#but i wanna do things now ok

[devilfruitdyke]

we need to destroy the idea that girls should wear makeup. normalize bare faces on prom queens and flower girls and cheerleaders. no products at all instead of '7 product simple makeup routine.' no more 10 step skincare and regular facials and dermablading and gua sha just to be comfortable with yr natural face. i want to see eye bags on the funny librarian and acne on the swim coach and wrinkles on all our adult role models. i want to see a 16 year old girl that has never tried putting on eyeshadow. i want to see a 7 year old girl who doesn't have to go out and buy powder for her dance recital. i want to see trans women and girls everywhere to never have to wear makeup, regardless of how well they 'pass.' no more 'contouring to look masc' either. a post-beauty industry world is possible

reblogs are on but if you bring up the stage makeup point that i have addressed three times yr blocked on sight ☹️

#this is me warding myself against the b arbie m ovie shitstorm. </3 #too many teenage girls have had 'bimbo feminist' thrust upon them by the attention economy + consumer-feminist culture #its ok to just be fucking lame. like you can still be fem/me and stuff while doing it #there is a world where you can feel comfortable in yrself even if you arent Aesthetic #the makeup industry is trying to hinder this tho #plus i saw that post thats like. 'the reason we see a lot of casual pseudo-gender-essentialist and choice feminism rhetoric... #... is because we have fewer posts now that have basic feminist messages' #that resonated so i am the change i want to see in the world #i wanna try and make a r iot g rrrl masterpost for anyone getting into that side of things later so lmk if you want to see it

[stuckinapril]

so past the point of changing people's minds about me!! like i actually just realized today that i don't care. i am so much more capable of shrugging my shoulders at someone's preconceived notions of me than i used to be. throughout my life i will probably run into many a person who will have a negative impression of me that they will not be able to dispel (or will go out of their way to fuel for the sake of their confirmation bias or whatever it is). but i will also have the honor of meeting a lot of amazing people who won't do that and who will actually see me for who i really am and will affirm that w their thoughts and actions. so long as i know who i am, anyone who's willing to make the effort will know who i am too. and that's all that matters

#i feel like some people resort to delusion to self-soothe when they run into people who don't like them #or avoid them like the plague #but for me i just wanna be chill. like u don't like me? but it's not for any actual reason aside from ur preconceived notions of me? ok! #i am not going to expend energy into changing your mind or even avoiding you #in light of this revelation i will simply chill and do my thing anyway #i have a friend who tells me “we'll always work w people we won't like” so now i see these kinds of instances as practice #rather than something that actually reflects my worth as a person #p

[raiiny-bay]

the kids released a new album

#ts4 #simblr #ts4 edit #ts4 render #sims 4 #myedits #AUverse #dhestyn #kelly #ok i actually have things to say about this #FIRST OF ALL this is not what i intended to make when i sat down & started working on the bandAU #i had this big elaborate thing planned & then i realized... i didn't wanna do it. at least. not right now lol #idk why i think everything i make needs to be so elaborate & involved bc it doesn't?? like where did i get that idea from? #i can just make something small & silly sometimes yk #n e way. this is like. one of the kids' albums i guess? my thought is that dhes wrote it/was in charge of it #that's why he's on the cover. #kel writes most of their albums (w help from the others ofc) but dhes really wanted to try writing one & this is what came of it #most of the titles don't actually mean anything. they're just like. random words i thought dhes would use lol #but the first 3 are references to the canonverse #also i originally wanted to have dhes shirtless bc 1. symbolism of like vulnerability? #but also 2. i thought the lighting would look pretty against his skin #BUT he has a death note tattoo right there between his shoulder blades & i just.......... could not take him seriously like that so #he had to keep his clothes on

[threegunbrainrot]

i dont have any trigun mutuals so i'm just gonna ramble my thoughts into the infinite void of tumblr. and im sure others have touched on this same topic but

it almost seems like vash is getting softer with every new installment of trigun? like incredibly consistently and incredibly specifically.

let me explain.

i'll start with tristamp and work backwards; the tristamp vash we all know and love there is incredibly adverse to violence.

more often than not he ACTIVELY refuses to fight and just WON'T draw his gun. this post loosely counted the amount of bullets that he shot throughout all of season 1, and almost ALL of them (like to an insane degree) were dished out against knives, who vash knew was strong enough to take the hit.

the few times vash does draw his gun against a human in tristamp, it's as a blunt force weapon (against the badlads gang and livio, for example) or to disarm others/save someone with ricochet (like shooting the punisher before wolfwood can kill livio).

he just doesn't shoot people. at ALL.

then if we look at 98 trigun, things change drastically.

here, vash isn't afraid to hurt people a little if it means more will be saved in the end. of course he never kills, but he actually shoots people here. not only that...

he holds a casual, sarcastic conversation while pointing his weapon at people.

he constantly shoots at limbs to immobilize people, fires warning shots extremely close to peoples' vitals, and performs several very insane trick shots throughout the show to wound those with armor.

tristamp vash wouldn't even draw, but 98 struts around firing warning shots into the sky and singing about bloodshed for intimidation! i'm not sure there's a single episode where he doesn't shoot someone at least once.

...so what about trimax, then?

(PLOT SPOILERS AHEAD)

he is so. shockingly. violent.

of course he never kills. of course he's still trying to save people, but there's this anger in him that i was completely taken off-guard by reading for the first time.

tristamp vash is so soft he's painful to watch. 98 vash makes a heartbreaking effort to be as silly and nonthreatening as possible, constantly making himself out to be the fool. but trimax?

he's... literally grief-stricken and out for revenge. explicit revenge. he's angry and he's hurt and he lays his intentions out so clearly. he's making THREATS.

seriously:

hunting legato. HUNTING him.

it's not even a matter of drawing his weapon anymore. he does it constantly, and fires just as much. never to kill, but he doesn't joke around the way 98 vash does. the most he'll offer is a sunny smile to reassure others and nothing more.

i'm not that far into the manga, either. i'm sure there's countless more (and probably better) panels to convey this side of trimax vash, but i suppose it also says something that i've found so many panels depicting this so early on.

but the progression of vash's personality is fascinating regardless.

from a tortured, angry loner desperately trying to cling to his morals for rem's sake

to an equally devastated man who devotes himself so completely to acting the role of the fool

and finally to the sad, chronically depressed shell of a person in tristamp who refuses to so much as draw his weapon.

#trigun #trigun stampede spoilers #tristamp spoilers #trigun 1998 spoilers #trigun 1998 #trigun 98 spoilers #trimax spoilers #trigun maximum #trigun maximum spoilers #vash #vash the stampede #ok god just trying to cover my bases with all those tags #the last thing i wanna do is spoil anyone #this is such an incredible series and i want everyone to enjoy it in its purest form #but yeah i could ramble about the different vashes aaaaaaaalllll day #i kinda wanna compare all the ww's too cuz even if the differences arent so violently distinct theyre like twice as intricate #but vash's relationship to violence over the years is the most fascinating thing. he's so quick to fire in trimax and 98 for the safety of #others- both with wildly different mental states behind those bullets- but tristamp just. doesnt. Period. #tho admittedly this s1 tristamp has kind of turned out to be the prequel. i wonder if he'll be quicker to the punch in s2 #anyway god gonna stop rambling now. this post was mostly just for me anyway cuz i wanted to put my thoughts in order #ill be surprised if this goes anywhere #trigun spoilers

[taroiiu]

L tober day 4&5!! Lawliet x purin because they r my faves...

#Ltober #death note #l lawliet #maybe hed like purin cause he looks like pudding. yummy.. #experimented with shading hope it looks ok #now i wanna draw L in full on decora lol #yesterday it hit me that these are MY hands and i can draw L wearing and doing anything i want #summeows art tag thing

[cerubean]

hotel wip???

#idk i havent built in a while but i renovated a hotel build off the gallery and the synapses started firing so i started to build my own #i stopped building bc i suck ass at exteriors its embarassing i just dk how to make things symetrical and then rooms end up too small BUT #im doing ok so far there's 4 two bed rooms nd 2 single bed rooms and then two “penthouse” suites #also i havent playtested yet so dont get too attatched but also im kinda excited to play w/ this! #idk what mod it's from but the rental (shared) lot type works so well w/ hotels i will say it is laggy tho so be wary of that #also umm i hv w*ckedwhms now um that mod is... a lot esp w/ hotels but i guess it's kinda accurate?? it's fun to snoop on sims #s #wip #not tagging this bc i dont wanna let ppl down if i end up not finishing im unemployed so i really should be doing more productive things #but oh well :p

[stardustvanfleet]

i am yearning so bad for my twinnies rn….. goodnight everyone ily all so so much !!! 🩷🫶🏻

#p.s. i was having a kinda rough night earlier? #but between listening to gvf…. and the people who saw i wasn’t doing well and reached out…. #i’m genuinely feeling better now 🥺 so thank you. fr. i’m so so lucky to know all of you!!!! #not to mention court. my beloved. thank u for being my best friend for all things gvf and beyond. ily #anywayyyy i wanna smooch from a kiszka twin. and snuggles until we fall asleep. ok <3 #li speaks #jake #josh

[chickenoptyrx]

I added trunks to that last doodle and uuhhhh.. wasted a buncha time

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#my bullshit #idk what theyre talkin about but its probably dumb #ill probably see somethin horribly wrong in like half an hour and hate my life. but #*posts now anyways* #sunova bitch i knew it i fucking didnt even do the gd gemstones! #ok did the gemstone things #cant wait to realize what obv thing i messed up next :D #aaaaand iv added a buncha the same squares i always add instead of a real background :U #god forbid i just. wait to post somethin til im sure i dont wanna tweak it any more #no no its WAY better to just constantly edit #then have several slightly different versions floatin around out there #lol hate. hate that i am like this #trunks #broly #theyre friends cause who cares

[b4kuch1n]

fuck it sk8 sketches from da sketchbook. get sk8ed idiot

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #sure whatever. tagging ship is probably easier than explaining what the fucks up with these two in my head #hi. I watched sk8 with my friend cosme a while ago. I actually dont care about the allegations that much I just got #blasted with teenage years flashback. and now I need reki to have everything on earth and be well #these have been around for like a week lol Ive just been debating posting them to tumblr. bc like. Im not finishing these lol #hesitant to call sk8 ''therapeutic'' but boy oh boy. does it make me confront some stuff. yes a sport anime leave me alone!!! #its just. I think I was this way about raz too actually. listen I have History with Stuff. I'm allowed ok? I'm totally allowed #u can See it in some of these doodles actually. this fuckign anime got me so unwell #hey. if ur a fellow adhd potentials-havers out there. ur a real one. thanks for still hangin out doin what u love/ur best #if u were an 'if u wanna do art u have to be excellent and high-art at it otherwise it means nothing' kid. I am holding ur hand #I'll be normal now I prommy (lying) #well. what I'll be doing now is taking a nap. maybe. gods my schedule backslid like four hours again #eh whatever. I go to bed anyway. got my portion of the day done and tomorrow I go buy new knife #hope someone come give me a new table top and lower the whole thing a bit soon. so I can stop sitting like Im in a shopping cart #have a good night lads. have fun. its imperative

[opens-up-4-nobody]

:-P

#practicing their faces bc i wanna do a thing. also bc its the 1st time i actually feel good ant drawing them #like i feel like i got merlins face pretty good and theres 1 or 2 arthers that i feel r ok enough #which is a huge mark of improvement for me haha bc idk there was someone i followed on devient art in like hs #who drew amazing merthur art and i used to use their stuff as refs all the time for like how i wanted to draw #and now im like hey i got closer to how i wanted to draw in high school haha it only took like 10yrs #bbc merlin #merlin #arthur pendragon #i just cant quite seem to get bradleys delicate little nose

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[shiori8]

Di Angelo Siblings

Sooo, to absolutely no one's surprise the new Percy Jackson reboot kicked me into full-blown pjo brainrot mode again lol. I saw these super cute fits and some vintage photos of Venice alleyways floating around on Pinterest and was consumed with the need to draw the Di Angelo siblings in them (it's probably wildly "historically and geographically" inaccurate for them, but we're just going to have to deal with the fact that I'm dumb and uncultured xD It's the vibes™ that count, okay!)

Psst, wanna see something cringe😂? Found this old sketch of them from one of my first forays into digital art years ago:

And to quote past-me "I can barely look at the old one, but at least that means I improved, aye?"😂

#pjo #percy jackson #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo series #pjo show #my art #fanart #artists on tumblr #digital art #pjo fanart #nico di angelo #bianca di angelo #di angelo siblings #well if there is one thing I certainly haven't improved on it's being able to make people actually look the ages they're supposed to be #they both still look a bit too old; they also look like they're judging your entire existance but that's probably fair for Hades' kids lol #proportions and colours are still a little off too; but hey this piece had a very complicated history ok xD?? #ok so to go on a bit of a semi-personal rant (scroll away now if you don't wanna see woe-is-me-artist ramblings xD): #I've finally made a veeery old dream of mine come true and got myself a graphic tablet with a display 🥺 fancy glove and all XD #my ratty old wacom has served me well but it really makes such a difference to be able to see wtf you're doing when you move the pen xD #so this is my first piece to celebrate the occasion and oh my goodness... #digital art is hard 😭😭 #I'm studying to become a textile designer I have used Photoshop extensively for almost the last 6 years #*slaps roof of my brain* this bad boy can fit so many shortcuts and encyclopedic knowledge of all its features in it #I know this godforsaken program inside out but goddamn it have I never felt so dumb before lmao #wow so shocking who knew that designing patterns and making fanart with like sketching and anatomy and shit would be completely different🤪? #but it really is so different I seriously felt so dumb and like I had to learn how to use photoshop completely from scratch again xD #I did all of my other digital works on my tiny ass phone (Ibis Paint my beloved♡) and I've had years to kinda establish an ok workflow ther #in a weird way having more tools and options at my disposal hindered my workflow so much more because I would get into analysis paralysis #over every brush stroke; every colour selection; brightness adjustion etc. #idk it's kinda weird I wonder if people can relate

[alangdorf]

Finally, my (min qty: 1) requisite Funky Yabusame Drawing. Like with the Tsubakura pic, you don’t gotta read too hard into the symbolism; I was mostly just doing whatever looked cool lol

#art #digital #len’en #yabusame houlen #my original brief for this was ‘Yabu but parts of her are transparent and apply a negative filter to the bg also weird perspective’ #and this gets an acceptable amount of the way there #just. don’t look too hard at the foreshortening; there’s a reason my drawings almost never have any z-axis ok #the eye is overlaid with Suzumi’s eye of Senri (with the red eyelid) at 33% LOL #I wasn’t sure what else to do with it but that fit and I figure you can never go wrong with a good Suzumi allusion #speaking of Suzumi I’ve been drawing out a character lineup as I go to work out designs but also mainly colors #not posting that yet cause I wanna add Arde and Shion before I consider it done for now #(proooobably not drawing Tsurubami cause like you can extrapolate what they look like and I don’t wanna disambiguate their design details) #(vs Suzumi’s disguise I mean) #(also not sure abt Benny; we’ll see) #but anyway immediately after I drew Hamal Cine I got overtaken with the need to draw at least one pre-breakup suzutsuba thing #and I’m not posting it cause while it’s tame it’s still what I would classify as suggestive and I’d die #but like. dm me if u want it #Ok byeeee #scopophobia #eyestrain #whoops forgot I was gonna tag those just in case #softened the colors significantly compared to that one ux ven pic with 100% saturation on everything though lol

[lunarharp]

lil extras for the free day

#witch hat tag #orufrey #orufreyweek2023 #gotta put these silly things here now 🤦‍♂️ cause the remaining prompt to catch up is not a happy one so it should go somewhere else.. #didnt end up doing anything that pushed my limits after all..but that's ok. since i've felt pretty depressed lately this week was my treat #i def feel like i get less likes & RTs overall on twt recently even tho my followers increase. are ppl sick of my stuff ?? :') #but i myself feel pretty ok about my art atm...so i guess it's fine. my fics have never gotten the hits/kudos i've ever hoped for #so i've accepted that this is how it is for me. i see LOTS of ppl stress about that kinda stuff and i don't wanna be like that.. #i'll just keep on keeping on. creating has been pretty satisfying lately when im NOT depressed abt other stuff #and i do get fulfilling comments <3

[ittybittybumblebee]

i want to see exactly how many people actually have thought i am for research because ive gotten this quite a few times from different people i just wanna see how far it goes

#please understand while im not doubting so much now im not going to base off everything by peoples perceptions of my online behavior but #i feel like it does give good insight #i just always have a little hesitation in me because i feel like no one can get a full scope or honest picture of myself to Know me enough #to say that i can trust their opinion of me without knowing me enough in that sense #gahh. cuz i always feel like im doing Just Fine Enough i feel normal enough but im not guhh. #GUHHGGGHGH #it literally wouldnt change anything for me. like im autistic . ok! shrugs my shoulders. i cope i cant to anything more to help myself #than that #do u guys get it. do i have to go eat bricks or do u guys get it. my internal struggle. im like sisyphus #i cant trust other peoples opinions of my and i cant trust my own perceptions #while of course self diagnosis is a wonderful thing i dont want to put a name on myself that serves me no purpose #autism is awesome but do i deserve that title when dont feel like i own it wether i am autistic or not #im just so conflicted. #do you get it. do you get me. am i being reasonable . am i just fighting a truth about myself or are my doubts realistic. but the Evidence. #im so tired #i do not wanna b one of those tiktok girlies saying theyr hyperfixated on cooking pasta #Now do you get me #all my long winded rabbit trail rambles out of me before i finally get to my one point condensed conclusion #and now i just cant delete the rest of my tags because of all my time spent on them #enjoy my indentity crisis lol #i Might delete some of these tags later

[smokbeast]

💃 AND CRAIG >:3

He slays in 80s getup so much, such a shame he missed that era of life,,

#I feel bad taking so long answering some asks so I’m just posting it now aangnh #I will color this and MAKE MORE cause I wanna do a whole getup thing with Craig HEHEHEHE #also a sneaky watcher being baby to his ex #Exes can still be gay to each other ok #art #my art #my ocs #Craig #watcher #froggy mail time #dragon #demon #dragon oc #demon oc