what do people do to hang out with friends...? where do you go? like when you're doing something other than being at one of your houses. when you're outside or whatever the fuck. i heard people go to the mall or out to eat?? where do you go when you don't have money tho? going to the mall just sounds like sensory overload waiting to happen too.
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This fandom is honestly...
Like, there is something to be said about fandoms in general and how they've changed as a whole generally but
There's also something about how the acotar fandom is especially toxic like
The idea that a post is surprised a murder hasn't happened yet and I found myself agreeing??? Is honestly telling
Like, also. A massive part of this is shipping and maybe it's because I have my corner of this fandom, but even then shipping the "wrong" thing in general has become something I honestly have to take in consideration when thinking of my mental health and if I can personally be prepared for any backlash??
This fandom at large doesn't feel safe and that's majorly concerning tbh
Maybe instead of saying shippers as a group are doing harm, we should just disavow harmful actions in general and not be complicit in it idk???
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You realize that Surge has just... lost her motivation?
She was screaming about destroying the world when she first got the Dynamo Cage, but at this point she's just being casual about fueling her power addiction. She doesn’t mention being “superior” to Sonic. She doesn’t mention Starline. Because it doesn’t matter to her anymore.
Her and Kit just hollowly stare at each other before confronting Sonic and Tails, in an utterly emotionally broken state.
Look at them. They don't even want this. Any of this. They don't care about it at all.
Ian has literally said his view on this is that Surge can't let go of her hate, because it is literally her only identity. If she stands down in front of Sonic, if she gives up fighting him, she is an empty shell with no meaning and no purpose. And the same goes for Kit leaving Surge’s side. He is literally nothing without her.
At this point, their only motivation is spite. They just don't want Sonic to win.
And walking away, letting go, trying to find a new life, responding to what's happened to them in literally any healthy way, is what Sonic told them to do, ergo, it counts as Sonic winning.
After issue 56, regardless of Surge’s mental state, regardless of the fate of the Dynamo Cage, regardless of the status of the duo’s relationship, whichever way all this unfolds, I AM NOT GOING TO BE OKAY.
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Ok actual real goal of my forever is to build a life where I'm doing so many things daily (or regularly) that support my mental health that I no longer need antidepressants. I know they're essential to me for the time being cause the alternative is - not something I want to talk about - but I think with the right, highly focused combination of habits I can support myself drug-free.
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cptsd is so hard to predict and it makes it so much worse to manage. After a week of feeling like myself more and being more comfortable than I have for a while, I have one interaction that my brain views as similar enough to my trauma that it sends me into trauma response.
Now suddenly I am waking up shaking and hyperventilating because the flashback dreams are so real. Closing my eyes or relaxing in a room is so much harder with hyper vigilance telling me to be on high alert. Every creek in the house sends my heart racing and the world feels too bright and loud all the time.
I think it's hard for people to understand cptsd because it isn't simple to understand triggers. Being a dick as a joke or throwing something at a friend jokingly, all this shit may seem so simple to others but to people with ptsd it can be something our nervous system suddenly had to get involved with.
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the latest aita is making me sad. the teeth one. because like... when i was a kid, i was told to have braces! and that i'd need an eventual surgery! and because i didn't want to, my parents didn't make me.
that surgery would've changed my life. i'm not fucking kidding. i'm pretty sure 75% of my physical disabilities stem from not getting that surgery. and by the time i was able to bring up trying to have corrective work again, i was two years from losing my insurance, and my parents procrastinated. now it seems like a pipe dream it'll ever happen.
i get being resentful of your parents forcing you to do things you don't want to do, but god damn, if mine had actually really pushed me into getting braces, my life would be so much different and so much better.
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idk not to be a freak or anything but i am one sooo i’m starting to think i’ve been channeling dtamhd through my fucking psyche these last days
like i’ve been feeling OLD i’ve been feeling ANGRY i’ve been feeling OVERWHELMED with the sensation of having multilayered intense and repressed emotions that i can’t understand or process and has fucked with my self image since i was a literal child i am feeling the crisis guys
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