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d2myg · 1 year

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#if i did want to get better and actually live my life and care about it instead of just existing it’s not like i’d know where to start anywa #anyway #idk why but i’m just terrified of going to a health center or whatever #like that way i would actually have to admit that something is wrong with me #the worst part is that i’m scared of getting help and of getting better #is that normal?#idk since this year started i’ve been telling myself that i’ll try to contact the health center and make an appointment #it’s not like it’s super difficult or expensive and people do it all the time #but it’s already april #maybe it’s just never bad enough for me to admit to myself that i can’t handle it by myself anymore and i do need help #i mean i don’t even reach out to anyone when i feel like shit i just let it wash over me #and i kind of like it? because it’s just an excuse for taking a break from everything #instead of facing my responsibilities #it’s always been manageable #i’m on my 3rd degree and living alone in a foreign country by myself and i’m managing so it can’t be that bad right #idk #then on the rare occasion that i do go to class or see my friends i’m fine. like i wasn’t in bed for multiple days before this #it’s like i can switch it off and pretend like i’m a normal person #when i know that multiple of my friends are in similar situations but they actually do the work to get better and do so many other things #for me it’s like #i just let life happen to me #i feel like i’m missing out on everything #but the truth is that i’m just so fucking tired #and i don’t want to do anything at all #and idk if i’m like in survival mode or in the middle of an extreme burnout #but i’ve been like this for years #and as i get older it keeps getting worse #and i don’t really know why? why am i so tired #why am i incapable of doing anything at all without herculean effort #eli.txt

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a-method-in-it · 27 days

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You know that Chris Fleming line that goes "Call yourself a community organizer even though you're not on speaking terms with your roommates"?

I honestly think every leftist who talks about the "revolution" like Christians talk about the rapture needs to spend a year trying to organize their workplace. Anyone who sincerely talks about building a movement so vast and all-encompassing that it overwhelms all existing power structures needs the dose of humility that comes with realizing they can't even build a movement to get people paid better at a badly run AMC Theaters where everyone already hates the manager.

#method speaks #union stuff #politics #i guess #best case scenario in this plan we get some successful union drives #worst case people realize that movement building is hard #and also explicitly mentioning socialism is counterproductive #mostly i'm just venting #it's only april how is election discourse this unhinged already?

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triona-tribblescore · 6 months

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