#i need to let it out

[pickletrip]

Am I disappointed in Phee? Yes.

He chose Jin and his life over Non, again. All because he felt guilty about everything that happened, but couldn't deal with the consequences. Phee never thought Tan could go insane from everything that happened? Are you kidding me? I'll give him the benefit of doubt, but Phee is okay with what Jin did? NON IS MISSING/DEAD. HIS PARENTS ARE BOTH DEAD. TAN IS ON A KILLING SPREE. PHEE IS ABLE TO PUT ALL THAT ASIDE FOR JIN?!?! I'm sure he didn't want anyone to die, but but..... these are the guys who caused Non's downfall. Looks like he is the forgiving type, so why didn't he forgive Non then.

Ugh. I'm just frustrated with Phee and I'm just spewing whatever comes to my head. I know there are no right or wrong answers in this situation.

I'm just extremely disappointed that Phee couldn't get with the program.

#dead friend forever #dff the series #phee x jin #phee x non #tan #new #I'm just saying whatever is on my mind #don't mind my anger #i need to let it out

[chelleztjs18]

Hi angst lovers! Anybody has painful angsty idea for me to write? Please give me, I need it.

I need to write angst but i dont know what to write, give me ur best n most hurtful angsty idea with Wanda, Lizzie or Nat, Scarlet Johansson please.

The more detailed the request is, the better.

I appreciate it!

Cheerio!

#chellez speaks #i need to write angsts #to cope #how i cope #i need to let it out #send me your thoughts #send me your request

[crownspeaksblog]

Did anyone who watched killing eve and gentleman jack actually cared about anything other the main focus of these shows which is the couples??!

Did anyone actually give a shit about the 12 in killing eve or the coal, the tenants, the servants, and the fucking annoying back and fourth with dividing the estate??!

Did anyone seriously anyone care about those things that took so much time away from the main focus of these two shows??!

Because i didn't.. especially because they didn't have a satisfying conclusion or any conclusion for that matter.

#i need to let it out #or else I'm not gonna stop thinking about it #gentleman jack #gentleman jack season 2 #killing eve #killing eve season 4 #villaneve #the ann(e)s #wlw shows

[shadebloopnik]

Meet Philiana, Daughter of Emperor Belos and Princess of the Boiling Isles.

She's a human child, washed up on the Boiling Isles as a newborn. By some series of events, a young 6 year old Hunter found her, and took her back to Belos. The Emperor took her in as his own daughter, hiding her away from most eyes like his own little piece of treasure from the human world. He named her Philiana.

Hunter is assigned to protect her, Belos making him promise to "protect her with his life" should the need arise. They grow close, and she sees him as her older brother, though he insists that he's just her guard, or cousin at most.

Philiana was sheltered even from most residents of the castle. Belos preferred that she had as little interaction with witchkind as possible. She is seen as quiet, timid, and behaved. With soft golden hair, and gentle blue eyes, Philiana has a neverending pure and innocent aura. Always an understanding little girl whose sweet, gentle words and bright eyes could reach any heart even within the cold palace walls. At her young age, she truly is the Empire's hidden treasure....or at least, she appeared to be.

But what if "innocent princess" isn't all there is to her?

#idk #really idl #all i know is i had the whole premise of this au for weeks now and have a book full of sketches #i need to let it out #she might seem mary sue-ish? #ahh who cares #this is 60% for MY entertainment #might write the fic tbh #amd i'll be MY OWN FIRST READER HECK YEA✨ #........yes i just really wanted to read this foc but cant cuz i made her up dammit- #stick around if anyone wants to rrad what's next lol #as for AU name im sticking with #Royal Sapling AU #the owl house #toh #hunter deamonne #emperor bitchalos #Philiana OC #my oc #toh oc #oc #au #toh aus #the owl house au #owl house au #hunter toh #my art #sketch #Philiana sorta means 'Lover of Mankind' btw

[vita-erit-amplio]

what does an ideal friendship feel like?

An ideal friendship feels like a place where you feel understood and can be you .

But most of the time ppl mistake an ideal friendship to be a destination, an end goal of sorts which leads to the friendships feeling like even tho you like them you feel suffocated.

the ideal Friend group is not a destination to reach, It is a home. And you don't stay inside a "Home" 24/7, it isn't meant for that. If it was it would be a House.

You leave your home, explore the world, and meet new people. to find new things all while knowing there is a place you can return to(home).

That is true friendship, not which holds you down but which sets you free, making sure that you know, that they care that they support you, and that you can trust them to help you fly again.

#friends #true friendship #deep thoughts #3am thoughts #i need to let it out

[ultravioletness]

I’ve been making gay knights (and ladies) collages on my phone at work

(Part two)

#gay knights #knight x knight #knightcore #medievalcore #pre raphaelite #john william waterhouse #haz asked me to post them #these are in the order that I made them and it’s not even all of them…. #I’ve been having feelings.. about knights and all of that #i can’t tag all the painters I don’t remember them all #the app I used is the one in the watermark #for all your phone background needs #that was my initial goal and then it spiraled out of control #hold on let me add some more silly tags

[stromblessed]

Mizu, femininity, and fallen sparrows

In my last post about Mizu and Akemi, I feel like I came across as overly critical of Mizu given that Mizu is a woman who - in her own words - has to live as a man in order to go down the path of revenge.

If she is ever discovered to be female by the wrong person, she will not only be unable to complete her quest, but there's a good chance that she'll be arrested or killed.

So it makes complete sense for Mizu to distance herself as much as possible from any behavior that she feels like would make someone question her sex.

I felt so indignant toward Mizu on my first couple watchthroughs for this moment. Why couldn't Mizu bribe the woman and her child's way into the city too? If Mizu is presenting as a man, couldn't she claim to be the woman's escort?

However, this moment makes things pretty clear. Mizu knows all too well the plight of women in her society. She knows it so well that she cannot risk ever finding herself back in their position again. She helps in what little way she can - without drawing attention to herself.

Mizu is not a hero and she is not one to make of herself a martyr - she will not set herself on fire to keep others warm. There's room to argue that Mizu shouldn't prioritize her quest over people's lives, but given the collateral damage Mizu can live with in almost every episode of season 1, Mizu is simply not operating under that kind of morality at this point. ("You don't know what I've done to reach you," Mizu tells Fowler.)

And while I still feel like Mizu has an obvious and established blind spot when it comes to Akemi because of their differences in station, such that Mizu's judgment of Akemi and actions in episode 5 are the result of prejudice rather than the result of Mizu's caution, I also want to establish that Mizu is just as caged as Akemi is, despite her technically having more freedom while living as a man.

Mizu can hide her mixed race identity some of the time, and she can hide her sex almost all of the time, but being able to operate outside of her society's strict rules for women does not mean she cannot see their plight.

It does not mean she doesn't hurt for them.

Back to Mizu and collateral damage, remember that sparrow?

While Mizu is breaking into Boss Hamata's manse, she gets startled by a bird and kills it on reflex. She then cradles it in her hands - much more tenderly than we've seen Mizu treat almost anything up to this point in the season:

She then puts it in its nest, with its unhatched eggs. Almost like she's trying to make the death look natural. Or like an accident.

You see where I'm going with this.

When Mizu kills Kinuyo, Mizu lingers in the moment, holding the body tenderly:

And btw a lot of stuff about this show hit me hard, but this remains the biggest gut punch of them all for me, Mizu holding that poor girl's body close, GOD

When Mizu arranges the "scene of the crime," Kinuyo's body is delicate, birdlike. And Mizu is so shaken afterward that she gets sloppy. She's horrified at this kill to the point that she can't bring herself to take another innocent life - the boy who rats her out.

MIZU'S ONE MOMENT OF SOFTNESS AND MERCY, COMING ON THE HEELS OF HER NEEDING TO KILL A GIRL TO SPARE HER THE WORST FATE THAT THIS RIGID SOCIETY HAS TO OFFER WOMEN, AND TO SPARE A BROTHEL FULL OF INNOCENT WOMEN WHO ARE THE CASTOFFS OF SOCIETY, NEARLY RESULTS IN ALL OF THEIR DEATHS

No wonder Mizu is as stoic and cold as she is.

And no wonder Mizu has no patience for Akemi whatsoever right before the terrible reveal and the fight breaks out:

Speaking of Akemi - guess who else is compared to a bird!

The plumage is more colorful, a bit flashier. But a bird is a bird.

And, uh

Yeah.

I like to think that Mizu killing the sparrow is not only foreshadowing for what she must do to Kinuyo, but is also a representation of the choice she makes on Akemi's behalf. She decides to cage the bird because she believes the bird is "better off." Better off caged than... dead.

But because Mizu doesn't know Akemi or her situation, she of course doesn't realize that the bird is fated to die if it is caged and sent back home.

Mizu is clearly not happy, or pleased, or satisfied by allowing Akemi to be dragged back to her father:

But softness and mercy haven't gotten Mizu anywhere good, recently.

There is so much tragedy layered into Mizu's character, and it includes the things she has to witness and the choices she makes - or believes she has to make - involving women, when she herself can skirt around a lot of what her society throws at women. Although, I do believe that it comes at the cost of a part of Mizu's soul.

After all, I'm gonna be haunted for the rest of this show by Mizu's very first prayer in episode 1:

"LET" her die. Because as Ringo points out, she doesn't "know how" to die.

Kind of like another bird in this show:

#blue eye samurai #mizu #akemi #kinuyo #bes #women are birds okay they are BIRDS #the let me die line is so SCARY AND SAD like a part of Mizu wants death but she cant? she doesnt know how?? excuse you show??? #when all these other delicate birds are dying all around her #akemis character gets more and more gutwrenching upon subsequent rewatches because whenever she says her life is in danger #NO ONE BELIEVES HER - certainly not other women #because shes rich and pampered and that means shes safe and is worrying about nothing right? right????? #and it turns out that all of akemis instincts were right and she was in danger the ENTIRE TIME #also I need to make a post just for kinuyo because I am sad

[time-woods]

you cant tell me he wasnt holding back any comments

#fionna and cake #fionna and cake spoilers #simon petrikov #this is why you dont let me doodle late at night cause i couldnt get this dumb idea out of my head #prismo the wishmaster #adventure time #they had no need to give him such a ass #like bro that junk in that trunk goin kutunk kutunk

[wombywoo]

retired 🩶

#call of duty #cod #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #soapghost #my art #listen this took me like two weeks so y'all better appreciate 🤌 #johnny is the super active DIY father of the family #simon has made his way through all of the miss marple mysteries and has now set his sights on naval fiction #also growing his fringe out to hide the early onset baldness #johnny has gorgeous hair but we knew that #the dogs are called roger and wee albert--guess which is which #yes they all sleep in the same bed~ #I guess I just need to see these two old and cranky and alive for whatever reason... #let them both burn in hell after a few good decades learning how to live beyond just surviving #god they probably make a banger pot roast....

[whetstonefires]

You know what I realize that people underestimate with Pride & Prejudice is the strategic importance of Jane.

Because like, I recently saw Charlotte and Elizabeth contrasted as the former being pragmatic and the latter holding out for a love match, because she's younger and prettier and thinks she can afford it, and that is very much not what's happening.

The Charlotte take is correct, but the Elizabeth is all wrong. Lizzie doesn't insist on a love match. That's serendipitous and rather unexpected. She wants, exactly as Mr. Bennet says, someone she can respect. Contempt won't do. Mr. Bennet puts it in weirdly sexist terms like he's trying to avoid acknowledging what he did to himself by marrying a self-absorbed idiot, but it's still true. That's what Elizabeth is shooting for: a marriage that won't make her unhappy.

She's grown up watching how miserable her parents make one another; she's not willing to sign up for a lifetime of being bitter and lonely in her own home.

I think she is very aware, in refusing Mr. Collins, that it's reasonably unlikely that anyone she actually respects is going to want her, with her few accomplishments and her lack of property. That she is turning down security and the chance keep the house she grew up in, and all she gets in return may be spinsterhood.

But, crucially, she has absolute faith in Jane.

The bit about teaching Jane's daughters to embroider badly? That's a joke, but it's also a serious potential life plan. Jane is the best creature in the world, and a beauty; there's no chance at all she won't get married to someone worthwhile.

(Bingley mucks this up by breaking Jane's heart, but her prospects remain reasonable if their mother would lay off!)

And if Elizabeth can't replicate that feat, then there's also no doubt in her mind that Jane will let her live in her house as a dependent as long as she likes, and never let it be made shameful or awful to be that impoverished spinster aunt. It will be okay never to be married at all, because she has her sister, whom she trusts absolutely to succeed and to protect her.

And if something eventually happens to Jane's family and they can't keep her anymore, she can throw herself upon the mercy of the Gardeners, who have money and like her very much, and are likewise good people. She has a support network--not a perfect or impregnable one, but it exists. It gives her realistic options.

Spinsterhood was a very dangerous choice; there are reasons you would go to considerable lengths not to risk it.

But Elizabeth has Jane, and her pride, and an understanding of what marrying someone who will make you miserable costs.

That's part of the thesis of the book, I would say! Recurring Austen thought. How important it is not to marry someone who will make you, specifically, unhappy.

She would rather be a dependent of people she likes and trusts than of someone she doesn't, even if the latter is formally considered more secure; she would rather live in a happy, reasonable household as an extra than be the mistress of her own home, but that home is full of Mr. Collins and her mother.

This is a calculation she's making consciously! She's not counting on a better marriage coming along. She just feels the most likely bad outcome from refusing Mr. Collins is still much better than the certain outcome of accepting him. Which is being stuck with Mr. Collins forever.

Elizabeth is also being pragmatic. Austen also endorses her choice, for the person she is and the concerns she has. She's just picking different trade-offs than Charlotte.

Elizabeth's flaw is not in her own priorities; she doesn't make a reckless choice and get lucky. But in being unable to accept that Charlotte's are different, and it doesn't mean there's anything wrong with Charlotte.

Because realistically, when your marriage is your whole family and career forever, and you only get to pick the ones that offer themselves to you, when you are legally bound to the status of dependent, you're always going to be making some trade-offs.

😂 Even the unrealistically ideal dream scenario of wealthy handsome clever ethical Mr. Darcy still asks you to undergo personal growth, accommodate someone else's communication style, and eat a little crow.

#hoc est meum #pride and prejudice #elizabeth bennet #charlotte lucas #meta #charlotte is a much less sociable person than lizzie #so avoiding her husband most of the time and not seeking out his company is more viable for her! #she also has more patience for people being wrong #partly i think because she kinds checks out and lets them get on with it which lizzie isn't too great at even with her mother #people have different needs like that's a thing okay #marriage #spinsterhood #pragmatism #like if elizabeth had to listen to collins talk for a few months straight she would be nearly insane with rage #he's not just a low-quality man he's a man designed to be the worst for her specifically #also note that because jane's marriage is elizabeth's fallback plan #darcy screwed her over personally by interfering between her and bingley #she ofc does not bring this up how could she #but it's intensifying the anger during the hunsford rejection i think

[strwbrymocha]

I just want to be home. Except I don’t know what home is anymore. I want to be safe again. I’m so tired. So tired of lying to everyone. Pretending to be okay and fun with everyone. Just who am I anymore? I’ve built so many walls, so many personas and I’ve held the knife backwards so many times. I’ve stabbed my own heart over and over till I bled out. Now I’m not sure if I’m alive or is this just a dream? Is this a good dream or a bad one?

#please come and take me away #i just can't #i just needed to say this #i need a hug #i need you #i need to cry #i need to let it out #i need a minute #i need to close my eyes and for you to be there when I open them #i cant do this

[pseudopigeons]

started watching the silly little pirate show

#one piece #roronoa zoro #monkey d. luffy #zolu #they mean so much to me #i wanted to get caught up to east blue by the time the live action came out #am currently on episode 91 #anyways one piece oomfies let yourself be known #i need to follow more one piece artists

[jaxxsoxxn]

Going tomorrow to the pride for the first time, so am feeling a lil excited even tho it's,, silly huh

But also in high mood since I've gotten my first kiss in DAI (dragon age inquisition) and it was,, uh, unexpected in the best way :) really fun game, tho am a bit too dumb for it

#Just chatting #I need to let it out #Ya kno?

[erabu-san]

#my art #genshin impact #genshinimpact #furina #furina genshin impact #genshin impact furina #i have no caption #one day I will draw her happy 😭 #but she needs to let her emotion out and be sad now that she has the right to be sad #REST WELL FURINA

[cruelsister-moved2]

for real! (from kadji amin)

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What I've realized is that I believe that the matter of gender is practical and relational. It's not about who you are inside, it's more about how you would feel most comfortable in the world. It's not 'Who are you?' but 'How do you want to live?'

Had that been the discourse when I was coming up, I would have breathed a sigh of relief. I don't have to figure out who I am on the inside, I just have to figure out how I want to live.

end of ID]

#and I kind of felt really sad when they were talking about how like they feel in some ways figuring yourself out is way harder now #bc there is this pressure to like figure out who u Really Are Inside #and instead of being like well maybe my identity goes far beyond gender and like i don't need to find some microlabel #in order to like define who is Me #it's become very fixated on like categorising ur gender rejection in a way that ends up just. making even more genders to constrain u #it's hard to summarise it was like v wordy but I thought this part was so true #for sexuality as well not to tack it on but we have really gotten into the same mindset w sexuality now as well #THANK U @VAKAVANHASAATANA for the ID it wont let me @ you in the text </33