#i was so much cringing while reading it

[genericpuff]

vent post

#and before anyone who hates my shit says “yeah because you ARE a loser way to have self awareness for once” #i promise you this would be me with or without the LO fandom LMAO #anxiety is a hell of a thing #and as much as i internally guilt myself into thinking it would be better if i just shut up and hid away forever #i also know that's the trauma speaking because the adults around me always told me to shut up #and even as an adult i still encounter people who talk over me and make me feel like i'm not allowed to be outspoken #but the pen is mightier than the sword and all those years i've spent being spoken over i've been honing my penmanship #i have fun talking about the things i talk about and i don't have any less right than anyone else to do it #i am cringe and i am free #self post #vent post #altho on another note i do wanna make time this week to go find new series to read #too many of my favorites have turned to shit and it's taken its toll #i KNOW there are better comics out there that are genuinely well made #i already have a few that i'm reading that i love but i need to balance out the good with the bad more lol #i just need to take the time to go find good stuff instead of pouring so much of my attention into the bullshit that doesn't deserve my tim #i think both things can be true #i can have a lot of fun dissecting and writing about series i don't like #while also nourishing myself with good works that restore my faith in this medium #“perfectly balanced as all things should be”

[crescentfool]

the persona 3 protagonist 25th anniversary nui in food appliances!

#lizzy speaks #persona 3 #minato arisato #makoto yuki #guys friendly reminder that this is what adulthood is about dont listen to anyone who calls you cringe #hence why im putting these in the main tags. i mean they're not incorrect for what the photos are about. lmao #anyway this was a very fun birthday!!! i feel very loved and supported by so many people and i got to do very fun things (like this)... #i think... birthday is like thanksgiving to me. in the gratitude respect. #a reminder of all the lovely people that i have gotten a chance to meet and how i've learned from them #it makes me very happy to have been born... i think every day is a great day to celebrate life's grandeur + brilliance + magnificence #it's just a very poignant and strong feeling that i have that i'm happy to have met so many wonderful people #and while there are some people i've only known for brief periods of time or people who i havent really been good at keeping in contact wit #i do cherish it! im so grateful. so happy that there are people who cheer my silly shenanigans on #while there are ways in which aging makes me go “oh hmm” i think overall i'm happy that i get to keep on living and learning #i have so much fondness for humanity and people... like even if i dont get to talk to ppl directly i just get very emotional yknow #like wow.. you exist.. thats so fucking awesome... i hope you have an awesome day... im glad our paths could cross #if you have read up to this point of my tags.. thank you for reading and being part of my life #i will keep on being the silliest guy ive ever known! cheers to more shenyanigans and self-discovery :3

[uncanny-tranny]

I decided to go through my old warm-up notebooks from my honours english class and in one of the warm-up prompts, I said I wanted my superpower to be "controlling the effects of [my] puberty," and I'm glad to say that I've gotten that superpower. It took a very long time, but that's a superpower I can check off my list

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #ngl though i felt my very soul wince while reading some of them (including that) #in my old self's defense: i was incredibly dysphoric and had Many Unresolved Issues #i also wasn't really masking in that class and didn't know i should probably not be honest with my notebook #my teacher said that she'd only grade warm-ups we wanted graded and she'd only *potentially* read others 'for fun' #also i always didn't like the 'what superpower would YOU want?' question because. it just annoyed me to know it's impossible to have #(besides the puberty superpower lmao) #as much as i believe in being kind to your past self/selves that doesn't mean i'm not cringing about it 😭 #just so long as you don't turn the cringe into self-hatred i suppose #you cannot hate yourself into being better♡♡ #WAIT I JUST REMEMBERED THAT IN ONE OF THE WARM-UPS I WROTE ABOUT A LESBIAN ROBOT #NEVER MIND I'M DONE CRINGING #man i should make that into a proper short story like. what a concept

[conkers-thecosy]

*whispers* oh my god oh my goddddd ohhhhhhhhh myyyyyyyy godddddddddd vicious_summer read my work and left a comment and now I feel like I’m going to disintegrate and crumble into a pile of ash because my soul has left my body and I?????? *dies*

#I literally love their writing so much #I’m actually just fighting the urge to be like #DONT LOWER YOURSELF TO SPEAK TO ME I AM NOT WORTHYYYYYYYY #which is obviously super weird and cringe and I’m not going to say that but omg?? #I just love their writing so much 😭 #like when someone you really admire just casually reads your own nonsense and compliments it??? #this is just mental to me #anyway this was an amazing thing to wake up to I’m just going to scream about it and stare at a wall for a while lol #….I just don’t think I can be cool about this #on any level 😂

[derpinette]

girls being nice to me gets me higher than ecstasy ever could

#SORRY for the corny post but this is how i truly feel not waxing poetic here like literally it does #i just met the cool girl i keep talking about & IT WAS SÅ FREAKEING ÅSUM ^_^_^_^_^_^ YAY #HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY HAPPY HAPPY JOY #OK sorry for screaming But i really am very excited... #turns out she is autistic & we discussed our neuroses while eating & ugh she is just as cool as i thought she was #always tell people you think have Swag that you noticed it on them see how it worked for me #i was so scared of spilling my spaghettis but turns out that was exactly what i needed to do to be friends ^_^ YAY #we went to a lot of different libraries together & i got a small old eyeless bunny plush from the event we went to caus i felt bad for it #i even showed her my pony art & i told her about my cringe interest (that music event i like...♯RealOnesKnow ) #& she thought it was COOL.& i felt like it was really genuine & she talked about reading BL LOL we discussed fujos together #we even talked about finding moids ugly #it was so awesome she was so cool & Nice To Me... i feel like i am on CUMULONIMBUS ( cloud 9 ) ^_^_^_^_^_^ #talking to her in person was so much better than online OMG now i wish i really was friends with you muties IRL #i wish you a Girl Friend experience just like this to those who post about wanting them i really do #also the reason why i even like my Music Event so much is because the first time i watched it was with a bunch of women #& i had so much fun & they were so nice to me i keep returning & now that Event means so much to me & I LOVE IT sorry (NOT) #i know this sounds like tumblrina fiction i would not believe it either IDK what to say to make it sound legitimate 0_0 like it is so crazy #to me as well IDK i can barely get over it & IDK if i really want to so um well YAY ^_^ AIMU SO HEPI :DDD

[wookiecookiesfactory]

"Lily encounters Snape in the battlefield" snippet

Sometimes I like to pretend I could write (also english is not my first language so I will make mistakes):

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"-dont! dont take your mask off, I will fucking kill you" her voice was small but firm, barely a breath.

she knew, in the deepest of her mind she knew, she had known since that night in the gryffindor tower, where she had promised to herself she would no longer deny the person he had become, she would hate him entirely and see him for what he really was.

and yet, she really didnt want too see him now, dressed in death eater robes and wandless, which meant she had to either kill him or send him to azkaban where he would be kissed to become a wretched shell of flesh. "dont worry, Lily, dementors only kiss bad wizards, the worst of them all" it was him who told her that and even then she had been horrified to think it was possible turn a person into nothing.

It had been him who had found her and had brought a world of magic into a playground in the very unmagical place that was Cokeworth. Now all she could do, as her wand shaked in her hand and blood dried in her face, was ask where had all gone wrong. Where the fantasy had turn so ugly and awful and they have had lost each other.

-leave- she hissed, and it seemed like a curse

-before I change my mind.- She finished, through tears she looked at him, eyes watery and aflame with the fury of accepting to herself (and him) that she still cared, always.

the black figure standed there as if petrified, hestitant, until finally apparating away. When he left, it was as if a weight lifted from Lily, only then she remembered she was holding her breath, she could hear james voice in the distance screaming for her.

She descended to her knees, coughing, exhausted from the fight and probably also from the emotional angst but she was only half guessing."

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So I felt like I had to include word always, even if it was cliche XD.

I was gonna add a bit about James confronting lily on how he knows that she still worries about Snape and he is...surprisingly supportive of his wife´s horrible bf, I mean he still hates the creep but he doesnt want to reprimand her on her very complicated feelings (dont you just hate when your dear childhood friend joins a bigoted cult?) but I grew tired.

also lily cracking jokes after a traumatic event, harry is his mother´s son

#do you ever write something while crying just to read it again and feel cringe? but I already spent too much time in this so eh #I wanna let it out of my system #snily #sevlily #hp #severus snape #lily evans #marauders #james potter #harry potter

[ninja-knox-ur-sox-off]

Sometimes I feel very sad that I didn’t just focus on one creative skill. I look at my art some days and go I wish I’d spent all my time making only that, because that way it would look better and I’d do more and it wouldn’t matter if I couldn’t write very well because my art would be amazing and I’d be able to make the stuff I really want to and maybe even get a job related to it and I wouldn’t feel like so much time was wasted. And often times it really does feel like you’re wasting time and everything is telling you to just pick something to focus on so it can mean something and you can never seem to pick one of anything.

And then other days I feel like an absolute GOD. Anyone else able to write your own fic and then draw art for it just because you can? Can you make an edit/amv after writing a silly little analysis post on the show/character that is so perfectly on beat and fits the lyrics and with transitions so slapping you get chills while watching? Can you write a short silly ditty on the guitar about how you’re feeling using the eight chords know and belt it out only a little bit off key then do a choppy little animation of your sona singing it?

I may not be the most skilled at all of the above, and it can be a little lonely to be a one man band who doesn’t play half as well as a lot of people out there, but when your power goes out or your wifi dies or you have a day off, everyone else is busy and you’re alone...

you play the best gosh dang music in existence

#knox rambles #feeling some kinda way lately o7 #these kinda vibes come back every once in a while #just gotta remind myself that ten year old me would go insane over the fact I can do what i can do #even if I'm not the best out there I am sure the best me out there #and that's pretty cool #i may only know one strum pattern on guitar and half a dozen chords at best #i may not be very good with punctuation and grammar while writing and I reuse words too much #I may do my art all leaning a little to the left too much and proportioned weirdly #I may export my amv's wrong so they're not on beat or forget good audio that would have made it REALLY great #I may write analysis's that are a little biased and look back on them and cringe a bit #I may only be able to animate the simpliest and shortest things and then go months even years at a time without animating #I may struggle to do animatics for what feels like no reason even if i want to so badly #but I can do all that stuff #I can write i can read and I can draw I can play guitar a bit i can sing I can make animatics animations amv's #and wow that's pretty incredible if you ask me #rambling rambling zero thoughts head empty YEET HGSDFLKJSDF #creative insecurities #they always sneak up on you a bit hglksjdfsdf #pretty safe to say I wouldn't be a creative if I didn't feel inadequate every person to ever create usually feels some kinda way ghsdflk;jsd #lays down #woo #hoping I can get back into the swing of being creative #things been pretty rough at home but I miss making stuff #ANYWAY HOPE Y'ALLS HAVING A FIRE DAY

[lord-squiggletits]

I know there are as many religious good guys as there are religious bad guys in IDW, but I think I pinned down the reason why it feels like the most prominent religious figures are all bad guys and it's pretty much due to the worldbuilding.

Maybe my memory of the comics is just really bad, but the religious worldbuilding in IDW is....kind of trash honestly. I'm not sure there's a single religion or religious custom that doesn't exist solely to further the plot along. Like, it's one thing for the Camiens to worship the Primes and that causes a lot of stuff in exRID/OP, but what does that worship actually look like? What are their holidays, customs, religious texts? What about "spectralism" which basically the only thing we know about is the Festival of the Lost Light and some hippie color coding and aura shit? Like sure, there are characters who are religious and their beliefs come into play sometimes, but it honestly feels (especially in MTMTE) more like their religiousness only exists when it's relevant to the plot and it's just kinda. Disappointing eh. Lacking in worldbuilding. Plus the more religious a character is the more it's written as their entire personality and the driving force making them evil so it just kinda made me cringe to read honestly.

#squiggposting #i think there might be more 'religious moments' than i remember since it's been a hot minute since i read #but i remember during my first read/while liveblogging it was something that disappointed me #i know it's probably unfair or whatever but it still makes me cringe so hard #that the reason tyrest suddenly became a religious zealot was because he got shot with a brain altering bullet #and his religious fervor is almost literally just a product of him being brain damaged and delusional #like oooooooooooooooooooooooof it's so fucking cringe lol #i'm not sure if i'm making sense honestly. it's not so much the NUMBER of evil vs non evil religious characters #but it's more like. the more prominently religion is part of a character's personality or motivation #the odds of them just being an evil guy shoots up to almost 100% #also then there's dr/ft who's a fucking clown and 'spectralism' is just some half baked hippie shit i can't take seriously #guess my problem isn't with IDW so much as it is with JRO lol #anyways not an objective analysis i might be wrong on some counts that was just my feelings as i read #and also i just don't like it when the worldbuilding around culture only exists when it comes to plot related stuff #it really makes the world feel less lived in/realistic when it's established that there are multiple religions #but then as far as actual customs- beliefs- texts- philosophies- etc there's hardly anything #so the good guys may be religious but there's not much about what their beliefs actually entail and how they impact their daily life #and on the other hand the bad guys are screaming about how they're god's chosen all over the place

[the-judicial-assistants-notebook]

y'know, I've been seeing a lot more posts talking about how fanfic, specifically, puts characters into boxes and takes away the nuance of them, and while I think that's an important discussion to have, I also find it quite perplexing? Like, these posts seem to come from people who don't even, or maybe very rarely, consume fics in the first place, and I say that because, if you do consume fics semi-regularly, you kind of learn? how to gage what the stories and characterisation are going to be like based on the tags and summary? Sometimes, you do have to step into the fic to figure it out, but it hardly takes very long to realise if it gels with you or not. Idk, it's not anything serious or important, but it does give me... "girl, what were you doing at the devil's sacrament" vibes, you know?

#this gets posted here because my main has mutuals (whom i still love v much) who are part of the girls suspiciously at the sacrament #fanfiction #ao3 #i feel like the post doesnt properly address what i mean. i understand that these posts arent talking about fics exactly but rather how #mischaracterisation in fics permeates into how characters are portrayed in the fandom at large but even then it's a bit. like i dont think #you can put that all on the fics/writers (and these posts usually do) alone?? like yes the mischaracterisation is more prominent in fics #by virtue of their medium but if it's resonating with artists and other creators then that's clearly indicative of a general #cognisance issue in the fandom??? and like. maybe it's because tumblr is the only socmed site i use but i dont find it difficult to curate #my fandom experience. people generally know how to use tags and while the sudden influx of x reader stuff for every single character isnt #something im fond of either they're generally good at tagging their stuff. it's annoying but you can blacklist that. you can. #also fic isnt like art where you look at it and you've seen it. you have to engage with a fic to understand so then it /really/ feels like #girl what were you doing at the devil's sacrament to me. idk this post isnt complaining about fandom mischaracterisation in general #i complain about that all the time but more so the inclination to put it on fics & their writers. because if you know how to move through #fic spaces and read the summaries and tags #you can generally find works that are really really good. could you argue they're rare? sure. but saying all fics propogate #mischaracterisation is just... a lie? #this got so long. im not even really bothered or annoyed by it im just confused #these are also often the people who espouse rhetoric about being unafraid to post cringe and embracing your weirdness #and it's like. okay do you want people to post unabashedly or do you want them to shut up. #anyway. back to our regularly scheduled programme now

[waterfall-ambience]

furina is such a 15 year old girl to me its unreal

#auri rambles #genshinposting #okay there are other teenagers in genshin but furina's immaturity really makes her feel more human in a way #yk fischl is cringe and chunni so she's 14 to me but like a lot of the other teens are like #'oh im a renowned celebrity chef' 'im a successful author' 'im an exorcist' 'im an adventurer' #in a way their characterisations revolve around a specific archetype or job they have. they're supposed to be admired in a way. #with furina she's like a reflection of the insecure teenage self and she's frivolous and dramatic but because of her role as an archon #she's so scared. its like she knows she's weaker and less capable than other archons. even those who are younger than her. #that gap of maturity and responsibility really makes her feel for her. she's a kid. #furina's character succeeds where fischl's fails because her stakes and reasons for acting the way she does are so much higher #fischl being prinzessin is so low stakes in comparison that she just kinda feels cringe and she gets on my nerves lol #because it feels like she's doing a lot of it just because she can or she's escaping her loneliness or whatever. #but while fischl can just drop the act whenever she wants furina is trapped in public opinion. #fischl criticism aside i just wanted to say that the way furina's character is handled really makes her feel like someone who would #buy stupid things online and worry about her weight and watch too much netflix and take too long in the shower. #because she doesn't have to be 'admired' she has more room to be read as a much more human and sympathetic character.

[barredandromeda]

he hates taylor swift but its ok we all have flaws 🫶

#every reel hes liked ab taylor makes me cringe cuz why yall haters caring so much ⁉️ #not an invite for taylor discourse idc how she is or whatvr i like her music #touch me while ur boys play grand theft auto is such a silly line #post #seashel #kindividual posting #i got bored and stalked his followers and like why do so many girls follow him. ive never seen him Talk to one b4 #except for this one girl but she has a bf and the only other girl is a gay one who doesnt care ab him ⁉️ #me when ppl have lives #im so boredfhhfhd im dying from coughs annd im too tired to read starsight 😢 spensa i Miss u

[bisexualchrissycunningham]

I've started getting daily AO3 emails again this past week and I just wanna shoutout the handful of people seeking out all the Kylex, Forlex & the rare Malex I ever wrote.. hope my meager offerings all about Mr. Alex Manes being showered in love and affection I somehow wrote in a fever dream of nonstop inspiration are adequate!!

#a little while ago i checked the kylex tag and it's so sad how desolate it is #even if i'd probably cringe if i went back and read a lot of it i'm glad i wrote so much kylex & forlex #so people can have an alternative to the deluge of m*lex if that's what they're looking for #alex manes

[lavenite]

and i know its said a lot but im soooo serious when i say trans women who are musicians are so fucking good. go listen to pigeon pits three albums in a row and experiencing her journey in discovering herself and the evolutions of her relationship then come back to me

#i didnt even realize she was trans until halfway through the second album and i had to google it lol but seriously hope shes doing well #NOT TO BE CRINGE but as much as people rag on folkpunk i really do like it bc the albums are just from people. self produced and self writte #n #so its very personal. especially cause the bands usually deal with addiction or homelessness or gender issues #and often times when listening to someone whos been in the scene a while. you can basically see their journey as their music develops #like all of pat the bunnys bands are a very good example of this cause you compare johnny hobo to his final solo stuff…. #pigeon pit is another favorite of mine cause i listened to her whole discography on a road trip and yea it was good #and days n daze ofc cause thats my fav band LOL i even have all their earliest albums that arent on spotify on burned cds so i can listen to #it whenever. plus ive saved like every video of them i could possibly find on youtube. and read interviews and and WHATEVER closest thing il #ill get to a parasocial relationship but thats not happening bc i understand these are just people dealing with addiction and mental illness #in the way that they can #but yea whatever getting off track idk i like the things i do and i think its good

[turtletoria]

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#hi sorry for bein a downer but i just want to make clear that im blocking mcyt blogs on sight bc i curate my own online experience and i - #Do Not want to see that ever. theres been an uptick in ppl rebloggin my old mcyt art and while i very much appreciate that i rlly dont #want to see that shit ever!!!! i hate all my art from that era for real for real!! ive never felt so Bad! #i just really dont like the mainstream mcyters and i just remember feeling very manipulated and hurt by both the mcyters and the fanbase #i think their content is immature at best and downright hurtful at worst #so sorry if you got blocked dont take it personally i just dont want my notifs covered with art of ppl i parasocially despise #sorry i could go on and on abt how much i rlly dont like these ppl but u didnt come here to get a moral lecture from me so i'll just stop #i love the block button so if u r a mcyt blog run while u still can and please stop rbing my old mcyt art #and also. when i say downright hurtful i mean it in the harshest way. to the point my younger siblings (who r in the target demographic for #this kind of media btw) felt uncomfortable watching them. like honestly that boils my blood a little #theres fun cringe and then theres bullying cringe and i put mcyt in the latter. thanks for reading #and blah blah i know theyre not all bad every fanbase has good and bad eggs whatever man. i dont want to engage with that so i am kindly #telling yall to get out. #sliding them onto a paper with a cup and releasing them (derogatory)

[13eyond13]

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#here's some of the classics on that list i have beef with btw: #i have tried to read A Confederacy of Dunces several times and it's funny but it's also so cringe and Ignatius is so obnoxious #that i find it too difficult to finish like i just feel depressed and bad for everybody around him too much #i tried reading Infinite Jest like a decade ago and i got like 200 pages in and i remember thinking it felt like #such a slog the entire time because he's just so gd wordy and also i stopped liking DFW after i heard the abuse allegations against him #frankenstein i didnt read that long ago but i just remember finding it so boring for some reason?? i feel i might need to read it again #dracula ngl i feel like im cheating a bit saying ive completely read it because i loved the beginning and then HATED so much of the rest #the characters were just so boring and melodramatic hahaha i just liked the part where jonathan was doing a travel diary #and trapped in the castle tbh and after that i skimmed quite a bit #i almost flipped my shit when i saw ender's game on there because I ALWAYS mix it up with ready player one by ernest cline #which i bought the audiobook of a while back and hated every minute of it i dont think its good at all #but it wasnt that so phew my faith in this list is somewhat restored #i read most of the first game of thrones book and was disappointed tbh maybe because id seen the show already #so i was like 'this feels almost exactly the same except worse?' because i'd been expecting it to give me more depth and insight #into the characters but instead it felt exactly the same and i still didnt love any of the characters enough to feel attached to them #also i am fully aware me not personally liking or vibing with a book doesnt mean it doesnt deserve to be considered great btw #but i think if youre gonna be like me and force yourself to go through a bunch of lists like this very seriously then you also need to just #let yourself be like 'yeah not for me' without feeling too bad about it sometimes too #often times i dont particularly love the classics or 'important books' but at the same time #i still feel like im getting more out of reading them than just grabbing the newest hyped up books that also dont do anything for me #maybe not in a 'wow i loved reading this' way but in like a #'i now have first-hand knowledge of this thing that is so influential / so frequently referenced' #or 'this challenged me and i feel like i did a mental/emotional workout or gave me some new food for thought' #or 'made me more aware of what gaps in my knowledge and reading skills and what my tastes are too' #sort of way... #it really just depends on what you're reading for and why and what you're hoping to get out of it a lot of the time maybe #it's like the homework i give myself to go through these lists that i also intersperse with the stuff i read more just for fun #p

[marcusagrippa]

like. yes. humans are terrible a lot of the time. but holy shit it's so fucking insane that we even exist in the first place, let alone that we've built everything that we've built, let alone that we still have access to as much history as we do, and if i think too hard about stories i feel A Lot because it goes back and back and back and throughout everything that we've been through as a species, stories have always held us together, stories and dreams and poems and it fucks me up sometimes because when i'm studying poetry it's easy to think 'ugh this is so dull' but then you read one tiny line and then you're punched in the gut and you remember that this was written by a person, a person who was alive, once, and that in your hands your hold a tiny little piece of their heart and their hopes and their dreams, and it's sort of necromancy, isn't it, to read what they wrote and feel what they felt, and we're human and we've always been human, and if we've always had stories and words and poetry then they're us, really, and we're them, and i don't understand people who find literature boring because it's just it's the sum of everything that the author's ever known, every experience they've had, every other book they've read which has been the sum of everything another's ever known and there's not really a point to this but we are indistinguishable from our stories, we are our stories and our wars and our love and and and and

#this is nothing new at all but it feels new to me bc my brain has been numb from constant overstimulation for the last year and a half and i #haven't had the chance to actually experience a normal amount of human feelings in a while but when i read that one sappho fragment my brai #n exploded #i can't put it into words very well sorry #we've always wanted to be remembered!!! humans!!!! what the fuck!!!! #humans have always been human !!!!! how fucking insane is that !!!!! history is stabbing me repeatedly !!!! #i love you biased primary sources that tell us more about the author than the subject matter i love you sappho 31 and catullus 51 #i love you inspired by i love you translation i love you fragmentary works i love you i love you i love you #i love humans so much and i love that we've tried to make our (terrifying) existence a little bit less scary by making it beautiful instead #i got like two hours of sleep last night so my cringe filter is a little low. but. yeah. #classics tumblr has made me think about textual ghosts and necromancy a little more than is strictly healthy #i am tired but i am so full of wonder #this was prompted by that one bit of cat 1 and the sappho fragment i mentioned and the pharsalia and probably pro caelio too #humans #humans my beloved #humans!!!!! #poetry my beloved!!!! ancient history my beloved!!!! aaaaaa!!!!