#i cant stop thinking about their relationship back then

[t3ag3rs]

i loved your bakugo headcanons omg, the joy i feel when someone writes for characters and actually includes their canonical personalities lol idk if you write for any other characters, if you don't then you can just ignore this, but if you do then could you write similar relationship headcanons for Kirishima or Shinso? :3

hi! im so glad you enjoyed my Bakugou headcannons! I hope this kirishima one fits to your liking! sending lots of love <33

i definitely think kirishima first ends up seeing you talking to mina on a random day. you and her are just talking about dance when you two are suddenly interrupted by the outgoing redhead inquiring about who you are.

he suddenly realizes that you had went to junior high with them but had never really hung out with the popular group due to having a close circle of friends- one of whom is mina.

"actually? I never saw you..!" he chuckled rubbing his neck with a slight blush, you just wave it off with a quick smile, "nah dont worry bout it.."

well fuck... now at least kirishima knows what exactly he likes the most about you. your gut wrenching, heart pumping, adorable ass smile.

would immediately try and get mina to help him out with you in every. single. way.

"mina, whats her favorite color? And chocolate? To add to that thought- flowers as well. god mina I sound desperate!"

poor baby is so whipped for you he actually cant even manage to hide it in front of you.

kirishimas the type of person to rant to his friends about you with absolutely no knowledge about his surroundings. so much so that he doesnt realize you can hear him occasionally..

do you mind? of course not! its not like you dont have a small- okay fine. major thing for the red head as well...

"kiriiiii..!" groans mina, "stop obsessing over her and just confess goddamnt!" she exclaims frustrated while throwing her hands in the air.

"tell who what?" you grin overhearing their conversation.

you look at the two confused before mina starts, "you see y/n, kirishima here has a-" until you see a hand slapped over her mouth.

"nothing!" grins kirishima quickly. you nod slowly before you see mina side eyeing him with a knowing glance. "fine.." sighs kirishima dropping his hands.

"as i was saying.. our little man over here has a fat crush on you" she says nonchalantly, shrugging her shoulders. you immediately break out a shit eating grin, "oh- yeah i kinda know.. he isnt very good at hiding things..." you chuckle.

"why didnt you say anything!" whines kirishima, "you couldve saved me so much time and effort!" completely forgetting that you hadnt given an answer to his confession.

"because i thought it was cute.." you admit with slightly flushed cheeks. you look away to avoid making eye contact before you feel kirishimas hands wrapping around your torso.

"so you like me back then right? please say that means you like me back.." he exclaims happily into your neck.

you just smile and wrap your arms back around him to give him his answer.

#kirishima eijirou #kirishima x reader #kirishima ejirou #kirishima ejiro x reader #ejirou x reader #mha kirishima #boku no hero acedamia #bhna #bhna x reader #mha x reader #mha headcanons #mha #my hero academia #kirishima headcanon #kirishima x y/n #bnha eijiro kirishima #kirishima eijiro x reader #mha eijirou #kirishima mha #t3ag3rs

[erwinsvow]

Omg that was so heart wrenching!!! Can we please get a part 2? Maybe how Rafe deals with the aftermath?

i am so glad you liked it ! ahhh it was so hard to write, i never write a mean rafe like that, but pogue reader and him have such a complicated relationship. i cant decide if i want him to really mean it or if he was just saying that to get the boys off his case about you. a part of me (i hope this doesnt completely ruin the allure of the story) wants to explore an avenue of like he did say it to get top/kelce to stop making jokes that hes gone soft for a pogue etc but also did MEAN it in some capacity, like taking you and the happiness you brought him a little for granted and just assuming he had you for the long run to do with as he pleased. i think seeing her crying kind of made him realize you arent a toy he can play with like that and i sketched out their confrontation / aftermath and i think shes gonna set him straight !!

also just stay w me but imagine next time he sees her after that shes with pope and jj acting all cutie and coupley, back with her boys like she used to be before she met rafe, and hes just like. ...

JJ would sayyy somethingggg like in passing along the lines of "no, rafe, really, thanks for messin' up so royally. 'cause now i got my girl back, and unlike you, m'not stupid enough to fuck it up." and he looks and youre laughing with pope and jj's like "oh. sorry, yeah. our girl back."

AND RAFES JUST LIKE WHATTT ARE THESE POGUES DOING WITH MY GIRL

#sorry i just blabbed SO HARD i am so full of thoughts #wherever that anon is i hope they know they just started something in me #📮 asks #ANYWAYS TY FOR READING AND LOVING COMING TMRO I PROMISE

[bearw-me]

Post-extermination!Lute x fem reader? Where lute is trying to show that she's still good/strong enough for reader and she can still be independent. Along with reader comforting Lute about how she's still perfect for her. (Details and examples below bc i enjoy rambling sorry)

I imagine that after loosing her arm lute would be very showy about overcompensating for it. And that if reader even tried to treat her bit differently, like being more SLIGHTLY gentle/careful with her, lute would get offended tell her to knock it off.

Lute's a strong woman, pre-extermination her carried reader alllll the time. Post-extermination Lute would most certainly still try too (and surprisingly succeeds somehow) despite the reader's worries of being dropped or being too heavy for 1 arm.

This ranges from trying to hold all the groceries alone to trying to prove she's still good in the bedroom by not allowing the reader to help (like she'd literally tell reader to let her do it alone)

I hope you have a wonderful day!!!

dont apologize for requesting! i adore long requests! they have all the little details for the prompt included that make the story just- *chefs kiss*

𝐈 𝐂𝐚𝐧 𝐒𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐃𝐨 𝐈𝐭 — 𝐋𝐮𝐭𝐞 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬

𐐒 includes : post-extermination!lute x fem!reader 𐐒 cw : fluff, angst, hurt/comfort, mention of blood/stitches/wounds 𐐒 summary : lute's adjusting to life after extermination day, and as her girlfriend, you hope to make it easier on her 𐐒 note : i don't even know what to call my rambling anymore lol, love it

like we all saw at the end of the season, lute is full or rage- and a little hurt

the loss of her arm, initially, didn't hurt as much as losing her best friend

it takes longer for her to heal and accept the sudden turn of events

she doesn't want it to stop her or hold her back, especially from her relationship with you (especially with the loss of adam) she'd want to hold on tight to you

(like in the ask) Lute isn't one to just be beaten down by this, its a challenge she's going to fking overcome-by herself

likes to do things for YOU instead of the other way around, like if you want a snack or something she won't even let you stand up (let alone THINK) about grabbing it yourself

definitely wouldn't tell you about how she feels unless its too much, but you can see it in her; the way she's sluggish or looking down more often.

(although im not sure atm) I assume Lute is right-handed; without the left, things can get a bit trivial at times

like when you watch her try to balance her long spear with one arm, the weight of the steel trembling between her fingers. the muscles in her arms not used to carrying the entire weight by itself

Lute carrying you with one arm: she tries like how she used to, by putting an arm under your arms to support your back-but stops when she realizes she cant pick you up bridal style

I think she could manage holding you that way, around your back if you also hold onto her by wrapping your arms around her shoulders

(on this note) you being so close to her face is the perfect opportunity for her to kiss you

Hugging her from the back is not happening- her wings and all. . .

If you tried to help her take care of her arm too; bandaging it or cleaning it; she'd refuse all help and lock herself in the bathroom until she's handled it herself

(you can hear a ton of mumbled swearing and things knocking around)

its not a you thing, its a her thing; she needs to prove to herself that she can do it

Lute would hate all the flowers the other exterminators would get her; to the point she wouldn't even acknowledge the roses you placed on her nightstand

she's too stubborn to ever say it, but she's thankful you're still with her: Lute giving you soft kisses when she thinks your asleep, whispering all the 'thank you's' she doesn't think she could ever say to you awake

The loss of her arm pushes her to work harder, especially on the arm she still has in order to compensate for what happened

Technically, the hell-spawn didn't take her arm, but they still took a lot from her- she doesn't want that to mean they could take you from her too

You bet your ass the day will come where she picks up that spear again, better than fucking ever

#headcannons #hazbin hotel #imagines #headcanon #hazbin hotel x reader #hazbin lute #reader insert #lute x reader #lute x y/n #lute x you #hcs #lute hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel lute #post extermination #extermination #lute x fem!reader #angst #fluff #hurt/comfort #tw blood #tw mention of blood

[pinkandlilacroses]

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Angel - Paige bueckers

part 1

• summary {when an unsuspecting girl falls for the basketball star} (slow burn)

•warnings {none (for now)}

•comment if you would like to be added to the taglist

bellas pov

“Im just saying, a rom com romance would be fantastic tight now” I state to my best friend, Avery. “i mean everyday is the same thing over and over” i continue. I can tell she doesn’t care, Avery’s been in a relationship with her high school sweetheart, Jake since freshman year.

“you need to stop being desperate” she says scooting closer to me on our couch.

this may sound rude, but thats just how Avery is, ane i guess ive gotten used to it

“nobody understands me” i say dramatically as i get up and walk towards my room.

“remember, we are going out tonight” Avery yells

fuck. i forgot.

i hate going out, theres to many people

i feel like sometimes Avery relyes on me, i mean sometimes i wanna hang out with other people, not just her. Avery on the other hand, im her only friend and i understand why, i love her but she is so mean to any and everyone that she comes across.

a few hours pass and i begin getting ready. i put on a matching pink set with a tube top and a mini skirt, i feel cute, i cant wait for this to get ruined by a bunch of drunk, sweaty college students.

i know i take a while to get ready, i mean its taken me two hours to pick my outfit and do my hair and i haven’t even started my makeup yet. my excuse is that you can never rush perfection.

“bella cmon we gotta go” Avery yells, ‘how is she ready so early’ i think to myself, finishing my coat of mascara.

“ok, ok, im ready” i say 20 minutes later. i can tell shes pissed, but it doesn’t bother me.

“your so dramatic, its a 5 minute walk” Avery says, annoyed, as always.

“i am not made for walking”

its only been 5 minutes since our arrival and i want to leave

“hey baby” a clearly drunk guy says, while he slyly brings his hand to my bare waist.

“who are you” i say, bluntly

“hey loosen up princess” he says, getting closer

i do like that nickname. but i hate him.

“im gonna go now”

i dont know if im straight, to be honest. i was raised in a household where anything but straight was a sin, so i never really questioned my interests. but whenever i see a girl who is tall and strong, my straightness goes out the window, and i feel like im sinning. ive never done anything with a girl before and im scared, i dont know if i ever would.

i walk away from the drunk man and towards the bar

“oh my god im so sorry” ‘fuck. why am i so clumsy’, i say to the girl i bumped into

“nah your all good” she says, looking down at me

i hadn’t looked at her, but now that i am. i never wanna stop. shes tall and blonde.

“hi, im paige” she says, breaking my admiration.

“im bella” i say, shamelessly checking her out

she has on grey sweatpants and a black tshirt. hot.

“do you go here” she says, continuing the conversation.

“uh, yeah, im a junior” i say, stuttering. why am i stuttering

“are you nervous?” she says, bringing her face closer to my own. yes, i am so nervous, you make me so nervous, ohmygodohmygodohmygod

“no” i say, unconvincingly.

“you sure?” she questions again. im not ok

“your on the basketball team, right?” i say, attempting to shift the conversation

she chuckles

“yeah” she states, moving back to her original position, further away from me. come back

“have you heard of me” she says, cockily

“i think everyone has here” i say, to be honest, i dont know anything about basketball. but ive heard of her before and her eyes have me trapped, there so blue and inviting.

what am i saying

“i wanna know more about you though” she whispers, moving closer than before.

“what do you wanna know” i say wrapping my arms around her neck. i dont know where all this confidence has came from

“yo paige” some girl says, she turns around and breaks the position we were in.

“iceee” she says, dapping up her teammate

im offended.

i make my way from her and towards my friend group. i want to go home

“was that you flirting with paige bueckers”

“we were just talking, shes not interested”

“girl, paige would be interested in a tree if it had a pussy, she is definitely interested” chanel says

everyone laughs. but me

im confused, why am i attracted to her, i like men, not women.

“bella cmon, lets get you home” Avery says, i mentally thank her from saving me from this conversation.

i tuck myself into bed after taking my outfit and makeup off and get ready for my favourite activity. sleep, until.

xxx-xxx-xxx

- hey is this bella?

what the fuck. do i have a stalker

bella

- yes

xxx-xxx-xxx

- hahah thank god

- this is paige

what the fuck

A/N - first fic, how do we feeeelllllllll

#paige bueckers x reader #paige bueckers headcannons #paige bueckers smut #paige bueckers fic #paige bueckers #uconn huskies #uconn women’s basketball #uconn wbb

[lollytea]

Huntlow situationship gives me such intense brain termites you don't get it

#no i dont think its because Hunter needs time to heal first #i think if it was up to Hunter they would plunge into a committed romantic relationship immediately after the events of the finale #he would propose to her in like. 3 months probably #i know that sounds intense but i think this is what ''i literally died and came back to life'' mania does to a guy #he is so carpe diem minded hes become a little insane. he wants everything #no more waiting around. no more hesitating. he cant afford to do that anymore #would it have been the wise decision to enter a romantic relationship immediately #who's to say. but Hunter would have done it without thinking about it #its Willow that makes the decision to slow down and wait a while before they make any committments theyre not ready for #i dont think she's entirely learned her lesson about letting herself be emotionally reliant every once in a while #shes made progress but the events of ftf were such heat of the moment responses #once things are semi-stable she still needs to adapt to acknowledging that her feelings for Hunter are like. serious. and scarily intense #so like. yea Willow is slamming her pedals on the breaks for both their sakes. shes thinking about how this would effect Hunter too #but also. she scawwed. #when Willow tells him she wants to talk and she's like ''i think we should just be friends'' oh the face he makes is DEVASTATED #he didnt expect it was going in this direction at all. but like. once Willow explains how this is the most reasonable decision for now #he DOES agree. he understands what shes saying and he agrees that it's the best decision to take a breather before they jump into a romance #anyway even when theyre not officially dating the flirting continues insistently. they are very obsessed with each other and cant stop #Willow keeps trying to insist to herself that its just messing around. nothing serious. they find each other hot. its fine to kiss a little #but Hunter makes it very hard when he looks at her with big brown labrador eyes. looks at her like shes the entire world #i think if it was up to Willow they would have been trapped in that uncertain limbo forever. shes too scared to take the plunge #even if she wants to. she badly wants to #but Hunter just wont let that happen. every so often he says ''im ready whenever you are'' #he makes his intentions very known. he is not the shy boy from Camila's house anymore #Willow cant just playfully flirt with him without worrying that hes gonna reciprocate. he talks now. he expresses himself #shes a little afraid of that. but she adores it too. he makes her feel safe but also he wont let her stay in this comfort zone #hes giving her the push she needs to pursue this relationship. gives her to push to feel like she can go after what she wants #because god knows HE knows what he wants #they make me so insane

[wat-zu]

Absolutely love your art. I want to nom it.

Also, Hollow Heads Siblings my beloveds,,,

Theyre the doomed siblings ever its not even funny

#Oouugh i have thoughts abt the hollowhead siblings. How theyre so intricately tied to eachother since their birth but they'd be #Eachother'd downfall. Esp when it's Dark and his relationship with the others #Dark would never understand what chosen went through. Mainly bc i think chosen is used to fighting his internal battles on his own #While he was in captive as an ad blocker. He loves Dark. He's grateful for Dark bc without him he wouldn't be free #But Dark isnt exactly someone reliable enough for Chosen to get the necessary healing he wants and needs #But that won't stop Dark from trying to fix him. Creates the virus for revenge. As chosen watches his brother spiral and spiral #As he watches him drift further away. Unable to get him back without a shouting match. As he watches with his heart heavy and cracked at- #Their stiffed interactions and strained relationship. He can't remember a time where they shared geniune laughs. #Then tsc coming came and changed everything. #Because this is someone who went through Chosen's pain albeit a lil differently. Someone who knows. Someone who /understands/. And this- #Someone is so much more younger than them and had to go through that pain in such a short amount of time since their birth #He sees himself in them. And he's rather walk up to alan demanding to get his hands cuffed than let tsc fester in that pain. #So tsc became chosen's priority. Healed eachother in many ways than one and are at echother's beck and call if need be. #As for Dark. I think he'd manipulate tsc into using him for his revenge. After stalking out his code and finding out about his potential #And TSC cant help but fall for his manipulations. Since this person is very very important to Chosen and they want so badly to impress- #Them both. They agreed and overtime grew to love eachother. And overtime Dark shifted his goals just a tad bit. Getting TSC more and more- #Involved. Since hey if Chosen doesn't like touching alan with a 10 ft pole why not let this kid do. And TCS agrees to this thinking that- #This is it. This is can finally heal them completely. Finally out of sight and out of mind. Finally can't live without the pain lingering #And chosen watches them with a sense of deja vu. At loss at what to do and so so afraid to lose two of his lil siblings #Then shit hits the brick UBSJDBSJSN #They make me so ill im not even kidding when i said theyre so so very very doomed!!!!!!!!! #This is abt the au btw BAHHAHAHABHA

[celestair]

as much as i love reo and nagis relationship, im just so frustrated right now i need to talk about this, maybe im wrong but i honestly just need to let it out

spoilers for the blue lock manga

(i forgot how to put a read more warning bc i rarely do these types of posts so im so sorry)

they really had whole ass pages of reo saying he had to play his own soccer and not be nagis right hand man, to take goals for himself and show the world that he can fight on his own, just to A PAGE LATER have nagi say "i need you reo" and throw everything into the trash.

AGAIN I LOVE THEM I DO, but being individual is a good thing, they had a codependent relationship when it came to soccer, i thought it was healthy for reo to see value in himself, his talent and dreams, to let himself grow outside of his relationship with nagi. thats quite literally what nagi did in the second selection and it went great for him, he grew just like he wanted to. reo was growing and then they decided to switch up on that and have reo back nagi up again and im so frustrated about it, and all of that just to beat isagi. I LOVE THEM BUT ITS OKAY TO BE INDIVIDUAL, THAT DOESNT MEAN YOU'RE RELATIONSHIP IS WEAKER IT ACTUALLY MAKES IT STRONGER WHY DID THE AUTHOR DO THIS I HATE IT SO MUCH.

i love that they are together i do, but i dont like the way they did it, it just doesnt feel right and it fell flat for me, which it shouldn't since i really like both of their characters. i just wanted to let that out sorry i annoyed anyone i just needed to talk about it.

#idc if u ship them or see them as just friends whatever i still hate the way this was done #and all i can think about isnt even the characters making poor decisions its tHE AUTHOR MAKING POOR DECISIONS #i hate it so bad #nagi took a step back and grew and it was great #it was also reos wake up call for him to do the same but he got wrapped up in jealousy which is completely normal to feel #but then just as he started to grow out of that state of mind and work on himself they drag them back into the same bullshit as before #://////// #im pissed can you tell #also if you blame isagi for any of this thats a skill issue tbh isagi has absolutely nothing to do with their relationship #he didnt ask nagi to leave reo and join him he didnt ask nagi to be his rival and beat him it was all nagis decision #stop trying to blame isagi for everything #whatever sorry for the spoilers #blue lock rant #blue lock #reonagi #reo mikage #nagi seishiro #im not saying reo cant change his mind i just dont like the way they did it you know?

[melto]

fighting for my life trying to make peace with the fact that i just wont be able to reconnect with the people i miss

#and i think at some point i just. need to stop trying. or entertaining the idea that i can #it just makes me really. so sad and lonely and simply is not good for me. #i gotta do something. bc it really does just feel like im intentionally doing something to make myself upset. #ive lost touch with people and weve grown apart and thats ok #and sometimes i never really fit in with people but it was still nice when i had them in my life. #But i dont have to try and force it. it makes me insecure #and i love the people i have in my life and should focus on them rather than relationships i just cant get back #Whatever. sorry im sad about the semester starting. it is always weird and lonely for me. #news with isaac

[candlebel]

I cared. I still do. I still think of you and I still cry over you. You were importat to me. You still are.

#I was interested. I wanted to get to know you. #I did not want validation. I only said it because you said it... I don't know why. I was susceptible. #I was blindly accepting certain things that you said about me. Judgement that you had for me. #I was under severe stress from my job at the time; while at the same time dealing with unresolved emotional trauma and very low self worth. #I was burnt out. Crushed... Completely. #I didn't want attention. I did not want you to cure my depression. I though I was just letting you know me. I wasn't aware I was oversharin #I tried... SO HARD to get over the things that triggered me and hurt me but I just couldn't... #I wanted to. I did everything in my might; I took it to therapy; I looked everywhere within me; to either get over it #or completely forget about you and stop caring at all; so things were ok and normal again; but it didn't go away... #to this day... #I just feel so... unsafe... at the idea of talking again #I know I wasn't the best listener and I profoundly regret that. #I was not only thinking about myself like you said and I was aware of the effort that other's put; but I was afraid/resistant to PRECISELY #that cause of past events with other people. Because in some I was the one putting that effort and ended badly for me. Looking back #that was inappropiate of you because you felt too comfortable generalizing my past relationships and why in your head they failed. #“I cant help but feel you are looking down on people who” Stay away from me if you ever make a stretch like this again. #By “experiment” I meant that you don't know how a relatioship with somebody is gonna turn out until you go and try. That's all I meant. #I didn't want things to turn out this way. I'm sorry they did. #The effort I put for you may have been shit to you. But to me it was a lot. And I'm done taking judgement. #Altho I love my friends I still keep distance. I still can't completely help that. I can go months not talking to my BF. #You were my BF during my teenage years. I remembered you fondly. I still do. #I don't feel ready to talk again having to keep to myself interest that I might have. Related to trauma. I do not feel comfortable with tha #No I do not look at your blogs. #The day I said I was abused I had a panic attack right after that. That's mainly why I had to cut contact: I didn't want another one. #I didn't tell you because I didn't trust you to not say “talk to the void” again. I didn't trust you to want to hear about it. I didnt feel #safe with you anymore. Event tho we ressumed contact I felt that way the entire time. #I wanted to answer all the questions you had; I really did; until I couldn't stand it anymore. #And the day I removed you from discord... I know you probably had an awful day that day... I'm so; so sorry... #I'd like to one day be completely unbothered by assumptions and stuff cuz I know it's not your fault... You went through stuff too... #vent

[tojiswhore-nanamisslut]

Tbth I can't stop thinking about intellectual foreplay with Nanami and Higuruma...

#i made that chess post as a joke but i really cant stop thinking about it #what's sexier than someone who can match and challenge your intelligence #i know it's what attracted my fiance to me initially #he always tells me im smarter than him (meanwhile he's literally going to be a doctor lol) #and in the beginning of our friendship/relationship we'd constantly go back and forth bantering #sometimes in a silly way but often times intellectually #bc we went to the same cc and then had similar majors at our respective UCs so we were learning the same things #but anyways im just thinking about that with Nanami and Higuruma #the back and forth banter of 2 intelligent people and it probably seems insufferable to some but for them the mental stimulation is amazing #and then when youre naturally attracted to each other it adds a whole nother layer to the banter #bc each quip each rebuttal each reply is like a challenge and it can be very flirtatious #ANYWAYS #posts

[marcusagrippa]

becoming more invested in one random side character who is fucking dead by the time my main plot starts than the actual protagonist is just a rite of passage for my writing process at this point

#big oc ramblingin the tags warning u h. #save me melisadd...... isa............ #a horrible ugly name for a horrible ugly guy #however. every lover is a soldier. etc etc. #yes he gets killed because of his own ambition but he also gets killed because of his devotion to his city. and by extension his paradoxica #devotion to rhys (who has become the city itself in a weird parasitic sort of way). he hates what rhys stands for and he hates his idealism #and his tyranny andsuch but they have such a fucked up (literally) cannibalistic relationship going back to faustus and the ivy war #that neither of them can function without the other. rhys' fate is sealed the moment he kills isa because theres no-one left to balance him #out and challenge his plans. and he spirals from this genius up-and-coming ruthless commander willing to do anything to keep his home safe #into a lazy power-hungry beast relying on the prestige of his ancestors and the fear of the people to keep him fed. and he misses isa #as much as he hates to admit it #and he misses argent and he misses what they all had and as he gets older he starts losing the ability to distinguish between the past and #the present. hence the public display of argent's innards and isa's rotting corpse being dug up and given a seat at the table at the feast. #but back to isa. isa doesn't want to fight rhys - he believes there's good in him up until the last second of his life. #his execution is the death of any hope of redemption rhys might have had. #noneof that makes sense but anyway you get what im trying to say right #<- what a late republic hyperfix does to a mf #they are based loosely on the first triumvirate and should all eat each other !! #i can make my own narrative ghosts god dammit #dyrposts #r. a. bicinius #m. f. voscium #i made these guys like. two days ago??? but i cant stop thinking about them #if anyone is interested. i will say more things about dr #writing #augh #rhys isnt technically a main character either feel like i should clarify that he. dies in the first chapter #story focuses on eos furi and gabier !!! yippee !!! #jase writes #FUTURE ME EDIT: THIS IS ALL WILDLY OUTDATED :DDDDD OH WELL

[64sue]

fuckin hell yeah god

I need my touchy person again like damnnn

why fucked up this wayyy

#touchy person #never being in a relationship tbh lolz #i fucked up idk i think its my fault #i need them back i need their hug fuck #i miss their randomly kisses like so baddd #when two touchy people met: #literally im not okey #cant stop thinking about it

[weenhands]

ok might start exiting that phase of Me severly doubting and gaslighting myself on being possibly autismal because yea when i go research mode it all adds up but even when im assessing myself carefully on DSMV criteria it gets to a point where it's like ash ...... please stop playing dumb this is rlly serious

#its like. all of the criteria. all of it. To a very confident degree #i fit it so perfectly #and sometimes im like OK BUT its normal (gaslighting myself) to have abnormal interests at times (gaslighting myelf😁) #and to just have it be your whole identity (gaslighting yourself! age 9 all you could think about was little big planet 24/7 with #no exaggeration whatsoever it impaired your school life and temporarily your relationship with your brother:) youd throw intense meltdowns #when mom and dad said go to bed after playing all day:) you refused to get up and pee when you really had to! #age 13 you would rewatch my little pony equestria girls every single day after coming back from school. age 14 you became a knowledge bank #for every single youtuber/micro influencer on instagram who you admired and spent intense amount of study and focus trying to copy to a tea #in order to mask. age 16 and you oftentimes explain your extensive knowledge to haircare as you yoursef probably able to deal with a wide #variety of hair textures and porosities and types because you spent an entire year learning about nothing else but haircair #and stayed up till 6am every night doing so. unable to stop. #age 18-19 you became so fixated on tarot the passage of time didnt exist. you almot forgot to eat for an entire 10 hours when you got your #first deck. if you were to pick up a deck at that time you wouldnt be able to stop yourself. age 20 your fixation on makeup is so strong #youve probably spent a total of 4k on makeup in the past year. you couldnt stop infodumping on both haircare for HOURS and on makeup #it is the only thing you want to talk about) #but no. its normal that EVERY SINGLE interest ive had ive had it to an abnormal extent #and its not just that. its the fact that i also have Other criteria. #my friend robin could hypothetically have interests to a weirder extent than me #but she doesnt struggle with friendships and conversations. it causes me severe distress with the way how i cant manage either #and its obvious on here too #the echolalia i have. the movements. the COUNTLESS fixations ive had since i was little (rubbing my mouth and humming whenever i heard #something uncomfortable so the vibrations would calm me down. always hating motorbikes. hating the sound of plates. bright lights.) #my teacher reporting i had poor motor skills but my parents going like chile anyways #and the way how ive always been embarrased throwing quote on quote tantrums at an age i wasnt supposed to anymore #which were basically meltdowns lol like its not nomal to feel like a danger to yourself when you're angry and want to punch mirrors when #ur makeup routine isnt going to plan #theres more but yewh hehshdhfjfj #just. i keep telling myself ok but Ash anyone can have this....YEAH BUT BITCH UR TICKING ALL THE BOXES! #also i made mistakes on saying fixation instead of stims and also listing my sensory issues #im just venting and 👍👍👍 yeah

[semercury]

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#stuff sarah says #i had a dream last night about someone no longer in my life #and while i dont think thats why my stomach hurts today i dont think its completely unrelated #i think im just having a lot of anxiety about a lot of things #and that person has been on my mind one way or another a bit lately #and it still hurts to know that someone could so easily scrub me out of their life #but ive known for a while im an easily discardable person #no one ever seems to miss me when im gone #and if anyone ever does want me back its bc of a power play type of thing. normal people dont want me back #and thats fine. i wouldnt want me either. i cant blame them #i do think its funny in a sad way that i have a playlist basically to torture myself about the situation with #like yeah you dumb bitch stop ruining your relationships with people. CAN you stand the person youve become?

[snixx]

how much would you fight for the person you love before giving up on them?

#I've been thinking about this a lot #I think it's why it's so hard to leave a toxic or abusive relationship #because giving up feels so wrong. it's surrendering that you can never make a promise with full certainty #i used to be someone who used to say no deal breakers. nothing. would stop me from loving the people i love #what would it take the person you love more than anything else in the world to do for you to give up on them #i hate that's it's a question I've had to consider after last year #because i like to think im someone who never gives up on people. especially the people i love #except i...had to #especially as someone who cant trust my brain who has experience with it betraying me #because that would mean im capable of doing something that would make everyone i thought id love forever give up on me #if i couldn't be enough. how much ever i tried. or i was too much #because i have depression i could always fall off the wagon and spiral and not be enough #i think for me there isn't one set dealbreaker though #it takes months and months of apathy and cruelty and taking zero accountability #if you stop trying for long enough #if you blame me for everything put in zero effort don't even acknowledge or show a tiny bit of wanting to try #and i know id never do that i know my friends would never #however bad it gets even when we spiral #we can come back and apologize and at least TRY take some accountability #even if it's fucking hard and so much effort #i think that's why heartbreak high hit so much #it's just such a shitty situation and i hate everything it made me question #but well. im glad i have my faith back #there are people who have the capability to try for me people who think I'm worth it #people for whom my love isn't too much who don't make me feel bad for loving too much #and i don't care how many times you guys fuck up as long as i can see you trying i will never leave you #you don't recover from some heartbreaks there are no positives #but well. it happened and im not gonna let it take all of me #x am rambles

[transmascnepetaleijon]

imma say it. im tired of the davekat debate

#i legitimately dont get it. #sure sometimes ill read something and go NO youarewr Ong sTOP but then ill think a bit about it and come to the conclusion i do not care. #this is about davekat i literally dont care about what everyone says about it anymore just drop it please just drop it #in one side we have people going #awwwww my sweetie smutty wittle baaayyybby boyyyssss they re bisexuallll theyr so cuuutr and kiiiissss and huuuuuugggg look a dave cryyy #look at his trauuumaaa aawwww poor him karkat you haaaaavvve to comfort himmm hes your maaann!!! #which just. No. No dude stop. What are you doing. What's wrong with you. Why do you have to act like that towards mlm relationships. #but in the other side we have people going #heh *anime glasses shine* you ship DABEKAT???? HAHa i bet theyre super Out Of Characer in your universe cus you have nnnooo BRAINS l #look at my cool hip rarepair i ber youre jealous of how unsaturated it is. loser #if you ask me to pick a side tho i pick the ''we should go back to caliginous davekat please god go back to that'' cus i cant Stand. #the other side of it i literally cant thats the kind of person that makes me recoil and puke. heart emoji users. you know the ones. #tbh im jst contradictory and confusing and you should be walking away from these tags feeling like you know a little less about me. #thats the take away of this post dont care what you say online do whatever you want say whatever you want if i dont like it i wont stop you #like ok sure dave and karkat are your babies they are Not mine tho and i wish you didnt touch me ever please thank you. #lmao i say ''i dont het why people make a big deal'' and make a ehole ass post about it. as stated befor im contratictory #txt #if you need clarification just shoot me an ask or whatever its open