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mrsnancywheeler · 2 months

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ommggg i read let me down easy today and i kept re-reading it bc its TOO GOOD AHH !!🦅🦅

it hurt so much but im a whore for angst first, and a human second🫶

just thinking about the reader suffering in silence because she feels guilty for having any negative feelings towards finnick :(( the way she dismisses those feelings bc she thinks that whatever she’s going through is nothing compared to what he’s been through :((

also thinking abt finnick’s slow realization that she’s suffering because of him :(( like the incident at the market is when he began to notice the changes :(( and later when he fully understands how his behavior affected her IT MESSES HIM UP SO BAD

i just know he was remembering his past interactions with reader (where she breaks the glass / when she rejected his money at the pearl necklace stand) AND CRINGING …and it only gets worse when reader spills her guts about what she went through. omg ik he was sick.

another #thougjt i had was how this might mess up the reader for a bit after too #idk (that just might be me tho lmaoo) bc i feel like once you’ve been in that cycle of feeling depressed/insecure for so long it’s hard to snap out of, even with constant reassurance 😔

But maybe that’s just my angsty side talking HAHA

but i loved this fic, 11/10🫶

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omg yes, literally my favorite thing I've ever written. ik I wrote it, but it's the only thing of mine I reread bc it's like the perfect expression of how I feel, like if I could represent myself in one fic it would be that one if that makes any sense. it's like a concept that always haunts my mind no matter what I'm hyperfixating on maybe because I'm just like melancholy like that 🎀🎀🎀

but thank you so much, I'm literally so glad people are enjoying it because it literally is my own roman empire

yes she wants to be angry, she is angry, but refuses to let herself be because his issues are what she needs to prioritize. how can she be angry when he is constantly suffering? even if it's not so slowly tearing her apart, like a piece of paper sitting in water, she's trying to stay connected for the illusion of it all, to be strong for him.

her being loving isn't new to him, so he isn't thrown off by that, only slightly confused by her waking up earlier then usual. so her gifts have little bearing when he's used to it and he really doesn't want to feel loved right now because he's trying to reject whatever will make him seek comfort. when she starts changing her clothes and makeup, it's different, but he's not responsive because she's always been his pretty girl and always will be, her buying new clothes doesn't make him perceive her any differently or wonder if there's a reason, people try out new things.

when he notices how other peoples interactions with her have changed that's when he really starts to notice, if everyone else perceives her as melancholy then something has to be wrong. even if he's not quick to point the finger back to himself. he tries gifts, maybe she wouldn't buy something because she wanted him to do it, some sort of attention, but it's not big enough part of the issue to have any bearing on the effects it's now had on her. the girl rotting depression era shall we say. eventually through that, what people say to him, self-reflection he gains full consciousness of what he's been doing, how he's been hurting the person he loves so much. and the guilt is incomprehendable.

how could he be so selfish? so closed off as not to process all the clear cries for help? thinking about how he was getting annoyed, feeling like she was being moody when she insisted on doing the dishes until the dish broke. how she ran out into the ocean, in the rain without a care to regain some sense of composure, composure to try and make him happy. then the necklace thing, how could he miss her clearly trying just to be with him, be near him, have the interactions with him that he was giving to the girl at the shop instead? he was so unresponsive to the emotional needs he just assumed it to be a material need that he was willing to give. so when she rejects the money it just doesn't compute, to buy it she needs it, and then she tries to send the message that buying something isn't what she's asking for but he misses it completely. he gets snappy and it snaps her.

so when he's finally talking to her, he needs her to tell him the truth, the nuances because he's been so blind to all of it. he needs to know how he hurt her and it really is like a full wake up call. he can't let his own trauma consume him, allowing it to traumatize her in different ways. like when she mentions her getting to the point of just wanting him to want her body if he wouldn't want her because that's how people perceive him, that's what was hurting him, but he inadvertently made her feel that way. it breaks him to think that he did that to her, that he hurt his girl that way. then the idea that she would have let him cheat on her, she would've picked being with him over her own well-being, well she did, and he doesn't deserve that. he can't fathom how he could be with someone who loves him so blindly as to choose being with a ghost of him over not having him at all, when she deserves so much better. when he has been so callous with such a precious kind of love. or the fact that he even made it seem like he had interest in anyone but her.

there will be a fluffy, smutty requested sequel but readers issues afterwards will be lightly touched upon in it. but yes, she would have to spend so much time mending her relationship with herself afterwards. he's totally on hand and knee trying to make it up to her, to prove how much he loves and needs her, to give the attention she deserves. but she's still paranoid about cheating, insecure, scared, even if she tries to mask it. but he knows. he could, and does, spend hours praising her, telling her how pretty she is, how she's the only one, how sorry he is, how much he adores her, but it doesn't stop the nagging voice in the back of her head. she tries to hide it but she's clingier and he's okay with that, she needs him more.

but yes there's lots of long term effects the incident has on there relationship. and they have to try and navigate that together.

thank you pookie, I love your thoughts sm 💋💋💋💋💋💋

#wanda 💋#finnick odair x reader #finnick odair x y/n #finnick odair #finnick odair fluff #finnick odair angst #finnick odair x reader fluff #finnick odair x you #🦅 anon

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trailerprk-princess · 2 years

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—dating dean winchester | dean winchester x fem!reader headcanons

!!!: my work is not to be reused without credit/permission!

request rules

warnings: nsfw & mentions of drugs! minors dni! fluff & not edited

authors note: im really obsessed with him rn🫣 requests are open!

he is so desperate for your love & attention that its kinda concerning. he never got love growing up or has been involved romantically with anyone for long & he is used to one night stands that dont go anywhere. so its very refreshing to him to have someone being as equally in love with him as he is w u

he is very hesitant to talk about his feelings & past to everyone, including to those he loves. but you really get him to open up to you about those things. which is really good for him bc he learns that his dad was a shit father & he finally gets to know what real love is. & what it actually feels like to have someone be concerned & care for him. & he knows that he doesnt have to hide anything from you bc you wont judge him or think of him any differntly

when sleeping next to him, he finds it very hard to let you go from his grip. hes very touch starved & craves any touch he can get from u. whether it's spooning you, putting his hand on ur thigh, or just holding ur hand

he is a very conflicted person. almost in every episode he thinks something is wrong w him bc he "enjoys" killing. but it really is bc hes pushed aside every emotion he has ever felt & doesnt deal with them. him being with someone who is willing to listen to his vulnerabilities really helps him figure himself out

he is a VERY loyal person & boyfriend.

he likes to give gifts & is very close to being ur sugar daddy from how much money & gifts he gives u bc he thinks that the only way to keep u around is to give u everything u could ever dream of. which is very unhealthy thinking on his part

he needs CONSTANT reassurance. he needs to know that you will never leave him for someone better. believe it or not but hes pretty insecure. hes not insecure of his abilities in bed or looks but insecure of his lifestyle

he gets you little souvenirs from every state he visits! & now u have a whole bookshelf of knickknacks

type of person to tell u that he loves u within a week of dating. im half joking but he falls for people very easily

hes pretty controlling & protective of u, he just doesnt want you to get hurt. he will not let you go hunting with him, anyone, or alone. he needs you to be safe at all times. which yes, is understandable but you have to tell him that its toxic when it gets to the point hes too nervous about you leaving the bunker, your house, motel, anything really. & there's probably a tracking device in ur bra

he never smoked marijuana or says he does in the show. but everytime he sees a bong hes gets weirdly excited so i think hes a pot smoker. which is nice! bc hes very good at getting you strains of marijuana that r good for u & fit ur needs. he rolls ur blunts/joints for u!! & he even lights them for u as well! smoking weed is a huge part of his aftercare for u as well bc it helps to calm u down

he is very casually dominant! he orders for u, ties ur shoelaces for u, takes away ur soda if uve had too much, denies chocolate from u if u have too much cause he needs u to be healthy for him & eat right. he turns off the tv at the same time every night & makes u go to bed. he doesnt like it when u cuss & gets on to u everytime that u do cuss. he likes to pick out ur outfits as well. he also doesnt let u drink due to the fact his father was an alcoholic

he teaches u how to play pool & poker!! & even takes you out shooting every once in awhile!

he has the BIGGEST innocence kink known to man. he literally loves taking virginites

he literally has an angel kink. theres nothing that screams innocence/corruption kink more than that

he likes to dress you up as an angel too!! white lace lingerie & it would get him going more if he could get you to wear a halo headband!

his literal petname for u is, 'angel.' inside & outside of the bedroom. youre just so sweet & precious, how could he not call u angel??

literally just wants to corrupt u everytime he has sex w u. taking your innocence or making you look innocent while doing a not so innocent activity

a lot of people think hes a switch but i dont think so tbh. he literally has no control in his real life which would make him more likely to want control in the bedroom. not saying he tops everytime but theres no chance i can see him giving up his domination/control

but what i do know for sure is that this man is a FREAK

his list of kinks is longer than the amendments on the bill of rights

breath play, bondage, knife/gun play, impact play, corruption/innocence kink, praise/degradation kink, literally anything if youre down

i mean. he is horny 24/7 so it is for certain that he would try anything once or do anything sexually w u as long as u liked it

he LOVES to praise u! youre his 'pretty baby' or 'good girl' but he also LOVES to get praised too. he needs to know how good he is doing

but there are times that hes very degrading, usually when he has had a bad day. because u can be his 'good girl' one day & the next youre his 'dirty slut'

he is also a brat tamer! if your acting too bratty he will bend u over his knee

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eunkitarot · 1 month

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Hello can you do enha jay as a boyfriend please, kind of how you did with niki pls.

Jay as a boyfriend a Tarot Read By Eunki Tarot.

Hi sure so lets get into it.

Page of Pentacles: so as a bf, Jay would be a practical boyfriend. Someone that is hands on , would be there for you physically when you are going through a rough patch. He is someone that is loyal and faithful .Now, P of Pentacles is also someone who is ambitious about your relationship and wants to take it far. Combine that with hard work, consistency and faithfulness , Jay wants it to be a successful long-term relationship. He don't really like short term relationships or flings.

The chariot:with this card, it shows that as a bf Jay would be a person that is determined to achieve goals in the relationship. he is more of a doing person than thinking so he will not delay decisions. And if there are things that are unclear, he would want to clear the air as soon as possible so no conflict can fester. Which is good, however there can be downsides to this, because he may be too focused on getting things moving, he might neglect his partner's feelings. He can get stubborn if he already make up his mind. Its giving my way or the high way. This is something he needs to work on, bcs relationships requires both sides to chip in instead of one that controls everything. I think he does this out of fear that any wrong decisions can hurt the relationship. This also mean he lack trust in his partner, thinking that only his decisions is good . Another aspect he needs to work on. Most of the time he is not realising he is hurting his partner by his own actions. All the while he thinks he is protecting the relationship. Comes from a good place but bad execution is what im hearing.

3 of cups: as a bf Jay would be someone that loves to celebrate your wins. he would buy u presents and gifts on every milestone in your life. Whether its your first job, your monthsary, aniversary the list goes on and on. He likes to celebrate and appreciate your little achievements together. This is really cute. And as a bf, he feels like the relationship runs deeper than lust. Its genuine bond and connection. Im visioning an oak tree with deep roots travelling in the soil. That is how he views ur relationship something real. Something stable not just surface level.

Strength:as a bf, he wants to be your pillar of support. Someone u can lean on. Not only that with this card, too he wants to lean on his partner on rainy days. Jay wants to feel deeply cared for by his SO. Jay feels like his SO kindness and compassion really impacted him. He will feel confident and strong with someone that is nurturing. This can be something transformative for him and help him grow.

BOD/overall energy, the emperor: as a bf, he would be very protective of you.He values you deeply, almost in a fatherly way. Reading this made me smile, bcs this is so Jay, him and the dad vibe. he would love to show his love with physical aspects like gifting, act of service, being present etc. He defo wants to be the provider in the relationship. He would spoil you is what im getting. Spoil you with vacations and 5 star hotels. But all this can happen only when Jay really feels secure around you. You must go through a certain amount of thick and thins together for him to feel this way abt you. You must already be his 'rock'. A constant variable in his life. This is not something easy to attain.

I hope you like this reading. Dont forget to like :)

#enhypen #enhypen jay #enhypen ideal type #kpop tarot #enhypen tarot

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mizartz · 2 years

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more dp x pkmn doodles (it’s free serotonin) this time with valerie!!

rambling about her team under the cut:

Valerie’s pokemon were difficult to choose… I wanted her to have a relatively uncommon fire or fighting type for her bc because 1. I just think those types fit her, and 2. she used to be a spoiled rich kid, so i doubt she’d accept just any old pokemon for her partner.

Litleo:

chosen as her starter for its fierce personality and also bc its normal typing coincidentally gives it immunity to ghost types.

Probably lazy 90% of the time but gets super aggressive when challenged. It isn’t very interested in ghost hunting unless its perceived territory (the apartment, school, and/or nasty burger) is under attack.

Maybe has a personal grudge against Cujo? (havent decided on a pkmn for him yet tho...)

The other option for her starter was Vulpix bc its evolution is characterized as “spiteful”, which i think matches her pretty well lol. Some of the fire starters would be… okay for her, but I wasn’t a fan of any of their final evos.

Riolu:

baby pokemon gifted by Vlad. Perfect IVs/EVs, trained with dark-type TMs, has Foresight to negate ghost immunity, yada yada. It’s been raised from birth to be Valerie’s ghost hunting partner and doesn’t know much else about the world.

As Riolu grows older and its ability to sense aura/emotions increases, it begins to doubt its training, leading to it refusing to hunt Phantom because it knows that he can’t possibly be evil. (This attitude gradually spreads towards other ghosts as well, but Phantom is the trigger. Alternatively, maybe Ellie is involved somehow?)

Riolu and Val get into a big fight over it and Riolu runs away, forcing Valerie to confront her grudge against ghosts or risk losing her partner forever.

Riolu’s admittedly a bit of an odd choice for ghost hunting since it doesnt have type advantage, but I’ve grown quite attached to the idea of Riolu/Lucario’s innate sense of justice coming to a head with Valerie’s quest for vengeance. And also Vlad not thinking his plan through by gifting her a pkmn known to detect ill intent is very funny to me… like why didnt u give her a pawniard or scizor or smthn?? congrats u played urself

Riolu has no idea half-ghosts exist btw! Vlad kept it in the dark so it wouldn’t turn on him or reveal his identity. it suspects SOMETHING is up with danny though, which leads to some awkward staredowns at school. (also going by pkmn game logic: riolu can’t see through illusions without attacking first, so danny’s hisuian zorua is safe so long as it assumes another form)

im trying to avoid giving out too many shinies but shiny riolu just fits val’s color scheme sooooo much better. lets just say vlad wanted to show off REALLY hard that day, ok? being one of the few ppl in school with a shiny poke would make her less unpopular than she is in canon, but she still doesn’t rejoin the A-lister crowd.

riolu being so recognizable does mean it has to wear a disguise when ghost hunting tho (which makes my red huntress sketch non-canon lmao). it either wears a mini huntress suit or just a black cloak!

#danny phantom #pokemon #valerie gray #danny fenton #riolu #litleo #zorua #dp x pkmn #im still figuring out how i wanna draw valerie sorry for any inconsistencies 🙏#litleo got shafted in these sketches whoops #i got too fixated on riolu #val wouldnt actually use a baby harness i just thought itd be funny to draw dlhssalkdh

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strwberri-milk · 10 months

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Hi hi hello! Can i request mordern high school love with thoma? Reader being a gentle and reserved person being more popular among the juniors and thoma popular for his charm and being on the basketball team. Theyre relationship isnt too open but its not a secret either. They try to keep it low key of course

Now imagine the small moments with him :( after school studying at the library, walking home together, recess on the rooftop, arcade dates on the weekend and him winning you a plushie that we know sleep with evry night :(( him asking you to prom and being a gentleman :(( him coming over after school to study but end up staying over cause of the thunderstorm outside :(( our parents love him hes so sweet

(Pls help im so delulu for him)

ngl i love. modern high school aus theres smth about the simplicity of high school and being in the in between where you're *almost* an adult but still treated like a child and knowing youre about to ?? crest smth that everyone talks about anyway idk i really romanticised my high school life and ngl all my friends are from higschool LMAOO also the whole freshman/junior/sophmore/senior thing makes no sense to me idek if i put this in the right order and i wish prom was more of a thing here bc yall make it seem so fun

Thoma is definitely that kid that people know of, but don't really know all too well. He's really nice and all the teachers and students like him, and of course being both attractive and athletic made him that much easier to admire.

You had a crush on him for what feels like forever, wishing that one day he'd notice you out of all the other people who liked him too. He had so many admirers due to how kind he was, but being his friend you knew that there was so much to him.

When he finally asked you out it was the most cliche, yet sweetest way he could have ever done it. He drove you to a place that the two of you often frequented. When you got out, you turned around to see a picnic he prepared for the two of you, thinking it was just another nice thing he was doing for you because you were a little stressed out recently but the flowers and shy look on his face told you otherwise.

The two of you didn't go out of your way to tell everyone you were dating. Thoma just wasn't as willing to let people touch him as much, and you were seen hanging around the basketball team a little more often than before. Thoma always walked you to class anyway if he could, so people couldn't really tell the difference until one day they saw him give you a hug.

By that point everyone found out pretty quick but the two of you didn't feel the need to justify anything to anybody so you'd just confirm that you were dating and that was it.

Thoma always loves taking you on various dates whenever you can. He would see what kinds of places pop up on his feed and scout them out before taking you out for a night on the town (until curfew of course).

Your parents were really trying to look for something to be wrong with him, not wanting him to distract you from your life or end up in an unsatisfactory position of your heart being broken or anything like that. However, the fact that he constantly brought you home on time and made sure to say greet your parents every time as well as bring them treats he baked himself made it hard for him to stay hated in their eyes.

He's constantly gifting you things that remind him of you. If he's at the grocery store then he's giving you a candy that you liked. If he's at the mall he found some accessory he thought you'd look good with. It doesn't matter when or where - you're always on his mind and the trinkets you've accumulated from him are proof of that.

Whenever there are any events locally he loves to take you to them. Whether it be some sort of festival or just a pop up his favourite thing to do is explore the grounds with you and spoil you with prizes or the food there. He's got no limits when it comes to you.

Exam season means crunch time. The two of you are forcibly holed up by each other to try and get studying done. He's a hard worker so he's got tons of study tips for you if you need it and the right amount of rewards too. Whenever you get a practise question right or finish a writing prompt within the time limit well he always congratulates you with a hug or a kiss.

I can see him being super into doubling too. The two of you are one of those people who are constantly on call just doing random shit together. Neither of you has to actually talk to the other person - you both just like being in each other's presence.

Your room and bed are both filled with tons of things that Thoma gives you and he can't help but grin to himself whenever he comes over and sees it. He's got photos commemorating everything on his phone, glad that you like the things he gives you as much as he likes you.

Thoma absolutely adores you and I can see the two of you being high school sweethearts. He comes to your events and you to his, and the two of you end up living a perfectly happy life together, glad that one day oh so many years ago the two of you were assigned lockers next to each other.

#thoma x reader #genshin x reader #genshin impact x reader

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rewritingcanon · 1 year

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hp next gen red flags for @sunflowersandscorpius 🫶🫶

rose: will think she is better than you because she reads something with more literary merit

albus: will act like such an asshole to you bc hes tired or hungry or something small but when you snap back at him he’s completely shocked like he didn’t just deserve that

scorpius: something bad will happen to him and his anxiety has him warning you and making you stress over the most random ass shit. like he’ll say “omg last week i said i felt pretty and i said ‘i feel pretty today’ and NOW i have a pimple on my chin. NEVER call yourself pretty. uh huh. in fact, never say anything good about yourself because you will accidentally JINX yourself yeah uh huh”

delphi: literally tortures kids she gives off the vibe of a weirdly conservative alt siege mask girl idk

victoire: will complain with you about how HARD that test was and how she is going to absolutely FAIL it bc she did so bad. then she will get a 98% and you will get a 67% or something and she’ll be like ‘omg you did so well! 🤭’

teddy: type of person that you will spill your heart out to and you wont know a goddamn thing about him because of how fucking secretive she is

james: will break up with you by saying ‘im sorry im just not ready for a relationship’ and then will ghost you forever and find a new girl in two minutes

lily: you will tell her a secret and everyone and their great aunts will know it in an hour

lysander: worst person to be spilling drama with. he could tell you his parents are getting divorced and when you ask him why he’ll say “idk i didnt ask 😐”

hugo: has wayyyy too many friends to the point you could give him the most thoughtful carefully crafted gift ever and he’ll be like “omg thanks this is so cute 😻” and then chuck it with the rest of the just as thoughtful carefully crafted gifts

yann: hes not exactly problematic but he has friends that are, and he’s the type to say “oh no they’re really not that bad 🥺” as polly is beating someone up beside him

polly: will say the most fucked up thing EVER like its nothing and add a ‘lol’ or ‘xoxo’ to it at the end 😨

karl: cannot have a real conversation. try to strike up a mature conversation to better the relationship with him and his attachment issues got him saying “damn aight” to your carefully thought out heartful speech

craig: plays devils advocate in history class 💀

sophia: will offer to massage you if you’re feeling stressed and will end up breaking your bones (accidentally but still… unpleasant)

dominique: thinks shes better than you because her eyeliner is better

louis: will call you poor (as a joke but still)

molly: will point to someone literally getting run over by a car and will say “omg thats so embarrassing”

lucy: says “its on like donkey kong”

fred: says ‘who’ and then pauses and says ‘asked’ and acts like he roasted tf out of you

roxanne: will tell you in detail about personal things and dgaf about TMI topics. she just took the most massive dump and you’re going to hear every detail. you’re also going to hear about this incredibly steamy scene in the book she read last night, and all the random places of her body where she has weird bumps that she thinks she should be concerned about.

lorcan: doesnt wash his back

alice (bonus): will do work of her own free will and then complain about it. same vibe as your mum going “i slave away in this house”

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cinnamon-bunni · 11 days

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for those soft asks: 4, 10, 25, 30!

4. What flower would you like to be given? tbh im not picky about any sort of flowers! im not really familiar with them in general, so as long as they're pretty im sure i'll like them <3

10. What’s something you’re excited for? fuck uh......beautiful glitch said they were gonna announce monster prom four later this month! so thats exciting. im also excited to finally fucking finish all my wips (bc you see i have made a schedule that i will Definitely follow), or at least the first chapters of them lmao

25. What’s the best personal gift someone could give you (playlist, homemade card, etc.) tbh i would really love anything that someone would make me!! i think artwork would be the most beloved to me though, esp if its based off my own works (the one thing i strive and hope for as a writer lol;;). a playlist would be pretty cool tho too!!

30. What reminds you of home (doesn’t have to mean house… just things that remind you of the feeling of home)? thats a really hard question....i dont really have anything definite that really ties my idea of home, tbh. i guess apples, in a way? and like apple related baked goods. sorry, i dont got a lot to say on this lol

#computer had reset while i was working on this so pain and suffering in the world ig #bunni mumbles #ask game #thanks for the ask!

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drifloonz · 8 months

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btw i never posted this but conceptual pokemon teams for steven. one is mainly pre-incident while the one after is After The Incident ( since yk he canonically releases all his pokemon and goes willingly broke after miki dies. )

pre incident team ( he released like all of these. except miki obviously ):

post incident:

reasonings below ( its long i apologize )

PRE-INCIDENT TEAM ; here's a discord screenshot i put for general info lol anyways suicide cw in the screenshot ( just a mention though but yk. heavy shit )

miki - its miki. do you need me to give explanation. part of me just kind of took a few strangled red fics interpretation of why/how steven has miki ( aka he found her in the rain in pallet town and he didnt even wanna be a trainer - inspired by faulty on ao3 )

pidgeot - first pokemon caught other than miki for probably obvious reasons. he also needed a pokemon to use fly - a lot of his pre incident team is just for tms or for backup but he used like almost exclusively miki bc mikis OVERPOWERED

haunter - steven doesnt go into pokemon tower until after the incident, but i like to think somehow he met a gastly and it just kept following him until he caught it. ( im too lazy to remake the team but bc of this it prob should b a gastly in this image )

Fun fact; Personally i think the gastly in Strangled that lets you into his house is his gastly. why the fuck else would it be there. after steven releases all his mons it still follows him around and tries to get people to help them by moving the stones that block his house, but accidentally makes it worse bc steven just attacks people who come into his home at that time. oopsy.

sandshrew - i dont have a lot to say abt this one it just kinda fits + for tms probably ( sandshrew. learns a lot of tms. )

lapras - likely just for surf but theres probably more i could add to this my brains just not thinking

chansey - gifted by daisy! either as a happiny or just. as a chansey. it's honestly more of an emotional support mon than it is an actual battling mon

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POST INCIDENT TEAM ; ( once again discord screenshot w general info )

there's more post-incident teams, i made like 3, which is why it says he has pokemon that it doesnt seem like he has in the second images. few notable examples are zoroark, gallade, chandelure, hydreigon, gourgeist, and phantump ( ... the phantump is probably a kid he killed ( maybe in strangled ) that follows him arnd since he probably lives in a forest LOL )

miki - she's now fucked up and glitched since its post-incident. he technically has multiple fucked up missingno'd versions of her canonically. Do not ask why

mega absol - it's a disaster pokemon. it follows him arnd and doesn't leave him around bc he's constantly got disasters happening arnd him. he IS the disaster at this point. also i kind of stole this concept from a steven twitter rp account, iirc bc its a really good concept. i like to think he kind of resents it but he still technically Has it

mega houndoom - u can't tell me he wouldn't have a houndoom. steven HAS dog owner energy. also absol and houndoom r mega just bc i think they go hard and their designs fit better w steven. idk if steven would actually have mega evolution shit.

mawile - he would. idk why but he would

staraptor - he doesnt have pidgeot anymore so he got a staraptor, ig. i don't know why he'd have one it just fits

luxray - literally all of these last 3 boil down to "it just fits."

#wispy chatters #headcanons #steven strangled red

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vaguely-yandere · 2 years

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WAAAAAA i meant like you suould suggest an anon name for me bc i am so soooo terrible at coming up w names but i think it would be so cute if all ur anons were named “some adjective” darling!! just like the ones you mentioned!! hmm hmmm then, chami… i will be sunny darling!! bc people have told me im bright and smiley!! it would be saurrrrrr cute if all your anons named themselves some kind of darling too, ur anon following would be so cutely organized in that way!! idk if thats what you meant though </3 maybe were not on the same page at all and im just running my mouth again, as per usual!! anyways, regarding my super super hyper specific ideal yan type…

I LOVE SUBMISSIVE CLINGY YANS!! you know… kinda like the sensitive yan?? but not too shy, not to the point where they cant even speak to me. i mean. i like when theyre all cute and stuttering and blushy, but i wanna be able to tease them and mess around with them!! i want them to crave my attention and pout and beg and whine for it. i think its cute when theyre kinda like a puppy or kitty!! desperate and needy and cutie <33 its cute when theyre shy and soft spoken. its cute when theyre outspoken and outgoing. the common denominator here is that theyre obsessed with me and love me and want me to dote on them! awww they want me to hug then and ruffle their hair and compliment them… all of which i will gladly do!! my mindset is so healthy, i know! but as other anons have stated, we’re all normal here!! <333

and u know whats funny. im ace too but when it comes to sub yans my brain does the funny thinky and h0rny thoughts appear. subby yans swoon swoon!! i am okay i promise. also i swear im not stalking ur blog but you just so happen to be posting p frequently (as of rifht now) and i am eating it UP!! but ofc dont feel pressured to respond quickly or post a lot!! im just saying i appreciate u chami <33 LET ME KNOW IF IM ANNOYING then maybe i can be annoying darling instead LMFAOO (i hope not though </3)

waaaa sunny darling is so cute!!!! you know, i think you would do well with a subservient yandere! theyll do anything for you, just say the word and theyre So Normal about it! your hands get cold easily? they have an 'extra' pair of gloves. your hungry? they have extra cash! you wanna go shopping? its on them! someones annoying you? dont worry about them anymore. they just work so so hard to please you without thinking twice about you!

you tell them to jump and they dont ask how high, they just do it until you tell them to stop.

i like thinking theyre p rich, were neglected when they were a child, the stereotypical story. rich parents who never pay attention, blah blah blah and then they meet.. you... so bright, so loud, so talkative and so so sweet, they cant help but cling to you. somehow, by some miracle, they become friends with you and follow you around whereever you go. every gift you give them is put in a shrine they have that is. VERY hidden. and i just know they regularly have to have 'bathroom breaks' whenever you hug them tight or compliment their outfit or pay any extra attention and the poor thing just has to keep splashing water on their face to get the redness to go down! so cute!

aaa i just love sub yanderes, theyre just so... pathetic but in a good way! makes me feel safe! i just KNOW theyd do anything for you, darling <3 and if someone calls you annoying or is too rude to you, thats when their aggressive side shows up.

they corner them in some secluded area and bludgeon them to death. to a pulp. they didnt even have time to think about it, they didnt even question it for a second and afterwards, well, they feel kinda bad. not for the new dead person but because, well, they just know youll feel a bit scared now because of this 'random' murder and they dont want you feeling that way! but dont worry, theyll protect you!

and you need to stop worrying about bothering me, sunny darling! you need to take up space and be unapologetic about it! and i find stalking, intentional or not, very very sweet! <3 it doesnt bother me at all. spam liking or rebloging or anything really boosts by ego! i love it! im a touch of an attention whore lol and the entire reason why i started this blog was for ppl who have more 'dominant' (but not exclusively) personalities and wanted to see more subby yans! but i also enjoy a nice subby darling with a subby yandere, so cute! but what im saying is, i have zero issue standing up for myself or setting boundaries! so dw! <3

(P.S. to other askers, feel free to stake claim on a name! itll help me know who yall are and remember ur interests!)

#sunny darling #subservient yandere #yandere scenarios #yandere #asks

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oni-verse · 1 year

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Later - OC comic and blurb

long post. summary of events.

art from different times, a draft i've held onto for a couple months. been hesitant to post bc its not the highest effort and its unrefined and lacks context. but im here to give a bit of that too, i suppose..

superhero universe, centered around juliet mostly, but also koda. blood, death, guns ahead (tagged)

many months into the collective story. the team consists of juliet, koda, bo, oz, shiloh, callisto, valetudo, cat, and jinni.

valetudo was raised and forced into being a weapon for his villain mother, (referred to as "villainess") who is a very big threat. callisto basically protects him from her after val and his mother are separated by the older members of the team.

the group seeks her out for a while, the villainess causes a lot of trouble, death, huge arsonist, they want to protect valetudo from her. things are tense, they get the chance to attack her sort of ~headquarters~ of henchman etc. heres a bit from when they prepare

for context, a big point of contention in juliet and koda's relationship is mutual safety. juliet had been acting erratic leading up to this event, and in the span of their relationship, juliet had gifted safety gear for koda's fit, and taken plenty of hits for koda. juliet kills, maims, and uses weapons. koda doesn't kill, and he doesn't use weapons. it's just not something he's prepared to do, personally.

the group moves on to ambush the HQ, splitting into duo's and doing the whole fighting thing. as juliet predicted, they have guns. the less powerful members of their group (cat, koda, callisto) stay farther behind and find cover. juliet presses the hardest, mowing down these men without prejudice.

juliet's distracted by koda, he sees koda get shot, and turns to find who did it. he's completely unsure of whether or not koda is injured, if its fatal or not, etc. his distraction results in juliet getting shot, tooooo <3

😳

koda is fine, bruised at worst. valetudo & a newcomer take care of the rest, meanwhile koda goes to check on juliet. he's not moving, theres blood around him, chaos around them. koda is distressed & panicking )':

juliet is a healer and koda's seen him heal from a lot of crazy stuff. he regrows limbs, cuts heal in moments, but juliet's mortality is a mystery.

koda sees it for himself

i had intended to draw a bit of this eventually, but i'll keep it vague in this post. (hence the choice of words "newcomer")

the newcomer takes koda somewhere else that's safe, while koda is basically freaking out bc his boyfriend appears to be dead. pretty concerning, i think! koda is a total mess, been clinging to his dead boyfriend's body, adamantly carrying juliet by himself.

after maybe 20ish minutes since juliet was shot down, he's up all at once and throwing up blood. scares the shit out of koda lol

i wish i could put this under another read more

having ur head blasted open kinda sucks. hes a spigot of blood! he's dazed, but healing and alive. imagine the relief 🤪

they find out juliet can't die. the hard way, unfortunately.

koda & juliet are isolated with the new person for some time, while the others finish the job. valetudo ends up killing his villain mother, and everyone else is alive. shiloh gets a little scraped up, but besides juliet, thats the worst of it (:

other drama ensues blah blah juliet's dramatic past and so on

#oni art #juliet #koda #valetudo #callisto #cat #catherine #shiloh #bo #oz #jinni #blood #death #guns #tw blood #cw blood #cw gore #tw gore #tw gun #tw guns #cw gun #cw guns #cw character death

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unlimitedhorsepower · 2 years

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ive had a repeating dream with ryan in it in which my brain is somehow generating the weirdest ryan backstory details all by itself

it starts by me in 3rd person seeing ryan walking through a city (its evening and very dark) and then knocking on a door and entering without waiting for a reply and then i start seeing things through his POV and its so weirdly detailed and ryans mom has made food

and i woke up from this dream today because ryan got SO distraught/upset. and usually ive woken up or like, the dream has changed before everyones gotten to eat but today i got to see everyone start eating some sort of soup (tomato soup?)

anyway after ryan has entered the house, i get the sense ryan is visiting his parents(?)/family but i KNOW that the woman is ryans sister and i see her clearly and i KNOW she is at least 10 years older than ryan or something like, that shes my so much older than ryan that its hard to call her a sister

and the reason im not sure if theyre ryans parents or grandparents is because i feel like theyre his parents but theyre so old? but actually because its such a specific plot point in the dream that i KNOW thats ryans sister and i KNOW shes a lot older than him so that maybe in the dream it follows perfect dream logic

either way it always goes the same (and my dream ryans genealogy gets even more fucked up because his mom has a decorative pope plate AND the flag of ireland on her wall which ryan looks at a lot) and everyone sits at the same places on the table every time, so i dont get to see a lot of stuff from the other places in the apartment

and i get the sense its some assistive living situation (this is fueled by my grandma irl for sure lol) and when everyone has sat down (ryan is the last to arrive and his dad ignores him), ryans dad starts showing off what awesome gifts he has gotten for his wife. he has dark hair (but its dyed) and he hangs sunglasses from his shirt and is kinda stylish. hes also really stereotypically italian-american like hes my brains idea of what the sopranos protag is like (???ive never seen the show but if i had to pick)

his moms defining trait in the dream is having long, graying ginger hair? and also oddly parted like, it has a section of ginger hair left instead of normal graying (??). i dont get a good sense of her otherwise because shes mostly standing behind/next to ryan where hes not looking

some of the gifts i can remember are a golden necklace with a big real diamond in it, imported olive oil (it doesnt even have a label in it because its directly from some farm or something), and a champagne(?) bottle opener plated with gold with a pure amethyst handle

and everyones talking a lot EXCEPT ryan. hes mostly just thinking and i thought about it just now and i think it might be some sort of situation where theyre speaking in italian and ryan can understand but not reply which is why hes silent (??)

he thought mainly about how extremely hungry he is, and then he was like ugh i dont understand why the bottle opener has amethyst in it because that doesnt really match the decor at all lol... well whatever. he also thinks about how his mom(?) has gotten worse/more demented but at least shes taken up cooking and can cook still

finally we get to the eating part and her mom is a bit too silly/forgetful to set the table so ryans sister helps her out by setting the table while his dad talks to his wife about how beautiful etc she is (wife guy) and ryans sister doesnt give ryan a plate, so i like feel (?) ryan making a confused face at her

and shes like oh.. and she speaks to ryan in the vocal equivalent of a mean girl tight-lipped smile but nicely enough so nobody will notice and goes smth like, “theres only two clean plates of this set of four, one is probably in the wash and one is on the kitchen top behind you because mom(?) has already eaten”. and idk if she says mom or not because its a dream so its not exactly Real words bc weird logic

and she continues like “but does it matter since you never eat properly anyway, or even want to eat:/”.

so ryans like “oi oi... aheh... you got me...” in a defeated fashion and doesnt even try to argue about it. but hes really upset internally because this entire time hes been like, at least ill get food soon im so hungry...

and ryan awkwardly smooths out the tablecloth with his fingers (really vivid to me for some reason) and his dad goes on about how ryan is so disrespectful for not even wanting to eat such a hard-cooked meal and ryan just weakly smiles back at him and he was SO distraught in his brain where i was observing everything from that i woke up.

this is the first time his sister in the dream has spoken to him and it was basically just “area man gets actually bullied for disordered eating by his sister in 3 sentences or less”. why did she do that. why does she hate ryan so much

anyways heres ryans dream sister my brain made up and the image of her is so vivid about the haircut ESPECIALLY. like in t&b style too for some reason (i cant draw like that though). and she looks a LOT like ryan, vividly. im not sure at all what shes wearing though because my brain never focuses on it ain the dream and im not sure if i imagined a dress shirt after waking up or not

bye ryan... move aside ryan your sister has got it going on kinda. she might be evil for some reason but maybe pussy from a girl whos evil is a basic need?

on the scale from one to ten how do you rate my brains ryan lore<3

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astral--horrorshow · 2 years

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hi!! can i get a romantic studio ghibli matchup (like, out of all the movies u write for !!) anyway, i’m a 5’0 trans gay enby who uses they/he pronouns. i have long-ish black/red split dye hair, i’m very pale, and i have blue eyes. i’m also kinda chubby and i look very very tired almost always. i mostly dress causal & in pajamas, but when i feel like it, i just dress in an all black emo sorta outift? idk LOL

if this helps i’m an ISFP 4w5, gemini/cancer cusp. i’m a very very quiet and reserved person in public, especially around those my own age. i choose to not talk and i often just nod my head or shrug. i really only respond when need be! however, when you get to know me, i am absolutely chaotic. i love to make people laugh and will do anything to achieve that! i’m very physical and i love picking people up and play fighting with them (i love arm wrestling and thumb war LOL). i have a temper that’s hard to control in private, and i do get a little physical- but i don’t hurt anyone. i just throw around stuffed animals or pillows. in public i am more self-aware and it’s only visible through my movements, tone, and expressions that i’m angry. but i also feel guilty and very sad and i cannot be angry at someone for too long and i end up coming back to apologize (but sometimes i’m petty so if its their fault and what they did really hurt i won’t). enough about that though, abt my friends. i always try to fix their problems and give them advice and i sort out their issues and whatnot for them. im always there to listen and id consider myself a good listener, even tho sometimes i can lose hope and give up. i am mostly pessimistic and think things will go wrong abt get really nervous, but sometimes im very optimistic and cheer people on, esp my friends. i overthink a lot, bad or good things, which usually ends up in me spaced out, and i have a hard time pulling myself back into reality. i get embarrassed very easily. i stand up for what i believe in no matter what and i speak my mind for the most part. i have strong beliefs and opinions, im very skeptical of others at first, and i take a while to warm up to new people. but sometimes my anxiety overwhelms me too much. i also get scared very very easily. i also have BPD if that matters

i love love LOVE bugs, cats, knives, plushies, and rubber ducks. I collect the last three things !! they are my favorites in the world and i love going outside and collecting little bugs and ive always wanted a pet spider. i also adore dark/horror media things, and i love halloween. i love being scared and going into horror rides & ghost tours, theyre my fav ! cats r my fav animal and i want 50 of them when i get older. plushies comfort me a lot so do rubber ducks, so ig thats a bit childish, but thats okay :). i collect knives bc i think theyre cool and i like to show them off like theyre my babies (they are). i also love rollercoasters and theme parks, i luv adrenaline. i constantly have to tell ppl they wont die, even tho sometimes im scared myself. i love weezer, foo fighters, childish gambino, korn, and ghost. music is a very very big part of my personality LOL.

im not a big fan of pda but in private i LOVE PHYSICAL AFFECTION AND WORDS OF AFFIRMATION !! i love kisses and hugs and i will die without them. gift giving is my least fav method of affection, i feel too bad lol. i dont like being ignored and i get a lil jealous sometimes, so i need reassurance a lot. i prefer masculine people and someone who'd be patient w/ me.

thanks!!

Okokok-

Before i finished i know who it was-

Howl from Howls Moving Castle!

I just think you two would get along great! Also, ty so much for paying attention to my less popular fandoms! Its a very nice change of pace. Howl is one of my favorite movies and the book is one of my faves too, so im glad i got to think ab studio ghibli today!

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1d1195 · 5 months

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SAM MY LOVE I FORGOT TO SEND IN MY FEEDBACK😭

I typically write out my thoughts on my notes app(have a folder just for your stories🤧) bc this is me trying to be organized lol . Anyways this time I did fully put down my thoughts I just forgot to send it through here like a dummy lol BUT I DID NOT FORGET ABT YOU BESTIE!!! So here are my thoughts lol

YOU TRULY KNOW HOW TO KEEP THE STORY GOING IN SUCH A GOOD WAY!!! You know I love anytime Niall shows up in your stories bc you truly write him so well, I NEED HIM!

when i tell you once I read that she unexpectedly feel down, I just knew that Ava was behind bc my heart DROPPED! And then she apologized, my heart felt so sad :( I mean I can't blame her because I do the same thing too and it's a hard habit to break! Then them talking about the eggs... PAIN PAIN PAIN ALL AROUND! But I like it, it keeps the story moving!

Also I am not mad at here for wanting to be friends with him at all! Like personally I would have just been stubborn and guarded but I know I would have folded soon lol BUT THATS WHY I AM NOT HER, SHES HER OWN SELF! And Niall is gone so I don't blame her and shes in love so yeah lol oh and that "munchkin" part 💔💔💔 so good!

NOW I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY TO KNOW THAT SOMEONE WAS CHEATING EVER!! like I really felt that Ava was cheating or had cheated on him and like it was so satisfying to see that unfold, like it may sound fucked but it felt nice to know lol And maybe Im feeling just a tad bit petty but I kinda liked to see harry grovel a bit but only a tiny bit! bc it is very hard to get out of a toxic and manipulative relationship and it is something hard too do no matter shitty it was! He does has some healing to do and its a process but still happy for both to be out of it ya know.

And the end... SAM😭😭😭😭AHHHH so so so GOOD!!!!!

Side note I saw that some anon was just being straight up mean and that is not okay. It's one thing to give constructive criticism and that's fair but there is no need for just straight up saying they don't like. we all experienced something not being for us and that's okay but I would never just be mean to that author, ever. And I want you to know for every thing you post no matter what is such a gift! And I want you to never forget how loved and appreciated you are! love you so much!-💜

I'm OBSESSED A WHOLE FOLDER AHHHH 😭 I don't deserve you

I love Niall so much if I wasn't a Harry-girl I would be feral for Niall. Honestly, sometimes I still am. I see tiktoks of him and I'm like 🤤 Personally, I think he should be illegal. He's really fun to write and I wish I could tear myself away from Harry for two seconds to write a fic about Niall.

I'm glad you feel that way about her wanting to be friends. I really wanted to them to NOT be friends but I also would have folded very quickly. I also wanted to keep the plot going and I didn't want to be like *seven months later* because I think the whole Niall moving thing is still fresh so idk it made sense when I did it so I'm glad you're good with it! I love my munchkins 💕

When i started this story I didn't WANT you guys to like Ava but I wanted to keep an air of mystery but I think everyone assumed she was probs doing something worse (not that that makes Harry's thing okay) but again part of my process was ensuring that Ava would sound AWFUL when the time came to announce her secret.

Don't you worry about groveling and healing, I got you covered 🤣

You're so so nice 😭 I have a bit of a pleasing-complex so I feel so bad when I disappoint people. I shouldn't let it get to me but it's easier said than done.

Thank you for your message I love you and your brain so so much 💕

xoxo

#💜#love and dryer sheets

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strwberri-milk · 2 years

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Passing Hands: Chapter 8 - The Layers of You

Bridgerton!AU || Diluc x Fem!Reader || Drama, Falling in Love, Slow Burn || 3251 words

a/n - i swear im a kaeya simp tumblr doesnt look like it but im In Love with him also my coworker/friend deadass reflexively choked me when we were figuring out breaks and i think its the funniest thing ever bc she felt so bad and it wasnt hard but it was so funny uraefioeardf

You spend another morning entertaining a number of prospective suitors, all tired out by the time their numbers begin to cease. Now you’re sat in the middle of the drawing room, relaxing and having your first biscuit by yourself for the day. You relish in the privacy of your drawing room, having asked the staff to stand outside of the doors instead of inside.

As you sit by yourself, you find your mind wandering back to the conversation you were having with the Duke. It seemed that Lord Alberich was decidedly leaving him alone, giving you two ample opportunities to chat. The conversations felt shallow yet polite, most likely the result of the etiquette teachings. Still, sometimes you thought that you could feel a warmth seeping into his words, a semblance of affection from the letters in his voice.

Despite those issues, you find yourself becoming more and more entranced with this withdrawn side of him, wondering what more you could do in order to begin pulling apart at his intricate layers until you’re able to sit with the Duke on the same level, his smile becoming much less cold and a look that only you can see.

Sometimes, you think you can imagine what it’d be like for him to hold you, closing your eyes and bringing yourself back to the ball where you first spoke. You can remember his strong arms as he held you to dance, flexing gently under the fabric of his clothes with each step. It’s quite scandalous to imagine such things but you cannot help it. The way he looks at you fills your being with warmth and you wish to feel him admire you with the burning scarlet in which he views the world.

A day can only contain so much imagination and you get up with a sigh, deciding that perhaps you should finally ask one of the staff to join you on a promenade. They were quickly becoming a better way to spend time than staying inside and practising what were deemed to be lady-like pursuits that you needed to know to stay presentable. You decide that perhaps you can ask one of the staff to join you. One of the maids was beginning to warm up to you and surely it would not hurt your chances to invite her to spend an afternoon with you.

As you’re about to call for her the doors open to reveal the Butler greeting you.

“I see you’re about to leave My Lady. Would it be possible for you to stay for just a while longer? It seems you have a guest.”

“I’ve entertained far too many suitors this morning and would rather spend some time with my thoughts for now. Would it be possible for him to come back another time?” you ask, already dreading more socialising with another man intent on courting.

“Oh, I’m not here to court,” a lofty voice calls and you recoil. Lord Alberich.

“Do not say that. I do not wish to encourage scandal upon my family’s name. I am simply here to visit.”

He pops his head into your drawing room and grins, a woman you recognise as the Ragnvindr’s Housekeeper trailing closely after him.

“My Lord wished to speak with you and hoped that bringing these would make it worth your while.”

She hands off the basket to the Butler who reveals the contents, several bottles of well aged wine with Dawn Winery’s emblem placed delicately on beautiful glass. You gasp at the beauty of them, having known that Dawn Winery was the best but not understanding why until now.

“Tis a gift from both the Duke and myself. His Grace has been experimenting with grape juice flavours but I’ve included my personal favourite wines in the mix. May I sit with you?” he explains, clearly not expecting a no.

“I believe a rejection would be rude,” you grumble, making your true feelings clear.

“Come now, don’t be so cold. Can’t I just visit with the only woman who’s caught my dear brother’s eye? As much as it seems we cannot stand each other, I do want things to work out. Don’t just shut me out.”

He gives you a look reminiscent of a kicked puppy and you sigh, gesturing to a seat in the room.

“Right, well first things first is to do something that will impress him. Diluc values accomplishments, something tangible and the result of hard work. Are you good at anything?” he asks with a raised brow.

You sigh to yourself. Clearly he thought you needed to become better for his brother, deciding to use his ridiculous amount of free time to show up on your door. The Lord didn’t seem to mind his rudeness, making himself at home as he takes a biscuit and crossed his legs at the knee. He feels your stare and only grins cockily in response, giving you his whole attention while he waits for a reply.

“That is quite a rude way to ask such a question!” you huff, sitting down across from him and crossing your arms.

“But if you must know, I take care of myself. I’ve been working since I was young and even pay for my own room and board with wages from the club I work at. It's quite a lovely arrangement and I soon shall own my home,” you say proudly.

Lord Alberich lets out a low whistle.

“Impressive indeed. You don’t see many people like that up here. No, not at all. Talk to him about that. The trials and tribulations that you had to go through. I’m sure that the pathos of such a story will impress him,” he muses.

“Do you think this is some kind of game?” you snap, having enough of his antics.

“Of course I do. It’s called a season, is it not? One could say all these theatrics is much like hunting game, or waiting for the right time to pick the fruits off the trees,” he chuckles.

Somehow, that was the exact wrong thing to say and you ball your hands at your side before pointing at the door.

“Get out.”

“I don’t think I will,” he says simply.

“I said get out before I tell everybody that you came here to court me officially, even thought up the idea to propose to me and was simply here this morning to test the waters. I’m sure there are many people out there who saw your carriage and I refuse to take this insult to the life I’ve had to live. Sure, I may not be born to a rich and powerful family like you, but I worked hard for every penny I have. I do not need your help to charm your brother and if he relishes in the fact that I have struggled to be where I am today it will only attest to the fact that your whole bloodline is insufferable.”

The two of you sit in silence, your anger much too strong for you to realise that somewhere within your spiel, he had already decided his role in affirmative action was now finished.

“Do you want to know why it is that he responded to your letter?” Lord Alberich says as he gathers his things to leave.

“I do not care. Leave.”

“You live just a couple streets over from where I believe I was born. And you know what that means, right?”

You look at him, realising that this was some piece to the intricate puzzle that was the life of the Duke, and one that not many were privy to. While you weren’t rich, you lived in a part of the city that was home to people who could at least make enough money for their own keep doing jobs that did not make as much money, but at least did not require the prostration of one’s self. However, just past that area lived those who had to do the jobs nobody wanted to do for money that could barely feed half a mouth.

“You mean to tell me that-”

He cuts you off before you can speak again, seriousness slipping into his normally aloof disposition.

“You must understand that Diluc is really a good guy. Any woman would be lucky to marry him. You’ve already made a very good impression on him, do not doubt that. The man you’ve met is but a mere shadow of the person he really is. Father’s kindness is what allows me to enjoy the luxuries I have right now, and I will not have you be a less than perfect match for him should he continue his pursuit for you. The late Duke Ragnvindr wanted only the best for his sons, and I shall enforce that for the one that carries his blood.”

Your head spins at the drastic difference of the man in front of you and the one from just a few minutes earlier. His words are heavy, a thinly veiled threat peeking out from behind them and greeting you. If you’d known he truly had good intentions you never would have been as cruel to him as you were.

“I expect Diluc will be making more calls to you in the future. My work here is done. As far as I’m concerned, you passed all my vetting and are now, formally, invited to pursue my brother.”

“I was unaware he was not allowed to make his own decisions,” you respond, the normal bite in your voice no longer there.

“He is, but he’s quite dense when it comes to his own feelings. Therefore, I have to make those decisions for him. If you were to think this in terms of Diluc being a lady of breeding, I am her brother giving you, her suitor, permission to court her. Do I make myself clear?”

You nod and he nods with you, patting your shoulder before taking his leave.

When the Lord told you to expect the Duke’s visits more often, you had no idea that he meant that very day.

The Duke is now seated in your drawing room, looking slightly uncomfortable at the prospect of being alone in the said room and you take pity on him, calling in the staff. At that, he visibly relaxes and you laugh, making him laugh a bit too.

“Apologies. I just do not wish for your honour to come into question should someone find that we were alone. On the insistence of Kaeya, he has suggested that I try to relax more around you and I will now try that,” he says when the two of you fall into a silence, clasping his hands together in his lap.

He’s awkward, like a foal walking for the first time and the only thing you can think is that it’s very endearing. To keep him comfortable, you sit a little ways from him, but notice the warm tint of his skin and his pulling at his collar. With how pale he is, you can tell that he’s beginning to flush and you can’t blame him. The room is incredibly warm, you having changed from a heavier dress to a lighter one to combat the heat.

“Your Grace please feel free to remove your coats. I’m sure that you must be sweltering under all those layers,” you offer, worried that he was going to be dangerously close to collapsing.

He hesitates for a moment before complying, sighing in relief and removing the layers. You watch as his tailcoat comes off, revealing his waist coat. It’s evidently too warm for that garment as well and he unbuttons it, the light muslin giving you a better idea of his form hidden underneath the layers of clothing. His hair drapes over his chest, long red locks spilling over as he tilts his head back and rolls up his sleeves, revealing muscular forearms that have your mind wandering, even more so as he undoes his ascot to give his throat room to breathe.

“At any moment if you would like me to get dressed again do let me know. It seems this room directly faces the sun and leaves me feeling much warmer than usual. I might even get more freckles at this rate,” he complains, fingers tenderly touching his face as though he could feel them as they form.

“If you do, I'll be sure to tell you,” you reassure him.

“Thank you. That will be much appreciated,” he jokes back, a much easier smile on his face before he seems to remember something and shifts back to a more neutral expression.

At that you frown, fiddling with your hands a little. Diluc notices this and sits up a little more, becoming more attentive.

“Would it be possible for you to leave the room but keep the doors open?” he asks your staff who listen, leaving the two of you alone.

“Listen,” he starts when they leave. “I really don’t know how to do this. Any of this. The past couple of years I’ve spent primarily focusing on taking care of my Dukedom, keeping Kaeya in check, making sure the winery is thriving the way it should be and countless other tasks. Social relationships on a more intrapersonal level are not something I can be taught.

“I understand how to charm someone and how to say things that people want to hear. That is all easy. But somehow, sitting here and just speaking to you is terrifying and I cannot fathom why.”

You get the sense that he’s speaking honestly, fingers worrying over each other as he waits for your response. The easy look on his face is betrayed only by the stiffness in his body and you realise that this reaction he’s giving you, the fear he’s imparted he feels is because of you and you forget about all your initial reservations.

“I understand that some feel like a changed person when they pick up a quill and begin writing, their thoughts able to become much clearer and given the time to sharpen their wit until it becomes a fine sword. I suppose that’s how you must have felt when penning your notes to me,” you say in hopes of alleviating his reservations.

“Yes, that’s right,” he says quietly, eyes looking back up to meet yours.

“The man in the letters feels like an entirely different person, but I suppose he is somewhere if he was able to create those letters for you.” Your continuance hangs in the air as the two of you fall silent but this time it feels less strained as he thinks to himself.

“Could I ask you a favour?” the Duke asks to break the silence.

“Of course Your Grace. Whatever could it be?” you say quickly.

“Could we put the letters behind us? I would like to continue our relationship, whether it be platonic or romantic. It feels disingenuous for me to stand here in front of you like this yet simultaneously exist in your mind in such a different manner. Perhaps we could start with a blank slate and give all of this another try?” he suggests, giving you a hopeful look.

“Perhaps, but only if you’re willing to afford me the chance to ask you a question,” you challenge, speaking again when he nods.

“I have heard from several people that you refuse to court anybody. What about me made you decide to begin trying?”

He sits back and considers the question.

“Well, if I must be honest the answer is fairly simple. You aren’t anything like the rest of the women who try to pursue me. I feel as though I am a prize, something to be won, not a person. And while I am used to that feeling, I do not feel as though that is conducive to a healthy relationship. It is because you are different that I am willing to give you a chance. Does that satisfy your query?”

“It does,” you nod, thankful that his reason was ultimately something simple.

“I’m glad that you feel differently around me,” you continue. “It would never be my intention to make you feel like some sort of toy or a possession that I just aim to pass the time with. It’d be a grave dishonour to you and to your being. I can’t imagine that’s a pleasant feeling to have in the least.”

“It isn’t,” he confirms, and you detect a lightness in his tone. He smiles at you, this smile small but much more genuine than the ones you’ve seen before, even the ones he gave you during your promenade a few days ago.

“But with you I feel at ease, which is a feeling I seldom have. I quite appreciate it and I think I could get used to it. And if you’ll allow me, I think I would like to further pursue that feeling.”

Quickly, you move to sit next to him, boldly reaching over to take both his hands in yours. He stiffens slightly but gives in to you, letting you touch him carefully. The show of affection is innocent, but you know that him allowing you to do something so innocuous and innocent is a show of his faith in you and the willingness to further let you in.

“I would love that,” you say quietly, wishing you could properly intertwine your fingers together, feel the warmth of his palms without the fabric of your gloves between the two of you.

After a second, he shifts your hands to hold yours, bringing your gaze to meet his. It seems almost as though he is searching for something within your eyes, a desperate last minute plea for an answer that only you can answer if you knew what the question is. His grip tightens a little. You can feel the flex of his fingers, the heat of his gaze as he stares at you, face so close you’re sure if you were to move forward the slightest bit your faces would touch and the honour he promised to maintain perhaps scandalised but you find that such a thing would be more than just welcome if it meant having it done so by his hand.

You don’t know how long you two sit here with each other, not a single word passing between the two of you as some sort of understanding is achieved. As all good things must come to an end, so too must this, the warmth of his body disappearing as he moves back. His hands leave yours and he redresses, leaving you in awe as his fingers work over his clothes carefully, pulling his hair out of his jacket before standing up to bid you farewell.

“I have to take my leave now, but I hope that you will not mind my visiting more often. I can assure you that you shouldn’t have to worry about me courting someone else. As far as I’m concerned you’re the only promising candidate,” His Grace says with a slight chuckle as he packs up.

“Really?” you let your excitement best you, practically jumping up at his words.

“Really,” he confirms, looking as though he wants to reach out to you again before turning to leave.

“I’ll see you again when I have time. I hope you’ll be willing to wait for me.”

The words leave you flush as you nod dumbly, bidding him farewell with a flutter in your chest.

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6afurah · 11 months

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On the future

So today ismail's vinyl came in. I'm going to hop over to amcorp on the weekends to see if i can find a good turntable for cheap. I think it'll be a nice gift ( also i kinda want one for myself and im sure he'll let me use it too lol ) The vinyl i got him even comes with a poster i am 100% he'll love it.

But on the topic of his birthday next week,

it's really got me thinking a bunch,

I honestly know he loves me and all that. Without a doubt, in terms of love u know. but i don't know, something feels off, aside from the love thing. could just be me being idk you know paranoid me. Yesterday we discussed about what music we wanna make, and started a playlist for it too.

he's really great, i honestly just feel less alone with this person because we love and want the same things, i've honestly never felt that way about anyone before like that, ive loved other people but i dont think ive really felt what it is im feeling for ismail.

i don't know, maybe it was just the whole marriage thing, He was supposed to marry salma and she's getting engaged, He also met someone else after me, but it didnt work out bcs apparently something something tak sama vision la entah aku pun tak tahu lmfao

I guess it just

annoys me i'm not a girlfriend yet, and even when i am a girlfriend,

why do i get the feeling that this person has no want to marry me at all. He probably doesnt, and i guess it makes sense since we're only on good terms now, 3/4 months

but we've known eachother for a while now, this all doesn't bother me that much to be honest, its just upsetting how my parents don't like him anymore n his parents dont even know i exist

like it all just got thrown out, it feels good writing this down i guess. I dont feel like talking to him about it bcs tbh If he wants to do something about us or make it proper, he has his chance to do so, I'll give him time but honestly, I hate how if someone came along and offered something more concrete that i'd consider it. i love him like on god, dont get me wrong, and tbh i probably wouldnt even budge if someone else wanted me, but i think I just want to be a part of his life again and vice versa, not some weird secret where it's just the two of us.

Whatever, thinking about this just makes me angry.

my birthday happened a few days back, being 22 is not relieving at all. I always feel relief when i get older but now it's just replaced with this weird sense of dread tbh

i missed therapy roday i totally forgot about it. also my left eye hurts and idk why but maybe i need to take a break on the whole eyelash extension thing kejap lololol

if it still feels weird ill get them removed.

i also feel like taking a break from social media, no particular reason, i think its just a thing i feel from time to time.

working at an office i realize, you're just sort of

waiting for stuff to happen most of the time and it gets really boring.

oh i also gained so much weight, like 8 kg idk how i did that but i'm hoping to lose the weight soon. I'm on a calorie deficit right now, but its sort of hard to be consistent since i eat out with people and not eating a normal amount kinda weird people out and i kinda dont wanna weird people out u know???

I wonder when gjie is going to come back to office,

i really suck at scripting radio ads lololol Idk its surprisingly kinda hard to do, and i think its because i dont know how to make something not too formal and not too casual.

I wish my radio station was a little more relaxed. Maybe one day, i'll make my own radio station. Idk its just a funny idea, but it would be cool i think. Just me and myself.

I dont think anyone would listen to it though,

i like to think i'm interesting as a person

but i think i'm not so great nowadays, i'm not as interesting as i thought i was. I also kind of miss my long hair. Its nice having less weight on your hair but , I miss the comfort of long hair, just made me feel protected

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