#ig this is mental health related

[coulsart]

#couls art #couls doodles #me #vent #ig? #mental health things :3 #who can relate? #blood #horror #self harm

[just-aro]

tbh with the "what is your orientation" types of polls i'm seeing around the a-spec communitites, I haven't decided if I feel less included by ones that don't even offer non-sam aro (or "other") OR the ones that lump non-sam aro and non-sam ace into one option.

like, thanks for nothing king!

#aro #aromantic #actually aro #actually aromantic #non sam aro #even then i feel more represented by oriented aro but like. ugh #generally speaking if ur demographic related poll has a limited number of possible responses #at least include an 'other' #i saw a specific poll earlier that specified orientations like bi alloaro but didn't include non sam at all #and like. bro. please. u could make two surveys #one for alloaros specifically if that's a target demographic #and have an other option #also i have polls so ig that's a thing i could theoretically do #but honestly mental and physical health are fucking hard and running polls doesn't give me energy #so i probably won't unless i'm asked to run one for some reason #and think it's worth it

[pallotdip]

self-reflection.

#zexal #yugioh zexal #ygo zexal #astral (zexal) #my art #key_anem #pixel art #dot pict #whewww #back from the dead #hi guys! long time no see #for all ye tag readers: my sudden disappearance was for various reasons #but the main one was just fandom burnout. i love the zexal community! but my old habits caught up to me again #hence the break #i am not normally very active on tumblr here anyways. i am more active on other sites like ig (with the same name) #and discord. i am there too >:] #i’m very sorry for worrying any of my tumblr mutuals. i had to take the sudden break for the sake of my own mental health #i am doing better though! please take care #happy zexal month everyone!! #in other related news: the dotting on the bottom took FOREVER (two hours) #my eyes hurt

[j-ellyfish]

He's just some guy™ but I'm obsessed nonetheless q//w//q <3

#like sometimes I look at him and a little part of my brain is like 'are you really spending your time daydreaming about this character?? #He's literally just some guy look at him how the fuck are you obsessed with him???' but aaaaaaaaaaaa I just can't NOT like him #LOOK AT HIM LOOK AT HIM!! HE'S BABY #HE'S JUST SOME LITTLE GUY BUT HE'S /MY/ LITTLE GUY Q//w//Q #comfort character gone a lil too relatable ig #man sometimes it's just your mental health is damaged and the only thing bringing you real joy is some random little fictional guy who #probably looks so fucking uninteresting from the outside but alas you're still so so so fond of him #oops sorry I guess I'm just in a mood #aph austria #ary spoke #aph official #you know how long I've been into this damned man?? #It has been roughly 11 years and counting #hetalia

[bunn-iiii]

does anybody else have Koko bot in their dms but are to scared to use it or am I just really mentally ill

#i swear this isn't an advertisement #i just want to if anyone else just has koko bot casually sitting in their dms #i didn’t even ask for it i just searched something ig concerning and they were like #oh no this person is sad let's give them the mental health bot #it just keeps sending me messages and i think it's worried that i left the world already #but i didn't I'm just too nervous to fucking say hi to robot #like what if I'm actually honest to it and it just send the police to my house to take me away #i don't trust mental health help anymore #and I'm not taking mental health help from tumblr.co thank you very much #anyways now for the normal tags #mental illness #mentally ill #im very mentally ill #yeah my depression is bad #kokobot #relatable? #idk

[dollopheadsandclotpoles]

A friend who I made when I was going through one of the worst mental health periods of my life just said that I was "more neurotypical than him and his friend were" when we met, just because I was more likely to stand up to assholes than either of them were. Ok, well, glad I'm passing ig

#MORE NEUROTYPICAL #what does THAT MEAN #like yes he had really really bad depression and lowkey BPD and had to drop out of school but it's not a competition jfc #it was a dark as fuck phase for me I just never talked about it cause I didn't realise it was mental health related even #also being passive or being outspoken or whatever aint about being nd wtf #about me #also yeah he didn't mean it like that he's a very nice guy #i'm sure it just came out wrong #just rubs me the wrong way ig like i'm always feeling fucking guilty for having mental health issues in general #this doesn't help

[angstics]

saw a post a few days ago that said something like “itd be hard to find an mcr fan whose mental health hasn’t benefitted from the band”. i dont know if i can say my chem has done that for me. the processes of happiness, company, intellectual stimulation i get from the band aren’t special to it. i cant reward something for its ability to be loved. the very material of mcr is special, but i cant think of an instance where it helped me mentally. doesnt make me feel less alone or more understood. doesnt make me want to better my health. doesnt make me discover new things about myself. they arent holding my hand. they arent getting me to fix my heart.

the music just delights me. im about the functions. the way it works feels perfect. i love that i can so easily translate the instrumentation into images and emotions (summertime solo as devotion, destroya drums as a heartbeat). i love how the storytelling is clearly derived from movies and comics. i love the mythos that is constructed by band and public and fandom. i love how cleanly they can portray feelings i relate to. i love this tour. it works like nothing else in the world. all my happiness is sourced in the functions.

perhaps this is just how i feel today. i know i felt a connection btwn my self-understanding and the band a few months ago. tho i question that feeling now as having been influenced by others.

#like my fixation with flw par exemple has ALWAYS been how perfect the bridge is. it just written perfectly. #i connect to the craft more than the emotional core. its almost like i appreciate the emotions it’s radiating and what i feel #ig the point im iffy on is whether seeing my reflection = being understood #what im saying is the band changed my life in ways not related to my mental health #at least how im understanding it rn #mcr #q.txt

[persephoneflouwers]

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#derogatory way anon #no I don’t think she does #(i cant say for sure because ive never listened to it) #i was only saying it’s a bit incoherent and inconsistent #to preach about mental health and stuff when you call literally fans names lol #but like maybe she grew up and then understood #saying things like delusiona-insane-crazy whatever only keep corrupting the stigma around mental health and the conditions related to it #you know i give time and space for people to learn #but then she failed again with the palestinian conflict… and i was like #‘naaaaah she’s just a girl you know’ #the thing is… people shouldn’t hold this people on a pedestal #and we shouldn’t ask them to be smart or politically aware or to give opinion #mostly because… they are allowed to not have opinions and more important #because their opinions might be not what we like lol #anyway just to publicly announce it #i blocked her long ago and so did with her mom <3 #(i blocked for the usual stupid thing she said on ig that had to do with covid and travelling and #how she had to give up things and holidays… when she was literally in italy lmao) she could be hilarious #COULD BE but unfortunately she’s not haha

[2010sinternetweirdo]

After watching a playthrough/reading someone’s tumblr post…

I now love Kissy Missy as a really sweet disabled character who’s supported by Huggy and the other experiments.

Maybe she’s a mother or big sister figure to the other experiment huggies 🥺

Now I’m head canon-ing her also as being friendly with Cat-Bee and Candy Cat.

#new comfort character ig #i relate to her now bc I need extra help bc of severe mental health issues and needing help w those #poppy playtime #kissy missy #poppy playtime chapter 2 #Huggy wuggy #playtime co

[scientistclone]

A few words on trauma, because people might be interested (or not.. I guess.): Learning how to feel is hard when people take feelings for granted. But when you don't have them and you know you are supposed to have them, and you know, logically, which ones to have it's... weird.

You feel an absence. You feel like an outsider for not recognising "sadness" or "anger". You feel your body reacting, it's primal, but your mind doesn't associate emotions with it, not even core ones. Not until it's way too late or someone has pointed them out to you. A fast heart beat will just be a fast heart beat, you might name it "nervousness" and that crushing feeling in your chest might be "I feel like I can't breathe". You doubt you've ever been in love, you doubt relationships, you doubt memories, you doubt your morals, your sanity, yourself.

I guess I'm saying this, because it's not something that is commonly talked about when mentioning trauma sequelae. Flashbacks, fear, dreams, detachment, but losing the connection to your emotions isn't. Having fear as your only primary emotion isn't. Emotional numbness and whatever. Very.. unpleasant.

Feel free to add resources, this bitch doesn't have the braincells rn to add research papers.

#mental health #mental illness #trauma #ptsd recovery #ptsd #I said I would update on everything #so here's part 1 ig #how am I supposed to call this series? #brain battles #that's cool ig #might delete later #if I feel like this is oversharing #for now it's honesty time #I don't talk about this stuff anymore #maybe someone will relate

[scourgeofshadows]

True story to Scream 6: Ghostface wanted to torment Gale cuz she's back to her old self and was so furious about her not writing a story honoring Dewey that they stabbed senses into her so that she blacks out and wakes up with the character development she had in Scream 5

#i will NOT elaborate #yes i'm telling the truth #the knife is gale's Scream 5 character and it returned to her #as it belongs #hehe gale is one of the characters i relate to & is one of the kins that i actually am furious towards #it's gonna take shitposts for me to recover from scream 6 inconsistencies #no offense i love the movie but there are flaws that made he have a crisis #scream 6 #scream 6 shitpost #gale weathers #gale weathers rant #vent #scream #scream rant #scream 6 rant #gale's mental health isn't as good as her physical health #impressive she's still fit despite her past injuries ngl #must be the plot armor #she's too snarky for the grim reaper's good ig #the reaper must've been too annoyed of gale #especially from her nonsense in scream 6 #i can't unsee the reaper smh'ing gale #i wonder if any of this scream 6 wack will be explained in scream 7

[wanderingchocolateeclair]

Hi

So, I don’t usually do this, but I’m going to be taking a small break from posting over the next few days.

One reason is because I’m going back to the farmhouse for a week and my mobile data is unreliable there, but, in all honesty- my mental health isn’t doing so hot and I think a break from posting will help.

I will still be online, so if you want to send stuff in as usual, please do. I will answer them when I am ready to get back to posting, and the same goes for reblogging or posting my art.

This will probably only be about a few days - a week, but I thought it best to let you guys know.

Love you all <3

#tw vent #eclair mumbles #so uhh #yeah #i often dont take breaks #at all #but tonight kinda #happened #mental healths been spiralling for the last few months and ig tonight was the bit where i had to decide to take a break #im still here #just not gonna post for a few days #and to my moots im still gonna be in dms dw #i live on this hellsite(affectionate) #i just. #yeah. #if you uh. wanna send in any happy headcanons or thoughts #or if you have any ideas/asks relating to any of my aus #please send them in #i will be more than happy to read them #<3

[psithurism-elisheba]

The urge to completely ruin myself to prove dear old mother wrong <3

#Rollerskating #Artistic rollerskating #Figure skating #going insane #already am insane #insane #I relate so much to the movie #black swan #I am nina fr #I'd die for perfection #girlblogging #girlblogger #not actually but this post lines up with those hashtags #German #Australian #German artistic rollerskating is ruining my mental health LMAO #Central europe core ig #roller skating #roller skater #ed #this is giving me a ed #boys were watching me while I was writing this #I hate boys at my school

[mayoiayasep]

girls will really have one (1) interaction with their mother and then all of their mental illnesses will activate huh

#didnt think my mental health would get worse during the summer but here we are ig #nyx yells #turns out my brain is starting to relate to the no children tmg lyrics. huh. thats a new one

[selfindulgentfandomstuff]

Well.

I took the exam.

I’m gonna go stick my fist into a wall now 😁

#vent #vent tw #tw vent #honestly maybe I just shouldn’t pursue physics. like if I suck this bad at CALCULUS 1.. well I can’t even imagine how I’ll fare in higher #level math courses.. let alone the bits of the physics courses where we actually have to apply the concepts we’ve learned in math #maybe I’m just not cut out for this #I want it so so so bad I want to understand things about the universe how it works why it does what it does I want to KNOW #but ig I’m just too stupid to even get down the entry level stuff :( #I hate this I used to be smart I know I was #I had a basic understanding of the concepts of quantum physics and specifically a few of the existing string theories out there #by the time I hit 7th grade I was actively learning as much as I could get my hands on about everything astrophysics quantum physics and #cosmology related throughout 8th grade along with keeping top of my class grades easily #then I went to high school and while I did stay near the top of my class (my grade level class not individual classes I mean) #it took more effort and I burned myself out far too much and that’s part of why I failed so miserably at university (mental health crisis #that caused me to have to come home like 4 months into the school year) #I know I used to have potential but I think I smothered it with overworking myself in high school trying to juggle hw and class work and #extracurriculars and chores and sleep and and and the list goes on #I think I murdered her. the little girl who used to dream and wonder and learn voraciously #now I’m an aimless young guy with no real potential left anymore. #everything is so foggy in my brain I can’t see to retrieve information when I need it #I KNOW the information is in there. somewhere. locked away in a place I can’t reach right now #I hate it. I want to be her again (but as a guy obviously) I want to have that passion and ability to learn and perform academically #sorry guys for this I just don’t know what to do

[illnessfaker]

tw: black+trans death

from the_yvesdropper on instagram:

our beautiful black trans brother, 35 year old Righteous Torrence "Chevy" Hill, was murdered in Atlanta, GA this weekend.

he went by his nickname 'Chevy' he was originally from Macon, GA. he owned Evollusion, which is a black/ queer owned LGBTQ+ salon in Atlanta that provided and dedicated full service to specializing in hair, nails, barbering and makeup. growing up as young black queer boys/kids, the barbershop experience can sometimes be a tricky space to occupy, this was something that Chevy understood and wanted to cultivate a space of safety where you can also get the affirming look and style you want, and he did exactly that.

Chevy was a beloved son, brother, partner, and father.

one of his last posts that had a photo of himself said :

"if you truly know me, you know i am a humble, modest, private man, that i love my community, i have the love of God in me and will give the shirt off my back to any soul in need, also i never post pictures of myself, legaey give myself credit, that stops today, i am my legacy!"

(a close friend of Chevy asked if i could share more then one photo of Chevy, since he never posted photos of himself and in recent years he got the confidence to want to share more photos and now he won't get the chance to)

Chevy, hey king, hey brother, hey angel, thank you for everything, i lové you, we lové you, i'm so sorry. there are a lot of photographers in heaven who will be able to photograph you as the glorious black trans angel that you are.

there will be a homegoing service/memorial for our brother

there aren't many details about what happened but apparently he was shot by a family member last wednesday, the 28th (at least this article was the one linked in relation to his murder.)

judging by both the IG post and the comments section he was well-loved by many people and those people have many good memories with him and nothing but good things to say. this is a comment that was left by tirajmeansgolden which was hidden by IG for some reason:

I started testosterone in February 2020. I hit this man up at the end of 2019 after numerous Google searches for an LGBT-friendly barber near me (and by near me... he was a good 35-40 minutes from the rural area I was in outside of Atlanta: but when I found out he was a trans man and that his business was the first and only LGBT hair bar, I knew it would be worth the trip). I was a dysphoric mess in his DMs one Sunday. I hated how my hair was growing out. I never had a "masculine" hairstyle before but decided one day I would buzz it all off myself, then allowed it to grow out a bit... I sent him a video and despite him being closed on Sunday, he told me to come through. I got my hair braided and he gave me my first really masculine fade. Explained the different terms. Lined me up. Was asking me about my decision to transition and provided some helpful advice + guidance. I told him how I was a therapist and he was hype and said he talked with a group of trans men and he would love for me to stop by and also give some mental health tips. So whoever said he was humble - wow, what an understatement. Such a community man! Made me feel SO comfortable because barbershops were a source of major trauma and triggers for me. They were such an integral part of my early transition (I just celebrated 4 years later week). And he was such an integral part of the Atlanta Queer community with hosting events like Queer Con. How I found so many other great resources + queer businesses/artists. May you rest in peace, Chevy. You'll be missed. You've made such a different in the lives of countless people. You definitely were living your Purpose + left a legacy behind ...

#op #rest in power #black trans lives matter #death - #black death - #trans death - #didn't add a tw to the top of this post at first. sorry everyone.