#but ive been changing up my blog

[huidol]

happy valentines 👍 day

#figayda #fig x ayda #fig faeth #figueroth faeth #ayda augefort #fantasy high #dimension 20 #d20 #putting this up on top rest of the tags are just me talking ok #shout out to fig for being the only bad kid to stay together with their girlfriend post-fhsy. DESERVED. #scribbling poltergeist #junior's magic paintbrush #alt verison of the text couldve been want to be my crab queen but I only just thought of that now and I'm not changing it. SAD! #had sooooo many ideas for this drawing I had very cute sketch Hi everyone whos new to my blog btw I talk a lot in tags anyways I had a cute #sketch that was like. a card that Ayda was sitting at the top and fig was at the bottom and in the middle was a heart with clock hands and #shit. and ayda was sending down a uhhhh a heart that as it went down the page it aged. and fig caught it. bc ayda sending love letters #through time is my favorite thing in the whoooole world. #also had an idea because i just finished that season to have a traditional valentines card with cody that was like #“are you satan bc ive been waiting for you my whole life” bc he says that in the uh. first ep I think. anyways that be a great card I just #didnt haev the time. sad! i started drawing this on the 12th i had Zero time for anything else #wow i talked a lot tee hee ^_^ its ok because im special.

[gobstoppr]

UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE

NEW NAME

transmaskmetaknight -> GOBSTOPPR

wanted a change of pace. the word gobstopper has been bouncing around in my head lately

#text #transmaskmetaknight #need a new pfp... and my phones home screen i wanna change it too.. n maybe redecorate the blog while im at it... #ive been tired and angry lately. its my hater arc etc etc #ugh idk. ive been trying to be more honest with my feelings #but that means my annoyance gets magnifyied like 10fold #ive been impatient about a lot of stuff that doesnt amuse me. ive hated the boop shit today bc the word is so. dumb. childish. #ugh i feel like one of those nerds with the minors dni in their fuckin bio at age 19 #but its how i feel!! im tired of settling for things i find not very satisfying. i want art that feels real. i want fandom to shut up. #i want to watch shows that are not Cartoons for Babies. i want to feel something Real. #i need to go Deeper. i have to chase this

[whos-hotter-jjba]

Can we have a cowboy men poll?

Hell yeah! I was so tempted to add every single sbr character who identifies as male sksjdjhfshsjdhk but that's way too big a mess

Cowboy Showdown

#thanks for the submission!! #and i know ive been simping for gyro in the comments ever since he first showed up here in the blog #BUT things have changed a bit and im simping for diego a lot more now #so yeah. dino boy for the win my beloved #fully expecting the hol horse defenders on my notes i love reading your tags <3 #hol horse #johnny joestar #gyro zeppeli #diego brando #pocoloco #jjba pocoloco #mountain tim #stardust crusaders #steel ball run #jojo no kimyou na bouken #jojo's bizarre adventure #jjba #who's hotter jjba

[ronancer4evr]

HAPPY PRIDE MONT TO THEM!! 🎉🎊💐💖😜😍

#ronance #pride month #HAPPY PRIDE MONTH #for them its happy Bride month😂 yk cuz like they need to get married hahahs #wake up its da first of da month #how do i start explaining how much they mean to me?? #i wont explain you can litreally just check out my blog ive been ronancing for almost a year #these girls were life changing #10/10 im sticking to them even when season 5 comes out #they may not be canon but they're still very real...

[dailydegurechaff]

Might we have a crumb of crazy Tanya? We've had annoyed Tanya, angry Tanya, cute Tanya, confused Tanya, gay Tanya, magic Tanya, idol Tanya, fishmonger Tanya, manga Tanya and salaryman. But not really "Do y'all have visas?" "Target, that big pile o shet!" Tanya.

Really wondering how you would pull of her crazy eyes.

honestly, that thing she does with her eyes is so difficult for me to get looking right ;;

that being said, ill do my best (･v･ゞ hopefully at least one of these is to your satisfaction;;

#bonus doodle #youjo senki #the saga of tanya the evil #tanya von degurechaff #ask #delusionaldoppelsoldner #i kinda wanted an excuse to do this little challenge so i used this ask #i took the liberty of changing two of the prompts tho bc like... ya no thank u #i intended to color it but. maybe another time;; #my personal favorite is the smiling one #ive been wanting to change the blog icon to some original art and not just a manga panel so that might be what it ends up if i clean it up

[the-meme-monarch]

i had a whole post typed up on how i hate my dad currently but well maybe that's a little tmi

#just know hes a shit bitch to my mom as well. thats what it was about #behead the monarch #dumb fucking vent tag but whatever. ive had this blog since i was 14 im not changing tags now #ive been woken up again by them arguing 👎 #dont know how my dad doesnt hear himself speaking and doesn't hear that its Fucking Stupid. good night again

[jinstronaut]

this is also why i stopped using my tracked tag for a while tbh

#and i might do it again bc its just #a reminder that no one rly cares abt what i do / who i am etc #which might sound over dramatic idk how else to describe it tho its just hollow #it feels very much like a Chore and a Task and if i dont reblog things fast enough from my tag #people get very angry and/or upset with me even tho theres just #so much content and i have 0 time so everything gets queued no matter what #like this whole experience feels like a chore lmao #and it never ever used to #but now theres so much animosity if i dont behave / interact with things Properly #or whatever the make believe rules are idk #this dash can just be so negative like have we all truly descended into madness during this hiatus #bc like i get it ive been up and down and all around too but ive never been straight up MEAN to anyone in this community #and i never want to either so this entire situation thats been bubbling for months just feels like shit #bc what the fuck changed and how do we get back to where we were #i never ever ever ever felt this way before like idk the middle of last year #but ever since like last fall its just been idk. Bad #once again im sorry if ive ever done anything to upset anyone but my silence / absence doesnt mean i dont care #ive just been Incredibly busy due to some real life changes that are out of my control #i might not have energy to answer everything but i do Read everything and it does make me smile #and i save messages that are kind in my heart so i can be reminded of the root of what this blog is supposed to be #a space for something im very passionate about and previously had nowhere else to express said passion #so like idk if we all like the same things why does this weird feeling of competition linger over us lmao #why do all ccs have to fight???? each other???? when we all love and do the same things???? #i have nothing against anyone personally but what i Do take issue with is the way that ive been doing this since 2021 and im fully just #ignored and shoved aside by so many people for reasons i fully dont know or understand #so yeah idk this is a novel i just woke up from a spontaneous nap bc im so exhausted i can only stay awake for 3 hours at a time #but yeah anyways idk ! #be nice its so easy ! #tbd

[eggsdrawings]

You are my favorite artist ever and possibly my fav tumblr user <3 you have such good taste in like everything ever and I looveee reading ur tags they’re so silly!! NOT TO MENTION UR ART?? HELLO??? STUNNING. ACTUALLY JAW DROPPING. I AM IN LOOOVE LOVE LOVE WITH YOUR ART IT LIKE ACTUALLY CHANGED THE CHEMICALS IN MY BRAIN

WAHHHH THIS IS SO NICE 💗💗😭😭 omg, u flatter me too much! happy u like my posts and all the goofy things i share! thank u so much for the lovely support 🫶🏻 i was in a slump today doodling but ur enthusiasm and kindness fuels me to keep creating!!! i hope u have a truly wonderful day!!

#chemicals in MY brain are being changed with how nice ur message is! careful guys I will grow an ego!! (im joking) #got me kickin my feet and giggling TYYYY u guys are too sweet to meeeee #it’s so funny sharing fandoms / ships with people who stumble across my blog I feel like im hypnotizing yall #I will sketch some stuff tonight now that ive been powered up with love or whatever cheesy thing i can blame it on now #the question remains of What I will sketch but… perhaps I shall spin a wheel LOL #ask box #ghostdoctor

[stargazer-dreamer]

Erratum Discussions

character: spike spiegel

reader: gender neutral

content warnings: implied/referenced self-harm. intrusive thoughts. inability to move on (from past relationships)

notes: also on ao3. 1k+ word count. “spike centric” in a way that’s more about spike and less about the reader

Page after page, it’s hard to move on. It’s hard to find out who you are, and what you are, and why you are, and where you are, and—

Spike tries. He tries so hard. Page after page.

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He likes to read, occasionally. It’s no good to train only the body, after all.

Not every bookstore was the same—big or small, cluttered or pristine—but there was something about that particular one, the one that sold them used, located down in the asteroid belt, that he found himself traveling to more often than not, when he found the need for something new.

If he were an honest man, he would wager that it would be more accurate to say that his visitations were for a particular person and not the selection in which they sold. Paperbacks, worn and pre-thumbed, with the corners bent, and notes scribbled in the margins—he had no part in any of that. No; while it was true that Spike enjoyed a good book here and there, he could not possibly work through the text at the rate he was buying them.

He is not an honest man. He would walk in, nonchalant, and browse the selection. After a while, scanning the shelves, he would end up near you; he’d strike up a harmless conversation—“Have you read this one?” “Does this sound interesting to you?” And, well, he couldn’t just leave empty-handed, right? His nightstand became cluttered, and the coffee table grew unusable. The bridge, the workshop, the glove compartment in Swordfish. He bought a bookshelf.

“I get good recommendations when I go there,” he argued, trying to be nonchalant about it when Jet had figured it out.

They were a poor choice of words, Spike realized, when his partner said: “Sure,” with an amused smile playing along his lips; humor and warmth dripping thick in his voice. “Book recommendations. I understand, Spike—that’s your business.”

“No, really,” he suddenly felt like a school-child; the overwhelming urge to defend himself, violently. And it would be a while longer yet for him to fully understand exactly why he was feeling this way, but—“Books. I go there for books, Jet. Books. Why else would I go to a bookstore?”

“Yes, I get it,” Jet still looked at him in a way that pissed him off. “Books.”

Despite the teasing remarks, Spike held firm in his stance. He even believed it himself, for a time. There could not possibly be any other feasible explanation as to why he kept coming back to this specific location, on this small of a settlement, so far out and away from their usual haunts, than the particular selection they held.

Not so soon after his previous relationship. Not when his heart still beated for her. Not when she still appeared in his sweetest dreams. No, this could not be that, especially when he did not know you and you did not know him. Strangers—less than so. You only spoke to him pleasantly because it was your job, and it was his own disillusioned mind that saw it as anything more.

So, he stopped going. He worked through a stack or two of paperbacks, crumpled and tattered. Life resumed as usual.

But he missed chatting with you. After your attention was on him, he would ease the conversation out of the confines of the small store—“Life treating you well?” “You ever worked out your situation?” And the two of you would talk; minutes, sometimes up to an hour, the clock ticking away until the old manager would come out from the backroom and tell you to get back to work. 

There wasn’t much work to do, you had told him, after the manager would hobble back out—probably off to go play solitaire on his outdated computer—and it would be just the two of you, once more. Update the database, tidy up the shop. Foot traffic was slow, most days. You would rather be talking to him, you had said, once, offhand.

Perhaps you were simply indulging him. Maybe he was too friendly. All the more reason to stay away. He didn’t want to appear as a creep. He didn’t want to appear desperate.

Not after her. Not after he couldn’t stay away.

Jet seemed to pick up on the lack of asteroid belt-related trips. Before, Spike would find a multitude of excuses to go. Now, he came up with reasons to avoid it entirely.

“There’s nothing there,” he would say, deliberately avoiding his partner’s eyes. “Not even any good bars—hey, why don’t we hit some bounties? We could use the extra money.”

But that pocket change used to go towards his collection of books. After amenities and necessities, he would spare some for the trip he would inevitably take; paperbacks in the back of his mind and you at the forefront. Always.

It slowly dawned on him that he didn’t have many hobbies, outside of that. He would drink, he would smoke, go out and play pool. He didn’t know if he even liked reading, if he were being completely honest. It was just something that he’d always done, after they taught him how. Something that they said he was good at. A good hobby. Enriching. Enlightening.

She had even appraised his collection, that first night she came over. Spike wondered—if he went back, would that apartment be empty? Those shelves he had spent years filling; text after text, ripped to shreds, left to cover a landfill—or did they preserve it? Collecting dust and bad memories, waiting, and waiting, and waiting.

Waiting for what?

He looked at his room aboard Bebop and found it mostly empty; his closet, his bed. Not much had changed, except the fact that everything had changed. He looked at his bookcase. He wondered if you would praise it, just like she did. Or would you look at it with disgust? Would you scan the titles and recognize every letter—every stain and scuff—and tell him he was a freak? To stay away from you. To never speak to you again.

Spike closed his eyes and stared into the abyss. He came out on the other side and saw only himself. Like looking at a mirror. He wanted to shatter it; to throw it against the wall and watch the splinters crack his reflection—he wanted to grab the shards and watch him tear himself to shreds. Hundreds, thousands of pieces, so broken and battered that no one could ever dream of repairing it ever again. To see his hands wet with it, to hold it tighter, to stop waiting around and finally finish the job himself.

Kicking, and screaming, and dry-heaving, Spike wanted. He wanted—

He didn’t know what he wanted. Perhaps he never did, at all. A man, with his two own eyes, sitting there on the piano bench; sitting, and reading, and waiting, and wanting, and singing—grab a glass because there’s going to be a flood!

Spike knew one thing for sure: he was always good at reading. So, he read. He worked through a stack. Then another. Life resumed like normal. Bullets, and blood, and books, and blue.

He thought of her. He thought of taking her home, to his apartment too big for him, and her looking at his shelves, all in a neat little line, backs against the walls, in every room. With bated breath, he would watch her. He imagined her eyes, wide with disgust and blue, and she’d turn to him and say, “Freak. You’re such a freak.” And that would be that. Finally.

He thought of you. He thought of you and he thought of you and he thought of you and he thought of you and he thought of you and he thought of you and he thought of you and he—

And he wanted.

No, Spike is not an honest man. He never has been. But he likes to read, occasionally. It’s no good to train only the body, after all.

#spike spiegel #cowboy bebop #cowboy bebop fanfic #cowboy bebop fanfiction #cowboy bebop fic #spike spiegel x reader #spike spiegel x you #spike spiegel x y/n #fic #fanfic #fanfiction #cowboy bebop imagines #cowboy bebop imagine #i wrote the first part of this back in september with the intention that it would be a cute little bookstore au <3 #your relationship would bud from spike's repeated trips <3 #but alas. #it sat unfinished in my files until i had the spark of inspiration to change it up #sorry <3 #um. a wip ive slowly and slowly been working on since last may (the wip that birthed this entire blog to begin with) #features a reader working at a small bookstore and their relationship with spike does start to form from his repeated visits #think of this as like. bad ending au from that fic (if i ever decide to finish it LOL) #ive thought about posting snippets from it as standalone fics because i honestly dont know if i would ever finish it...who knows! #personal favorites

[loveackermannn]

i am missing levi so badly, i've been deprived of seeing him on my screen for over a year......

#shitrambles #chaloveslevi #levi ackerman #muahfromcha!! ☆ #attack on titan #I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE THE REST OF THE MANGA ANIMATED #ive been following aot for the past 3 years and i have been a changed woman since. #it'll be such a bittersweet end though... #like im hoping that even after the show has ended #that the fandom will still flourish on here #HOPING!!!! #i love indulging in this man w my fellow mooties and followers D: #we cannot stop..... #idk when id ever retire from my blog completely #if anything id probably leave it for archive but still like stuff on my dash #so partially active ig #idk im just shitting out thoughts rn im gonna catch up on some anime tonight!! ><

[every-sanji]

Woah this little project has been going on for 3 years now! A little crazy that I've managed to keep this thing running but I am nothing if not committed to the bit. Thank you to everyone who has been here since day one and everyone who has followed along more recently in this journey to post every single Sanji! Here's to three more years 🥂

#not sanji #this isnt housekeeping either but ill tag it with that #im scheduling this out on the 11th ive just finished queuing ch333 #but ueueue i started this blog as a freshman in college and i graduate in may #ive changed hyperfixations half a dozen times and i stopped keeping up with #the weekly releases for one piece in like august 2020 #wano was just getting too convoluted for me #but one piece was what i hyperfixated on at the start of the first lockdown #so it will always have a special place in my heart #also hopefully by the time this posts ill have my new car #and this blog will have been with me through 4 phones (technically) and 2 cars #and 3 different dorms/apartments #i dont know what im doing post graduation tbh i just applied for a job as a #patient representative at a clinic in my home town which will get me on my feet in the #professional world but i could do just about anything #everyone wants an anthropologist but nobody wants to admit it #im also bilingual which is also a useful skill. but if anyone says they know what theyre doing #especially when theyre my age (22) they are lying #we're all kinda groping around blindly hoping to find something that sticks #anyway ive rambled enough! dkshsjkssj if you read all this.... thank you? #idk this blog means a lot to me ive been keeping it up through a lot of rough patches #its like. one of the constants in my life idk. #anyway. i need to do dishes and make lunch byeeeeeee #i never tagged this with housekeeping. #housekeeping

[atthebell]

started a long post that i will keep in my drafts that's just every single thing i would fix and why and it might be the catharsis ive needed

#bell.txt #i feel bad posting like every single criticism i have but genuinely at this point #its been almost six months since ive been happy with the larger way things have gone #and i really really hope that some of the changes going on help with the issues i personally have #like frankly the admin interference thing has been such a big problem #and the like. scaling everything up too much #so if those really do change i will be happy because they are the biggest problems ive had in terms of larger narrative #in terms of character centric stuff. well its hard to fix stuff that already got so metrically fucked #but i have faith in players to try to get their stories across how they want them #this is also silly because i genuinely have not complained that much #compared to how much i have in private chats and how much i have to say about things #because every time i give my opinion people get pissed off at me #but whatever apparently i cannot have opinions on my personal blog on tumblr dot com

[limitverge]

rebirth!

#tags contain very light spoilers!!!!! #i've been enjoying it! #currently very busy w classes and such so i haven't had much of an opportunity to progress very far #and ive only had it a handful of days but i can appreciate a lot of what theyre doing :] #of course i am .. very wary when it comes to zack's involvement specifically #i am curious to see where they take his story but i must reiterate time and time again that i. as a zack blog (lol). am very #very very very dependent on and interested in zack's death as a monolith in the narrative #and i do not think i will be changing that soon.. nor do i have much interest in aus in which he survives #(same goes for aerith) #(<- i have metas to write on that) #however.. i am still very early on in the game (still in ch2 -.-) #and i can recognize the need to justify a remake.. esp a remake of something so mythologized and important to #media and culture as the original game was..... ohhh the narrative masterpiece that 1997 is........ #so taking this “remake” in such a vastly different direction is nice! #but just to ramble a bit further .. im not a big fan of much of anything contemporary ff..... anything put out from 14-16 i just rlly #havent been able to get into personally.. the methods of story telling and the over reliance on pretty anime graphics #to cover up any weaknesses in character and scenario writing... #and i think thats where the most glaring vices in rebirth have been thus far.. other than the padding for time with fetch quests #(as was in remake) #ok ok my opinions

[texeoghea]

oh yeah btw my two new years resolutions are to start making more horny weird art, and also i think i am going to just start posting art on my main blog...? i will still REBLOG it here, and sign it as texeoghea, because thats my brand name ive had since 2016. but i envy artists that i follow who just have one blog they talk on and reblog on and also draw on. so i think ill keep this blog as an archive of art and just invite anyone who's interested in more to come check out my main blog. or stay here if youre just here for pretty things

#not art #since ive had this blog since 2016 and my oldest surviving posts are from like 2019. i dont want to give this up .! #and also i like having a different url sometimes. i havent changed my main from wa-u in a few years but i like it and how short it is #but texeoghea has been my brand since also 2016. i cannot just give that up. compromise

[todayisafridaynight]

I didn’t realize your yakuza blog and your DB blog we’re both you for so long, and when I found out I felt so dumb lmao. Like you’d think I would’ve recognized your art style considering you’re one of my faves in both fandoms but holy shit apparently I’ve got art blindness or something??? I’m so sorry snap I’ve failed you

visual representation of me on your dash under a new blog name

#snap chats #BUT REAL TALK ive been trying to veer away from my DB art style so really thank you for not recognizing me :) #i also dont blame you for not recognizing me if you've been following only my DB and RGG blogs #i did draw KH for a bit so there was a period for my art style to change more too #not by much granted LMAO but still #also i dont think my db art style was BAD per say yk its just not suited for how i wanna draw RGG #i dick around with my art style a lot too. aka I Dick Around With Lineart Quality #like for a while i was using a smooth brush but then i went back to my crunchy brush that i used fro DB stuff #lest we forget my semi-opaque brush i touch once in a year #but yeah in review its kinda. APPARENT my art's still my art #i have a bad tendency to use the same angles oopsie 💀 #listen i just like to draw things i never said i was no artist dont ask me bout rule of thirds or perspective ill throw up

[erythristicbones]

i don't feel like copying what i wrote, so take some screenshots of me having brainworms for the JDK villains again. primarily spurred by me going "hey wouldn't Nisha and Artemis and Apollo make cool rockstars instead"

#i really need to hurry up and finish organizing my writing blog so i can start posting these there instead #anyways i feel like this finally nails EXACTLY the kind of vibes that i wanted for the Acolytes and Solanace #and tbh.....even if i cant find a way to work JDK's original curse themed plot with these ideas #i feel like it would absolutely be worth changing the stories/motivations for the POV trio to fit this new set of ideas #kinda adds a lot more to the villains as a whole #and also sets it apart from a lot of my other stories that revolve around 'essentially a cult' as an opposing force #if i decide to be the most self indulgent that i possibly could be #i might even consider the idea of making it a story ABOUT Solanace and the acolytes in the POV sense #theyd still obviously be villains but the protags of the story instead of the antags #at which point jonas/lydia/hayes would have to be majorly reworked to then fit into the antagonist roles #could also theoretically work with the idea of jonas AND nisha being POVs #so the reader would be getting insight to the good guys and the villains at the same time #JDK(which STILL needs a better placeholder title) really is a story that ive had to majorly change multiple times #most of my stories i have the general idea + genre settled before anything else #but this one is more character driven #i have two groups of OCs ive thought about in depth and i just havent been able to build the story around them in the right way yet #i think once i can Actually get my brain focused long enough to draw #i wanna doodle more rockstar inspired designs/themes for nisha/artie/apollo #see if the idea continues to tickle the brainworms in such a great way + then have time to make polished refs b4 artfight #bc i really love my overdramatic artsy villains okay. i think they deserve to be extra as fuck ya know? #who doesnt love a villain whose primary goal is to put on a show and THEN to do the evil things?