episode 6 is the kind of pain that keeps on giving, so of course i had to keep looping this song. rough translations below:
若我們註定是場電影
If we were destined to be a movie
最適合什麼樣的結局
What kind of ending would suit us best
可我不把愛 遊戲
But I don't treat love as a game
為何不能堅守這道理
Why can't we hold fast to this principle
若我們主導這場電影
If we were to direct this movie
最傷人的都由你做戲
You would act in the most hurtful scenes
是否知道 像這樣的規矩
Do you know rules like this
一切全都只有你在定義
You are the only one who defines everything
嘗試毀滅愛情 或維繫和平
I tried to either destroy love or keep the peace
這個決定 卻總是把我身陷在過去
But this decision trapped me in the past
一生懸命愛著你 用盡全力
I dedicated my whole life and used up everything to love you
你還是告別離去
But you still left me behind
不要預言了這結局
Don't prophesy this ending
不想最終只是悲劇
I don't want a tragedy at the end
若我們成為了主題曲
If we became a theme song
最疼痛的由我來哼起
Let me hum the most painful verses
我也知道 像這樣的初心
I know that my original intent
看在你的眼裡只有矯情
Only looks pretentious in your eyes
讓我毀滅愛情 或毀滅友情
Let me either destroy love or shatter friendship
這個決定 卻總是把我身陷在過去
But this decision trapped me in the past
一期一會的相遇 滲透血液
Meeting you was a once in a lifetime encounter that diffused into my blood
不再見風和日麗
No more calm winds or clear skies
駐留在心裡的風景
The scenery that remains in my heart
剩一片 破碎的 傷心地
Is an expanse of broken earth
往後去了哪裡 總會像這樣
Wherever I go from now it will always be like this
突然的想起或是恨你
I will suddenly think of you or hate you
又再次奮不顧身的把回憶全都看清
And sort through my memories without regard for self-preservation
若我們註定是場電影
If we were destined to be a movie
早就預言了這結局
This ending would already be prophesied
在最終只是個悲劇
In the end it's only a tragedy
WISH I COULD TELL YOU THERE'S A TWIST
SOME KIND OF HERO IN DISGUISE
AND WE'RE TOGETHER
IT'S FOR REAL, NOW PLAYING
WISH I COULD TELL YOU THERE'S A KISS
LIKE SOMETHING MORE THAN IN MY MIND
I SEE IT COULD BE AMAZING
Zepotha will never be Goncharov because when it comes down to it, tumblr culture is collaborative, while tiktok culture is merely iterative, and those are not the same thing.
He wanted to laugh at the words. Magnus hasn’t known what it meant to be okay in a long time.
Other people wished to be happy.
But not Magnus.
His deepest desire was to be just okay.
“Do you think some people don’t deserve to be here?” He whispered.
“What are you talking about? I’m worried for you. Talk to me.” Clary asked worriedly.
“I just..I..Before Alec,” Magnus said tearfully. “Before Alec, I was seeing someone. I really liked her, but she made me feel as if…as if I was a burden. Like she did not even want me to exist.”
He wiped his eyes, but the tears kept flowing.
“Hey, hey, I’m here. Take your time.” Clary said gently and took his hand in hers.
“And now Alec and Ragnor have been getting into fights because of me and..and..maybe she was right. Maybe I do make life difficult for other people. Maybe I really am just a burden and don’t deserve to be here.” He sobbed.
Clary put a hand around his shoulder and pulled him in for a tight hug. “You don’t. You don’t make my life difficult.” She said while rubbing her hands up and down her back.
Magnus clutched harder at her and sobbed for what felt like a very long time.
“Totally unrelated to this conversation but what was her name?” Clary added seriously. “I won’t punch her or anything.”
He chuckled softly.
“I don’t really condone violence.”
Clary pulled back and grumbled. “Not even against people who have hurt you?”
Magnus shook his head.
He didn’t.
He knows that some people are assholes and deserve to get punched in the face.
Magnus just can never do it himself. Or stand by and watch while it happens.
This is just who he is.
“Ugh.” Clary groaned. “Fine. I have something else for now.”
Magnus gave her a tearful smile. “Cookie cream?”
“Cookie cream”
- Malec Heartstopper AU where internal monologues might get angstier, but brotps will be growing stronger.
IT WAS ERIC AFTER ALL!!!! I'm so glad we got to meet him (before Vil snaps him away with those Infinity Gauntlets) (can't wait to see what happens when we get the matching Infinity Tiara to go with them, there will be no survivors)
(sorry to be so slow/rough lately, just got a lot of stuff on the ol' brain at the moment! alas, if only I could spend all my time drawing incredibly stupid characters I mean I do but)