#grow up nothing is happening here

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

A new challenger approaches (slowly)

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #wen chao #jin zixuan #jiang cheng #lan wangji #tulu xuanwu #Wen Chao's turtlephobia starts now. I wonder if that's ever going to come back into play? #Slight re-ordering of events for the funny punchlines but we're close to getting back on track. #The mianmian stuff happening right after we also have a Torment Tortoise looking for blood makes this scene so chaotic. #A good kind of chaos as it is supposed to be overwhelming and anxiety inducing! #I have been sitting on the idea of the Beast being just a normal turtle with a knife for ages. Years in fact. #It's stupid as hell but that's sometimes what art is. Indulging the past you who would have loved to see the dumb thing be drawn. #Making it canon now that A-Qing's turtle (the one pd-Lan Sizhui found) is a descendant of this turtle. #Maybe she was so defensive because she has eggs she was watching over! How insensitive of these cultivators! #You can insert your own choice of boss music here - I did not grow up playing video games so I have nothing off the top of my head. #I am making a BOTW reference here so you could substitute one of those themes but I find them more melancholic than menacing.

[samanthamulder]

THE X-FILES (1993-2018)

SEASON EIGHT — I will go on record to say this: that I have seen things that I cannot explain. I have observed phenomena that I cannot deny. And that as a scientist and a serious person it is a badge of honor not to dismiss these things because someone thinks they're BS.

#I realised that if I wanna finish all this before the anniversary celebration I need to pick up the pace a bit jdfbskf so here we go :') #txf #tv #txf8 #txfedit #tvedit #the x files #scifiedit #.gif #thexfilesnet #*txfrewatch #this season is actually quite beloved to me. especially in light of what comes after...but also in its own right I'd say! #mulder abduction arc is a fabulous concept that sadly is underwhelmingly executed (and not just from my point of view of I KNOW he's #gonna be fine...) and at this point we are left thinking that william is a normal healthy msr love child so the pregnancy arc is ok too #the show ended here btw. nothing else happened after and they are still standing in scully's bedroom holding william the ??th and smooching #I swear #oh. also. I LOVE john doggett and I love his and scully's relationship; how they come to trust one another over the course of the season #THAT is the ideal PLATONIC partnership actually. professional trust and respect that grows very carefully and eventually #blossoms into a more personal friendship <3 #*saul queued

[ratcandy]

nobody look at me for a minute

#this is aryl he is my yellow cat . he had exactly two braincells but leshy ate one of them so now there's only one left. #will he survive the winter with nothing happening in that head of his? only time will tell. #also yes arylide is just a shade of yellow SHUT up #i accidentally made him look like a cat i had growing up I cannot handle this. Sighs. #this is just an oc right like that's all that's happening here. this character existed for exactly one (1) official 30 second short #and we're all just collectively making ocs out of him. that's all that's happening here. #anyway. #clamart #cult of the lamb #cotl leshy #cotl yellow cat #<- like this tag is full of different guys. so many different guys. #and i think that's beautiful #leshycat

[bikerboyfriend]

screenshot dump

#dino.png #myV: léo-vincent valentine #cyberpunk 2077 #léo-vincent infodump of the day #ermmmmmm lets do a big one #oh yeah. here's some lore from the 10k word docu i have #léo-vin's mother was a joytoy. completely unplanned pregnancy & he was born prematurely. he was born in some random motel bathroom #miracle birth but they expected him to die soon anyw. bc otherwise she thought she'd mercy-kill him #bc she believed nothing was crueler than having a child in NC. and she also didnt want one #but he survives somehow and so hes just kind of there. she doesnt rlly.. idk...its very complicated but- #-from his memories he thinks she didnt really like him #oh yeah important note: his mother's 'friend' who assisted giving birth to him was padre's late ex wife #they were estranged but she picked up when she called #so hes like...a godfather in a way #his mother didnt want to name him bc she didnt want to grow attached to him. so léo never actually is never named. #they essentially started calling him 'baby valentine' (his mothers 'stage name' was valentine) #he starts going by V later and then when he meets jackie and mama welles #she wants to get his name incase anything happens to him and they wanna memorialise him. and shes like #even if you dont want to tell me just write it on a piece of paper and i wont look until then #he tells her she doesnt have a name. all three parts of his name (léo-vincent valentine) #are like...hand-picked. but that is all for the infodump. Okay bye

[gunstellations]

unreachable

#kaeluc #my art #suddenly thinking about younger kaeluc.. #growing up but theyre in an adults world #two peas in a pod but the distance is noticable all the more when theyre growing older #expectations and responsibility #vs feelings of being an outsider who doesnt deserve any of this #what they have created for themselves #each thinking is slipping away and theres nothing they can do #add a budding romance to it and youve got angst for days #also maybe kind of an au thing here bc im sure crepus would make sure it wouldnt get too bad for kaeya ok #but i just like to think he could be a bit of a wrangly little sad boy with too much love to give #dont worry give it a couple of years theyll have figured it out and be besties again before the inevitable happens :') #you can read this as ragbros too without the romance its up to your own intepretation tbh #i love the idea of that as well im all about exploring every possible dynamic of their sad little found family

[hella1975]

realising something bad about someone that means the world to you should be illegal. id like to live blindly actually

#ive been tiptoeing around this realisation for a WHILE now but today was the first time i actually verbatim in my head #went 'i dont like living with my mum'. and the moment i thought it was like no nooononono lets NOT do that #like objectively my mum is my favourite person in the world and i love her more than every other person in my life combined #but LIVING with her in HER HOUSE is just not... it. and it makes me feel awful for even thinking it bc that's her biggest fear #that we're gonna grow up to have the same relationship that she had with her mum and that ISNT what's happening like i could never #be distant from my mum in fact the reason she has such a chokehold on me is BECAUSE there's so much love there #but it would still break her heart to know i felt this way and i just feel so shitty for it. but like? i CANT relax here #like the thing that made me think it this morning wasn't even an explosive thing like it usually is with her #like every shouting screaming argument we've had ive just taken it. but then this morning when nothing exceptional happened #i was just. done. so basically i told u guys she wanted me to hoover today and already yelled about it YESTERDAY which. whatever #and she goes out every thurdsay until lunchtime and i think ive said on here before that the days we're home alone are HUGE flashpoints #bc if she comes home and perceives that not enough chores have been done/one thing has been done wrong she just hits the ROOF #like her temper is entirely disproportional she gives the same energy for the washing up not being put away that another mum would #give for finding drugs in their kids room. ive truly never seen someone maintain a temper like that woman can it's actually impressive #so yeah she was gone this morning and it just always leaves me On Edge it's never a huge thing bc im not SCARED of her but im not relaxed #and i hoovered for an hour and washed up and then also dusted the stairs and did some other tiny irrelevant jobs #and my sister did fuck all. she pulled a sickie off work and stayed in bed while i fussed about what to do with the dogs and shit #and so when my mum came home ig i was expecting some sort of acknowledgement? like not a round of applause #bc obvs it's just chores and the hoovering she literally told me to do but when my sister had been SO unhelpful and it had been #SO on my mind for hours now i was just. waiting for something? and even i didnt know what so it's not even fair #but my mum came home and decided she was in a bad mood and she had a go at my sister for being lazy and not doing the chores she said #she'd do today and she DIDNT yell at me which she sometimes does just do if she's pissed at my sister. but she just got mardy with me? #like she got up and left to go watch TV in her room and i was like 'oh i can watch it with you?' bc sometimes when they row my mum #hints at me and her going somewhere else to bitch about my sister. but she just shook her head and snapped at me for some dumb shit #like TINY shit id missed and then wouldn't even spend time with me and i was just like. are you serious #and THAT was when i had the thought bc i was like there is actually no winning with her temper #and i can never fully relax around her because of it. even when we're getting on she is at any point seconds away from ripping my head off #and it's not nice being around someone like that ALL THE TIME. and i dont mind it when im at uni bc im at my own house in my own life #but when it's HER house and she makes it very clear that it's HER house and we need her and the car if we want to so much as LEAVE #then that's just not a fucking pleasant environment to be in? right? even if it is just me being a baby? ugh idk and i hate this

[cocolacola]

mark ur calendars today was the day i forgave maiev shadowsong

#tag rant :) #this is such a shocker but i didnt like her until... just now? #i think it was because so many ppl shipped her with illidan and that always deeply bothered me. it still does #sorry if you like it-actually no im not literally why would you ship that. why. #i get my rivals to lovers kicks elsewhere #so anyways #like i was sitting here and was like 'why do i hate her i need to grow up.' #then i did! #i realized hating her because 'she was a shit person' makes no fucking sense because #it was under the same logic of what happened to sylvanas and if anything i just want justice for her character arc #so why not justice for maiev as well? i think they went through similar things #she literally has one of the best designs in the entire franchise #if not the best. because holy shit it's just that good imo #and her vibes are just very refreshing for the series she just brings that PASSION and ENERGY #this is my redemption arc #shes absolutely nothing like integra but maybe she is to me now. i love women who slash things and are going to GET YOU #some of yall simp real fucking crazy tho. stay safe im not at that level of meatriding yet. #warcraft #maiev shadowsong #my art

[persimnon]

mayday, mayday!

#in no way do I think tumblr is going down anytime soon #but i’ve realized I’ve always had an naive sort of idea that tumblr would be a constant in my life and forever evolve as I grow #it is just that intertwined with the way i use the internet. i have been here nearly every day since a month after i turned twelve #like i hope this isn’t pathetic to admit but this place was and is a cornerstone of my adolescence #tumblr is my word of mouth. it is my fandom home base. it is my diary sometimes #and it’s not that I can’t learn to use another platform. it’s that the continuity is important to me #my blog is a stream of every love and passion and obsession of my entire teenage hood and as of now the beginning of my adulthood #the thought of having to move somewhere new and break off from this massive and fundamental chunk of my life is hugely upsetting #not to mention my mutuals! and everyone I follow! it’s impossible to round everyone up again if. god forbid. we all have to leave here #and of course blah blah blah everything in life is temporary learn to accept change yada yada #but it’s been part of me long enough where i have a hard time picturing how i could even go about leaving this behind #anyway. nothing bad is happening yet. I’ll stay here until it breaks entirely #blither blather bother

[theood]

Haha lol I love going downstairs and getting yelled at every single time because the dogs go fucking crazy when I come down the steps and I can't do anything to fix that and it makes me want to die because I hate getting yelled at and I can't fix anyfhing and I can't stop the dogs from going fucking ballistic because I chose to go downstairs but god every single fucking bit of progress I makw goes doen the drain every single day amd i might as well just get back into one meal a day and maybe a drink a day because that minimizes the amount of times.im.down there amd minimizes ehen I'm getting yellwd at

#elias.zip #the dogs are too reactive to us coming downstairs but yelling isn't helping. i dont know how to stop that. its annoying sure but jsut fuckin #live with it i guess. youre the stupid fucking idiots who chose this house with none of its soundproofing and your dogs who lived in a trail #er with you for fucking years what do you expect i dont know stop yelling at me!!! stop yelling at me!!!! im small and little and i dont #like it. i don't like when adults raise their voices i don't like the sound of angry yelling i hate being here. im never going to grow up. #im goingto be 9 and trapped in my room forever and a brat and waste of space and a mistake and unplanned and a burden. i wish we never fuck #ing moved in with them. they should've stayed in Florida. They should've chose another place. i hatw it here i hate them. go live with my mo #ms sister or something leave us. i fucking hate everything. i hate living. i hate living here. never going to fucking escape bc im poor and #stupid and i should've gone to university and just left everyone and be forgtten about. im never going to make enough to save myself. i sho #uld just give up because nothing good ever fucking happens. everyone's going to be disappointed in me no matter what i do I can't ever #fucking make anyone in my family like me. im always lying. #whats the point anymore! i dont fucking know.

[xcziel]

i think i have given up on the yard now

there are things planted and we'll see what we'll see, but from everything i've read stuff will either die in the 110F heat or later on in a winter freeze so further $ invested may be a waste

and the only solution is to keep everything as potted-and-mobile or indoor plants

there's already been issues with ants and gnats so the impetus to leave them outside and then bring them in later is now very low

so maybe i will just have a lot of indoor plants - at least i can take them with me when i go

the one pothos is at least VERY enthusiastic and all the greenery is *so* fucking mentally soothing

... i just really want to buy so many more plants and i *have* to stop

#maybe if i liked succulents more or cared about flowers #but what i like is green and leafy and e idently none of that is really happy around here #like i have 'almost total shade' and 'lots of sun' options but nothing that will take those PLUS the stupid heat even with watering #gonna plant the the asiatic jasmine anyway just to see but then i guess just try to keep up with watering #i have two sansevieria a boston fern several pothos two peace lilies (one 3 ft) salvia sage oregano #a very sad dieffenbachia and tiny croton and some rosemary that i think gave up the ghost while the mint *may* be hanging on #got some indoor elephant ears from a kit just starting we'll see what happens and a red anne #the hostas and caladiums will come up or not idk #i just wish i knew something that would grow like these weeds lol thank goodness for the horseherb #i realized that sll i want is the same plants we had growing up but we were in sub-sealevel galveston - basically tropical #so all that won't necessarily like it here - people say hostas don't like austin :/ #but we had what i'm pretty sure was the asiatic jasmine out at the front of the house and the elephantears and caladium #around the side with the ivy and the dracaena and the azaleas #everything i see that i like in the nursery ends up being labeled 'indoor plant' here #tempted to try to find some pink mulhy even though it's not 'leafy' just bc it grows here and might live #the palmetto does keep coming back after the freezes so that's something #obviously if i wanted to spend a lot my problems would be easily solved but it's not my house so i'm not buying like .. full shrubs

[brittlebutch]

still can't help but empathize deeply with Hob's anger and affront over the duel during the 'Southern Lawn' episode, mostly because I also cannot understand the social steps taken to land him in that position during any part of those confrontations

#N posts stuff #i trust that they Do make sense but i do not understand the social cues here At All #like i'm still Confused how we got from Wuvvy going to Dictate the letter to Hob like Aabria implied she was #to her Confronting Hob over an injury that Rue dealt to Her #like does the letter Hob was writing to Wrackingspelt imply a depth of feeling for someone Other than Rue in a way that implies #that they had been like. Rejected or something? and so she acts in defense of them for That? #i don't know and i don't understand no matter how many times i watch these episodes lol #to say Nothing of the way Andhera interferes during the fight and then - when Hob bests them - manages to imply that HOB is the one #with some kind of emotionality or Flaw that caused the whole thing to begin with??? #''Captain what have you lost that has put you in this position to begin with?'' <- WHAT do they mean by that?? #NOT TO MENTION the fact that Hob is Literally Right to take their interference as an offense given the understanding of duels #and the fact that Every Other Individual on that field responds to his affront with Derision and outright Mockery is so..... #dude it Strikes a wounded nerve so deeply in me and i don't even think i had That Many issue with bullying growing up comparatively #that for Hob - who is Well Established as a mocked outsider in his own court - i cannot even imagine how intolerably wounded it must feel #i know i've already written a fic about this but i'm Not over it sorry. this episode makes me want to Bite #i need someone to walk me through what happens lmfao #d20lb

[scare-ard--sleigh]

me white-knuckling the kitchen sink: i won't say anything i wouldn't want repeated in a running report, not everything that makes me tick needs to be commented on, may g,d or whoever grant me the serenity to ignore stupid stupid stupid human beings, etc., etc, etc.

#silver jelly #i was thinking earlier about this wooden plaque thing that my deacon grandmother had in the house growing up that had what i thought was #the serenity prayer. upon googling it a few years ago it turns out that it was not; it was uh. a different prayer. #i think it's called the morning prayer? it's the 'nothing is going to happen to me today that you and i together can't handle' one #(except the font was like that old English looking mf so up until googling it i thought it was 'you and 2 together' idk why i never #questioned it i guess bc of like. the father/son/holy ghost thing?? anyway.) #here's the thing though she did actually have the serenity prayer in the house as well. it was just the *ceramic* decoration; not the #wood one. though i did look at that one a lot too. #anyway i guess i'm thinking a lot about making your space reflect your values. and how that can mean literally but also not. #like i think the wooden plaque is fundamentally the same as the prayer candles on my vanity. #i'm decorating my boudoir. my parents are coming next week. how do i make this space look like mine. #and also; what environmental reminders can i provide myself that direct my attention away from uhh. irritating individuals. #what's the emo version of the serenity prayer lmao (it may very well be the gway prayer candle)

[link-lonk]

Don't watch Clannad, you will cry

#radiostatic.txt #I AM SOBBING #there were 2 eps in the first part that made me cry. I found it very cute overall but those eps got to me #clannad after story though.... #the first half was all good. like oh this is so cute they're growing up and starting a family and everything :) #and then ep 16 came and I have not stopped crying since #I was like nooooo they wouldn't do that. they would not do that to me. it's gonna be fine and they'll be happy #and nothing bad will ever happen to these characters ever #and then they did do that and I cried #it's like nooo the sad is over it'll all be good and happy now. and then it wasn't #like it got happier again and I was like oh ok good this is good (while still sobbing) #AND THEN THEY THREW ANOTHER GUT PUNCH AT ME AND I CRIED EVEN HARDER #everything with Ushio had me in tears. I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY DID THAT TO ME #I am literally full on sobbing over here #I am never going to be normal ever again #it did have a happy ending tho. Everything was fine for real #I really started this show like 'I want to cry about something' and then I was like 'oh this isn't as sad as I thought it would be' #and then it was #I loved this show but also wondering why I wanted to do this to myself #I never cried this much about fictional characters before in my life #clannad #also Fuko is the best character

[ribcageteeth]

Every time someone calls me cool, I have to wonder exactly how that happened. Not, like, in a self-deprecating way, it’s just that for so long I was widely considered to be very much not cool, and I don’t feel like I’m the one that’s changed that much, so I’m confused as to when my off-putting traits suddenly became interesting

#‘you’re one of the coolest people i’ve met online’ thank you i appreciate that so much it’s so nice to here but WHAT??? ME???? #it’s honestly weirder when it happens in real life bc now you gotta look me in the face and say it while I’m dressed like a yugioh villain #it’s just??? nothing about me was cool while I was growing up. it was all the same shit it’s just culturally that shit is cool now #and i am confuuuuuuused lmao. appreciative but very much confused #mouth words

[bo0zey]

raaawwerrrrrr hehehe uwu ::)))) lol teehee!!! weewooweewoo!!!!!!!!!!!!! xD hahaha :P lolzzzzieeee awoooooooga meowmeow woof hahahahahahahahah :D lol lmao :3 8D

#OMGGGGGGGGGHHH IM SO RANDOM HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH OMG I AM SO SILLY AND ODD!! HASHTAG DORK ALERTTTT LOLLLLLLLLL #yesterday when i woke up my first thought was i don’t want to be here i should really kms and for a moment it was genuine not passive #it struck me at that moment. how Genuine i meant it and wanted to do it #it was only for a few moments until eventually i glanced over and saw my perscription bottles on the bedside table #and i reminded myself that these thoughts are happening because i hadn’t taken my medicine in a few days i don’t know how long but a few #off and on then off for a few days #im so unwell i hate being so pathetic!!!! stupid stupid stupid everyone else from my nursing school either already took the test Or #they’re studying right now preparing to take the test either way everyone’s gonna be a nurse and i’m not at this rate i haven’t done shit #it’s because i feel hopeless again i feel futureless i know i don’t want to live another few more years i know this it’s a core belief #so searching for jobs for a long term future just seems so pointless to me #but i know my family expect me to do it and i’m going to do it don’t worry i know i’m just a chronic procrastinator i’ve been like this #and i know i can’t live at home forever i know if i truly want to not be here anymore then i have to get my own apartment #somewhere i won’t be found and somewhere ​i’ll be able to die alone without the risk of being found and hospitalized #i won’t fuck up it won’t be an attempt it will be completion and seen through i’ll only have one chance i absolutely cannot fail that #anyways if anyones reading the tags DONT WORRY PLS IM JUST VENTINGGG N BEING DRAMATICCC LOLLLL PLS DONT WASTE UR ENERGY WORRYING!!!!!!!!!!!! #i’m really fine my life is fine i have nothing to complain about i just am an annoying whiny crybaby who can’t suck it up and grow up #everyone has to grow up and be an adult nobody wants to work but we have to #except i don’t jsut not want to work i want to Genuinely not be Alive lollllllllll #darn! how do i get over such a silly little hump! a bump in the road! #i’ve been an adult since i was the age of a child i can’t remember exactly when my role in life switched but i know it was sooner #sooner than a child is supposed to grow up #i’ve been an adult for so long no wonder i’m so tired i already grew up i don’t have the energy to live as an adult anymore #my mind n body are tired. i wish the world would just stop asking anything of me. #i have nothing left to give anyone only rage and sadness so i just want everyone to stay away so i don’t hurt anyone anymore #ramblings #🤣🤣🥸🥸🥸🤓🤓🤪🤪😝😂😂🤣🤣🤩🤩🫢🫢🤭🤭🤔🤔😲😲🥴🥴🤠🤠🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡😺😺😽😽😺😺😼😼😸🙀🙀😹😹😹

[lankeylacey]

thinking about how camilla is gonna have to get one billion clothes for the hex crew because ct weather is fucked

also just in general?? like thats 5 extra kids that shes gonna have expenses on and becuase theyre literally from another dimesnion she cant get any finacial aid/tax deductions to help them (and connecticut taxes are high asf)

#like obviously food and clothing #but like beds?? #the fuckin water and electric bill?? #also the human realm might fuck up their immune system so thats somthing to take into account #sure luz was fine but human bodies are made to be resilient and shit but we know literally nothing about witch biology #and hunters the only one able to get a job that isnt under the table??? plus theres no way he actually can bc one million paperwork #plus for school we have no idea what the fuck is gonna happen there with vee and then luz n co #i know camilla is an amazing mom with a huge heart but there is no way in hell a vet can afford 6 whole children with no govmnt help #i feel so bad for her like girly is gonna ruin her credit score #plus we have NO idea what witches can eat in the human realm #also! with the sleeping thing?? second hand matresses are literally illegal to buy here what are they gonna do #willow better be able to just grow all the plant groceries after camilla takes her to study the produce at stop n shop #becuase groceries are already SO inflated like i went grocery shopping today and holy FUCK #wow i really went on a whole rant #ok buy guys #the owl house #toh #luz the human #luz noceda #amity blight #gus porter #willow park #hunter toh #gravesfield #the owl post