#hanahaki illness

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Happy Monday!!!!!

Catch my breath part 3: Bloom pages 22 and 23

I’m a liar you get two this week because I’m nice

Eddie is going through it! But here it is bitches!!!! He’s said the fucking words!!!!!

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Comic easy to read in each part on kofi in the galleries

This is a lucky double page post but after it’s only going to be one page each again I just felt the Eddie spread wasn’t enough you know. How’s everyone feeling? Excited to see the boys figure their shit out I hope 🥰

#fanart #fanartist #illustration #digital artist #stranger things fanart #steddie #steddie fanart #illustrator #steve harrington #eddie munson #hanahaki illness #steddie hanahaki comic #hanahaki #steddie hanahaki #hanahaki comic #steve and eddie art #steddie fan comic #fan comic #hanahaki disease

[ashenstars]

cringetober day 20: hanahaki disease

wangxian hanahaki au i may be cringe but i am free

#au where lwj developed hanahaki during the sunshot campaign but its not as imminently fatal bc of his high cultivation #and then it went away when wwx died but then came back when he came back #its not an issue or a threat to him throughout the books events but wwx does notice that he has an mysterious illness #and after the bathtub scene when they epically miscommunicate it acts up aggressively and thats how wwx finds out #wangxian #wangxian fanart #fanart #mdzs #cringetober

[majimasleftasscheek]

patch art finished 🙏

#the petals in the mouth are a slight nod to hanahaki for funsies cuz I like a lil depression tweehee #ngl if I didn't have majima's tat I'd prolly get something like this #international symbol of kazumaji yaoi lol #debating if I wanna get text patches too but idk what they'd say #mentally ill or something probably #yakuza #ryu ga gotoku #kiryu kazuma #majima goro #kazumaji #my art

[person-behind-books]

kakashi has been choking on flowers for longer than his lungs have been without. the seet developed when a small boy kicked him into a tree and grinned visciously at the victory and a flower bloomed when said boy, now a bit taller, yelled at him that leaving comerades behind made you worse than trash. not even two hours later the boy was dead. the flower didn't die with him but also didn't continue growing. kakashi, unable to let the memories go, kept it. with time he got used to the pain and found ways to work with the lessened lung capacity. then on a battlefield many years in the future a mask cracks apart and to flower stirs for the first time. there is hope, obito is alive, and despair, obito is trying to kill everyone, and the flower neither whithered nor bloomed but simply stirred. her roots having made kakashi's flesh their home too long ago. when the war is over and his team and his friends and obito are all miraculously still alive, kakashi collapses. more so for his lack of breath than his chakra exhaustion or his injuries. obito, limbs shaking from the strain is the one to pick him up and follow sakura along as she makes her way to naruto and sasuke. sasuke and obito, after an uphill battle with only the support of the kazekage are given in the sole custody of konoha, to deal with and punish as they deem acceptable. their case, especially obito's, are difficult ones. sasuke because he betrayed his village, killed a council member, and attacked the five kage but also helped stop the war. obito, because he played a big a role in starting the war as he did in ending it. in the end sasuke is released on probation, to be accompanied by an anbu guard at all times for at least a year, at which point his case will be revisited and re-examined. obito, meanwhile, has a permanent home in the detention cells for at least the next five years. most people know this is only because obito accepted the verdict. with his sharinganhe could eseasly leave even the most secured cell and sealing a persons chakra for more than a month was considered too inhumane even by shinobi standarts. so kakashi is the new hokage and the uchiha are dealt with. life moves on. the flower in kakashi's chest isn't contend with that, however. it's roots start to bury deeper over the coming months and the flower begins shedding petals that kakashi coughts up in bloody puddles. it's a whole now agony, to have the roots move and extend after his lungs had spend almost two decades growing around and fusing to it. it'd even worse than when they had first pierced found their home in his lungs.

obito notices when kakashi's visits trickle down from twice a week to weekly to bi-weekly. how he looks worse and sicker each visit. he isn't told that there is anything wrong with the hkage but even someone who hadn't stalked kakashi for years, someone who wasn't as obsessed with the man as obito was would be able to tell somethign was wrong. then, one day kakashi stands in front of his cell, his breath coming in loud, wet rhasps and tiny conculsions making their way through his muscles. technically obito could activate his sharingan and the chakra blockers on every wall wouldn't be able to stop him form seeing the injury but it seems wrong. to look at him with his sharingan without kakashi's wish to do so. obito had taken so much from kakashi in his lifetime and he daren't take more. "i have hanahaki." kakashi talks in a voice so hoarse it can barely be heard but a tone steady and composed. "i'll die within the week either way so i was commanded," a wry chuckle "to try the last option. I'm alright with dying and this isn't anybodys fault. do you get that, obito?" obito is frozen in shock but he's been a shinobi for too long to let that hinder his actions so he hesitantly nods. if kakashi wants him to not enact revenge on whoever he loves for not loving him back obito will accept it and mourn kakashi like he failed to for rin. "i'm in love with you." becasue it's kakashi the words are spoken with a calculated moncholance that stops obito from understanding their meanings for a couple of seconds. then he activates kamui and vanishes from his cell. the guards aren't fast enough and kakashi to ill to stop obito from grabbing kakashi when he re-appears and taking him into kamui with him. he doesn't love kakashi. not like that. there's only ever been rin and even his obsession with kakashi isn't love. obito is fond of him and needs him to keep living but he's not in love and now that will be what kills kakashi after years of surviving whatever the world threw at him. obito can't accept that. he has trained for years to only send some parts of his body to kamui. he has precice control and an almost perfect understanding of his body. and kakshi also has a sharingan. his sharingan. they are connected in a way no other two people are. he tries but when his chakra flows along and inside kakashi's ribcage he understands that to cut the flower out now, to leave it behind in a bloody, wooden pile would be to leave half of kakashi's lungs open. he would drown in his own blood before even suffocating. still, he manages to leave some part of the flower behind. and goes to the second plan. it's disgusting how madara's influence still haunts him. how it shapes his actions and guides his thoughts but in this situation he's grateful for it. kakashi is too smart to fall for it if he hesitates for even a second.

obito moves just fast enough that kakashi can see him move but not interfere and before he can act they're in the kamui dimention. his breath, inexplicably comes a bit lighter but hsi lungs are still being torn apart by flowers. obito takes a step back from him. then another. the he turns around and just screams into the void for a good moment. kakashi has no idea what's going through his head. at one point obito's shoulders begin to shake, his voice breaking, and when he turns back around he looks so vulnerable. "you love me?" his voice is tiny, small and terrified in a way kakashi never heard from him before. he nods because he promised naruto to do it and by now it's too late to back out. "and you're dying?" another nod "because of me." kakashi shakes his head because this is no ones fault. not his for falling in love. not obito's for not returning the feelings. "i- i'm sorry." kakashi has seen obito cry a thousand times. this time it's no different. big blubbering tears and a snotty nose are running down his face. kakashi doesn't understand how but something in his chest stirs at that, his chest filling with warmth. obito is an ugly crier, always has been, but to kakashi - for some reason - he is still beautiful. "i didn't know. i didn't know. if i knew i wouldn't have. i didn't know." he's still standing out of touching distance but everything in his body language is screaming a yearning to reach out. "i'm sorry. i love you, i'm sorry. i'm sorry. please stay. please don't leave don't die. i'm sorry. i love you i love you i'm in love with out. i didn't know i'm sorry. i would have told you. im sorry." obito is flinching further into himself with every word and pulling himself away, without moving a muscle. the flower in kakashi's lungs grows smaller, leaving chakra in it's wake that heals but not vanishing completely. kakashi believes obito when he tells him he loves him but he knows the rest is bullshit. obito isn't in love with him. it's obvious. still, it feels so good to have the pain vanish kakashi is floating. if obito want's to lie he'll accept it. he'll help him. they'll both just lie. it's enough for now. kakashi reaches out with his left hand. his right having entered too many ribcages between them to be considered neutral and at the brush against his arm obito collapses forward and his arms snare around him. this is fine. for now it's enough.

he'll keep lying as long as he needs to. as long as the other needs it. as long as the other accepts it. for the rest of his life if he needs to. to be able to keep the other's warm bodie in his arms. maybe they'll one day be in love maybe they'll die as liers. it doesn't matter as long he stays for now.

#that last paragraph is deliberately made to be able to be from both their perspectives #also you have no idea how hard it was to decide on a ship for this one. alternatives were kakagai with gai having hanahaki #yamakaka with either yamato or kakashi having it. sasunaru with naruto having the illness and while kurama can heal it's not enough to #survive the flower. madatobi with madara despite everythign having it and tobirama lying for his brother and out of guild #drabble #kakashi hatake #obito uchiha #naruto #naruto shippuden #kakaobi #obikaka #obkk

[mishapen-dear]

thinking about bad and his skin but the way it looks like he’s bloomed

take my hand. follow me into headcanon land. imagine bad covered in flowers. inagine them bursting through the cracks, innumerous, so bright. white and blue. white lilies and chrysanthemums are used in funerals. blue forget me nots symbolize remembrance and devotion. imagine bad blooming. imagine flowers sprouting from the void-skin beneath his robes, eating away at his grief. imagine them watered with fresh blood for each new soul vulture heart he collects. imagine bad, cracking, grown through with roots like a crumbling hillside kept together only by the roots of tilting trees

#something something parental hanahaki #something something bad cannot die but he can bleed #something something i am ill about flowers once again #qsmp #qsmp badboyhalo #i need to figure out more organization tags at some point

[betweenblackberrybranches]

👉👈 very rough sketch of part 3 of the hanahaki comic is done!

It will take so much time to do the lineart tho..

But anyways uh oh.. something bad is going on in the daycare

Also big big spoiler under the cut!!!!

Fucking finally

#i ramble #my art #hanahaki comic #no motivation is kicking me in the butt #also remember the poll? yea turns out i did neither and just went with what i felt like #there will be a part 4 and maybe ? 5 or ill make part 4 into a an epilogue if i feel like it #we will see #sorry for being so absent rn btw

[setacin]

and i know that love is just a shout into the void i’m in love with u, sorry by j’san

the flowers are hyacinths, dianthus, lilies of the valley, bluebonnets, and forget me nots - if you feel like looking up flower meanings :)

#seta art :) #part ten billion of me being ill about flowers um. sorry not sorry BDSJHFBS #this is technically a companion piece to an etho hanahaki thing i did but they also work individually #bdubs #bdubs fanart #hermitcraft #hermitcraft fanart #bdoubleo100 #bdoubleo fanart #hanahaki #cw blood #cw body horror #angst #hermitshipping

[dazai-on-my-mind]

SSKK is just an unrequited love story waiting to be written.

#and the one secretly yearning from hus one sided affection is Aku #i knoe people hate Hanahaki #but this would be a perfect relationship for the trope #because it's all about not vocally admitting one's feelings #and we know how Aku is #also he's already got a lung disease so double angst #hanahaki is harmless in the AU but because of his illness he's hospitalized #THE STORY WRITES ITSELF GUYS #sskk #shin soukoku #akutagawa x atsushi #bungou stray dogs #bsd #cory talks bsd

[sarilolla]

Really love your Hanahaki Branch au! Quick question, does the Hanahaki have a role in anything during the world tour? Cuz I feel like that garner a lot more sympathy from the Country trolls to prevent them from throwing the group in jail. And maybe the Bounty Hunters. Hickory for sure.

I know there’s that potion Branch could take but does he have to willingly take it for it to work? Ik the Snack Pack and Kismet would never betray Branch’s trust like that but if someone were to dose Branch without his knowledge, who would it be and what would the aftermath look like?

Thank you! It's so fun that so many are enjoying my work, and I love answering questions, so here you go!

The Hanahaki will have a bit stronger role in World Tour, mainly because it has gone a bit of time, and also since they're looking for more Trolls, isn't there a possibility to find his brothers too? The more he thinks about his brothers, the stronger the Hanahaki will be. (Imagine how fucked it will be when he's actually with them-)

Don't want to say too much, but yeah, it will garner sympathy. Hanahaki is a rare disease, but Trolls know more about it. Branch will try to hide his illness (being stubborn), but when it is noticed, there is sympathy. I'm also going to be just a tad bit delusional about the Country scene because it frustrates me to high heavens and I just... don't want to write that. So the Hanahaki will play a part in it, yeah. Bounty hunters also figure out and worry for him when they meet him. Hickory especially (I like Hickory)

Now for the potion, it is true it can be taken unwillingly, but I don't think that would be a Troll thing to do. Trolls seem like very caring (and forgiving) creatures, so forcing someone to forget about someone is just too cruel to do. They can persuade him, but the decision is his and no one else's. The potion is supposed to be a last resort, when there's no other hope of survival

Now if he was forced to drink the potion... I genuinely don't know who it would be. The only version I can imagine (and sorry to V&V fans), would be if Branch was taken by Velvet and Veneer instead of Floyd, and they knew about what the Perfect Family Harmony could do (shatter diamonds). They still had Branch as bait for the brothers to come (because they will always come, no matter who was taken), but Branch doesn't remember them, so will he join the song? They're banking on him not doing it. Maybe the Perfect Family Harmony returns his memories, if he can be persuaded to join. Maybe he's doomed, and so are the brothers also inside the diamonds, the Family Harmony never completed without the youngest

As for the effects of the potion... it's bad. The potion doesn't take away the flowers kindly in any shape or form. It burns them away, and with it, burns the memories or feelings of the person the flower is for. It hurts, badly, worse with a forced ingestion. It would take of his energy even faster. At least if he took it willingly, it would be in the safety of his village with doctors, friends/found family, and a loving girlfriend to heal. In the V&V scenario (because that's the only way I can imagine he would be forced by someone else), he has nothing like that, including the stealing of his talent/essence... Yeah, he's fucked

Mildly insane about this au, so...

Thanks for the ask ^^

#dreamworks trolls #trolls band together #hanahaki branch #trolls branch #answered asks #I'm so cruel to this boy and for what? the funnies? despicable #also love V&V but they're the only “villains” I can imagine who notices his illness #Chef wouldn't care in the slightest while a Troll villain just wouldn't do it #also I am incapable of writing short answers which is why almost all my posts have a “read more”

[llumimoon]

pushing up daises carnations 🧡💛🩵

lately i've been a little fascinated w/ unconventional hanahaki aus abt diff types of love, so here's something based off an au of mine where Normal catches hanahaki for almost everyone he cares about all at the same time

#dndads #dndads s2 #dungeons and daddies #dungeons and daddies season 2 #normal oak #cal draws #blood #hanahaki au #LISTEN I just think the Oaks r literally PERFECT for hanahaki #like r u kidding. connection to nature and repression issues and a tendency to love a little to much and have hearts a little to big #ILL WEEP #anyways Normal is my fav punching bag <3 #wanted to try something different so i ended up w/ a more messy and sketchy style this time lol #SHOUTOUT TO NYX FOR HELPING ME PICK THE FLOWERS N LISTENING TO ME RAMBLE ABT THIS

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Happy Monday!!!!!

Catch my breath part 3: Bloom pages 28-29

Oh god it’s almost over the comic is almost over 😭

We literally only have 7 pages left and i truly don’t know what to do with myself! I mean I have to start prepping for c2e2 but fuck the comic is gonna be done! I gotta research how to get it printed….

Rest of the tumblr posts here

Kori has each part in their own gallery for easy reading here

Well that’s all I got for my little blurb under the comic so byeee ✌️

#fanart #fanartist #illustration #digital artist #stranger things fanart #steddie #steddie fanart #illustrator #steve harrington #eddie munson #steddie hanahaki au #hanahaki #stranger things hanahaki au #hanahaki comic #hanahaki au #steddie comic #fan comic #steddie fan comic #hanahaki illness

[agent-calivide]

Having hanahaki thoughts, which is surprising because it’s a trope that’s never really crossed my mind before.

Zor catching the disease after Vitti left them, her love for them disappearing overnight while they still pine for her. They get cured, but lose all ability to love in the process, but instead of accepting it they get so fixated on it that they’re fueled by rage and a desire for vengeance

Daniel Sans catching the disease for Zor, idolizing and admiring them but feeling like he can’t confess because they must remain professional. Feeling an envy that Zor still loves their ex and maybe even holding envy for their obsession with Phoenix. He doesn’t treat it, he’s trying to research a cure that doesn’t rid him of the emotions.

Solaris getting it because Fabricator’s love for her died the day Solaris left Zoraxis. She gets cured, but struggles with depression and loneliness on a daily basis because Fabricator wasn’t just her love, she was Solaris’ rock. Her best friend. Even without the romantic love, she still lost her entire support system

Fabricator getting it when Solaris leaves, feeling so painfully engulfed by the betrayal that it morphs into a hatred. And yet, when she starts coughing flower petals, she ignores it. She hates Solaris. This must be some other disease. She never gets any sort of treatment, she simply ignores it.

Juniper getting it for Phoenix. Falling head over heels for the agent but being absolutely, cripplingly terrified of it. Wrapping the flowers in tissue before throwing them out, excusing himself from a room whenever he has a coughing fit, growing paranoid that Zor will find out he’s a traitor. Rationalizing that it’ll be fine, he just has to trick the agent into falling for him, get them to switch sides, and everything will be just fine.

Reginald forming a brutal case of it when Prism initially left the EOD. It started small, an odd tasting cough, an itch in the back of his throat as he noticed Prism getting more and more upset by the day at the EOD. Then Prism drops the EOD and cuts contact with him. It damn near killed him, reaching critical stages as he had coughing fits on the daily, having to rip the flowers out of the back of his throat to breathe. After the initial spike, it slowly faded with his feelings, and over time the disease came to a stop as his grief took over.

#i expect you to die #ieytd #ieytd fandom #john juniper #dr zor #Solaris #the fabricator #daniel sans #agent phoenix #reginald crane #dr prism #hanahaki #cw illness

[wes-laye]

Hanahaki

#genshin #genshin impact #原神 #Tighnari #cyno #cynonari #cynari #animated #2d animation #genshin impact fanart #genshin fanart #genshin animated #wesart #wesanim #did I listen to bad religion on repeat as I drew this #yes #I just imagine Tighnari trying to research what new illness he had before realising that it was his unrequited feelings for Cyno #damn #I love fluff but angst is my secret weakness #hanahaki #well babes it's angst o'clock

[nettlestingsoup]

Hi! Can I ask 3, 8 and 11 for the New Year asks!

hi spook! thanks for the ask!

3: i would love to get either some untamed fic or some magnus archives fic done this year! i'm terrible at writing for other fandoms, i always start things and then just get drawn back into my stray kids projects hahahaha

8: the hanahaki au lives in my brain all the time. i would absolutely love to be brave enough to write it, but i desperately want to get it right since hanahaki is such a weirdly iconic part of fandom, and i've wanted to wait until i've had a unique perspective on it that i could use in a story.

the general vibe of it is that minho, a hanahaki researcher in a university, starts to fall for chan, a temporary researcher who's only at the university for a year. because he knows chan loves travelling and loves the way his job takes him all over the world, and doesn't really want to be tied down by anything, minho holds his feelings in and resolves to keep them a secret; this is all well and good until the first symptoms of hanahaki begin to make themselves known. half from not wanting chan to know and half from the fascination of experiencing the disease he's studied for years first hand, minho lets it progress until it's almost too late. the idea for this would be to write most of it as a normal fic, with intermittent chapters of minho's notes on his own symptoms and their progression, which one of his friends eventually discovers. it will be so difficult to write, but maybe this is the year i try!

11: i would love to get more into horror (with happy endings of course!) and letting myself be spookier and more weird! i'd also love to do more fairytale-esque things like the river and the rowan tree if i can.

thank you again for sending an ask! happy new year! <3

#asks #pompoenwolkjes #i would love to do the hanahaki au #it's all about the repressed feelings #and the despair of keeping your illness to yourself #and the eventual crash of your friends finding out #and i think adding the scientific angle would be super interesting #i find the thing that bugs me in a lot of hanahaki fics #is like #why would you not tell someone #so i think having both the 'i don't want to tie someone i love down' angle #along with the 'obsessive research and desperate desire to understand' angle #will work well when combined #ao3 author #stray kids fic

[purpleleafsyt]

Apologies for not maintagging these other posts but for this AU post to make sense you need to read this post and ESPECIALLY this one so go do that.. be aware of the warnings though

So hey hi hello I'm making my own Hanahaki AU since I was the one who sparked up the conversation initially by reminding people that platonic hanahaki can exist :D

In the second post I went over motivations behind Soul, Whole, and an overview of how the headspace works for my HMS.

I mentioned Heart and Mind too, so, I want to go over more with them in this post because they're ALSO interesting

Warnings for everything under the cut: Self harm/destruction/sabotage, Unreliable narration in the form of poor mental ideologies, isolation, suicidal ideation, and gore/body horror. Hanahaki in this AU is a physical representation of issues found in poor mental health so anything that can spawn from that can here!

Unlike Soul, who started having typical symptoms early in the loop, before it developed into something more, Mind jumped almost immediately into the blossoming stage. It couldn't tear through metal, but vines, stems, and flowers certainly found it's way through the exposed parts of her joints. She knew early on that something, fundamentally, was wrong with her

It hurt, more than anything she can remember, to feel it wrap into and tear through her wires. She cursed herself for relishing in the pain, however. It makes her closer to being human, and thus real, if she is feeling pain, does it not?

The divide of being alive and nonliving is something she struggles with a lot, because she finds herself able to logically thing through both. She is a fracture to a whole, who is alive, and yet she is a robot, inorganic, an automaton freak

But that's besides the point. The flowers are confusing, inconvenient, and is halting any progress. How they're even able to grow within her mechanics is beyond her. The flowers make her weaker too, and is sometimes she cannot let her thirds be aware of, lest they take advantage of that said weakness(Because after all, why would any of them inform the others of their condition?)

She, despite everything, wants to understand them. She removes them, because she has to, and repairs herself. She's alone, so while difficult, it's safe. She experiments with the carefully removed flowers, and finds they can continue to grow apart from her so long as she continues to cultivate them. It's a distraction sure, but there has to be an answer somewhere in there. Besides, her garden is her own, hidden, safe, and the flowers are oh so beautiful thanks to her efforts

On the flip side, it took Heart longer to figure it out(Mind found out first, and Heart last. It left Soul, the root cause, in the middle, as usual)

He formed in the new loop, and got progressively sick. It caused agitation, as he kept getting worse, but he pushed through. Eventually, he threw up petals, and was rightfully horrified.

By this point, Mind and Soul had effectively isolated him(themselves, truly, but the real reason didn't matter) so the thoughts were free to creep in, he wasn't needed by them, nor wanted. It doesn't take long, due to the circumstances, for him to enter the blossoming stage.

The removal of the flowers is a violent act, as it always is with him, because like hell is he going to let his thirds see it. They're already treated like a burden to their thirds, why would he let them know it's worse? It's agony, but he does it anyways, all the while hiding himself further

He notices, despite the torn and ripped petals, that the flowers never wilt if he stays by them. They simply do not die in his presence, in his care. From what he can tell, they're vibrant and beautiful too.

He's allured by the flowers. He's not sure of his worth, or his life, but it becons him to take care of it, so he does. Because after all, he needs purpose, and if his thirds clearly do not need him anymore, then he can yield. He devotes himself to his garden, staying alive for the flowers to remain vibrant and beautiful.

The thirds still have to see each other because, after all, if one suddenly dissappears for too long it can cause suspicion to rise, but all of them remain unaware of each other's plights.

(That is, until very specific events happen, which I may go deeper into with another post. This one is dedicated to rounding out motive)

#purpletag #purpletalks #all the black grey and white #hymn to the garden bed #chonny jash #cccc #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj mind #cj heart #cj soul #yeah ill tag him too since he's mentioned a few times #anywaysss thank you Rand for encouraging me to actually maintag my au posts #idk why but I have really bad anxiety about it. but im getting better:> #there's more to this but I kinda want to turn this into a fic so I'm not sharing everything #but I'm hopeful this will suffice in explanation and overview of characters.. #body horror #gore #self harm #hanahaki au #writerposting

[posebean]

good rinky hanahaki morning

GOOD RINKY HANAHAKI MORNING!!!

sorry this is all i have to offer for u. i cant draw flowers </3

anyways more stuff under the read more :3 making it more concrete than just a "i just woke up and am rambling in sana's comments"

now that i have ur attention time to ramble MOREEEEE

rinne's is slow, just small coughs here and there, a petal or two. it started around a year-two ago, a single seed that was nurtured for so long, slowly rooted into his system and growing with the steady love he felt over the years, only getting greater and greater

it doesn't hurt. he's patient. he's waited for so long, he'll wait for eternity if he has to. he's strong and even if one day niki will leave him, maybe fall in love with someone that's not him, he'll still live on with them on his lungs, as long as Niki is happy he is happy, that's all he needs really. and if that time does come he'll just quietly let Niki be happy, stepping away and slowly letting the flowers engulf him.

so he hides it. its not much an effort to hide it, like i said his isnt super bad. he can easily pass it off as a cold or a chronic cough, and everyone (mostly) believes him. (while maybe the more attentive people have their doubts.)

he keeps his mask on and continues with every-day life, teasing Niki as always, being the Rinne Amagi that is known for being a troublemaker; niki asks one day if he got a new floral shampoo, unable to exactly discern the smell but just that its floral. rinne just laughs and is like how did niki~kyun know (proceeds to tease him) while he can feel the roots wrapping around his lungs, squeezing tight, leaving him breathless for some moments.

he'll never complain though, and has never even entertained the idea of getting them surgically removed.

now Niki... if Rinne's has grown slowly over time, his is the opposite. usually it starts off with bouts of coughing, shortness of breath. he immediately starts off with blood-speckled petals. its not gradual at all, its a sudden spike of pain in his chest, burning, searing.

maybe it all comes rushing in, maybe he's always felt this way, just suppressed the seed, which only kept growing more and more pressurized in containment until it burst forward with a sudden realization that Oh he really does love rinne but thinks that rinne only loves him out of obligation, out of a need to pay him back

so he tries so, so hard to hide it. comes up with excuses why he's been fatigued lately, says he was called in to work and cant make it to practice, etc. (but theyre all lies and hes just in some corner or in the bathroom, coughing his lungs out, petals, buds, flowers, blood falling out)

rinne notices immediately something is off. he cant figure out what, though. he knows niki is hiding something. niki's health is deteriorating rapidly, but niki refuses to tell anyone, let anyone know, not even rinne himself, and he cant figure out why!!! and its downright tearing him to pieces

Until he does find out, and takes a deep breath, ignoring the pricks of his own flowers, to grab Niki's hands and beg him to tell him who the flowers are for, who does he need to give Niki up to so that he smiles again.

And then its a whole song and dance of Niki refusing to tell him, as he is, not wanting to bother Rinne with his feelings. Telling him not to worry about him, even if he's coughing up fully bloomed flowers, a tell-tale sign that he doesn't have much time left. All while Rinne is in agony, trying to find who it is, looking everywhere, all around them (but ironically not down at himself). His hanahaki progresses a little, but it's still gradual. Yet even if its gradual, he cant ignore that searing feeling when he sees Niki bent over, unable to move as he coughs up flower after flower, petal after petal.

And then it all leads up to them arguing, Rinne desperately trying to convince Niki to get the flowers surgically removed, acknowledging that if Niki refuses to let him know who it is he should at least Live. Live without that love anymore, but still at least live.

And that's the tipping point where Niki shatters, yelling that, No, he doesn't want to die. He wants to live!! He wants to be able to enjoy eating again, he wants to be able to sing, to dance, to laugh, to cry. All while being alive!!

But he'd rather die than have to live without any love and memory for Rinne-kun anymore.

And then Rinne just stares at him, dumb-founded. Niki's straight up crying, aware that he doesn't have much time to live, readily expecting some sort of rejection.

But all Rinne does is laugh so, so painfully, the flowers on his lungs burning. And Niki glares at him and is like what are YOU laughing for I'm literally dying for you and you're laughing? And Rinne's like "Niki we are so, so, SO stupid" and then after coughing into his own hand for a bit, reveals petals, speckled in blood

And then he's like "Fuck saving this for marriage we both are literally dying" and before Niki can say a thing he kisses him and the flowers on their lungs crumble into ash, gone for good.

ok now that my minific is done (sorry i dont think ill be able to write an actual fic im not good at these types so please enjoy a ramble/minific)

and then idk abt the flowers cuz many have different meanings

i said rinne's were baby's breath (everlasting love ((his neverending devotion to Niki even if he was dying))) or primrose (i cant live without you (((yeah))))) but i also was entertaining honeysuckle (pure happiness((( for the 'honey' motif ))

I said for niki hydrangeas (gratitude ((because that's what he is for Rinne, an unconditional gratitude to the man that has been there for him, even if his ways were unconventional)))

ok anyways i hope u enjoyed the rinniki hanahaki full course :thumbs up:

#zakomoya #bean talk #rinky #i think ill just tag all rnnk stuff with that now because damn i only talk abt them lmfao #rinniki #blood tw? i guess its hanahaki #holy crap this is like. a mini fic. wow uh. have fun