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essektheylyss · 1 year

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CR is WILD for ships like, I feel like all the characters have such unique and interesting dynamics that you can nearly ship each one with any other one and come up with a valid argument. It's the only piece of media that I can't devote myself to a single relationship because they're all so interesting in their own ways

I have two kind of parallel thoughts on relationships in CR because on one hand, you're so right that all of the characters play off each other in SUCH fun ways, and all of them are a little different!

But then at the same time, having primarily watched campaign 2, pretty much all of the ships that turned out canon by the end were deeply ingrained into their character arcs, and I eat that up so much; I think a lot of pushback against romance in media stems from the fact that often romance feels very tacked on, and that's never the case in this show! Which is STELLAR. But it does mean that I end up with preferences, but usually only in hindsight (or well down the line).

This campaign, though, hasn't had that set up nearly so clearly, whereas you can see how beauyasha and fjorester at the very least were set up from episode one, and then even when you consider shadowgast, although that was never a guarantee, there's a lot to establish why they gravitated towards each other (pun intended lol). (I'm not mentioning the Brenattos because they were married prior to the campaign and also because Veth was blatantly obscuring her interests through the first 40 episodes, whereas Caleb lays out his own interests a lot earlier on.) And I'm really excited about how Laudna and Ashton are engaging now! There's been some indications of it, but primarily on 4sd out of character, and the canon conversation was SO juicy, oh my god.

But honestly, this is why it's so fun thinking about how all of them interact with each other on multiple levels of relationships—and why I've in the past been :/ about collapsing relationships in this show in particular into 'ships'. I was actually already thinking about this this week lol—I... may have considered sourcing and writing a whole essay about how ubiquitous a term 'ship' is in fandom culture, and how it suffers deeply for the fact that it is a very broad brush used to paint any character interaction and dynamic without accounting for the very messy relationships that people can have. The CR cast does SUCH a good job creating very realistic, complex character relationship dynamics, and it often feels like a term that is too overburdened to engage with canon well.

#SORRY THIS TURNED INTO A SMALL ESSAY you caught me on a day in which I already had thoughts lmao #but YEAH I have so many thoughts lol #critical role #cr spoilers #cr meta #ig lmao

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vanyafresita · 3 months

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after seeing this post by the artist afkeii on instagram, i got inspired to write a poem... and then i drew something to make it into a zine...

the way i feel about romantic love is... complicated... but i've known i'm on the aromantic spectrum for over a year now ! yippiee !

if you'd like to have a physical copy, feel free to [download the print version here] , and check [how to put it together / make a 8-page zine here]

#zine #personal zine #art #aromantic #aromantic spectrum #my art #id in alt text #that was very... interesting to write and draw about #dont ask me how i feel about romantic love its too tiring to explain #(<- thats a lie- do ask me about it as much as you want i have so many thoughts on it. probs more questions than answers tbf tho)#also yeah the black ring on my middle finger and right hand is bcs im asexual too #but ive known im ace since i was 13 so i dont have nothing poetic to say about it cuz its been just a normal thing for me for so long lol #aight its getting late and i need to go sleep byeeee

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beaulesbian · 19 days

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I was once again thinking about this goofy Luffy moment after his Lucci punch™ and i had to see it frame by frame.

first the force of it throws them both away, and while Lucci is seen on screen tumbling for a long moment, Luffy is just away in a blink of an eye.

and then his funny scene - his legs are like jelly that he tries to get under control,

he stumbles, falls, rolls into a mix of all his limbs and eyes,

and then only the cloud behind him cushions his fall

- which would be interesting if he can subconsciously control that while he tries to regain the control over his movements - that the environment around him still adapts to his awakened Devil Fruit abilities and morphs to help him. Where others would probably fall through that cloud, for Luffy that cloud backs him up like a trampoline.

It's just fascinating!

#still thinking about this new ep? its more likely than you think #monkey d. luffy #monkey d luffy #one piece #one piece spoilers #one piece ep 1100 #luffy #mine #gif:op anime #long post #egghead arc #egghead spoilers #op spoilers #sun god nika #gear 5 #i guess something like that might have been already used in wano but its these new eps that im caught up with so its like. new for me lol #and something i can notice while waiting for a new eps #i wanna know more how much the DF controls luffy and how much he is able to control it.. . *thinking face*.#especially if what im thinking could be some parallels between lucci having worse control over his DF (in the current manga) than he thinks #if it changes his characteristics that much and if that could be used as storytelling point to see that either 1. yeah it could be potentia #danger for luffy too. or 2. luffy is that stronger that he can already control it better by now. even maybe subconsciously #i just love how this anime part aired during that interesting rob lucci manga chapter few weeks ago. like.. so many thoughts

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fumifooms · 6 months

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Marcille & Chilchuck contrasts & similarities

Yesterday in the Dunmeshi Discord we talked about narrative foils and I ended up writing a lot about my fave duo so. Informal character analysis time. I give some in-depth interpretations on aspects of Chilchuck’s character near the end as well, not just analyzing their characters in how they contrast each other

Marcille and Chil are so foils to me. "Has experienced loss through death and now clings onto the people around her and is overly interested in engaging in social gossip" vs "has experienced loss through rejection and now refuses to open up to anyone until socially starved", like both are responding to their experience with loss in fully different ways, socializing and trying to learn all she can for the short time she has with others but trying to keep digestible enough that she’s not too attached if she loses them, vs refusing to socialize so the problem stops before it begins but eventually unable to resist the pull that comes with being a social creature. Like I guess what I’m trying to say is that Marcille engaging with social gossip could be a shallow way for her to vicariously experience social relationships if she feels like forming deep bonds is unsafe. Family is a core motivation and value for them but in different ways. Both want to keep the status quo but in different ways.

Divorcee who avoids love wether it be in the people around him or thinking about his own (past?) romance vs hopeless romantic that idealizes love without herself having been in a relationship or even in love herself as far as we know. Emotional constipation vs emotional intelligence. Streets savvy vs prestigious academic, field experience vs book smarts. Crass vs prim. Overbearingly social vs private to a fault. Never externalizes his feelings and to a degree represses them vs wears her heart on her sleeve and her feelings on her face. They start out underestimating each other in different ways, one by assuming his age and the other by undermining her skills, experience and willpower. Both seeing each other’s motives as somewhat skewed (money and research of shady magic respectively) but growing to respect them.

They also both seek approval and validation from others, unlike Senshi and even Laios who don’t seem to care about outside perception as much, Marcille worries early on that she’s not helpful enough and slowing the party down meanwhile Chilchuck is almost always trying to prove a point early on that he’s capable and mature. Coincidentally enough, Chilchuck’s approval was both the catalyst and the key to resolving her arc about it in the mandrake chapter, meanwhile besides Senshi Marcille is the one whose perception of Chilchuck gets the most changed over the course of the whole manga. Something else notable is how they deal differently with their races being judged, while Chilchuck reaffirms himself as a proud half-foot, Marcille hides her half-elf nature and is embarrassed of it when it’s revealed. Something subtle yet interesting is also how they both are shown to prefer lying in a way that makes them look bad rather than admitting ignorance on something. Chilchuck says that he cheated on his wife and that’s why she left rather than just saying that he doesn’t know why she did. Marcille in the mandrake chapter says that she has used a dog to harvest mandrakes (thus killing it) before while in truth she never has, and everyone including herself is like "That’s horrible… The poor dog!"

Their dad dies. Chil is like "Hm. Cool. Anyways he died doing smth he loved right so haha lemme drink myself into an early death bed too yolo 🔥🤟" vs "He died and it shattered my world and I must devote all my life to wiping death out of existence".

"I am going to knowingly shorten my lifestyle through unhealthy habits actually."

Problem solving approaches

One thing I love about them is how they have complete opposite approaches to problem solving. Besides striving for workers’ rights and job stability for halflings with an union, he’s very "laissez-faire". He won’t do the righteous thing just because it’s the right thing if he doesn’t have an incentive or a safety net, like going to save Falin. He doesn’t chase after his wife to talk it out and make amends, he gives her space and either hopes she’ll talk when she’s ready or figures that he shouldn’t try to do anything about it. He doesn’t mention the mimic he noticed to the others to not make a big deal out of it and hopefully it won’t come up again. He’s a "if the glass is half-full that’s fine enough for me, I don’t need things to be as good as they could be" type, a "leave it alone until it figures itself out" type.

Marcille? Marcille is idealistic and in-your-face. If there is an issue you better believe Marcille will address it and try her hardest to fix it, will talk it out and attempt to understand & strive to make things as best possible for everyone involved. She will FORCE you to talk about your FEELINGS wether you like it or NOT. Leaving it alone? Keeping things as just okay when they could be great instead? No no no no no, that’s not right, she’s going to try and fix it now. She will make you stand up and fight for the best that your life could be, to be honest when something bothers you and do something about it, will make you stop suppressing yourself because you’re scared of things getting worse.

Which, you know, both methods certainly have their pros and cons, but they’re very complimentary in that way. He grounds her into a more down to earth mindset and teaches by example that it’s okay if things don’t necessarily work out and moving on is possible and not necessarily miserable, while she encourages him to not give up so fast or stay quiet on things that bother so much. He soothes and she emboldens 🔥 Funny, because you could have thought it would’ve been the contrary, which is not untrue either, but he’s the "has experienced the harshness of life and has settled for something comfortable but modest" while she’s the "wants to make the world better and goes to great lengths to change it while still trying to find herself & uncomfortable with some aspects of life like loss".

One overly focuses on dealing with issues by changing things around her while the other overly focuses on only changing himself.

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Chilchuck leaves things alone if he thinks they’re best left unaddressed or thinks they’ll work itself out. Like the mimic he didn’t tell the group about but it backfired later. Like how he didn’t chase after his wife or seemingly tried to contact her at all. Like how he prefers not to dig into people’s personal issues in parties and be left alone to deal with his stuff on his own as well.

Meanwhile Marcille is overbearingly in-your-face and loud and "if there’s a problem we’re dishing it out right here right now. Your wife left you?? And you didn’t try to get her back?? I am going to write out a script and a plan for you to apologize and please bring these piles of presents."

She’s secretive about her fair share of things as well but she’s very proactive. While she seeks to research something that’s a core motivation and life goal to her + save someone she deeply cares for Chil is there for his job and to get money and "hey if something happens I’ll have done my part. I took you guys here now you guys figure out the rest and fight the monsters or something". They both like to have a say in the strategy, Chilchuck moreso as time goes on, but Marcille involves herself much more into almost everything.

Espescially early on, they’re always sticking by each other judging Senshi & Laios together and being like "Am I seeing this shit right. They’re crazy right? Tell me I’m not the only one here with common sense" and forming a 🤝 relationship over it and considering that, it sometimes feel… Contradicting? How they also have a lot of conflict together over time about how different they truly are. But it’s interesting and nice to see how even though they do have arguments it always gets resolved pretty promptly, like they’re truly hashing it out as equals and then when that’s done they’re back to being on the same wavelength. The exception would be Marcille taking a long time to come around on Chil being old, but arguments and debates like the one on dark magic and if it’s okay or wrong to use it, which was pretty serious and not just banter? They came to find a middle ground or at least understanding, and it didn’t seem to lower the respect they hold for another afterwards.

Chilchuck’s repressing habit

I do think Chilchuck has a repressed thing where he doesn’t WANT to think about it about his feelings sometimes, like with his wife- and maybe with his father? But the way he was so casual and nonchalant about his father dying has always struck me. I’m not sure if this is a "my feelings on my father were mixed and complicated at best" thing or a "I just don’t want to spend time thinking about it" thing or something else, but it gives food for thought.

When it comes to alcohol there’s this saying where an alcoholic parent will have 2 kids and one will grow to be alcoholic too while the other will never even touch a drop of alcohol and both when asked why will say "I watched my father". Chilchuck is def the first I think. He gives the vibe of "An alcoholic parent puts a strain on familial relationships?? Pshh, my father was and look at me! I turned out great!" Which is something I’ve heard irl lol which always makes you go like 👀 yes indeed you’re perfectly well-adjusted and haven’t been affected by your father’s alcoholism at all it’s clear as day. On that topic, Chilchuck’s family, both currently and when he was a kid, are very interesting topics to theorize about with the hints and cues we have, how his wife truly felt and what happened for her to feel unappreciated enough to leave, how distant is he from his daughters if they haven’t seen each other in the same year either and Flertom was the only one to send him a letter? But that’s a topic for another day

Chilchuck probably has such a complex…. Of like not being… Like allowed to take space I guess? And he does wish to affirm that right, he takes space and asks for it so very overtly, he formed a half-foot guild to demand better working conditions as one of the biggest examples of that. He grew up poor and undermined but he knows that he’s capable and someone worthy of respect and demands it, and takes every opportunity to prove himself. But on the other end, he doesn’t seem to want to keep his hopes up in general, like asking for something to be better is bound to fail, that it’d be too good to be true. He tries to keep out of where his job doesn’t need him, from a sense of efficiency that cuts down on unnecessary stops but also because he just thinks it isn’t his place to do so. It strikes me that it’s hinted that like… He doesn’t even really consider the possibility of going to his wife and trying to mend the relationship. Like it’s either she’ll decide to take him back on her own or he’ll be left out in the cold waiting, never knowing just where he’s truly at with her and if things are over for good. Like… Shooting his shot and making his case doesn’t even register as an option? Like he’s not worth fighting for, like whatever he did wouldn’t change her opinion anyways?

He def has a "life isn’t like a fairytale where everything goes well" philosophy where sometimes it feels like he just gives up on how things maybe could be better, especially interpersonally. Maybe it’s why he focuses on simple joys like alcohol instead of trying to keep up with relationships which can be complex and very fickle, in his own words. Something like alcohol is predictable, always there to fall back on, safe, gives him sensations without other emotional/social risks attached. Ironic for someone whose job is all about risks, but understandable

He contradicts even himself… Bro yes you’re capable, yes you’re great, yes you matter, now maybe speak about your feelings maybe??? Or do you not think your emotional issues deserve to get fixed and have closure???? Are you so used to being dismissed, overlooked and undermined that you think no one will listen even if you speak up?? And this recontextualize his "I’m not even gonna try and talk this issue out because I know (assume) that it won’t solve anything anyways" approach, doesn’t it.

"I must break my party members’ stuff or lie to them because if I just tell them my opinion and my feelings that I don’t want them to die they won’t care anyways and keep going"

In a way everyone is the glue of the party in different ways, Laios giving the group a direction and a plan, Senshi keeping them fed and grounded, Marcille making everyone more social and encouraging bonds to form, and for Chilchuck he’s the one most focused on actually keeping everyone alive I think.

Conclusion

Idk I’m not gonna repeat every point but have this as a parting contrast:

Guy with shortest lifespan possible who doesn’t mind knowingly shortening his own with an unhealthy habit, here for a good time not a long time, VS girl with longest lifespan possible who wants to lengthen everyone’s life, who focuses on how long she can keep something or someone rather than how happy her time with it has made her already. They’re both loud in their own way, and both are still insecure despite appearances. In a way, both of them focus on taking care of others while overlooking their own demons.

#Dungeon meshi #chilchuck tims #marcille donato #character analysis #meta #Marchil #For the discord peeps i mostly streamlined things and yeah added a few things but prob not worth rereading #Sorry for posting less I’m still brainrotting just as much now I just do it more frequently on Discord instead lol #I have so many thoughts written down already I just dunno how to structure and post them. One day. For now I’m working on a marchil fic #Analysis

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transprincecaspian · 11 months

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This is the worst hand I’ve ever seen, Fenris thought to himself as he peered at the cards that Jurian tilted towards him. He tried not to let it show on his face; Donnic and Aveline were watching closely from the other side of the table, after all. When Jurian had asked for his help with playing the game, Fenris didn’t think that he’d be so abysmal at it. “Try that,” he said instead, tapping at one of the cards.

Jurian grinned and faced forward in his chair once again, but Fenris let his gaze linger for a few seconds more. The wine had flushed his cheeks pink even in the dimming candlelight, and the deep red of his tunic only served to emphasize it. It was a flush of delight and of life; Fenris had worried for Jurian when he had come back from his latest trip with dark circles under his eyes and sore shoulders, mumbling and dodging any questions about the Warden-Commander.

When Fenris leaned back in his own chair, he was met with a subtle and suspicious glare from Donnic. He smiled, just slightly, and everyone returned to their cards.

Fenris lost his next hand. To Jurian, actually, and to the surprise of everyone but Fenris. It had been easy enough to set Jurian up after Fenris got a good look at his cards, and all it took was one glance at his delighted grin for Fenris to know that he’d made the right call, even if it stung at his pockets. He looked up, and Donnic was watching with a raised brow. Fenris put a finger to his lips and not a question was uttered.

Fenris could have let it go, just the once. The thing about addiction, however, is that once is never enough. It was the very thing that Aveline had been crowing about for weeks leading up to their night all together playing cards—up until the point she began to win a few rounds. Fenris realized that she was right; any time he could have played a hand to win, he didn’t. He couldn’t. Jurian’s giddy laugh, the smug turn of his smile, the obnoxious way that he crowed and taunted, even if it was aimed at Fenris—it was worse than the wine. It was intoxicating.

Fenris was doomed—and at this rate, he was going to end up broke.

A little fluffy shortfic that I’ll probably expand on soon but I just wanted to get it out 😔 many thanks to @demandthedoodles who helped me cultivate this idea <3

#I have so many thoughts about this #the cheating at cards #being purposefully shitty #letting someone else win #just because you can #yeah I’ll definitely extend this fic lol #jurian amell #Fenris #jurian and Fenris #dragon age #dragon age 2 #da2 #Cas writes #my dragon age fanfic #wbtc

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ladychandraofthemoone · 7 months

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Traintober Day 3: Twins

“Hads you some Scottish twins angst”

“Thinking about my au and how Donald’s and Douglas entire story would work and I’m still not sure if adding this but in honor of traintober day 3:twins here it goes so here since my au is following more of sos storyline but still has rws/tv series tidbits the same thing still happens the twins flee to sodor scratched off the numbers but since it’s instead mr.Zorro and Mr.Starr, who are in charge has the two companies have not been melded together yet and despite mr.Zorro gruffness even he wouldn’t sent them back to a uncertain future and after talking about it with Mr Starr and within their respective engines they both agree on taking one of the twins for each of their respective companies Donald goes with nor’easters while Douglas with the midis.

So despite both twins being eventually purchased and thereby saved, they still end up “separated” from each other yes they can see each other it’s not forbidden but their coworkers fierce rivalry between each other separate company among other reasons slowly but surely begins to influence the twins themselves douglas is caught up in more criminal activities even with a guest nearly gone wrong (sorry Colin!!) and as a result of his coworkers toxic influence (diesel, Adam, Stanley mainly) the latter two who were against having him for personal reasons he began to like the independence forming bonds with those from similar origins/railway(Emily), those giving him a warm reception (Lily, Colin) or just those who welcomed him regardless of the whole rivalry(Peter, later Reginald).

Both receive praise and attention though I feel like Douglas more so felt a slight need to become one of the midis thanks to his coworkers’s attitude towards him like yes he’ll defend himself but it’s better to make friends than enemies when you’re the new guy with Mr.Zorro having favoritism and watching your every move combined with some rather unpleasant encounters from the nor”Easter’s side (mainly James who also unintentionally stains Donald rep but doesn’t say anything on it) I feel like a fight would come when Douglas come in painted blue as a reward where he is finally accepted into the midis where slowly but surely the cracks begin to show from when their visits to one another become sacred, withholding secrets (mainly on douglas’s side cause let’s be real I’m pretty sure no one wants to tell anyone you’re involved with criminal activity) just drifting apart from the brother you once thought you knew your entire life until it all eventually comes crashing down.

of course this is still a work in progress but this idea would be quite interesting. Reference:

#ttte #traintober 2023 #traintober #my art #my art <3 #my art stuff #ttte donald #ttte donald and douglas #ttte douglas #donald and douglas #my art tag #my art lol #my artwork #I’m just gotta do days rather randomly at this point lmao I’m combing some I’m still finishing sketches up devious cause wowie I got so man #Devious characters in my au but yeah this idea has been revolving in my head for awhile I’m still figuring out which twin has a inferiority #complex they both have their own insecurities that’s I’m still figuring out like when the nor’easters and midis merge douglas and the other #Midis have to unlearn so many unhealthy habits cause their side was win at any costs to the point if sabotage and teeny survival of the #Fittest and wanting to be on mr zorros good graces cause yeah he’s alright but dude got secrets he was involved with crime and Donald i #Wonder if he’ll blame himself like of course it’s worth it but dang the modernization arc is messy they’ll make up dw eventually but these #Just thoughts Colin here he’s treated like yeah dw it’s gets better but wowie is this a lot still working on it they make up rescue/brakeva

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mercurials · 2 months

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it suddenly occurred to me that theres nothing wrong with posting my trad doodles so! heres my fav dnd character i just doodled at work :3

her names lavinia and shes a fathomless warlock! she grew up a very pampered and spoiled princess with her only real struggle being the fact that she was the only non-magic user in her family....until she was unwittingly selected by the kraken to become its warlock. suddenly she manifested immensely destructive power that left her washed ashore on a random island after accidentally destroying her castle 🤙 now shes trying her best to fit in with the pirates that picked her up and...not doing a great job adjusting to her new life. but she is enjoying her newfound powers, and slowly untangling the mystery of who her new patron is

#my art #lavinia #furry #dnd #i do a lot of sketches at work that i always forget to digitalize (or i dont have the motivation lol)#but yeah i can j allow myswlf to have fun and post lil messy doodles and ramble abt my ocs #who'd've thought #idk if anyone will read this far or if theyd be interested but im always eager to talk abt my many ocs so anyone is free to ask abt lavinia #or anyone else :-)#not that ive rly posted much of anyone else other than brandy atp lol but i have a ref sheet for another ive been meanjng to finish....

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