#i have no salvation

[setewbro]

Kim Dokja Hiii

#my art #fanart #orv #artists on tumblr #brart #sete art #brazillian artists #omniscient reader's viewpoint #kim dokja #kdj #demon king of salvation #now that I have procreate I'll draw all the orv fanart I didn't

[buqbite]

Mockery of the audience

[ID: Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint fanart of Kim Dokja standing in a mocking pose with his back to the viewer, speaking to a huge gallery of silhouettes. He's in his Demon King form, and one of his legs is kicked back as he raises his hands dramatically. Most of the scene is shaded in dark purple, but Dokja is cast in bright red. A huge purple eye with a star-shaped pupil stares down from above, casting a spotlight over Dokja. End ID]

(ID by princess-of-purple-prose)

#i dont have anything emo and smart to say im too tired #Anyways reflected in the eye is dokja himself #He's mocking the audience and putting on such a grand and bold act #But who's his target? The faceless constellations? They're included but he is the same as them #At the end its his own face staring back at him #He's making a mockery of the audience and hes subjected to the mockery of the audience #orv #orv spoilers #omniscient readers viewpoint #kim dokja #orv kdj #demon king of salvation #oldest dream #<- implied lol #my art

[egharcourt]

The Last Days of Judas Iscariot saying that heaven and hell are a state of mind and nothing can obstruct you from salvation and the love of God except your own guilt. And despair being such a dooming force that even if Jesus were to appear in front of you himself and repeatedly remind you how much he loves you, hell, he'll try to hug you and wash your feet even, you can't be let free from the prison of suffering that you've confined yourself in. All because you're so disappointed in yourself that you're gripping the bars refusing to let go. How you cannot love God without first forgiving yourself. How the ultimate tragedy in this poignant dark comedy of a play is that Judas' damnation comes not from the fact that he betrayed Jesus, but from his self-disdain and perceived unworthiness that he basically condemned himself into an eternity of solitary anguish. I can go on about this play forever and ever. Do you get it.

#the last days of judas iscariot #text #on salvation #judas iscariot #jesus #thoughts #philosophy #i have so many thoughts #about this play #it's so...deep #I can't put all of it into words #but there are so quotes that literally floored me #holy shit #this is insane #go read it #NOW

[lotus-pear]

what is childe doing in bungou gay dogs😟

#finally finished reading this manga after it sat on my to read list for a couple years #a good friend finally convinced me into reading it and i buckled and read the whole thing in three days (i'm not ok <33) #anyway she neglected to tell me childe was in it otherwise i would have read it sooner!!!!!! #NO NO HEAR ME OUT #murder gingers with dead blue eyes that are part of dark antagonistic organizations and happen to be executives in said organizations #relatively similar color palette and cocky confident personalities that are instantly shed when in the heat of battle #tragic pasts where both were mercilessly tormented until salvation occurred in the form of an invitation to their respective organizations #childe has so many siblings that one of them left and infiltrated another anime #i better not see any chuuya stans @ me in the tags and be like ''stop comparing zhongli's wallet to my pookie chuuya'' #i will fuck you up #i'm so sry to anyone who actually sat and read all the tags im so mentally ill abt this mf i can talk about him for hrs if given the chance #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #chuuya nakahara #nakahara chuuya #lotus draws

[campfireofdreams]

"... hatred, friendship, jealousy, indignation, emptiness, love, sorrow."

#why did he have to say the word 'love' like that 😭 #it's like. he can't help what he feels #and what he feels among all the other emotions is LOVE. he's surrendering to it. helpless. #his love for guts is his doom but also his salvation. dark. but also light. #screaming about every version of griffith's monologue 😩 #the anime isn't perfect obviously but i think griffith's voice actor did a great job portraying his feelings in this scene #griffith #anime #griffguts #berserk 1997

[flonautilus]

Oops, my hand slipped. Late night doodle of @kevin-ibw's salvation hotel au.

idk why but their vox always reminds me of a hawk so i drew him perched over the city like one

ignore the background ignore the background please ignore the background

apologies for messiness

#btw its so hilarious that this dude got kicked out of heaven for starting a cult #fell to hell and was like yknow what #yeah imma start another cult #vox #hazbin hotel #au: salvation hotel #my art #also oops i drew it in b&w cuz i thought the au was mostly b&w but i might have goofed cuz the sky is still red?? #aw crap i got the wrong design agsjdkf nevermind ill edit it tmr when its not like paat midnight

[shiikiyun]

I think something i don't often see in discussions about Futa's character is how, if you really take a second, he's kind of a people pleaser

He isn't so in a way like what Mikoto got going on, he does want to be around people of the same interests as him, and you wouldn't think he'd care about anything but authenticity if you stayed with the way he behaves on milgram. It is only when you think about him -in- those social circles he manages to get into that you can see him tweaking lol

I think the closest to see this that we have in milgram itself is that one interaction with Kotoko in which she attempts to debate how prisons respect human rights. Any other time he expressed his opinion/stance on things he was aggressive and maybe condescending to the rest because they disagreed with him, but the second someone agreed? Whole demeanor changed. Suddenly he didn't have much to say anymore and he just parroted Kotoko's words back at her. Why. If he has such a strong personality and mindset, why was someone validating his point enough to shut down his otherwise very firm attitude?

Futa doesn't go as far as to manufacture his every word for it to cause a positive reaction on others from the get go, but he does seek validation all the same. He braces himself for rejection by being loud and obnoxious and harsh until he sees a positive reaction and then is when he does a complete 180 to keep the other person in that place of validation. He is simultaneously completely bad at it though, but I never said he was good at people pleasing. Which connects back to what i've said before about his inability to fit in. Even when he thinks he's doing it right and he sees himself getting validation by people he cares about (in the case of his crime, by mimicking his friendgroup's method of "bringing justice" by calling out someone online, that same friendgroup following along and reinforcing the idea that he was doing it right), he ultimately fails anyway and loses it all over again.

In the end, he's just extremely socially awkward and anxious. It isn't in his nature to reach anyone else's expectations even if he genuinely wants to, so he'll either do what he can within his parameters (mold himself for his friendgroup of people he deems similar to him) or he'll avoid trying altogether because he knows he'll fail (what we see in milgram!)

It also shows how his yearn for a support system (t2 qna + mu's birthday timeline convo) isn't particularly new from his current circumstances, or why the only person he could think of when asked who he would want to see right now was his mom (who left so long ago he barely remembers her). He has just never truly had people that genuinely cared for him no matter what he tried to do to make himself likeable.

#and having this in mind i think i understand why he seems to be “giving in” to amane's beliefs #it isnt solely because of his current vulnerability #it isnt even just to find solace in religion #it is because amane offered him help. in a way shes validating him #and if believing in bullshit like salvation and god will make at least the elementary schooler talk to him sometimes #against being left alone with his thoughts and the voices in the walls #with the track record he has of slightly molding himself and mimicking others #yeahh #and honestly that only means itll backfire even worse! on Him! #in his own words #it is what it isSorry #but no yeah hes fucked. i dont think his religious arc is gonna make shit complicated for anyone else but him #but itll be AWFUL on him #milgram #fuuta kajiyama #fuuta milgram #character analysis #sorta kinda #as always

[corallapis]

No, never. Missy! I will never stand with Doctor!

#simm!master #missy #gomez!master #tenth doctor #twelfth doctor #doctor x master #doctor who #dwedit #dw #* #not even trying to consistently color this one soz ✌️ #so i was thinking abt the change in simm!master's attitude from eot (“get out of the way”) to s10 (“i will never stand with the doctor”)... #and like. what if you voluntarily saved the doctor by throwing yourself back into the time war #the war that you made yourself human to escape from the first time round #dragged back to gallifrey at the mercy of the ppl who you just opposed? (the people who engineered your insanity in the first place?) #when missy asks him to go to gallifrey with her & 12 says ''you'll be clapped irons'' yeah i'm sure it was a great deal more than that #for the deserter. for the person who they cursed as a child & still failed to bring about their salvation #for the someone who tried to kill the founder of all time lord society #and then when gallifrey is saved... does the doctor (again: whose life you saved!!! when you last saw each other) come looking for you? no #you have to get yourself out. and when you find yourself trapped & the doctor finally does appear... what does he say to you? #''so they cured your little condition and kicked you out'' !!!! #like. yeah. i think simm!master is totally in the right for not listening to a single thing 12 says past that point. lmao.

[raayllum]

Rayla saying "But you're basically my best friend. I wouldn't let anything happen to you, no matter what it took" (Bloodmoon Huntress), and "He's my friend, my best friend" (3x01) and "I won't let anything happen to you" to Callum (6x01) and

#rayllum #s6 spoilers #SHE LOVES HIM!! #mutual salvation theory #arc 2 #parallels #multi #this is everything i wanted for her oh thank fucking god #like they're clearly also setting up the Conflict she's going to have with it but #her heart is going to win out i'm sure of it #tdp spoilers #6x01 #rayllum parallels #predictions achieved #cause i always thought that BH line was foreshadowy

[bruhstation]

you deserved better from me than an oversized uniform and a world full of troubles

#this is tugs #tugs zorran #tugs zip #fortezza bigg city #senjart #quick doodle before bed (1 am) #when you're only 18 and got force-fed a world full of crime and shady hard-to-trust folks #and the middle aged man that you adore and treat as a paragon of salvation is distant and cannot love you ''normally'' #while the person that berates you is the one that genuinely loves you but your brain automatically registers any ''insult'' as ''bad'' #and you don't know that he cares for you #family'd so hard they started to develop genuine traditional family problems #we're not beating the complicated doomed familyhood allegations with this one 😂😂😂 #the faint ''have to'' in the background is like. #''do I care for you because my boss handed you to me as part of my duty'' #vs #''do I care for you because I don't want you to end up like me even though I am NOT warm or nice'' #also them without their hats. the one thing all z-stacks have in common that indicates them being from the same group #theres lots of details and themes and whatnot in this doodle but my brain is a mush..... erm..... have fun staring #(fixes my glasses and grins like an ape)

[pcktknife]

fuck star rail for putting argenti in this quest lollllll

#kae.txt #now instead of beating the quest i gotta build clara who is alarmingly good #clara will be my salvation. save me white girl. save me #star rail spoilers #his quest is the only one i dont have done. universal night of hallucinations or whatever. fucking hate his quest its hard i dont have the #characters built for it #and he and the bugs have different weaknesses entirely. why #mhy

[buqbite]

Clean Hands

#Having an art funk rn #Anyways I'm thinking about demon world arc kdj again #He's the revolutionarhh ok rq i need you to know that the tag auto suggest suggested “He's gay” #thank you tumblr. anyways #He's the revolutionary #Usually someone who's noble and kind and whatever #lord knows he isnt #But his hands are? Technically clean? Aren't they? #Has he killed any significant innocents? That will stick with you in your memory? #And dont the constellations love love LOVE killing those nameless extras #hehe side story reference. anyways thats all #orv #omniscient readers viewpoint #kim dokja #orv kdj #orv spoilers #demon king of salvation #my art

[midnight-mismanagement]

I’ve been thinking about That Church SceneTM and idk I think what hit me hardest was how Spike is talking about his former pre-soul mindset and how naive it is. He says “and she shall look on him with forgiveness and love and everyone will forgive and love and he will be loved” because while pre-soul he knew he was a monster and he knew he had done horrible things, he was okay with those things, he was a vampire after all, but he felt horrible for what he did to Buffy, but even then he still had a bit of hope. From the outside looking in, Angel’s soul seemed like the “button” for the “be good” switch. It would be the “piece that would make [him] fit” so he would be the “kind of man who would never [hurt her].” The “be a man not a monster” switch, that would make him be able to tell right from wrong and never hurt the people he loves anymore. But...the soul is not a “be good” switch. I don’t really know what the soul exactly is, since it’s never really concrete in the lore, but it doesn’t just make him fit, it doesn’t turn him into what he wants, but what it does do, is make him much more aware of himself and what he’s done, and he comes to the realization that no, there is no forgiveness. There never will be, he will never be worthy of it. He is condemned. He says “it’s okay now, right?” with hopeful despondency because he knows it will never be okay. Spike has always wanted acceptance, and love, and he sought it from places he would never get it, and now he knows he will never get it because he shouldn’t.

So when he goes up in flames by the end in heroic sacrifice and all that jazz, he’s happy he even got to have an ending like this, he’s finally doing something right. And when he comes back in Angel, as a ghost with no ability to affect the world around him (except annoy the crap out of Angel) he feels he is on borrowed time. In the moment of burning up, he didn’t have to think about if he would end up in hell or the aftermath, but with Pavayne toying with him, tugging him in to hell, it’s a slow torture of what he’s known all along, even if he didn’t fully want to face it. He is still condemned. And yet, given what he believes to be the one opportunity to stave off the inevitable for however longer and get a body, he still chooses Fred’s life over his own. And Fred tells him “you’re someone worth saving.” She doesn’t condemn him. She believes in him, like Buffy did, and this time it’s someone he doesn’t have a rocky past with or romantic feelings with, she just sees him for him and wants to help. And in the end he gets a body while she loses hers, and it’s because Angel and Spike did the “right” thing because it’s what Fred would’ve wanted. I think soulless him would’ve saved Fred, even if it meant condemning so many others. 

And on the day he thinks will once again be his last before the big suicide mission showdown (which he was the first to volunteer for), he doesn’t call Buffy to give her the pain of finding he’s alive only to die again, instead he goes to a bar and reads his poetry, the window into his shameful, soft soul that was stamped on and laughed at the last time he was a human, and hopes for acceptance. And he gets it.

#I just have a lot of Spike feelings all of a sudden #this is how I procrastinate is by falling down eighth grade rabbit hole obsessions #but yeah just very much the whole #will this fix me oh shit nothing can #and it was me who did that #is very much oof #the soul doesn't make him a good person #it just holds up a mirror he hasn't seen himself in since he was a human #and it's on him to figure out what to choose from here #to keep going or sink into his inevitable condemnation #and accept there is no salvation only living #or unliving #btvs #spike #spike btvs #buffy the vampire slayer

[riayuun]

#i started 2022 with this vent art :D #just kim dokja having a meltdown as usual #yes i love this color combination its sooo mmm #artists on tumblr #digital art #art #illustration #my art #digital drawing #fanart #omniscient reader fanart #omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv #orv kdj #orv fanart #orv kim dokja #kim dokja #demon king of salvation

[zabiume]

I get sad thinking about how during ichigo and grimmjows fight in hm. Particularly the moment when he see sees orihime's terrified reaction to his mask. I think he considered her previous trauma with acid wire ofc, but how must he have felt when orihime looked at him like that? She was the girl who managed to make friends with everyone and empathized so deeply with even her enemies, let alone her closer friends. And she was looking at him, completely frozen with fear, and he hated being the source of it. It just makes my feelers hurt so bad for some reason :(

i think the great thing about this fight is that it lets you empathize with both ichigo and orihime without diminishing either of their feelings, which is just. good writing. i'd go so far as to say this fight is also superb because of how it manages to address many overarching themes at once: a) ichigo's human-hollow struggle that keeps rearing its head every now and then b) orihime's complicated relationship with violence c) grimmjow's twisted desire to feel validated by ichigo, who he sees as his own mirror d) ichigo & orihime's long-term struggle to cross the chasm that separates them and meet in the middle.

a lot of people focus on orihime's fear here, but the truth is, ichigo himself was afraid of his hollow and was NOT confident about his ability to control it. when he tells orihime not to be afraid without his mask on, he looks at her and smiles. with the mask, he doesn't even make eye contact. when he accidentally does make eye contact later on in the fight, it crushes him, and the beauty of this fight is that it's all carried out through body language. his heart sinks, and so does yours, if you're invested in the fight. ichigo's entire arc so far has been about mastering this side of himself that he's desperately afraid of losing to, and now the person he's protecting is afraid of him, too. he begins doubting himself: what if grimmjow is right? what if he really did just come here to fight?

if you look at orihime's side of things, she's not wrong either. orihime's entire arc was about self-doubt at this time. she was never really sure of her worth to others, so how could she be sure that ichigo, who's reiatsu is rougher and darker than usual (just like her dead brother) was fighting for her? she does eventually realize her effect on him with a little help from nel. but in the end, nel's testimony doesn't matter much either because orihime realizes she would love ichigo even if he wasn't fighting for her. she just doesn't want him to get hurt.

lucky for us, grimmjow isn't right and it's obvious that ichigo did indeed come to fight him—if only to protect everyone and take orihime back home. fighting is ichigo's means to an end. his reaction to orihime is our indicator of that. the great thing about this fight is what it tells us—that if ichigo was this affected by orihime's face, then it means he truly didn't come here just to fight. that nel's cheers did nothing to grab ichigo's attention, but orihime's first broken whisper did. that having orihime nearby reminds him of what he's fighting for, which is something that literally saves his human life when he's in vasto lorde form. he left his heart with her, just as she did with him before she left. if we began this journey with rangiku saying ichigo needs orihime, this arc shows us how. this fight shows us how. yes, orihime's fear caused him some pain, but none of us can deny how cocky he got when she cheered for him, either, so it goes both ways :D

#i loved this volume very much & now that we have lust & horn of salvation their arc is complete :)))) #each ichihime moment has got to be seen as a conversation with other ichihime moments #and that's when you realize how nicely their romantic subplot has been fleshed out over arcs #personal biases aside i dont really understand calling IH rushed when they're the one part of the story that WASN'T rushed #every arc gave them a new status quo to navigate and among all the canon married couples #they're the one we spent the longest time with - even compared to ren&rukia #like sorry for waxing poetic about it i'm sure everyone feels this way about their favorite ships but i loooove IH <3 they're so good #asks #ichihime

[macaronijail06]

Winter bird

#orv #omniscient reader #omniscient reader's viewpoint #kim dokja #kdj #orv kdj #demon king of salvation #oldest dream #winter bird #All I need is to remember #How it was to feel alive #Lay me by the frozen river #Where the boats have passed me by #love that song