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#even self harms are jokes to them-
blog-classicalruby · 1 year
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meirimerens · 5 months
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I've only now noticed Eva Yan's scars on your drawings of her, is there any story or headcanon behind them?
keeping it real babygirl [gender neutral] the story is that this woman canonically kills herself, canonically contemplates suicide, quite explicitly mentioning the method she intents on using to you (with implications that she has, at the very least, thought about it/thought it through before), and lives with broken mirrors so she cannot (/doesn't have to) see her face like i just think She Is Mentally Unwell. like as a long-term, enduring, persistent thing, She Is Mentally Unwell and the plague is just worsening her condition, while it didn't cause it. the storey/headcanon is that she is mentally ill, openly and canonically has self-destructive tendencies, so. the scars are here because she lives with a lil something something in her mind which drives her to plenty of destructive acts in ways big and small. ywkim
#like when i jokingly and lovingly called her a ''mentally ill bisexuelle''. i wasn't joking. ykwim#man i've given eva those for a long ass while i can't even rember when i started. i give some to peter too for the same reasons#(except he doesn't succeed in killing himself. but he does try.) but like. he has long sleeves & pants when i post him on here so. elusive#suicide /#self-harm /#what's that diagram showing how the closest you are to dankovsky the more suicidal you are. as someone who's been there#i can reclaim chuckling about it#ring ring (answers)#anonymous#& even if she doesn't die in my mind [bc she doesn't in every route] well. she still has those. she lives through them; and then with them#and lives on. you know. real recovereds will get this etc you get the jist#this is equal part story and headcanon on that one but there's also this pattern that eva throws her whole body into destruction. ykwim.#the way she kills herself is fullbody; entire physical body out of a window; it's not like how she first mentions it to dankovsky#it's a complete and utter destruction [which is not destruction *to her*; because; well we see how it ends]#it's also easy to see how her constant seeking of companionship; her sudden infatuations for a stranger and her offerings of companionship#can also be read as her ''throwing her whole body'' into it [here; into something that; maybe; can ''fill a void'' left by her spiritual#emptiness. so in the spirit of ''putting her whole body'' into destruction/into trying to fill an intangible void left by emptiness and fel#well. scars and the act make sense to me at least. because there is that attempt to exteriorize an inner suffering with acts like those
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harbingerofsoup · 2 months
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what really gets to me about the lawsuit arc is that no one really says the wrong thing when trying to reassure buck about everything in a general sense, they say what pretty much what you’d expect for the situation. so, on the first watch you’re sympathetic for buck but you still wonder why he’s reacting so strongly like damn guess this guy really likes his job.
then you watch buck begins. it literally recontexualizes everything especially the lawsuit cause while normally what was said to him would work, buck’s hyperspecific blend of trauma makes their attempts the worst thing they could possibly do to help, but none of them know that! so from their perspective buck comes across as unreasonable while in hindsight it’s actually a very clear trauma response
maybe one day i’ll do a rewatch so i can add specifics that show this instead of just vague incoherent ramblings
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junejasprose-addict · 18 days
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Some fucking ghouls on twitter just misgendered me and called me a chaser and a cross dresser and an agamp because I have an nsfw account where I retweet porn. Why do these kinds of people exist? Why are there trans women that just love acting exactly like terfs? I am so fucking tired of this shit and I'm not out to anyone irl so I have fucking no one to talk to about this! I'm not a docile little house cat so that gives people a free pass to paint me as a predator
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irritablepoe · 8 months
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pinterest keeps warning me that there's a pin which has self-harm in it and i finally searched for what the pin was. it was a quote from kafka. pinterest - do you... hate kafka?????
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me after downing an ungodly amount of alcohol: mm yeah my tummy hurts a bit but that's all, actually!!
me after eating bell pepper:
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mako-island-moon-pool · 10 months
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You want to know how bad my memory is?
I was writing last night and I just straight up forgot that Sanji exists. I have been watching this show since 2012, he was my fave Strawhat outside of Luffy pre-TS, and I FORGOT HE EXISTED.
I was like 'hm yes well the ones who would understand are Nami and Robin... W- wasn't there one more I was thinking of a moment ago? Wasn't there another one who'd Get It?????'
'it's not Chopper. Definitely not Usopp. And it's not Zoro. That's all the remaining Strawhats at this point in the story. So... Why am I convinced I'm forgetting someone? Let's go through the arcs in my head agai- OH MY GOD, I FORGOT SANJI'
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#When I tell you my memory is shit... 😭 I used to own a Sanji shirt. What the fuck??#When that post about the memory issues finally leaves my queue#Like I joke about it but this shit can be genuinely terrifying. Like knowing my brain is getting worse. Knowing I'm probably forgetting#Seriously important things and just 'oops I can't remember haha'#It's scary.#I'll never get better because I'll just relive the pain over and over because my brain refuses to remember the help and progress I make#Every day I wake up back at step 1 it's so depressing and scary and horrifying and I hate it#I can never process anything bc I just forget and if I do remember it's like a punch to the chest for the first time every time#And people get SO sick of you after a while. Constantly asking for help. Never remembering anything. They get so annoyed with you.#Anyway. On a lighter note (not actually) I'm trying out a new one-shot :)#Not to speak ill of the 'soon-to-be' dead but Garp was a shit grandfather#So I was like What If Me And Luffy Had The Same Reaction#Because self love starts in recognizing your self through the other god damn it#Even if I finish this idk if I'll post it bc of how personal it is but it has been very cathartic to write#Then again I could just publish it anonymously so my irl friends won't see it. No harm no foul.#I (kid) once pushed my mom (grown adult) out of my room when she caused me to have a meltdown so I could 100% see Luffy doing the same thin#In my defense she had a habit of taunting me and destroying my stuff to punish me after inciting meltdowns and I just wanted to be alone#I was like 7 years old at the time (hell year hell year) so I doubt I actually hurt her. She just looked surprised. I remember that.#Sometimes I wonder why I identify so much with werewolves and then I remember ah yes. The childhood of being treated like a monster.#Like a freak because when people kept pushing your boundaries you'd rather bite than let them do whatever they want to you#Oh boo hoo such a terrible thing for a child to be... Protective of themselves...#ANYWAY. like I said this wasn't going to be much lighter.#I want Luffy to punch the lights out of Garp to protect his friends. Not even in-canon just in this fic#Ik in-canon Garp is a complex guy and loads of fans love him but... Smash eggs make sandwiches know what I'm saying?#Yeah GROOVY
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scoreplings · 1 year
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also this is just one of my childcare onions but i think its actually very irresponsible that learning how to redirect isn’t considered required for people who work with kids like. it’s difficult to do! it’s something you have to practice & learn and it’s something that can prevent injury and trauma so often in kids
#like ive only ever one time had to restrain a student (he started biting and drawing blood it was a safety issue :( )#and its SO terrible for them#there is a reason its a last resort#you’re supposed to restrain any student self harming but tbqh if it’s not causing serious injury restraint is only going to harm them more#and escalate the situation#its TERRIFYING being a little person and having someone who you trust physically prevent you from doing what you feel you need to do to make#yourself safe#because especially in younger kids that’s why they’re acting out! they’re scared or overwhelmed in some way and that’s their outlet#and if you can redirect instead of punish or restrain it helps so so much. and prevents so much distress#likeee if a kid is peeling her skin or threatening another student it is so much better to call them over to have a talk & help you put#snack together or something than it is to frighten them more by escalating things#obvs it doesnt work with like kids like the one who kept biting me earlier this year was impossible to redirect past a certain point#but if you catch it early & know how to do it even students with as extreme behavioral issues as he had can be helped#he lovedd when you’d ask him to help with the classroom and if you did it when you first noticed him getting uncomfortable it could prevent#an incident almost every time#idk it just makes me so pissed off that so many teachers & other people who work with kids think restraint is the first thing to resort to#when things get physical#i had a coworker joke to me that i should start beating the kid who kept biting me#HE WAS FIVE!! he was scared you fucking asshole hes tiny and he isn’t used to life yet and he hasn’t developed empathy!! why do you want to#hurt a baby!!
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Boy I am still feeling some type of way about Caleb and at this point I always am.
Tw: medical trauma, dissociation, self harm, plus caleb's general backstory.
Caleb's trauma specifically relating to the crystals but other parts as well feel so similar to a lot of the medical trauma I have experienced. And it honestly took ages before it clicked, but now I can't unsee it.
He's tied down and has his body cut open. He's left alone to deal with the aftermath and damage it caused. He's filled with self-blame and hatred and self-destructive urges.
And I think about what's happened to me and it lines up eerily similar, although I was not tortured nor did I have magic crystals shoved into my skin. But, the bones are the same.
Horrible things that I consented to were done to me and I was left alone to pick up the pieces afterward. I had so many thoughts of if my body would just function, if I could just do X or Y. That it was all somehow my fault. I wasn't good enough or sick enough or a million other things.
Caleb's and my responses were the same. Caleb self harms and dissociates and cant confront the people that did this to him. That was me too. Is me still sometimes.
But, we see him start to work through his trauma and start to accept at least parts of what happened to him. "There's nothing to hide anymore." And hopefully he will start to move away from all these self destructive habits and thoughts and heal.
And I think that's why Caleb is so important to me. I see him take back agency over his body and his mind. Him choosing not to shower is a choice. Him choosing to grow his hair and his beard is a choice. Him choosing to show his scars. Him choosing to talk about his past. Him choosing to confront those that hurt him. Its so powerful to see and it shows me and im sure so many others that its possible to reclaim yourself and your life, that although these things may be a part of you, they arent you.
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cashew-milkk · 2 years
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i wonder if this constant loneliness i feel is my fault… but i reach out to my friends and they don’t reply. i’m trying to talk to them but it seems like i always get ignored. it’s so much easier to lock myself away than to deal with rejection again and again.
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inkskinned · 1 year
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it's been said before and i'm sure said better than i can phrase it. but really, really - if you like making "i'm going to kill myself" jokes, please try switching to being ironically conceited instead.
anytime something goes wrong, say things like "ah well at least i'm beautiful and charming and everyone loves me." when you forget something, try "my big huge brain is so smart and thinking about too many other very big wizardly thoughts you wouldn't even understand." when you're frustrated by one of your symptoms, start talking like you're in My Immortal. "Life has come for me but my eyes are beautiful pools of gorgeous fire and my hair is amazing. I stuck my middle finger up at life and told it to fuck off and it did."
just... try it for a month or two. try saying the most absurdly self-congratulatory shit you can think of.
i know it's tempting to make suicide or self-harm jokes. and for me at least, a decade ago (!) when someone suggested i stop making those kinds of jokes, i was kind of at a loss for what to replace them with. i wanted to make light of these moments, but genuinely (at the time) my first thought really was suicidal ideation. there was a part of me that even felt like ... i was kind of "making light" of that voice. that if i could say i want to die lol, it would help take the sting out of that genuine (albeit passive) desire. like i could turn my illness into a joke.
when i started complimenting myself instead, it felt awkward and stupid. it felt really, really ironic. what i was actually saying was nobody would ever think this stuff about me, that's what makes it so fucking funny.
but. the effect was immediate. first thing i noticed was the people around me. when i dropped a glass and said ah my skin is too beautiful and sleek the glass has swooned and broken for me, other people were suddenly overjoyed to jump in with the joke. rather than making an awkward moment, we'd both start cracking up. ah princess sleek hands, i've heard of you.
i was 19. i hadn't noticed i'd been making others tense when i said i want it all to end. i know now that it's incredibly hard to know how to walk that moment - do you talk to them about your concern? do you potentially make them uncomfortable by asking if they're okay? do you ignore the situation? do you help them pick up the glass, or do they need to do it by themselves? are they genuinely made suicidal over this small moment? and most importantly, how do you - without professional training or supplies - actually help?
most people want to help you pick up the glass in your life, they just have no fucking idea how to do it. they don't want to make anything worse. they don't want to make assumptions about you. they love you, they're scared for you - and being scared makes people kind of freeze up. it's not because they don't love you. it's because they do.
now when something bad happens, my first thought is how can i make a stupid joke about this. it isn't my brain saying you're a dumb fucking bitch. i spend more time laughing. i spend more time being gentle with myself. i spend more time feeling good.
and the thing is - what's kind of funny - is that you'd be surprised by how many people agree with you. the first time i said i'm too pretty to understand that, someone else said to be fair you're the prettiest person in this room. i promise - you really don't know how kindly your friends see you. but they love you for a reason. they sort of reverse-velveteen-rabbit you. your weird and ugly spots fade away and you just become... the love they want to give you.
go love yourself ironically. the worst thing that happens is that you end up tricking your reflection into actually loving you.
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astraltrickster · 11 months
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What frustrates me about disability advocacy is that...of all the people I've seen talk about it, 99% of them - even ones who are disabled themselves - have eventually proven that their support has limits. Really stupid and arbitrary ones, at that.
You support disabled people...but if you see an adult with a DIAPER BULGE in their pants in public it's ON SIGHT, get your kink out of my face! Actually, even if it's not a kink, that's still gross and, like, it's not like the diaper exists to CONTAIN waste, you're a biohazard! Just stay home!
You support disabled people...but, ugh, you're so sick of masks, they feel so icky, the CDC isn't advising them anymore so really how bad can it be, if you don't want to be permanently disabled even worse than you already are then why don't you just stay home forever?
You support disabled people...but if you see anyone using a non-conventional straw that someone's billed as "anti-aging" on TikTok you proudly declare that you'll smack them, because what do you mean it might be a motor control or sensory thing?
You support disabled people...but no one is REALLY so disabled that they can't manage their lights conventionally, clean their homes by themselves, or hold a pen for extended periods of time or at all; that's just something people make up as an excuse for Bad Tech and exploitative luxury services.
You support disabled people...but, god, control your by-definition-uncontrollable tics, they're SOOOO annoying and rude!
You support disabled people...but when someone stops masking or runs out of spoons and starts speaking in a choppy, hard-to-understand way, it's a joke.
You support disabled people...but AAC is, like, sooooo annoying and hard to understand, learn to talk like a normal person instead of pointing like a baby or whatever, geez.
You support disabled people...but you hate image descriptions and video transcriptions because they're, like, sooooo ugly and transcriptions SPOIL things. (Not to be confused with "frequently not having the spoons to translate images and videos into text, which is a skill; one which everyone should try to develop, but a skill nonetheless" - I get that, it happens to me, but if you take issue with OTHER people adding them to your posts for Aesthetic Reasons, you're...kind of a dick! I'm not sorry for saying it!)
You support disabled people...but you think teehee funny joke annotations are a much more valuable use of caption tracks than, you know, actual captions are.
You support disabled people...but you still concern-troll people with armchair diagnoses of heavily stigmatized disorders for harmless weirdness, or try to paint them as icons of some kind of horrible social ill.
You support disabled people...but you're still convinced that every asshole is mentally ill, probably A Narcissist, and what do you mean that's a loaded thing to call someone when a heavily stigmatized disorder is rudely misnamed as such too, isn't it easier to, like, change the name of the disorder throughout the whole system than it is to just stop using that word as your go-to Bad Person Pathologizing Word, which you definitely need? (Or worse, you see no problem with this clash because you're convinced it IS Bad Person Disorder...)
You support disabled people...but you see someone mumbling to themself on the bus and you get as far away from them as possible because it's "scary".
You support disabled people...but you constantly try to pull "gotcha"s about people telling you not to touch people's assistive devices.
You support disabled people...but someone being okay with their delusional disorder and talking about that is BAD and PROMOTING SELF-HARM.
You support disabled people...but your body positivity still focuses exclusively on "people can be healthy and fat at the same time!" as if people who ARE fat because of health issues and/or have health issues BECAUSE of their weight don't exist or deserve support.
You support disabled people...but you declare that advocates who want us all to have more access to things that improve your quality of life are the REAL ableists for acknowledging that those things that you currently can't do tend to improve quality of life.
You support disabled people...but your advocacy for yourself involves distancing yourself from people with more support needs than you.
You support disabled people...but you treat addiction of any kind, or use of anything with known addictive tendencies, as a moral failing.
You support disabled people...until the accommodations they need clash with your own, then it's not just a benign incompatibility that sucks just as much for them as it does for you; no, you are an innocent victim and they are a horrible ableist.
You support disabled people...until it's too inconvenient. Too weird. Too scary. Once that line is crossed, it's not a disability issue anymore, they're, conveniently, just a Bad Person.
It's fucking exhausting and I'm sick to death of it.
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blondehimbogirl · 1 year
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shout out to my parents for telling me "don't do that" when i came to them as a child with intrusive thoughts about stabbing myself in the eye with a straw. utterly useless on their part but a funny story on my end.
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crash-freak · 2 months
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The internet honestly and truly despises schizophrenic people/people with psychosis. They despise our existence. So many “mental health” advocates actively demonize psychosis.
People refuse to listen to us when we tell them not to use “delulu”. They can understand why using mental health terms incorrectly is damaging. They can understand not to say “intrusive thoughts” when they mean impulsive thoughts. They understand why saying “I’m so OCD” when not describing OCD is wrong. They are actively refusing to understand why not to use delulu.
I’ve had people tell me, when describing why not to say delulu, that it’s not a big deal. It’s not a big deal to you. You’re not the one suffering. And even then, you don’t need to personally suffer in order to understand why something is harmful. You should not need to see yourself/someone in your life suffer to have understanding for those who do. Your understanding should not be based on proximity to the self, ESPECIALLY if you consider yourself a mental health advocate.
And if they don’t use “delulu”, then they’ll often describe someone they’re morally opposed/bigoted as delusional. As if being delusional is some sort of moral failure.
Not to mention how if someone so much as mentions their psychosis, they’ll get bombarded with “I’m in your walls” jokes. If someone hears that a person experiences psychosis, they will actively attempt to trigger that person’s psychosis.
They hate us. The internet hates us. I’ve grown up on the internet seeing psychosis demonized my entire life.
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princessjojo-x · 6 months
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Mars Synastry
💝 2nd house - mars adopts taurus traits. mars behaves patient, cautious, reliable & sentimental towards house. the way house acts is extremely comforting to mars & causes mars to seek deep intimacy with house.
this aspect may feel uncomfortable for house bc mars somehow brings conflict to houses sense of security or self-esteem. this can be an indicator of potential jealousy.
house adopts the masculine role & bull like tendencies when it comes to outsiders coming around mars. house becomes unconsciously protective of mars & refuses to let any harm come their way. house is fiercely loyal & easily possessive of mars.
since this is the house of taurus, partners have a lot of s3x. touch & pacing is often the theme in the bedroom. there is a multisensory sensation during sex as both partners are unable to take their hands off one another. mars is extremely aroused & attracted to house’s body. however, in an emotional way, not in a shallow way. house holds off on touching mars back until they feel comfortable bc they takes s3x with mars very seriously & feels mars’s touch very intensely.
there is an overwhelming desire to own eachother & take care of one another. partners love the way each other speak. partners get turned on by hearing each other speak.
they may talk abt finances often or become business partners. (leo mars or aries asc)
💝 3rd house - patience is needed for this this playful & mischievous connection to prevail. it’s usually a slow burn storyline or a friends-to-lovers dynamic. this couple may look cold to others but they are so cute when they’re alone. expect bickering like siblings & even heated arguments.
this aspect breeds a lot of mischievous energy & partners can bicker like siblings. there’s also a lot of joking, teasing, taunting & dirty talk used as a form of foreplay. however, one (usually mars) may offend the other (usually house) a lot through jokes. even though mars is very careful when speaking to house, mars still ends up provoking house unintentionally, due to mars’s intense & aggressive nature. since mars adopts gemini traits when pursuing house, they get aroused by arguing with house. mars feels stimulated by house for better or worse. mars can sense this so tends try their best to maintain a detached persona to control the pace. mars has both blunt & nervous energy around house. mars perceives house as mysterious, intimidating & endearing.
mars prefers actions over words & house prefers conversations so they need to find a solution. mars can be too pushy with their ideas, in attempts to change houses mind, but making house feel tired. overtime, house gains courage to speak their mind with mars. partners may be constantly changing their minds regarding each other leading to a very on-n-off dynamic. despite them being different externally, they’re very similar internally, due to the gemini influence (dualistic effect).
they’re very open minded regarding s3x. there’s plenty of sensual touch & stimulation using the hands. even when sleeping or chilling together, there is an inclination to touch the fingers or bring the hands closer together. even when laughing together, they have to rest their hand on the other or reach out to each other. they have to touch each other, even in the slightest way, it’s like they just can’t help it. they just need the reassurance that they are there. house may need that reassurance more than mars. (virgo mars or pisces asc)
💝 4th house - this is a long term & traditionalrxship with sweet undertones.
at first, house feels threatened by mars’s harsh approach & house feels like mars invades their space. in time, house realises that mars is just trying to teach them how to defend boundaries & establish security. mars becomes very protective over house whilst house helps ground mars. house acts as a safe place for mars.
they tend to projects their own emotional baggage into the rxship. arguments between them can be heated due to emotional tendencies & old defense mechanisms. also, their parents may not approve of the rxship.
s3xually there’s a lot of emotional attachment & sensitivity involved. s3xually, mars pushes house to be assertive & teaches house new things abt s3x. (libra mars or aqua asc)
💝 5th house - this rxship has masculine energy due to the amount of honesty & possessiveness. this may be an-n-off dynamic with plenty of chemistry, teasing & playing. expect intense stares & random texts.
no matter how shy mars may be, they embody leo energy. mars seeks admiration, praise & attention from house, wether either partners realise it or not. mars becomes bolder in the presence of house. mars’s drive & sexuality is both alluring & sexy to house. s3xually, mars tends to be quite straightforward, impulsive & selfish bc house turns them on so much.
mars know how to obtain a reaction from house. house feels like mars dominates them. house feels annoyed & excited simultaneously when mars is close. mars can hurt houses feelings without realizing. but house person isn’t shy so they do bite back. in some cases house’s ego is more prevalent when dealing with mars.(scorpio mars or cap asc)
💝 6th house - this isn’t a very romantic couple but a very long-lasting & grounded dynamic. they’re love language is through actions instead of words. both like to support each other’s goals & offer each other help. house makes mars person more organised with their routine.
mars adopts virgo traits, acting far more observant rather than action-taking, cat & mouse energy rather than straightforwardly pursuing house. house easily trusts mars, due to how genuine & grounded mars approaches house. mars knows what actions to take to win house over but simultaneously feels awkward abt expressing their more intimate desires. mars can be more somber around house bc they can become easily embarrassed & flustered by house. mars person thinks the house person is more intellectual than themselves. mars views house as their ideal & house is aware of their admiration. in fact, house will see through mars plenty of times. house fosters a very deep but slow burning desire for mars.
the s3x is not dramatic but very sensual with earthy vibes. s3xually, mars seeks to please house at all cost whilst house seeks to be pleased. (sag mars or sag asc)
💝 7th house - this a passionate & warm partnership with plenty of physical attraction from either side. both enjoy spending time together in a peaceful manner
this may even be an enemies to lovers dynamic.
mars often embodies libra traits. mars takes a calm & flirty approach towards house. mars becomes more compromising towards the desires of house. often, mars wants to do & be anything possible to please house.
house perceives mars as easy to blend with & sexually alluring.
& may even prefer more gentle sex when with one another. since this is libras house stimulation of the pelvic, booty region is often a theme. (scorpio asc or cap mars)
💝 8th house - theres a lot more masculine themes & energy here compared to ‘venus conjunct eighth house’. no matter how airy or earthy mars may be, mars feels very thrilled by house & feels a sense of urgency to conquer house. mars feels compelled to bond & merge with house on every level bc they view house as their guilty pleasure. mars finds themselves constantly observing & intensely infatuated by house in a scorpion way. mars often expresses random & intense bursts of needing to physically touch or be in close reach to house. mars can take on a very intense energy around house that others will pick up on but the sheer depth is something that’ll always only exists between the two partners. convos between the two are very 1 on 1, even with people around them. initially, house feels scared & timid towards mars since mars has such a straightforward, pushy, dominant & rushing approach. house needs to see progress before completely losing their restraint & expressing their feelings. however, house simultaneously feels extremely sexy, mesmerised & aroused by mars’s raw desire. house can read mars very well. mars may provide for house. mars doesn’t forget abt house easily bc house changes mars’s life. rxship may be difficult to end bc mars will be persistent in continuing the rxship. s3xual tension between partners is powerful & even others can feel it. this can cause partners operating more on instincts & lacking awareness of basic emotions. theres a strong need for physical intimacy & touch. for example, gentle touching or outright fighting. s3x if ever allowed can easily become addictive. partners have s3x like the world is going to end, possibly in forbidden places or secret spots. the s3x involves a lot of teasing, power plays, helping each other masturbate & holding each other as close as possible. s3x is use as an escape or release of stress. s3xually mars takes on a aggressive & passionate role whilst house can become very wild.since this is the house of taboo, the attraction may be wrong in some way & the rxship feels forbidden even if it’s not. it may be a secretive dynamic where nobody knows they’re together or people wouldn’t expect them to be together. despite partners feeling intrigued & excited for each other, there’s possibility of heavy feelings (frustration) for one another. one day they love each other, the next day they want to avoid each other. traumas can show through this rxship, like deep talks at night or triggering each others deep wounds. they like to pull each other, but neither takes the bait. (libra asc or aqua mars)
💝 9th house - partners have an easy going chemistry. mars adopts sagittarius traits, becoming far more straight forward & drawn to house. mars seeks a good time & envisions house as a human form of that. there’s tendency for both to be slightly arrogant & ignorant towards one another. however, partners are deeply connected both physically & spiritually. (pisces mars or virgo asc)
💝 10th house - this is cold chemistry with two equally detached partners who don’t know what they want at all from one another. mars has a somber approach to house & can seem uninterested & unbothered to an untrained eye. but the seriousness emitting from mars isn’t discontent, it’s merely admiration. mars wants to impress house to earn them. mars maybe constantly trying to bring house down bc of houses public image. house is everything mars wants to be & how they want others to perceive them. it can be really tiring for house to hear mars trying to make house insecure. house often finds themselves leaving their walls up around mars more than they would anyone else. this is the type of couple that are known to be arguing all the time. this couple puts on a show for others in a good or bad way. sex is very passionate & loud, and long-lasting. they also tend to push each other to grow in their careers & personal life style so if you're not ready for that, it can be a bit too much. (aries mars or leo asc)
💝 11th house - there is a lot of freedom & there is not much jealousy making it a harmonious rxship. mars adopts aquarius traits, acting fairly detached with house, feeling like house is slightly out of reach & having on/off attraction to house. house adopts uranian traits causing them to disappear & reappear at odd times. this is good synastry for friends with benefits due to the hot & cold vybz. (taurus mars or cancer asc)
💝 12th house - usually these rxships aren’t very permanent unless it’s familial. there's a lot of confusion at times & partners don’t seem to understand each others true intentions. mars is both scared & drawn to house simultaneously. mars seeks both union with house & sanctum away from the intense energy simultaneously. mars can feel easily drained & submissive around house. house finds themselves wanting to protect mars, seeing the more fragile & weaker side of mars through energy alone. person most people find this synastry a little overwhelming & uncomfortable bc it envolves so many intense feelings & vulnerability. once both are ready physically & emotionally to sleep with one another, it’s usually intense. the s3x is usually delayed or out of reach in a way.
💝 mars conjunct sun - this can manifest as ‘enemies to lovers’. there can be a competitive streak & sun can feel jealous of mars. both feel very energetic after spending time with each other. both can behave very flirty with one another since they find each other irresistible & feel a fascination for each others bodies. mars sees sun as alluring, powerful & dominant. sun sees mars as chaotic, intense & equally seductive.
💝 mars conjunct chiron - you heal each other through sex & the sex can become addictive bc it feels so healing, but you may not be consciously aware of this. from the first time you sleep together something happens inside both of your souls. (capricorn mars or taurus chiron)
💝 mars conjunct south node - indicator of violence in a past life (sag mars or taurus sn)
💝 mars conjunct jupiter - a dramatic & fiery rxship with plenty of sexual chemistry. they brighten each others bad mood bc they are constantly flirting, playing & having fun together no matter the context or setting. however, there may be arguments & it’s usually jupiter who mediates the situation. jupiter encourages mars competitiveness, whilst mars leans on jupiter for support, wisdom or optimism. (cancer mars or taurus jupiter)
💝 mars opposite mars - the nature of this aspect depends on the signs involved. in some cases, one mars will be very strong & the other mars will be debilitated. this will occur between aries & libra, scorpio & taurus, capricorn & cancer. in these cases, the pink mars will tend to be very direct, especially when angry. the purple mars will take a more indirect approach & will be prone to manipulative or passive-aggressive behavior. but this will tend to anger the pink mars even more, leading to a vicious cycle. in these cases, this aspect can be quite volatile. if they are to get along, they will need to learn to understand each other & compromise. the pink mars will need to learn to back off at times & the purple mars will need to practice being more direct & forthright. however, when this aspect appears in the other possible signs: pisces & virgo, gemini & sagittarius, aquarius & leo, this aspect will tend to bring balance; they will be able to work well together & compliment each other bc these mars signs are of relatively equal strength.
💝 mars opposite venus - this aspect causes strong attraction which never leaves or becomes luke warm (similar to ‘mars opposite mars’). even after years partners will never get bored of making love to one another. this intense romantic & sexual energy may even border obsession. There isn’t a lack of desire in this relationship! one has the traits that the other lacks meaning they complement each other perfectly & give each other what one another wants. both partners work perfectly in bed together bc this is the ”omg are you a top? perfect bc i’m a bottom” kind of energy. one partner, usually venus is more submissive whilst the other, usually mars is more dominant. sometimes mars may be outraged by venus’s obedience meanwhile venus is disturbed by mars’s dominance. this complex rxship can become unstable & fluctuating, almost like a roller-coaster; sometimes partners are immensely attracted to each other, other times, they’re repulsed by each other. (scorpio venus/mars)
💝 mars opposite sun - hot & cold, on & off, rivalry. (libra mars or scorpio sun)
💝 mars square mars - frustration & war-like dynamic (leo/aquarius mars)
💝 mars conjunct moon - lots of passion, pregnancy & lessons learnt in this partnership. strong emotional & physical connection which is hard to completely break apart. partners feel a safe & familiar feeling when with each other. this aspect reveals the instinctive sides of both partners. usually, mars is more energetic than moon. moon may feel triggered by mars & partners may irritate each other due to the intensity of this aspect. (aries mars or taurus moon)
💝 mars opposite jupiter - initially, there’s chemistry between the two. jupiter loves to provoke, test & play games with mars. (capricorn mars or scorpio jupiter)
💝 mars opposite ascendant - mutual sexual attraction. however, mars takes charge of the rxship which makes asc feel frustrated. despite mars being supportive of asc self-expression, asc feels nervous whilst asserting their rights in the rxship. (capricorn mars or scorpio asc)
💝 mars square jupiter - this rxship is full of friction. jupiter thinks they know best & belittles mars with their lecturing. mars wont put up with it & wont let jupiter take a win. there is a lot of sexual attraction but partners might have different sexual preferences. (aqua/leo jupiter or libra/aries mars)
💝 mars square pluto - intense passion, sexual chemistry & power struggles. rxhsip may even lead to abuse & violence. pluto almost activates the dark side of mars. mars will go through a self awakening & learn many lessons through pluto. partners tend to ghost each other but mars usually comes back to pluto. (pisces/virgo mars or leo/aqua pluto
💝 mars square rising - aggression & conflict. mars’s energy makes rising feel weak & threatened. if rising is a man & mars is a woman, this aspect will make her feel like he is not manly enough. for example, she doesn’t like how he handles conflict, she doesn’t see him as ambitious enough, etc. (aries/libra mars or leo/aqua rising)
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These are my personal observations and should be taken in the context of the whole chart, never isolated 😊
Some of this is 18+, no minors allowed
♦️Mars-Uranus aspects can indicate a liking for risky activities and extreme sports, like motorcycling or base jumping. They can even like to put themselves in danger as they need the adrenaline. Routine is super boring for them, they need to try new things very often. They should be careful to release this nervous energy with sports, work they're passionate about or things like that or it can backfire. This aspect can be tempered down with Saturn aspects or a lot of earth energy in the chart.
♦️Venus square mars aspect: can often be mean to the person they like, classic "if he pulled your hair it's because he likes you" stuff. Can be very passionate, might have difficulty to separate feelings from lust. They might have talent for artistic sports like dancing or ice skating. For women, they might like a more sporty fashion style.
♦️Sun-saturn aspects: especially for harsh ones, this can really change the expression of the sun sign. I know someone with sun and several planets in Leo, but they are all square to Saturn and you could never tell she's a Leo; she is very reserved, shy and restrained in life. But as with all Saturn aspects this can change with age, the personality coming through more and more while keeping an amazing sense of discipline, wisdom and grounding.
♦️Moon-uranus aspects: with harsh aspects (conjunction, square, opposition), the mother might have been emotionally cold during the childhood, and she might have been a bit erratic and unpredictable. This could have showed up as frequently moving places, or having a mother considered weird or crazy by society. With soft aspects like trine or sextile this could show up as an untraditional family, maybe having two fathers or two mothers, or parents very into technology, but this was not hard on the person and it helped them develop their individuality and independence.
♦️Taurus mercury: these people can learn much slower than other people (this does not mean they are not as intelligent, their rhythm is just different). At school they might have felt behind their schoolmates or felt like they didn't have enough time to finish their exams/homework. It is important that they don't feel bad about this and take the time they need to do their work. This might be less strong with Uranus influence on mercury. ♦️ Aquarius moon natals and their need to always read and watch self-development content without ever actually feeling their feelings 🙃
♦️ Venus conjunct moon: these people are so kind, they have such a big heart and do not wish harm on anyone, please stay mindful of who has access to you as many people might want to be in contact with this energy but sometimes also energy vampires.
♦️ Mercury conjunct/square pluto and their dark humor! I have this in my chart and one of my colleagues actually said to me three days after she started: "your jokes can be really dark sometimes" 😂 it gets worse when I'm tired as I don't filter my jokes so much before saying them. These aspects might also think a lot about death and dark themes, they can be the type to think "what happens if I die tomorrow", or "I could die if I do this" but not in a worried way, just thinking rationally about what is possible.
♦️ Leo mars women and their secret backup plan of becoming a stripper or an exotic dancer 💃 these women often have a talent for dancing, and performing can make them feel desired and confident.
♦️ Aries moon/mars placements and their road rage! Both my parents have these placements and my god the number of stressful rides to school I had when I was a child 😂 this can also apply to the other fire mars.
♦️ Lilith conjunct ascendant: these people often provoke reactions everywhere they go, they rarely go unnoticed whether it is positive reactions or negative. The women with this aspect might get sexualised a lot, and the men with this aspect might attract animosity from other men. ♦️ Sun-jupiter and moon-jupiter aspects: they might always see the bright side of things, "it will get better", "this is temporary", seeing the glass half-full. A lot of optimism, faith in a higher meaning, maybe too optimistic sometimes and too trusting that things will unfold in the right way.
♦️Mars square pluto women often attract creepy men on the street, interactions with aggressive men might be unfortunately common. It is important to not repress their anger and channel their power in something like martial arts.
♦️Gemini moon/IC: they might love to talk with their loved ones at home, a lot of communication and learning in their private life. If they live alone they might be a lot on the phone or always have music or tv or radio on.
♦️Mercury square saturn: they might doubt their intellectual abilities when young, their learning style might not fit the classic school system. It is important that they are encouraged by their family, and with time they will gain confidence and master the learning techniques that fit them best.
♦️Mars in virgo might care too much about pleasing their partner in bed and have a hard time receiving pleasure without giving anything. They might also feel self-conscious if they do not feel "clean" like not fresh out of the shower. It is important for them to practice letting go of their thoughts and doubts and be present in their body. They deserve pleasure as much as everybody else!
♦️ Jupiter in the 2nd house might have a very good self-esteem, if the moon and venus are not too afflicted. And if it is the case it helps the native deal with the harder aspects.
♦️ That's why it is so dangerous to interpret an  aspect in isolation of the rest of the chart, a challenging aspect might be very beneficial in a chart and less in another one. For instance moon conjunct saturn might be more challenging for a Capricorn moon which is already quite controled and closed off, but in the sign of Aries it might help the native tame their impulsivity and control better their emotions. 
♦️ Or moon square Uranus might be beneficial for a Capricorn moon or a Taurus moon as it might help them break out of their routine and become more adaptable and flexible to change.
Thank you for reading!
@lunaa007
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