. I have a gun. I needed to complain about this #up in my notes and my asks bc you already didn't like somebody and you believe what ppl say on anon indiscriminately. #so what I'm hearing is she didn't talk about it enough / didn't put out statements soon enough. I see. #basically a criminal offense. she should get the electric chair ig #god I mean. if my thing was comedy and I had a big audience I don't think I'd know how/when/if to do basically a #Press Conference on Literal Genocide or if I should not make it about me and my thoughts? but do shit in the small ways I can #what do you even say... I think what she said here makes sense. but maybe I'm not reading it with enough bad faith #like oh my god. OH MY GOD #so no I'm not gonna delete the clips I posted what. the fuck are we talking about #''she was frustrated on ig stories that ppl were messaging her to put out a statement'' yeah... yeah. frustration. in response to so much #bad faith directed at you. hundreds of thousands of people all saying shit At You like it all rests on you #and being told to say these words so if you say them they will be empty. myeah what a bitch basically #I personally would not experience a human emotion in response to this.

[danmeichael]

"shen qingqiu is a liar who is lying about his feelings so we can't ACTUALLY tell how he feels about anything"

so you admit that you can tell he is lying and by extension you can actually discern what his true feelings on the matter are and that he's just unwilling to admit to them.

#svsss #shen qingqiu #i read fantl of a manhwa once where the translator changed a character saying “I hate that guy” to something to the effect of like #“I really like that guy but i don't know what to do with my feelings” #which was you know. just stating the intended subtext laid out very clearly by the story #however the translator said they thought it would be “confusing” and they didn't know why the author wrote that when it was untrue. #and i don't..... get it #like part of the appeal of subtext is letting your readers feel the excitement of being in on a secret #knowing something that even the characters don't know and feeling pleased with yourself #and adding a layer of frustration because you know what's REALLY happening and this idiot DOESN'T and keeps making decisions #that are logical when you examine their worldview of the situation!!! #but OBVIOUSLY DISASTROUS when you know what's actually going on. #and that's on purpose!!! you're supposed to be frustrated and feel your smugness turning into dawning horror #because you are omniscient but have absolutely fuckall power to do anything with that knowledge #and you have to watch blorbo ruin their fucking life. #more people need to have faith in their ability to interpret subtext #and more people need to have faith in the author's ability to write it intentionally

[damsel-loves-machines]

*The poly finally reunite after Lilith's 7 year long absence.*

Imagine King Lucifer Morningstar practically storming in the halls of the Morningstar Mansion, his full demon form slowly coming to fruition with every step he takes toward the master bedroom. Over his broad shoulders are a flustered Queen of Hell herself on one and their shared concubine on the other, the latter possessing a simple grin, expecting this reaction from the fallen angel.

Lucifer: We have to make up for lost time together, all 3 of us. An hour for every year that you were gone, Lili.

Lilith: 7 hours? I've missed you both dearly, but isn't that a bit much?

Concubine!Reader: Luci opted for 7 days at first, but I convinced him to show you mercy, seeing as it has been a while since we've had a taste of you.

#throwing this in the crowd ad running like hell #lucifer gots some pent up frustration that needs to be let out ASAP lol #i don't know about you guys but i genuinely dont think lilith had ill intentions for being gone for that long #we know little to nothing about her actual character but that fact that most fics make her out to be a bitch kinda makes me sad a bit #lucifer morningstar x reader x lilith morningstar #lucifer x reader x lilith #lilith x reader #lucifer x reader #lucifer morningstar x reader #lilith morningstar x reader #lilith imagine #lucifer imagine #lucifer morningstar imagine #lilith morningstar imagine #original post #my post

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

Man, sometimes living alone with ADHD really do be like:

Me: Huh, I wonder why I'm so shaky and tired and seeing spots everywhere

Also me: *hasn't eaten food in two days, hasn't had water in just as long, has been hunched over current hyper fixation for hours without moving, hasn't seen sunlight in days*

Me: .... Just one of life's great mysteries I suppose

#ayo can i replace my sensors or something?? jfc i would love a check engine light pls and thx #i know its crazy but imagine if your body had a way of telling you that it needed water or food? like how wild would that be #huh? whats that? thirst? hunger? whos that? i don't know them #i LIKE food. i LIKE being hydrated. I LIKE being healthy. itd be super fucking cool if my brain actually worked and. y'know. told me shit #like when im about to die of dehydrated. itd be super fucking cool if it could do that #aaaaaaugggh #don't mind the rant. im cool. im fine. im just frustrated that my body refuses to cooperate with me and im shitty at knowing my tells #personal rant #adhd

[americankimchi]

god i wish they hadn't retconned maul's death. i get wanting to explore more of his character because he was, objectively, one of the coolest star wars characters to ever hit the big screen and didn't get much screentime prior to his death, but also his role was fulfilled perfectly within those constraints so i wasn't too upset by it.

but by retconning it and making it so he never died it's like. okay. what now? the whole point (well, to me, ymmv of course) of the theed generator fight was that it was the first ever fight between the jedi and the sith in thousands of years, and that in the end even though the jedi (obi-wan) won the fight, a jedi (qui-gon) and a sith (maul) still died. a master and an apprentice dying together to herald the start of a new age/the return of the sith. perfectly paralleling the way in rotj a master (palps) and an apprentice (anakin/vader) died together to herald the return of the jedi. in both instances, a father figure (qui-gon/vader) dies in the arms of their son (obi-wan/luke) as a sith (palps/maul) is cast down into the abyss to their deaths. (palps being alive in the ST and retconning his death in rotj is also annoying for this reason)

i mean i like maul. don't get me wrong. he's an incredibly compelling character and i enjoy seeing more of him... but there's always the thought hovering in my mind like "he should be dead though. he should 100% be dead. this wouldn't be happening if he was dead, but i honestly would rather it not if it meant that maul was dead."

like the tpm fight just doesn't hit the same knowing that canonically he's just. going to become a robot octopus at some point. (shoutout to palps becoming sith glados in the ST) it cheapens the moment for me. it was supposed to be a moment of triumph marred by the deep and soul-crushing loss of a loved one and it's just... not, anymore. or at least not to the same extent. AUGH i'm just. frustrated. wish star wars as a whole wasn't constantly reframing/retconning what's been established. just puts a bad taste in my mouth.

#personal #star wars is HUGE #there's a GALAXY'S worth of stories to be told #and we're always for whatever reason focusing on this ONE PARTICULAR TIME PERIOD #it's suffocating #this is partly why i'm so excited to see the acolyte #it's a break from the skywalker saga #i love the skywalkers. i love the skywalker saga. #but that's also why i want them to STOP ADDING TO THEIR STORY #sometimes a story has a beginning middle and an end and that's okay! #that's fantastic! #we don't need to see between the lines! or behind the scenes! what if we just LEFT IT ALONE #AUGH #anyways. i don't know. i'm just frustrated with the state of star wars as a whole #it feels so claustrophobic right now. just because the space is there and undefined doesn't mean it needs to be filled #this constant push to canonize the years leading up to an event with content is so frustrating #negative space in an image isn't a bad thing it just helps guide the eye to what's most important #otherwise it gets too cluttered. too noisy. too DISTRACTING. #this was supposed to be about maul being alive but it's really about my ongoing grievances with how star wars is cannibalizing the movies #i'm tired of it........ tired i tell you #anyways that's all. real old man yells at cloud moment rn lmao

[moe-broey]

I've only read the first volume of Dungeon Meshi but I'm convinced Laios and Marcille are both autistic but two EXTREMELY different flavors of autism, so much so it enables autistic PVP (one sided, Laios is unaware, possibly due to the autism)

#dungeon meshi #LIKE. WITH LAIOS it feels like a v obvious conclusion to come to hc wise but marcille....... #i vaguely know there's some stuff going on where i can guess at a few things (absorbed through osmosis) (as little spoilers as possible) #but to me she is so tryhard autism coded. getting frustrated w herself when she's slower/can't keep up w her peers/friends #physically limited. feeling the need to prove herself/scared of weighing down her allies. needs to do things 'by the books'. #stubborn streak. can accidentally say offensive things due to bluntness/overcompensation becoming an ego #she's even a picky eater. #meanwhile laios said 'hyperfixating isn't enough i need to eat it' and he fucking meant it. #honestly you could probably make an argument for any of them (main cast) being autistic. as with an hcs in general LMFAO #so much love for senshi as well. epitome of being an older dude w a niche interest and seeing an autistic young man #and going 'yeah okay. i can take you under my wing.' #all of this is so real and HAS happened to me (even being plucked up by an old man who noticed my aimless demeanor and put me to work)

[holographic-mars]

mars. mars i need you to hold my hand and imagine a world where ravage survives the dotl arc and is taken to sanctuary where soundwave and cosmos help nurse her back to health and she is reunited with the other cassettes. mars i need you to see the vision w/ me. mars 🖐

GRABS YOUR HAND HOLDS YOUR HAND SO TIGHTLY OOUHHH MY FUCKIBG GODDDDDD IM LISTENING. IM LISTENING

Soundwave brood is in chaos bc holy shit everyone thought she had DIED. like Soundwave felt it happen and everyone had mourned her death but then. They get a comm from the Lost Light saying she’s okay and Soundwave immediately demands her back with him. In a I will hunt you down myself if you don’t give her back to me NOW kinda way. And the lost light is like yes ma’am sorry ma’am (when they get to the Station Megatron tries to speak to Soundwave but for his own safety he is forced to stay far far away from everything. Soundwave can’t even look at him right now it’s too much too soon).

ANYWAYS. Ravage is still very critical and not great but she’s alive! Soundwave is naturally a huge overprotective mess and during the first few weeks (months? Idk) of Ravage’s recovery she stays unconscious and Soundwave will not leave her side. When ravage eventually wakes up, she’s in pain and frustrated but waking up to see Soundwave (her soundwave! She hadn’t seen him in so long she almost thought it wasn’t real) gave her so much relief she didn’t even realize she needed. The reunion is emotional and messy and there’s a lot that needs to be said but for now it’s okay to just be held and revel in the fact that Ravage is alive.

Cosmos comes in full clutch as the universe’s best nursing assistant and makes sure that Ravage is healing properly and getting the medical help she needs. No amount of snide comments and grumpy remarks from Ravage can stop him from monitoring her and making sure she has the medication she needs to heal.

Ravage gets around the clock care with the help of Soundwave and Cosmos. They become Ravage’s primary caregivers and they work together to make sure she heals properly and can get back to her old self.

She needs physical therapy to get her limbs all working again. She hates it. Soundwave and Cosmos are both endlessly patient with her, though, and it’s almost embarrassing.

The reunion with the rest of the cassettes is emotional and Rumble and Frenzy actually cry really loud. THATS embarrassing. The avians perch on her gently and preen her around her collar and midsection to make sure everything looks fine.

Ravage develops a deep appreciation for cosmos. Nothing Ravage could say or do could make Cosmos give up on taking care of her. It’s strange and gives Ravage an odd sense of comfort whenever he’s around.

UHHHH ANYWAYS. MY BRAIN. MY BRAIN IS INFECTED. HELP

#RRGGHH #DROPPED EVERYTHING TO ANSSWER THIS ASK #OUHH OUHHHHH LORD #TAKE CARE OF HER…. NURSE HER BACK TO HEALTHHH #ravage seems like the kinda mech to get very frustrated and mean when she’s hurt and has to heal from something #like she feels helpless and angry and she takes it out on others cause she doesn’t like that she can’t defend herself and she needs help #cosmos is like. it’s okay I know you’re angry and Ravage is like I will bite you really hard #RGHGJNC #sickness… #holds your hand #you infect my brain so much #transformers #soundwave #ravage #coswave

[octoagentmiles]

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#octonauts #octonauts without context #i typed the title with my eyes closed #it uh. took a few tries bc apparently i'm very good at it HFHDJFK- #fr sat there frustrated like ''>:(( STOP BEING RIGHT I'M TRYING TO BE FUNNY'' 😭 #this isn't a brag fyi if anything i'm exposing myself as needing to put my phone down more often lmaoo #anyway *continues making post on phone* ✨✨ #i have no idea which part this is bc i've made so many of these. this could be part 5 or 78 and i wouldn't know lmao #i love this show so much. i don't know if you guys have noticed this about me /j #it's important for u all to know