#i want to write again. i miss it a lot i havent been able to write in months now

[silverislander]

i have 7 assignments, total, left in school. once i finish those i'm going to be done- i graduate in may which is WILD to think about. i just have to fucking do them

#im not getting anything done today so far and its like. midway through the afternoon already #and i realized how close i am to graduating and how i have no idea what comes after that and now im just kind of directionlessly panicked #which is. really helping the situation as you could imagine /s #im really close to finishing a couple of things rn. could get at least one done today #i REALLY need to get to work on my essay bc that largely determines whether i get honours and im pretty behind schedule on it #and i havent looked at at least one final assn and i do NOT have much time left to start it. its not small #theres barely any time left in the semester at all #i just need to finish Smth today #levi.txt #i cant make myself do anything and im panicked abt that which makes it impossible to do anything #and taking breaks makes me feel guilty AND panicked so i cant even reset w a short break and come back #my parents Consistent response to my anxiety has been. poor at best. and they dont believe i have adhd at all #so if i talk to them abt either of those things they get upset w me and claim i just dont want to take their 'advice' so i cant be helped #and the advice is shit like 'dont feel that way' and 'simply go do your work' #like. i talked to my mom abt how stressed i feel bc im behind and her response was basically 'thats what you get for falling behind' #i havent seen my friends in a while either or at least not in an environment where we can actually hang out and talk #idk man. i just really wish i could stay in bed and watch a show and not feel sick bc of how anxious i am abt it all #i want to write again. i miss it a lot i havent been able to write in months now

[relativelyfvcked]

"basim isnt a warrior so be careful" is a funny way of saying "we didnt give a fuck about the combat so all of your controls feel unresponsive"

#parrying in all of the other games in this era were fine. what happened? #also this is basically an extended dlc and you can feel it in the writing. its such a nothingburger #its a stealth game where if you try to nudge your character they take 5 extra movements forward and get spotted immediately. very cool. #the parkour sucks and is now more restricted #what origins and odyssey did that felt so good was being able to pick your spot and go from there #ppl complain that there werent Any stealth elements but thats just how You decide to play it babey #i miss the Actual freeclimbing ability as in i'm not railroaded into using fucking handholds on long climbs. the parkour is simply not good #enough to do that nor is it interactive enough for me to want to be forced to do that #i'd like the setting more if the freerunning and climbing felt better ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #its next to impossible to get into a good grove. even to get one clean line without randomly jumping off or getting pulled to an unrelated #wall/object. it probably felt better in origins/odyssey because it was so much more open but still closed when in fortresses and such #also? the chain assassination suck. not nearly as fun as being able to chain your own actions #but all of this makes sense when you know that 1. this was originally a valhalla dlc and 2. it was made with the intention of being #ported to ipad. of all fucking things. #whatever i guess im just waiting for the next era cuz thats when the games end up being good again #pretty bummed. especially bc i played thru all of valhalla and didnt like it and am now going through basically an ac1 remake pasted onto #valhalla assets. #and tbh there isnt enough to do in a map this large even though its smaller. ik other people dont like fetch quests but it at least gives me #a reason to go to other areas where like. i havent even been outside the city bc it hasnt set me there. i dont want to just aimlessly wander #i have a lot of issues w this game but i'll shut up now

[acesofspadess]

This Is The Voice

a/n: everyone needs some more Niall

summary: you're the mega mentor, and Niall doesn't know that

“This is the last knockouts ill ever get to coach and im really excited because our mega mentor this season is one of the greatest singers and people of all time.”

“Shes a legend in the industry.”

“She is an EGOT”

“So the mega mentor this season is……… Y/N L/N! Or Horan to Niall”

BLAKE

“Well this like a full circle moment for me. You were here as Adams advisor in the first season and now you are mega mentor in my last season.” blake looked down at 29 year old you who was reminiscing. “What does that say about our relationship.”

“That whenever you're here I lose.” you laughed at him as he shook his head. “You let yourself lose to an 18 year old Blake.” his eyes widdend at that, “Oh man, i forgot you were only 18. I feel so old. And now your married too.” he shook his not wanting to think about it any more.

—-----

KELLY

“You still havent seen Niall yet?” Kelly and you had a moment to chat before the artist came in. “no and I feel so bad. I've been super slow on my answers to his text. I just want to hold him.”

I've know Y/N since she was around 18, we got to perform together in Vegas almost 12 years ago.

“Im so glad it's Blake’s last season. Hes just had a very good vibe.” Kelly filled you on some behind the scenes.

“Oh thats good, he really can be a pain sometimes.

And I've also been able to work with her and tour with her and learn from her. Shes so young and has taught a lot of artist with singing and being on stage. I love that all these artist are gonna get that same experience today.

—---------

CHANCE

There was a knock on your dressing room door and you opened it to see Chance. “Y/N!” He cheered as he opened his arms up for a hug. You laughed and thanks the heavens you werent wearing heavy makeup as he was wearing white. 

Y/N… shes a legend in the industry. Grammy award winning artist.

“And when was the last time i saw you?” you laughed at his question. “Probably Grammy’s 2020…?” he shook his head, “how could i foget miss album of the year.

Her being a top tier artist for so long and having so many experiences is something that we could all grow from. 

After Chance had run down his artist for you, you waited for them to come in and laughed at whispers you heard. “Well hello there, I love your hair.” you told Nariella whose hair was similar to your ginger colour. “I actually got the idea from you.” you both laughed and whispered an ‘i like you already’. 

I just think its so amazing for her to be here and represent black women and girls. Shes definitely someone i look up to.

—---------

NIALL

It was finally time to see your love. Niall was supposed to be meeting Riley… but you didnt let that happen. You were facing the camera, your back facing the direction Niall would walk through. 

“Riley Tate-”

You turned around at the sound of his voice and he immediately stopped talking. “Hi love.” you  were smiling so hard at his reaction to seeing you before he scooped you up in a hug and twirled youn around.

“Why are you here- wait. Your da mega mentor?” his accent was thicker because of the surprise and you loved it. 

I mean to work with Y/N L/N the queen of pop… im getting goose bumps thinking about it now, its just amazing being in her presence 

Thats your wife Niall

Say it again 

“Well now that your here i was going to ask you if you wanted to come to a golf course with me.” Niall had his head on her shoulder and he could feel the laugh that came from her at his words.

Shes an absolute legend, and she teaches me something everyday, i cant wait for her to teach my team.

~~~~~~~~~~

“Alright love, Gina, shes really shy, reminds me of you when you came to write for the band.”

Niall laughed his beautiful laugh as you hid your face in your hands. “Don't remind me.”

“You might have to tell her to speak up.” you nodded at the information and were ready to see her. “And then she sings, and a different person comes out, a lot like you.” you cooed at his comparison seeing how much Gina meant to Niall.

“Now Kates kinda got the jazzy, Amy Winehouse-y vibe.” you ‘oo’ed’ at the information. “Lets see what they got.”

You watched as they walked around the corner and saw them subtly freak out at seeing you. You got up from your seat with the help of Niall(not that you needed it but he always held his hand out for you).

“Look who ive got!” Niall cheered from behind you as the girls gave you hugs.

I saw the ginger hair and Niall leaning on her and was like- please… ITS Y/N”

“How are you?” you asked hugging them both.

I was not expecting Y/N to be in the room with Niall. I was very starstruck.”

“Im gonna sing ‘somebody that i used to know’,” Gina shared her song and you marvelled at the softness of her voice. “Im very close to my dad, and he was a DJ and that was a song he always loved.”

“Thats beautiful Gina truly.”

Listening too her sing brought chills to your skin. 

You cheered as she finished and let Niall say what you know hes been holding in.  “And that sass that youve got this week.” Niall admired with a little laugh. “Really?” you loved how she went from this marvellous singer to this soft spoken girl. “I wasnt expecting that.” Gina thanked Niall before she looked at you and you shook your head.

“You gave me chills seriously, the only thing is ‘for lack of better wording’ understanding your words.” you watched as she took the advice and applauded her silently knowing if you were in her possician you would have certainly started crying.

“Yeah keep those words separate. Its very easy to go-” and you watched as he broke off his words in example. “You know what I mean. So give your self a bit of space.”

“I like that bub. I like that a lot.” 

You listened to him sing the words slowly and closed you eyes in sereness. “That staccato.” you pitched in. “her first audition to right now,” he looked at you threading his fingers with yours, “completley diffrent person.” you laughed softly squeezing his had. “I was just like you when i started, you can ask him.” he kissed your temple lightly in admiration, “she still is. Cant give her a compliment without her hiding away. Huh, beautiful?” you did as he knew you would and tucked your face into his neck. “See.” 

You turned your head to watch Gina and Kate play fight as theu swapped places. “I really wish you guys liked each other.” you joked sitting up properly. “I know so much hatred in here.” Niall joked back with you adjusting in his seat. “Its just awful.” Niall lost it, throwing his head back in laughter, letting you hear his laugh again. That would always be your favourite song. 

~~~

“Ooh we've got a guitar.” you saw the shaped guitar and immediately fell in love. “Its my baby.” Kate spoke. “Gonna have to get me self one just like that,” you all laughed before Niall looked at the gap between your seats and pulled your seat closer to his. You grabbed his hand and kissed it before looking back up at Kate. “what song are gonna sing love.” you asked as Niall sat back in his seat. “Im singing ‘Call Me’ by Blondie.”

“Oh lets hear it.” 

Kate had the stage presence of a lifetime. “Very good!” you clapped proudly. “Thank you.” you smiled as Niall began to speak. “My favourite parts are when its chilled.” You agreed with him softly as he continued to speak. “Dont stay with the-” Niall sang in a high pitch for example and you nodde your head. “Towards the end it gets a bit crashy for me. I wonder if there's a way of toning it down?” he looked to you for advice. “Tone down the crashing for more like ‘TOMS’ or something like that?” you offered and he took it. “Yeah so we can offer some more jazziness.” he agreed while drumming in the air, “you wanna come back up Gina?” You smiled widely hearing the softness and joy in his voice when he talked to her. “Im thrilled to pieces. I asked a really close friend of mine when were younger, who is now very successful, what is the best piece of advice you can give me. He said ‘have fun’. So i hope your having fun and getting to meet people that youll remain friends with forever.”

You watched Gina and Kate turn to each other and you hugged yourself. “Awwe that makes me so happy.” Niall grabbed your hand and held it in the air. “And one day you might marry them.” you all laughed before Niall spoke up again. “You're the best ladies.” you watched as they walked away and Niall rested his head on shoulder again. “I love you. You're amazing.”

“I love you too Ni.”

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Niall taglist:

@youcan-nolonger-run @ravenclawdirectioner

@luxiorchive @maeflowers653

#nialler #cute niall #niall horan x reader #niall horan fluff #niall horan fanfiction #niall horan #niall horan smut #niall fanfic #niall one shot #one direction #solo niall #niall 1d #niall james horan #niall horan fic #niall the show #niall horan x y/n #niall imagine #niall horan x you #the show 2024

[babeydollx]

4k Followers Celebration | Maybanks-Luver

Celebration is: closed.

4k Followers Masterlist

Wow, I cannot believe that I have made it to 4k followers! Thank you guys so much for supporting me and reading my work, I really appreciate it so much! Y'all mean the world to me and I love you guys so much. So, of course as promised about a month or two ago when I originally hit 4k followers, I said I do a celebration with prompts and now it's finally here. So, I'll only be writing for the people on the characters I write for list right now but, new fandoms are coming really soon so, stay tuned for that too! Now for the prompts, you can only pick two, if there is more than two then I'm only going to use two of the however many prompts there were requested because at the moment I can't put a lot of prompts into one fic. So please, respect the two limit rule but, I am sure you all will 🥰💛

Characters I write for here (its not added yet but I also write for Mike Schmidt, William Afton, Michael Afton, Henry Emily and Vanessa Monroe from FNAF just havent been able to add it yet.)

Request Time: February 11th to February 18th 2024

💛💐 Smut Prompts 💐💛

"Do I look like I'm messing around? Do I look like I won't punish you?"

"That's it princess, take it all."

"Hands behind your back."

"Open your mouth for me, baby."

"You can take it, you've done it before."

"I won't apologize for marking you up. Everyone should know you're mine."

"Keep those pretty eyes open. Look at me, baby."

"Swallow. All of it."

"Come on one more time for me, I know you've got it in you."

"Spread your legs for mommy/daddy, I want to see you."

"Slowly, baby, I'm not going anywhere."

"What makes you think I am going to fuck you?"

"Holy shit, you came pretty quickly."

"Show me how much you missed me."

"Don't think so much, just let your body take control."

"Shall we put that mouth of yours to better use?"

"Looking at you, moaning like a fucking slut for me."

"You know what happens when you misbehave."

"No one's ever touched me like this, fuck."

"Oh, baby, you're drooling everywhere."

"I want it. I want to taste you."

"Again! Please, again!"

"So good for me, look at how much you came."

"You like it that much, hm?"

“You know I’m holding back from fucking you over this kitchen counter, don’t push your luck.”

💛💐 Fluff Prompts 💐💛

"You look really good in my clothes."

"You look so adorable, baby."

"I just want to relax in your arms."

"Make a wish!"

"I could just stare at you forever." "Creep."

"You are the most beautiful being on earth."

“What are you doing?” “I was trying to make pancakes but it didn’t exactly work."

“.... Sorry, I talked too much.” “No no no not at all. Keep talking.”

"Get on my shoulders, you'll see better."

"Is that- is that a dog?"

"Let's go and look at the stars."

"Oh my god, you never told me you could cook!"

"I never thought I could miss someone this much."

"You're my new pillow."

"Wow, you are absolutely breathtaking."

"Yeah well, you're short."

"I can't stop thinking about you."

"You're such a jackass." "But I'm your jackass, baby."

"You are the only thing that matters to me."

"I just want to protect you from everything."

"You're going to be such a good mom/dad."

"If you even try to tickle me one more time I swear you will not get a kiss for a week."

"I don't want to forget this moment."

"Here's a concept... me and you married."

"I bought you dinner, baby."

Again, thank you all so much for getting me to 4k followers! I appreciate you all so much!

#4k #4k followers #4k followers celebration #celebration #followers celebration #prompts #fics #my fics #writing prompts #smut prompts #fluff prompts #yammy's fics #yammy's 4k followers celebration #obx #outerbanks #outer banks #tvd #tvdu #the vampire diaries #the vampire diaries universe #vampire diaries #supernatural #euphoria #stranger things #st #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #five nights at freddys #ftws #fate: the winx saga

[daedalusdavinci]

Eridave Fic Recs

im 99% sure ive already offered my fic recs for eridave but im going to do it again. i havent gone through the tag in a couple of years and it seems like its gotten more popular than it was back in the day, but heres my list of top fics

Lee Shore

by JumpingJackFlash (@jumpingjacktrash on tumblr i think?)

"I asked Egbert to ask you if you have Ampora's new contact information." "No, man, I didn't even know the old info was old. How can you not have a contact for him? It's not like he changed his chumhandle, email, and phone number all at once." "As a matter of fact, that is apparently exactly what he did. And deleted his Facebook and his photo blog." "Dramariffic." In the years after the game, the twelve trolls and eight humans have tried to stick together, because no one else would understand. When Eridan misses one of their yearly reunions, Dave makes an impulsive decision to go find him.

starting off so strong with THE eridave fic. i have reread this one very recently actually so i can tell you w complete confidence that this is the best one. this is THE one. if you only ever read one eridave fic make it this one. and then come back and read mine no but like im being so real rn its so good. eridans pretentious and a dickwipe and juuust whiny enough and daves complete no bullshit attitude with him works so well. their dynamic is peak in this, like. its everything.

Prince Unicorn (If There's Anything More Important Than My Ego Around, I Want It Caught And Shot Now)

by spritezee

After years spent mastering his job-hopping skills on the interplanetary level, a combination of chance and fortunate family ties lands one Dave Strider a job as a personal bodyguard to Eridan Ampora, prince and heir to an almost unparalleled fiscal empire. He assumes it’ll be just another job he’ll be able to leave behind when the time comes, another story to tell on slow nights where the man with the most tales is the king of the universe, but as all things in life, nothing is ever quite that simple.

spritezee writes some of the best eridave fics out there. this one in particular is my favorite. its not only a space au but its really a love letter to the scifi genre and you can tell just reading through it that a lot of care went into the worldbuilding. dave and bros relationship is a total mess in a way thats honestly really interesting, and zee always writes a great dynamic for eridan and dave. plus, you HAVE to admit thats a great fucking title

Little Brother

by spritezee

When John asked you if you were feeling any better yet earlier you told him you were fucking lonely as balls and considering changing your occupation to prostitute so you could find your own personal Edward Lewis to pay you loads of money for standing around and looking pretty. Then you told him you’d always wanted to have sex on a piano, so it’d all work out fine. The reference went straight over his head, which in hindsight should not have surprised you in the least because Pretty Woman isn’t really John’s usual genre, and even if it had been it’s not anywhere near obscure and shitty enough to catch his eye. When Rose asked you the same thing a few minutes later you told her you discovered the small store at the far side of your street carries penis-shaped candles and that you now swore by watching them slowly burn down right to the waxen ballsack as a therapeutic relaxation technique.

again, always a great eridan and dave dynamic w this author. if it wasnt really clear by the summary, this fic in particular is fucking hilarious and dave and his wandering metaphors are a lot of fun in it.

other than that, tho, all of my recommendations are just going to be more of spritezees fics, so i REALLY recommend that you just save me the time and go check out their stuff yourself. if i ever delve back into the eridave tag ill make sure to let yall know if i find any bangers

#eridave #my recs

[yyunari]

It's the season of love! and you know what that means, time to find yourself a valentine! and who better than one of your beloved mutuals? answer these questions, and the mutual with the most mentions your tumblr valentine:

Mutual you can always rely on?

Mutual who never misses a post?

Mutual you share the most interests with?

Mutual you were most surprised to become moots with?

Mutual that gives the best advice?

Mutual you have the most in common with?

Mutual who has the best jokes?

Mutual you look up to or admire?

Mutual you'd run away and live in a cottage with?

Mutual you most want to be classmates/friends irl with?

Spouse material mutual?

Mutual with the best personality?

Mutual that never fails to make you laugh?

Mutual with the prettiest theme?

Mutual you'd have a crush on if you knew them irl?

Mutual you absolutely cannot live without?

Mutual you want to get to know better?

Mutual you can always rely on?

@muhwaa MY 4LIFER!!!! icb it’s almost our 2 year anniversary 😵 the way im closer to u than i am to my irl friends is crazy like ur the only bitch i consistently facetime every day bc yk U da Bomb anyways imy bro can u answer my ft

Mutual you share the most interests with?

@muhwaa the way we became friends bc of wattpad and genshin ✊

Mutual you were most surprised to become moots with?

@lunaflvms LUNAAAAA i swear when we became mutuals i was like😱😱

@sungbeam idt we’ve ever talked (idk i have bad memory) but i love ur works and i read them a lot and when u followed me back i was like WOAH!! that’s crazy

@iichaeyj i was actually surprised when u followed me back and we talked for a bit <33

Mutual that gives the best advice?

@muhwaa ofc ur the one i talk to when literally anything happens most of our daily fts r just me talking abt what happens in school

Mutual you have the most in common with?

@muhwaa HAIIIIIII

@yeongwonie HI YEONA IMY the more i think abt it the more we have in common which is rly cool anw text me soon🤗

Mutual who has the best jokes?

@muhwaa THE FUNNIEST PERSON ON THIS APP SHE JSUT DOESNT SHOW IT👹

Mutual you look up to or admire?

@muhwaa ur sm better than i was at ur age and i gen think u have sm potential in the future which is why i wanna help u get there😊😊😊

@cutieseo HI FAE i rly admire how kind and outgoing u come off on this app, and how easy it is to talk to u 🤗🤗

@amakumos even b4 we became mutuals i admired u and ur works and then when we started talking i was like WOAH ur rly funny😱

@hoori ELLYYYYY we’ve been friends for like 3 years???? THATS CRAZY anw ever since u reached out to me on wp to be friends i’ve always admired u and ur writing and imysm call soon pls🤗

Mutual you'd run away and live in a cottage with?

@muhwaa except we both don’t like the forest so instead of a cottage we’re moving to a big city like nyc or smt

Mutual you most want to be classmates/friends irl with?

@muhwaa WE WOULD BE CRAYYY like when we went to the weeknd + txt concerts tgth it was wilddddd we did sm and like it was sm fun

@yeongwonie i’ll move to u bc i like the area u live 😜

Spouse material mutual?

@justanne CALL SOKN PLS

Mutual with the best personality?

@muhwaa UR THE BEST PERSON EVER URBLIEK THE BEST AND U PUT UP WITH ALL MY SHIT like we’ve fought a lot but like it worked bc we work😜

@koakyuu OMG IM SO SORRY I THINK IVE BEEN GHOSTING U ON INSTA BUT I LOST MY PASSWORD TO THAT ACCOUNT SO I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO GO ON IT 🙁 anw imysm we should talk again soon <33

@cutieseo @wonieleles @mellow-midzy @shoyotime u guys r so genuinely kind and even tho we don’t talk a lot i like the occasional asks/replies u guys send !!

Mutual that never fails to make you laugh?

@muhwaa our texts r so funny this goes without saying.

Mutual with the prettiest theme?

@muhwaa 🤗🤗🤗 I LOVE HAERIN r u going to change it bc i rly like what it is rn

@seungstarss lwk idk if u know we’re mutuals but UR THEME IS SO PRETTY i luv it sm🫶🫶🫶

Mutual you'd have a crush on if you knew them irl?

@justanne i already have a crush on u😍😍😍😍😍 i miss the ooga boogas🙁

Mutual you absolutely cannot live without?

@muhwaa my lifeline. the jungwon to my jay. the soobin to my yeonjun. Da L Bomb.

Mutual you want to get to know better?

@haknom @urszn @trsrina @vuiom @eundiarys @mokiverse @hanniluvi @aerisfy @tzyuki @seungiepup hiiiiii 🤗🤗🤗

#i feel like i forgot some ppl but i appreciate all my mutuals 😻😻 #i have sm mutuals i wanna talk to more😘 #*ೃ༄ ♡ ˚ ──── ( lovely mutuals ! )

[safetycar-restart]

Hi.

Hey lads, just wanted to give you all a little update. I've just been struggling a lot lately, both with general stress and also with writers block which has been terrible because I want to write SO badly and I just havent been able to find the spoons to do it.

I want to apologise to you all for flaking once more because I said I'd write and then basically fucked off, and then it had been so long that it was becoming daunting to even make a post explaining or to start writing again.

So today I just... thought fuck it and ripped the bandaid off, so here I am.

I will be writing again very soon, because I miss it so fucking much and am finally starting to find the energy again.

So for now, I have very tentative plans to write either tonight or tomorrow night. I will give you all an update on it tonight either way, but I just wanted to confirm that I am alive, I am sorry for flaking and you will see me again soon.

Thanks lads.

#shelsthoughts

[daisyvisions]

AHHH YOU'RE BACK!!!!

tbh i missed you n your writings very much... i'm glad you were able to take a break, tho!! i hope you're refreshed n recharged 😊

it's actually kinda funny bc i just caught up on tbz content last week-ish, so i'm sorta back into that mindset. i watched the mv for 'watch it' finally, and i'm a changed woman. changmin with short hair just does smth to me... mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually. yes.

ahem. anyways 😀 THE JUYEON FIC WAS AMAZING?! you don't seem rusty or out of practice at all! i loved it so much (and juyeon isn't in my bias list or anything, we're just besties... which might change now, thanks)

wanna say again, i'm really glad you took a break and (hopefully) took time for yourself!! that's what's most important <3

but welcome back <3<3 i'm looking forward to whatever you have planned next, big or small

- 🎃

HI, HELLO 😏 well it's not the ideal scenario wherein I wanted to feel refreshed and shit BUT its better than nothing and if anything I feel better than when I took a break hahaha

and well, I havent super caught up with all content of tbz but you're not wrong about short haired changmin ugh he was on a different level in Watch It 🥵

aw thank you so much 🥺 fr tho I had such a difficulty jumping back into writing, but perhaps it's because I havent been following the method that's helped me for so long (aka I literally just went in and wrote vs me having an outline) but thank you for your kind words huhu

I really have so much planned out, I guess it's a matter of just adjusting to a lot of the changes happening irl so crossing fingers to that! thank you for sticking around and hope you enjoy future work here 🥰

[dracwife]

Dex I saw Nope and I loved it!! Pls give me some of your thoughts about the movie cuz I’ve been trying to talk to people about it but no one I know rly wants to see it and the people who have didn’t have a lot to say ahdjfkgl

oh my god man i could write forever ab this movie man. oooh my god. theres so much to it. its by far my favorite movie of 2022 and one of the few horror films ive seen thats genuinely frightened me. that scene following jupe/the crowd after theyve been eaten and its pure silence cut by screaming and claustrophobic shots of something we still don't know a lot about. that shit gave me fucking CHILLS in the theater.

i love it i love it all i love the buildup i love the characters i love the acting i love the writing i love the blending of genres i love that its a love letter to films i love that theres ambiguity and a lot left to interpretation i love that u can say its about movies bc of the overarching idea of being watched/surveillance etc i love that you can say its about poc history and specifically black history and preservation of it because of oj and em's constant struggle to get "the oprah shot" to be heard about their own discovery etc and still being overshadowed by jupe and his people and on a larger scale the industry at the beginning and you can say its about capitalism and the consequences of facing something that shouldnt be tamed and normalized like the oppressive force of 'the industry' by smaller creators/businesses/etc and how easily it is to be overcome with irrelevance no matter your size its all ab power and money and all of those theories can be right. jordan peele is a fucking genius ok. i love nope 2022 so much and i still want to see it again to go back and work out some of the details i missed or havent pieced together yet

the only downsides i believe are you definitely have to be a scifi fan as well as horror to enjoy it to the fullest extent and remain engaged enough to be able to get those kinds of analyses. and i believe its a movie thats best experienced in theaters...it simply won't be the same w/ at home streaming tbh and its a shame some ppl wont be able to experience it in a theater bx its actually mindblowing when u do.

tldr here is my official letterboxd review

#so yeah i Like Nope An Average Amount. #(lie) #nope spoilers #basically. i am going to kiss angel and oj on the lips. #dex.ask

[fictionfixations]

man im gonna miss the owl house.

its a fucking masterpiece. that ending. Its all wrapped up in a nice and pretty bow and im so happy and im actually crying its precious to me like how gravity falls was, and amphibia (i admit im not the biggest fan of amphibia, with as fear of bugs and also holy shit thats a lot of 'filler' thats technically not filler because they DID have to wait like months to be able to venture outside but eHHH) gravity falls and its entirety was precious and nothing can match watching it for the first time amphibia was pretty and quirky with characters i genuinely cared about and the world building was cool and the owl house is a whole... IT HAD GAY, it had magic, it hAD BOOKS, it had so much stuff that i really liked and im so happy about it. and all of their endings made me cry and im still crying shut up oh my god and i didnt watch the episode like yesterday because i forgot and got distracted (haha sorry) and i want to make something to never forget but i already have the amity necklace, the season 1 poster (because season 2 had sold out by the time i checked sob, huNTeRRR) AghH but its in a pretty bow now and i have nothing to write about it. the perfect show honestly has to be the one that there's nothing that you can add to it because its perfect.

theres nothing that makes me want to add on to it, nothing to build out angsty and sad scenes (i mean it had everything i wanted LMFAO. anything else would have to just be like either a drabble, or like canon divergence and therefore hunter pov. because i am the writer who mainly writes male pov, clap clap) AND IM HAPPY FOR HIM HE HDWUISAHDIUA oh my god i just saw the flapjack grave oh my god it just spawned a new set of tears (I HAVENT FINISHED WATCHING THE CREDITS I HAVE WORDS TO SAY)

OH MY GOD AMITY (THEY ALL LOOK NICE. also can i backtrack and talk about how gus reunited with his father, with the illusions of multiple hims and then his dad was just hugging them all and that made me so happy??) also back track further LUZ WAS ROCKING THAT TITAN STYLE and she still has the litlte marks on her eyes (it was probably makeup though maybe? i dont remember if she had that after she turned back i dont think she did? idk) OH OH OH DARIUS (thats abomination coven guy right. oh my god i forgot what their rank was already LMFAO) NAD AND AMITYS DAD ?????? RAINE YOU LOOK SO PRETTY EM(ira? I FORGOT HER NAME. I JUST REMEMBER ED AND EM NAMES ARE FAILING ME RN) OH MY GOD THEIR DESIGNS next thing you know on youtube: nolstalgic the owl house lofi HOLY SHIT IS THAT GUS?

YEAH THATS HIS PALISMAN- HOLY SHIT ??? OH MY GOD EDA. AND SHES WEARING RAINES EARRING THING *SOB* AND HER ARMS A HOOK. OH MY GOD I LOVE HER /P AND THE LIGHT GLYPH im rewatching this so many times im so happy, this is like a literal timeless show in my eyes (like how you can watch gravity falls over and over AGHHH)

OH DEAR STEVE--- its just so perfect and im repeating myself and AGHHHH also can we talk about how they taught the collector what mortality was? i think thats the right word (i was about to say morality haha) LUZ JUST BRRR but like halfway through i remembered that papa titan (like the one from. i think it mightve been the first of season 3...? like when they go through theres that waving guy who sounds like hes running and panting and yelling 'hey' in the background, and i remembered 'OH IS IT HIM') and just oh my god *exaggerated hand movements*

oH MY GOD (and i know thats not the actual light glyph we had before- i know this because i tried drawing it once)

LOOK AT THE LITTLE HORNS AND THE DIAMOND SHAPE ADNWUIAS HDAIUD YEAHHHHHHH MORE LEARNING

i need to take a moment before i cry again my hands are shaking. im going to miss this show. i really hope i can find out what to write in the future (AHAHA unintentional pun to the episode 'in the future') EDIT: NO ITS FOR THE FUTURE, IM SO DUMB ahhh i want to immortalize it. i have this bad habit of forgetting things easily (on the plus side, YEAHHHH i can finally put my half a semester of spanish classes to use for luz!!)

#the owl house #the owl house spoilers #toh spoilers #toh #toh s3e3 #toh s3 #the owl house season 3 #thoughts #toh thoughts #ending #the ending #honestly its just me going 'its perfect'

[owlyflufff]

Hey are u doing good? It's flu season, so I hope your not sick! I hope I'm not being annoying, I'm just a lil worried about u :(

NOOO ANON ITS ALRIGHT YOU'RE NOT ANNOYING AT ALL! In fact it means a lot to know you're worried about me :'((!!

If anything, I should apologize myself for my inactivity or lack of posting since I know I haven't been rambling about Bokuaka in a while. Unfortunately, there's a handful of work for me to do on my end that it stopped me from being able to write or post anything really. Even if I have freetime, I'd want to create bokuaka posts with the enjoyment of it and actually taking the time to write rather than rushing!

(I literally have Akaashi bday and valentines day writing posts in my drafts that I havent finished help TvT-)

On a lighter note, Bungou Stray Dogs Season 4 is airing right now so I'm sorta indulging in the series again since it's been a while! and I miss Rampo so much ;-;. Bokuaka will always have a place in my heart though it's nice to take a step back and enjoy other things for a bit especially in preparation for the Haikyu movies :'))

I also made the "smart decision" of reading Beast and "The Day I picked up Dazai" and I am in so much pain ahahaha-

Of course I'm not dropping this blog or switching interests <33! I'll still be writing and posting bokuaka stuff , it's really just a matter of me not having enough time + also taking a quick break.

Thank you so so much anon for checking up on me it means a lot, fortunately I didn't catch a flu but I do hope everyone stays safe and to recover well and swiftly if ever you caught the flu!

Thank you again anon have a good day/afternoon/evening over there <33!

#Hoots #M actually very nearing the the hell week so finally TvT! #I can go back to posting and rambling about Bokuaka a a a a #I miss them :'(( #And I miss reading everyone's tags on my posts #If you wanna chat about Bokuaka feel free to send an ask! #Also if anyone knows Bungou stray dogs feel free to send an ask too #But for your sake and mine pls don't bring up Rampo I will literally not shut up about him xD #If you think my hyperfixation on Bokuaka is bad you haven't seen how I am when it comes to rampo edogawa #Oh and also anything to do with Beast and the day I picked up Dazai will leave in shambles <//3 #Just know if you wanna chat Im always open! #Looking forward to posting again in a few days <33!

[jojolovenotes]

oh my gods i have a lot to talk about! one, i havent been here awhile... like i have but its just been lurking sjjdjd, hope youre doing well! (apologies ahead of time for the very long ask, and if i make, like, no sense its almost 1 am at the time of writing this, but i also really wanted to talk cuz we havent talked in literal ages snfnn)

two, valerie and i got married! the wedding was on june 15th, and it was fairly small, mostly family and close friends, and it was in the backyard. one of my friends suggested a luau type theme since i wanted to do a garden them and val wanted to do a beachy theme, but we couldnt pick which one we wanted to do. we wrote our own vows and i could barely finish mine cuz i got so overwhelmed with emotion! ive always felt so close to her, but i finally felt like i was truly home, y'know?

and three, im taking swimming lessons again! i didnt do it last year or the year before cuz of quarentine and not exactly knowing what the plans for pools being opened were, but now that pools are finally open, i get to be in the cold, yucky tasting water that i missed so dearly! i asked val, jotaro, and lisa lisa to tag along, partially cuz we get to seim together, and partially because, since its been a while two years since i did it last, i was really nervous to get back in. then, last week, jotaro, with a little extra encouragement from star platinum, helped me with freestyle swimming! im fully away from the wall and i can do it really good (the one day that lisa lisa and valerie werent there to see it sjfhjf)

speaking of which, i have a lil letter addressed to the three of them! (you can just respond as one of them, if you want to to, if its a lil easier to do shdn): *hands you a note on light blue paper that has little seashells and otters drawn on it. written in dark blue gel pen, in somewhat messy cursive reads:* "Hey sweeties! Im not the best at writing letters (or rememebring to actually write them), but I just wanted to say thank you so much for coming to swim class with me! It means so much that you three have been here with me, helping me when i need it and cheering me on all the way! And Jotaro (and Star Platinum), thank you both for helping me do freestyle swimming! With you guys there guiding me through the water and helping keep me afloat (and trying to help me stand up without falling over again), I really think I got the hang of it! I cant wait for the next swim lessons with everyone! I love you guys so so much, and I'll see you three very soon!

Love,

Brie (*＾3＾)/～♡"

Hi Brie! 

Thank you, I hope you’ve been doing well too! It’s nice to hear from you! I know I see you in the server every now and again, but it’s nice to get an ask from you! 

Aww, congrats on the wedding omg... but a luau theme sounds like thats cute hehe. That’s super sweet! I’m glad you two are married now <3 I’m sure it was a lovely time. Small, intimate weddings are so sweet!  Oh, that’s cool! Good luck with your swimming classes... You’ve got this! Jotaro would hands down try to help you with swimming, he gives you a bit of space but not too much. He wants to be able to help you in case you need him around. He doesn’t want anything bad to happen to you of course! Valerie and Lisa Lisa would be encouraging to you too, Val and Lisa Lisa would be cheering you on and offering plenty of vocal encouragement. 

Oh a letter lovely lovely... Let’s see what we’ve got here !

--- 

Hi lovely,

You’re very welcome. You know the three of us always want to be there to support you when we can. I know Jotaro might not have a lot to say sometimes, but he definitely is doing his best to show his support for you as well. You’re doing amazing and the three of us are very proud of you. We all love you too, we’re excited to see you and help you with swimming again. I think we should celebrate with a beach trip when you’re feeling more confident... Or maybe a pool party would be good. Either way, it’ll be a nice time! 

Love, 

Lisa Lisa 

#received transmission ✨ #gushing✨ #not jojo ✨ #ships: Jotaro #ships: Lisa Lisa #aphnatasha

[iwashere666]

Henlaur Hiraya,

Hii. How long has it been? January's ending soon and I just feel like talking to you again.

Yknow why I havent been here. I started it. My journal. Im surprised on how much I was able to write daily. My thoughts are flowing.

Although recently Ive had skips. A week of skips. Ive been having blank days again. Also yeah busy but I try as much as I can to still write something.

As of Jan 25, my last journal entry, Ive written for 8 days. Just 8 days and it started last Jan 7. So how many blank days did I have? T_T

I actually missed writing here. That journal is a different person. It feels like were in the getting to know phase. Maybe thats also why I get to write so much coz I also want it to know me.

I havent it yet. For now its No Name. Hahaha. Lame. I know.

So yeah. Just if your checking alright. Just dont have enough sleep yet. Its the weekends and its my normals weekends. Thats why I prefer Fridays over Sundays.

Oh yeah. I will show you what Ive written on my journal so far. So dont feel left out owkie?

P.S. it doesnt look like the journal that I imagined. Its actualky better. I thought itll be full of blank spaces that I will need a lot of stickers to fill into but turns out its overflowing with words. ☺️😁

[idiotsonlyevent]

HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️ i hope 2024 is kind to you and that if any difficulties do arise, they can be resolved quickly and easily!!!!!

some thoughts about my 2023 + 2024 are under the cut for personal reference but feel free to read if youd like

OUGH so many things happened this year. it was. a lot. some bad. but also lots of good!!

things i've done in 2023:

- played p3+p4: some of my favorite games of all time!!! i love you persona!!!!!

- started writing fics: ive published more than 30k words since i started, and have AT LEAST 5k scattered across various wips/ufos. which is!! thats a lot of writing for someone who only did academic stuff for the last couple of years!!!! and it feels especially good since i haven't been able to draw or make music so im glad i was able to find another creative outlet and build new(/different?) writing skills :)

- lost my job :(( but found a better COOLER job!!!

- played ghost trick: GO PLAY GHOST TRICK RIGHT NOW!!! please 🥺 best game of all time i will shill it forever

- one piece: i would kill for monkey d. luffy. that is all. haha just kidding i love you one piece thank you for the joy and whimsy youve brought into my life lets keep it up 💪💪💪 lets stay silly and work to overthrow corrupt systems and stop injustices in our world 🔥🔥

- got a surgery ive been planning on for a long time and it!! went well?? which!! yay!!! ill be officially out of recovery in a few days and its :^) nice

- also i graduated therapy for the first time ever!!! it was nice actually having closure and 'ending' the relationship on a positive note, not just being thrown to the dogs in the middle of treatment

things it would be cool to do in 2024:

- travel, even if its just a day trip. literally i've only traveled to visit my family since covid started in 2020. i need to see the ocean soon or ill die

- try revisiting the p2 duology !!! i miss my kids 😔😔 and the music 😔😔 and persona in general and since im abstaining from p3re id like to do something to 'make up for it'

- start playing bass again!!!!

- maybe start up art again?? idk :// as much as i want to get back into it, i have so much difficulty transferring what i see in my mind to the page that a lot of times it more frustrating than anything but it might be worth a shot

- read dungeon meshi

- read dandandan (+ watch the anime if i like it!!)

- write more fics!!!! hopefully i will finish my vinsmoke-centric series!!! id say finish my law series too but that might never happen since i cant shut up abt this guy lmao. and i still want to write more persona!!! so many ideas AND so much time!!!!! no need to rush!! just gotta keep chipping away!!! and trying new things!!!!!

- WATCH STOCEAN. BC I STILL HAVENT < fake jojos fan 🤡

- play the zero escape series

- play twewy/neotwewy > if theres time !!!

- probably more!!! idk!!!

#ok gn everyone im gonna drink tea and go to bed :) hope yall had a nice evening #L.txt

[taegularities]

RID HI HELLO 🫶🫶🫶

oh m gee how are you?? ive been so inactive for so long, im sorry 🥺 life has been... overwhelming and stress-filled, but ive missed you so, so much ❤️

i havent read cmi in so long (and tbh i prob wont be able to read for a while, im dealing with a lot of family health issues) but i do want to let you know that im thinking of you and im beyond excited to return and binge read eventually 🥺 please keep creating content, you are so incredibly talented 🫶

i would love to hear some life updates ‼️i hope all is well! how is school and work? i love you, please be safe and healthy 🫶

- wife from war anon 💂‍♀️

my loveeee, i missed you so much, too :( whenever someone disappears for too long, i definitely notice and think of you a lot. i'm okay bby, i had a couple terrible weeks, but i'm always working on getting better. don't worry about cmi!! life's been so busy for everyone.. really hoping your family's okay or will be at least. sending energy <3

whenever you do read, enjoy it thoroughly! i haven't had much time to write lately, so i always attempt my best at the chapters that do drop :') so yeah, hope it's worth the wait, excitement and read. school's starting again on monday and i am sooo not feeling it :') work's been a lot, but super distracting and fun – something new keeps happening lmao i'm thankful for that. also my work crush always greets me with a wink, so i'm a puddle most of the time lmao. please take care of yourself as well; i'm also here to talk anytime if you need.

love you so much <3

#notes for rid 🌹 #wife from war anon 💂 #fic: colour me in

[blackvail22]

9/24/23 — 1:10am

theres a lot that happened within the past two days its insane. on the 22nd, i had to train this new associate for the whole day. he's rlly nice, and he's fun to talk to. he caught on really quick! im excited to work with him

also, that same day, i got back with my ex!!! it could be a dumb decision (because this is the 3rd time) but i really want things to work out. again, no one is going to know besides you... and... my coworkers, but thats different

the coworker that gave me his number, he gave me a note at work that says "im awkward so i dont know how to say this out loud, but i like you" and then taped a soda tab on it (it was the "hug" meaning one, which... i dont like but could be worse). so! ive told the new associate i have a boyfriend. im going to tell them i have a boyfriend, but im telling those im closest to at work that its because i dont want my worker to hit on me anymore

if he keeps going after that, i have to report him. im not letting someone get away with that, not this time.

i have to start standing up for myself... im just scared because of that teenager who got killed because she rejected her (adult) co-worker, im afraid its going to be me. this is the reason i dont like hearing abt death.

on another note, back to abt my boyfriend....

im writing this as soon as i ended the call with him. i miss him already. i wonder how and why my brain changes how i react to things because of a label. i feel so clingy. i want to talk to him more. he does make me happy, and i hope i make him happy too

oh, i also bought this candle... its supposed to "smell like london" and it says the scent is "afternoon biscuits and tea" so thats nice. i bought it to think of you, nd its nice that the color of the candle matches my room

oh last thing ! i took my permit drivers test and i passed it! feels so surreal because i never thought i was ever gonna end up driving but here we are lol

anyways i like this song

6:06am —

dude i couldnt fall asleep until like 4:30am and my mom woke me up at 5:30, screaming at me to find something i didnt have!!! i found it! and it was in her bag, a place she didnt look (because she only looked one place!!!!!!) at least i can sleep now, but idek if i can do that because i feel awake now. im going to sob. FUVKKK I HAVE A HEADACHE AND SINUS PAIN NOW IM GOING TO CRY DUDE. and the fact that she walked up the stairs to scream at me (she never walks up the stairs)???? ooo. im so mad bro! like im going to wake up whenever i have my alarms set and im going to punch a wall because i cant sleep without getting interrupted. IM PISSED TF OFF NOW bevause i havent had adequate sleep since my last off day (a week ago) and i dont have a lot of sleep for tomorrow because i have to wake up at 6am for an appointment thats 2hrs away. sure, ill sleep in the car, but with my mom? she wont let it happen. and i dont have another off day untl thursday, and i cant sleep in for that one either becahse i have another goddamn appointment in the morning. like, is this what being an adult is? being harrassed by coworkers, never having enough sleep, never able to fall asleep.... it cant be cause those all haopened when i was a teenager too. stuck in that cycle, though, and i cant wait for that cycle to finally end.

bad things always tend to happen to me. is it because i bring bad energy? AHHHHHHH i just need to scream cry

i am going to try to sleep now. I've rambled on for way too long

11:17pm

been incredibly sad today. i think it was my lack of sleep, or maybe it was my mom yelling at me and waking me up. still, my heart feels so ... heavy. i cant help but feel bad for people who love me. if i was them, i would choose anyone else to love endlessly. im undeserving of it all, anyway. i dont feel happy tonight. i hope tomorrow's better. i dont know what changed and made me feel this way because when i woke up and went to work, everything was fine until half way through my shift. it didnt really effect me, but them saying "oh, fun's over.. [my name]'s in a bad mood again.. everyone get away" keeps playing in my mind. it didnt affect me then, so i dont know why i keep thinking about it

i just want to fit on my roof and look at the moon, but its been rising really early so i dont think ill be able to see it now. ill watch some livestreams from space of the earth/the moon instead. something to comfort me while listening to music. i havent been able to watch any videos all the way through recently.. havent even been able to watch those gaming streams i like. hopefully ill feel better before i go to sleep

#Spotify