#im FINE I'M GREAT :))))))))

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I'm sorry I let down my guard.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #xue yang #xiao xingchen #God DAMN this scene was brutal. Season 2 episode 2 is almost nothing but misery and anguish #Helena by Nickle Creek does not quite fit the comic's vibe but it is absolutely a Xue Yang song so I linked it. #The change from “Helena don't walk away...(gentle)” to “HELENA. DON'T WALK AWAY (threat)” is fantastic. #And “Don't waste your pretty sympathy - I'll always be just fine”. Xue Yang core. #Okay now for the real meat. Disclaimer first: *I really like XY.* I think he's a great character. I think his actions consistently- #come from a place of deep trauma. While his reactions and actions put him in a villainous role he is still human about his hurt #and what I'm about to say is NOT intended to be a statement of causality or villianize a group of misunderstood people. #So with that said...Man oh man does Xue Yang have a lot of BPD traits. More that just 'character who is chronically manipulative'. #The impulsivity and emotional reactions and seeking stability makes him feel like he needs that control. What other choice is there? #The part that really gets me is how he *wants* to be safe and happy. But his past experiences tell him how thats impossible #He's the kind of person who goes 'if you don't like me then you better hate me for something substantial". All (pos) or All (neg) #''Love me entirely or Hate me. But don't you dare leave me or forget about me.'' #Not at all comfortable saying 'BPD coded'. Im not a psychiatrist. Just that he has TRAITS. Feel free to disagree or add your thoughts. #ppl with bpd also are not a monolith and everyone has very different experiences. Xue yang is very complex. People more so.

[sleepsucks]

#22.12.22 #3208 #books r still a great gift i just felt silly about it bc i 1/ got that for all gifts 2/ it was 100% last minute i hadnt managed it earlier #also i didnt actually read them after they were gifted though so eh #& hiiii hihi im back i got a new psu delivered fast and now pc works again so that was actually the issue hurray no sweat #postin this one manually and then i'll go fill the queue some more #the impending threat on it now though is i havent managed to keep up with coloring lately and i'm running out fast #but i'll get back to it its fine (probably)

[ivywritesstuff]

Ok, ok, ok, here me out.

In s1, Aziraphale says that he eats sushi because it's "what humans do".

In s2, he says that falling in love is "what humans do"...

So...

Yeah

#i'm doing great :D #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens theory #ineffable husbands #im coping #its fine #ill go cry now

[cozylittleartblog]

∠( ᐛ 」∠)＿ya boi made washi tapes, please consider Purchasing them. at cozylittleartshoppe on etsy. good print, good sticc, i am obsessed

#small business #washi tape #portal 2 #infinity train #the owl house #etsy #support small business #there were sticky notes! they dont stick very good. they kinda have a couple problems. im still talkin it thru with my manu as of queueing #the print is ok - the print is great actually! they just dont. stick. and that's one thing #but they leave just a liiiitttle bit of sticky residue on the Next notepad in the stack #and you can see it #and it sticks just a little bit on the front of that next note. like 1/10 sticky; MAYBE 2/10 if ur unlucky. #if you tend to washi-tape your notes up anyway it's probably fine but im not sure what i'll do with them yet #but i have Two Hundred of them so uhhhhh #i'm thinking i'll sell them at a big discount. because they're still pretty ok as memo pads! but i have to see what my manu decides to do #which is such a shame because they LOOK really really really cool!!!!!! they just dont Sticky good #but also i have people buy seconds all the time and say 'i dont even know whats wrong with this' so i wonder if #my standards are way too high and people really would be ok buying these for like 50% off or something #hrmmmm. send dms/replies/asks (anons on) if you have any opinions #im hearing from other shop owners that generally unless its officially post-it brand it doesnt stick very well #but custom print post its are very expensive OTL so i think for now i'll just make non-stick post its in the future #the washis are beautiful and perfect though. i love the washis. beautiful perfect flawless tapes. they even have stickers on the side!!

[brown-little-robin]

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#Robin processes emotions on main #im feeling so overwhelmed today :((( #everything is too much and I can't do it #I'm sure I'll survive the semester and do Fine but it's all so much and I just want to stop #I just. I just want to stop. I want to slow down #I could enjoy these classes and projects I know I could—if I had enough time to concentrate on any of them 😭 🐀 #WAAAAAAH #also my sensory sensitivity is acting up which is Just Great!!! #I wanna stoppp I don't want to have to keep up in class I want to talk to my friends more I'm lonely. #SNIFF.

[britneyshakespeare]

do you ever feel like people only like chick-fil-a so much because they're not supposed to

#i've only had their food like twice in my life (for the longest time i didn't live close to one) #like i don't get it #text post #i don't see ppl talk so fondly about other fast food restaurants in the same way #well i mean sometimes. some people do. if they're genuinely like fond of one for some specific personal reason #but like the certain endearment it's just normal to express about chick-fil-a... i don't get it!! #and im just supposed to grit my teeth and not bring the word 'homophobia' into it #again im not like accustomed to their food admittedly but the few times ive had it. its NOT that great #maybe this is also a northeastern thing for me. maybe it's different where u grow up #i see more locations near me popping up nowadays but perhaps if u live in the south it felt more like your upbringing #idfk. i know i'm not spouting an unpopular opinion on tumblr by saying Chick-fil-A Bad #but when i see normies where i live being excited about new locations popping up im like. hm. well we all know right... #ur fine w sending this message to your queer friends and family? ....... ok #yeah go get that disrespectful ass lemonade then

[sesamenom]

dear british silm people: where approximately would be a good place for the Dagorath final battle to happen?

#silm #silmarillion #geography #britain #i'm working on writing/drawing the maglorath #and at least in my hc/maglorathverse modern british isles = tol himling #and i want the battle to happen there as a symbolic thing #but i am very much not british and have no clue where to put it #and i don't really want to invent an entirely new place? like im fine changing something where theres just a parking lot or ikea irl #but i don't want to just tape a fake peninsula onto your country #btw if you have a good semi-secluded suburban area to tentatively place maglors neighborhood in that would be great too #but that one's easier to excuse bc his presence does weird things to the area anyways #so it could easily be somewhere not visible/accessible to humans

[havegaysex]

Why are you telling people to vote for the guy committing genocide :/

because voting is not an endorsement it's harm reduction.

Trump is going to be at best doing the same as Biden and likely much worse for Palestinians and all the countries suffering from American Imperialism than Biden is.

Republicans want to bring back child labor and get rid of social security, medicare, Medicaid. As someone who is surviving on Medicaid and social security I don't want those taken away. The Republican majority house already put a lot of limits on food stamps in this past term and I don't think we'll still have food stamps if we get a republican Congress and a Republican president.

They've made it pretty clear that if they get a republican Congress and a Republican president they're going to enact project 2025 and call a conference of states and try and take our rights back to the days when only wealthy white men had any rights when women and racial minorities had no rights, they want to make it illegal for LGBT+ folks to safely exist in public and get lifesaving healthcare.

In short

Do I support every single thing Biden has done as president?

No.

Do I like him?

Not particularly. But I'm still voting for him because apathy is not a choice.

Do I think that Joe Biden having another term means that we can actually make more progress for labor rights, trans healthcare, abortion access, advancement of the rights and protections for disabled people and so much more?

Yes absolutely.

Do I think that the genocide in Gaza needs to end and the United States needs to stop sending weapons to israel?

Yes, I think that un restricted flow of humanitarian aid into Palestine needs to happen, the siege needs to stop, and the country of Israel and the United States need to be held accountable at an international level. I think that the soldiers of the IDF/IOF need to be held accountable for their war crimes and pillaging that they continuously post evidence of on social medias. I'm trying to put a read more here so ce I've put a few linked articles and quotes from them.

A quote from the article below:

"While our map focuses solely on high school aged youth (age 13-17), some states, such as Oklahoma, Texas, and South Carolina, have considered banning care for transgender people up to 26 years of age. "

I've seen lawmakers in some states try to make it felony punishable by life in prison to get your trans child healthcare to keep them alive because they want to make it illegal for us to exist and a legal for anyone who helps us exist.

some quotes from the article above:

"Led by the long-established Heritage Foundation think tank and fueled by former Trump administration officials, the far-reaching effort is essentially a government-in-waiting for the former president’s second term — or any candidate who aligns with their ideals and can defeat President Joe Biden in 2024. With a nearly 1,000-page “Project 2025” handbook and an “army” of Americans, the idea is to have the civic infrastructure in place on Day One to commandeer, reshape and do away with what Republicans deride as the “deep state” bureaucracy, in part by firing as many as 50,000 federal workers. “We need to flood the zone with conservatives,” said Paul Dans, director of the 2025 Presidential Transition Project and a former Trump administration official who speaks with historical flourish about the undertaking. “This is a clarion call to come to Washington,” he said. “People need to lay down their tools, and step aside from their professional life and say, ‘This is my lifetime moment to serve.’” The unprecedented effort is being orchestrated with dozens of right-flank organizations, many new to Washington, and represents a changed approach from conservatives, who traditionally have sought to limit the federal government by cutting federal taxes and slashing federal spending. Instead, Trump-era conservatives want to gut the “administrative state” from within, by ousting federal employees they believe are standing in the way of the president’s agenda and replacing them with like-minded officials more eager to fulfill a new executive’s approach to governing. The goal is to avoid the pitfalls of Trump’s first years in office, when the Republican president’s team was ill-prepared, his Cabinet nominees had trouble winning Senate confirmation and policies were met with resistance — by lawmakers, government workers and even Trump’s own appointees who refused to bend or break protocol, or in some cases violate laws, to achieve his goals. While many of the Project 2025 proposals are inspired by Trump, they are being echoed by GOP rivals Ron DeSantis and Vivek Ramaswamy and are gaining prominence among other Republicans. And if Trump wins a second term, the work from the Heritage coalition ensures the president will have the personnel to carry forward his unfinished White House business. “The president Day One will be a wrecking ball for the administrative state,” said Russ Vought, a former Trump administration official involved in the effort who is now president at the conservative Center for Renewing America. Much of the new president’s agenda would be accomplished by reinstating what’s called Schedule F — a Trump-era executive order that would reclassify tens of thousands of the 2 million federal employees as essentially at-will workers who could more easily be fired. Biden had rescinded the executive order upon taking office in 2021, but Trump — and other presidential hopefuls — now vow to reinstate it."

"There’s a “top to bottom overhaul” of the Department of Justice, particularly curbing its independence and ending FBI efforts to combat the spread of misinformation. It calls for stepped-up prosecution of anyone providing or distributing abortion pills by mail."

Personally I think that voting for Joe Biden is better than someone who wants to enact this stuff on day one. It's like they read handmaid's tale and want to make that the reality of this country.

"Chapter by chapter, the pages offer a how-to manual for the next president, similar to one Heritage produced 50 years ago, ahead of the Ronald Reagan administration. Authored by some of today’s most prominent thinkers in the conservative movement, it’s often sprinkled with apocalyptic language." Ronald Reagan is a big reason we have a lot of problems we have today with our economy and with a lot more things. The people that supported Ronald Reagan do not need another term in office.

A quote from the article linked below:

"Trump has given no indication that he would be more sympathetic to Palestinian claims, nor that he would place more pressure on Israel to agree to a ceasefire. “The approach of the United States would be that Israel needs to win this war, it was attacked brutally,” Trump’s ambassador to Israel, David Friedman, told the Jewish Telegraphic Agency, describing how Trump would act. Friedman is now a campaign surrogate for Trump."

Personally I think Trump telling Israel to finish the job is indicators that another Trump presidency doesn't mean that weapons would stop being sent to Israel from United States

I fail to see how another term of Donald trump will be any better for the victims of the ongoing genocide in Palestine than President Joe Biden.

i think our system is absolutely messed up and broken but I don't think abstaining from voting is going to actually help.

#I don't support the genocide happening but I don't think that a republican will improve the situation happening in Gaza #I think that there needs to be a lot more grassroots effort for any third party candidate to be viable on the presidential level #We have two choices this election another term of Biden or another trump term #(if by some miracle the republicans managed to elect anyone else for their party nomination I still don't believe that a republican will #Improve the situation of Gaza or anything the United States is doing in the international level) #Asks #Mutuals #Im open to having further discussion about this #Also since this wasn't a DM or marked for private response I'm assuming you're fine with me posting my answer publicly. #I tried to pick out decent articles to link sorry if there not the best #None of my responses above are me trying to be hostile or combative #I'm genuinely trying to answer this question and I am not great at proofreading before posting but I did try here #vote blue no matter who #vote biden #vote democrat #vote blue #voting #us elections #election 2024 #trump 2024 #2024 election #biden 2024 #biden administration #president biden #joe biden #2024 elections #kamala harris #palestine #Israel

[deer-with-a-stick]

if netflix makes Luo Ji non-chinese I'm going to throw myself off a fucking cliff

#*incoherent screaming* #if i have to see another “but netflix has to make the characters appeal to the bigger audience” comment im going to fucking lose it #i have a bar of deviation for adaptations. examples: #lotr: its all fine and dandy i love it #the hobbit: getting a little close to dangerous territory but i'll take it #dune: perfection #foundation: no wtf #rop: DO NOT FUCKING SPEAK TO ME OF THIS SHOW #i will still watch 3bd when it comes out #but I will be fucking PISSED if what i'm seeing about the characters is real #“give them personalities” ok yeah sure im fine with that #“the plot affects the entire population of the earth” ok sure but why are 75% of the cast non asian now. #“we need diversity! plus you need the audience to appeal to the audience” im going to fucking bite you. fuck off. #no hate to the actors i'm sure they did a great job its not their fault anyway #but seriously if they made luo ji non-chinese im actually going to fucking lose it #3 body problem #three body problem #remembrance of earth's past #netflix #actually if they made zhang beihai non-chinese as well then i'm just going to- *internal screaming*

[crimeronan]

you know i don't think i ever screamed here about how the emperor's clothes look even better on luz than they do on belos. which is amazing cuz OHHH MY GOD. i know i SHOULDN'T say it sorry luz i know you're having your worst nightmare and would rather be wearing Literally Anything Else and i should Not be so pleased by the fashion taste of the actual literal worst person alive but GOD SHE LOOKS SO GOOOOOODDDDDD

THE FUCKING FITTED PRACTICAL ARMOR.... THE GREAVES..... THE GLOVES...... THE WAY THE CAPE SOFTENS THE HARD-EDGED SILHOUETTE AND ALSO MAKES IT MORE INTIMIDATING..... baby girl i'm so sorry you're having the worst time of your life but the fucking Gender Envy your nightmare self is giving me is UNREAL.

#BOLTED up in bed wide awake thinking this after an hour of sleep. now i go back to bed #im allowed to say this now that we know she's fine. what a great design #i'm not sure which of the artists did the modeling/fit for her emperor outfit BUT IT REALLY IS EXCEPTIONAL #SO GOOD. #toh #luz noceda #toh spoilers ig #belos toh

[writterings]

ngl the ao3 thing got me fucked because i've been getting more and more distrusting of the idea that things on the internet will always be accessible and i've been archiving media i like onto cds/dvds and stuff but i just haven't gotten around to downloading fics and i'm actually really upset about the idea of never being able to access certain stories again and the general fear that an online space of creativity would be lost. like the reports all say that it's being managed and the site will only be down for a few weeks at most but like STILL.

#i think this is also hitting me because i read this one fic that helped me break up with my most recent ex #and it wasn't a finished fic and the last chapter just came out and i didn't get a chance to read it yet #because i've been busy #so like. damn! #like i'm actually okay i'm just having some minor anxiety over this #i choose to believe everything will turn out fine but! yknow how anxiety works #i don't talk abt it a lot on here but fanfic was and is actually very formative to me and it's a great way of self expression to me 😅 #i don't fandom post a lot on this blog bc i wanna avoid discourse but im balls deep in so many fandoms on a lot of side blogs

[ratinthevoid]

it's cruel cruel world for people who need 9 hours of sleep every night

#one thing is there's so much to do it's physically just hard #the other thing is you keep getting shamed for this?? like fine u can function well on 5h sleep or u love capitalism #or im sorry if u don't have any other option but tbh u should just be angry with me #ik there are ppl who function great on 6-7h of sleep and it can be healthy for some #not for me tho #i'm chronically fatigued and on these rare moments when i could sleep 9h every day it improved my health and mood like nothing else

[thebewilderer]

I'm almost finished* with my current project!

*read: almost out of thread on the bobbins because I don't have a plan for the lace and thus don't have a planned stopping point for length

(pattern is a modified-by-me version of this Framed Rose Ground)

And I'm super excited to start the next one!

(pattern is this Roman Maze)

It's probably way too advanced for my skill level, as I really haven't made many pieces before (the pattern in the first picture twice, a bookmark piece with spiders and Torchon ground, a bookmark with Torchon ground and one diamond of cloth stitch, and then another bookmark piece of just Torchon ground).

I've also never done a mat of any sort before, or worked with gimps at all, which this pattern has a frankly ridiculous amount of.

But I've learned that doing pieces I'm already capable of is incredibly boring for me. The first piece that I did was just Torchon ground with twisted footside, and it was so boring and unchallenging (and also looked like I could crochet it in minutes) that I almost gave up lace making as soon as I started.

So I've figured that the best way to keep my own interest is to jump headfirst into the deep end and flounder until I figure out how to swim!

That said, if anyone has any advice on gimps (do you really not secure them to the rest of the lace? do you really just rely on the surrounding twists to hold them in place??! that seems insanely tenuous!), it's more than welcome!

#bobbin lace #lace making #im SO serious about gimp help btw im so nervous about them not being secure #which is probably why i shouldnt start with a mat that has a thousand million billion of them but cest la vie #im thinking about doing a double gimp and winding it around the starting twist? just to assuage my nervousness about it coming unwound #also if anyone has gimp help sources thatd be great i can only find a few for some reason #and the few are definitely geared towards people who already know what they're doing and not complete noobs #but if not that's fine i'm sure i'll figure it out :-) #ih #rose crafts #pers

[stoneskipping]

✨📝🔎 !

#the great ace attorney #iris wilson #herlock sholmes #iris watson #sherlock holmes dgs #tgaa #my art #ace attorney #fanart #i'm shy bc these are the first finished pieces im posting here #i'm not super happy with how iris turned out #but she doesn't look awful either #so it's fine #both pieces use the same palette btw #alcohol based markers #traditional art

[imagineagreatadventure]

i don't know how to put this into words exactly but I'm not really happy where i'm at job wise rn. it feels like pulling teeth for me to work right now. and that's kind of the opposite of who i am as a person - i'm an overworker usually. and that's probably a good thing to get a break from that aspect of my personality (bc why overwork for the boss man amirite) but also...... i'm just not happy?

and i can't tell what exactly it's stemming from - if it's the people (tbh doubtful, i like everyone but i also have no super bestie work friend like i've had at prev jobs), or the work itself (which I used to love doing), or the industry (i have been in it a long time), or maybe it is where i work (which tbh is a pretty good place to work so again doubtful?) - or if it's nothing to do with my job and all to do with other stuff going on in my life?

idk i'm just..... I feel kind of bored and over it. like i usually hit this wall when I feel like there's nothing more to learn at where i'm at but that's not quite what's happening. there's still a lot to learn - but I'm just not sure i want to learn it.

and until i know what the hell the exact issue(s) are here i don't feel confident to go looking for the next job. because I would likely end up in a worse place until i know what is up.

anyhow any advice isn't necessary but appreciated because i'm feeling odd about the whole thing.

#personal stuff edition #but there's a lot of great aspects to my job too so im' like ugh #also i hate job searching #so there's that #but something isn't right and i'm not sure what it is #but i feel an urge to leave and have been since like may last year #and it's not exactly grown or shrunk but stayed the same and the sound has just got louder recently #like honestly maybe i just need three months off and then i'd be fine but that's impossible in this current reality so here we are

[sga-owns-my-soul]

crying at 7am bc your best friends are Science Brains and try to explain the Cool Concept of Dimensionality to you but you are Too Dumb To Understand

#DONT CALL ME SMART!!!!!!! #I AM NOT AND THATS OKAY #IM A DUMB BITCH AND THATS FINE #okay moving on #i'm so confused #literally how does the y axis change based on what you're doing #how is it measuring different things in different contexts #and how the fuck is TIME a dimension!!!!!!!! #HOW DOES THAT MAKE SENSE #'well bc you can be in the same location at two different times and it's technically a different location' i'm gonna cry what does that MEAN #HUH #mushroom i love you and i love that your interested in so many amazing things #but i'm SO CONFUSED #science side of tumblr do NOT explain #my poor brain #my partner tried explaining it to me too and that made me more confused #what a great way to start the day 😂😂 #literally so lost #science brains yall scare me just a little bit #im only mostly sure that you aren't all just doing witchcraft #insanity #anyways #personal rambles #mushroom and stick against the world #not stargate