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traumxrei-archive · 10 months
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HI SORRY MY HEADACHES HAVENT BEEN KIND TO ME
1) BABY ITS COLD OUTSIDE MY DEARLY BELOVED. chapter seven was so good, thank you for the food !!!! mmmm leona my king
2) I was messing around with Azul on character.ai because. i was bored. and he said this to me. i feel like you should see it.
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This nearly gave me a migraine from laughing so i hope you enjoy. :]
have a good day!!!!
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NO NEED TO APOLOGIZE !! i hope that your headaches get better soon ^^
1 - omg thank you <33 i’m glad you liked the new chapter of baby it’s cold outside hehe >:DD (which you can find here for the curious)
2 - JAKSJFDKFK HELP MEEEE— THE CHARA AI AZUL IS BASICALLY AZUL LMAOOO— tbh. true. what is there that is worse than capitalism ? virtually almost nothing
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whomturgled · 6 months
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#feelin like a big lonely loser tonight teehe ^__^#thought maybe i had plans but then not n everyone else i asked didnt answer or had plans w other ppl too#n i had suggested a plans with stef but she never rlly confirmed or denied but i figured not plus im kinda sick now too but#also called her just to be like hi n i miss u bc idk im SICK n i hate being sick n the way she sounded was weird AaagghGGHHHHH#n im just now realizing maybe she also ended up doing plans w other ppl#just feels like nobody likes me i GUESS which is dramatic but . aagggghhghgh#to be fair a bit of a 180 from i love u so much lemme say it 50 times last night to i call her n say ilu n shes like uhh ok haha#anD I FEEL LIKE EVERYONES GIVING ME RLLY SHORT ANSWERS N LIKE#but i dont know if i have the energy to give a lot of. energy. ?? to expect it back? but its like#an endless cycle of feel bad so less energy or want to bug less so then deserve less in return anyway so feel worse#its kinda feeling like isolation time which i havent done in a hot minute but i tried so hard to get out of it but like . for what yknow#i got to talk to some ppl some more n meet some ppl but at the end of the day i still feel alone n alien teehee#but maybe im just bejng dramatic bc sick. and rsd with the Tones and ppl having Plans With Others#like its perfectly reasonable to have forgotten or just idk had better options or maybe bc i didnt say anything sooner buT . IDK. 😔🥺#im sick n i hate being sick n i want someone to take care of me ugh#instead i just kinda sat here. played some OW. got mad at OW. ordered pizza to engage in basically food self harm LOL n watched some#of a show ive been meanjng to watch. jts neat so far. but yeah now i just feel like shit i guess#idk how to like. not be insane. or like. ask ppl for like. idk. reassurance or smthn or. share feelings. without feeling like i am.... bad#for doing so or itll end poorly or its excess or burdensome or unreasonable. bc it kkinda is unreasonable but idk not entirely ig yknow#and i really need to shower but i especially dont want to now that i ate food bc id rather die than look at myself naked but yea#YEAH. IDK. i feel. like shit. and garbage. and i can almost see this as being the turning point to me sabotaging my ownnpotential future#whatever ive been slowly building that i just. end up giving up now.#god i wanna call stef or pidge or someone n... ig not even talk abt this bc i dont wanna be a bother but. just hear ppl. u_u#feel like i am wanted in the world slepflsjhggbjwjr#It's My Blog I'll Use It As A Diary / Thought Organizing Thing If I Want To !!!!
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1-800-GIRLS
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☁︎ modern!ellie x sex-hotline-operator!reader, very small mention of dealer!ellie ☁︎ summary: where ellie dials the wrong number and meets you instead. ☁︎ warnings: contains smut! 18+ only. top/dom!ellie, bottom/sub!reader, mentions spitplay/breathplay/overstimulation, mentions sexual interactions with men, dirty talking, guided masturbation (r!recieving), use of fem nicknames (babygirl, sweet girl, pretty girl, pup, puppy) let me know if i missed anything else pls. ☁︎ a/n: i feel like this kinda sucked bc towards the end i kinda rushed it, but i couldn't shake this idea n knew i had to write it. hope u like it bbs<3 also thank u to my bestie @elskittie for helping me figure some things out w this fic ☁︎ word count: 4,463 ☁︎ 1-800-GIRLS part 2
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phone call style story — reader is in italics, ellie is in bold.
monday, 12:45am → incoming call from 307-222-4578 (jackson, WY)
thank you for calling 1-800-GIRLS, it's sugar speaking. how can i help you, hot stuff?
uhh.. i just wanted to order a pepperoni pizza..
oh yeah? you want something hot and ready? i have something hot and ready for you.
ummm..
you hear some shuffling in the background, "jess! i think you gave me the wrong number!" the person comes back on the line again.
this isn't papa tony's cheesy pizza place?
....do you want me to roleplay as papa tony's cheesy pizza place?
woah woah woah! roleplay?? who the fuck am i on the phone with?
this is sugar from 1-800-GIRLS.....a sex hotline...for you know? phone sex.
PHONE SEX?? you hear the girl's voice yell in the background, "jesse! you ass! you gave me the number to a phone sex hotline!"
"does she sound hot?"
"well yeah, but—"
hey, you do know it's $1 a minute right? you've been on the line for almost 5 minutes, babe.
HUHH?? hell no..ok thanks sugar bear, or whatever. bye!
the line clicks off, and you shrug. sitting back in your bed to continue watching your favorite netflix show. you feel your work phone vibrate again, the name flashing 'bobby', a regular who frequents the hotline.
sighing and picking up your phone and holding it to your ear, you take a bite from your sandwich as you answer your 15th call this evening, "thank you for calling 1-800-GIRLS, it's sugar speaking. how can i help you, big boy?"
tuesday, 2:12am → incoming call from 307-222-4578 (jackson, WY)
thank you for calling 1-800-GIRLS, it's sugar speaking. how can i help you tonight, cutie?
hey....sugar.. i just- er- wanted to apologize for yesterday. my buddy got your number confused with a pizza place we really wanted to try. didn't mean to sound rude last night.
it's no issue, babe. don't sweat about it.
.......
.......
soooo.... is that the only reason why you called?
ellie didn't want to admit that she was attracted to 'sugar's' voice and that she'd been thinking about it all day during class. but also, ellie was high as a fucking kite, which gave her the courage to even dial the number again anyways.
i— uh— well— how does this whole thing work?
what thing? the hotline?
yeah..
well, you call me, we have phone sex or talk or whatever, and then you hang up. again, it's a dollar a minute.
okay, okay, i get it. so we can just talk? about anything?
yeah, if you want to.
sick.
ellie takes another drag from her joint, before speaking again.
so, do you like doing this? being an operator or whatever?
you let out a laugh, which ellie caught.
specify what you mean by 'like'?
i mean— this is your job. do you enjoy doing it?
ehh...i guess.
c'mon. you can be honest with me.
well, being a sex hotline operator has it's downsides. obviously helping old men jack off gets a little weird sometimes — they have some unusual fetishes.
oh yeah? what's been the weirdest one so far?
uhhh..i have this one regular who has me pretend i'm a ghost. apparently, having sex with ghosts is a real turn on for him.
what the fuck. seriously?
mhm, it's true.
shit, dude....i don't think i could ever do what you do. i dunno how you can do it.
well when you have college tuition and rent to worry about, the downsides don't seem all that bad.
holy shit, you're in college? how old are you anyways?
19.
that's crazy. we're around the same age. i figured you were a bit older.
how 'bout you? how old are you?
21.
not bad not bad. you're way different from the clients i usually get.
yeah? how?
considering my usual clients are 40 to 60 year old men who are married with kids and have secret fetishes, i'd say you're out of my ballpark.
ellie laughs.
how do you know i'm not secretly an old, 57 year old man who's married to my wife janet with three kids? and i have a balloon fetish?
you let out a giggle, adjusting your sleep shorts as you lay back down on your bed, completely invested in your conversation with this girl.
well, how can i appease your balloon fantasies?
i'm just fuckin' with ya. definitely not a man and i have the more normal kinks and fetishes.
is that so? what are the 'normal' kinks and fetishes?
uhhhh....well i'm into bondage, i love tying girls up..i dunno, just seeing them open and vulnerable does something to me. i'm into breathplay, spitplay, overstimulation, and i'm definitely a dominant so—
all you could do was gape as the girl went on her tangent, listing off every kink she could think of. you gulped, suddenly getting a bit nervous from this topic of conversation. you were experienced in the field of phone sex, but actual sex was a totally different world you had no practice in.
so, how 'bout you sugar?
...uhhh....i'm a virgin actually.
the other girl went silent on the other side of the line.
what? but you work as a sex hotline operator.
oh yeah- but— hold on, i'm getting another call. i'll speak to you some other time.
you hung up and threw your work phone across your bed, laying your head down on your pillows. talking to men was so much easier for you, so why do you get all caught up when you talk to a girl?
it was nearly 3:30am, so you decided to turn in and call it a night, mentally preparing yourself for a busy day tomorrow.
wednesday, 11:45am
sitting next to professor adams, patiently waiting for the students to turn in their quizzes, you try to focus on the text of your 'philosophy 101' book.
you were grateful that professor adams gave you the opportunity to be his teacher's assistant for a little bit of extra cash, and you weren't complaining either. the tasks he gave you were easy for a mere $16 an hour. still, it wasn't enough to support all of your bills, so you couldn't drop the hotline gig.
"and time! everyone hand your quizzes in to my TA, regardless if you finished or not," professor announced. all the students shuffled towards the front, handing you their quizzes as you neatly put them in a small pile.
"ah shit— let me put the date on that," a girl, with a very familiar voice spoke. looking up, you're greeted with the most attractive girl you've seen in your life. she had brunette hair and green eyes, with a small scar on her right brow. was this..? no, it couldn't be. that would be insane.
handing you the paper, her hand brushes against yours. you look down at her quiz, seeing in messy, scribbled black ink the name ellie williams.
slinging her backpack on one arm, she heads out the door, "jesse! wait up for me!"
leaving you in a daze, you were completely speechless by the idea that one of your new, favorite clients from your nighttime job is actually a student at your university.
saturday, 1:45am → 1:14:34 ongoing call with 401-890-6798 (cranston, RI)
thanks, sugar. will be calling you again at the same time next week.
no problem, sir. goodnight. dream of me.
sure will, babygirl.
the line clicks as the older man hangs up, and you shudder a bit, feeling uncomfortable after having to roleplay as a ghost, again.
sighing heavily, you place your work phone on your desk and pick up your real phone, opening instagram and scrolling on your feed as you mindlessly snack on some gummy bears.
you double tap to like some of your friends pictures, wishing you were out at a party, drinking some lukewarm beer and dancing with your girls to the latest tiktok hits.
but instead you were cooped up in your apartment, dirty talking old men through their fantasies and bearing witness to their guttural groans and masturbation. it was a shame that friday and saturday nights were your busiest evenings.
taking your bottom lip between your teeth, you ponder for a moment, your finger hovering over the instagram search bar.
fuck it, you thought, typing 'ellie williams' and hitting search.
the username @_elliewilliams pops up, and bingo. it was the same girl from professor adams class.
luckily her profile was public, so you take your time carefully combing through her instagram account, mindful not to accidentally like her posts or anything.
ellie's feed consisted of smoking weed, eating out, and hanging with her friends, jesse and dina. there were only two selfies she had posted — one of her and an older gentleman and one mirror picture of her in a grey hoodie and a light brown canvas jacket that made her look so good.
the ringing from your work phone caught you off guard, causing you to jump in your chair and exit out of the instagram app. you take a look at the number, and speak of the devil, it was ellie herself. she was the only jackson number that ever contacted you.
saturday, 2:10am → incoming call from 307-222-4578 (jackson, WY)
thank you for calling 1-800-GIRLS, sugar speaking. what can i do for you, handsome?
hey, sugar. just wanted to apologize for how our last conversation went. i probably pushed a boundary or something— i'm not sure if you're supposed to talk about personal things with customers— so, i'm sorry.
you let out a soft laugh.
why is it when you call me, you're always apologizing?
'cause i'm a fuck up, that's why.
nooo, that's not true. besides, don't worry about it. your question just caught me off guard, you know? never had clients ask things about me before i guess.
ahh, gotcha. so...were you busy before i called?
you shake your head, even though she was on the phone and couldn't see you.
uh, not really. my line doesn't usually get busy until...12 midnight ish.. it slows down by like 2 am though. how about you? what are you up to this friday night?
i just got back home from a party. business was slow and it was getting boring, so i dipped.
business? what business?
ah— well—
ellie silently cursed to herself, not wanting to scare you away with her current occupation.
if i tell you what i do, promise you won't get freaked out or anything?
you're talking to a phone sex hotline operator. don't worry.
you can hear her laugh from the other end.
well, fuck it, cat's out of the bag. i deal weed on campus and shit.
ahhh. i like that. is that how you can afford the minutes you spend calling me?
yup. i can stay on the phone for hours if we wanted.
maybe you'll be my only customer.
i wouldn't complain.
speaking of customers, do you want me to save your number under a specific name or nickname or anything? since i'm assuming you're gonna be a regular?
trying to confirm if it was indeed ellie you were speaking with, you sat on the edge of your chair, anxiety building in your belly.
what nicknames do your clients usually pick?
uhhh. master, sir, king, mister, alpha— umm and daddy.
something stirred inside ellie hearing that last nickname roll off your tongue.
you could just put me down as ellie.
got it.
what do i call you? do i just keep calling you sugar?
well, you're a customer. you can call me anything you like, but, for formalities and privacy, i can only tell you my hotline nickname — sugar.
okay, okay, that makes sense. you're not really allowed to have any personal or close relationships with clients, huh?
no, not really. mostly for safety purposes.
ellie was a little disappointed to know that she wouldn't be able to get to know the girl she was talking to beyond calling on the phone. she already felt herself getting attached. your voice was alluring and enticing, and she couldn't help but want to hear it more, and possibly put a name and face to who it belonged to.
but, i could bend the rules a little if i really wanted to.
yeah? let's see about that.
saturday, 4:45 am → 2:43:03 ongoing call with ellie (jackson, WY)
oh my god! did you and your ex get caught??
you were enamored with ellie. the way she could keep a conversation going and the stories she told — you didn't wanna hang up.
no, no, no, luckily we hid behind a dumpsters before the cops could catch us. it's hilarious thinking about it now, but we were dumbass 18-year-olds back then.
you both were in fits of laughter, your belly aching and tears watering in the corners of your eye.
as you calmed down, you couldn't stop your mouth from asking a question that's been racking on your mind.
so, how long were you and your ex together?
uhhhh, about 2 years.
ohhh okay........are you seeing anyone right now?
ellie lets out a laugh, and you can hear her smile, even through the phone.
why? who's asking?
well, i was just— uhh—
i'm just fuckin' with you. nah, i'm not seein' anyone right now. single af.
okay, okay. good to know.
how 'bout you?
nope. i'm single too.
seriously?? how?
i dunno. just never found the right person i guess. also, working for this hotline has made me lose hope for relationships in general, some of these dudes call me and say all this stuff — while having a whole wife and family at home.
i think you're looking in the wrong place then. try talking to people at school or going out to parties—
can't. if i'm not doing homework or studying, i'm working and doing this. i gotta make a living somehow.
ellie couldn't help but feel bad, knowing if she could, she'd support you full time and take that weight off your shoulders.
hmm, maybe you'll meet someone who could support you and take care of your bills and stuff.
oh? where would i find that? sounds too good to be true.
maybe they're closer to you than you think.
your breath hitched in your throat, unsure of what to say next.
i— uh— i have to go. it's 5am.
oh— uh— yeah. of course. goodnight, sugar.
goodnight, ellie.
sunday, 11:37pm → incoming call from ellie (jackson, WY)
hey.
hey. where's your usual greeting?
you're not a usual customer, so i think we're past that now, ellie.
ellie's heart thumped in her chest hearing you say her name.
good. anyways, what are you up to tonight?
just studying for a quiz tomorrow morning. how about you?
smoking, just finished some homework.
what class was it for?
uhhh, just this calculus class.
you clamped your mouth shut, suppressing a gasp. it was for professor adams class.
....uhhh, i could never get calculus. it's so hard.
yeah? maybe one night i can tutor you.
i'd be a terrible student.
i think you'd be the perfect student. i can teach you, i got you.
you couldn't help but think there was another meaning behind her words, but you didn't want to jump to any conclusions. it would be embarrassing if you got her message all wrong.
what's your quiz on anyways?
energy transfer between cells, it's for biology.
i know a thing or two about that. here— why don't we do this, just explain to me what you know and we'll go from there.
okay, i can do that.
you and ellie spent the next two and a half hours talking about cell function and energy transfer and everything else in between, with her correcting you and adding in important things you missed.
alright, sugar, i think you're ready for this quiz tomorrow.
you think so?
i know so. you're such a smart girl.
there she goes again, praising you.
uh, th-thanks.
don't worry, okay? i know you'll do great.
a smile curls on your lips, flustered from all her support.
you should get some sleep, so you can be focused and ready for tomorrow.
m'kay. thank you, ellie, for all your help.
of course. always. goodnight, sugar.
goodnight, ellie.
monday, 5:32pm → 45:21 ongoing call with mister j (corpus christi, TX)
yeah, babe? you want me to fuck your tight ass?
mhm, yes mister.
c'mon. beg, sugar.
please. fuck my tight hole, mister j.
ah, hell.
you can hear his belt buckle clanging, and the soft buzz of a zipper.
what's wrong with 'ya tonight, sugar? you're bein' a real buzzkill, 'ya know that? fuckin' turnin' me off and makin' me soft.
i-i'm sorry, mister j. please, jus—
yea, yea, save it. we'll jus' try 'gain tomorrow.
the line clicks on the other end. tossing your work phone on your desk, you fall back on your bed and stuff your face in your pillow. weeping into the plush material, you let yourself fall apart and break down.
but your sobbing session is cut short as you can hear the familiar ring of your work phone.
wiping your tears, you walk over to your desk and answer.
monday, 5:45pm → 00:32 ongoing call with ellie (jackson, WY)
thanks for calling 1-800-GIRLS, it's suga-
woah, woah, woah are you crying?
e-ellie?
yeah, baby, it's me. sounds like you're crying. what's going on? talk to me.
today was just a really, really bad day and then i opened my hotline a little early and one of my first clients just lashed out on me because i wasn't responding the way he wanted me to and—
you sniffle.
— and i'm just really stressed out by everything going on in my life right now.
i'm sorry. i wish there was something i could do— someway i could comfort you or take the weight off.
i-it's fine, ellie. talking to you is making it a little better.
ellie was silent for a moment, thinking carefully and planning her next moves accordingly.
do you trust me?
....y-yea, of c-course. why?
i'm gonna help you ease the tension. okay?
okay.
first of all, where are you?
i-in my room, sitting at my desk.
okay. go lay down on your bed.
with your phone pressed to your ear, you pick up your legs and stride over to your bed, laying down on the fluffy, material of your blanket.
okay, i'm on my bed.
good. what are you wearing?
foreseeing the direction this phone call was heading in, apprehension builds in your stomach.
ellie, you really don't have to-
hey, i want to help you. if that's okay with you. if not, we could talk about something instead.
biting your lip, you fold.
i-i'm okay with it, but i-i've never— played with myself with a customer before. i don't really do anything with myself even when i'm not working anyways.
that's okay. don't think of me as a customer, think of me as a...teacher. i got you, remember?
okay.
good girl. now, what are you wearing?
uh.. a tank top and shorts.
cute. take them off.
gulping, you follow her orders, shimmying out of your top and shorts.
done?
mhm.
good. so obedient.
i want you to rub your boobs for me. rub your nipples, pull on them, just feel the skin under your hand for me, baby.
rubbing the soft skin along your breast, and tugging on your hardened nipples, you bite your lip, savoring the way your body feels under your touch.
how does it feel?
feels good.
bet it does.
ellie couldn't stop her mind from imagining you, on your bed, perfectly naked. and how she'd give everything up, just to sneak a peek.
now, i want you to just rub your hands against the sensitive parts of your body. be slow and gentle, we're not rushing anything.
as your hands drift from your neck, down to the hills of your breasts, and to the edge of your panties, ellie speaks through the line again.
doesn't it feel nice, baby?
mhm.
wish i could be there, to watch you, touching your pussy.
you instinctively clamp your thighs, feeling heat rush to your core.
alright, take your panties off. slowly.
you slowly peel the piece of material off, looking at the small, wet spot that formulated on your underwear.
okay, they're off.
such a good girl, following my every command.
you gulp, her nickname for you sending shivers up your spine.
slowly feel the skin on your legs. stroke your inner thighs, tease yourself a little.
hanging off on her every word, you let out a shaky breath, the heat in your cunt growing only bigger and bigger.
god, i wish i can be there to see this right now. bet you look so good, thighs spread apart, pussy all wet— all because of me.
i- i'm aching. i need more, ellie.
i know, baby, i know. i wish i can help you more. if it were up to me, i'd have you bent over your desk, taking you from the back. fuck.
your mind drifts to that image, of her fucking you, taking you as hers. a stream of your slick begins to leak out from your pussy. god, you wanted her so bad.
slide a finger between your pussy, baby. let me hear how wet you are.
spreading your thighs apart, the tip of your fingers slips in between the folds of your pussy lips, the slick sound of your wetness echoing throughout the room. loud enough for ellie to hear.
fuuuuuck.
i-
you tried to speak, but it comes out sounding like a pathetic whimper. ellie's brain was going insane, she couldn't believe where she had you, writhing from her mere words.
go ahead, pretty girl. rub slow circles on your clit.
the pads of your pointer and middle finger gently rub steady, figure 8's against your hardened nub. closing your eyes, you imagined ellie, and how it was her hand instead of yours. the thought had you panting, faint breaths releasing from your parted lips.
your pussy sounds so wet, holy shit. you sound so fucking good for me. so fucking perfect.
as your fingers continue massaging on your sopping, wet clit, a pool of wetness gathers right below your ass.
how does it feel, baby?
f-feels amazing, ellie.
you let out a low whimper.
i wish you were here.
me too, pup. me too.
you can hear her heavy breaths from the other end of the phone.
i wish i could be there, kissing your neck. trailing my lips down to suck on your nipples. fuuck, wanna taste every inch of your skin. i wanna feel your pussy tighten around my fingers.
you let out another pitiful moan, only to hear ellie curse under her breath again.
rub your pussy faster for me, angel. imagine it's me, pumping my fingers in and out. would daddy's pretty girl like that?
you couldn't respond. all you could let out was these weak whines, yearning for ellie and her touch. you added a third finger, building onto the pressure and picking up the speed.
your moans sound so pretty. wonder how'd they sound when you're taking my strap. gonna have you cry out my name, yeah? isn't that right?
mhm, yes, daddy.
good. that's what daddy likes to hear, such a polite girl.
with your eyes rolling back, you could feel your orgasm building.
i-i'm gonna— ellie, i—
you gonna cum for me, puppy? huh? c'mon, rub faster, baby. i know you have a little bit more left in you.
your fingers speed up, the sound of your wetness gushing out reverberated in ellie's ear.
oh my god, daddy can i? please? can i—
arching your back, you knew you were close. the feeling was getting to be too much and you were about to fall over the edge.
look at my baby, so respectful and asking permission. come on, pretty puppy. cum for daddy. let daddy hear how good she made you feel.
that was it. letting out a penetrating moan, you rode your orgasm out and finished all over your fingers, making a mess. you were heaving, chest rapidly rising and falling.
god, i made a mess.
oh, yeah? do one more thing for me. suck your fingers clean. puppies clean up their messes.
monday, 8:57pm → 3:01:32 ongoing call with ellie (jackson, WY)
after your little self-care session with ellie, she took it upon herself to get your mind off of today's events, filling your conversation with stories and interesting topics.
oh, forgot to ask, what'd you end up getting on that biology quiz?
ughhh, i got a 65 out of 100. one of the reasons why i was so upset today.
seriously? how?
i don't know! i asked professor gonzalez and she told me that i was focusing on the wrong thi-
wait, did you just say professor gonzalez? holy shit, you're taking biology 201 with professor g? do you fucking go to school at university of wyoming? in jackson?
oh shit, you didn't mean for that to slip out.
i— uh— i have to go—
wait! sugar! please. hear me out.
you stay silent, waiting for what she had to say.
if we really do go to the same campus, please, let's meet up. i really want to see you.
.....why?
i just— i love talking to you. spending hours with you on the phone is what i look forward to when i get home. besides, i really want to take you out, on a date.
you bit your lip, unsure of what to say.
listen, if you want to see me too, meet me at the library in building B, by the comic book section. okay? tomorrow at 1pm.
....
i really hope you come.
the line clicks off, and you spend the rest of the night restless, tossing and turning, debating whether or not to see her tomorrow.
tuesday, 2:50pm
ellie eagerly checked her phone again, bouncing her knee in distress. her mind was running rampant — fuck, she's not gonna come. maybe jesse was right. maybe i was wasting my time.
looking up for the 80th time, she scans the comic book section, seeing no one else but some dude with his face buried in a wonder woman comic.
as ellie gets up from her chair, she turns her head, and she freezes.
there you were, looking like an angel who entered from the garden of eden. ellie's heart sped up, seeing her girl standing before her. you were everything she could've imagined and better.
walking slowly towards the brunette, you brush a piece of hair from your face, and smile meekly.
"hi ellie, it's me."
pls let me know how this fic was, i tried out a new writing style & read pt 2 here <3
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a year!!! as of today i have now been drawing these funny little pizza freaks, to the exclusion of almost everything else, for!!! an entire year!!! i wanted to do a nice group shot/lineup of everybody to compare to when i first started trying to draw them because oh boy were they bad. i never even posted most of them anywhere because they were so bad. but im posting them here, now, to see how everything's changed/evolved.
this is probably the hardest time i've ever had trying to figure out how to work with a style, but we got there eventually; i'm pretty happy with the handle i've got on everybody now...dont let ur memes be dreams. lots of unimportant journaling and idle thoughts abt it below.
older pics
the first one is the VERY first time i drew them, before i thought i was going to actually have any interest in drawing them [lmao]; it was just the one isolated image, for my friendserver, to illustrate the funney message, so there was no attempt to make it Good or actually understand anything going on w/ the designs or style.
second is the original run of practices sketches to start trying to figure them out for real; done after i started having ideas for the comics and such and realized oh god maybe i am actually gonna draw fanart for this. [again, lol, and lmao.]
third one is the first pt art thing i posted on here. there were a couple weeks of sprite studies between this one and the previous image. the one on the top right wasn't part of that post i just threw it on as space filler; i'd intended to shift to doing Sprite Redraws But Stylized to explore tings more, but that was the only one i did. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
individual characters
peppino: by far the hardest dear god. bro what ARE your shapes how DOES your face work. jesus christ. everything i have trouble with this style for, peppino has it in excess. i draw in polygons! i need consistency! and that is the last thing this kind of style is concerned with. they are made of squarshy clay and i do not understand how to mold them. i was really hoping trying to learn this game's style would GIVE me that kind of flexibility for fun exaggerated facial expression but i don't think much came of it in the end 😔. anyway on the bright side all this means once i got peppino figured out a little bit everybody else clicked way easier.
fake peppino: honestly i never did anything with him on purpose except for how his eyes work + the perma-smile thing. i figured ok hes supposed to look weird and off model so whatever happens with him happens. and it did. and it kept happening. it is still, in fact, happening.
noise/ette: somehow, for every bit that peppino was the least natural thing i've ever tried, these two worked pretty much right off the bat. i still don't understand it, seeing as pretty much all the things at play for peppino are also at work for them. i think the new sketches are actually a little worse than older ones but not enough that i care.
gustavo: really funny bc i drew him on model twice and just went 'okay, cool nice, easy, um. he doesn't have any fucking legs?' fortunately he was the only one i had a strong idea for how to stylize him [square] and it worked exactly as i was hoping so wahoo.
brick: is an animal and therefore 5000x easier and more natural for me to draw/stylize than anything else in the cast. that is Just a rat bro. i can draw a rat.
gerome: i think the funniest one here. the most drastic and least necessary change imo. i was gonna have him be really small at first, like smaller than the noises, but then i just... didn't. he's just peppino-sized now. also i gave him like. actual human facial structure, which is funny bc in most cases i'd do anything to avoid, but it works well for his being A Rock to give him some angles and definition like that+ to differentiate his vibe from the rest of the cast who are all very squishy. also since he is essentially Just A Head it's good to emphasize that too ig.
john: i only drew john a couple times but he gets to be here because i like him. and because most of the stuff i applied to gerome was readily applicable to john, though i did try to keep him a little more uncanny because he is a Huge And Lanky Freak. i hate that he is barefoot btw but idk how to make his color balance look right with shoes.
pizzahead: i did not want to put him on here honestly but i Have drawn him a handful of times and more importantly i didn't know what i was gonna do with john's pose if i didn't have him there to be glared at. the only thing that's different with him is giving him wider-bottomed pants, which i got from when i tried to draw these guys in clone high style [i never posted that one either][i will eventually]
snick: he gets to be here because 1. he's like 6 lines 2. i like him and 3. ive scribbled him a few times offhand and it went pretty well
misc
there are some guys missing because those are guys i didn't draw enough [or at all] to have gotten comfortable with them. sorry
i would have Liked to shade these but for the time being i have accepted that my grasp of light/shadow has decayed to the point im not going to be happy with anything i try there, so For Now i am working on my presentation with flats i guess. gerome has a shadow only because he's shaded like that ingame and looks naked without it
anyway if you are still reading [hi?] i get to shamelessly plug now. i'm over the hill of my pizza run now, and while i still have plenty of things i want to make here, most of the bigger more in-depth ones have passed. pizza tower was the first thing in THREE YEARS to get me out of my oc groove to doing fanart, and once i am done with my ideas here i will be going right back to it. if you like my art or how i write characters/interactions you should check out my oc/webcomic blog @jamverse . i can't promise people who like pizza stuff will be terribly into my designs, but i can guarantee i treat my guys with the exact same sort of tone i handle the pt guys with. and hell, i've mentioned it a few times before, but like 70% of my characterization for fake pep is just copied off one of my characters, so if u are going to miss him... he will still be there in spirit >;p
and if you dont care about any of that and are still reading thank you anyway. actually making these comics + seeing how shockingly well-received they've been has done a lot for my confidence, and for seeing that my kind of stuff IS something people enjoy :')
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Enhypen - when you're on your period
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A/N: Helloooo! This wasn't a request but I feel like writing this reaction since I'm currently on my period >:( Ughhh pls send help
Pairing : Bf!Enha X Fem!Reader
Warnings : Blood (obvi), food, crack, mentions of sex in jake's
Word count : 1,361 words (about 150 words each)
Masterlist - Tips
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♡ Lee Heeseung ♡
His heart would break seeing you like this
he would immediately notice you got your period, but wouldn't say anything to save you some 'embarrassment'.
He'd act nonchalant and chill, wanting to just chill whilst you were both at home and procrastinating.
"What ya wanna do?" he asks, once you come out of the bathroom for the millionth time. (It felt like that for him)
He'd let you pick whatever you wanna do and gives in, even if you wanted to test your makeup on him or paint his nails 😭
He ain't saying no
You end up watching a movie when the cramps became a little too much, laying on the couch with him behind you, hands wrapped around your waist, but ready to let go of you whenever you need to use the bathroom (again)
Hearing you whimper in pain would pain him as well, gently bringing his hand over to your tummy to rub in circles.
It doesn't really do anything tbh, maybe distract you, but you appreciate him trying 🥺
Later, he'd definitely make you some ramen, insisting that it was the only food that would cure your cramps and upset mood.
Will definitely sing you to sleep, that's why his head voice is so good.
♡ Park Jay ♡
Everyone says this but : MOM MODE ONNNN 🤗😌
Literally won't stop making sure you're good
and he's prob the most chill about it, like its not a big deal at all
he's just very mature
"You sure you have everything?"
"Don't be shy y/n, it's okay"
"I don't mind buying them for you"
And he does, bc cool boyfriends arent embarrassed to buy tampons 😎
Oh wait
"Pads or tampons?" "Ah ok" "What size exactly??" "Got it"
Hurries up bc he doesn't wanna leave you alone for too long.
Asks you what you wanna eat and will literally cook you anything
pasta with ice cream sauce? Ok
Pineapple on pizza? Ok
cook you his pet fish? Also ok
Makes you tea before bed, because he insists its good to prevent cramps
Might cuddle up in bed and lets you rest your head on his chest as he reads you a book of your choice.
Jay reading to you in that American accent 😩
♡ Sim Jake ♡
Boi does his research
he knows it has to do with periods and hormones when you start acting up
Is lowkey scared so he relies on google to provide him with answers.
"Ughhh, Jake, my cramps are getting worse" you whine, still laying in bed, scrunching up your face
He smiles brightly as he remembers of his searches
"I've heard that having sex could reduce period cramps" he announces proudly, looking at you like 😏
"You're seriously tryna get your dick wet rn??" you get mad and start throwing pillows at him.
"N-Nah but for real!!" He protests, ducking your hits "Seriously, I've read it online" he says in his defence, trying to catch his breath from that near pillow fight
"Damn, since when did you get so good at pillow fighting?" he tries to compliment but it only makes you wanna punch his bicep playfully.
You whine out in pain again, gripping onto his sitting figure at the edge of the bed. "What I am supposed to do?" he questions, haven already given you one alternative.
"Oh, how about we listen to my boy Justin?" he asks, already whipping out his phone
"Noooo, Enhypen is so much better dude" you reply, glaring at him
he agrees and puts on 'pass the mic'
He pushed your shoulders playfully "You got -pushed -pushed" he sings along
"JAKEEE"
Anyway, ends up buying you mc donalds and ice cream to make it up to you
he rly tries but he's a little clueless tbh.
♡ Park Sunghoon ♡
Bro lowkey ghosts you and avoids you
he knows that you're in a bad mood, and he doesn't wanna make it worse with uncontrollable teasing 😭
when you notice his distant behaviour, it only makes you even more upset
"HOON" you yell at him from the other room
he knows he fcked up and feel like he's boutta get his ass whooped.
He makes it hesitantly to your room, regretting it immediately when he sees your pout.
"H-hi y/n, he stutters, thinking of whatever he's gonna say, not wanting to upset your hormones.
"Hoon, why are you avoiding me?" the first tear rolls down your cheek "I'm literally bleeding and you're leaving me alone!" you burst out crying.
He stand there, biting his bottom lip, contemplating what to do
"C-can I hug you?" he asks, moving closer to you. He wraps his arms around you when you nod, pulling you in a tight hug.
"I'm sorry y/n, I thought you wanted to be left alone" he reasons, making sure you know he's sorry
"Its fine" you so sob into his shirt "Now can we watch your ice skating videos and cuddle?" you smile up at him suddenly, flattering your previously wet eyelashes to convince him.
He sighs, knowing you'll just burst out crying again if he doesn't agree
You reach for the remote, pulling on one of his ice skating videos.
He's already on your bed, hands behind his head, almost drifting off
"You look like a grandpa" you laugh, climbing onto your bed and getting closer to him, when the video starts playing.
"He wants to 'compliment' you back, but he fears he'll upset your hormones so he just doesn't say anything for your sake.
♡ Kim Sunoo ♡
A literal sweetheart
Almost like your bestie tbh
He cares about you so much and clearly shows it when your in these situations.
He doesn't hesitate to literally do everything for you
Take off your make up and does your skin care routine for you
Might even wash you if you're too tired to shower lmao
He pouts at you whenever you get cramps, wishing to take them away from you, just to see you smile again.
"My poor baby" he would say, hugging you close to him, gently, not to hurt you or anything.
He'd also be the best at tittie rubs
Like if your breasts were sore, he wouldn't mind massaging them, his soft hands easing some of the pressure on your chest.
You might even fall asleep like that, his hands on your chest under your top, acting like your bra as he sleeps behind you.
♡ Yang Jungwon ♡
Very mature #2
Cares a lot about you and worries
Studies and researches about it so you won't have bad periods :(
Worries when you wear tampons
"Doesn't that hurt?"
"Is it safe though?"
"Y/n, I don't think you should sleep t-tampons because you know, it m-might get stuck in there or something"
He just wants to make sure you're okay
"Ok gynaecologist 😀"
He doesn't really mind if you bleed on his sheets, as long as you aren't wearing tampons to bed
"It's fine sweetie, I'll clean it up"
Doesn't get mad or anything, changes the sheets and makes you change
Definitely cuddles you to sleep and holds your hand if the cramps get too much
♡ Nishimura Riki ♡
Teases the hell out of you
But also tries to help if you get cramps
If he sees you on the couch, he'll crawl in behind you, placing his hands on your hips.
He squeezes your waist
"My little ketchup bottle" he coos
"Nikiii" you try to squirm away embarrassed by his comment.
Definitely rubs your tummy if the cramps get too much
Slightly awkward at first and he feels a little shy doing it
"This okay?" he asks, rubbing circles in your tummy
You don't have the heart to tell him that it doesn't help but at least its a good distraction.
When he leaves for practise, he'll definitely leave you a plushy, big enough that you can hug it close
"Maybe this plushy will help :]" gives you his favourite plushy :(
He'll overall check up on you a lot, and really tried his best to help you out
I need a sweet boy like niki 😭
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Hello! Thankyou for reading! Hope y'all are okay and remember that periods only last about a week! You got it!! For anyone who get cramps, I hope they're not as bad or get better :)
Lyyyy <333
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Lover Boy
Pairing: Jake Lockley x Reader
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Summary: Jake goes on a mission for Khonshu and he’s away for months. You knew the deal when you became his girlfriend, it would never be easy. Now, he's come home.
Warnings/tags: Mentions of Jake's mission like murder etc and a bit of angst at the beginning, but no other scary things! Just fluff, cuteness & little implied smut at the end (but not 18+ so dw)
Word Count: 1.7k
A/N: ok this has been in my drafts for WEEKS bc I just wasn't sure if people had left their moon knight era already but hopefully not. Enjoy babies <3 any requests lmk!!
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Jake is in the shower. Your apartment has become a bombsite since he returned only two hours ago. His bloody clothes are strewn across your sofa, his bag - full of god knows what - is on your coffee table and a broken vase lays shattered on the floor.
In truth, the vase was your fault. Jake had been gone months on a mission he could tell you nothing about. You hadn't had contact with him the entire time and, quite frankly, you were beginning to wonder if maybe this time being Khonshu's bitch just hadn't worked out. The big bird had used Jake for all he was worth and that was it - end of the line.
So, when he knocked on your door as casually as a pizza delivery guy, you had flipped your lid. Of course you were happy to see your boyfriend, but you were also fuming. You had screamed at him, and hugged him, and kissed him and then thrown something at him.
He understood. He knew how hard this life was on you. And despite the yelling and the vase, he was happy to be home. Now, he's enjoying the luxuries of being at home, washing all the dirt and blood off his body and using your vanilla and jasmine scented body wash. And you're in shock.
"The vase. Clean up the vase." You whisper to yourself. Luckily there isn't even any flowers in the vase, so the clean up is easy. The only time there were flowers in the vase was when Jake was home.
You sweep up the ceramic pieces and tip them into the bin. You'll just have to get a new vase, whatever. It shouldn't even bother you, seeing those pieces all smashed up, but it does. And when you close the lid of the bin, you cry.
At first just quietly, then, great heaving sobs. It's a mix of relief and pain and all your emotions congeal into one. You think of how many nights you spent alone, worried sick out of your mind. You think of your last date with Jake, and how wonderful it was, before Khonshu appeared and ripped him away from you. You think of the guy that tried to hit on you at work and you had to reject him - "Why though? I never see your boyfriend. He obviously doesn't love you."
That comment had hurt, and there was nothing you could do about it. You carried your hurt around for months - to work, to dinner with friends, when you were alone. And now, you let it out.
You make your way to the bathroom and rap your knuckles against the door. The water shuts off immediately. You hear Jake shuffling about in there, and then the door opens.
In the months that he's been away he's grown a beard, and his hair is grown-out and wild. You hadn't seen him like this before, and it takes some getting used to.
He's got a towel wrapped around the bottom half of his body and his top half is still glistening wet. Drips of water fall from his hair onto his shoulders.
Jake takes one look at you crying and pulls you into a hug, "Come here, I'm here now. I'm home. Estoy en casa, understand?"
You nod into the crook of his neck. He's warm against your skin and you don't care about getting wet because your tears have already dampened your cheeks and they're beginning to pool in Jake's collar bones.
He pulls away and takes your face in his hands, gently wiping your tears from your face. "I couldn't be happier to be home, bebita. Please stop crying. You've got me now, I'm back."
"I know." You sniffle, actively ignoring his longing gaze, "I know."
"Look at me." He turns your face with his hand and you do as he says. You can't help but smile, and he gives you a smile back. It's something you've missed, seeing him look at you like that, and your heart melts. You reach up to touch his beard, all soft and damp from the shower.
"I can't believe how much you've changed. I've missed you."
Without hesitating, Jake scoops you up into his arms. You make a squeak of surprise, but just laugh as he carries you into the bedroom.
"I've missed you too." He winks at you and kisses you on the cheek before setting you down on the bed.
The room has barely changed since the last time he was there; everything was exactly where he had left them the night he had to leave, but one of his hoodies is on the bed - one that you wore to sleep practically every night.
Jake smiles at the sight of it, and puts it on. You start to protest, claiming it's yours now.
"Hey, it smells like you. And it's mine. I'm wearing it." Jake is firm, but there's a smirk on his face, letting you know he enjoys the fact you've been wearing his clothes.
He takes the towel off and puts on clean underwear and comfy bottoms. You watch the entire time, mesmerised.
"I'm so lucky to have you. I don't know what I would've done if-"
You don't finish the sentence, but you don't have to. Jake knows what you're trying to say. He sits beside you on the bed and takes your hand, placing a kiss on your knuckles.
"Don't, princesa. I will always come back to you. Nobody will stop me from getting back to you. Not Khonshu, not nobody. Yeah?"
"Yeah." You nod.
Jake slowly wraps his arms around you and shuffles towards the top of the bed so his head rests against the pillows. You rest against his chest. Your legs intertwine with his and he sneaks a hand under your top to feel your skin against his. You run a hand through his hair and brush your palm against his beard.
You stay that way for a long time, not even saying anything. Usually, when Jake came home after a mission he would pounce on you immediately. And you would love every minute of it. He was intense and sexy and everything you had missed while he was away, he would give to you. Over and over. But this time was different. Jake had never been gone this long and this time he was gentle. Caring. He was more vulnerable.
"What happened? While you were away?" Your voice is barely a whisper. You don't want to make him uncomfortable, but you also want to know.
"Bad things. If I say too much...Khonshu...he'll make my life worse. He made me do things, Y/N. More shit than ever and...it's fine, y'know? Better me than Marc or Steven." He sighs, running one hand over his face, "I have blood on my hands and it was a mistake. Khonshu is in some deep cagada and made me hurt the wrong people...kill the wrong people. Innocent people. And all that time...it was too much. Even for me." Jake whispers back to you, the entire time rubbing his hand against your back in slow circles.
There's a tightness in his voice, and you can tell he doesn't want to say anymore. Perhaps can't say anymore.
"Steven and Marc, they've had it rough." Jake is absentmindedly moving his fingers back and forth against your skin, and you can tell he's feeling agitated. "I'm giving them the time they need but fuck, it's bad, baby. So bad."
"You're home now." You don't know what else to say. "You're home."
One of your hands is in Jake's hair and the other rests on his chest. You can hear his heart beating and he feels warm against you. Without thinking, you roll on top of him and straddle him around his waist. You plant both hands on the side of his face, his beard scratching at the palms of your hands, and you kiss him. Hard.
"No matter what happens," You say, barely pulling away from him. Your lips graze each others as you talk, "I will always be waiting for you. I will always be here for you."
"Ah, mi querida, what would I do without you?" He's looking up at you with that gorgeous smile, perfect teeth and rosy lips surrounded by his new, full beard. You can't ignore how there's a new scar, fully healed, on top of his left eyebrow.
"You'd crash and burn, pretty boy. Crash and burn." You reach a hand up to tentatively run a finger against the scar, Jake catches your hand and hold's it to his own. He brings your intertwined hands to his mouth and kisses the back of yours.
"Pretty boy?" He raises an eyebrow, the one without a scar, and smirks at you. It makes you laugh, harder than you've laughed in months, and you finally realise he's home. No more crying yourself to sleep, no more wishing and waiting to hear from him. No more nights watching reruns of shows alone or cooking meals for one - he's home and you can finally laugh again.
"Yeah, pretty boy." You smile at him, and when you've finally had enough of straddling him, you slide off to one side and cuddle into him. He wraps an arm around you and plants a kiss on your forehead.
"Pretty boy, gorgeous boy, my one and only boy," You continue, poking Jake on the nose with every single example, "My lover boy."
You go to poke Jake again, but this time he grabs your wrist at lightning speed and suddenly you're moving - Jake's settling you down on your back and he’s hovering over you with that sparkle in his eye that lets you know he's glad to be home too. Glad to be with you once again.
"Lover boy, huh?" There's a playful smile on his lips and he dips down to place kisses on your cheeks and on your neck.
"Mhhm." Your voice is already breathy - you'd forgotten what it felt like to be underneath Jake, but it doesn't take you long to remember. "My lover boy."
He nips at the base of your neck then, an action that catches you off guard and leaves your heart racing. You decide then and there that you're not letting another minute go to waste. Jake is home and he is yours and that's all you ever need.
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ldrloverrrrrr · 1 day
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can we fall in love? pt. 2
formerly known as be my baby !
matt x female!oc
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moodboard is at the end bc i couldn’t fix it😭
song for the whole series:
ABOUT: the girl who believes she’s unlovable meets the boy who can’t take his eyes off of her and has too much love to give but can’t admit his feelings for her.
A/N: sorry if this is long, let me know what you think about the story so far and what you want to see. Thank you for reading <33
MATT:
“so do you skate?” i asked just wanting to her voice more. “nah i just like the vibe here plus it’s good for painting because there’s no old people telling me i’m ‘wasting my youth’” i laughed at that. Chris told me that nick was calling asking where we were but i didn’t want to leave Ava yet so i let him walk ahead telling him i’ll meet him at the car. “sorry if this is too forward because we’ve just met but do you wanna grab something to eat later? me, my brothers and a few friends are meeting for pizza in south end.” i bit my lip hoping she’d say yes. “sure! i’ve not got anything planned, i’ll give u my number and you can text me the details” silently celebrating we exchanged numbers and i caught up to chris. “i invited ava to dinner later with us!” i said to him excitedly, “matt.” “what?” “you so have a crush on her” “no i don’t what?” i lied “you’re blushing like crazy and all giddy” he replied, i just shoved his shoulder and walked around to the drivers seat. We hoped into the car on the way home, all i could think of was her and how i excited i was to see her again, but then i thought what if she thinks i was being weird by asking her so many questions? is she actually serious about coming? maybe it was a mistake. we got home and i felt my phone buzz.
Ava
hey!! what’s the plans for later?
i was instantly relieved, until i heard chris walk in and said to nick “matts in loveee” while making a heart with his hands, “shut up chris” i nudged him, nick was too distracted with something on his phone to care. “nick we met a new friend and i invited her to dinner later, if that’s ok with you?”
“yea no problem what’s their name?”
“ava”
“oooo ava” he teased
“not you now” i rolled my eyes
“what’s she like then” he said putting his phone down and walking over to the counter where i was sitting.
“we met her at the skatepark she was listening to lil skies so obviously we went over, she was doing some graffiti too it was really cool you should’ve seen!” chris mentioned
“i can’t wait to meet her then!”.
AVA:
i walked back home with mila telling her about the boys, “he sounds really nice” “i know right he invited me out for pizza later but i have no clue what to wear” mila stopped and squealed “ILL HELP YOU!!” i immediately agreed and we ran into the apartment. i put some songs on and she started to pick out some options from my closet, after deciding on my clothes she did my makeup all nice and i sprayed some perfume. “now listen, if anyone tries anything sneaky call me and i will beat their ass, no joke” she said deadpanned, i giggled “ i’m sure i’ll be fine mila” she wrapped her arms round me and sighed “sorry for ditching you tonight, i need a new job honestly this is killing my social life” i laughed and said “don’t worry about it” i looked down at my phone to see matt texted saying he’s outside i quickly replied and said bye to mila, running down stairs being careful to not fall down. chris waved through the window and pointed to the back door. “hi guys, thank you so much for inviting me!” “hey i’m nick, you must be ava?” i turned to my left “yes nice to meet you! oh my god i love your tattoos” he thanked me and i looked forward to where matt was to see him staring through the mirror at me, when i noticed he swiftly averted his gaze saying “ok are we ready to go?” “yep all good” i responded. On our way chris was playing songs on aux while i got to know them a bit better. “so what brings you to LA” nick asked “well honestly scotland is depressing as hell and i love the vibes here but most of the reason was my family” i took a pause before talking again “i’m just not that close with them” i didn’t want to fully unload my trauma onto them, i had only known them a few hours, “what about you guys, matt told me you’re from boston?” nick explained their reasons and by the time he was done we arrived at the restaurant. hopping out of the car i met their friends and we went inside. i decided to sit in between matt and chris in the booth seats and we ordered. in my head i was super nervous to eat anything infront of everyone, it had always been something i just couldn’t get over for some reason. i hadn’t realised i had zoned out before i felt a familiar tap on my shoulder “hey, you okay?” matt asked “oh yeah sorry i was just distracted” “you wanna talk about it?” he offered “oh no it’s nothing thank you though” why was he so kind to me, i had known him for under a day, i don’t know if it’s just because i’ve never had real friends but i felt almost guilty by being there. After eating i excused myself to the bathroom and their friend madi came with me. She was literally gorgeous, like something straight out of a magazine we instantly clicked and she really welcomed me into their group. “ava, i think matt likes you” she whispered “what?” “i don’t know for sure but he kept admiring you and he was super excited telling us about you before we went out” i didn’t really know how to respond so i just laughed it off. someone liking me felt other worldly, i was constantly teased at school and made fun of so it fully drained me of any expectations but madi seemed so sure. On the way home chris handed me the aux cable “since we already know you have good taste in music” he chuckled, i scrolled through my playlist and played ‘broken clocks by sza’ nick instantly turned to me and yelled “OH MY GOD I LOVE SZA” “STOP ME TOO” we started belting out the lyrics, matt and chris just laughed and we drives through the dark LA streets before reaching my apartment block. “thank you so much for the night, i had a lot of fun!” i hugged nick before jumping out the car and waving to chris and matt.
MATT:
2:00am
i was laying in my bed unable to sleep because i couldn’t stop thinking of her. i was listening to music until i heard my phone vibrate.
Ava
thank you sm again for tonight, see ya soon :)
My heart started beating fast and a smile plastered across my tired face before i replied and drifted off.
AHH LET ME KNOW WHAT U GUYS THINK 🤍🤍
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an-au-blog · 5 months
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Just craving fluff and imagining College Au Shuggy celebrating the holidays by just doing very unchristmassy things together. They both seem like the type to like certain aspects of Christmas only to then be hit by waves of depression when the actual holiday arrives, so they just huddle under the covers together and watch Christmas classics such as “Die hard” or Gremlins together instead while eating Pizza and drinking eggnog till they can’t stand this stuff for another year. Buggy gives Shanks his gift at 2 am in the morning, an extremely ugly and old tacky sweater he found at a thrift shop a while ago. Shanks can immediately tell that it was cheap and Buggy most likely just went out and got him… SOMETHING, but also it’s hideous in a way he just adores and it has one of his favorite childhood cartoon characters on it and the fact alone Buggy went out and got him something is PERFECT and to Buggy’s horror that thing is gonna be his favorite sweater till the end of time. Buggy on the other hand suffers a mild mental breakdown and “Oh god I am the scum of the earth” reaction because Shanks actually went into a makeup store and got him an expensive eyeshadow Palette that Buggy has been eyeing for a while now. Kicker is Shanks didn’t even know that’s the Palette Buggy wanted, he legit just spent an hour in there with a picture of Buggy describing what Buggy looks for in makeup and what colors he likes and such and such and accidentally just landed on the correct one and rightfully deducted that he would probably like this one.
“WHY DID YOU GO AHEAD AND BUY ME THAT YOU HORRIBLE, UNFLASHY FANTASTIC BOYFRIEND?!” “I thought it would make you happy.” “IT WOULD IF I GOTTEN YOU ANYTHING GOOD AS WELL!! JUST A BED BATH AND BEYOND GIFTCARD WOULD HAVE BEEN WORSE!!” “Come on Buggy I love this thing-“ “THIS IS LIKE GIFT OF THE MAGI IF IT SUCKED EVEN MORE THAN IT ALREADY DOES!” “You could always kiss me to make up for it.” “I ALREADY DO THAT.” “Then let me kiss you… AND you’ll have to let me do it for the entire day without telling me I’m being sappy or disagreeing with me when I talk about how much I love you.” “…. Okay but you’re not allowed to say weird shit about my nose.” “…Can I kiss your nose?” “Ugh. I’ll allow it. But not in public!” “Deal. I won’t talk about how cute and kissable your nose is and I especially won’t talk about how cute and kissable it is in front of other people.” “YOU JUST- AUGH! You’re horrible! An absolutely awful boyfriend!” “Glad to have landed someone as amazing as you then.” “You-“ “Ah! We agreed on not disagreeing when I talk about how great you are!” “….fine.” “I love you... and I love how hard you blush when you can’t answer with a sassy comeback” “….mmmmnnnggghh!!! loveyoutoo.”
At first I was like "awww this is so adorable:')" but thwn I got to the dialogue part and went "ok, so we're assuming they're gonna get together, now are we ahahah"
I'm guessing you're the same anon who sent me a couple other college au asks - so first off: Thank you, you honestly keep me productive and remind me to finish this fic lol (since I named some of the others, maybe I can call you ogan - bc og anon or something idk, you can refuse or give me another nickname if you want...)
But also... have I given any indication that this will be a story with a happy end? Because, I've written ends with a doomed one sided love triangle, one of the main characters being hated by the love of their life and in a hospital, while the one the other was chasing rejected them indefinitely... it was my magnum opus for quite a while, so who's to say I'll give this one an ending like that?
I'm joking, I'm joking... or am I >;]]]
Anyway, I love the idea of them spending the holidays together! Buggy doesn't really have any close relatives to go to, all his friends went home, and thinks that Shanks is the same way, because why else would he stay behind with him?
Shanks is just so happy that he can finally be with his boyfriend. He makes hot cocoa (and it's horrible, but Buggy remakes it), he buys a cardboard cutout of a Christmas tree and they put stickers on it instead of decorations. At one point they start printing out memes and pictures of themselves and stick them on there as well. (Shanks secretly writes a wish, something cheesey like how he wants them to be like this for the rest of their lives, on the back of some of the photos)
In all reality, I believe that "Die Hard" and "Home Alone" (because these two franchises are basically the same, just one is kid coded lol) would be both Shanks and Buggy's favourites. I mean look at how they turned out ahahaha tho I must confess, I've never seen Gremlins, so I'll just trust you on that one':)
I also think thay Buggy would get horrible gifts very purposefully. Like he would look for hours to find the most raggedy and washed out looking sweater with the ugliest print of like... a green cow on red mars with a Christmas hat on both the cow and mars saying "moo-ry christmas" in comic sans or something horrifying like that. Like that one video of the guy who bought a card for the wrong occasion, for wrote a message to someone else and scratched out the name to look like it was a second hand card. I couldn't find the og video but I found this tiktok, hope it helps with the explanation.
In my mind Buggy thinks it's hilarious. Him and Shanks both love pranks and just jokes like this in general, so he would get it, right? Shanks liking it unironically wasn't in the plan. But then bad comes to worse and Shanks takes gift giving seriously - Buggy is caught off guard.
I love the image of Shanks standing in the cosmetics section of a big store that was one of the best according to google. He's just staring intensely, and color checking, and googling, and staring again - trying his best to remember everything Buggy had told him about make-up.
At some moment in the time he's searching, one of the workers there goes up to him to see if he needs help thinking "aw, poor lost man looking for something for his girlfriend, he looks like he needs help" and then Shanks shows her a picture of an honest to God clown going "I want the best for my boyfriend". And they have a little "This is your man?" "yeah" "Look at the picture" "that's mine :')" "and you're ok with this?" "imma stick beside him " moment. And then they just start looking together. Before they notice it's a whole horde of helpers and Shanks going all, "is that teal? I think he said he loves teal, but not one with glitter, wait, bring back the cherry red. Can you compare it to the sour cherry. Which one would match his lipstick best? This one's his favorite." and they're like a council, super invested at that point.
I also like to think that on new years eve, they're watching a marathon, and Buggy just falls asleep on Shanks's chest halfway through. He does that often and Shanks loves it. He doesn't even care that much that sometimes his make-up would be imprinted on his shirt .
Shanks showing love to Buggy's nose, despite his insecurities, makes me melt. (spoilers ig:) I was going to have a little dialogue/confrontation that portrayed that, but I was going to make it a "Shanks not caring about it and just acting like it's not there" thing, but him actually thinking it's cute and being all loving towards the one thing he's most insecure about is actually way better. I might utilize it later on lol :))
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magicratfingers · 4 months
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Progress report ! ૮ ºﻌºა ✨ kind of a work-in-progress diary for myself. v indulgent.
intense world of dick terrifying - goin good! got a main character, some supporting characters, figuring out the big rivalry today. Gotta figure out a format. I was thinking of basing it off of the Day at the Airport book bc it's only about 11 spreads but there's a lot going on on each one. Could leave it a comic but I also want it to be printable hmm catnips cantrips chooseyer-by-mail test - learning a lot! the world-building has been reallllllly fun - like the kind of fun where you want to go a little deeper bc you like it not bc you have to. perfect situation. Gotta resolve the mix between the DM roleplay and the actual postcards. Made and branded a whole gmail account and character to handle lost postcards - Pizza Kentucky III of the Isekai Post Office. Haven't been keeping up with the blog. But the blog is supposed to be more of a holding container than a 'thing'. One thing I did not expect to be learning was spreadsheets. Keeping track of names and addresses and choices and paths has given me a new perspective on pacing and structure. Also? Been a great excuse to finally play with UV epoxy and it's so straightforward that I'm mad it took me so long. media thats not just webcomics - dunmeshi is out!!! Laios my beloved. Still afraid to find and read Kotteri's Veil bc it will make me too feelings. Started reading books I loved as a kid (Redwall!!!) and some story craft books (found an NPR list somewhere) WRHP s2 - started to feel like work but changing up the backgrounds freed me up, feels fun again Sorcerer comic - paused while I wait for fashion inspiration to pull the ending together Emotional support paladin - paused till I feel like it. It's got such a specific delivery style that I don't wanna force to get the story out, so i gotta wait for some story aspects to firm up Bonnie & Clawd - more of a character study than a comic - fun to practice cutie pies cuddling. But... how DO birds and wolves smooch. Saw a youtube video about how ravens and wolves are friends and work together. So perfect. Valentines day thing - got some supplies coming tomorrow, gonna try out my idea. If it works maybe sell it? If it doesn't work, oh well, probably will learn something. Wanted to make perforated cards and stickers but got a little overwhelmed thinking about printing. Might just do a digital thing if an idea comes to me. Been wanting to make holographic stickers but when I sit down to think of a motif it feels stressful. Maybe I just test the Poodle Broadcasting System logo? I've always loved the aesthetic of valentines day but never felt like it's been delivered right. I certainly never felt indulged - something is always a little not-cute or too-cutesy. Think it could be really fun to have it be an annual 'surprise box'. I lost my halloween fam in the schmivorce so I could use a holiday to go crazy on. (For years I would drive out and help build a whole haunted house in a garage and it was like a week-long party with great food and movies and laughs. Sad to lose it, sadder still to know it was so easy for them to lose me. ) Dishupon - ok not as many players and responses as I'd hoped. But that wasn't really the point. Point was to invent some sanrio-y characters for fun - which i did. And I will also say that the exercise of coming up with a variety of cozy, fun, silly, spicy ways to think about dishes has made MY dishes mostly effortless. Even made a little foam clay Tiger coach and he's sitting on the window above the sink. Perhaps I will think of a game to get my car inspection done.
Overall January is great. Granted, it's the 4th. Had my ten year work anniversary (idk how old everyone thinks I am but it's Not 20) and got to 1010 followers on twitter on the same day. And the new d20 is out on the 10th so that felt real nice and square. Bit worried that all the good vibes I built up over holiday vacay will get smashed when I'm put on a new work project. But i feel like I'm about to level up a little bit art-style wise. Feelin grateful, feelin warm & cozy
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ipsen · 9 months
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tokyo ghoul dnd club: the first few days (aka, chapter 1 as a campaign)
brainrot in the discord server has evolved into a tumblr post. working with 5e dnd since that's the ruleset i know (sorry 3.5e)
Context
kaneki and hide are first years (the former likes the storytelling aspect, the latter is a supportive friend)
eto is a senior and the dm
rize also shows up for an interest in the "you can be whatever you want!" part. kaneki gets the Instant Crush
Character Creation
they have pre-gen'd characters to try out the game, and eto sets up a oneshot similar to the tg pilot for them to play. it becomes apparent rize antagonizes both eto and the other players. kaneki doesn't see it, but eto and hide start Scheming to kick her out
the game is fun, though! they start making proper characters at level 1. eto expands on the world of the oneshot, creating the baseline for the TG universe.
kaneki mentions wanting to emulate a gregor samsa-type character and eto works with him on it. eto offers the artificial half-ghoul angle and kaneki gets SO excited about it
hide doesn't want to be too involved in the campaign bc he wants to try out other clubs, so he works with eto to keep his character in situations where he'd be ready to jump in at any point. she gives him additional ccg lore to work with.
rize does not consult with eto after the "man-eating monsters" part of the lore hits her brain. makes her own character.
hide stole a peek at her character sheet and told eto. they set up a trap to kill rize's character
Campaign
hide brings pizza, which becomes a longstanding tradition at the club
after helping kaneki get more into character, hide leaves to try out whichever club had his interest that day, leaving kaneki with eto and rize
the date stuff plays out as normal, with rize being eerily cooperative.
rize: i lead kaneki to a dark alleyway, and i ATTACK HIM kaneki: w-what eto: like, with a knife? rize: no, with my KAGUNE! *reveals her level 3 ghoul character sheet in this level 1 campaign (she got bored reading the features beyond level 4 so she didn't go further)* eto, grinning: oh yeah ok roll attack kaneki: WHAT
fortunately, kaneki built a high intelligence/dexterity character, so rize misses the first attack. eto points out various ways for him to run to goad him into fleeing and he doesnt ask questions. rize's confused given how the disengage action works, but she likes the cat and mouse aspect of this part.
kaneki gets really uncomfortable and steals a glance at eto when rize's having too much fun describing how she's going to tear his character apart. eto just winks at him
eto: rize. rize: what eto: roll a dexterity saving throw with disadvantage rize: why eto: do it
rize fails, and is crushed by steel beams. eto gives a very vivid description of how the beams tear through her ghoul body, which is stuck in a cycle of regenerating and breaking apart anew under the weight. it's an agonizing experience (kaneki listens with bated breath. eto could be a writer, he thinks)
rize: what about kaneki?! he's right next to me, and if he fails he gets instantly killed.
kaneki, in a rare display of luck, succeeds. (eto inwardly sighs with relief). rize rage quits and doesn't come back.
the session ends smoothly with kaneki as an artificial half-ghoul like he wanted. he also loses his Instant Crush on rize after that
hide later gives eto a high five for a job well done
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would love others' thoughts on this. your blorbo at the table or even as a dm (eto prefers the dm seat, but the player perspective is something she can't deny is valuable)
share share share!
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clint barton as your older brother headcanons :)
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type of writing: headcanons / scenario
word count: 685
request: yes / no
original request: "Hi! I love your teen avenger series so far, it's amazing! Do you think you could do headcanons for being Clint Barton's younger sibling? Thanks ❤"
dynamic: clint barton x younger sibling!reader
characters: clint barton, a little barney barton as well, maybe some kate bishop, lucky the pizza dog ofc
a/n: THIS TOOK ME SO LONG IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY IM SORRY :( but tysm for it!! gotta love clint barton :D also, requests are open, so send an ask any time!
taglist: @thecloudedmind @nutellani
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having clint barton as a big brother really prepared you for anything
and when i say anything i mean anything
he once snuck up on you while you were at the grocery store
IT WAS SO MEAN OMG
like he literally hid behind one of those displays of chips
and then jumped out when you passed him
he was fr laughing so hard
then this old lady told him that he was rude so he got what he deserved
when it was just clint and barney, barney made clint learn sign language so that he would communicate with him
and so when you were born, barney was determined to have you learn it too
little did he know, clint had discovered bad words.
one thing led to another, and let’s just say the sign language clint taught you didn’t exactly mean what he told you it meant
barney was so mad omg but it was so funny
i feel like clint likes to invite you and barney over for dinner
not that barney comes bc that man is out doing who knows what
but he always gets pizza
like every single time he gets pizza
and he buys way too much
you once asked if he could get something else
and then once you got to his place, there was pizza on the table
smh
an important part of your relationship is that whenever you’re around, lucky ignores clint and only listens to you
and he gets super annoyed
like he’ll try EVERYTHING to get his dog back
but it doesn’t work :) 
you also have a really good relationship with kate
the two of you meet for coffee every once in a while just to gossip about clint
because let’s face it, the only person who has more blackmail on that guy is barney
i think clint would be a pretty protective older brother
he definitely calls just to check in on you
except sometimes he’ll call and do voices
i feel like clint would do a lot of voices
like celebrity impressions or accents
and so you’ll answer the phone and he’ll be trying to sound like bruce springsteen or something
and it’s always a really bad impression too
but he’ll try to have you guess and then he’ll tell you what it was after
and you always go “oh ok. i definitely heard that. yep.”
and then he just hangs up.
but he always calls back don’t worry :) 
clint also frequents antique shops.
but he doesn’t buy stuff for himself because he knows he’ll break it
so he swings by your place a lot with the most random stuff
sometimes it’s cool
like one time he gave you this lamp that looked like a taxi sign
but then once he gave you one of those really creepy baby dolls
from like the forties or something
and he just dropped it off by your door and ran away
and then he sent you a text like “check the front door…”
IT SCARED YOU SO BAD
you called him to yell at him but he wasn’t listening because he was laughing so hard 
you have a lot of eating competitions
barney used to take the two of you out to eat when you were younger, and you would both get four ice cream sundaes
and barney would just roll his eyes because he knew what was coming
you’d try to eat them as fast as possible
it usually ended with someone getting sick or with ice cream all over their clothes
and barney would just be sitting there, eyes closed, wishing he didn’t have such weird younger siblings
but don’t worry, he secretly loved the two of you :)
i like to think you knit and crochet stuff for clint a lot
and at the time he won’t look that excited but then he’ll wear it every chance he gets
you made him this purple hat thing and he literally won’t take it off
but he has to find something wrong with it, so he says it’s not warm enough
but you know that’s a lie!!
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catherinnn · 2 years
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Three is a crowd
You and Eddie were secretly dating, but the thing about keeping it a secret for so long, is that if one of Eddie's friends finds himself crushing on you too, they'd want to tell you eventually, to see if you'd want to be with them too... or ...the one where Gareth likes Eddie's secret girlfriend.
Eddie Munson x fem!reader (with mentions of Gareth x reader)
warnings: implied sex but no smut, both angst and fluff, cursing, alcohol consumption, a little bit of insecure!Eddie at the end but she quickly makes him feel better, so much drama bc I am dramatic.
3.5 k words.
a/n: tumblr isn't showing my fics :'(((((
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Eddie and you started dating a month ago. You didn't tell anyone yet because you were still on testing waters. Since you two had been very good friends before, you hung out with Eddie’s friend group a lot, not just with the guys in corroded coffin, but also hellfire, and you and Eddie hang out with your friend group, also known as Steve and Robin. You didn't tell anyone yet mostly because you didn't even know how serious your relationship was getting. You preferred to date for a while and see how it turns out, that way, if it doesn't work, you can just move on as always and it wouldn't be awkward since no one would be able to make it awkward, because they would never know something happened between you two.
Tonight, you were going to Eddie’s house for a movie night. When you got there, the guys from corroded coffin were still there too, they had been discussing some things about the upcoming shows they were doing at the hideout.
"Oh, hi guys" you greeted and they all greeted back with a hand-wave.
"Hey Y/n" Gareth also said.
"We were just finishing here, and then we can start a movie and order some pizza" Eddie told you. "Go on and pick one while we finish with the last details of the show"
You grabbed some of the movies that were next to the TV and sat on the couch next to Gareth, since it was the only one available.
"Oh, that's a great movie, have you seen it?" he asked you.
"Yeah, we saw it the last time we had movie night" you signalled between you and Eddie. "It's good but I prefer back to the future"
"Oh, yeah, I liked that one too, especially the part where Marty-"
"Gareth, are you even listening?" Jeff interrupted him.
"Sorry, yeah"
"Do you agree?" Eddie asked him.
"Umm, I mean..." he started.
"See? You weren't listening" Eddie smiled at himself for catching him. "Princess, stop distracting him or I'm gonna have to seat you somewhere else"
You only laughed and kept watching the options of movies for tonight.
"Alright, what were you saying?" Gareth said more seriously this time.
Eddie flirted with you in front of the guys often, even before you started dating. But only now, you complained about it when you were alone, fearing that they would start to get suspicious. But he didn't listen.
Like a few days later, at Dustin’s birthday party. Steve had brought some beer for the older friends of Dustin, obviously. The thing is, him along with your boyfriend drank more than they should.
You were talking with Robin and Max when Gareth came up to you.
"You want another beer?" he asked you.
"Oh, no thanks, I still have some left here" you lifted your cup.
"I could have some more" Robin told him.
"Oh um... OK" he wanted to share the bottle with you, but, guess it would be weird if offered you but refused to share with Robin. "So, um, Y/n, do you have any plans this weekend?"
"Yeah, we have Eddie's birthday, remember?" you said confused since Gareth was invited too. He couldn't have forgotten, right?
"Oh, yeah right! It just... slipped my mind for a second there"
Eddie and Dustin had almost freaked out when they found out their birthdays were a week away from each other's. And they promised that when Dustin turns an appropriate age, they would throw a party together.
"Do you have a present yet?" he asked again.
"Yeah, I got him another leather jacket, since the one he has now isn't fitting him anymore, and I bought him a cassette of a Black Sabbath album he didn't have"
"Oh, he's gonna love it! You're great at presents, I didn’t know that"
"No, I just think it’s because I know him enough to know what he likes"
"I'll make sure to get to know you enough so I can get you a good present too" he tried to be smooth, he really did, but he forgot a little detail.
"My birthday is in like... 8 months at least!" you laughed.
"Well- m-more time to get to know you then!"
"You already do" you didn't know why he was acting this weird, maybe he had had a little much to drink too.
And speaking of drinking a little much...
"Y/n!!!!"
You turned around at the scream of your name and you saw your boyfriend.
"Y/n, hiiiiii" He said coming closer to you while he tried to grab you by your waist. You moved his hands before he could though.
"Hey, Eds"
"Steve!!! Come here!!! Y/n's here!!!" he shouted.
"Heeeeyyy" a very drunk Steve showed up.
"Hi, Steve"
"She's so pretty" Eddie said hugging you. You tried go act surprised so it wouldn't be so suspicious.
"Well, aren't you drunk?" you joked.
"Maybe, but you’re still pretty"
"You know who's pretty?" Steve said. "Dustin is such a cute little guy!!! And he's getting so big, it's his birthday today!!!"
"That's true!!!! Let’s go get him!!!"
Thankfully, Eddie and Steve went running to Dustin before he could say anything else.
But still, later that night, when it was time for us to leave, Eddie was still flirty and tipsy.
"Eddie, you're not gonna drive like that" Jeff stopped him.
"I'm fiiineee"
"You can't even walk straight" his friend took the car keys from his hands before he could reach the van. "I'll drive you tonight, you can come and pick the van up tomorrow"
"But I told Max I was gonna take her home" Eddie complained. "And Y/n too"
"I'll drive them too, don't worry, I already have to take Gareth home, so it's no problem" Jeff said.
"No, Jeff, it's fine, I'll stay over at Eddie's tonight, someone should help him or otherwise, he's gonna end up sleeping on the floor and Wayne will be pissed" you offered.
You all got into Jeff's car. Max had called shotgun before we could even reach the car, so Eddie, you, and Gareth ended up in the back.
"You sure you don't want me to drive you home Y/n, it's really no problem" Jeff offered.
"It's fine really, I've already stayed over at his house a million times, so don't worry" you said.
Eddie laughed "Y/n's gonna sleep with me"
You looked at him weirdly and changed the subject before he would say anything else.
Until you got home, Eddie had already fallen asleep on your shoulder, you were talking with Gareth when Jeff announced that you had reached your destination.
Jeff accompanied Max to her door while Gareth and you woke Eddie up and took his hand to take him inside.
"You're gonna be alright?" Gareth asked you.
"Yeah, don't worry, once he sees the bed, he will be done for the night" You assured him.
"Alright, but if he gets too much just call me and I'll come help you"
"OK, thanks Gareth, and thank you Jeff for driving us!"
They said their goodbyes and went home.
"Alright, now, let's get you to bed" you said to Eddie.
"You gonna come with me, pretty girl?"
"Yes, honey"
"Alright, but don't tell anyone" Eddie whispered. "It's a secret"
"Alright" you whispered back and took him to his room.
He tried to throw himself into the bed but you stopped him.
"Eddie, you have to change first! You're gonna be uncomfortable in your jeans"
"Can I just take them off?"
"Sure, yeah"
He wiggled out of his jeans and proceeded to take his shirt off too. OK, just boxers it is then.
He laid on the bed but with his head slightly up, looking at your every move.
"Can I borrow a shirt to sleep in?"
"You already know you can, I'd prefer you naked, but do what you want"
"Thanks, Eds" you laughed and started to strip, since you're already dating and you trust him more than anyone, you didn't have to change in the bathroom. To this, Eddie stayed looking at you, he really thought he was being discreet, but it was the most he could do being drunk as he was, because in reality, he was staring with big doe eyes and his mouth slightly opened, as if he was in an awe.
"Don't drool" you joked once you finished and got into bed with him.
"Sorry" he whispered and then grabbed you by your waist to pull you closer.
You laid your head on his shoulder and his arms stayed at your waist hugging you. You fell asleep in his arms.
Once you woke up, you were obviously not in the same position, now on your side with his arms still wrapped around you.
You stayed like that for a while, until Eddie woke up too, a few minutes after.
He groaned and his hands went to rub his eyes.
"Hey, pretty boy" you whispered once you turned around to face him.
"Hi" he simply said before hugging you once again, cuddling and getting ready to sleep some more.
"Eds, we should get up already, we slept all morning"
"Let's sleep all day"
"If you get up and go take a shower, I'll join you" you offered and obviously, he got up immediately after you said that.
Once you got out of the shower with shaky legs and hickeys all over your cleavage, you started making breakfast, more like lunch since it was already noon, and you were both starving.
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The night before Eddie's birthday, you went to his trailer to spend the night with him. You knocked on the door and your boyfriend opened up. You kissed him, already getting excited because in a matter of hours he will turn 20.
You heard a cough behind you two. You didn't realize Wayne was there too, of course he already knew about you two, it would have been impossible not to, giving that he lives with Eddie and he sees you at the trailer all the time, cuddling on the couch, sleeping over in the same bed, and all of those things. Your surprise of seeing him here was because he usually worked at night, but he had stayed tonight in particular to be with Eddie on his birthday, he changed shifts with one of his co-workers just for tonight.
"Hi Wayne, sorry I didn't see you" you greeted him.
"It's fine kid, It's good to see you"
"Yeah, you too"
"We were just about to have dinner, have you eaten yet?" he asked you while he stirred something in a pot.
"No, I haven't"
"Good, hope you like pasta"
"I love it"
You sat next to Eds and had dinner all three of you. At first you thought you were maybe interrupting a family moment between them, but Eddie had called you and invited you to come over.
The truth was, Eddie felt so happy at that moment, dinning with his uncle and girlfriend, because you hadn't really talked about you two yet, but he felt like you were one of the most important people in his life at the moment, and he really wished you would stay in that position for a long long time.
When the clock struck 12 am, Wayne hugged Eddie tightly and you showered him with kisses. After some minutes, his uncle said goodbye so he could go to sleep since he was very tired already. You stayed with your boyfriend, both cuddling in the couch, you were laid stomach up with Eddie lying next to--almost on top of--you, his head on your chest using your breasts as pillows. You were both chatting, you would give random kisses on his face sometimes while playing with his hair, you both felt so safe, so comfortable.
"I wanna stay like this forever" He admitted.
"Me too"
He lifted his head slightly so he could look at you. He wanted to say something, you could tell.
"What?" you asked. But he shook his head, brushing it off. "Come on, tell me"
He stayed in silence for what felt like eternity but in reality must have been a few seconds.
"I wanna tell everyone" he simply said. "Want you to be mine, officially"
"I'd like that" you smiled.
He sat up straight. "Really?"
"Yeah" you laughed and sat up with him. "I'd really really like that"
He kissed you sweetly, smiles on both of your faces. It almost felt overwhelming, but in a good way, it was hard to explain. Or maybe it wasn’t really, but you didn’t even want to think of the four-letter word that came to mind. Maybe it was too soon, you didn’t feel scared about the feeling per say, more of how he would react to it, to you feeling it.
The next day was spent tidying Eddie’s place up, decorating a bit with some balloons and stuff—you also spent some time ‘celebrating’ his birthday, showing the birthday boy how much you appreciate him, as one does.
That night, after all the boys from hellfire, along with Steve, Robin, Max, etc. arrived, everyone started eating, drinking—if they were the appropriate age to do so because Steve wouldn’t have let them otherwise—and just hanging out, having fun.
You were laughing at something that Dustin was arguing about with Steve and Eddie, what you didn’t realize was that you had an audience.
“Go on, talk to her” Jeff said to a rather nervous Gareth.
“She’s already there with them, I don’t wanna be so obvious”
“Oh, come on, you’re dying to tell her, go on man! Tonight is the night”
“Yeah, I know, I wanna tell her tonight but... let me wait a little more, I’ll talk to her in a while”
“Stop postponing it, you did the same in Dustin’s birthday and by the end of the night, you hadn’t told her anything” Jeff insisted. “Who knows? Maybe tonight you’d be the one who takes her home”
“Yeah, right” he brushed it off, but in his head, a little part of him was hoping for that to be true.
After some more convincing from Jeff, Gareth finally got up from the couch and approached you.
“Y/n? Can I talk to you for a second?”
“Sure, Gareth, what’s up?” you said and walked with him a little further from everyone else.
“Um… There’s- there’s something I’ve been trying to tell you for a while, but, I guess I’m tired of postponing it or trying to throw hints at you, and I should just… say it”
“Y-yeah, tell me” you got serious because of how nervous he looked. To be honest, a little suspicion of what he was going to say came up to your mind—but no, it couldn’t be that.
You could hear everyone in the living room from the trailer, maybe someone did something funny or Eddie was calling everyone for the cake. You didn’t pay it any mind, just stayed focused on Gareth rambling trying to find the right words, but you thought again—no, it wasn’t that.
“Y/n, I- I’ve- have”
“Everyone! Come here!” you could hear from the living room, but you both ignored it.
Gareth took a deep breath. “I like you Y/n”
You stayed there, looking at him.
“Y-Y/n?”
“You- what?”
“I like you, more than just like, I’m- really into you”
“Y/n, there you are! Come here” Eddie appeared and spoke before you could. He took your hand and took you to the living room where the cake was in the middle on the table, with everyone around it, paying attention to Eddie next to you. Gareth sighed and walked over to where everyone was, at the other extreme of the table where you and Eddie where, but he wasn’t looking at the birthday boy like the others, he was looking at you.
You were still in shock, not really paying attention to everyone singing Happy Birthday, nor to Eddie blowing the candles, you were just thinking—what. the. fuck.
You snapped out of it when you heard everyone clapping and you joined in slowly.
“Thanks guys, but um, before we cut the cake I wanted to tell you all something very important to me,” he looked at you “Y/n and I... we’re dating, we have been for a while but we wanted to make sure it was serious before we made a big deal about it. But we have been dating for over a month now, and we decided it was serious enough to tell you, finally”
“Oh my god!” Robin was the first one to react, before you even could.
“I fucking knew it!” Dustin shouted.
“Oh yeah, ‘cause you always know everything” Steve fought.
You stopped listening, everyone started talking all at once.
“Hey” Eddie whispered in your ear. “You OK?”
You saw his face of concern, forgot about everyone else there, Dustin’s and Steve’s shouts, Gareth’s confession, everything.
You smiled at him and kissed him.
‘Cause it was him, it had always been him, and you hoped that it would keep being him forever.
“I have to talk to you later” you whispered to him, lips still on top of his. “But I’m fine” you kissed his cheek. “God, I like you so much”
You parted, still looking at him smiling, his face now with a big smile thanks to your words, you winked at him and then proceeded to cut the cake so everyone could grab a slice.
“You never told me! I can’t believe it yet” Robin told you once you finished with the cake and everyone’s attention stopped being on you.
“I know but, we really wanted to see where it was going before we told everyone”
“He’ll treat you right, I’m happy for you guys” Steve stepped in.
Before you could respond him, you spotted from the window at Gareth being outside.
“Sorry, I’ll come to talk to you later, I have to do something first”
You went outside after him, and saw Jeff with Eddie and Gareth.
You walked closer to them.
But what you didn’t know was that Eddie had asked Gareth what happened when he saw his friend standing there with a serious face. Gareth just looked at him with regretful eyes. Thankfully, Jeff stepped in for him and explained to Eddie what happened a few seconds before he announced the big news.
“Seriously?” you heard Eddie ask.
“I’m sorry-“ Gareth started but then he saw you standing behind them.
They all turned around to look at you.
“I should… give you some privacy” Jeff excused himself and walked back inside.
There were a few seconds of silence, Eddie looking at Gareth and then at you, you looking at Gareth, and him at the ground.
“You- you like her?” Eddie asked again, still confused and in shock.
“I’m sorry man, I really didn’t know you were together”
“You don’t have to apologize” you assured him. “I’m- I am really sorry about this, and that you had to find out this way after you told me”
“You told her?” Eddie spoke again. “You- you told her… you-“
He realised what that meant, Gareth was just telling you because he wanted to know if he had chance to be with you.
“Eddie, I’m really sorry, I promise, if I knew about you two I wouldn’t have tried anything with her” Gareth assured him now.
“You-“ Eddie took a breath and ran his fingers through his hair, he turned to you this time, talking to you now. “You? What happens now?” you could hear his voice crack, he just got nervous. “What- what do you want now?”
“Are you asking me which one I want?” you asked him incredulously. “Eddie I- Gareth, can I talk to him for a second?”
Gareth nodded and went back inside, thanking you in his head for telling him to go away, he had an idea of what you were about to say, and he didn’t want to witness it.
“Eddie, I should have told you sooner, I should have told you when I first realized. I’m in love with you, you idiot”
He sighed again and immediately hugged you.
“Fuck, I got so scared there for a second”
“I don’t even know why” you laughed.
“Shhhhhh” he said before kissing you.
You stayed there, kissing, losing yourselves in each other.
“I love you too by the way” he said and pecked your lips. “Really, really love you so much”
After that—and a few kisses more—you went back inside.
You talked to Gareth properly, without making him nervous or uncomfortable. You had to tell him tough, you loved Eddie, and apologised for everything you made him go through tonight. He obviously said he understood and apologised to you too and later to Eddie.
After that night, every time you and Eddie were around Gareth you tried to be more subtle so you wouldn’t make anyone uncomfortable. And eventually, that awkward story between the three of you, became a funny story, something the guys would make jokes about, once they knew Gareth was over it.
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may-moskowitz · 1 year
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AKSHNIOYDBG more evil ghostface binary boyfriends, I'm begging :O I'm imagining a scenario where they go after Tory because of the way she threatened Eli at the end of S3 and Demetri told her off. Or maybe Robby, since he broke Miguel's back, force-shaved Eli, and betrayed Miyagi Do. Basically a triple strike!
Or Kyler! Oh man, they'd annihilate him after years of bullying.
I just want them as murder boyfriends so bad <3 <3 <3
I AM SO SORRY THIS TOOK FOREVER I REWROTE IT LIKE THREE TIMES BC I HATED HOW IT WAS GOING 😭
Cw: blood, gore, v descriptive act of gutting, Eli going ballistic and then immediately starts acting like a child again, kyler being an asshole👌
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“Man that bitch is so dead… such a pussy…” Kyler continued to blabber, completely unaware that Demetri Alexopoulos had been peering through his window. He was also unaware of the fact that Eli Moskowitz had made his way inside the house during the half hour he’d been gaming in his bedroom.
“Dawg, what are you doing? You tryna kill me, the fuck?”
Demetri pulled the burner phone out from under his black gown, he and Eli had picked up those stupid Ghostface costumes used by those two maniacs in the 90s, Demetri said it would be like bearing a torch. He dialed the phone number written on his palm, Kyler’s landline phone number. Eli remained hidden as he heard it ring in the room next to him, waiting for Kyler to come answer it.
“Shit I think that’s the pizza man callin’ me, hold up I’ll be right back…” Kyler slid his chair back before making his way downstairs to the kitchen where the phone was ringing, unknowingly passing Eli as he walked past the storage room he’d been hiding in.
Kyler finally picked up the ringing phone, “Yo where you at? That pizza better not be cold-”
“Wait a minute, who am I talking to?” Demetri’s altered voice spoke. “Uhhh, Kyler… is this not the pizza guy?”
“No… I mean no it is, I’ve got your uh… pizza here if you want it…”
“Aight sweet, you… almost here?”
Demetri quickly texted Eli while telling kyler to walk to the front door.
Metri
Hes coming out to the front, stay there. Ill fuck with him a bit, get him scared. come out the sliding side door when I give u the signal.
Eli listened as he heard Kylers footsteps go past the closet and over to the front door. The door opened and Eli waited for the sound of a stabbing noise, a scream, a thump… something… but there was just silence. That is, until Kyler opened his mouth to talk once again.
“Aight… come out now. I’m hungrier than a bitch, let’s go!”
“Hold on now, Kyler, I didn’t tell you where I was with your pizza, did I?”
“Oh… ok, then uh… where are you?” Kyler stepped outside to look around the front porch, but there was no sight of anyone. He made his way around to the far corner, peeking behind it and still finding nothing.
“Can you see me?” Demetri echoed on the other end,
“No… are you in the front?”
“I can see you, Kyler.” He began to tense up, it was so quiet.
Kyler stepped backwards, making his way to the opposite side of the porch. He stood behind a pillar to look over at the road beside his house. Nothing.
“Man, I’m hungry as hell, where are you boy?”
“Walk around to the back of the house, Kyler.”
“Bro… I don’t wanna be playing no hide and seek right now, my pizzas gon’ get cold…”
“It’s right here, Kyler! Just come and get it… it’s just by the side door.”
If Kyler were smart he wouldn’t be falling for this. Who the hell makes you walk around your house to get pizza from the delivery boy? Demetri knew he could fuck with Kyler and he’d just fall for everything, it was kind of fun. This wouldn’t work next week when they go for Tory, Demetri wanted to make sure she got what she deserved for all the pain she caused to his Eli. They’d go after Robby as well, Demetri wanted to give Eli some time to get practice in with Kyler first. They’d worry about Robby tomorrow.
Kyler made his way around the house, going over to the front.
Metri
Go now out the side door and keep urself hidden behind that huge tree. When Kyler goes by then u can come out, be ready bc as soon as he sees u you’ll need to strike. Don’t worry, I’ll be over there soon. U got this babe 💕
Eli smiled at the text. He still felt shaky, but this was his chance to show everyone that he’s not some scared loser. He’s gonna give everyone who ever wronged him what they deserve. Eli left the closet and ran out to the side door, quickly opening it and slipping out. Just as he got behind the tree he heard Kyler shittalking to Demetri over the phone. He closed his eyes and took a big breath as he watched Kyler walk passed the tree and towards the glass door.
“Where are you now, bruh?”
“You still can’t see me, Kyler?” He rolled his eyes as he moved just passed the door frame, looking out by the gazebo behind his house.
“Man, you ain’t even here… I’m going back inside!”
Just as Kyler turned around, he became face to face with a masked Eli who immediately shoved him to the ground. He stepped closer to Kyler as he groaned beneath him,
“The fuck, who- who the fuck are you??”
Eli landed a kick to Kyler’s stomach, causing him to hunch over and wince. As soon as he gained the strength, Kyler got up and ran back around to the front. Eli turned around and walked down the other side to meet him there.
As soon as Kyler reached the balcony he was faced with Eli who’d already beat him. Eli cocked his head to the left as Kyler stood just feet away before quickly spinning to run back to the back of the house, the ghost following suit.
As soon as Kyler made it to the sliding doors, Demetri turned around on the other side to face him, immediately throwing himself through the glass to tackle the wrestler. Kyler struggled under the ghost’s grasp, kicking his legs as Demetri’s hands wrapped around the teens throat. Kyler lifted his head, head butting his attacker before getting away.
Kyler ran towards the left corner of the house, only to be met with the ghost again. Eli’s hand shot forward, lodging his knife into Kyler’s abdomen and pulling it through his stomach to the other side.
Blood and organs fell from his body as he fell to the ground, letting out a disgusting, gargled groan.
Eli straddled Kyler as he tried to scoop his insides back into his body. As Eli moved Kyler’s hands out of the way, he tried to reach up and punch the ghost above him. Eli smacked the hand away and his knife went straight into the side of Kyler’s neck, before he pulled it out to thrust it down into his sternum.
Demetri watched from the door, he didn’t think Eli could actually do it.
He was stabbing him over and over, Kyler cried out as Eli kept going. Blood covered his face as the ghost stabbed him once more in the throat in hopes to keep him quiet, but he just wouldn’t shut up.
Demetri removed his mask to see better, a smile rising to his face as he watched his boyfriend finally take revenge. He could hear him faintly panting as he brutally murdered his lifelong bully, Demetri was so proud of Eli.
When his rapid stabbing finally stopped he flung himself backward and crawled away from the body, ripping his mask off as he let out a choked sob.
Demetri quickly ran over to him, immediately pulling him into a hug. “You did it! I knew you could, Eli. God… dammit I’m so proud of you,” Demetri pushed Eli’s sweaty hair from his face.
“W-what’s the matter?”
Eli wiped the tears from his face and took a few deep breaths, “Demetri… w-what if we made a mistake?? What if we…fuck we might get caught!”
“Shhh shut the fuck up, it’s ok. I promise you, we will not get caught. I’ve planned this all out, we’re gonna get away with this, baby.” Demetri held Eli closer to him, kissing his head and hugging him tight.
“We should probably move this asshole though, can you help me get him uh…” he looked around the yard for places to stick Kyler’s dead body, “Tree?” Eli suggested, Demetri looked behind him at the tree with the tire swing hanging from it,
“Tree.”
🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪
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i had soo much fun at the alex g show ive never been to a show in a huge venue amphitheater esque place before it was really fun and i liked the seated aspect tbh :) driving to philly was a fkn nightmare there was soo much traffic in virginia n maryland and then in philly too so we were a little late to tanukichan's set. i was sooo looking forward to hearing hunned bandz so im rly sad they didnt let her play her last song (cuz the fire alarm went off after like 8 seconds and they just ended her set 😭plus her whole performance was so short she only played 5 songs.. ig makes sense for a long show w coheadliners plus her but shes underrateddd) i was so disappointed ngll but she sounded really good and i got to hear some songs off gizmo that i really luv :) alvvays was good too but tbh i dont listen to them that much and im not a hugest fan of their sound sometimes (sorru if im debased) but it was still a good performance. i liked the sound quality in the venue bc it was so loud when i went to get merch u can still hear the music nd everything.. i got my bf a Gizmo t shirt its super cute and i like how it looks on him it has the gizmo dog on it i said it was bf coded.. nd im also gonna wear it.. and i got a Gizmo cd and we talked to tanukichan's drummer for a bit he was nice :) and then i Did not get the white Alex g angel tank top that i wanted sososo bad bc they only had XL left so i got the black t shirt instead whateva.. its still cute.. then it took loke 40 min to get drinks bc the ljnes were so long and i got this rlyy yummy drink and all the beers and seltzers were 15$? and everyone was buying them? lol but we said fuck it nd got drinks cuz its fun to drink at shows and drinking to alex g was soooo fun i got so tipsy off my drink and mine was yummy so actually worth it, my bf got a nasty pale ale lmao but i was vibingg sm to alexs set i loved it sm every song was great and its just so much fun going to a show for an artist u love and know every song etcetc and i was hving a lot of fun dancing and singing and kissing my bf and holding onto him when i felt the alcohol more and recording videos (ive been listenjng and watching my concert videos sinceee i recorded a lot even tho i thought i wouldnt but its always worth it to me to get clips of songs i love bc i always go back and listen) etc. my favs probably were bug, sportstar, immunity, rejoyce ;) also molly was there and she was amazing!! and then after the show we walked around for a bit and then briefly talked to alex gs brother lmfaooo and then went to our airbnb which was not hard to find or a pain so that was nice bc i was sososoo tired and it was a cute little room and we ordered pizza and watched adventure time episode then passed out and then had morning sex then went 20 min to NJ to a dispensary and bought 💨 and drove 7 hours back which was brutal and i have to go to work tmrw but its ok i had a lot of fun 👍even tho i spent soo much on gas and parking etcetc but worth it.. i never go on tripsss.. tho i wish i had longer for trips cuz we didnt do any sightseeing or anything bc then wed get back home rly latee </3 but its ok. i rly liked philly tho ^-^
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Headcanons I have
TK has really bad anxiety and depression (kinda canon but not as bad as I’m talking about) Carlos helps a lot but sometimes it’s just so bad he can’t get out of bed
When his mom died, it was really bad to the point he wouldn’t touch his food let alone get up for a shower
Judd had depression after his friend died and it slowly settled with talking to Grace. Some days are worse than others but he’s better, especially when he keeps on top of his meds
Marjan has a bit of social anxiety. She hides it well but it gets bad sometimes. It started in middle/high school because of her religion. (She’s not ashamed, obviously, but she does get squirmy around certain people)
Paul can have really bad dysphoric days
Those days everyone makes sure to call him “man” “bro” etc. it helps a lot more than they think and he’s really greatful to have such supportive and loving friends
On a happier one, Mateo is a mamas boy (not in the way of the mom being “I’m his first love” to their son way. Like a Percy Jackson way)
Nancy loves it bc she loves Mateo’s mom
Nancy and Mateo’s are actually best friends
Grace can, will, and has drop kicked a man
Paul and TK regularly have arguments about if NYC pizza or Chicago pizza is better. (“DEEP DISH YOU FLAT CEMENT BITCH” “RANDOM CORNER PIZZA SHOP WITH SLICES THE SIZE OF YOUR FACE YOU STALE TISSUE.” “… why don’t you guys make both and find out who’s is really better?” “SHUT UP MATEO!”)
Tommy and Charles grew up together and were childhood friends to lovers
Charles proposed with a ring pop bc it’s all he could afford at the time and Tommy laughed hysterically as she said yes (a few years later he replaced it with her wedding ring which was real and had Tommy is shambles because she thought it was so pretty.)
Owen, despite spending most of his time at the fire house in NYC, did his very best to go to TK’s school activities (theatre, baseball games, that short faze of being in band, and track) after all, he wasn’t the worst dad in the world, just not the best
Owen and TK didn’t have the best relationship when TK was in middle/high school but Owen really did try with his fight against his own depression from 9/11 and make sure TK knew it wasn’t his fault, but instead Owen’s for not doing more
Carlos had a hamster while growing up
The hamster was 12 years old when it died (it died cuz one of his older sisters accidentally vacuumed it up when it got out) (it was also bald and skinny af bc hamster are only supposed to live 2.5 years. No one in the house knows how it lived 12 years.)
Carlos cried for a week
Judd was a stripper at one point. He doesn’t talk about it ok?
TK found out one day and ended up throwing up from laughing so hard. Judd made him blood swear to secrety.
(TK tells Carlos ofc and Carlos, very quietly despite being in their home, says, “I know. He worked at a gay club. I saw him all the time there.” TK couldn’t breath from laughing again and called Judd up. Judd, to this day, gives TK pleading eyes when they get calls from clubs.)
TK and Judd are like this 🤞 and no one knows when it happened.
Everyone is scared when they are left alone for more than five minutes because once they blew up a bus.
Mateo and Nancy are kinky as fuck and no one expects it. (Yes Nancy pegs him.)
Paul is the known to save lives with his quirky smile and bad puns
Carlos, arrest Paul cuz he’s killin all the ladies
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androidboy · 8 months
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ive got plans with my gf tomorrow evening and she’s gonna hang out with a friend that i don’t like bc she’s put her in front of me priority wise in a pretty rude way before when we werent officially a thing and then she’s gonna come over so that already has me feelin a bit shaky but bc it’s gonna not be at the end of a work week for me for once i was really excited and i planned to make pizza dough ahead of time and get flowers to surprise her but during our goodnight phone call i was like “i’m excited to see you tomorrow :)” and she was like “..oh! yeah! umm tbh i forgot. i’m gonna be cooking dinner for my family that night but um.. i’ll just drive back to the area!!” so i was like “oh. uh you don’t have to” and she was like “no!! i wanna see you. ugh i feel so bad. sorry for forgetting i made plans with you :(”
and idk imm kinda sensitive rn coming down from the manic ep and i pretended to be ok but i am now crying and i just feel really embarrassed that i was gonna go all out and i still want to but idk if it’ll make her feel guilty and i don’t wanna do that
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