#i wont come out to her tho

[feelingthedisaster]

where are all my people (closeted aroace girls whose parents think they are a lesbian bc they lack interest in men)?

#my mom casually says stuff in like “i support homosexuals” and then she looks at me like she looks looks at me #i am like #🧍‍♀️ #sorry wrong tree #i wont come out to her tho #thingsis of being aroace and having a physchologist mom in a country that still thinks of asexuality/aromanticism as a mental ilness #maybe she learnt about it on college #so no coming out soon #(praying she doesnt found my “secret” social medias bc im openly aroace on them) #aro #ace #aroace #aromantic #asexual #aspec #arospec #acespec #aromantic asexual #aro problems #aromantic problems #asexual problems #ace problems #aroace problems #lesbian #lgbtqia+

[luck-of-the-drawings]

The Oath an older sister takes is on par with that of a Paladins, and sometimes upheld with the very same ferocity…

#jrwi fanart #jrwi riptide #jrwi show #gillion tidestrider #edyn tidestrider #OKAY I WONT RAMBLE HERE AS MUCH AS LAST TIME BUT RAAHHH IM RLY PROUD O THIS PAGE. it was rottin in my wips for so long #but now its DONE!!(as much as im willing it to be) i rly like my colors! i looove playin with colors :3c #seeing everyones nice words on my last post also made me SOOO HAPPY it motivated me to create MORE!!!! #SO HERE HERE more edyn n gillion bc they make me EMOTIONAL!! i work with lil kids as my job too and im also an older sister so #i might be projecting a liiittle bit. okay to be fair i project onto gillion ALOT!! i didnt do well in school and adults are mean somtimes: #i hope we find out whats going on with edyn soon... whole heartedly trust her tho. she has gillions best interests in mind! #ive been rotatin the thought of her assassinating the elders in my brain for SO LONG!! i just need edyn to KILL to protect gillion ouuhhh #hope she comes back with like a giant sword or a cool gun #RAMBLE ABT UR FEELINGS IN THE TAGS BTW #I READ IT ALL N IT MAKES ME SO SO SO HAPPY. YOU GOTTA.

[the-kipsabian]

#kip sabian #penelope ford #renee paquette #hangman adam page #hangman page #aew #all elite wrestling #aewedit #wrestlingedit #wrestling #night gifs #i wanna point out. even tho i know this will get lost in the shuffle in the tags but i dont want to add it into the actual post either #but kip doesnt hide behind penelope actually #i know its the 'haha funny man hiding behind his wife' trope but im tired and im sick so i have something to say #thats not whats happening here. yes he is dodging hangman by backing away #but you can see penny purposefully stepping more between them clearly instead of kip backing away behind her #they all know hangman wont hit her. but she will protect her husband come hell or high water #compare her to renee stepping away for example - for penny its the fight instinct. renee has the flight instinct as a non-competitor #kip is just fucking dumb but he aint hiding. its penny thats stepping up instead #sorry ive seen this take so many times im just irritated and nobody will read this so yeah okay carry on #my beloved #kip in a box #vampire wife #boxman saga #(rp blogs dont reblog; saving and other personal use with tag credits is fine)

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

[phoenix--flying]

i love when an au idea gets dropped on us and we just cling to it for a bit

'me' being nico

#imagineee #listen i am a SUCKER for ta bianca recently i dont know what happened shes just here and she wont leave #its fine tho we love her #bianca di angelo #nico di angelo #pjo #phoenix aus #phoenix rambles #this idea came to fruition in dec #but i found it while scrolling the chat today and its come back so #have an out of context meme 💀

[schleierkauz]

tiny little cornelia promo interview has me severely compromised

this one

at no point does she say anything she hasn't said before (& that i haven't documented before somewhere in the bookshop Q&A translations) but STILL. her summary of what she can tell us about the story made me Unwell (putting the translation beneath a cut just to be safe)

"Well, the way I write is that I don't want to know anything… don't want to know too much about the labyrinth I'm entering. For me, the excitement of writing is about not knowing what the story will eventually reveal to me. So I'm not going to spoil the adventure the readers hopefully have waiting for them too much. It's about revenge. The title says as much. Orpheus' revenge on Dustfinger. And you could say the revenge of a reader on a character he once loved very much. For that character not loving him back. It is also about the question whether words are more powerful than images. It's also about being young and getting older. It's about a thousand - hopefully - themes so every reader can pick something out that speaks to their own life. Something they never thought about before. I hope it will be a journey from which you can bring back plenty of images and many places you might like to travel to."

#info #tcor #tcor spoilers #not really if you've been reading my posts but yknow #i can translate the whole thing if yall want but it's really genuinely nothing new lmao i'm just emotional #hearing her refer to dustfinger and the black prince as the main characters felt great tho #she's hinted before at that theme of young vs old and turning from one into the other i cannot wait to find out what that means exactly #i have thoughts #also probably very relatable to like 80% of the people waiting to read this book lmao #i have backpain #i remember finishing inkdeath while sitting high up in a tree. probably wont do that this time #oh i also love how she doesnt mince words when it comes to orpheus obsession #new theory: the gay character is just orpheus and he confesses moments before being blown up by magical witch TNT

[be-good-to-bugs]

i need to stop staying up so late when i need to work the next day augggg

#the bin #i work at 11am at least so i do still have awhile till i need to get up #usually i work 4 hours earlier so im lucky i guess. not exactly tho bc i much prefer morning shifts but whatevs #i texted my sister today to ask if she can come this weekend but she didnt respond. hhh. im gonna be so mad if she says no #i just realized im abt to be out of cat food too so she HAS to comw at some point soon #it doenst even have to be the weekend. thats just the days she has off but if she can stop by anotehr time then thats fine #or if just her boyfriend can come drop stuff off and pickup her card then thats fine. but idk. i even offered to lend her gas money if my #next paycheck is enough to allow that. i shoudo get it tomorrow or the day afeyr so. well. hhhh. #i hope my paycheck isnt too bad. i think tips were pretty good recently so. maybe it wond be so bad. hhhh. #im tired of being stressed abt this stuff all the time. im really pissed at my sister rn too bc she just bought $40 worth of unnecessary #stuff. like. decor. while she still owes me $300 which i only lent bc it was for rent and i knew i wouldnt need it back for almost a month #but its been that time now and i need it back and instead of sensing it back she buys a $20 wall tapestry apparently #hhh. last yime i ever ever ever lend her money. im only gonna lend gas money bc i need her here soon. but she also needs to amde the trip #bc she has a card here to pickup. and theres several other reasons shes supposed to stop by. it shouldnt have to be my responsibility to #pay for that trip. hhhh. #im so glad i wont have to deal with her in a month

[todayisafridaynight]

poppo oc that i made as a joke accidentally breaching containment. maybe.

#snap chats #this is why we never do things 'as a joke' it stops being a joke eventually #i havent mentioned him for months hey LMAO BUT I WAS THINKING OF HIM TODAY i still like thinking of him.. #oh also i finally thought of his wife. affectionately called Momo. who works at the m store. 'pop' and 'mom' see name scheme there #i thought of letting her work at la marche but thats too extravagant me thinks #anyways 'snap what are you talking bout' no cause the more i thought of him #the more the idea of actually writing short stories ft This Guy having to deal with deranged yakuza every day made me giggle more #if you see me breed a handful of yakuza ocs in the coming days no you dont #really. you wont LMAO i dont plan on having them at all be associated with rgg #if i ever need to draw throwaway yakuza charas tho then sure ill let them ft but i doubt ill need to do that #hence. Breaching Containment #in that regard i might accidentally give him a real name... name after an actual place of course.. #like seiko.. based off seicomart of course... #in any case.. since i plan on streaming tomorrow i might talk more bout all this there. if anyones interested. #i know i wanna actually make a proper ref sheet for him so #i do have a goofy comic or two he might be able to ft in #anyway bye lemme work on this comm so i can sketch out that ref sheet

[guinevereslancelot]

how is my friend's baby 12 days overdue and didn't come during the massive blizzard we had yesterday

#the entire town and most of the state had no power #the roads were basically impassable everywhere #thats exactly when you expect a baby to come esp if he's overdue #like he was WAITING for the blizzard #he wasnt going to come a week ago when the weather was nice and the roads were good #but no update so im assuming still no baby #he was never going to get a better chance to come at an inconvenient time #also im lowkey sad bc my mom pointed out he's probably never going to be able to wear tbe cute bear onsie i got him #its super warm and fluffy and he totes could have worn it if he came on time before easter #maybe not for beey long tho #but its april and this blizzard may have been our last snow 😔 #and he wont fit in it anymore in the fall #we have a slight chance of snow next week but more likely rain #anyway we shall see it might be chilly for a few more weeks and the occasional random day in april or may #but he's def missed peak dress your baby like a teddy bear weather #maybe i'll buy them the size up in the fall it wasnt that expensive lol #anyway my friend lives ~next door~ like half a mile away down a hill then up a really big hill and we couldn't get out of our driveway #but i told her to lmk if they needed anything bc i would have walked thru 2ft of snow if they needed it lol #but they were probably better off than we were bc they have a woodstove and probably a generator and her father in law has a snow plow #i think #so they probably weren't even trapped in the house lol

[welcometogrouchland]

Finished rewatching spiderverse

[ID: the Jonathan Van Ness "okay, it's totally fine. Why am I crying?" Meme. End ID]

#ramblings of a lunatic #EVERYONE SHUT UP I'M THINKING ABOUT MILES MORALES #specifically thinking abt how his inclusion in spiderman stories changed the comic landscape forever #AND THEN HIS MOVIE DID IT IN FUCKING ANIMATION TOO #DO YOU UNDERSTAND. THE POWER. THE INFLUENCE #HE IS THE MOMENT AND HE HAS BEEN SINCE THE 2010S #but for real i always forget how emotional the storyline of into the spiderverse makes me #it's like. i see this spark in you! it's a leap of faith! how do i know i wont mess up again! you don't! IT'S A LEAP OF FAITH #IT'S THE ENTIRE FUCKING FINAL CONFRONTATION. HOW IT'S EVERYTHING FOR MILES' CHARACTER #HE IS SO FUCKING SPECIAL TO ME #i never delved far into his comic runs bc I've never liked bendis as a writer and by the time his first non bedis run was coming out #i lost the hyperfixation on comics (tho never the special interest) #whenever it's next activated tho (bc I'm a fucking sleeper agent ig) i think I'll have to check it out. especially post spiderverse #it's too good for there not to be bleed back #anyway. my only gripe with the entirety of spiderverse is that while peni parker is funny they should've gone with her og character- #-as a fuckin. i believe it's an evangelion homage? bc it'd be funny if the cutesy anime girl was actually the most fucked up spiderperson #and they didn't go with that for the sake of cheaper more generic anime jokes. boo #still the best movie ever tho idk what to tell you #I'm crying!!!

[rookflower]

Can I request lesbian Squirrelflight?

#squirrelflight #warrior cats #warriors #pride icons #i forgot the nick in her ear whoops!! #there was a few squilf requests so i just picked a flag for the first one i saw #also sorry im getting through these pretty slow i only have a few drawing hours each night atm and im trying to balance my time out #gotta keep the design queue up u know how it is #and these rqs come in slightly faster than i draw them so i wont get around to them all haha #ill probably keep doing them further into the month than intially intended tho!! they are so fun

[road2manjuumaster]

PLUSHWONDERLAND DOT COM ARASHI PLUSH HAS BEEN PREORDERED

#ensemble stars #enstars #arashi narukami #LOOK HOW HARD I CAN CRY #she wont ship out til may but thats FINE the wait will be more than worth it #im gonna get her a pretty dress esp since she wont come with clothes #i might need help choosing one tho theyre all so pretty

[someoneoutherelovesyou]

neighbour’s cat

#she wont let me look at her nametag and will only come to me if i am sitting on the grass with my hand out in front of me but shes so cute #i love her #she comes in my house and eats my cats food tho….. #will txt

[isa-ah]

idk! it just feels so much more nasty and underhanded for them to do this considering.

#the people who raised me are dead #the guy who helped them is dead #my besties mom has secretly thought of me as a terrible burden to her all this time #the only family member who was willing to take me in abused me so badly i was borderline attempting for years after #my mom and brothers were it. they were the only people i had left from any kind of support system whatsoever #so finding out just how deeply disgusted and disturbed they are by me even tho theyre polite when im around is so. its just so #nasty man. its so nasty. you couldnt just suck it up and stop being religious extremists for 1 day #for me. for this? #how are we ever supposed to speak after that? how will our relationship EVER have mutual trust after that? #it wont is the answer but then neither will any of my other relationships w people i knew #there is only 1 real motherfucker in this planet and its taylor who went thru everything w me and is still here and loves me #im just tired idk. sorry for bitching sm. im sad and lonely for people who are never coming back

[oh-gh0st]

#ghosts rambles #rambling before i go back to do stuff #i have thought of an atsutodo scene in my brain for the fanon s4 with shinrei........... #it wont leave my brain so ill dump it here rq #shinrei asks todo if he knows anyone who could help with her financing and business department since the prev manager of it got fired #and he's like “well i do know someone *in the middle of texting atsushi ab it* i doubt he'll answer back tho” and he immediately does #and he replies “yeah i can help. what's a good day to meet up for this” and todo's like “this cant be happening........” #so they set up a date blah blaaahh day comes and they start working stuff out at the same cafe the choro incident took place at #and todo is like. internally monologuing this whole thing (he's sitting next to atsushi while shinrei is across from them if that helps) #and when todo asks shinrei if they wanna take a break to get refills she says sure and goes with him and shes like...... #“ok drop the act i Know u like this guy” and it's all a mess from there #hes like “no i dont. wdym. ur crazy haha! ^-^” but he's quickly folding and its so obvious. like yeah okay #and he cant stop thinking about that possibility for the rest of the cafe date and he's like “well fuck maybe i do... but that's weird!!... #that's all i have. maybe atsushi asks him something super gay but idk. i have to go do things now baaaiiii