#i made a tiktok about this lol

[stc019]

"I'm yours no matter"

mitski's new album floored me and "Star" punched me right in my satosugu's feels... 😭​💖​

#satosugu #gojo satoru #jujustu kaisen #geto suguru #i wasn't planning on posting it anywhere but tiktok but tiktok is actually an awful platform for any kind of art community #and it made me feel like shit about my work lol so it is #fanart #comics

[animalsandskyyy]

being homeschooled means not being able to feel normal or at ease when interacting with peers.

it means never learning how to casually text or speak within groups of people.

it means being great with authority figures or people you deem above or more adult than you, but being completely unable to communicate with anyone your age you'd want to be friends with.

it means desperately wanting to befriend people you've met in life and follow online but failing to do so, and then having every time you see them cause you to grieve the possibility of a friendship with them because you desperately want it but know you're incapable of it.

it means being severely behind in pop culture and not really being mad at that, but still knowing that it causes an even further divide.

it means going from being extremely mature as a teenager to being extremely behind in a social life in your twenties.

#just my personal experience #having the yearly ‘i’m so completely alone and don’t have anyone to do anything with irl’ meltdown lol #and just learned my family is going to be out of town for like the rest of the month #and so I have no one to do anything with now #you’d think i’d be better at this by now but nope lol #I even joined a discord server by someone who made a tiktok about having a hard time making actual friends #and so everyone is there with that shared struggle and trying to make friends #but I can’t even talk there bc i’m so completely clueless on how to interact in group chat type things and group settings #and get too scared to send anything ahd I take so long to type one message bc I have to think about it and reread it 20 times #it doesn’t help that I feel like i’ve always been like 40 years old mentally and just don’t understand the things people my age like to do #but anyways #grace is dramatic

[adhdandcomics]

adding to my tags because i’ve been thinkin a lot about the post i just reblogged and have more thoughts:

i’ll be real, the more i saw ‘hey adhd influencers are so annoying’ the more i worried that i was unconsciously contributing to the spreading reputation of adhd folks as annoying and over-pathologizing every symptom they experience

and then i realized. i am not a goddam influencer or life coach or representative. obviously i have some obligation as someone who cares about myself and the people that like my comics to not spread harmful ideology or blatant misinformation but i never intended myself to be a “’increase your productivity!!’ blog OR a ‘if you have XYZ you have adhd!’ blog. and i do this for fun, and originally started this blog bc i had a lot of internalized shame and self loathing about my adhd and thought if i could make it funny i might have less of that. let’s get real! and it worked!

i’ve obviously done this kind of thing— (hey these symptoms might be adhd!) a lot before in my life & on this blog, but there’s more to it than trying to be an “influencer” or whatever. a term that didn’t even exist when i started this blog!

i felt very isolated trying to find out if i had any mental problems & what have you originally because of large advice (etc) blogs with staunchly anti self Dx views at the time

so i overcorrected when i DID get dxed and tried to validate everyone who was like me. and of course. not the best course of action always for the ol mental health. tried to be the source of positivity and jokes that i didn’t see because the online adhd presence was near non-existent.

and anyway. i make a lot of fun of myself & the way m brain works in my comics obviously but it is not my obligation to... how do you say.... not be annoying online.

because if folks interpret MY little jokes as a strict guide to diagnosis. that’s on them, really, not me. i also believe “making adhd your entire personality” is a non-issue. so what if people find out they have it and get over excited with identifying as adhd. saying this as someone who DID do it. criticism of this gives the same vibes as people being annoyed that young queers make “being queer” their whole personality. im very obviously more than a guy with adhd, and id reckon other adhd comic artists are too. (im friends with a lot of them!) it’s fine to post about it online.

anyway. i just don’t take myself too seriously and i’m a comic artist for myself first! and you know what, i’ve been considered annoying my entire life. what do i care if a few more folks think i’m annoying. neurotypical or not

#i think the article did have some good points especially on the capitalism and marketing angle but i oft think it did venture into #being mad at individual folks who post jokes about adhd. which is literally fine thats what an opinion piece is for lol #i am just very tired of people pretending that a lot of reaction to online adhders is not in itself just an extension of the ableism #we already were facing #'adhd people are so annoying everyone does this youre pathologizing everything' ok and how exactly are you helping. #i hesitate to throw my hat in with hating on adhd tiktok because i am simply not on tiktok and have no way to back up my thoughts #that they may be annoying and oversimplifying a complex disorder on the 'drains your attention span' website. #and i think perhaps the value of each adhd resource varies widely depending on who made it and what theyre even posting. #sometimes its a joke made by a person with adhd. sometimes its sourced and cited research. sometimes its someone discussing their personal #experiences in depth. sometimes its someone talking completely out of their ass. sometimes its THINLY veiled ableism. #its up to the individual to research and determine the value of the memes and resources you seek #anyway. perhaps these points are tough to clarify on sites like insta and twitter. bless. #text #adhd #im punk now #oh and yeah i also agree lots of folks do not talk about the unsavory parts of adhd but rather the funnies and the sillies. but that is #once again a larger capitalism and marketing and ableism problem #r we not talking about them because we are actively trying to infantalize this disorder or is it because we collectively experience a lot #of internalized ableism and hesitate to talk about our worst symptoms for fear of the backlash #weve always gotten about them 🤔🤔🤔 #much to consider #if youve read this far sorry for tangent number 56 about this. but also start being more unapologetic about your disorders. fuck it! #<3

[puppydoggraham]

Okay here’s what I’m cooking rn

The scene where Will comes over and says he kissed Alana and it ends in Hannibal jealously fucking Will<333333333

#it’s so late I need to sleep but I wanna write this…perhaps it will be my next hannigram fic #y’all know I love me my possessive Hannibal shit #MY MIND IS HERE #IM COOKIN LEMME COOK #hannigram #❄️💋 #alr got emojis oh god it’s fucking over for me #the way I get my inspo is so fucking random #it’s bc I made a tiktok about that scene and then my brain went there LOL

[koujaaku]

Tavathan just wants to cuddle, but he forgets how heavy he is sometimes... 🤭

#BG3 #Baldur's Gate 3 #Shadowheart #Tav #OC: Tavathan #my art! #based off a tiktok I saw awhile ago #a girl was complaining about her tall boyfriend lol #it was cute and made me think of these two

[rollercoasterwords]

ummmmm fyi i do not write stories about lesbians to "provide wlw representation" 😐 please get a grip 😐

#i know this is supposed to be like....a compliment/a nice thing to say #but it just makes me feel weird lol #like. #i'm not service worker in ur fandom space??? #also. usually see this coming up in discussions that i....do not want to be associated with LOL #will send my sister a tiktok of someone saying something dumb about 'wlw rep' and she'll go #'oh but look ppl r talking abt ur fic in the comments :)' #and i'm like YES i KNOW i APPRECIATE the LOVE #but i do not appreciate being made into some weird part of this whole debate about the Morality of writing lesbians vs gays #like....me writing lesbians is not some kind of. Moral Imperative #to Provide Representation #i do love a nice compliment i DO i don't want to seem ungrateful i know this is generally well-intentioned #it just!!! feels!!! weird!!! to see people talking abt my silly little stories like they are something Produced for Consumption #grumpy posting #txt

[zero-is-nebulous]

So, empires crossover huh? Damn I can't beleive the hermits are a species now

[Here's the basic design]

#i made a tiktok about designing hermits as a species #and hated it so immediately redesigned it and ended up with this #i think my issue before was that there was too many subspecies and nothing simular about them like at all lol #anyway #hermitcraft #hermit #hermit species #grian #hermit grian #empires #empires smp #multiverse #mcyt #yippee #🌩nebulous' art🌒

[mysicklove]

i saw this tiktok where someone was basically bashing a “standard american” barista for forcing small talk bc they only want tips, but i do something similar (but not forced) and it’s not for tips it’s bc i genuinely like talking to people 😔😔

#🔪 - mello talks too much #don’t worry i know how to read a room like who wants to and doesn’t want to talk #(i’m actually pretty good at that) #i’m surrounded by introverts so LOL i am trained well #but like i compliment ppl on the daily #and idk it leads into small talk a lot! #i’m not being fake for tips i genuinely am like this #i hope ppl don’t think i’m being fake like the tiktok says #i also don’t FORCE conversations like the tiktok was implying tho #so maybe they aren’t talking about me #lololol idk guys it made me sad #my manager hired me for my “outgoing” personality and to think that ppl might not like that makes ;( #but also i’ve never seen anyone genuinely annoyed at me #like i said before i know how to read if someone wants to engage in a convo or not #ok sorry i’m rambling #i always do this in the tags lol

[steeleyespan]

knitting/crochet influencers are so funny to me because the nature of the craft is sooo inherently anti-influencerizable. like the fact it takes ages and is very repetitive and boring to just watch someone knit an entire jumper. Also if youre knitting to produce content you are just going to end up with waaaay too many FOs more than you would ever feasibly need. and yarn hauls are tacky and boring as hell. You do just need to have been doing it for YEARS to really slay and know what youre taking about

#pretty humbling dor me because whenever i get into something i like to think i have some innate talent at it #and literally cant do that with knitting lol it literally is mosty like patience skill muscle memory & concentration #i do like watching ppl talk about the stuff theyeve made but sometimes i watcha knittinf video or especially a short #and am like. sorry this sucks. canny imagine what its even like on tiktok #literally so mad 7 year old me did not care about knitting when i lived in shetland....i couldve been so powerful

[hella1975]

hi hella do you have thoughts on the tiktokification of ethel cain (given her leaving social medias) anyway sorry if you dont i just love the way you think xx

i think a very simplified explanation of what tiktok does to music and why it fundamentally always Grates on me is that people on tiktok cannot just listen to a song. it's no longer enough to enjoy a song or an artist. you're not a 'true fan' if you just simply listen to the music and find any level of enjoyment from it. you have to instead know every single lyric, and every meaning of that lyric, and then when that isn't enough because the masses are now also doing that, you then need to know what the artist's thought process was for the lyrics, where they were when they wrote it, exactly what they mean by it. interpretation is no longer allowed because the 'true fans' correct you with what the artist said in a niche interview from 2019 and 'if you really liked the song you would know that'. it doesnt matter what the song means to YOU because it now needs to be consumed in the Exact Way Tiktok Says It Should Be. and then of course it all becomes narrower and narrower and all the while the fans are TEARING the artists apart in an attempt to be the one individual listening to them most often and most correctly and with the most thorough understanding, and the artist is just. some guy. like literally just a person behind a screen reading every stupid as fuck thing and seeing the same stupid as fuck comments over and over and over again and it's like yeah. that would drive me fucking insane too actually

#there is no correct way of consuming media. like this need to be special and the snobbery it creates is something even ive been guilty of #like i will say ive only ever joked about it (like i made a post a while ago about tiktokers not realising gibson girl #was about drugs and prostitution) but i cant think of a time ive ever been ACTUALLY pissed about it #and that was more me being annoyed the tiktok crowd had got ethel cain anyway like IN GENERAL lol #but people on tiktok are actually IN that mindset. like they truly believe there's a correct way to listen to music #and they WILL police you on it if you dont adhere to that and they NEED it to be memeable so they can feel like they have inside jokes #with the artist despite them being a fucking stranger and it's WEIRD and more than anything it's fucking ANNOYING #and at the end of the day someone who listens to gibson girl bc it hypes them up and they have no idea about the lyric meaning #or its context in the rest of the album or in fact who ethel cain even is #are doing just as much justice to the art as people who listen to every single song religiously and know every single meaning #ultimately music is created to make people feel things. art is created to make people feel things #if you felt something listening to it then great. that is literally the only requirement needed. you dont need the artist's social security #number and worst traumatic experience in order to be considered thee fan of all time #ask

[narniadreams]

it’s crazy to me that after such a long time people still have such bad takes about edmund ‘’betraying’’ his family. 

how are you going to look at a piece of media (whether it’s the book or the movie) about a 10 year old child, being excluded by his siblings, his father leaving him to fight in the war, then having to move away from his mother, finding a magical world inside of a wardrobe where he meets an adult lady who is nice to him and offers him some candy, telling him she can make him a king and if he brings his siblings along, they could work for him in his castle. 

how are you going to look at that and say: yes he betrayed them. he knew what he was doing. he choose to betray them. he knew she was evil and that he wanted to kill not only his siblings but also himself. he knew all of this and it’s all his fault. 

and this is not even mentioning the fact that the turkish delight he ate was enchanted and would make a person never want to stop eating it until they would literally eat themselves to death. 

he was a child manipulated by an adult who was nice to him and promised him to be nice to his family as well. why do so many people talk about this as if jadis told edmund: ‘’bring me your family and i’ll kill them all’’ and edmund just went: ‘’ok cool’’ like where do you get this idea from??????

#and this is not even mentioning the whole ''problem of susan'' thing. #i saw a bad take on tiktok and i can't stop thinking about it sorry i had to vent. #thankfully the video is deleted now but still the ppl in the comments made me go insane lol #narnia #the chronicles of narnia #edmund pevensie #idk bro idk.

[meggie-moo]

i have never watched an episode of that 70s show in my life

#this is old btw 😭 #i made it during the time this was a trend on tiktok #ALSO APPARENTLY THAT ACTOR SUCKS so he’s lame and this video obviously does not condone any of his actions #this is based on when i first got to sollux i just thought of this dude who i see on my dash >:) and my friend hates it LOL #there is something about him that gives me sollux vibes it is most definitely the hair and the sideburns #sollux captor #karkat vantas #homestuck #that 70s show #t70s #meg’s incoherent thoughts #meg’s art #animatic #meg’s more coherent drawings

[abbey-abdominal]

would u still love me if I was a worm would u still love me if I had nothing to offer u if I couldn’t talk to u or cry to u or touch u would u still love me if i essentially was not the same as I started out w/ u would u still love me even if u hated bugs and I was a jester girl and u were a ragdoll girl and we’ll never be the same after letting ourselves be vulnerable with each other and exposing our innards would u still

#shitposting ragapom #older drawing of pomni and raggs #back before I decided to give them both bean eyes and bean mouths #and raggs pinkie pie hair #my art #*slams fist on table* would u still fucking love her????? AS A WORM?????? #sketch sloppy oppy sketch #inspired by a tiktok where OP made it clear why the Worm Question isn’t a stupid question at all #something so cool about people breaking down seemingly innocuous and ridiculous things and stripping them down to their bare fucking bones #anyway I hope ragapom shipping culture gets more angsty as we go along in the series lol #tadc posting #ragapom tag rambling

[kiki-1109]

into the library  📚

i recorded different timelapses of this drawing’s process for both tiktok and youtube if anyone’s interested uwu

youtube + tiktok 

#original #oc #his name is Kal btw i guess i can mention now lol #if anyone's interested in this little comic project of mine i talk about it more on the youtube video hehe #also yes i have unfortunately made a tiktok at last #i did it in hopes to maybe reach more people but if it doesn't work i dont really mind #had fun editing the tiktok tho i'm so happy i get to use animal crossing music #bluebells resolve webcomic

[akkivee]

samatoki heard there were dumplings and demanded to come along lol

#this is vee speaking #just some microwave dumplings lol not anything authentic unfortunately 😔 #just goes to show how much they would have been like the best thing i ever ate if they were tho lol they were sooooo tasty #i don’t have tiktok but foodie ytubers were raving about these trader joes dumplings so i decided to give them a go #and damn!!!!! some points had been made and i sure realised them lol 😩👌

[spittyfishy]

I have such a complicated relationship with Tenko.

She’s a character I really really want to like but I just.. She’s so terrible in V3 lol. Tenko has only two major Things about her, those being Hates Men and Loves Himiko. Which are both riddled with problems.

Hates Men going first because I think my thoughts on that are less controversial, but it obviously was Bad. Aside from the everything of everything about how it was written and handled, after chapter 1 the game is from Suichi’s pov. Suichi who is a boy. So almost every interaction you have with Tenko is negative, and having someone who can’t stand the player character for seemingly no good reason (free time events not being counted since it’s not guaranteed you’d see hers in a given play through) is not a great way to endear someone to the audience. I will say I think if Kaede had stayed the protag that this problem would likely be less apparent, but I’ll get to that later.

Then there’s the Himiko thing. And I get it, I do, and I know a lot of people do really like that ship, but to me it always just came across as a wlw version of Soda and Sonia’s relationship and that doesn’t sit well with me. Now, I love Soda, I’ve gone on record saying he’s my favorite boy in all of danganronpa, but myself, everyone else, and most importantly the games narrative, can all agree that his obsession with Sonia is bad. It’s bad that he constantly goes after her when she doesn’t express reciprocated feelings. It’s bad that he invaded her personal space. It’s bad he jumps down the throat of anyone that tries to investigate her as a potential culprit. And it’s bad that he reacts with viceral jealousy when Sonia gets another friend/love interest (Gundham) and then hates him for the rest of the game.

But all of that is all behaviour Tenko exhibits towards Himiko. With Angie being the Gundham equivalent here; Angie and Himiko are shown to be pretty close during chapters two and three and Tenko hates her for it. Tenko gets mad when Himiko spends time with Angie, she only joins the student council to ‘protect’ Himiko from Angie!! I recall there’s one point in the second trial where Angie suggests there’s a possibility Himiko could be the culprit and Tenko loses it at her, but like Ryoma died seemingly during Himiko's magic show and if they get this wrong everyone dies so maybe yeah cover all your bases. It’s a death game, of course everyone’s suspicious of each other. If Himiko had been a blackend at some point she could have easily manipulated Tenko into giving her a fake alibi because let’s face it that’s something Tenko would do without question.

However despite the similarities between the two sets of characters, Tenkos actions are oftentimes framed as being incredibly romantic instead of obsessive, entitled, and possessive. I do recognize a lot of that is in part of Tenko dying in the first half of the game and Soda and Sonia both making it to the end, so she doesn’t overstay her welcome in the same way he does, but still.

The other big difference is of course we get to see Himiko react to losing Tenko. And she is in fact very upset by it. But as Kokichi calls her out in the third trial (I don’t often see eye to eye with Kokichi but I have to give him props for this one) it really seems like Himiko only cares about Tenko after she’s dead. Before that Himiko seemed completely uninterested in Tenkos advances and at some points any friendship with her at all. And it’s only after already losing Angie that all this goes down, and I firmly believe if Angie hadn’t died this chapter Himiko would not have reacted so intensely to Tenkos death. Himiko lost both the people she was arguably closest to in one fell swoop and she reacted in an understandably extreme way.

But even with all of that, those are points about Himiko’s character, not Tenkos. Himiko gets a lot of character growth in V3 and Tenko isn’t afforded that luxury, so she’s just stuck stagnating in her bad character.

This brings us to my last point, Tenko is great in fan works. Every V3 fic I’ve read that features her has had her be a far more enjoyable character then she was in the actual game. Because at its core the issues I’ve listed above aren’t fully character problems, they’re writing problems. If Tenkos behavior towards Himiko had been properly addressed within the story she would have either A: changed her behavior and had an arc about boundaries, or B: stayed exactly as is but the narrative of the story framed it as negative qualities. All the other characters constantly give Soda grief for how he acts towards Sonia (and while it still should have been dialed wayyy back) it’s easier to get through because it’s acknowledged that it’s a problem and is bad.

If Tenko was treated the same way I would not be complaining like this. I’d just ignore that part of her character and work around it (like what I do with Kiyo lol). That’s why Tenko is often so much better in fan works, there’s so many ways to fix things. Changing protags (like keeping Kaede around as I mentioned before) can help endear her to the audience, or just make her hatred of men less in your face if the pov character stays a boy, and then authors can either tone down her negative traits, have Himiko reciprocate any of her feelings (while she’s alive), or recognize it as a bad thing. Doing any one of those three things makes the problems go away almost instantly.

So as I said I’m conflicted on Tenko. I clearly have a lot of thoughts about her, and after working on several au’s that feature her (most notably the v3 remnant au) she’s getting dangerously close to blorbo status I’m not gonna lie, but I still don’t think I can’t actually say that I like her, despite how much I want to.

#enough people said they wanted to see my silly little essay so here it is! #I really would love to like Tenko #and I mean maybe I’ll come to later down the line #I didn’t start out liking Kiyo or Kaito all that much but now they’re blorbos lol #if people end up wanting to hear more of my thoughts on danganrompa stuff lmk cause I have an entire other essay waiting in my google docs #tiktoks made me nervous about like posting opinions #I know y’all are more chill but if this gets a ton of hate I’ll have to delete it which I don’t want to do #tenko chabashira #ndrv3 #danganronpa #Em’s Dangan-thoughts #I’ll use that tag for these like essay analysis things #danganronpa killing harmony