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taetaesbaebaepsae · 5 years

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BTS When Crush Asks Them to Give Them a Hickey Part Deux

Summary: just remember, y'all asked for this

Warnings: angst, salty boys, reader in all of these is mad stupid

Word Count: 2125

Jungkook

Jungkook knew the second he walked in with his arm around your waist, trying to look casual when his skin was on fire, that this would not be a good night.

Things just got worse when it turned out your ex was there alone and glaring him over his red Solo cup.

To your credit, you tried to include him in every conversation and when people asked about the bruise on throat you were sufficiently coy enough that Jungkook didn't have to say much about it.

Which was good, because he's not sure if he can string two coherent sentences together when you're dressed to the nines in a black miniskirt and a white top, unbuttoned just enough to show off the mark he'd made and the swell of your cleavage.

It wasn't as if he hadn't noticed how attractive you were, he was a young hot blooded male, after all, and maybe once in a while you'd smile at him and he'd forget what he was saying, but it wasn't until he pressed his mouth to your throat and you all but arched up underneath him that he realized he was in this much trouble.

As you drink and Jungkook nurses his one beer, you get all handsy, placing your hands on his chest as you stood talking to him in the kitchen, squeezing his thigh to get his attention while he sat next to you on the couch.

When you're trying to pull him off the couch for another drink, which he doesn't think you need, he tugs too hard trying to get you to sit down and you stumble backwards into his lap.

Instead of scrambling off him you wrap your hands around his neck and laugh and as your head is tilted up his eyes are on your throat and he finds himself wanting to mark you again.

When he's wondering how red his face is, your ex stalks into the room and demands to talk to you. Jungkook's arms tighten around your waist instinctively but you tap his forearm.

"It's okay, Kook. I'll be back in a minute."

He lets loose reluctantly and watches you follow your ex into a nearby bedroom.

He tries to talk to the other party goers for a few moments but he can't think of anything else, just imagining you crying and heartbroken while your ex stood over you, yelling.

It was about half an hour before he finally had enough and banged on the door before swinging it open.

He finds your ex bending you back in his arms, mouth latched onto your throat as if he wanted to add his own mark.

Jungkook doesn't even think, just a red haze filming his vision. He pushes your ex off of you, hard, and you scream in surprise.

He takes your hand and pulls you toward the door and he doesn't even realize you're trying to pull away until there's a whole scene being made.

"What the fuck are you doing, Jeon Jungkook? I'm a grown woman, you know, I can make my own decisions-"

"Yeah, your own dumbass decisions! Don't you remember what he did? How that made you feel?"

You cross your hands over your chest and avert your eyes from his. "People change," you mumble.

Jungkook sets his jaw, working his tongue against his inner cheek and you know that tic, he's angry.

"Yeah, okay," he says slowly, evenly. "I'm glad this all worked out for you, Y/n. Super happy I could be of service. How about next time you use makeup instead of using me, huh?"

He leaves, slamming the door behind him, and you're trying not to cry when you get a text from him.

Call me if you need a ride home, yeah?

Somehow that's what makes the tears come, not that he was angry with you but that he still offered a ride if you changed your mind, and instead of spending the night with your ex you spend it in your friend's bed, crying and hiccuping as she rubs your back.

Jimin

Jimin is a really, really good actor.

He's playing the part of the smitten new love perfectly, all heart eyes and soft touches, toying strands of your hair through his fingers as you talked, slipping his arms around your waist from behind when you were getting drinks in the kitchen.

When your crush mentioned how pretty you looked, you were all blushes and smiles but Jimin just looked at him, smirking.

"Doesn't she look ravishing?" He said, and pulled you into his arms, making you giggle as he kissed and nibbled at your throat until you pushed him away.

Your crush mumbled something and left the room, and Jimin still has his face pressed against your neck when you whisper, "Jiminie, it's working!"

He pulls back to look at you fondly. "What's working? Oh. Yeah. Of course, didn't I tell you it would?"

He releases you and runs his hands through his hair, tucking his bottom lip between his teeth.

His vibe changes then, just subtly enough for your crush to notice and although Jimin sticks to your side like glue, he isn't as vocal or touchy.

You're gonna have to reward him because this is perfect. Your crush is staring at you from across the room and sliding in close to you when you're standing at the kitchen counter. Jimin's backed off just enough to allow your crush an in, and everything is going to plan.

Jimin even acts the part of a salty party date, all nervous energy, huffing when your crush brushes your hair back from your face and glaring at the two of you.

When your crush leans in close to whisper something in your ear over the music, Jimin grabs your hang and tugs you toward the door.

When you turn to him, he looks sulky.

"Y/n, this is stupid. Let's go."

You look around and then smile at him. "This is perfect. You're a genius."

He huffs and shakes his head. "No, you don't understand-"

"WELL ANYWAY you can go if you want!" You say, extra loud, and slip Jimin a wink.

Jimin runs his hand through his hair again and he looks defeated.

You make a note to tell him he should've been in drama club instead of the dance team in high school.

"Will you be okay here alone?" He asks under his breath.

Before you can nod, your crush is pulling at your arm.

"Y/n, can we talk?"

You look back at Jimin, excited.

Jimin looks at you for a moment, hair disheveled, eyes looking almost wet. Then he grits his teeth and turns his head. "Ok then. Will you call in the morning?"

You tell your crush to give you a moment and you walk outside with Jimin.

He has his hands in his pockets when you hug him and he doesn't hug you back.

"Don't worry, Jiminie, you did great! I'll be fine and I'll text you the details in the morning."

He doesn't respond, just looking at you from under his eyelashes.

Just as you're about to turn to go back to the party, he touches your face with one hand, leaning down to plant a kiss right below your ear, and turns to go without another word.

You stand there for a moment, feeling shaken, before heading back inside.

Taehyung (V)

Taehyung has a tendency to get hype at parties, but tonight, he’s not drinking much, not talking much, just sticking to you like glue.

You have to admit that it’s a good tactic. You note that your crush is looking at you more and more as you talk and laugh with Taehyung, and so you get a little more handsy.

You note your crush talking to someone in the kitchen when you get back from the bathroom. Taehyung is standing leaned up against the sink and you duck your head and slide up underneath his arm, tucking your head against his shoulder.

When you find yourself shaken by the bright smile he gives you when he looks down at you, you chalk it up to his usual charm.

Anyone would be shaken by Taehyung’s looks, you tell yourself.

When he slides his hand under the hem of your shirt to usher you into the living room, his hand warm against your lower back, you will yourself not to shiver and focus on your crush, who’s watching you both all night.

Taehyung is all smiles, polite to everyone as usual, but when your crush comes up to you and says hello for the first time that night, Taehyung’s face goes serious and he slides his arm around your waist to pull you close.

“You look beautiful, Y/n,” he says, looking at you intently.

Taehyung looked down at you expectantly, as if to say “aren’t you going to introduce me?”

You did, and it felt strangely awkward. “Yeah, so...this is...Taehyung.”

Taehyung frowned at you a little. “Her date,” he added, voice low and deep, fingers digging into your hip as he pulled you even closer.

You managed a weak smile at your crush, who nodded.

“Lucky guy,” he said, staring at you as he shook Taehyung’s hand.

Taehyung looked down at you and his eyes were so soft it kinda made your heart hurt. “I am,” he says softly, and doesn’t turn his eyes away from you again, even when you pull away to go toward the living room to mingle.

Your friends comment on how you’re the belle of the party, how Taehyung and your crush’s eyes are both following you, and you can’t help but preen a little even though you know Taehyung is just acting.

Your friends have always swooned over him, but he’d never shown interest in anyone much, and you weren’t sure why.

You’d have them comment on how he was your personal hype man, always making you feel better about this or that, but they didn’t understand that was just who Tae was, he was a sweetheart.

You do notice Taehyung’s mood darken a little when you end up talking to your crush excitedly about something you’d read about in an article, and you figure he’s feeling neglected since he doesn’t know anyone at the party.

You try to pull him into the conversation but he’s quiet and almost sulky. Since he’s being stubborn you just keep talking to your crush.

Eventually Taehyung retreats to the corner of the room, sitting on the couch, legs spread wide, and you see a group of girls staring wide eyed at him and smile to yourself.

You get engrossed in conversation and your crush’s big blue eyes and eventually you hear your phone ding. You look quizzically at Taehyung when you see it’s from him, and he just raises his chin at you.

I don’t want to do this anymore

You are trying to text back when your phone dings again. You ignore it for a moment until it dings again, and when you shoot a glance at Taehyung he’s not sitting there any more.

I’m leaving. Have fun

You excuse yourself and head out the door to the hallway, and when you spot him,he’s headed toward the elevator.

“Kim Taehyung, where do you think you’re going?”

“Home,” he says in a huff, not looking at you.

You touch his shoulder. “Come on, Taehyung, I know it’s hard to pretend you like me but-”

You’re teasing but his eyes shoot to yours and he almost looks angry. In all the time you’ve known him you can count on one hand how many times he’s actually gotten mad, and you’re a little concerned.

“Is something wrong?”

He exhales a deep breath and his tongue comes out to wet his lips. “So this is working? For you?”

You cock your head. “I mean, yeah, it’s working, he’s kinda all over me.”

He nods slowly, glancing down at the ground.

“Good.”

“Hey,” you take his hand and he looks down at your entwined fingers and then up at you face. “I know you don’t like lying. I really appreciate this, Tae.”

He nods again, giving you a sweet half smile. All of a sudden, he pulls you into his arms, tight, and your heart races a little.

You feel his breath on your ear. “I hope you get what you want,” he says, and you guess he is tired because his voice is low and a little hoarse.

“Somebody should,” he mumbles as he releases you, and without another word he steps into the elevator, throwing up a small wave.

You stand there confused for a moment, heart still racing, before your crush pops his head out and calls you back inside.

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always-fall-for-fanfic · 6 years

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Alternate Ending - It short #5

****So, I have an entire google doc full of It imagines that I wrote but a lot of them just consist of me shipping the characters and them falling in love, however, this is one of the ones I’m the most proud of. It’s dumb and obviously there would be no story if Georgie had lived but I wanted to explore that side of the story (I only know the 2017 movie version SUPER well) Anyways, I’m really proud of how this short turned out and that’s why I’m skipping straight to it.*****

No one expected it. But the one that least expected it was Georgie Denbrough. He thought for sure he was done for. It had already been who knows how long. He’d lost an arm and was trapped down in the sewers somewhere. He’d found a hiding spot where it had seemed like the clown couldn’t find him but how could he know when he hadn’t even seen it in a few days? “BILL!” someone yelled. Georgie gasped and looked up clutching his arm stub. He wanted it to be real, but he wasn’t even sure what real was anymore. “BILL!” The voices screeched again. Georgie took a deep breath, grabbed the small paper boat he had finally gotten back from the clown and poked his head out from his secret hiding spot in the tower of junk. What he saw though surprised him. He saw himself standing in the corner, slowly walking forward. Talking to something or someone. “What took you so long Billy?” The not Georgie said, in a very convincing Georgie voice. Georgie stood halfway in his hiding spot, clutching tight to his boat trying to not to make a sound. But he couldn’t stop the small gasp from escaping when he heard the next voice reply. “I-I’ve been looking for you this whole time.” Georgie knew that voice. He would know that voice anywhere. His brother was here. He really was here. He came to save him! Only he wasn’t the one talking to him. He had to change that. He ran out of his hiding spot and right past the not Georgie straight into Bill, who fell to the ground from the sudden impact. “Billy!” He exclaimed. Bill looked back and forth between the two Georgie’s confused. “G-G-Georgie?” He asked. “You found me! I knew you would!” Georgie exclaimed, happy tears running down his face, wrapping his arm around his brother and hiding his face in his shirt. “Billy- HOLY FUCK!” Richie yelled as he and the others ran up to them. A low growl came from the not Georgie. “Wait, how are there two?” Eddie asked, looking back and forth. “Hehohuhahah!” the laughter echoed off the walls and suddenly where the not Georgie had been standing now stood the clown. Georgie whimpered and clutched onto his brother more. Bill wrapped a protective arm around Georgie but never let his eyes leave the clown. “Ahh, do you smell that? That fear?!?! It’s so strong from him alone...I wonder how I didn’t find him sooner.” The clown laughed. Bill shook his head and struggled to his feet, without letting go of his brother. He wasn’t going to lose him, not again. Not if he was there to protect him.

“Y-y-y-you leave him al-alone.” He stuttered. “Oh, what are you going to do if I don’t?” The clown grinned, showing Bill and the others his rows and rows of teeth. Billy guided Georgie to stand behind him. “I-I-” “We’ll just have to kill you.” Stan, of all people, said stepping forward. Bill glanced back at his friend. Stan offered Billy his hand. “Together right?” He asked. Bill bit his lip and nodded before shaking Stan’s hand. However, neither let go after shaking hands.

“Kill me? How are you going to do that?” It asked. “H-however we n-n-need too.” Bill said. The clown growled and lurched forward grabbing Bill and yanking him back away from both Stan and Georgie. “BILLY!” Georgie sobbed. “Bill!” The others yelled.

The clown was crouched close to the ground and now he held Bill Denbrough in his hands. Billy struggled to pull the hands away or to even breathe as his airway was more or less being cut off. “Let him go.” Bev demanded, stepping up next to Stan. “No! I'll take him, I'll take ALL of YoU and I'll feast on your flesh as I feed on your fear.... OOOORORRRr you'll just leave us be. I'll take him, only him and then I will have my LONG rest and you will all live to grow and thrive and lead hAPPPPY lives until old age takes you back to the weeds.” The clown continued, rubbing his hand over Bill’s face in all directions. Billy struggled, he pulled at the clown’s wrists and he turned his head from side to side. It was useless. He knew what he had to do. “GO.” He blurted. “Bill-” “No. I’m the one who d-dragged you all into this. I’m so s-s-s-sorry.” Bill sobbed. The clown laughed but readjusted the boy in his arms. Bill took that little opportunity to take a fresh gasp of air. “S-s-sorry” The clown mocked him. Bill gasped for air again. “Leave. Don’t let it trick you. T-t-take Geor-Georgie home. K-keep him safe for me.” Bill continued. “No! Billy, you can’t!” Georgie cried. Eddie stepped forward and knelt next to Georgie wrapping his arms around the tiny boy to keep him from running to Bill. “OH, but he can.�� The clown continued. “He’s smart. But ya know Georgie, you could stay too. You could float together.” “Please. Just let him go.” Georgie whispered, ignoring what the clown even said. The clown shook his head and went to say something else when Richie came up and smacked it in the head with a baseball bat he found in the pile of rubbish. It was so random that it took the clown by surprise, the older kids were too shocked to say anything but Georgie just laughed. Pennywise released Bill, shoving him sideways and scrambled back from Richie and the bat, still very confused. Billy coughed and struggled to catch his breath. “BILLY!” Georgie screamed, pulling away from Eddie and running towards his older brother. He reached him and used his hand to push Bill’s hair out of his face. “Are you okay?” He asked. Bill nodded. “Bill! Look out!” Mike called. Bill glanced over his shoulder and noticed a bunch of metal pipes flying through the air towards the two of them. Billy jumped up and tackled his brother rolling with him out of the way. Clutching onto him as tightly as possible. The two Denbrough brothers rolled to a stop. “You alright?” Bill asked. Georgie nodded and just gripped Bill’s shirt with his hand afraid to let him go. Bill knew he didn’t have much time but he allowed himself a moment to squeeze the little boy as tight as possible. He had been right all along. His brother was still alive. He could come home. After they kill the clown. “HEY! LET HIM GO!” Eddie screamed. Bill released his grip on his brother and risked a glance over his shoulder. Pennywise was getting smacked around quite well but at the moment he had Ben stuck, wrapped up in a gauze sort of substance. It was coming out of his mouth and wrapping around Ben, plus from where Bill was it looked like Ben’s hand was inside the clown’s stomach. Billy jumped to his feet, pulling his brother to his feet. “Don’t move.” Billy said, to him. Before he ran towards the clown and Ben, grabbing a chain and swinging it like a lasso smacking the clown and breaking the gauze. The clown screeched and kept changing into the others fears. Georgie stood off to the side, where Bill had told him to stay watching as his older brother and his friends beat up this ever changing monstrosity. Until finally, the clown was cornered. “That’s why you didn’t kill Beverly. Because she wasn’t afraid. None of us are. Now you’re the ones who’s afraid.” Bill said. The clown gurgled and did a backflip into the deep well behind him. He said something Georgie couldn’t hear before he let go and disappeared. “Is e-e-everyone okay?” Bill asked, dropping the metal pipe Stan had handed him. His friends all looked at him, and then around at each other. They were all soaked in grey water, Eddie had black goop all over him, Stan had blood dripping down the sides of his face. “Better now that it’s gone.” Beverly said, running her hands through her short hair. Billy turned to her and hugged her. “I’m gl-glad you’re alright.” He whispered to her. She hugged him back then pushed him away and gestured with her head in the direction of Georgie. The grin that crossed Bill’s face made every single of them realize that the only reason Georgie really was still alive was because Bill had convinced them to find him. That he was still out there somewhere. Bill started crying, happy tears as he remembered his brother was here before he turned and ran back over to Georgie. He wrapped him in yet another hug. Georgie giggled and hugged him back as best he could. “Okay, okay! Don’t squish me!” Georgie said. Billy pulled back and looked him in the eye. “I will squish you as much as I want. Y-you’re alive!” He exclaimed. Georgie just grinned and used his small fingers to wipe away Billy’s tears. “Yep. But can we leave? I don’t think I like the sewers very much.” Bill grinned and ruffled his brothers hair. “S-s-sure thing. But I want you to meet some people first okay?” “Okay!” Georgie exclaimed, back to his bubbly self.

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Billy and Georgie stood outside their house, hand in hand “You ready?” Bill asked, squeezing his brothers hand. Georgie shook his head. “No. I’m scared. What if they don’t think it’s me? What if they don’t want me anymore-” “S-s-stop right there.” Bill turned and knelt down in front of George. “They have barely paid any attention to me because they’ve missed you so much. I p-p-p-promise they’ll be h-h-happy you’re h-home. I kno-know I am.” Georgie grinned and took a deep breath. “Okay. I’m ready.” He said. Bill grinned and stood up. Taking his brothers tiny hand one more time before leading him inside. “M-m-mom! D-Dad!” Bill called. “In the kitchen, Bill. What is it?” Zack Denbrough called back. Bill took a deep breath and squeezed Georgie’s hand. “Come on.” Bill told him to wait right inside the hallway, and he went in the kitchen. “D-Dad. Mom. I found Georgie.” He said again. Zack looked up from his paper angrily and Sharon turned away from the sink holding a glass plate. “Where have you been? You’re filthy!” Sharon exclaimed. Both of his parents not so obviously avoided the fact that Bill had brought up his brother.

“Th-that’s not imp-p-p-portant. I f-found him.” “No. We’ve been over this Bill, thousands of times. He’s gone!” Zack yelled jumping to his feet and throwing his paper at the ground. Bill clenched his fists and took a deep breath. “H-he. He’s not g-go-gone! I f-f-fou-” “No! That is enough! You just won’t learn will you?” “Ju-just listen to-to me for a s-s-s-s-second!” Bill demanded, but he never got to say what he was going to say before Zack’s hand smacked across his face. “ZACK!” Sharon gasped as Billy clutched his face, and fell to his knees. “BILLY!” Georgie screamed, and ran in the room not being able to wait any longer. He reached his brother’s side and knelt next him then turned to his parents. Now it was Zack Denbrough’s turn to gasp. The plate slipped from Sharon’s hands and hit the ground, shattering into a million pieces. “Why would you do that?” George demanded. “Geor-Georgie?” Sharon whispered, one hand covering her mouth and the other over her heart. Zack just stared at the younger of the two boys in shock. “Are you okay?” Georgie asked, ignoring his mother and turning back to Bill. Bill just nodded. “Y-yeah. I’m f-fine, that was n-nothing after fighting a clown.” Bill said. Georgie giggled. “A clown? What clown?” Zack demanded. “Just the one that bit my arm off.” Georgie snickered. Bill cracked a small smile. He knew his parents wouldn’t believe them about the clown but they knew the truth and that was what really mattered. “Your arm?” Sharon asked, as she finally noticed her baby only had one arm and a stub. “Oh, sweetheart. What happened to you?” She gasped, stepping around the broken plate and gingerly kneeling in front of her boys. Georgie glanced at Bill. He wasn’t stupid, he knew his mother wouldn’t believe him if he told her the truth. “I fell in the sewer. I ended up in a scary place.” “The b-ba-barrens. Like I t-tr-tried to tell you earlier this s-s-s-s...summer.” Bill stuttered, glaring up at his father. Who was still gaping in utter surprise. “You went down there and searched after we told you not too?” Sharon asked. Bill shrugged his shoulders. “Not like you noticed, anyways.” Bill mumbled.

“Bill.” She warned. Billy just shrugged his shoulders. “It doesn’t matter. We got our Georgie back and that’s m-more important.” Bill stated, grinning as he and his brother hugged, not for the first time but definitely not the last. ‘Thank god for that’ Bill thought as he hugged Georgie tight.

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this-space-is-blank · 3 years

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This one's called Perspective. Read the stories in either order

I Hate Everything About You, But I Love So Much More

I stood there watching him leaning over the edge, he didn't know the train was coming. I pulled him from the ledge and dragged him to the train, "Why the fuck are you like this, Ace?" I asked. Silence. I was annoyed by his existence but at the same time I loved every little thing about him, his red eyes contrasting with the dark greyish blue in his iris, his wet hair from the pouring rain outside and how it fell so perfectly over his fringe and over his left eye, his stupid hoodie that he offered me when I was cold and how I tried to keep it so I could remember him more, and how he seemed like he never cared about me but was always the one I was closest to. I loved him, but I could never tell him that.

"Ace, you're a fucking dick." I scolded, "Why would you go all the way out here just for me to find you?"

"I guess I'm too afraid to go" He said, "Thanks for picking me up but you really didn't have to"

"You and I both know I'm not going to let you live in a forest, Lola would kill me if I let you leave." Lola was someone else I held dear, not as much as Ace but she was close. She was kind but scary, she'd be the type of person to hug you then punch you in the gut right after. I admired her, the way she could fight, the way she could speak her mind so freely, the way she kicked the everloving shit out of her best friend's abusive boyfriend and so much more. She was fierce when we met her but kind once we got more comfortable with each other, I saw how much she cared for Ace. Since the day we met I knew she cared about him, sometimes I felt like I was getting in their way. Sometimes I did. "Don't worry, I didn't tell her about this. Just don't do it again or I might, understood?"

"She loves me, you'll be the one getting hit," Ace said with a dry chuckle, "You do know I wasn't living in the forest right? You know what I was planning on-"

"Yes I fucking know now shut up and leave it at that, I don't want to be breaking down on a train." I said to him, my voice already breaking, "We'll talk about it later, right now I want two things."

"Oh? And what are those? Probably food knowing you", he laughed again. Why was he so calm after what he had done I will never know, but he was always like this. This constant state of carelessness and bluntness, it was a dark charm of his that I also fell for.

"Course it's food, I'm hungry." I said sternly, "Also want a hug" I said, this time more quietly

"Keep trying to get a hug you lonely bastard, you never try to look for someone anyway." He was right, but that was only because of him.

"I'd argue against you but you're right, I just wish some old feelings would go away." I said feeling sad for myself, "You're a lucky bastard you know, you basically got your girlfriend when you were 7 and now here we are and you're still together. Lucky bastard."

"Your old feelings are on a waste of time, Ella's not coming back dumbass. Dead people stay dead, I could've proven that if you didn't come find me but-"

"Can you stop being an asshole for 2 minutes?" I never liked it when he talked about Ella, she was dead and he treated the dead like nothing. Ella was amazing, she was kind and funny. Her voice was soft and her ginger hair looked like it floated when she walked, she was my first love interest. Her eyes were so kind when she looked at me, I got lost in her eyes constantly. She didn't care what I looked like, the weight, the scars, the way I looked, all of it she didn't care about. She just loved me for who I was, not what I was. She was always so bubbly, but then one day that changed. I was at home when I heard a knock at my door and saw her standing there, she was always taller than me but today she looked like she wasn't even 5ft. She stood low and with tears in her eyes, something wasn't right. She came in and we sat on my bed, we were just talking about nothing until we couldn't think of anything to say anymore. She was so quiet too, normally she'd be the loudest and happiest one in the room. "What's wrong? I can see something's up" I said, finally breaking the silence.

She was silent for a while, trying to see how to say it, "Something happened. I'm sorry." Her voice was shy and shaky, she was about to start crying again.

"Don't be sorry, whatever happened it's completely ok. Whatever you have to say I'll listen and I'll be ok with it" I smiled at her and gave her a hug. She tensed up as soon as I did, I pulled away instantly. She normally loved hugs, I didn't understand.

"I was walking through town today and a group of people" she stopped, trying to stop crying.

"It's ok, what happened?" I asked calmly, I knew the answer already.

"They did something to me, I wasn't in control at all. I'm sorry" she broke down Infront of me, I knew what happened though she never said it.

"Hey, it's ok. It wasn't your fault. It's ok, it's not your fault." I said this as calmy as I could but the anger that I felt was showing. I slowly moved my hand towards hers and held it. She was shaking and she was in tears, I didn't know what to do. We just continued talking until she went home, I don't think anyone ever found out what happened. As time went on she never got happier, she never went back to her old self. She only ever talked to me when I talked to her, nothing I said made her feel better. Almost a year after the incident, she stopped talking to me even if I texted her first or tried to engage any conversation. A week after that she sent me one message, "I'm sorry, I just can't take it anymore. Goodbye, I'm sorry" My heart sank when I read that and I rushed to her house, I saw three others also heading this way. Ace, Lola and Jay were also here. We were all too late, the funeral was hard to go to and the way Ace talked about any of it made me break down. He was so blunt and horrible with it, it was all her fault to him. He still resented her on this train, he never knew what caused it.

"Is your whole personality based off of some 0 fucks given character from a shit TV show? All you do is act edgy and pretend that nothing phases you. But guess what? We can all fucking see it, your arms looking like some fucked up cross sketch, your eyes always being red, the way you hide your legs because they're sliced up to fuck too, all of it. We all see it, Jay sees it, I see it, Lola sees it, hell even Taylor fucking sees it and he's the most oblivious cunt in the world. When are you gonna stop pretending to be ok? When are you gonna stop pretending that everything is fine? Lola loves you, she has for nine fucking years. I love you, I've loved you for 12 years. Taylor loves you, so does Jay. We all care about you and you either don't give a shit or you don't care. Why? We all care and yet you're like this? Why?" My voice was breaking, there were tears in my eyes. I hated this, all of it. Ace looked like he wanted to kill me this point, I can understand why.

"You really think I don't know that? Of fucking course I do, I just don't think my reasons are valid and I hate having it looked like I'm a burden. I have a good life, my parents are together, I shouldn't be sad. I shouldn't be trying to fucking off myself all the time. I shouldn't be trying to find reasons to die but god damn I'm always looking. Lola means nothing to me anymore, no one does. But then when they all leave I'll have another reason to try again, I don't want you to leave but I'll say I do. I don't want this, I want to be happy again. I'll be happy when I get these pills from Jay, those will help. You and your kind words and emotional support don't do shit, ok? Let me fucking be." He wasn't crying, his voice wasn't breaking, he didn't seem to be sad. He just seemed broken, numb even. His eyes were cold and his face was expressionless save for the small amount of solemnity in his eyes and the shaking of his right foot. He seemed numb but I could see that he wasn't. He had always been a good actor, I just never realised that he was constantly acting.

"I'm sorry Ace, but you and I both know I'm not doing that. I've known you for far too long to let you be, you've been with me throughout everything. Before Lola, before Jay, before Taylor, before Ella, before everyone. I'm not just gonna leave you alone." My voice was steadier than before but I still had tears in my eyes, "I won't just leave you here, not after everything we've done together. I won't just forget you, not after all this time. I've lost enough after loosing Ella, I can't deal with loosing you too. Let's go back to my place for a bit, we'll talk about it more if you decide not to be a stubborn cunt. And if you're still gonna be a stubborn cunt then how about we play some videogames instead, you can stay over at mine for the night." After loosing Ella I didn't want to loose anyone else, I became more aware of how everyone is. How they're feeling, how they're hurting, how they're asking for help, how they're saying goodbye. I couldn't loose anyone else, I didn't care if I was hurting. I could live, I knew that. I never knew about anyone else, they all have their own problems. They just never shown them.

"You know what? Sure, fuck it why not. I'll play some videogames with you since you're so fucking needy." A small smile across his face showed, that's all I needed.

"Good, let's go then, it's our stop next." I was scared that he would leave but it seemed like he would stay. "you're a dumbass, you know that? I fucking hate everything about you but I love so much more"

"I still don't swing that way dumbass" he retorted

"Shut up it's friendly" it wasn't friendly, I think we both knew that. There was no wonder why he was like this, every single thing in his life has been strange. He was bullied as a kid, he felt like an outcast in middle school and now we're here. He has reasons to be sad, he just thinks they're invalid.

I Never Thought Anyone Would Care This Much About Me, I'm Glad I'm Wrong

The edge of the stop looked nice, I just wish the train hit me before he dragged me from the ledge. "Why the fuck are you like this, Ace?" He asked, I ignored him. Personally I didn't care whether I lived or died, but El did. El was the one who came out all this way to stop me from offing myself, wish he didn't care as much. He was a good friend but I still didn't want him to worry over me so much, he wasn't the same after Ella. If she wasn't so selfish then maybe he'd be ok. Doesn't matter now, Ella's dead and I'm on my way to meeting her, these pills didn't disappear when he found me. "Ace, you're a fucking dick." He continued, "Why would you go all the way out here just for me to find you?" He sounded like he was about to cry.

"I guess I'm too afraid to go" I lied, "Thanks for picking me up but you really didn't have to" I wish he didn't.

"You and I both know I'm not going to let you live in a forest, Lola would kill me if I let you leave." He never realised how soft she was, he was never very smart. "Don't worry, I didn't tell her about this. Just don't do it again or I might, understood?" He talked like I cared at all, like any of it meant anything to me.

"She loves me, you'll be the one getting hit," I said, playing along with his stupid fantasy, "You do know I wasn't living in the forest right? You know what I was planning on-"

"Yes I fucking know now shut up and leave it at that, I don't want to be breaking down on a train." El was about to cry, he really needed to stop being so emotional, "We'll talk about it later, right now I want two things." Knowing him those things would be good and a hug.

"Oh? And what are those?" I asked pretending to be interested, "Probably food knowing you" I laughed.

"Course it's food, I'm hungry." He said, he sounded offended almost. "Also want a hug" he said, this time more quietly. Typical him, still attached to Ella. Still attached to the things he can't have, still attached to things that left him.

"Your old feelings are on a waste of time, Ella's not coming back dumbass." I hate having to be so blunt with him but I hate when he thinks of her more, "Dead people stay dead, I could've proven that if you didn't come find me but-"

"Can you stop being an asshole for 2 minutes?" he interrupted me again and his voice was trembling, "Is your whole personality based off of some 0 fucks given character from a shit TV show? All you do is act edgy and pretend that nothing phases you. But guess what? We can all fucking see it, your arms looking like some fucked up cross sketch, your eyes always being red, the way you hide your legs because they're sliced up to fuck too, all of it. We all see it, Jay sees it, I see it, Lola sees it, hell even Taylor fucking sees it and he's the most oblivious cunt in the world. When are you gonna stop pretending to be ok? When are you gonna stop pretending that everything is fine? Lola loves you, she has for nine fucking years. I love you, I've loved you for 12 years. Taylor loves you, so does Jay. We all care about you and you either don't give a shit or you don't care. Why? We all care and yet you're like this? Why?" His words were meaningless to me. That's what I should've felt, instead I feel guilty. That's not supposed to happen, I'm supposed to be careless. I'm not supposed to feel so why did I want to cry? Fuck it, if he wants to know then he can know.

"You really think I don't know that? Of fucking course I do, I just don't think my reasons are valid and I hate having it looked like I'm a burden. I have a good life, my parents are together, I shouldn't be sad. I shouldn't be trying to fucking off myself all the time. I shouldn't be trying to find reasons to die but god damn I'm always looking. Lola means nothing to me anymore, no one does. But then when they all leave I'll have another reason to try again, I don't want you to leave but I'll say I do. I don't want this, I want to be happy again. I'll be happy when I get these pills from Jay, those will help. You and your kind words and emotional support don't do shit, ok? Let me fucking be." I lie to myself about who I am, I should be happy. I should be whole, I shouldn't feel like shit. I have so much to be happy about so why do I feel this way? I will never know, but the least I can do is pretend to be happy. Then no one worries. I feel bad for El, he's always the one who has to deal with the suicidal thoughts that I have. I'm guessing he dealt with Ella's too, difference between me and her is she probably forced them onto him. I didn't, he talked to me about it. This is her fault. She's the reason El is so cautious, why he's so attentive to the small things, why he can see right through me. I wish he didn't, it'd be easier then. I wish he'd go away but at the same time I hope he never leaves.

"I'm sorry Ace, but you and I both know I'm not doing that. I've known you for far too long to let you be, you've been with me throughout everything. Before Lola, before Jay, before Taylor, before Ella, before everyone. I'm not just gonna leave you alone." My voice was steadier than before but I still had tears in my eyes, "I won't just leave you here, not after everything we've done together. I won't just forget you, not after all this time. I've lost enough after loosing Ella, I can't deal with loosing you too. Let's go back to my place for a bit, we'll talk about it more if you decide not to be a stubborn cunt. And if you're still gonna be a stubborn cunt then how about we play some videogames instead, you can stay over at mine for the night." He was so clearly attached to Ella, I hated her for dying. I could see how hard he was trying, I thought I should go back with him for the night. His house is nice and he's always been so caring, he can cook well too. I'm lucky to have him too, I don't want to try throw it all away. But I'll never let him know I care about him, it's part of my charm.

"You know what? Sure, fuck it why not. I'll play some videogames with you since you're so fucking needy." I said, hoping he couldn't see the tears in my eyes. I'm lucky to have him, I can't show emotion or he might leave. I don't want that

"Good, let's go then, it's our stop next." He sounded happy, excited even "you're a dumbass, you know that? I fucking hate everything about you but I love so much more"

"I still don't swing that way dumbass" I did, but he'll never know that.

"Shut up it's friendly" he said back, I wouldn't mind if it wasn't but he sounded pretty sincere when he said it. I never thought anyone would care this much about me, I'm glad I'm wrong

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missmeikakuna · 4 years

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(GL/Yuri) Shoujo Heroine... and Friends Chapter 14

Kunie struggles with newfound feelings. Please comment your thoughts and like this chapter if you, well, like it.

Rated: T

Fandom: Original story

Relationship type: F/F with some F/M

Description:

Sahana is friendly, innocent and optimistic, making her the perfect shoujo anime heroine… except she’s not the main character of this story.

When school prince Toyomi asks her out, she starts hanging out with him and leaves her friends behind. Prim and proper Masami and tomboyish slob Kunie don’t seem to have much in common outside of their friendship with Sahana, but they try to make the best out of a lonely situation. So why is the god of love and marriage watching them, red string of fate at the ready? CONTENT WARNING: Some homophobic language and bullying.

Chapter 14: I’m not worth your kindness

Bored as all hell, Kunie took out her phone and went onto the school’s Friendful group. She was lying on her bed and scrolling through the page when she came across Atsuji’s stories.

She found herself laughing at the witty narration but it was the serious moments that stood out to her.

He shouldn’t have felt good. How could we, when his heart was twisting until he almost couldn’t breathe? How could he possibly enjoy the feeling of walking in glass skin, ready to shatter at any hint of rejection? Yet, he continued walking, in hopes that he could get just a little bit closer to her.

She needed no protection, yet he felt a desire deep in the pit of his gut to protect her anyway. Or maybe he was confusing that with the desire to hold her close and brush her soft hair behind her ear.

Kunie remembered Masami’s habit of tucking her hair behind her ear. She pictured herself pushing her hair back, leaning in until she was ever so close to her lips.

Realisation crashed into her, breaking the glass in her face. Tears seeped out of the cracks. In her mind, the beautiful Takarazuka actor bowed to Masami and stepped back until she was among the other cast members and Masami was right at the front of the stage. Masami’s skin glowed under the spotlight. Why did it have to glow so much?

Kunie wiped her eyes but the tears kept coming. The lovely image of Masami on stage was quickly replaced with Dooru’s smug face.

After turning off her phone, Kunie took to staring at the ceiling until the ceiling appeared to be mocking her with memories of Masami. When that happened, she closed her eyes and screamed into her pillow.

Meanwhile, I tied Masami’s red string around Kunie’s pinky. As soon as I did this, I noticed how thin and frail the string was. That tempted me to enter the human world and scream into a pillow as well, but alas I had to keep at least a little distance. Destiny was in the hands of these two girls.

Apparently there’s a hangover for excessive crying, or at least Kunie felt something similar to that the next morning. The lack of sleep certainly didn’t help.

She could barely muster a hello to her classmates. To wake herself up she bought a dozen or so food items from the vending machine and ate as quickly as possible, creating a pile of rubbish all over her desk.

As soon as Masami saw the mess, she opened her mouth to complain, but then she saw the bags under Kunie’s eyes and bit back her words. Sahana asked her if something was wrong and Kunie didn’t respond for a while.

‘Nothing,’ Kunie eventually murmured, looking into her eyes and feeling every part of her body tense up. Sahana, who was walking back to Toyomi’s desk, was the girl who had defended her honour. Her honour as a perfectly straight girl who was definitely not crushing on their mutual friend.

‘Just because she has short hair doesn't make her a lesbian. Kunie is a wonderful person and I don't think she deserves you being so mean to her!’

That line repeated in her head, getting more distorted as time went on. Each time, the sound of Sahana’s laughter got louder and louder.

‘... doesn’t make her a lesbian. Kunie is a wonderful person.’

‘Kunie is a wonderful person. She’s not a lesbian.’

‘She couldn’t be a lesbian. She’s a wonderful person.’

Kunie choked on the piece of melon bread in her mouth. She spit it out and, as she returned to reality, she discovered that the laughter came from Sahana as she chatted with Toyomi at his desk near the front. Like she always did.

There was only a few tables’ worth of distance between Kunie and Sahana, yet it felt like they were in completely different schools. Kunie gritted her teeth and looked away, tearing another bite out of her melon bread. She left the choke-causing piece on the table.

Seeing that let Masami know that enough was enough. ‘Something’s clearly annoying you,’ she said, crossing her arms. ‘What is it?’ Kunie frowned. ‘Why can’t you tell us?’

Dooru sniggered. ‘Maybe she got dumped by a girl.’

‘Fuck off, Dooru,’ Kunie said.

‘If you hate me so much, call me by my surname and see how Ukiwa reacts.’

‘Like I give a fuck.’

‘Seriously, what’s going on?’ Masami asked. ‘Dooru’s not helping, but you know Sahana and I are usually nice to you. Did we do something to make you-’

‘I’m not worth your kindness.’

The lack of confidence startled Masami. ‘Why not?’

Kunie shoved the rest of the melon bread in her mouth and curled her hands into fists. ‘You wouldn’t get it.’

‘Try me. We get each other more than anyone else I know.’

Finally, Kunie looked up at Masami. She couldn’t help but smile, even if the burning in her cheeks soon got annoying. The morning sunlight from the window illuminated Masami’s face until she looked like the glowing Masami from her daydream.

‘You’re right. I’m sorry. I’ll be fine in a bit. I just didn’t get much sleep last night.’

Masami’s giggle tickled Kunie’s ears. ‘That’s it? I think most people get what it feels like to have trouble sleeping. What kept you up last night?’

‘Uh, homework, yeah. But don’t worry too much. I’m doing pretty well in class. I just didn’t plan my studying schedule very well, haha.’

‘Fair enough. Ukiwa’s still late, so you can take a nap now if you want.’

Kunie held up some empty packets from the various sugary snacks she ate. ‘I should be fine for now.’

The two chatted for a good half hour, Ukiwa running later than ever for the weekly hour-long homeroom. Kunie was mostly paying attention to the glowing girl in front of her, but occasionally she would sneak a glance at the happy couple that was Toyomi and Sahana. They seemed to pay no attention to her and existed in their own little world. Their own little perfect world where they could love each other and not get crap for it. A world where they could, if they wanted to, judge Kunie’s feelings without Kunie even hearing them.

Whenever she saw Kunie scowl at the couple, Masami felt her heart crack. Each time this happened, she put her hand on top of Kunie’s fist and changed the subject, praying that Kunie would return her attention to her and forget whatever was really troubling her. She would lean in closer to help her with this task. It worked every time.

By the end of the half-hour, Kunie and Masami were inches apart. The sliding of the classroom door and the click-clacking of high heels pushed them away. Their panicked faces almost made Dooru spit a rat king of remarks but Ukiwa’s voice robbed her of that chance.

Ukiwa called the roll as quickly as she could and then asked everyone how they were doing. The students groaned, except for Kunie, who was too busy glaring at Sahana sitting on Toyomi’s lap to notice anything her homeroom teacher said.

When lunch rolled around, Sahana stopped to chat with Kunie. ‘You feeling better now?’

Kunie nodded, forcing a smile. ‘Yeah, it’s all good. Now go have fun with your boyfriend.’ She thanked her ancestors that she managed to say that with a convincing amount of ‘sincerity’. Sahana nodded and took Toyomi’s hand, resting her head on his shoulder as the two strolled out of the classroom.

Kunie and Masami went on an expedition to whatever room they could find to eat their lunch in. On their journey, they ran into Atsuji. Kunie considered complimenting him on his excellent stories, but the painful emotions they had stirred in her that night put a cork in her vocal cords. She could only nod as she passed by him.

The pair of friends eventually gave up on finding a spot and went to their usual spot in the Home Ec room. Masami cooked up a quick dish of cereal ramen. Kunie laughed in between crunches as the mix polluted her taste buds.

‘You’ve outdone yourself in terribleness,’ she said. ‘Do I taste soy sauce on these flakes?’

Masami pouted. ‘I will make a weird dish that you end up enjoying.’

Kunie put her hand on Masami’s. ‘I’m sure you will.’

As soon as her hand registered the heat of Masami’s, she let go. Masami bit her lip and brushed her hair behind her ear. It took all of Kunie’s energy not to hug her right there.

I noticed the red string connecting the two girls growing a little bit thicker and sturdier.

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fearofaherobrine · 7 years

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Roleplay Server Log #169

“Ryan the Dragon, TLOT Returns”

[Doc] Mix has a baby dragon, I do too.

[NK] Oh. *Finally notices GK and freezes, staring at him

[Gk] Narrows his eyes a bit and sniffs

[Stevenson] -sees something in his innovatory it's a glitchy textured spawn for a prince dragon with the name ryan on it which makes him rush outside next to gk and try to use it but it doesn't respond- fuck!

[NK] Are dragons a normal occurrence here? *Baring his teeth at GK a bit. It's not very intimidating considering one canine's broken.

[Gk] chuckles - welcome brother, I like a brine with a little sass

[Doc] what? Oh no, we just, kinda rescue them from other seeds. -Notices the cursing Steve. - hello there, do you need a hand with something?

[NK] ... Hello then. *Calms down since Gk isn't a threat

[Stevenson] my poor baby ryan I don't know how he got here but he won't respond -is holding some kind of glitch textured white orb with a crown on top Stevenson looks like he might cry-

[Gk] So Mix was a two for one deal huh? You guys look related.

[Doc] A baby?! Is it a human spawn egg?!

[Stevenson] no he is a prince dragon.

[Mix] My brother! *points at Nk happily

*NK looks flustered at her happy pointing

[Doc] I don't get it, were you storing it in there like a pokeball?

[Gk] oh cool, I like the gem. Very stylish. - he offers a hoof - Herobrine the Griefer King, Gk for short

[Stevenson] no I don't know how he got into my inventory because he wasn't there before. I thought I lost him to the server collapse. -the corner of his eyes are watering-

[NK] Herobrine.. uh, Nether Keeper I guess. I can't remember my original title. *Shakes the hoof

[Gk] is that the one you were talking about Stevenson? - lets go- so what's your specialty Nk?

[Stevenson] yes this is ryan.

[Doc] Reaches out for the egg - let me see it please

[Stevenson] -reluctantly gives it up-

[NK] Magic, I use commands really flashily? I took care of the nether. My memory isn't as good as I'd like. I've spent who knows how long just hanging out in nothingness..

[Doc] Scans it over - you're missing a few crucial lines here, it needs some repairs before it can hatch- xe takes out hir command block and begins typing with one hand

[Stevenson] I don't know how to give him those lines. -is crying-

[Gk] I'm from the nether too, thats my natural spawn area, don't like it much though, too noisy and stinky

[Doc] I know you can't or you would have done it already, hey Gk can I have a bit of your code? Mine won't work since I'm not a natural dragon

[Gk] yeah, whatever...

[NK] Forced there, but it was livable, changes were necessary though.

[Doc] Gives Gk a sharp poke with a small needle and draws some of his blood.

[Gk] OW! You asshole!

[Gk] Hisses at Doc and turns back to Nk- like what kind of changes?

[Doc] squirts a little bit of the blood on the block and starts unraveling the strands of code and tangling them with the ones xe is writing

[Gk] Stop crying you goober. I've seen this crazy fucker bring people back from the dead. Be patient.

[Stevenson] -is trying to calm down but I failing-

[Doc] pulls out a bowl of healing paste and dumps some of it on the code before stirring it all together with hir fingers

[alexine] -comes outside and sees Stevenson crying- ok what's going on why is Stevenson crying?

[Gk] Docs working on his egg

[alexine] egg?

[Stevenson] ryan -still crying-

[alexine] oh, wait what ryan is still alive!

[Doc] Takes the little crown off the egg and starts rubbing it down with the paste.

[Gk] Hey Nk looks like you got here just in time for another little miracle, heh. You ready yet Doc? I already know what the next fucking request will be

[Doc] Checks the surface of the egg for glitches and finds it flawless- yes please.

[Gl] Leans over with a grumble and starts cleaning the surface of the egg with his overlong tongue.

[Stevenson] DON'T EAT RYAN!

[Gk] I ain't gonna eat it dumbass! - notices a bit of activity in th egg and backs off

[Doc] the egg is now rocking in hir hands and forming cracks - that's better! Here, you hold it, you said it was yours - puts the egg in Stevenson's hands

[Stevenson] -takes the egg-

-liquid is coming out of the egg-

[Stevenson] why is it wet!

[ryan] -hatches almost explosively because he was suppose to be like a spawn egg he is several times bigger then the egg-

[Gk] HOLY SHIT

[Doc] Yeah that didn't look comfortable... But normally dragons do have a good deal of amniotic fluid in their eggs

[ryan] -is a gold and white dragon with three heads and six wings each head had one red eye and one blue he sees he is in stevenson's arms and cuddles closer to him making happy trills-

[Stevenson] -hugs ryan crying happy tears- ryan I am so glad you okay.

[Doc] picks up the teeny crown they removed from the egg and puts it on the middle head.- who's a cute little baby huh?

[ryan] -is confused at the crown because it never had before the other two heads take it off and all three start noming on it-

[alexine] well it's good to see ryan again Stevenson is going to protect him with his life like normal

[Gk] He better... Or I'll pitch his ass in the bay...

[Doc] heh, what do you think of that Nk? This is my brine specialty as Gk put it. I fix things.

[ryan] -decides to put the crown on Stevenson's head so now he is wearing he squeaking and seems pleased with himself-

[Gk] does it have three independent brains?

[NK] It's interesting. So far everything has been.. pretty unusual.

[Stevenson] no because ryan has reverted back to being a baby but when he got older though the head move independently they all spoke as one

[alexine] yea Stevenson taught ryan how to speak.

[Doc] This place is a sanctuary Nk, everyone is from someplace else. Usually someplace much more dangerous.

[NK] I... see. It's a lot to take in..

[Mix] You can stay with me if you want, or Doc, if they'll let you.

{NK] uh..

[Doc] it's okay Nk, my castle is big enough to get lost in. I take in new people all the time, the spawn is rather rough at night since we've been here a long time so it's easier to just shelter new people myself until they can build their own places.- turns to the Alex and slightly soggy Steve- that offer stands for you two as well

[Doc] oh, and the baby of course, more little dragons are always welcome.

[Stevenson] -is too busy with ryan to respond-

[alexine] we won't be there long as soon as we have the supplies we will start heading out.

[Doc] Heading out where? Do you guys plan on roughing it? Or do you actually want off the server?

[alexine] more to build a place farther away

[Doc] shrugs- okay, just FYI though, the village near the spawn is the biggest one on the seed if you want to trade with the Testificates. Apart from that you only have a little more then a days walk before hitting totally untamed wilderness.

[alexine] untamed wilderness seems good to me.

[Doc] Me too, that's why it's like that, take what you need but replant where you chop and no strip mining. Be kind to the seed and it will always provide.

[Gk] Hippie

[Doc] How can I not be? You cynical beast. It saw me dying of heartbreak and gave me a loving mate.

[Gk] is rolling his eyes but it's hard to tell

[alexine] we tended to stick to caves because of the constant changing environment made cave always plentiful and we would rather not get lost in long tunnels

[Gk] As if reciting from memory - torches on the right always, even I know that shit. Just from stalking Steffan.

[Doc] Besides, it might be a good idea to stay close until Ryan is bigger. We've got several adult dragons if you need advice or babysitting.

[alexine] ryan is a little smart then you would think.

[Doc] I didn't say he was dumb, but he is small, and could get lost or hurt.

[alexine] -looks like she might laugh- I guess you never seen the crazy craft mod this server is like a padded world compared to crazy craft

[Doc] No, I have not, but the 'padding'as you say of the server is also intentional. We have tons of baby animals, pokemon and small children. Some Herobrine's like to fight so I keep the pvp turned off too. I can't risk anyone with a glitch damaging the server itself. The firewall has a ton of extra redundancies as well to keep the NOTCH's out.

[alexine] I say padded because most thing in that mod do more damage then an enderdragon.

[Doc] is a bit flabbergasted- Why would anyone install that....?

[alexine] a challenge there are powerful weapons and armor you can get

[NK] I'd like to look around a bit, is Doc's home close?

[Gk] About three chunks but there's a lit path most of the way.

[Doc] I... I've had enough challenges just trying to survive out there... I'm heading home. Anyone who wants to follow me can.

[Mix] I'm coming, I gotta make sure Liz hasn't eaten Deer's hand or something. Little troublemaker...

[Doc] I'm sure she's fine. She's tougher then she looks.

[Mix] Of course she is! Liz is just a very determined bab.

[Doc] I'm amazed by how fast she's learned to talk

[Mix] So was I. Sky says Liz is pretty fast, even compared to dragons on his seed.

[ryan] -sees a spider trying to sneak up behind Stevenson and a large amount of fire balls come out of all three head right at the spider killing it in a second-

[Doc] Whoah, okay, time out! One more thing! My house has a few skeletons that father Steve considers his brothers, and a tame creeper that's not capable of exploding. If you hurt them, he'll cry, a lot. If you see a mob in a sweater leave it alone. They won't attack you anyway.

[Stevenson] hear that ryan mobs with sweaters are friends -ryan nods in understanding-

[Doc] Good. There's also one friendly Endermen with crossed eyes, he'll probably think you're adorable and try to hug you. He's also harmless

[Stevenson] isn't that the one in the bar right now?

[Gk] Who was walking quietly with them -Yeah, he's a doof. Can't tell a brine from a steve.

[Stevenson] anyone else?

[Doc] Mobs...? Sam the bartender. There's a wither skeleton that roams around free with just a shirt, his name is W. I think that's all.

[Gk] There's Sky, but he doesn't look like a normal enderman. Oh and the super tiny endermen that hang out with Gem. But they're rarely without an adult for supervision.

[Stevenson] did you get all that ryan? -he shakes his heads yes-

[Gk] Ohhh, I smell something good... - he trots across the little bridge ahead of them and around the side of a small house, wagging the tip of his tail like an excited cat.

-Theres a sound of someone giving a little laugh of suprise-

[Stevenson and alexine] -sit down on the grass to rest they are playing with ryan quietly-

[Sweet Alex] Comes outside with a bowl of cookies and tosses one in the air

[Gk] snaps it at the top of it's arc and munches happily.

[Sweet Alex] Oh! You brought friends to! -

[Doc] Yeah, lots of new arrivals - xe's cut off as Alex thrusts the bowl in hir hands and races back into the house for the tea tray.

[Sweet Alex] Throws down a few wood blocks and lays out more tea and cookies.

[Gk] Settles down with a sigh and there's a sound of gentle rumbling not unlike a purr.

[Doc] Sniffs the bowl in hir hands- Oh! Did you go visiting?

[Sweet Alex] Yep, I traded with Mousse and Squrl for some of the dark touchie syrup.

[Doc] Oh, the mousselasses. Yeah, that's good stuff. Well come on, anyone who wants some. No need to stand on ceremony.

*Mix sits down and NK does too after a few moments

[Doc] Guys, this is Sweet Alex, if you need anything that smells or tastes nice, she's the one to ask. She can also speak glitch if someone is badly hurt or errored and needs to communicate.

[Gk] Slightly grumbly- She also makes kigirumis for anyone who's cold and feels like looking like a cute animal

[NK] What is a.. kigirumi?

[Sweet Alex] It's a one piece jumper with an animal design. Usually with a teeny tail or wings depending on the critter and a face on the hood.

[Doc] She's just as good at sewing as I am.

[NK] Oh. Sounds.. Interesting.

[Stevenson and alexine] -they join the group. Stevenson is holding ryan as he looks at everything on the table-

[Lie] There's the sound of a teleport and the end of a sneeze as Lie lands in the yard in front of Sweet Alex's place-

[Sweet Alex] And you have a baby dragon! So cute! Oh, hey Lie! Something set off your allergies?

[Lie] - No... I think that was just a sneeze...

[Doc] Lie! I think you forgot something on TLOT and Steve's seed.

[Lie] - What do you mean?

[Doc] Um.... giant lust flower?

[Lie] Faces pales a little- Fuck...

[Doc] Yeah, that's what I was thinking. I hope the villagers are smart enough to stay away from it.

[Lie] - Maybe... We should go take care of that?

[Doc] Actually no. It's not fair to go back without offering to take TLOT and Steve with us.

[Lie] - Right... So maybe we should let them know what happened?

[Doc] Well I was getting to it. I found a new brine, and I was going to show, them and Alexine and Stevenson the castle. Since they'll likely be staying with me for a bit. This is Nk ,and the bitty dragon is Ryan.

[Lie] - Hello! I'm Lie

[NK] Hello. *Raises hand a bit in a wave

[Lie] - So who are you in relation to?

[Gk] Takes another cookie as if he's stealing it.

[NK] Mi-

[Mix] Me! *Happy grin

[Lie] - Oh Mix! That's wonderful!

[Doc] Is just having some tea.

[Mix] It's not the whole family yet, but it's better than nothing

[Lie] - Well I wish you luck in finding the rest

[Doc] Wait, Mix, you said something about a NOTCH, did you not mean Firebird?

[Mix] No, he's not mine. Not.. Like, familial.

[Doc] Then what's the deal? Did you guys adopt him into your group from another seed or something?

[Lie] Sits close to Sweet Alex to listen to Mix's response-

[Aweet Alex] Offers Lie a cup of tea.

[Lie] - What kind is it?

[Mix] Firebird's basically adopted. Last seed. Or was it the one before... He can't rightly defend himself so he just sort of tags along. He's useful in his own way though. It's Flowey who's a nuisance, really.

[Sweet Alex] Darjeeling

[Doc] Kinda like all the ones we picked up in the sub seed. That's very kind of you Mix.

[Lie] - Ah, no thank you then. Do you have any more oils you'd like me to change into flowers?

[Mix] It's how we got little Benny too. Followed us all the way across a seed. Like, all over the place. Sky insisted we bring him with after.

[Sweet Alex] Not at the moment, but thank you for asking.

[Doc] He's bright for a chicken.

[Lie] - Just let me know when you want me to come over to make more

[Mix] Yeah, he is.

[Doc] I think I'm just going to call them... - starts typing in the chat. And then exclaims - Oh! You already know? It's wonderful isn't it!

[Lie] Gives Doc a curious look-

[TLOT] Suddenly appears in their midst with Steve on his back. He's near running in place he's so happy.

[Lie] - TLOT, hey

*NK leans back a bit as they appear

[TLOT] Lie! - He rushes her and hugs her, spinning her around.

[Steve] practically tackles Doc and hugs them as well

[Doc] Ooof!

[Lie] Squeaks a little as she's hugged-

[TLOT] Lets her down, it's obvious he's been crying- Thank you Lie... We couldn't wish for better friends.

[Doc] Air please-

[Steve] Oh, right. - Eases up a bit and then releases Doc.

[Lie] - Who told you?

[TLOT] Cp! I'm shocked he wasn't exstactic since he got to kill a NOTCH.

[Lie] - Er, that may be my fault... I kinda yelled at him as soon as we got home...

[TLOT] Why?

[Doc] He ditched me. Tped the whole group and left me behind to walk back alone. Assbag.

[Lie] - His excuse was that it was good training for Doc

[Doc] Suuuure.

[Lie] - In a way I think he was genuine about that though. I think he wants to make certain you can get back, he just doesn't know how to teach it very well... Or that's how he was taught

[Doc] Still hurt my feelings...

[Lie] - I know I know

[CP] Comes down the path on his way home- OHFOR FUCKS SAKE CAN'T I JUST GET AWAY FROM SOME OF YOU FUCKERS!?

[Sweet Alex] waves cheerfully - Hello Cp!

[Gk] What the hell did I do? I haven't seen you for a few days.

[CP] - Not you GK

[TLOT] Cp! Gonna refrain from hugging you again even though I want to.

[CP] Growls a little-

[TLOT] Be nice, we have new arrivals after all. Even a new brother brine. - gestures to the group

[CP] Groans-

[Doc] Oh get over it Cp.

[Lie] Motions CP towards her and he complies-

[Doc] Thank you for fixing the thingie detector Cp. It led us right to the Nether Keeper here.

[CP] - Don't care

[TLOT] So Nk?

[Doc] Yep

[TLOT] Sticks out a hand- I'm Herobrine the Lord of Tears, TLOT for short. And this is my husband Steve.

[Steve] Smiles sweetly.

[NK] Nice to meet you. *Shakes the hand

[CP] Sits next to his wife and pulls her into his lap-

[TLOT] So you hanging with us for a while or headed down to the house under the waves?

[NK] Hanging out

[TLOT] Cool! Can't wait to show you around.

[Doc] Hey guys.... Lie kinda left a giant lust pod next to Kore so we need to go and get it. Do you want to come with us now that it's safe?

[CP] - Do we really have to go back there now?

[TLOT] Is silent for a long moment and then yells far too loud - HELL YEAH I FUCKING DO!

[Steve] I'm in.

[Mix] Can I come? While I'm out it'd be nice. I'm sure Deer can handle Liz a bit longer..

[Doc] Certainly, and Lie, we kinda need you since it's your plant.

[Lie] - Yeah, I know

[TLOT] Hey Gk, you wanna go? You might get to scare the fuck out of some people.

[Gk] Grins- You had me at scare.

[NK] I... think I'll come too.

[Doc] I think you need an impressive mount for this, old friend. - Xe steps back and transforms. Hir big paws thudding hard on the dirtblocks.

[CP] Grumbles and holds Lie a bit closer to himself-

[TLOT] Climbs onto Doc's back and pulls Steve up behind him.

[Gk] Trots over to Mix and Nk, before kneeling a bit - Come on, get on, I think we're going in from the sky. You too Lie, I think someone is planning on being rather loud.

[Lie] Come on CP, let go

[CP] - Nope...

*Mix climbs on and NK does as well

[Mix] This'll be fun

[Lie] With a sigh decides to take the easy route and flicks the collar onto her husband, moving quickly so she doesn't squish him. She reaches down and picks him and his clothes up before climbing onto GK- This way you can't leave anyone behind again

[Gk] She's got you there Cp.

[Doc] You guys behave, we'll be back shortly. - Xe yells into the chat - I'm off again darling, but I'll be home soon!

[Doc] Makes a hole in the firewall and zooms through

[Gk] Is startled and has to run to keep up.

[Doc] Now knows the way and goes straight for the server, it's moved much closer because of the still running PC in hir inventory.

[Doc] Practically bashes a hole into the other place and bursts out of the void and into the sunlight. Gk is hot on hir heels.

-As they pass into TLOT and Steve's home the gaudy brine's power swells out in ripples, he no longer has to hide and his seed welcomes him with everything he'd lost being away returned tenfold. He howls in exhulation, and it seems to shake the air that's rushing around them.

[Steve] Follows his lovers primal scream with a happy cry of his own

[Lie] Feels TLOT's power rush over her-

[CP] Shudders a little-

-There's a second wave of power from below them as they fly out over the city, too fast to see what's happening underneath, it fills every corner of TLOT's being and he climbs atop Doc's head, balancing himself like a surfer on hir snout.

[TLOT] HEROBRINE HAS RETURNED.

- The shouts below them rise up in a roar.

[Steve] Looks down and his eyes go incredibly wide

[Doc] Can't look down because TLOT will fall off.

[Gk] Why the fuck is everyone naked?

[Lie] Starts blushing very hard- WHY!?

[CP] Hisses-

[Doc] Lands on a roof top and levels out hir head so TLOT can talk to them.

[TLOT] NOTCH IS DEAD.

[TLOT] JEB IS ALSO GONE.

[TLOT] This world belongs to me now.

-There's a lot of cheering but the Testificates seem a bit exhausted.

[Gk] Lands as well. - Uh, why the fuck are you guys naked, it's not that hot in the desert, is it?

[Lie] Has her eyes shut-

[Someone wearing a priests robe tied at the waist.] They found the flowers near the ruins! They passed the word along to us! A sign!

[Testificate fem] And then the battle in the desert!

[Yonger Testificate] We touched the giant flower and felt your heat! Spread the love everywhere!

[Lie] Squeaks-

[Older dude] We had an orgy!

[TLOT] Is just staring with his mouth open.

[Steve] I bet that was fun.

[Mix] Kind of regret my decision..

[Lie] - GK... Please take me over to the pod so I can destroy it...

[Testificate mal] We love the plant you left us! We've been watering it for you.

-The pod senses Lie's closeness and shifts, diving under the sands-

[TLOT] Okaaay. -Mentally to Lie - maybe we should just leave it-

[Lie] Mentally back- Are you sure they won't kill themselves by fucking so much?

[Doc] Loud thought- at least they seem to have loosened up

[TLOT] Nah. They're Testificates. They're a hardy bunch.

-The pod erupts out of the ground nearby and hovers over the group of brines-

[Testificates] Shout and point and move back a little so it doesn't drool on them

[Doc] I could make a spawn block from the nectar? Make a fountain for their temple?

[Lie] Groans- GK, ground please

[CP] Mentally at TLOT to tell Doc- Do you want to get near that Nether liquid?

[Gk] Sure, He hops down and cants a wing so Lie can slide down it.

[Doc] You guys are so loud, I can hear you you know.

[Lie] Slides off and the pod follows her- Easy now, come here- She watches as the pod lowers itself and nudges against her

[Doc] I'm all over it. - Xe Hops down to the ground and lets the lovers off hir back before sticking hir paws out in front of hir. The purple coloration on them bleeds over hir claws and becomes a rather large pair of hir normal rubber gloves. Xe pulls out a bucket.

[TLOT] Is standing in the crowd, they seem determined to touch his cloak, and Steve is getting a subdued version of the same treatment.

[Lie] Glances at Doc before stroking the plant, encouraging it to open it's pod. There's a slight ripping sound as it does so, it's thorny teeth shimmering with liquid-

[TLOT] Give me a little space guys, I'm gonna make you something.

[Doc] Clicks into the mouth with the bucket and it ends up full of the shiny black liquid.

[Lie] Smiles and then yelps as the plant tilts it's head and forgets to close it's pod when it does so, about half of her is covered in nectar-

[CP] Looks very unhappy on GK's back-

[TLOT] Puts his hands on the ground and the blocks in the plaza begin to flip and lift. They form a golden ring and raise up a pillar in the center.

[Doc] carries the bucket as if it may at any moment explode and clicks on the pillar with it and down in the basin. The fountain fills with the liquid and there are gasps from all around.

[Lie] - TLOOOOOOT...

[TLOT] Now show a little restraint my people! Make sure you rest in between lovemaking and drink lots of water. Use proper lube and aftercare, and don't neglect your partners feelings!

[Lie] Looks at the pod- You've done your job well...

[Testificates] Cheering and promises all around.

[Steve] Now you guys should really put a little bit of clothing on. You're gonna get all sunburned.

-Few random yells - Yes Father Steve!

-There's a general milling about and Doc looks at Lie with more then a little concern.

[Doc] Um Lie? Are you okay?

[Lie] Turning a bit red- I don't know...

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My 11 Plus Success for a Barnet Grammar School

Every parent wants the best for their child. The comprehensive school in our area just wasn’t up to scratch, so I decided to put my son through the 11 plus process and do everything I could to help him get into on of our local grammar schools. Our first choice was Q E Boys in Barnet followed by Dame Alice Owens in Potters Bar and Latymer School in Enfield.

I had heard of the words “11 plus” murmured vaguely like a game of chinese whispers in my son’s school playground, but I didn’t actually know what the process entailed. My son is my first child, so this was going to be as much of a learning experience for me as it was for him. I was a bit apprehensive at first; “do I really want to put my child through the stress of an exam at the mere age of ten years old?” I kept asking myself. However, I can honestly say that my decision to go ahead with the process was one of the best decisions I have ever made.

First thing’s first, I had to understand the process for myself; I spent a lot of time on google getting to grips with my borough’s approach to the 11 plus exam. The GL Assessment exam focuses on the familiar core subjects Mathematics and English, but it also throws verbal and non-verbal reasoning questions into the mix. It was the latter group that worried my child. According to his teachers, he was excelling in Mathematics and English at school. My son was one of the top students in his year group, and I am so lucky as a parent to have a child who is driven enough to sit down and study calmly, without me having to push him to work hard. So when my son expressed his concerns about the verbal and non-verbal reasoning side of the exam, I knew I had to take action and contacted North Finchley Tutors.

I employed them to help him with this area of the assessment for an hour every Saturday but then enrolled him into Saturday School at North Finchley Tutors so he could get help all round. We booked a few mock exams for my son, just so he knew what to expect. He struggled with the first few, but we used these exams to identify areas for improvement and after weeks of hard work, he was making huge progress and topping the mock exams with the help of Ali and his team of tutors. I spent months watching my son put everything he had into improving.

Something I want to emphasise here is that I still allowed my child to be a child. I didn’t let this process consume him; no ten-year-old should be deprived of their childhood. I drew up a study timetable with my son and factored in time for playing and relaxing because, after all, he’s ten years old. I promised myself that the moment this process gets too hard for my son, we would reassess our situation and the possibility of attending the local comprehensive school instead. Far too often you hear stories about children who are forced to study by their parents; these children become sad and depressed, words which I strongly believe should never be used to describe a child. Of course I want the best for my child academically, but I also want the best for my child’s emotional wellbeing. So my top tip for you is to seriously consider how far you’re willing to go in order to get your child into a top school. Whether you’re looking for Manchester Grammar School, Bristol Grammar School or Queen Elizabeth Boys School or Henrietta Barnett School, do allow your child to be a child. Similarly, don’t get too lax and take it too easy, listen to the advice given to you by your tutor.

With a timetable in place, a tutor hired and mock exams booked, my child knuckled down and got to work. I watched my son struggle to balance his 11 plus revision with school work and extracurricular activities. I watched my son feel disheartened when he struggled with the verbal and non-verbal reasoning questions. I watched my son put in put in endless hours of hard work to achieve his goal. As I watched my child spend hours working his way through 11 plus practice papers,11 plus grammar school past papers,I couldn’t help but ask myself if this was the right decision. I prayed it would be worth it. He

However, something that filled me with joy was seeing my son improve with every session of tutoring. In hindsight, I am glad he struggled at first because the experience taught him that if you work hard and put your mind to doing something, you will improve.

Finally, after a year of preparation, the time had come.

I drove my son to his first exam and we were greeted at the gates by student helpers who were assisting in ensuring the day ran as smoothly as possible. It was the first round at Dame Alice Owens in Potters Bar. The first round was verbal reasoning and only the top 300 students would go into the next round. There must have been thousands of kids there nervously waiting to sit the 11 plus exam; it is a very popular school. I immediately noticed how kind and caring the student helpers were, and they spoke to us in a calming voice as they knew from first hand experience how nervous the children were.

I kissed my son goodbye and wished him good luck. He responded with a hint of a smile and the words “thanks mum”. As I watched him walk off into the school on his own, I felt a small tear roll down my cheek. My son was growing up and, as always, I was so proud of his determination and drive.

We repeated that several times as he had to take many exams for the two schools we applied to. After every exam I made sure not to speak about it with him because I didn’t want him over analysing what had happened. It was done and in the past. I also allowed him a treat after every exam; chocolates or sweets, cooking him his favourite meal, or letting him spend more time playing video games.

My son didn’t make it past the second round for one of the schools. It broke my heart to watch him cry as I told him the news. At first I considered not telling him the truth, in order to spare his feelings, because I was worried this would knock his confidence and demotivate him. After all, he was still in the running for one more school.

My son was disheartened at first, but something clicked inside him; he began to work harder than ever for the final school. We booked sessions more regularly with Ali at North Finchley Tutors in the weeks building up to the final exam and my son dedicated all of his time to 11 plus revision. To my surprise, my child even decided to cut back on his hobbies and free time in the days leading up to that final round, which was Queen Elizabeth Boys School in Barnet, just one test, multiple choice Maths and English written by GL Assessments, to give one last push with every drop of determination that he had left inside of him. I had never seen my son so determined to succeed, and he did.

We were sat in the living room on the day he received the good news. When I told him, he was overjoyed. I will never forget the happiness in his eyes at that moment. Months of hard work, preparation and a lot of money had paid off. My son was so proud of his achievement.

The process was hard. I was lucky enough to find the right 11 plus tutors in North Finchley Tutors who knew exactly how to cater to my child’s needs. We filled the gaps in his knowledge, taught him the correct exam technique and watched him grow as a student.

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