#i feel like an imposter

[oh-look-another]

stain’d by the sea gothic:

the bell rings. you look around. everyone is wearing a mask. you are wearing a mask. you don’t know why you need to wear a mask.

the town is called ‘stain’d by the sea’. there is no sea. there has never been the sea during the time you have been in town.

no one has parents living in town. the children are alone. you are alone.

there is a building marked ‘ministry of education’. there is no ministry of education. why is the building there?

look busy look busy look busy look busy look busy look busy look busy look busy look busy look busy lookbusylookbusylookbusylo

you hail a taxi. when you go inside, there is no driver, only two children. they ask you where you want to go. you leave the taxi.

you see a forest. it has no trees, only seaweed, stretching above your head for miles and miles.

the piano in the coffee shop is playing a familiar tune by itself. there is no one else around.

there is a cupboard in the attic that is bigger than it looks. you wonder what secrets it hides inside.

the librarian disappears one day. in their place is someone who calls himself the sub-librarian of the only library in stain’d. you have never seen him in your life.

there is a boy who arrives in stain’d. he asks too many questions. one day, you see him kill a man.

there is a woman who arrives in stain’d. she has wild hair and an even wilder personality. she is arrested for killing the librarian.

the librarian is arrested for arson. he did not set the fires.

there are rumors of a beast living in the forest. one day, you see the seaweed move. a shadow travels through the forest. there is no wind.

there are flowers in the forest. skeletons of birds are hanging from them. you wonder what happened to them.

#stain’d by the sea #atwq #i probably missed a lot but uh here you go anyway #some arent even gothic #i have no idea what it even is #should i tag #gothic #oops too late #it’s not really gothic i think #i feel like an imposter #just rambling here #all the wrong questions

[caitibugzz]

do you have any insight on dealing with imposter syndrome and feeling like you're lying to yourself?

i had to look up what imposter syndrome meant so i apologize if my advice isn’t that fitting or if it doesn’t help,

i often feel like i’m lying to myself, or that i’m not the person i think i am, or im a different person than how people perceive me, and it’s got even worse once i started to stream.

as for feeling like u don’t know urself and therefore are lying to yourself:

i think a big thing we have to realize is that we are allowed to be different people day to day, changing as you grow up, changing based on your environment, changing when you are with people vs yourself. it’s all normal i promise. we don’t have to categorize ourself as a specific type of person, like a character in a movie with specific characteristics that they don’t very from. we are human, it’s okay to evolve with time and contradict yourself. be introverted AND extroverted. you are allowed to be sensitive and closed off. your allowed to get angry even if you are sweet most of the time. i struggle with trying to act as a character, a show i’m preforming. a persona, if you will. and i try to do this because if i don’t, if i fail to define every part of my personality in a tangible sense, i feel i don’t know myself. humans are meant to be complex.

as for imposter syndrome, there are a lot of different types:

if you are feeling you are unworthy/undeserving of the things you receive; i get it. in school i was in gifted programs but never felt deserving of it. i felt stupid when i saw all the other gifted kids, my grades were bad, the gifted kids called me dumb but all the other kids would call me smart.. i never felt like it. i felt like i knew more about all the things i didn’t know then what i did know. whether it is with school titles or even streaming, i look at everything everyone else has done to get to the position i’m in and i feel like i’m not worthy of it all. why me, i didn’t do anything/enough to deserve this? someone must have got it wrong. be kind to yourself. try and find all your talents, all the sweet parts that make you you. imposter syndrome stems from confidence issues. insecurities. just as you would any issue like it: face your insecurities, realize your talents and utilize them. stop comparing yourself. you have received everything you have for a reason, other people have different paths, that doesn’t mean yours is untrue. don’t hide from your feelings. how you feel you don’t belong or are unworthy, lean into those. feel them, so then you can begin to heal them. don’t let it hold you back. it can be very unmotivating believing you have wrongly gotten far, no matter how much you feel a fraud, keep pursuing what you want, your goals, don’t let anything hold you back. so what if it was all a fluke. use it to your advantage. if all else fails, if you can’t see how deserving you are, make yourself believe it. become what you view as deserving.

and this doesn’t have to be work/school/career related. some people believe they aren’t deserving in general, in life. for the life they now have, the kindness they receive, the people in your life. you must realize the things that have happen to you do not define you. from the moment you were born you were deserving of everything. everything that could make you smile and feel all happy and warm inside. your deserving of it all. because you always have been, and always will be.

if you feel you could always do better, that you need to be best and do it solo otherwise you feel unworthy; i get this too, being born a natural perfectionist at the core but also with my mental issues like my OCD. some days i don’t even brush my teeth, and it’ll be 7pm and i’ll be sitting in bed hating myself for not doing enough, not being enough. in my streaming, when i was at my peak, i felt like i wasn’t funny enough, not deserving of all the views i got, that someone else could have done better with all i’ve received. if you have ever felt like that, or like if you aren’t the best you are nothing. that sometimes your hardest isn’t even enough, and even if you work and receive what you want, you could’ve done better. YOU ARE HUMAN. it is okay to not be perfect. it’s okay to not push yourself all the time, just because you didn’t push yourself to exhaustion doesn’t mean you are any less worthy. it’s okay if you didn’t do “all you could”, it’s okay if you asked for help from people, it’s okay to not do it solo, that doesn’t mean you don’t deserve what comes your way after all that work. sure some people may work harder, good for them! and good for you for doing your own thing! you don’t need to work harder than others to prove your worthiness. you don’t have to be great at everything. don’t burn yourself out. it’s okay to be average! come join us over here at the mediocre club, i promise we are just as worthy of good as anyone else. and you do have talents. for some reason we see talents as something that only other people can have, because if we can do it.. it must not be that impressive, right?

wrong.

trust the judgment of those around you. you earned it, so trust yourself. they aren’t being nice, they are being honest. it’s not luck. you’re not a fake, you’re human.

#imposter syndrome #i feel like an imposter #unworthiness #feeling unworthy #feeling undeserving #mental health #i also didn’t reread this so if it makes no sense don’t come for me

[byrd000]

After being underweight being a healthy weight is humiliating

#i feel like an imposter

[rotisseries]

coming clean y'all

#I feel like an imposter #“braveheart dustsong wisestar-” I have NO idea what that means but I love your enthusiasm!!

[katakarambles]

Why am I like this?

Me to myself when I mask well enough to pass as normal and functioning:

See?! You lazy, dumb frell up, you're perfectly normal and functioning.

Me to myself when I don't manage to mask properly:

My god, how big of a frell up am I? How can I be this incompetent at being viable?!

Also me to myself when I don't manage to mask properly:

You lazy, dumb frell up, just do the things and do them properly! Stop pretending you're struggling. You're just trying to get around it because you're lazy.

But I'm not actually like this. I'm just making it sound much worse than it actually is.

#why am i like this #autistic experiences #autism #autistic adult #aspergers #aspie things #aspie problems #aspielife #adhd #adhd stuff #adhdlife #i feel like an imposter #imposter syndrome

[humanitys-strongest-bamf]

💌 Send this to the twelve nicest people you know or who seem to have a good heart and if you get five back you must be pretty awesome. 💌 you! :3

NOOOO YOURE A NICE PERSON

I promise I’ll get to ur picrews eventually lalfjdlaksl

#kat chats #mutual chats #I got five somehow #do I win something #I feel like an imposter #lakdkfksldka #moots.zen

[aardvaark]

hate forgetting. it makes things so awkward when i catch up with people i haven’t seen in a bit. are we close? how do i act around you? i don’t want to act different cause then you’d think something was wrong. so often i feel like an imposter in my own life & body

#wren speaks #personal/prefer you don’t rb #dissociation #memory #i feel like an imposter #family friends #… it’s like i meet them all over again most times i see them. even if it’s been less than 6 months i don’t know you #and even my own friends. you befriended someone else #not even sad just weird. awkward and a bit upsetting

[neverforpickles]

The thing about writing is it’s hard to get comfortable with it if it is not your passion. It’s hard to get comfortable with a writing style knowing that you don’t even like nor have the patience of going through the entire process of writers block, staring at the word document for ages and ages to come, asking someone to edit it and watch them tore it apart, and type and delete words, if not sentences because they do not sound like the earth shattering most profound lines and dialogues like the ones you’ve read from the hundreds of fics from your favourite writers.

It’s hard to write.

But once someone gets to read it, and it’s out there for people to consume for free, that little elevation of dopamine when you hit ‘publish’ makes it worth it.

All I am saying is that I can’t get comfortable with writing.

#writing #i feel like an imposter #writeblr

[last-herondale]

It sucks getting imposter syndrome while writing fanfiction. Part of me always thinks “Who are you to be rewriting these stories?” “You think your writing even compares?

Laughable.”

#my writing #writblr #writers #anxitey #i feel like an imposter

[softimgyu]

What’s cooking good lookings⁉️🫶🏽

#a lil check in #i feel like an imposter #AN IMPASTA #maybe it’s just me but I’m definitely not up here as often

[propheciesanddreams]

Things I have to laugh about when I used French in my fic.

I speak French as my home language with English as my cultural language. I learned it from my mother and my cousins. I’m the oldest cousin and they were all still babies the last time I went to France. I’ve done some French classes for learning grammar and all that in high school but mostly I’ve only ever heard it at home.

This means I don’t know how people my age speak or how to cuss! Cause my Boomer mother isn’t about to teach me that and my cousins are all gen z.

So when Sirius and Regulus fight in French in my fic I’m literally having to google “how to cuss in French” 🙃

#i feel like an imposter #i speak the language I swear!! #fanfiction writing #Sirius and regulus speak French #fic: and they were soulmates

[psychedelic-ink]

me: hasn't written a single fic about any pedro pascal character ever even tho i want to

also me: makes pedro pascal theme

#sil talks.🎤 #i feel like an imposter #soon #i will flood you all with pedro pascal content

[deaddaisybaby]

Whenever I try to

Get my shit together

Mind my own business

Work towards a better future

I feel

Like an imposter

Not worthy

Undeserving

Like I’m betraying my family

-will I be broke forever?

#dissociative identity disorder #i feel like an imposter #imposter syndrome #self worth #innerself #inner teen #healing #dissociative system #mental disorder #mental illness #mental heath support #mentalwellness #poverty #did struggles #the strugge is real #self reflecting #i need therapy #depression #family struggles #family stress

[babytooth8483]

whenever my friends try to explain romance to me

#me #aroace #aromanitc #questioning aspec #why do I want this when I don’t want this? #questioning everything #i feel like an imposter #am i going crazy #asexual #someone help me!!

[lebowskismoney]

So i mayyyyy have been an impulsive bitch and bought doom eternal bc haha funi animal crossing x doom but i tried playing it and its lowkey super intense but i spent my hard-earned money on it, im gonna master this spooky-ass game

#i did the same thing w mortal kombat #except i didnt do anything #i just kept it in the back burner #i feel like an imposter #sussy baka #monilerambleski

[strawhatboy]

should i watch gold or stampede

#i only have watched z and strong world #i feel like an imposter