#i want to be one of these snails

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[skygoldart]

Grian cosplay on the way! In the meantime, I’ve made some snails to go with it

#grian cosplay #grian #snail #snails are taking over my room and I want to make the pink one too #this is the first plushie I’ve ever sewn #I love it #does the snail have a name #hermitcraft #plushies #sewing #skygoldcosplaywip

[lucalicatteart]

 sculpted a strange shimmery two headed snail, speckled with wild flowers on it's shell~

#sculpture #snail #fantasy art #I have never sculpted or even drawn a snail before #so hopefully the anatomy is not incredibly off #(though if so.. I guess it could also just pass as further Strange Magical Mutations lol) #It doesn't show up as well in the photo but the shell has some irridescent eyeshadow on it so it kind of alternates a little warm #red and teal as you move it. #Made for an art contest on a game that I play lol (I wouldnt normally think to sculpt a snail on my own if it werent part of a #prompt) but I do kind of like the way it came out.. sort of.. #Perhaps a real creature that exists in Nanyevimi (my worldbuilding setting) in some capacity then.. hrmm #also in relevance to this blog i DO STILL WANT TO finish the story with the little adventurer... goursh I have just had so much going on.. #all of my little side projects like that have fallen away for so long. I really want his advneture to reach a tiny conclusion though #And shout out to that one person that always reblogged them and left nice comments in the tags also.. :'3 #Poll Adventures.... not over... simply was on temporary evil hiatus due to Me Feeling Sick Constantly All Summer and so on and so forth #aughhh.. woe and agonyyy *dramatically drops to my knees in the middle of a rain storm like some tragic movie scene #kneeling into the cold earth as i cradle the half-living bodies of all of my half-finished creative projects in my arms* #ANYWAY... lol..... erm.. snail time

[fanaticsnail]

Pertaining to Sapsorrow, will we ever get to see the sun dress *ahem* in action?

The moon must rise before the sun shines above the horizon.

The next chapter of Sapsorrow is the dance of courtship between Mihawk and his governess, courtesy of the Clown adhering to the traditions of Kuraigana. Mihawk never got the opportunity to woo his bride, and now he must in order to win her favour. Thanks, Clown.

The following chapter will be the tying and untying of the sensual sundress: tied by a blindfolded Benn Beckman, and hopefully untied by Mihawk - if there's no complications that has him losing all composure and cut the damn thing off.

But rest assured, dear anon. More is to come for this tale.

(I have been swamped a little in my personal life, and I want to make sure it's perfect before posting! It is coming, I promise 🖤)

#one piece #x reader #opla #opla fic #storyteller au #one piece storyteller au #sapsorrow au #mihawk #mihawk x reader #dracule mihawk #mihawk sapsorrow fic #snail update #ask snail #snail answers #I'm sorry it's taking so long #I don't want to disappoint you!

[flovoid]

when he is the son of a fairy & bigfoot..🐌

my entry for "simblr adventuring guild" by @buttertrait !!!

#simblr adventurers guild #he is veryyy reliable and can help in lifting while in a adventure #that lil snail is his childhood pet (its actually talks- a wise one too) #idk what to name him (I imagine smth sweet since his mum is a fairy) #if there is anything pinkish or colorful its from his dear mum as well #also I hate how this is the limit of his feets size I WANT IT BIGGER- #sims 4 #ts4 #simblr #ts4 cas #cas!

[kedreeva]

I think she's getting ready to molt again, she's made her hammock much bigger than before and has sealed herself in as of 2 days ago. If she's successful, it will be one of her last molts, as once they are adults, they don't molt anymore.

I have her adult enclosure set up and waiting.

#spider #spiders #jumping spider #arachnid #arachnids #my pets #willow #She's already big I can't wait to move her into her adult enclosure #I need to add some springtails from my snail enclosure #and I want to swap one of the mosses out for more of the tinier mosses #I think I like the tighter mosses better

[dogtoling]

Fellas I did NOT know what to draw for this theme.

#dodo art #dodo ocs #splatoon #splatoon oc #splatfest #played this one out of obligation i just Want the Snails. didnt enjoy it much #cyantide #sweet beak bakery #deep sea dead zone

[dailykugisaki]

Day 104 | id in alt

*Kugisaki voice* Itadori, your mom is a fucking freak.

#dailykugisaki #jjk #kugisaki nobara #itadori yuji #kenjaku #my extension #geto suguru #Kenjaku going down to get a new favorite one of Itadori's friends since junpei died #She likes the ones that are just a little wack #im sorry that motherly shit cannot be extracted #immediately started shaking the nearest kid and the favoritism shined through #treating a random ass girl decently by kenjaku standards than choso bc i think its funny #plus gege just got scared by how many interactions Kugisaki could make interesting i just find it funny #this one is for my one mutual. and the fact i kinda wanted to see what drawing kenjaku would be like #gege fumbled the bag but i dont plan on not grabbing the bag myself #gege dosent know how to properly write a fucked up mother #contrary to popular belief #i do enjoy kenjaku talking and i think xey should talk more actually we haven't milked all the information and interactions outta her yet #also the one glimpse of Kenjakus pupil i based off of the parasite that takes over snails! I thought itd be funny #*cracks knuckles and starts weeping about typing out the id* #yes i use neo pronouns she/he/they/it pronouns for kenjaku. yes i will continue to so unless i am told it is wrong #if i am told it is wrong i will change my shit IMMEDIATELY #i hope i characterized kenjaku correctly #i think i should open asks....

[hiatus-queen72]

You can’t tell me this wouldn’t be a cute hat on me.

#me #cute #girl #love #selfie #fashion #photo #brown hair #blue eyes #hot #cowgirl hat low key #getting one for sure this summer #I’m watching One Piece still (I’m a very I want to savor it kind of gal) and I’m in the land of Wano and I’m getting scared about not having #more episodes to watch soon #will I be starting it over and watching it again? yes #anyways that’s my rant #I touched a tadpole today #guess I wasn’t done actually #it was so cute! I wanted to hold it but refrained and just watched them swim around! #I saw two different species of aquatic snail also! all in one little pond! #I also got to see a bug walk on the surface tension of the water which was so cool #okay now I’m done

[l3irdl3rain]

May we see Josie?

Also what size tank is she in and do you have any plans for a second tarantula or invertebrate in general? If so what species?:D

Josie is in a 15 gallon! I feel like it’s a really good size to allow her to move around and give her everything she needs while also being easy to clutter in a way that makes her feel safe. Ignore her water dish full of dirt, apparently she did some redecorating yesterday.

I love keeping Josie and would love to keep more inverts in the future. There’s nothing in particular that I’ve researched a ton, but just things that I’ve seen here and there and thought “maybe someday”. No immediate plans for anything though.

I’d love to try out caring for more tarantulas. But I’m also interested in various scorpions, giant African millipedes, and blue feigning death beetles. Other creepy crawlies interest me too, those are just some off the top of my head

EDIT: also jumping spiders!!! I want one so very bad

#if giant African land snails were legal to own here I would have to have one #my post #Josie #tw bug #tw spider #tw tarantula #cw bug #cw spider #cw tarantula #tw insect #cw insect #I’ve done my due diligence. if you don’t want to see Josie pls make sure to block one / all of these tags

[fanaticsnail]

Babe, at this point, just take the playlist:

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6aGOhPb0p8MAyAyXxuvOdH?si=2TKkcJExTnaguNCqx6bUVQ&pi=u-B9AJuWw1QtCE

OOOOOOOOH MORE SONGS!! Thank you, you absolute darl! Always up for some new tunes to loop while I write! I'm loving the Ricky Montgomery on there.

This song: Maple Syrup - The Backseat Lovers.

It gives me Dad Donquixote Rosinante and Son Trafalgar Law. Especially the "Your purple sweater is sitting in my living room. I tried to wear it, but I knew that it would smell like you." I know it's comes across as a breakup, but I can hear it as the loss of a parent too. Or maybe something else entirely.

For example:

Imagine Law keeping his dad's crusty, old, dark-feathered coat and trying it on. Imagine him applying his face paint in the mirror to see what he'd look like donning it. Imagine him breaking down when the memory of his adoptive dad's age sinks in, knowing he'd never see what he'd look like older. Imagine Law's turmoil at the fact his birthday is rapidly approaching, finally lapping the age Rosinante was when he perished.

Imagine him being so overwhelmed by the despair that all who he holds close could slip away at any moment. Imagine him hearing "I love you, Law," and picturing his dad's face as he lay broken, riddled with bullets and bleeding out in the icy snow.

Imagine Law looking in the mirror again with tear-soaked eyelashes, wiping the paint from his face with his wrist and forearm - only for his glassy eyes to get a glimpse of blonde in the corner of the reflection.

The memory of a smile, the scent of tobacco, the shuffle of clumsy feet, the taste of rum tinting the air, and finally fully seeing the hooded red hat crowning a silent man sitting completely still and waiting in the corner of the room.

Is he back? Surely that's impossible.

#ask snail #snail answers #one piece #trafalgar law #Trafalgar law drabble #thoughts running away with me #he lives au? #Donquixote Rosinante #this is what i mean when i say i want to write for law - but his pretty dad is RIGHT there #donquixote corazon

[doubledyke]

man courage the cowardly dog plushies are almost as fucked up looking (affectionate) as eene plushies

#im not really a plushie person but im so depressed i need a hug from that little pink dog 😔 i love him so much #there aren't a ton of licensed ones and the handmade ones are cute but are always really small #there was a gary the snail plush at a thrift store recently that i wanted but it had PLASTIC EYES..... and one of them was fuckin broken #i'd still love an eene plush but whatever i'll just have to make do with my eddy cube #my roommate saw him sitting on my bookshelf the other day and was like “...what the fuck is that” lmfaooooo he's so jealous of my swag

[echoesofadream]

so many books on my tbr and also so many books i have started but not finished and im thinking about reading dostojevskij instead

#yes it IS to get closer to theo #i felt this way when i read tgf last time too. and read like first 100 pages of the idiot actually but then stopped bc illiteracy etc #but im thinking i should take advantage of this desire to get to know my theo more personally and read some russian literature #just like he in turn read it to get closer to boris #swag #i should! im rlly close to finishing little women #eel book may wait #other books may wait as welll #and the goldfinch will be like my bible now i read it on a whole othr dimension #will keep it on my nightstand and read excerpts for the rest of my life wont stop me from reading other books #that is if i get it for my birthday (doubtful but i will wish for it). i only have the same library copy now as i had in 2019 #(as in i borrowed again didnt steal it from the library promise) i never buy books but if i am to own one it should be this one #i read at a snails pace but want to read so many things this is difficult but lets not stress it should a fun thing not stressful #if i read a little everyday or try to #then 'completing books' and checking them off my list and feeling idk productive/accomplished or something doesnt matter #it will be like a lifelong open book instead #if that makes sense #that ill never be done with #and thats fun

[azurecitrus]

Oh god the tumblr girlies are gonna go insane when they find out that Jonathan Harker’s hair turns white from the trauma halfway through the novel. Like just screaming and crying and rattling the bars. Good for them! Good for them!

#Dracula daily #Dracula #Dracula spoilers #I guess??? #there’s gotta be at least one person who wants to avoid those #I’m so fucking happy my boy is finally getting the attention he deserves #we love a pathetic but well-meaning horror protagonist with the spice tolerance of a snail being dipped in salt