#but really appreciates the effort

[delicourse]

been watching dungeon meshi...🌱

#marcille donato #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dunmeshi #girl i dont know what tags are right. #deliart #normally i stay away from the fantasy medieval rpg etc aesthetic but this anime is nice so far ! felt a little refreshing. #i appreciate the textured linework in the anime. although as someone who also does that. i really felt the slight bleed on the colors #in some spots. i wanted to get in there to fix it soo bad in the beginning #textured linework requires a lot of effort to look clean.....but it looks lovely. seems difficult if u gotta color a whole animation #id do neat linework for this but i am base sketch pen for linework pilled rn. post more work less #got more serious wips currently but those are all on the backburner<3 sorrie.....

[inkskinned]

crows use tools and like to slide down snowy hills. today we saw a goose with a hurt foot who was kept safe by his flock - before taking off, they waited for him to catch up. there are colors only butterflies see. reindeer are matriarchical. cows have best friends and 4 stomachs and like jazz music. i watched a video recently of an octopus making himself a door out of a coconut shell.

i am a little soft, okay. but sometimes i can't talk either. the world is like fractal light to me, and passes through my skin in tendrils. i feel certain small things like a catapult; i skirt around the big things and somehow arrive in crisis without ever realizing i'm in pain.

in 5th grade we read The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Night-time, which is about a young autistic boy. it is how they introduced us to empathy about neurotypes, which was well-timed: around 10 years old was when i started having my life fully ruined by symptoms. people started noticing.

i wonder if birds can tell if another bird is odd. like the phrase odd duck. i have to believe that all odd ducks are still very much loved by the other normal ducks. i have to believe that, or i will cry.

i remember my 5th grade teacher holding the curious incident up, dazzled by the language written by someone who is neurotypical. my teacher said: "sometimes i want to cut open their mind to know exactly how autistics are thinking. it's just so different! they must see the world so strangely!" later, at 22, in my education classes, we were taught to say a person with autism or a person on the spectrum or neurodivergent. i actually personally kind of like person-first language - it implies the other person is trying to protect me from myself. i know they had to teach themselves that pattern of speech, is all, and it shows they're at least trying. and i was a person first, even if i wasn't good at it.

plants learn information. they must encode data somehow, but where would they store it? when you cut open a sapling, you cannot find the how they think - if they "think" at all. they learn, but do not think. i want to paint that process - i think it would be mostly purple and blue.

the book was not about me, it was about a young boy. his life was patterned into a different set of categories. he did not cry about the tag on his shirt. i remember reading it and saying to myself: i am wrong, and broken, but it isn't in this way. something else is wrong with me instead. later, in that same person-first education class, my teacher would bring up the curious incident and mention that it is now widely panned as being inaccurate and stereotypical. she frowned and said we might not know how a person with autism thinks, but it is unlikely to be expressed in that way. this book was written with the best intentions by a special-ed teacher, but there's some debate as to if somebody who was on the spectrum would be even able to write something like this.

we might not understand it, but crows and ravens have developed their own language. this is also true of whales, dolphins, and many other species. i do not know how a crow thinks, but we do know they can problem solve. (is "thinking" equal to "problem solving"? or is "thinking" data processing? data management?) i do not know how my dog thinks, either, but we "talk" all the same - i know what he is asking for, even if he only asks once.

i am not a dolphin or reindeer or a dog in the nighttime, but i am an odd duck. in the ugly duckling, she grows up and comes home and is beautiful and finds her soulmate. all that ugliness she experienced lives in downy feathers inside of her, staining everything a muted grey. she is beautiful eventually, though, so she is loved. they do not want to cut her open to see how she thinks.

a while ago i got into an argument with a classmate about that weird sia music video about autism. my classmate said she thought it was good to raise awareness. i told her they should have just hired someone else to do it. she said it's not fair to an autistic person to expect them to be able to handle that kind of a thing.

today i saw a goose, and he was limping. i want to be loved like a flock loves a wounded creature: the phrase taken under a wing. which is to say i have always known i am not normal. desperate, mewling - i want to be loved beyond words.

loved beyond thinking.

#spilled ink #writeblr #personal #please don't ask me to talk on my experience on the spectrum lol. i hate how ppl talk to me about it #i really try not to write so specifically about it #bc inevitably someone talks to me like im a child #i think this is the first time i've ever openly identified with it but i've been hinting for years #i might delete this. feels big. #the thing is that being on the spectrum actually IS a spectrum #and if u say ur autistic #inevitably someone makes an assumption about ur needs/symptoms #please do not treat me differently than u usually would. like.... we can tell when you do #and like i mention. i do appreciate the effort. i do truly appreciate the effort. #but it still feels like... #when i was blind. sometimes people kind of did the same-ish thing. #they'd find out i was blind and start talking really loudly? #and while i KNOW they're just trying to help. it would be like. i'd be trying to find #the right way into a building (sometimes only 1 door is unlocked and i couldn't see the signs posted about where to go) #and ppl would be like ''OH UR BLIND? YES SO THIS IS A DOOR. IT OPENS INTO THE BUILDING. IT IS LOCKED NOW." #''A DOOR CAN BE FOUND IN MANY LOCATIONS.'' #and it feels like. when i admit to being autistic #someone comes screeching into my life being like THIS IS A DOOR.

[mintywolf]

#critical role #cr spoilers #critical role fanart #imogen temult #laudna #pate de rolo #fearne is here too #southerngothic #imodna #imogen x laudna #bells hells #cr c3e73 #i really appreciate the effort bh put into making sure each of them has safe and comfortable naps #a thing i drew #mintywolf

[holmesandbees]

Can we all say thank you to Granada Holmes for showing Holmes and Watson reacting this way to a blackmailer bringing up how he destroyed a gay man’s life?

#the rage here? damn #I really appreciate that they made the effort to include that #because this sort of reaction would not be common at all #maybe people would feel sympathy for his wife and go #“oh that’s too bad #but this kind of kindness towards a gay victim is really extraordinary for a piece set in Victorian England #and also Milverton’s reaction to their reaction! #he seems interested by the fact that he’s hit their weak spot and even calls out holmes for being irrational and emotional about it #granada holmes #johnlock #jeremy brett #john watson #granada johnlock #the master blackmailer #happy pride #my post

[okkennymay]

Ghost King! Danny for @jaxinkh

God I just had so much fun painting this one, my bOI, MY ANGSTY SON

Heavy is the head that wears the crown

#Danny Phantom #Ghost king danny #ghost king!danny #commission #pretty and painted commission #bust commission #okkennymay #jaxinkh #I was really struggling with the aurora borialis #but Jaxinkh helped me out with that- what an absolute sweetheart #I always really appreciate when my commissioners go through the effort of sketching or drawing their ideas to clarify them for me <3

[biblically-accurate-dca]

au where moon fills in while sun is "on vacation" and nothing bad happens

#my art #daycare attendant #dca fandom #moondrop #not tagging anyone else bc its not abt them #however..... nessa is also here :) #i sorta debated on if i should post this or not but i put too much effort into that image id to not post it now #more likely than not you wont really hear about this au again HDJSJGJSJFA since idk how to write and i draw very slowly #but ummm just imagine it in your head ^_^ or dont ._. #most of these r just silly doodles anyway #also SURPRISE!!! my last art post was actually just a PART OF THIS SKETCH PAGE ALL ALONGGG #btw ty everyone for leaving such nice comments on that post :] i rlly do appreciate them a lot.... #i hope this post is just as good even if there's not as much leniency in it's meaning #and i hope this au actually does sound somewhat cool??? and that its not too unoriginal?????? #there's not really much of a story being told here but HFJSJGJ... you get the themes. im sure you do #im gonna go to bed now LMAO

[mortysmith]

while we're on the subject of "morty-prime teamup" what if there was another two crows situation

#rick and morty #prosh/p dni #morty smith #rick sanchez #this is based on the scene at the end of the 2 crows ep #but ummm i think rick would be much more irritable? #like morty very passively just accepted the situation but i feel like rick would start to double down and kind of revert back to his more- #'iconic' personality of just you know. being awful #like obviously he understands morty is justified and i think on some level even agrees with him #but guys. He is so codependent and So shitty. like he cannot express these feelings properly #and like. Improving as a person isnt a linear process Like i appreciate rick making an effort to be better #but just... Getting Better right away is not how it works really #like idk. if rick starts feeling desperate i dont think its unrealistic to imagine he unconsciously starts behaving 'in his comfrot zone' #he starts throwing insults and telling morty hes stupid. generally trying to kick down his sense of self esteem #BECAUSE HE GENUINELY IS SCARED OF BEING ALONE #or like. Not having control over being alone you know

[neoendydy]

obt in warring states era

obito enjoys telling weird stories and scaring kids too much, izuna's justifiably mad at him

#obito uchiha #madara uchiha #izuna uchiha #nrt #obt time travel au #we must appreciate the effort he would put in to find nail polish in that ancient era #i really like Obito's slightly grown out hair #second best look after long madaresque haircut

[canisalbus]

Hi hello, I was struggling with my Spooktober challenge, but wanted to draw something today, so I ended up with this:

He is Very Shape, so I had to lmao (I don't draw animals much, so it was a bit tricky, but hope it came out okay!)

Also, terkkuja toiselta suomalaiselta, meikäläisiin törmää niin harvoin :D

.

#oh no the boy #he looks like his soul is about to leave his body #what goes on behind those saucer eyes I wonder #the horrors it's gotta be the horrors #the shading and lighting are absolutely delicious! #so many good hues and shades #the orange purple and magenta #I use cool colors so rarely (practically never) so it's straight up ~weird~ seeing Machete with a blue color palette #but it works it makes him look even more out of sorts than average #I'm liking all the sharp angles on his ears #oh and the lone strand of fur between them! I draw that too! #I find it terribly flattering when I get gift art from people who say they don't draw furries/animals very often #because if they're willing to venture outside their comfort zone like that it must mean they really truly like the character #I only draw human characters under extreme and unusual circumstances I know how daunting it can be #to switch from a familiar subject to a more foreign one like that #so I see the effort you put into the piece and I appreciate it! #gift art #lumilasi #own characters #Machete #kanssasuomalainen! virtuaalinen yläfemma o/

[keiksy-cake]

Hetalia Collezione: America's pg 2

Tl;Dr: use this link for all my collezione tls so far!

Hi everyone, I've been thinking to upload my collezione tls to MangaDex (I've already uploaded "chapter 0"!) As you know, a lot of my early work is a bit unreliable, and most of my work is generally inconsistent haha. So because I wanna make sure my stuff is good quality before it gets auto reposted elsewhere out of my control, I hope to re-do a lot of said early work to improve, correct, and standardize everything as best I can. I've already done a few pages, and thank God I saved the vast majority of my cleans too haha. It also means I wanna try to finish the missing pages in order so I can upload chapters as a whole, hence why I finally have America's second page. (I'll still also work on the poll thing tho!)

I've also been meaning to have all my collezione tls available in one place, and bc I was unable to edit my previous post that I said would have "all" the tls far, and bc tumblr just recently made it impossible to upload more than 30 or smth pgs at once (I used a loophole before haha); I decided to make a google doc! You can add it to your drive, dl it as a pdf, make a copy, idc; but the link should be available to everyone and I'll be able to edit it in the future with new tled pgs and new version pgs! It's ofc in the link above, PLEASE lmk if it doesn't work for you! The first page btw is just a long disclaimer bc I always write too much haha.

#hetalia #aph hetalia #hetalia collezione #aph america #I'm still busy af tho I really should focus on my hw that's been piling up but I spent the whole day organizing all of this haha #but anyway idk how long this'll all take me hopefully I can at least upload the whole of chapter 1 soon... #half the day went into just this one page please appreciate how much effort I put into cleaning #even though you can barely tell bc of how it always just gets covered up by text anyway...

[dirty-bear-rick-sanchez]

Can we all appreciate Ian Cardoni's voice acting in the new cold open? It's very impressive how he can do not only Rick's but also Jerry's speech patterns so well and convincingly, especially after having such a short time to re-record all the voice lines. He sounds exactly like Jerry's manner of speech while still doing Rick's voice, which is a famously difficult thing to do anyway, but even more so considering that he hasn't worked closely with Chris Parnell to get his Jerry impression down?

#rick and morty #rick and morty spoilers #rnm #rnm spoilers #the jerrick trap #rick sanchez #jerry smith #ian cardoni #i think it shows a lot of talent and i'm very impressed #also i want to make the effort to point these things out since i know there's bound to be a load of shit from jr stans #so i think it's extra important to show that appreciation #and it's really cool that he has that understanding of other characters in the show and not just his own? #i really appreciate how the current team are passionate about the show and that the recasting reflects that #it's really cool to have people working on something that they love and care about

[sensitiveheartless]

Saw your 'The Horrors' comic and 1. Absolutely loved it, and 2. I love love LOVE the progression of Dazai's fears and his reactions to it. There's the immediate fear of Chuuya dying, and his response is to go numb and emotionless. In RESPONSE to that reaction, the mirror switches to copying that apathetic state he was in his mafia days, and he snaps back to being emotional and keeping his priorities to 'keep Chuuya safe' to distract himself, which is what he does in the ADA now and critically, what Oda wanted for him. So of course, it latches on to THAT fear, and without the cold, analytical side of him on the front, it completely catches him off-guard. The build-up and progression is SO good and my God you're amazing.

!! Yessss oh my gosh I'm so happy you noticed all that!! I spent a lot of time thinking through the different shifts of form it takes — and how because the only thing the mirror-ability can do is reflect, Dazai initially thinks he can beat it by remaining unemotional. The problem is, the mirror-ability can reflect the darkest part of any side that Dazai shows it, including that lack of emotion, so he can't beat it at all. I thought that would be a really messed up antagonist for him to face :0

Also, another backstory tidbit because this made me think of it, is that whenever no one is looking at the mirror it starts borrowing elements of forms that have scared people in the past, which leads to it becoming big and fucked-up looking. This is because in the past, one of the people that it reflected was afraid of the mirror gaining a memory and intent. So the mirror now intentionally hunts people, and tries to scare them into looking at it with ominous noises and such. But yeah, that's why it takes on these forms when nobody is watching!

I just love the idea of a monster that essentially weaponizes the fear of the unknown. It's that whole concept of "not seeing the monster is worse because the real monster can never be as scary as what you imagine it to be", except in this case it can genuinely be as bad as anyone imagines, and if they think of a way to make it worse, the monster will immediately get worse. A complete runaway affect as people get more and more scared of it.

Anyway, this ask made me super happy, I'm really glad the motivations behind the shapeshifting came across, as well as the shifts in Dazai's mentality!! Thank you so much for this ask, it made my day :D

#related: I need to check my inbox more often because I keep not getting notifications for new asks aksdjfksdjf #oh tumblr. truly a cursed website #but yeah I had waaay too much fun with this ability creature aksdjfksjf :D #and seeing people enjoy the comic makes the effort really feel worth it! so thank you again #I appreciate everyone who commented on the comic so much ;; #ask box #the horrors comic

[gotchibam]

Dragonite ko-fi doodle for RayStarKitty!

#artists on tumblr #pokemon #dragonite #gotchibam arts #tysm for the tip & being patient w/ me!! 🙏🙏🙏 #btw ko-fi reqs are still closed since I still have a lot in my queue #tbh I feel so bad for taking so long w/ the doodles ;_; #I know I keep calling them doodles but some of them actually take some effort to finish #esp. since I tend to be a perfectionist so like.... if a detail bothers me i'll keep trying to fix it #even if it looks good enough wkjsdhfjhsdf #also I feel like my executive dysfunction has been getting worse so i'm having trouble finishing stuff ;_; #but ppl have been very understanding so far so I really appreciate that ;w;

[wimbledon2008]

many books may try to be captive prince but there's only one c.s. pacat

#often imitated but NEVER duplicated #finished a truly abominable capri ripoff last night that i forced myself to read because i paid $6 for it on amazon dot fart noise dot com #the plot was deranged but promising and there were moments of intelligence but it was so poorly written i wanted to off myself #in the hands of a better writer (c.s. pacat) it really could've been something #alas #reading bad fantasy or romance or m/m will only make you appreciate the brilliance and talent and EFFORT of good authors even more #cat you will A L W A Y S be famous #this is why i should only take goodreads recs from kj charles #captive prince #c.s. pacat

[stuckinapril]

One of my personal goals at the moment is not to box myself in when it comes to fashion. Fashion is important to me bc I was raised by a mother who refused to leave the house unless she looked the most elegant and classy she possibly could, and bc of her I also developed a taste for that kind of vibe. But I also feel like I play it safe most times and just want to experiment w things every now and then I think

#LIKE. i was into the 90s clean girl aesthetic before it became cool #and I’ll probably always default to the model off duty / basics / simple / classy & elegant vibe #this is my mom’s influence and I will never not love it #but I also really feel like experimenting w color and styles every now and then just for fun #no one will replace audrey hepburn / lily rose depp / princess di etc etc as my main style inspos #but!!! more experimentation. more fun. more color. more playfulness. i think that would be good for me at my age #it’s also what I appreciate abt gen z — I think one of the things I luv is how fashion is so central to us / our self-expression #and I want in on that #not even in an effort to overhaul my daily style or anything. genuinely just experimenting bc why tf not. #it’s why I’ve been trying to gravitate to fun and flirty and playful campaigns more and more even if it’s out of my comfort zone #simple is good. simple is my favorite. but I want to be more curious in general #p

[ir0n-moon]

Underrated s1 line is when the guys are brainstorming what to get for Murderface's birthday and once Skwisgaar names like two or three suggestions there's about two seconds of complete silence from the others so he just deadpans "f🎸cks you"

#he was really putting some thought into it and no one appreciated his efforts 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #metalocalypse #skwisgaar skwigelf #happy dethday #birthdayface #dethklok #herrera.txt