#i miss my brother

[solastia]

Nobody talks about the absolute GUILT you live with when someone you love is missing. Like, OH you're writing when you could be out there combing the streets every second looking for your brother?! You have the audacity to EAT when he could be out there starving? OMG, you're LAUGHING AT A MEME? YOU MONSTER!

Like, that's literally that narrative in my head every day now.

And the longer my brother has gone missing the more I wonder if this guilt just for living is going to stick around forever.

#missing person #I miss my brother #I hope he's okay #but I'm fearing the worst and I don't know how to cope with that

[drstarlight]

my brother's brother

The last two doors in that hallway

Are separated by a chasm a mile deep.

And there is dirt on our hands

And nobody taught us how to wash it off.

They gave me a shovel

And explained with soiled hands

how to dig

#poetry #I don't write poems often #but I wrote this one tonight #i miss my brother #we've never been close ever #and people often assume i am an only child when i speak to them #i don't know how to tell him i'm sorry

[honeymaecreations]

My brother stayed with me

On that Friday night

He didn’t go to his game

Or answer his phone

He watched Barbie movies and

Made us unlimited pizza rolls

My brother stayed with me

On that quiet Saturday

He didn’t go to a party

Or hang out with his friends

He spent it playing on the porch

Spinning me around again and again and again

My brother stayed with me

On that Easter Sunday

He didn’t leave my side

Or make fun of me once

He made sure I was happy and

Had the fullest basket of eggs by lunch

I know now why my brother wasn’t there to pick me up

On that Monday afternoon

Because I remember the red water

And the way I climbed in with him too

I held his lifeless body because

I was too young to know

What the red in the water meant

And how it’d forever stain my clothes

- honey may

#poetry #poetry by women #poetry by me #sibling grief #brother sister #grief #grief poetry #mental health awareness #mental heath support #mental health #sister brother #i miss my brother

[the-arcade-doctor]

for so long ive waited behind this wall. building up towers just to watch them fall. i'd give anything to see the other side... i want to see your eyes look back at mine.

#lyrics #fictionkin #i miss my brother

[scrawlingschizophrenic]

You’ve heard of people with schizophrenia refusing to accept their diagnosis, now get ready for: you’ve always been like this, you’ll always be like this, there is no reprieve -you only thought you were getting better.

Almost definitely tinged with delusions of some sort, but damn is it a crushing blow to start thinking that any bit of happiness you’ve felt in the past was created artificially by the same illness that makes you want to claw your goddamn brain out of your skull and smash it with a rock.

#schizophrenia #I miss my brother

[autism-crime]

I don’t know what it is with me and sibling relationships in media, but they always pull on my heartstrings so much. I’m not sure why. it might be because I have an older sibling.

It might be the complexity that comes with being a sibling. I am the youngest, and I always vividly remember copying the thing is my brother did.  I liked what he liked. I did what he did. I went where he went. And it’s weird now because he’s moved on in life, he’s at uni now and I am still at home with our mum.

 He’s had phases of being a bit of an arsehole to me. There’s been times where he’s been really judgemental and made me kinda hate myself for a bit, but he knows he fucked up, he knows that he hurt me and he’s apologised. He’s tried to fix what he broke. I love him to death. I do anything for him, I would take a bullet for him, and I know he would do the same for me, but at the same goddamn time, I would not share a packet of crisps with him.

And seeing all this kind of stuff, portrayed the media (obviously a bit exaggerated because, you know, it’s movies and shit)  I think it just makes me relate to the characters more because I can see myself in them I can sympathise.

Seeing Mara Sov and Crow’s relationship, kinda pulls on my heartstrings a lot because Mara majorly fucked up when it comes to her relationship with her brother. She hurt him badly, and she sees that, and she wants to fix it.

But at the same time Crow wants to distance himself from everything to do with Uldren. He wants to be a separate person from him, even though he does see that they are one in the same in someway, and that he can’t really fix that. I think he does want to have a relationship with her. I think he does want to see it fixed, but at the same time he needs to process everything.

I can really see me and my brother in their relationship. I mean minus all amnesia and paracausal entities and immortality, but aside from that I can really really sympathise with the whole situation. It’s weird that something so different from reality can just seems so familiar to me.

Anyway, I felt like rambling about siblings because I miss my brother. He’s cool and I haven’t seen him for awhile and I hope he’s doing okay.

#destiny 2 #mara sov #the crow destiny #uldren sov #sibling are so complex #i miss my brother #I felt like rambling sorry #this is the most I’ve written for a long time #destiny the game

[missmahgenta]

Ya know, I’ve been rambling a lot about about Vanessa Shelly/Afton since im hopeless when it comes to women and specially women like her (lol), but there’s something else itching my brain

That thing being Mike and Abby’s relationship. I wasn’t that close to my older brother due to personal reasons (nothing serious dw) yet the same time those two felt incredibly nostalgic to me. My brother is much older then me and was always very caring with me, even when I was being annoying lol (younger sibling shit, ya know). It still is like that nowadays, even though we are physically distant.

It makes me wish I had spent more time growing up with him. There are many things that I guess only him would understand as a sibling, stuff that you usually don’t share with your parents. I grew up quite lonely, and even while with friends at school, I still felt alone.

And afterwards, in a way I became the only child at home, and had to deal with the “older sibling family lore” shit, if you know what I mean. I was coddled hard while also having to grow up quickly and become emotionally self sufficient.

Idk, his situation makes me think so much. He has to be a father while never going through all the stages of growing up. I feel stunted like him, in a way. He has to be the adult, and wants to be the adult, but he’s not there yet, and the people around him see this.

I want to be a ‘grown up’, but I can’t. And any time I have the opportunity to be a ‘grown up’, I freeze. I want my parents. And I want them to let me be. I want to handle myself. I can’t handle my mistakes.

I wanted a brother to relate to. He probably wanted that to. Abby can’t be exactly his daughter, but she also can’t possibly fulfill a role of a sibling.

I guess we both missed integral parts when growing up, and now we are feeling the consequences.

#rambles #fnaf movie #fnaf #mike schmidt #abby schmidt #vent kinda #nostalgia #i miss my brother

[hatedmaggot]

i should apologize to everyone that knows me

#i miss my brother

[transgender-catboy]

I could survive the pool floors of the backrooms

#i wanna live there #and just. #float #I haven't been swimming in awhile. #i don't have anyone to go with #i miss my brother #we used to go to the rec center near our old place and go swimming all the time :(

[xxxlegodaddyxxx]

I sit awake at night waiting for your call.

I stare at my phone waiting for your message to come through.

I wait for that voicemail telling me you're coming back to town.

Memories of us walking around town being idiots, talking about life.

I hate that all I have left are memories of you.

I beg for you to visit me in my dreams.

I still wait for the day I get one more hug from you.

I miss you brother bear.

#Grief #Loved ones #lost #I miss you #I miss my brother #soft dom #Sad vibes #crying #daddy vibes #me #mine #lego-daddy-lxxiv #dd/bg #princess #daddy

[bearring]

Do you think we’re brothers in every universe.

#my art #digitalart #I’m crying #I’m rolling on the floor SOBBING #transformers art #twin twist #topspin #😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔 #I’m so upset #I wish I could sit in a field with my brother again … and share an orange and watch the sunset and laugh together again #I miss my brother #he’s like 11 and got me into transformers but now we don’t talk anymore

[chromas-terraria-shenanigans]

I think the thing that makes me not want to kill the Guide is that one of the names he had while in my world is Andrew, which also happens to be my brother's name.

#text post #terraria #i miss my brother #he and my sister stayed in florida when mom and i moved to west virginia

[p-ink-ink]

Happy birthday Connor.

This has been a day I’ve been dreading since you left. Thirty years old, a huge milestone birthday, and you’re not here to celebrate it with us. I miss you every day, and today even more than I thought possible.

You deserve to welcome your thirties with a party surrounded by love, family, friends, and fun. But you’re not here.

I find myself wondering if maybe you’re happy to stay twenty eight?

Young forever.

Immortalized in your twenties.

In the prime of your life, evermore.

We celebrate each birthday of yours down on earth but you don’t feel the aging now. I’m not sure exactly how it works where you are. But we miss you more than life itself. And every March we feel you even more. Your spirit is strong in the air. Nothing has been the same without you, and it never will.

All I want is for you to see how much you mean to all of us left on earth.

On your birthday, we’re sending you all the love we wish so badly we could show you in person. One day, I hope to be able to think of you and smile instead of cry, but its just so hard when we want you back so much. I love you Con, and I miss you so so much.

Here’s to thirty.

I hope it treats you well.

#grief #sibling loss #depression #grieving #i miss my brother #writing #spilled ink #birthday in heaven #I miss you #my brother

[the-arcade-doctor]

and i want to be like you, are the one light. i want to see your eyes looking back and into mine.

#i miss my brother

[kaizokuseb]

i don’t know how to explain that when i start watching how i met your mother, it means i’m doing very, very bad emotionally. i watched this series like ten times back to back after my nephew died. i haven’t seen it in years, but… my senior dog is becoming incontinent, which is worrying. i haven’t spoken to my brother in months, and i don’t know when i’ll be ready. my appointment with my new therapist was confirmed today, which means i’ll have to talk about all the feelings i’ve been repressing. it’s just a lot. and this show is like the security blanket that i only bring out at the worst possible times in my life. it’s a terrible show, but i need it.

#how i met your mother #no offense to anyone who thinks its a good show #tbh i really don’t. it’s often very offensive actually #but i guess it’s the nostalgia factor more than anything #doogie howser and willow rosenberg in the same show? awesome #there’s just something so deeply comforting about this show #maybe it’s just marshall idk #i miss my brother #i wish i could just forgive him and move past this but i can’t

[bruisedbodyshattereddreams]

I hated hearing you scream at your video game,

the loud music playing all through the night.

Now, I listen to the games theme on repeat.

The way you’d yell at me for eating your food,

those words will never be uttered here again.

You left without a goodbye, which isn’t surprising.

I just miss it.

-Sincerely, the little sister.

#This sucks. #siblings #big brother #this isnt deep #insane #girl blogger #vent #brother #nostolgia #:( sad #i miss my brother #he was so cool