#i am right i know i am/hj

[sotogalmo]

4:13 am

MIKE SCHMIDT AND THE GFS + WILLIAM AFTON AND VANNESSA AFTON WITH: "HEAVEN SAYS" by GamePlayah.

I know I am right

#time diary(?) #audrey/kellie's time diary #fnaf #fnaf playlist #fnaf movie #five nights at freddy's #william afton #vanessa afton #vanessa shelly #golden freddy #mike schmidt #“now spell answer(etc/etc)” - William/GFS #“f r e e d o m/etc etc” - vanessa/mike #i am right i know i am/hj

[r0b0t-after-all]

need to be a robot immediately. please

#like physically. i mean #yeah i know i am one but. not having my head or hands being right is killing me /hj/exaggeration #julian.txt

[riddlerosehearts]

twst book 7 part 5 felt like such an attack on me personally. i slightly edit silver's official art to make him look more like riku from kingdom hearts, mostly as a joke based on how similar they already look, and then suddenly a few months later i'm getting silver vibes from lizz robinett's lyrics to riku's theme

#at least sebek was there to help silver speedrun this character arc #imagine how much different kh would be if sora and riku found each other again like right after kh1 ended #also silver hallucinating himself looking like the knight of dawn has riku taking on ansem's appearance during kh2 vibes #and the knight of dawn has long hair like kh2 riku #my theory on why mickey seems to know silver is he subconciously recognizes him as being partially twisted from his kh bestie riku. /hj #sorry i am just sooooo not normal about all this #anyway i have now read this whole update twice in a row. oops #twisted wonderland spoilers #twst spoilers #twisted wonderland liveblog

[governmentmandatedryujinstan420]

FINALLY. THIRD ACT. IT'S BEEN 3000 YEARS, I'VE FINALLY ESCAPED THE BUILDUP DUNGEONS INTO THREE SECONDS OF DIALOGUE THAT IS ACTUAL PLOT EVENTS, PRAISE BE TO THE WRITING GODS!

#hand jumper #DIALOGUE #LIKE THE LAND YOU FIND AFTER MONTHS OF SEA #ryujin mention of the day ig but lord knows how many days i missed they probably though i was dead and i technically was #The Horrors™ persisted but through pure hubris so did i #they say the first work is the worst work and brother i am serving that right #the cops are gonna find my rotting corpse #and they will only find the delusional folders of side character brain rot in the remains of my freshly burnt living quarters #born with a curse and the curse was fixating on two people's 5 minutes and 32 seconds of screentime respectively and obsessing over it #when i finally finish this i can finally force the peoples to listen to the queerplatonic situationship that juni and ishaan have going on #only in my deranged mind #only thing that kept me alive this month was this and that game i've waiting for really #BUT THE HORIZON IS UPON US LADS #terrible writing dumpster fire /hj coming soon near you #if i can proofread in time since i forgot contemporary literature actually condemns huge paragraphs

[livelaughlucas]

me trying to explain that the black dot is on top of green and what does blue and yellow make? GREEN AND IT IS THE ONLY GREEN WRITING ON THE WHOLE BOARD

#am i insane #yes #I KNOW I SOUND UNHINGED #/hj #byler is canon #byler #gay will byers #mike wheeler #stranger things 4 #stranger things #will byers #st4 #byler is endgame #will stranger things #byler s4 #byler better be canon #byler rights

[nintendont2502]

Aromantic yearning (?) is so fucking weird because it's like. Yes I want someone to spend literally my whole life with, who knows me inside and out just like I know them inside and out. Yes I want to share my whole life with them. Yes I want to make out with them sometimes. We're just besties though

#aghdhfg i want to date!! i want to do all the relationship shit!! just without the romantic aspect #and yeah i know qprs exist but it just doesnt. vibe right yk #i want a bf #or a moirail that would be fucking great actually #moirail applications open mutuals hmu /hj #god idk its like 1 am #im exhausted #i have work the next two days (cringe) #sigh #nintendont2502 cringe comp #will probably maybe delete later #or ill just forget this exists who knows #certainly not me #me.txt

[wavernot4love]

time 4 yet another wavernot4love gig recap, gloomtown rochester edition (aka my seventh time seeing idkhow, fourth in rochester, & third at the montage music hall, the latter two a feat i cannot say for many bands) (note this was typed primarily at three am last night so once again there is probably incoherent rambling):

- gonna start this off with this clip of sunnyside since 1. i think that is becoming my favorite song off gloom division and 2. the ending gives me a chuckle

- boring live finally came back 2 me after four long years!!!!

- (dallon neurodivergency mention when talking about the themes of gloom division) (crowd erupts in cheers)

- return of the mormon tabernacle choir comparison arrived post- a letter, with dallon saying the next song (what love) wasn't something they tell you about in church, in typical cheeky fashion

- somewhat related, bro was wearing a gold sparkly grandma cardigan and randomly ripped it off and threw it CLEAN through the doorway of the like, green room at montage mid- what love. speaking of he said people at the vip earlier apparently planned his outfit

- dallon straight up grabbed a kid by the hand mid song and yanked them out of the crowd & onstage so they could do a lil jig together? good for them!!!

- going to leave the dallon quote "this isn't a frat house!" here w/o context

- someone handed him a giant american flag with a picture of him printed on it. god bless america

- ALL OF THE BRACELETS/KEYCHAINS WENT? after the show maybe 40 of us camped outside in case dallon came out and at one point someone who had reached out about them came over & so did a BUNCH of other folks who realized there were, in fact, bracelets. my cousin referred to it as the "meet & greet" since there were barricades set up along the sidewalk which gave me a bit of a laugh. guess i'm making more for buffalo yippee!!!! possibly may make stickers too later if i have time. i'll probably post em, but otherwise look for the person w curly hair & a baggy black thought reform hoodie w bracelets on a carabiner!

- so while we were waiting my cousin and i were sat RIGHT next to the main entrance of montage, right? basically the start of a sort of line of people sat down going down the sidewalk.

anyways, at one point only maybe 45 minutes after the show, out of said main entrance strolls dallon. collective whiplash moment as bro took one look, stopped dead in his tracks, we all collectively looked at each other like

and dallon (who i think was truly surprised so many of us were out waiting in the cold) goes, lightheartedly but genuinely, "what are you guys doing all out here? it's freezing outside!"

and then proceeds to kinda frolick around for a couple minutes laughing w people or whatever. we didn't really approach him since i think he was a bit overwhelmed but it was still just a funny moment and we'll see what happens in buffalo! maybe less people will hang after so it'll be less intimidating for him.

- i do feel the need to mention i heard this one kid we were talking to bring up video games to him & dallon said he's not a huge video games person he just plays the last of us & spiderman really which is funny to me but fitting

- i did bring my point & shoot so once i edit those maybe i'll post some!

anyways, stoked on tomorrow's show yay!!!

#idkhow #gloomtown tour #dallon weekes #i dont know how but they found me #oh i am so excited for the idkhow biennual tour de upstate ny to continue 2morrow #i went from last weekend thinking “how am i going to adjust to idkhow tour THIS soon after 2ourdust?” #and not knowing any of gloomtown yet really besides a couple singles somewhat #to memorizing that entire record nearly and entirely living back in idkhow world #i knew this would happen like i've said before i am just impulsive and need to do it at the last minute RIGHT before a show #also i must say the only uhhh Thing about idkhow shows is i am convinced idkhowies do not know how to move during a show #only show i go to where everyone straight up just kinda stands there bobbing their heads #i saw a /hj post on reddit a while back about this where people brought up the idea of moshing to spkothdvl #and while that was being a bit facetious of course #people did bring up the point that uhh... some more jumping & such would be nice #buffalo i believe in you let's bring some energy to this thing #but regardless gr8 show it is always a good time at the idkhow show #first time i saw idkhow was in fact in rochester in 2018 #dallon & i sure did yodel directly at each other for the entirety of that bit of visitation #hence why the entirety of that bit is fully cemented into my memory #wavernot4love gets 2 the gig #idkhowposting

[mazojo]

I am so sorry to the summer I turned pretty girlies but I’ve seen the trailer everywhere against my will in my fyp and this dude walks up to who I assume is the main character, stares at her and like a dog wags his head to let the water from his shower splash on her. Bath water. Absolutely vile.

#Jail. I wish I was making this up #if this is what romance look like hell me lord and Jesus to never feel it because when the standards are low they go loWER #y’all know I am right no one else was brave enough to say it #the way I audibly gasped and laughed out loud when I saw it curious to see what it was because of tswift song #like is this who we represent??? if a man. be it my partner be it whatever it was. came up to me #while I was asleep or pretending to be or whatever #and wAGGED HIS NASTY ASS BATH WATER HAIR ON ME I WOULD LITERALLY PUNCH HIM #Fight or flight activated now I have found my biggest red flag fellas #no bc I am genuinely curious wHAT is romantic about that I’ve never felt that ig rip me #this is SO unserious please #the summer i turned pretty #lol this is all hj no hate to y’all’s show I’ll tag it anti just in case tho #anti the Summer I turned pretty

[willow-lark]

i don't usually get insecure about my writing but i am reading this back & banging my head against the wall i feel like i still have so much to write even though i've been working on this for TWO AND A HALF MONTHSSSSS I'M NOT EVEN FINISHED WRITING ALL OF ITTTT (though tbf this is by FAR not the longest it's taken me to finish a wip) i s2g the world has never seen blander prose. the action is falling FLAT and i can't make it flow right & i'm gonna have to go back and edit all of this shit and that's gonna take FOREVERRRRR & ugh i thought i could see the light at the end of the tunnel but i very much Cannot actually. no one's in character and there is zilch actual worldbuilding & idk what the hell is going on!!

#if anyone wants to beta this lmk 😭 /hj #i've never worked w a beta b4 but for this fic i think i'll have to #i am so worried about it y'all don't even know #ugh ugh ugh !! #lark screams into the void #also #[insert fantasy au tag here] #byler #lark writes #OK IM GOING TO SLEEP NOW BYEBYEBYEEEEE #lark stop making herself sick right before bed challenge IMPOSSIBLE #<-lol i literally just made a post w like the same tag lmao #can u tell that im spiraling

[tumsa]

on one hand, i am coughing so much it feels like there are glass shards in my throat, on the other hand, i just saw ateez on musik bank live, and it was everything i wanted and more. life really do be like that.

#we are on 5th week of me coughing and i am so tired #i am both actively dying and gaining years back #i was grinning like a fool up until hj did his solo dance #his outfit and the new purple hair and the night polish :((( #give me 1% of what he has pls #as for my cough the blood test so far is okay-ish #other than crp inflammation marker being high #which is expected #allergy tests will take some time but the main one is ok #so god knows what is this cough and fever for #my mom said i am allergic to my life and she was right

[jankwritten]

vent post time pardners

part of my issues with the way I experience time is that one day to everybody else can feel like literal WEEKS for me. It's not every day, but some days, especially when I spend most of it writing or inside, not interacting with people, I feel as if I've gone multiple days/weeks without talking to anybody.

this then exacerbates my issues/fears that if somebody doesn't talk to me much for a day, they suddenly hate me. so if I'm perceiving one day wherein I don't talk to people much as more like 10-11 days, all of a sudden I'm panicking that everyone hates me and never wants to talk to me again because I've only said maybe 2-3 things to them over the course of what is, IRL, only one day. because I'm perceiving that to be ten times longer instead of the actual span of time that it is.

does this make literally any sense. is this like, a common occurrence for other people? i would like for it to stop pls, because it really fuckin tanks my mental health and i'm So Tired of that happening.

(more vent in the tags)

#tw vent post #is this an ADHD thing? #i just really need to stop tying my emotional state to the idea of how many people like me still also #like i need to stop relying on other people to make myself feel better #but I also don't know how to do THAT because so much of what makes me feel alright is like. sharing things with people. #so i don't know how to sort that out and make it so i'm not tying all of my emotional state to how people respond to me yknow? #it doesn't help that when i get into these one-day-is-twenty-days states my brain starts scrambling and i stop thinking coherent thoughts #i think what i really need is just. A Therapist lmao #but for now i will simply shout it into the tumblr void as i do #sometimes it's nice to just get the feelings out so they stop burning a hole in my chest yknow #none of this is helped by the fact that i feel like i can't talk to any of the people i actually LIVE WITH about how i feel #because my dad while trying is not super supportive of my gender exploration which makes me wary to talk to him about ANYTHING #even though i know he would be able to help me out with mental illness type stuff #i just don't trust him even though i love him so much #and ofc i don't want to burden any of my friends with any of this shit because none of it feels substantial. like i know i'll feel better #tomorrow and i won't ever even think about this again because that's just How I Am #but right now i just want it all to stop. lobotomy sounds so sexy and cool /hj

[princegeist]

the fact that i might be aroace is the funniest thing that could’ve dawned upon me in the middle of writing a romance novel 

#it's like #i'll write the most beautiful romantic prose #and just stare at it like #ah yes this is probably how other people feel #shame i havent felt this yet #guess i'm just a late bloomer haha....... #meanwhile the aroace flag looms behind me #it fucking knows #i am ignoring it in favor of writing about my blorbos smooching #despite hating smooching irl #all's better in fiction right /hj #gosh this is all so confusing though #I (aesthetically) love women so I thought I must be a lesbian #but now i'm just not sure #i'm not like coming out or anything but #it's just funny to think a romance writer like me might be aroace #i've written romance for so long #potentially without ever having felt it #though i've DEFINITELY never experienced it #so who knows??? #shitpost #not related to game development #aromantic #aroace #asexual

[sculpture-in-a-period-drama]

Hey if any writer seeing this feel free to ask me what exhaustion feels like so you'll have help describing it, I just got back from a fourteen hour road trip and my brain is so out of wack I feel like I'll recieve a prophecy or something

#/hj #writing #writeblr #you know that freaky vibe that airports have at like 2 am? #yeah that's what reality is like right now #i'm hearing beeping for some reason but i don't know if it's real or not #my body is hot and cold at the same time #can't even go back to sleep because it's already 6 am #welp #anyway #time to respond to the stuff that happened while i was gone :D

[mothgoop]

i am. having a normal one (no im not)

#i got a scam email from p*rn h*b saying it was using my email to make an account and i litterally have never been on there before so #i freaked out and sent a reply to cancel the account and then looked it up online and saw that it was just a scam #i open my inbox again and theres like 12 replies saying it failed to send my reply #i deleted them all and have gotten nothing else since (abt 20 minutes ago) #but i am just like on the verge of a oanic #i didnt click any links or download anything #but im still half expecting my phone to shut off or...idk explode or something (/hj) #ry tho im freaking out kind of #like i was crying when i started typing this i need to chill #nothing is gonna happen i know nothing is gonna happen #if something was gonna happen it would have by now right? #im just panicking rn and idk how to calm down #saturn talks #vent #ill be okay though!! dont worry abt it

[illumwriting]

thinking about how tumblr dot fucking com nuked my original writing blog's url because it read sass as ass

#probably for the better honestly like i have it archived but uh. i was 16 then. #16. #sixteen. #is this an apology post? fuck no. #is a regret post? maybe. talk to me and find out. #“rpf” was a wild fucking time am i right ladies? [drinks wine on the skype call] #its not their fault there were absolutely outside influencing sources for the brain rot #getting weird in the tags tonight. if you knew me in 2013 you know dark dark things about me unfortunately and perhaps we could talk it out #will i delete this in almost exactly 6 months to one year when i once again Regret? the likelyhood is high except now ive aknowledged it #so i wont #regret like a pattern huh isnt that just crazy wonder whats up #its me :) #its fine. its fine. i suggest digging into my past. pawing through it even. good lessons there. if you find anything of note share it #since i certainly dont remember and didnt learn :) #/hj i learned but on god i only remember parts like a fever nightmare of worst hits and oddest daydreams #thanks for coming to me talking myself out of an episode in my tags #@ new people yes im like this. suffer. you are here now. #/jk. maybe <3

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

I hope you feel fully better soon <333 BIT OH MY GOD YES THE 3.1 TRAILER AND LIVESTREAM HAD ME GASPING EVERY SECOND??? AND OH MY GOD I LEGIT GOT UP FROM MY PLACE WHEN I SAW DOTTORE AND SCARASMOOCH AHHH also rip katherine (thought i believe it's Kusanali based on how she sounded lol) </3 i am so excited for 3.1 i just want it to come faster 😭😭 AND THE SCENE WITH CYNO AND ALHAITHAM FIGHTING AHHHHH

anyways yes I'll be your bone anon if you don't mind or have an anon with that name :) -nicebones eugh

thank you bones thank youu <33 AND YES THE TRAILER LOOKS SO NICE I'M SHAKING IN MY BOOTS- I DIDN'T GET TO WATCH THE LIVESTREAM BECAUSE I WAS BUSY BUT TWO HARBINGERS IN ONE UPDATE OH MY GODDDD. I CAN'T WAIT TO FIGHT SCARAMOUCHE (hey Scara and Dottore simps how yall holding up right now) i am so excited to explore the desert and play the main quests, we're getting TWO archon quests :DDD and honestly Kusanali's personality is alright, she's not bad so i hope she's ok (also i really REALLY want the little elevator are above the Akademiya library to open up please let me ASCEND)

i wanna hear Cyno's dad jokes too. i want him to make the silliest jokes and laugh at them while no one else does because it'd be so funny

#chit chat #bone anon #kinda brainrot!! #3.1 discussion!! #AND THE DESERT I WANNA SEE THE DESERT #imagine if they add a sunburn mechanic that'd be so funny #the sand that we can walk on so far looks so nice #i want cyno to be the SILLIEST little man #i know it's not going to happen but it'd be SO funny #i am going to absolutely OBLITERATE scaramouche in a fight #i am going to PUNCH the LITTLE! MAN!! #it's ok he deserves it /hj #dottore looking fine af #like daaaamn man got an upgrade since the manga #buzzing in excitement right now :DDD