#helpless rage

[hussyknee]

Not surprised but also

TWENTY THOUSAND PEOPLE WERE MURDERED FOR THIS.

"We made an oopsie while shooting at all the other unarmed people trying to run away."

#helpless rage #if the motherfucking US of fucking Asshole would stop sending them all the best toys #hamas would have obliterated them by now #pack of death worshipping useless gutworms #iof #fuck israel #israeli hostages #gaza genocide #gaza under attack #war crimes #knee of huss #gaza news

[fanficmemes]

Hey why are we not talking about monkey man. Dev Patel writes, directs, produces AND stars in one of the best movies I’ve ever seen and not one single post about it has come across my dash!! Go watch monkey man and leave a whole new person

#personal tag #monkey man #the camera work #the colors #the acting #the rage the helplessness #the refusal to fail #ohhhhh my god #blessings from my mother LIKE JFC #IM FEELING CRAZY

[y-rhywbeth2]

Theeeere it is!

Durge: "You're going to tell me everything about my lineage, or else!" Sceleritas: "Or else what, debased one? There is nothing you can do to me I would not enjoy. And there is nothing you can do to thwart yourself..."

Interesting that he said it flat out.

This is the thing that gets me about Sceleritas; at first impression he is a silly little man, your ridiculously devoted servant, subject to whatever Durge feels like inflicting on him. But he's just the illusion of control used by Bhaal to keep his kid quiet and powerless in their cage. The Dark Urge can lash out as much as they like, but they can't escape of him, they can't hurt him...

Sceleritas is sycophantic in one breath, and then you try and disobey daddy and it's straight to the threats with the next one.

He is - by his own admission - an extension of Bhaal, analogous to Mizora, and always watching them and manipulating events. He sends Alfira into your path to ensure that you kill her...

Durge is not the one in control in this relationship, and I might decide to babble about my thoughts more coherently and include some other examples but at the moment I'm going to stare at this and feel vaguely ill.

#*slapping durge* I dub thee with learned helplessness #and a fuckton of repressed rage and resentment #babbling #/sceleritas #/durge

[lil-gae-disaster]

Sometimes I feel like the whole world is resting on my shoulders and I have no idea why.

Ever since I've gained a recognition of what politics are, I've treaded in those waters neck-deep.

I am arguing, protesting, raising attention wherever I can because I feel no one else will. Because politics have gone so up in the nose of my generation that we just shrug it off.

"This 1933 party is winning!" Eh.

"Trump vs Biden!" Shrug

"The planned deportation of any generation immigrants" doesn't affect me

"trans rights are removed" isn't important

"Homosexuals into prison again!" Isn't my problem

I completely understand anyone who's like "politics are too mentally draining for me" because, same. But at the same time I need to raise attention because everyone relies on everyone else.

The best thing is- I'm also scared. I'm scared of the public, I'm scared of the politicians, I'm scared of now being taken seriously.

Being scared of the public is a bad joke as an ongoing actor, but back to the topic.

I'm scared of being humiliated much more after my attempts at one-person activism Don't, or do, work. I'm scared of everyone groaning whenever I open my mouth because they expect a political debate. Which, can happen.

I'm scared of my friends leaving me, because even though they're all left, they try to talk me out of my urges to say and do something. They all tried to be like "yes its bad, but what can we do?" And I didn't respond because I have been taught to never answer a question that's used in the context of scolding.

I'm scared of not being taken seriously. I'm scared of the "You're just 14, what do you know?" Because nowadays children apparently don't know anything. It's quite ironic, coming from those who raised us or our parents, to the first generation in the age of VERY accessible knowledge.

I'm scared of how the public would treat my (dead)name if I did something, I'm scared of people finding me before my death, I'm scared of the judgemental way our (partially global) society is currently, which has, to my knowledge, not been as bad ever before.

I'm scared of people associating the wrong name of mine with myself, while this name is just an adjective people use to summarize what they would want to see. Not what they clearly see and I tell them.

I'm scared of my mother ruining any possibilities of me building weight to the name "Noah" and not the name "[REDACTED]" because of her using my old name to illusion herself that I'm what I have not been for a long time. What I have never been to begin with.

I'm scared of hearing my wrong name.

I'm scared of the judgements public.

I'm scared of not being taken seriously by the important people.

I'm scared of standing alone again.

But most importantly:

I'm scared of everything staying the same.

I need to do something, it pains me to wait, but with the way adults view children as property and teenagers as annoying and outspoken troublemakers, not people, never people, I cannot make myself be taken seriously and take action. I cannot get the important adults to listen to my woes.

Because I'm "just" a kid.

Because I'm queer.

Because I'm trans.

Because my old name is still popular in use.

Because I don't know any better.

Because I will never be seen as equally important as my cishet NT counterparts.

#noah rambles #politics #word vomit #this had to happen #someday #Bffr you should've expected this. #ranting #rant post #complaining #rant #I'm so helpless #and i fucking hate it #You can read how much I write myself into rage.

[furiousgoldfish]

There’s this thing about being continually punished for being angry as a child, and it’s that you inevitably feel absolutely helpless when you’re angry. Your anger can’t accomplish anything, it doesn’t protect you, it doesn’t state your feelings, it doesn’t enforce your boundaries, even though it’s supposed to do those things. You’ve been wounded, you are right to rise up and protect yourself with rage.

Instead, your anger provokes retaliation, revenge, additional danger for your survival, and it leads you to a state where you not only can’t get angry, but feel like that’s all that anger does - invokes more abuse. When you try to get rightfully angry in your adult life, at some obviously shitty injustice, you instead find yourself despairing over every scenario of how this could come back to hurt you, how the other person might use some kind of power to get revenge, to get you removed, to put you in more trouble than you could possibly deal with. It becomes terrifying to stand up for yourself, even a little, because in your head, every word you state in your defense, will be perceived as a provocation for torture.

The second problem you might end up with, that even when you do manage to get angry, to be sure it’s a completely justified and safe thing to do, you’ll have no idea what amount of anger is appropriate for what situation. Once your anger is triggered, it might become impossible to stop it, even if you don’t take any actions, the rage might boil inside you for days, weeks, because someone triggered the mountain of anger you store in your body, and it’s tearing thru you like a volcano. It can be extremely difficult to find a way to react normally, to judge what amount of anger is necessary to prove your point and get the injustice undone, without overdoing it or taking anger out on someone who can’t do anything about it.

I’m struggling to understand that my anger can accomplish anything at all - after all, it was not taken seriously, and forced down for the most of my life, to the point where I was shocked to hear that some people found my cold anger scary. I would shut myself down for weeks on time because I didn’t want to miss-step and act out my rage on anyone, and apparently this was enough to get some people scared. Because it is not normal for a human being to be that angry, and that cold, for so long. People are used to bursts of anger, and then communication, making up, forgiveness. It doesn’t work with me. I can’t stop being angry until I dissociate and completely forget the original issue. I can only go back to communicating once the injustice was erased out of my mind. And this means, it never gets resolved, it can’t even be mentioned without me experiencing extreme rage once again.

Let your kids be angry, dammit. Child’s anger is not threatening, it’s not a danger to you. The natural response is there for a reason. Child anger is not disrespect or stepping out of their place, it’s because they’re human, they’re struggling! They feel wounded. And if there’s some understanding that needs to take place, it should take place after they’ve calmed down. You as an adult should know that much, even adults don’t listen to reason while overcame with emotions. No child needs their anger forced back into their throat with threats or abuse.

#anger issues #child abuse #rage issues #abusive parents #cptsd #trauma symptoms #feeling helpless in anger #cold anger #triggering anger #trauma

[greenlanterncrops]

really, really do not understand why everybody’s so insistent that jason todd would not be a red lantern if he were to get a ring

people making lantern aus will put him in the sinestro corps, in the star sapphires, and now he's got a green ring for some reason, and okay? that’s fine? like i’m not about to gatekeep - you should do whatever you want! but the fact is the dude is, like, textbook red lantern

his entire character arc mirrors that of the red lanterns almost 1:1 - right down to the being killed, brought back in a sort of unconscious state, and needing to be dunked in a magical pool to regain their memories/minds

sometimes the most obvious answer is the right one

#jason todd #hate that i'm being forced to talk about bats on this but i saw the dark crisis writer's tweets and just #?????????? #so many misconceptions about the red lanterns and it makes me sad bc they're my favorites! they're so interesting! #but everybody seems to think they're just out of control maniacs who love violence for no reason! #it's disappointing and BORING like they're so complex #but people just see 'rage corps' and their brain shuts off after that #jason's entire thing is being Unavenged and the red lantern corps' entire thing is seeking out people who need vengance #red lanterns are explicitly only drawn to the 'pure' rage that comes from victims #atrocitus straight up says the rage of abusers isn't attractive to the red light at all #red rings ONLY go to those who are pissed for the right reasons #almost all of the red lanterns are victims of some violent crime or the other #most of them were being murdered or worse when the red ring came to them #that's WHY it came to them #they don't just seek out anyone who's pissed enough #they seek out people who are helpless and angry and give them the power to avenge themselves like! #you couldn't pick a better group for him to fall into if you tried! #not that i want it to happen because i'm morally opposed to the idea of bats with rings but still!! #the way every bats-as-lanterns thing i've ever seen bends over backwards to put him anywhere BUT where he obviously should be #baffles me #truly #and again i'm not trying to tell people they're wrong #you can do whatever! have fun! #not trying to rain on anyone's parade #but the star sapphire thing being big for him is just like-- #yeah it could work but it would also be some real horror movie shit lol #the star sapphires are far and away the most disturbing of them all imo

[flovoid]

when an alcoholic single dad with a messed up past have three kids that are named after alcohol beverages…

#sims 4 #simblr #one thing for sure this family has is trauma #keith the father he might seem bad since he addicted to alcohol but oh boy he is sure a crybaby type- #he would put all his sorrow in drinking he is helpless and lack confident also a fool #poor man is hopeless all his relationships ends with a sad ending #killian is eighteen but oh boy he is perfect example of ‘rage’ #since he is the first son keith had then thats mean he was the most one who had a unstable childhood- #killian always rage on his dad and always blame him for everything- #-he also does that on his unbothered mother who only give a shit about her son if it was something benefits herself. #shandy is sixteen but tall as hell #seems quite but he struggles to show emotions or deals with it #you will always see him reading books (he tries to understand human emotion)- #-he also interested in theatre and get hooked to see how can an act captures emotions. #his mother is unknown.. #boo!! or booze but no one calls her that they just got used with boo #boo is kinda the most between her sibling who had a nice childhood with a ‘family’ #unfortunately enough her mother passed away recently and now keith her father grieving again in alcohols… #but boo loves sweets and baking! she is a literal walking rainbow #i always imagine them in a story with lots of planned characters but i like to think they r my main family! #the swell family are those kind of families with trauma and messed up past and they may have little arguments and such- #and they are a family. they might not look perfect but they are a real family. #keith sewell #killian sewell #shandy sewell #boo(ze) sewell #flawtown citizen #flawtown #;ftc

[wittyworm]

officially in my anarchy era i cant fuckin take this anymore lol

#i need medical care cause im spiraling baby and i keeo losing weight but at least i had fun dying my hair #my soul feels like its on fire my bones feel like theyre on fire but this pain doesnt compare to aaron bushnel #and that pain didnt compare to what the Palestinians are going through or any other fucking native yall dont see as living breathing people #im so angry the constant failures of the system the helplessness #trying to get shorty off the street and having blockade after blockade thrown at us #getting bitched at for calling ogf work because of my raging fever iv had it iv had it this country is stripping each and every person #of their autonomy and we are just supposed to pretend thats normal #we are supposed to point and laugh at the homeless look how they failed they deserve to be where they are. and so many of you believe that #like its truly evil behavior that can and likely will be YOU if we dont fight this shit #then you will be pointed at and laughed at no matter what fuckin race you are #im sick of my friends dying from shit they shouldnt #my soul is ignighted i am so so so angry

[youronlyjeanie]

okay, so say the marauders girls were in a black magic cult in the very early 70s where they murdered and cannibalized men who wronged them

#think the craft but darker and in the early 70s #think every revenge fantasy you’ve ever had #think the vibe of judith slaying holoferns but his death is not just revenge or protection but allows you to become stronger #think this is pretty dark and fucked up but also therapeutic #think this is one i’d actually be okay telling my therapist bcs i’m processing the rage and helplessness in a safe way #mauraders #lily evans #i mean it’s got to be lily #but also i think it could be dorcas???

[espectres]

was searching for smthing but found this part that i liked from an old interview with Miyu Irino, Ritsu's va

#WAILS. CRIES. #if u ever see this post again it's becuz i tried to post it once #no one NO ONE gets Shou as emotionally exhausted and unstable as his father does #Shou's calm & collected attitude and all that he tries to put together FALLS apart when his father is around #and then it's all frustration & fear & rage & HELPLESSNESS #SM OF IT #ショウ ; growing past each other's hearts. / isms. #𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐇 ; saved. #AND its in this same interview that they list character weaknesses and Shou's is #“he makes a scene around his father” qjsgwjsgjsJAGSJSGS

[goodnightmoonvale]

shoutout to @bplotd (who Tumblr won't let me tag for some reason) who sent this ask to me a while ago. I'm copy pasting it here, because I want to keep it in my inbox to look at forever. But I'm feeling a lot of rage and despair today about how I'm ever going to make a difference in the world, and this helped me a lot before, so I'm posting it again so other people can see it too:

I know there is an underpinning narrative in the current zeitgeist to move people away from the paralysis of the terminally online "gotta do everything all the time" anxiety by encouraging folks to exert effort in a single direction consistently. And I think that attitude is largely useful and helpful. But here is something i have learned from 10 years in international development: this isn't the only way to effect change. It may not even be the most effective way. So many successful projects I have seen, and long term positive changes, are yes due to the work of dedicated individuals or groups, but they are often equally due to one single, well-placed "yes". One lucky break. One teacher who says "sure you can use my curriculum notes" or one administrator who says "sure, you can turn in your grant late" or one community member who speaks up with a good idea or a very timely complaint or a young person who babysits for a key night so a mom can go to a meeting or --- Listen, what I'm saying is that random acts of kindness can and do make a difference, in many cases a HUGE one. They're sometimes the lucky break on which an entire project or opportunity hinges. I'm sure you've heard that phrase about "planting a garden you will never see". It can be so hard, because this random kindness or justice may never, ever connect their little good deed with the actual good it does in the world. I can't help you know exactly what your own kindness has wrought in the future - that is a gift that so few of us ever are given. But if you contribution is consistently /doing a good or kind of helpful thing/ when presented with the opportunity, you are doing enough, more than enough. Consistent effort isn't just volunteering or doing a job or working on something tangible. Sometimes consistent effort means being the person who makes little daily choices to extend grace to others. And friend, that isnt just "good enough", that is /salvation/. The people who need it will find you.

#may a lucky break find you #may you be someone's lucky break #rage against the dying of the light #hope is a discipline #I'm trying not to let the overwhelm turn into helplessness #some days it's really fucking hard #life on the moon

[randombookquotes]

nettle & bone- t. kingfisher

#nettle & bone #nettle and bone #t kingfisher #t. kingfisher #rage #booklr #quotes #books #words #helpless #life #fiction #fantasy #fairytales

[zafiro-anyejo]

Trauma is really just... an alligator masquerading as a log, huh?

#went into a blind rage for over an hour because my childhood friend is pregnant #her and her husband have friends who live with them in their house but she was saying when the baby comes she isn't sure she wants #them living there anymore #and it reminded me of my aunt gently kicking me out of her and my uncle's place when i was in college because 'there wasn't enough room' #when in reality she was just hardcore nesting #and i went into a worse living situation because i was insecure and shy renting a room from strangers #but it was either that or move back to my shitty hometown. which i had to do anyway a few years later #guess i'm taking a few hours tomorrow to find therapy #and will talk to therapist about emotional neglect and learned helplessness all so they can prescribe me some shitty anxiety medication

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

#angry #frustrated #disappointed #hopeless #helpless #overwhelmed #stressed #anxious #depressed #rage #fury #outrage #disgust #dismay #despair

[infizero]

#you dont fucking get it. you dont fucking get it. the way this scene fills me with such raw emotion every time #its so fucking sad and ugly and vindicating. like being. myself. watching this fucking hurts my soul #i FEEL what they're feeling. i FEEL the hurt and helpless anger and the directionless rage when they just start destroying everything #its soooooooooooooooorhhhHGHGrHH (HEAD IN HANDS. #serena.txt #only thing i can describe this scene as is transmasc rage

[nevergoesout]

i <3 u cool old women w agency and lots to say who i get to talk to at work i wish they’d let me spend 3 hours talking to u about how u went travelling alone in the 60s

#i <3 old women who fell for the fem mystique and sacrificed all agency and now are totally helpless bc their husband died too but #u don’t fill me w a joi de vivre so much as rage #but good for me either way!!