#i am kind of desperate sorry

[rito-luvr]

Hey, just thought I’d put it out there that I have an AO3 work on Teba, if anyone would like to check it out!

It’s a work in progress, but I will be uploading all kinds of content (in the form of writing) there as I work through it.

It might not be the best, and it is quite the self-indulgent piece, but I quite enjoy writing and am somewhat proud of mine. So I thought “Why not share some of it?”

Check it out below!

#teba #teba botw #loz teba #teba x reader #botw #saki botw #breath of the wild #x reader fic #zelda x reader #the legend of zelda #the legend of zelda fanfiction #fanfic #writer #writing #age of calamity #revali #tears of the kingdom #i couldn’t find good enough fanfiction on teba so i made my own #ao3 fanfic #ao3 writer #please give this a little peek and maybe a kudos #i am kind of desperate sorry #just a kudos even please

[thehallstara]

i'm once again back at the "trying to get a diagnosis" grind and like. debating whether it's worth the risk to just straight up say to my gp "hey i think i might have a connective tissue disorder and here's why"

#s.txt #any advice or encouragement always welcome from mutuals and long time followers #every time i go in it's like we're back to 0 and have to start from the beginning #and so i'm just. incredibly desperate to break that cycle i'll do just about anything #my life is too diminished atm i need SOME kind of movement ykwim? #i just. need to be able to live life again. even if that means bigger mobility aids or medications or shit #if i go in on thursday and am just sent for blood tests that won't show anything with no follow up again i WILL cry #i just. want to experience things and be able to go places and see people without crashing for days and being in excrutiating pain #chronic illness stuff #sorry we are. spiralling today ✌️

[seithr]

i always forget this game updates while i'm gone. its been four years and im fiddling with flight rising again. kind of serving here

#kind of a gilf. reblog #his cunty little pose ohhh mr baldwin #pinky up? the gloves and nothing else? goggles now too? the withers are cute they're whispier now.. #... looks around . am i allowed to tag this as the game. sorry to the larger community on here i have a desperate need to sort everything. #and that will include my half thirst posts for ol boggy boy here. #the greatest minds in sornieth are cooking sexy old man potions for themselves. although i wouldnt mind he had more tummy still. #a lil paunch yknow. i like the defined shoulder-torso-hips but his lil bit of paunch left is cute to me. #dragons #flight rising #armour clanking #i log in and talk about dragon belly and 'i miss the dragon part of the game im playing rn' and log back out. sorry everyone 😔

[creepyscritches]

Ramping up to my first family therapy appointment and I'm feeling like an insane person trying to get thoughts in order like this is hell on earth 🤡

#Creepy chatter #Trying to convince other parties that I don't have issues I can just 'get over' is maddening #'all these fucking things shaped me into who I am + I am desperate for a healthy relationship w myself and you and these forever factors' #vs someone insisting 'I want to deal w these things and move on and not have to talk about them again' #I am ALWAYS going to be affected by several of these things but they don't HAVE to hurt me to be a part of me #Also it really sucks being told you're The Most complicated relationship in someone's life like it's a bad thing :( #But like. Idk. I'm in such a shit phase of 'you're right I wasn't the nicest and I'm sorry for not respecting your feelings' #When mine have quite literally never get acknowledged beyond making me a problem 👁️👁️ #This is why we need therapy!!!! #I don't want a therapist to take my side and I'm not trying to win any kind of argument #I just need a third party to fucking HELP ME

[allylikethecat]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: The 1975 (Band) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: George Daniel/Matthew Healy Characters: Matthew Healy, George Daniel Additional Tags: Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Implied/Referenced Drug Use, George washes Matty's hair Summary:

Matty wasn’t taking care of himself again. Whether it was because he was too high, or too depressed, or a toxic combination of the two, George wasn’t sure. He wasn’t eating, he wasn’t sleeping and George wasn’t sure when he had last taken a shower. But he was sure it had been too long since he had washed his hair, the dirty curls overgrown and tangled, hanging in a rat’s nest around his gaunt face.

#allylikethecat #clean #gatty #matty fic #keep it kind #happy tuesday here is my oneshot #sorry to disappoint with it #let me know what you think though!! #as always i am desperate for feedback #even though i know its not cute

[gilligans-islands]

i think its interesting that throughout all of ep 6 we can see stede and ed like sharing a connection but they are taking it slow. they are just having small moments together where they are together and enjoying each others company.

then of course Ned Low shows up and ruins everything by capturing and torturing the crew and he says many things to rile up both stede and ed who still havent like fully reformed their relationship and trust for eachother and it probably alights all their insecurities about their relationship plus they had to watch each other get tortured and almost die and after he chooses to kill ned stede is obviously shaken up both from killing a man and all of the shit he just went through and hes vulnerable and scared and lightly traumatized probably and ed goes to check on him and stede is just is a horrible headspace and he falls back on his old ways and acts on a whim by grabbing ed and pushing him up against the wall

and ed didnt have any better of a night than stede did, getting tortured and watching your lover get tortured fucking sucks and hes just as in a horrible headspace as stede and so he also acts on a whim and lets stede escalate and they kiss and then they have sex

and everything seems great between them the next morning but suddenly ed is throwing away his leathers—okay pretty sudden but maybe he was already planning to—and then ed is sharing how stede was kinda the one who saved his life when he almost died—okay kinda intense conversation over breakfast but maybe he was already planning on telling him and decided it was a good opportunity—and then later stede shares how he wrote ed letters expressing his love and threw them into the sea—and okay maybe they just felt like really sharing this morning—and then later at jackies ed is telling jackie about how it might not be a phase that he just wants to be a regular guy—and wow okay thats cool maybe hes just been thinking about it for a while—and then stede lights a man on fire who wants to kill him—and woah stede um kinda harsh you didnt even hear the man out—and then stede and ed meet up and stede got his ear pierced—thats cool unplanned but cool—and then ed tells stede that he took a job as a fisherman and is leaving—

and then suddenly you realize theyve fallen back into their old patterns of acting on whims again

suddenly they aren't taking things slow, suddenly they are sharing intimate things with each other with 0 apprehension

they are right back where they were in season 1 right down to ed wanting to get away from pirating like his life depends on it and stede wanting nothing more but to be a pirate and live out his fantasy

and this time they fight and ed outright says that things are going too fast and part of it is that he just wants to leave and he is scared but he feels like this because yeah

they are taking it too fast

they suddenly—on a whim—decided to deepen their relationship way faster than they should have entirely on accident just by—on a whim—deciding to have sex when they were both in a vulnerable state and needed comfort

i really dont think it was an accident that episode 4 decided to spell out for us that Ed and Stede are whim prone people. it wasnt just an explanation for why last season ended the way it did with them splitting up. it was an omen for what was eventually going to happen with them in these episodes. the inevitability that they were eventually going to succumb to their true natures if not given the proper space and time to work out the shit between them, if insecurities and expectations got piled onto them again.

#kinda rambled but ive just been thinking about this since i watched 6&7 #like i cant but be seeing the parallels in what was going on with them in ep 7 to what was going on with them in ep 9 #like i havent seen it really talked about yet that ed was in his leathers all throughout ep 6 without seemingly any issue #and then suddenly in episode 7 hes wanting to get rid of them and be back in regular guy clothes and distancing himself from being a pirate #just like in episode 9 where as soon as ed could he was getting rid of any trace of being blackbeard and then making plans to run away #and stede in episode 7 is living out his fantasy of being a famous pirate and getting all the attention hes always wanted #and it kinda parallels how in episode 9 stedes main goal after getting to sent to the pirate rehabilitation camp is to escape #he wants to immediately go back to being a pirate and live out his fantasy #and its not exactly the same but its the episodes mirror each other enough that the parallel is kind of obvious i think #and i think the fight in episode 7 is exactly like the conversation they have on the beach in episode 9 but this time they actually do figh #they miscommunicate again in the exact same way as before but this time ed wants to run away on his own and leave stede behind #because now stede is embodying the pirating life and ed is trying so desperately to run away again #and all stede is hearing is that ed doesnt want him #whoops thats like another whole paragraph in the tags #sorry i am like ill over them #just rotating these guys in my head #ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd spoilers #ofmd s2 spoilers #our flag means death #edward teach #blackbeard #stede bonnet #ofmd season 2 #ramblings #long post

[stevethehairington]

just left the theater after seeing wonka and..... that.... that was a movie. that i saw. in a theater. fjsjsksksk

#what the FUCK honestly fjsjskfkd #that was not at ALL what i was expecting and it was fucking WEIRD #but like not even the right kind of weird for willy wonka!!!!! #also they were all trying WAAAAAY TOO HARD #lil timmy tim was going way too hard fjsksk it was a borderline desperate performance i would say sorry timbo #OLIVIA COLMAN CRUSHED IT THO SHE WAS FABULOUS I LOVE HER #also hugh grant WHAT are you doing with your career babes #kudos to you got taking the wackiest roles now but this one took the cake lmfao #ALSO THERE WAS SINGING THERE WAS SO MUCH SINGING LIKE WAY MORE SINGING THAN I EXPECTED THERE TO BE #it was like. trying SOOOO HARD to be a broadway musical for the silver screen but oof it was not charming enough for that #i am not gonna lie i spent most of that movie staring at the screen like what the fuck jsjkssk #it was a fun time tho lmfao #mack rambles

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

SENDING MY FIRST ASK FROM THE NEW BLOG!!!! i feel like i am sending a letter from a new address... crazy. ANYWAY HOW R U TONIGHT!!!! i hope ur havin a good day!!!! kicking my feet like a teenager at a sleepover rn tell me abt ur day who r the blorbos in ur mind rn what kinda art r u workin on lately how's it going friend!!!

HIIIIIII HI HI . HELLO SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG- i mean catboy cellbit!!! . dude i am. dreading the coming week tbh but it is fine !! we will get thru it we will survive!!! i am so sleepytired but alas i also cannot sleep so i may just have another night of reading and music ahead of me . wah. i hope u are hsving a good night <3 IVE BEEN COMPLETELY ART NERFED TOO BTW. my laptop died on me a couple days ago and while i was able to find a new one affordably it will not be here until the 13th 😔 so no digital art from me for a while. sigh. i DID just decorate my new sketchbook with stickers tho so im hoping that will get my brain in gear for traditional art again. AS FOR BLORBOS. oh . u know. the usuals. vash the stampede. zacharie from off . masky marblehornets (also tim marblehornets) . to name three of them.

#who are ur blorbos rn. i dont watch qsmp i think sering ur posts abt it are really funny bc im like. guy walks into the room on fire gif. #i have no idea whats going on in here congratulations and/or my condolences <3 #thank u thank u i love the sleepover vibes. literally had gossip talk w one of my other friends earlier #(name withheld for reasons but if u see this u know who u are and i love u ) #so the vibes are so correct #i have 2 work tomorrow :( not looking forward 2 that. #however it IS my last day of my long term overnight job which means i will be able to sleep in my own bed tomoerow night. #this is something i have not done for like. close to a month now. whcih is why ive been sleeping so awfully! so hopefully that fixes me #also have. job interview on wednesday for another aquarium place.. #fingers crossed this goes better than my last one but also part of me is kind of hoping it doesnt go well #bc i hate transitional periods and i dont want 2 go thru the moving process again #and i dont want 2 meet a bunch of new ppl all at once again. and do the while job training thing. #alas that is the anxiety talkimg and i do actually want the job bc it would be good for me <3 #sorry it is late and im soooo fucking sleepy so im rambling !!!! do not feel like u have to respond to . gestures vaguely at all that #its blorbo talk time. i desperately want 2 warch more mh right now #however the house im.staying in IS in the middle of the woods and very isolated and i have been so scared and paranoid #so i am OUTTA LUCK sigh. i will simply watch smth silly instead like gg tmph or david attenborough or perhaps spongebob will b on the tv. #asks #friends!!! #false-anachronism #<< oh fuck new url!!! i got like halfway thru typing ur old one before i was like WAIT SHIT.

[mythvoiced]

HYELLO~ work's slowed down a little again, but I'm continuing m'hiatus a tad because for whatever reason I've been super low on energy so I'm not really managing to provide the usual energy I offer, SO UH HI I LUB U THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE, CATCH YOU SOON

#;ooc #;psa #ACTUALYL MAYBE IT'S /BECAUSE/ work's slowed down #i was stressing over deadlines and whatnot and dealing with some family drama nothing too serious BUT draining #so now i'm just kind of like... the physical embodiment of a sigh with an occasional spike for whatever hyperfixation manages to - #- grab me for a few moments | watched r.w.r.b and i am in DESPERATE need of the full 3 hour cut #and i don't care what flaws it had it matters a LOT to me now okay #but that nonsense aside i can't really word & write anything in character either so i will catch u soon ;3 #also someone called us to fetch a stray kitten found in their garden so we're taking care of a Lil Guy~ #hmu if you'd like to see him btw my brother's still gotta give his vote on a name but we seem intent on going with my suggestion #which would be Chili Con Carne (Chili for friends) so we'll see #sorry if i sound very... idk dismissive? or uncaring? i hope it doesn't come across like that i appreciate you folks SO MUCH #i'll catch ya when i'm on track again~

[verynichedome]

THE BBC CAN GO FUCK ITSELF

I swear to god there is no words in the english language for me to describe the rage that i feel. Justifying their support for Israel by saying "a people who suffered genocide can't commit a genocide" ????...????

WHAT THE ACTUALL FUCK are they even listening to themselves???

Unbiased news my ass.

Fuck western news.

Freedom for Palestine.

#free palestine #i am just so mad #fuck them so much #sorry for bad language #and also what kind of bullshit argument is that??? #btw that article i read in the bbc new in spanish #like #they are really desperate for the global south to support israel huh?

[themetalvirus]

more often than not i am trapped in a house in the middle of the suburbs with no access to transport that is full of people who don't like me and often refuse to even talk to me and the people who DO love and care for me i hardly see in person so whenever i get love on here its like. i look like this

#exoticbutterstxt #im loud when i pace and it was 3:30 am but my housemate is usually awake and doesnt mind when i pace... #she came out of her room to ask me to stop and i also jumpscared her by accident #it made me feel really bad #i was daydreaming egghogs to splatoon music but after that i just kinda went back upstairs #ik its not really a big deal but my only interactions with ppl in my house are like #them asking me to stop doing things #or me desperately asking for basic courtesy and getting rebuffed #so. thanks #sorry about the oversharing i am not mentally well #also i have a mom and gf who love me very much and a friend or two and my granddad also #but man i dont see them often #im feeling especially lonely because im gonna see my gf and be with her all weekend #which is kind of a Rare Event #so i'm excited but also her current absence makes me even more lonely #man.jpg

[thebirdandhersong]

Granted. There are two problems

#a) he is not a Christian and b) he would probably be very shocked #that i take dating so seriously. so i am holding off decision making for now #and by decision i mean my friend offering to say something #unfortunately the dating pool here is in such a sorry state #literally the only marriageable man ive met is my philosophy professor #AND HE'S MARRIED #anyway point being. this is so sad #he DOES have very soft and gentle and kind looking eyes #i am not immune to kind eyes in a man i must admit. #and he IS horrifyingly handsome. #however i am not a compromising sort of girl #TEMPTED TO THOUGH JUST TO SEE HOW IT GOES #if y'all saw the dating pool here you'd understand the desolate desperation 😭😭😭😭 #of all the Christian girls i know who are looking for a faithful steady man in these trying times

[storyweaverofgondor]

Me seeing a commercial where a person’s clothes and/or hair perfectly match the walls and/or furniture: Sooo . . . this person’s a serial killer.

#personal opinion #i'm sorry but if your shirt in the EXACT SAME COLOR as your couch or your shoes perfectly match the tiles of your kitchen #and you don't show it off in a 'Hey look at at this wacky coincidence XD' kind of way #Or come right out and admit you are completely obsessed with this very precise shade of color #I am going to assume you either have some untreated OCD that getting way out of hand #or you've got bodies in the basement #or you are DESPERATE NEED of a hobby

[allylikethecat]

Chapters: 7/9 Fandom: The 1975 (Band) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: George Daniel/Matthew Healy Characters: Matthew Healy, George Daniel, Ross Macdonald Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Heavy Angst, Hospitalization, Drug Abuse, Suicide Attempt Series: Part 1 of The Infection 'Verse Summary:

“I don’t like going there,” Matty responded, jutting his chin out with false confidence. He didn’t have many clear memories of going to A&E, but the hazy snippets were from a dark time. He was sixteen and downed an entire bottle of his mother’s sleeping pills. He was twenty one and had alcohol poisoning. He was twenty four and broke his wrist, falling while a toxic mix of drunk and high. He was twenty six and he ODed for the first time. He was twenty seven and George had broken his shoulder, Matty sitting shaking with fear and withdrawal in the waiting room. He was twenty seven and ODed a second time. He was twenty seven and admitted to detox. He was twenty eight and had relapsed. He was thirty and had food poisoning, throwing up everything he had ever even considered eating ever. He really didn’t want to go to A&E.

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The nine times Matty went to A&E and why he doesn't want to go now.

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AKA The A&E Fic™️

#Allylikethecat #Rid Me of the Blues #The A&E Fic #a&e fic #the infection verse fic #the infection fic verse #the infection verse #infection verse fic #infection fic verse #infection verse #gatty #matty fic #it's still tuesday in my time zone #sorry that work as been annoying on tuesdays and i haven't been able to update until later #keep it kind #let me know what yall think #i am desperate for feedback #because i cant emotionally admit to nurse c im writing matty fanfiction lol #even though she knows my interests and 100% suspects haha #but im not admitting it yet #and i just #feedback yo #i miss it #and need it #anyway thank you for reading enjoy!

[dimensionalspades]

[ META ] + SEP ( for Jack LMAO )

- META || accepting -

@deathsighs

As stated, the program was made as a sort of Hail Mary approach to creating enhanced soldiers to combat the Crisis. Soldiers would be approached about a program, very much lured in by propaganda about an experimental project that could save the world and all that, make them feel like heroes.

The program would put Soldiers into units under a commanding officer, Jack landed in Gabe's unit. The serum was administered in batches; first to unit a, then a week later, unit b, and so on. This meant that the serums would have a small incubation period to check for horrific side effects before moving forward. While there were some things put in place to help with the general strain of the program, this wasn't exactly a water-tight operation due to rushed implementation.

The biggest challenge was that because of the nature of the serum and what it was doing to the soldiers' bodies, there was no real way to predict how it would affect each soldier. So one dose could kill a soldier outright while another had much more mild symptoms.

The weekly injections gave the soldiers some time to recuperate, work out, etc between shots. Life was pretty scheduled in terms of recreational time and mock battles, workouts, etc. Still instilling military values, lots of propaganda in the halls, that kinda thing. It was a very 'serve your country, your sacrifice is needed' kind of shit. Side effects could range from mild, like muscle cramps and sinus pressure, to more serious, like seizures and cancerous growths. The general process was that the first few injections were the worst, and then as the body adapted and grew stronger, it'd get... marginally better. Enhanced healing would aid in managing pain and symptoms, but a serum could still kill a soldier even in the "home stretch" of the program.

In Jack's case, he struggled with a lot of the injections but got through them. However, nearing the end of the program, he had one that caused him to suffer a grand mal seizure and he was laid up for a few weeks. In general, the program was hell on everyone, and Jack spent a lot of time trying to keep the spirits of his fellow soldiers up. Many didn't survive the program, some were lost in the Crisis, and by the time Overwatch was formed, only a few of the enhanced soldiers were still alive.

#ALSO I AM SO SORRY THIS IS SO LATE #I'M SO SLOW BB FORGIVE ME #jack is incredibly allergic to the kind of aggressive patriotism some people have #he knows he was manipulated #all the soldiers were in some way #not a single one of them was more special than the other #jack was young enough to buy in and desperate not to be sent back home #I have some names of essentially super soldier ocs that live #mainly they want to be left alone #one being a bodyguard for hire #one owning his own flower shop #another is still a soldier #there's more kind of scattered and most of them like Jack still have lingering trauma #.letter to nowhere ; sol.dier | inbox. #.you don't wanna go to war with me ; sol.dier | musings.

[yinyuszi]

hELLO- have you read the fic "it's just another graceless night" by caramelize on ao3? (riddle/ace) it's so good omg,, a friend recommended it and now we reference it all the time bc it was THAT life changing (?).

YES YES I HAVE OH MY LORD THAT FANFIC REWIRED MY ENTIRE FUCKING BRAIN JKSHDFKJSDHFS ;;SOB

theres so much I love about post-blot riddle and how the author explored his reputation with the other students and also how it lead him to desire to understand the things that he was brainwashed by his mother to dislike. I HAVE SO MUCH PRAISES TO SING ABOUT IT KJSHFDF IT TRULY CHANGED ME JSDKFHSSD I just love ace and riddles relationship so much and how perfectly they balance each other out, I genuinely think they make each other into better people. ;;w;;

i also LOOOOVE post-NRC ridoace fics KJHSDKF i'm thinking of specifically two in my mind rn BUT I DON"T WANNNA BLABBER ON DFSJKFKHADF thank you for your ask!!!!

#also i have your earlier ask in my wips!!! i just draw pretty slow and i'm super busy hjhsfsf ><;; I'M SO SORRY!!! #i appreciate your kind words and i am always desperate to talk about riddle... ;;w;; hehe;; #meekotalk #ask #tsundereition