#is unhealthy and I should get over

[lesbiantvfish]

This is Ditzy Doo’s strongest warrior speaking, how may I help you

#mlp #ditzy doo #since my family is all around very unhealthy I’ve seen the development of a one eye disfunction. #in some cases wearing an eye patch over the healthier eye can help strengthen the weaker #if it’s past the point of reversing you should still wear an eyepatch since the double vision can get really bad #my double vision is from chirari and also in both eyes. I can’t wear two eye patches and benefit from it #anthro mlp

[shima-draws]

Kieran has me in a chokehold. His character arc is so GOOD. You can tell that his bitterness and anger doesn’t just come from everything that’s happened to him recently. It’s pretty obvious that he’s been living in Carmine’s shadow for a LONG time and she’s always kinda treated him badly. But it wasn’t until the player character came along that he was finally able to voice that in his own way;; Just when he thinks he’s made a true friend in someone, someone that can and will stand up to his sister and is able to defeat her in battle (which inspires him to start speaking up for himself more), Carmine steals them away. And that’s a big betrayal to him. He clearly has self esteem issues which leads to him thinking that Carmine was talking shit about him behind his back and getting the player to believe that he wasn’t worth being friends with. And that makes him think both of them were laughing at him and making fun of him. And THEN the player goes and takes the last thing that Kieran has, the last thing he truly cares about: Ogerpon. It’s no wonder he got so frustrated and petty and lashed out 😭 Still breaks my heart to see but they did a really good job showing that progression of him losing more and more of his patience with Carmine. And him generally feeling like everything he cares about is being torn away. And losing to the player over and over just makes things WORSE. He’s not strong enough to beat them, he’s not strong enough to stand up to his sister, he’s not strong enough to be worthy of Ogerpon, he’s not strong. He needs to get stronger. Stronger and stronger and stronger.

GODDDD. He’s going to live rent free in my brain forever now. I can’t wait to see the direction they take with him in The Indigo Disk

#Pokemon #Pokemon SV spoilers #Pokemon Scarlet and Violet #Pokemon DLC spoilers #Kieran #The Teal Mask #Pokemon Kieran #Pokemon SV #Ogerpon #Pokemon Carmine #Also don’t even get me started on his unhealthy attachment to Ogerpon. Probably also due to Carmine and his general upbringing and behavior #AND how he starts to view Ogerpon as more of a tool/object than a living being #When Carmine was like ‘Bro you’re fighting over who gets to keep Ogerpon? Don’t you think you should let OGERPON choose??’ #He wasn’t being considerate to Ogerpon’s feelings at all 😭 #He probably thought that by getting to keep Ogerpon he’d gain back some sense of control. And also power over the player #God my poor poor boy. I hope things resolve for you in TID #Shima speaks

[fernlessbastard]

hot take moment cwilbur is literally just psychotic as all hell and i think people got way too comfortable villianizing the shit out of a man who was clearly portraying signs of severe mental illness. cwilbur was like im so fucking paranoid and scared and i think everyone is out to get me and hurt me and ive spiralled to the point i cant reach out to the people closest to me because im so afraid and lost in this spiral and im having constant panic attacks and hurting myself because i dong know what to do with myself and the only way out for me is to die. and everybody was like EVIL MAN WHO ENJOYS HURTING OTHERS AND IS ABUSIVE ON PURPOSE AND A VILLAIN AND SHOULD NEVER BE TRUSTED AGAIN. and then he came back and was like im still deeply troubled and afraid but im desperately trying to make up for the wrongs i did in the past and the people i hurt in my own way and communication is really hard for me but i hope people know that im truely sorry and i love them. im going to try my hardest to fix this in the only way i know how and then respectfully remove myself from the situation because i feel thats the kindest thing i can do to the people ive hurt. and people were like ABUSER ABUSER ABUSER EVIL MAN ABUSER. like girl

Yeah no based true real no questions asked

I'd hope I manage to portray Wilbur the way he deserves in my content, cause that man is heavily bpd coded and he just needs therapy and someone who genuinely loves him but also can handle his bullshit (which has exclusively and reliably been Quackity like, canonically)

But yeah no completely agreed. The man has issues and has definitely fucked up a lot but at the end of the day he really does need love and care and patience, but also boundaries (and therapy and meds, obviously)

#i deeeefinitely have no reason to have strong feelings about bpd bitches deserving love and care and stability ha ha nooo it's definitely- #-not like I've been dating one for well over 4 years now and even though we've been through so much shit together and I still can't- #-understand why people with bpd and conditions that have similar symptoms are so demonised. It just makes no sense to me. #my bf is the love of my life and i can't imagine /not/ supporting it through all the splitting and episodes and all of that cause they're- #-absolutely worth everything #i don't know not to be too gay on main but tbf it's too late now anyway i think-- #is it unstable? sure. but it's also the most caring and loving person i've ever been close with and it always makes sure i'm ok #and it loves me so undeniably deeply no matter what purely for who i am #i've never had anyone care about me this much and this genuinely and this unconditionally - it'd always be what /they/ can get out of /me/ #but my boyfriend just cares about me - the actual me - no matter if i'm acting how it imagined i'd act. what matters is if i'm /me/ #listen bpd isn't sunshine and rainbows - we've been through some TERRIBLE shit (including s-cide attempts) #but when people claim it makes a relationship toxic/abusive it's so stupid cause ultimately with mutual love support and reassurance- #-and professional help you can have a genuinely happy and healthy life with someone with bpd #love isn't mean to be easy. it's meant to be safe and supportive and genuine but a relationship always takes effort and work on both sides #you should never sacrifice your well being of course! #but when love takes effort and extra care it doesn't inherently mean it's unhealthy or toxic or abusive. it just means you're people. #tldr if you love someone then don't care about some diagnosis - care about the actual perso. #ask #asks #ask fern #tntduo #dsmp #tnt duo #wilbur soot #quackity #quackbur #dream smp #tntblr #c!quackbur #c!tntduo

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[ravonix]

get over urself dude

#social anxiety #disorganized attachment #vent art #ok to rb #i wanna leave this shit at home and just go out and have fun with my friends but my fucking brain gets in the way #so ur telling me isolating yourself and refusing to socialize for over a year ends up killing your social skills?? #haha das crazy lol #i know this is bad and unhealthy and i should be in therapy #but therapy's 'spensif #so im just taking the slow exposure therapy route #trying to get out more #but damn its hard

[caernua]

here it goes relapsing into a painful obsessive unhealthy crush bc you got thrown a bone after months and months when you've done actual difficult emotional labor to internalize rational thoughts like 'i don't even really know him that well i'm romanticizing the absence of that knowledge by filling it with whatever i want' and 'he doesn't really make an effort to reach out, don't i want someone who makes that effort for me?' and acted and kept your distance and minded your business and worked on yourself is the fucking worst like. WHAT ELSE AM I SUPPOSED TO DO. i hate men when will i be free of this 🗣️🗣️🗣️

#like seriously. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO #i know it's unhealthy. i know it's irrational. i know i don't even know him #i'm not even close to him to suggest meeting up #but it fucking hurts again and i want so badly to believe this pain will mean something #so like?? what do i do. I SHOULD BLOCK HIS ASS PROBABLY THAT'S THE ONLY ANSWER #i even like. went on another project abroad for many reasons not related to him but i was like #hey man maybe i’ll get another crush like i always do and i’ll be rid of him somehow!!! and you know what i kinda did BUT IT WASN’T ENOUGH😭 #why is being pathetic over someone. my default state. fuck man #but hey i’m leaving the country again in 3 weeks for a month fingers crossed am i right

[gibbearish]

yknow what bugs me is when ppls criticism of YA media boils down to them just not knowing how teenage crushes work

#'bella being depressed because edward wasnt at school is unhealthy obsession' no that's called having a crush #'him asking her out by them hearing a rumor saying theyre dating and bella going 'what should i say' +him responding 'well i guess you could #tell them yes. yknow just because its easier' is lame and boring' are you kidding me i ate that shit up at that age #when two shy awkward people flirt thats how you end up in a relationship is you both kind of just sidle your way up to it #and i dont even feel like that one contributes to like 'things abt him that arent necessarily red flags on their own but as a whole point to #bad things' like. from what i gathered feom the movie bella did not seem like the type to like some big first move #like. shes an emo bruh girl. if it wasnt some sort of edgy teenage heartthrob performance then shed just brush him off like #every other Conventionally Attractive Dude™ falling all over her #ppl keep acting like her not going for every other dude who wants her is a character flaw or bad writing but. like #literally just have you ever met a depressed teenage girl. #shes Not Like Other Girls™ and finds regular guys who express emotions in regular ways boring #her wanting him over every other bland boring safe guy she could have in an instant isnt a plot hole‚ its characterization #also i disagree with the vibe that she's just a blank slate like. as someone who was a depressed teenage girl #she didn't come across as blank to me #she came across as. depressed and emo and trying so very hard to look cool and mysterious at all times and had #spent her life up to that point praying to find out magic was real and could whisk her away into a life of adventure and romance and drama #you look me in the eyes and tell me that girl didn't spend middle school chewing through every book she could get her hands on #as fast as possible. #idk #origibberish

[rickktish]

The hypocritical dichotomy of “I have the right to separate myself from those who have hurt me, I hold no obligation to them or to the connections we once had” and “I will hold the people who have hurt me personally accountable for the pain they have caused me and prioritize myself above their feelings” is the kind of thing that makes me want to tear my hair out and start biting people

#this is about ‘going no contact’ with family members in case you couldn’t tell #i understand that the terrible things tend to float to the surface of the internet #and garner the most attention therefore getting the most upvotes and likes and highest priority on the youtube algorithm #but every time i read or hear a story about someone cutting their parents out of their life #i literally don’t know how to respond #like on the one hand yes its importnat to keep yourself safe #and if you are in an unsafe situation you should 100% remove yourself #but don’t act like you’re not also causing damage #if you’re upset with your parent/s for causing you damage by prioritizing their feelings/needs/wants/etc over yours #then doing the same thing to them isn’t actually fixing anything #and while it does carry with it a kind of poetic justice #you are in a lot of ways continuing an unhealthy behavior pattern that’s only taken on a new face #idk man #i just #do you ever lie awake at night considering your inherent hypocrisy? #do you ever wonder what kind of impact this is going to have on not only your personal future but that of those around you? #my mom still talks to her horrendous siblings and while I genuinely wouldn’t blame her for stopping because htey’re actively harmful #I also can get behind the personal honor and maintaining your own values in keeping up connections because you value the person #even when they continue to hurt you in order to feel better about themselves #actively saying ‘you are more important to me than the hurt that you continue to cause me’ takes a lot of guts #and i know if my siblibngs and i became their targets then things would change #but the fact that she’s willing to continue to take it from them as they continue to target her? #infintely admirable imo

[drewsaturday]

my motur experience is just about pairing lyn with as many freaky guys as possible. she did it to herself by trying to fuck skeletor, and beastman's gone. so joking about dragonfucking and weird orko chemistry is all i have left.

i know pairing her with teela isn't ~allowed~ because god forbid it be problematic with the context of past separate iterations instead of recognizing them as the adults they are in this show's context! oh no!

but i also think it's worth noting her preference for reptiles with granamyr translating over to training snake priestess teela lol.

#motur tag #i think my personal fave out of all the above was her and beastman and i liked the skeletor pining well enough #but it's fun to have options even if i do prefer some of the above as platonic as well #no she is not in a place where she should get into a relationship but sometimes you just want your fave to have #the option of weird sex or idk. healing process to romance who knows. #point is you can ship things without it being inherently unhealthy because you can use your brain and be creative about #how it could go down in a healthier way over time #but also who cares if it is unhealthy j;laksdflkj i didn't realize fandoms so heavily based around evil guys were here for purity #ANYWAYYY i am just a littel salty still that all my enthusiasm in season 1 got crushed so hard by certain fandom consensuses and that #was on me for letting it get to me as well so maybe i should go and use my brain and get creative to have FUN #with lyn and her freaky little guys <3 #if i can find enough passion about this season to do anything lol i wish i'd done more while riding the brainrot of s1 #shoutout s2 for giving me more freaky guys i guess

[dont-offend-the-bees]

There is Literally no reason for me to stay up and watch the rwrb movie the moment it drops i have read the book and will not be spoiled for this cheesy romcom but my stupid Don't Sleep Or Tomorrow Will Start brain is going and latching on to the idea of there being a New Thing and therefore and Incentive to stay awake

#i literally didn't sleep til 4am last night and felt like hell today #i should NOT repeat that #but by god i am falling bakc into some old unhealthy sleep habit lately #if i stay up for this stupid movie it will be like 3am when its over and then I'll also be like eh might as well watch wwdits live #and then i can just fucking kiss tomorrow goodbye can't i really #ugh #i love sleeping and being unconscious but then you see there's the having to repeat the whole rotten getting up and doing things thing again #and i have a few things i need to fit in tomorrow. not even bad things just things. so now I'm like. nope. #never enough time for all the things #mr. bees speaks

[rainswept]

working on something that will probably never see the light of day.. BUT IT LOOKS SO NICE i’m so sad.

#HSR is such a comfort for me i’m going to be honest #especially with huohuo being added? #like idk it’s just. giving me nostalgia to when i first started really getting into genshin #because the first character i ever wanted was hu tao #and they’re both.. spooky yk #augh.. i am so sad tonight for like no reason #i think i should just go to bed tbh that’s probably the issue #if anyone’s curious it’s a HSR network. because. i can’t help myself. but i am trying to help myself bc i already have st pavlov foundation #and the steambird (which isn’t a network but still) and i really… do not….. need to make another network…….. but i really want to #it’s something almost innate for me. every time i’d ever play a game with like #groups or guilds or clubs or whatever #any sort of thing like that #i would aaaaaalways make one. and i would have so much fun w it too. #it’s bled over into my tumblr life helppp #it was always a little bit unhealthy though. #like i would get SO invested into it that it would like. cause me stress. #which like.. isn’t good. #but i haven’t seen any purely HSR networks except for like 2 inactive ones and… #someone stop me actually. it’s the middle of the night. the sun is gonna come up soon. i need to sleep. not make choices. #i’m just gonna embarrass myself bye #especially if i keep rambling in the fucking TAGS ok i’m shutting up now #sorry followers/moots #byebye #me talking to myself like “see .. u literally have this in ur drafts rn.. u could just delete it” but then i go “but i already spent #x amount of time rambling and ppl could just like.. skip over this if they want to so why does it matter” #haha x amount of time. like x from the game reverse 1999 #stop i’m so tired goodbye I’M SO SORRY

[littlemisshaleybug]

i was lamenting about wanting a way to get high without the lasting effects or brain damage (I get weed hangovers) then i remembered ol' faithful!!!

✨dissociation!✨

#ive had a lot of feelings of shame and rejection and humiliation lately #feelings i cant really go to most of my peers for help #and i dont like getting high to solve my problems #i take half a 5 mg edible max dont worry #anyways #i just really feel like this era of being loved and cared about is coming to an end #and i wont have anyone around me soon #almost feel like i should be preparing to be alone again #and doesnt help that i feel like im behind in every possible way in life #dont get me started on the unhealthy relationship dynamics ive been holding onto #and my inability to juggle the things in my life i care about most #and the people who are supposed to care and understand are basically saying “yeah its not a big deal but it kinda is now so act like it” #ugh #i dont know #im sorry #im a failure in eery aspect of my life #and i have hurt so many people #i feel like a senior in highschool all over again

[cosmojjong]

gloomy thoughts :(

#debating whether i should retire myself in a bubble for the next two days and cry abt how much i hate time passing #or whether i should be around ppl and talk to friends and not isolate myself #it's been so long and i still have not found a healthy way for myself to wander over this grief #i just don't think i have ever dealt with it healthily and i tend to beat myself up for it too #i've been doing and i do my very best to comfort the friends around me and somehow it is helps even just a little #but i can't do the same for myself #i miss jonghyun a lot every single day and i wonder to which extent it's okay for me to feel this way #sometimes i wonder if i seriously need help and if this is acceptable #i don't know there are many thoughts in my head and i get the feeling that when i managed to get an idea of how big this grief is #it just starts expanding again #it feels like it's never-ending #for the most part i try to make the best out of each day and i am extremely grateful for jonghyun #i'm thankful for everything he did that i can resonate with and for the sensations and feelings i'm able to perceive #i'm thankful that he has been such a big part of my life sometimes even in making wise decisions for my path #i think one of the things that stings most is that i always carry a bit of regret with me #it follows me like a shadow #i have regrets for things i couldn't even control #it makes me quite upset that i sometimes cannot compromise between the good past things and the sad cruel reality of things #and sometimes i'm afraid i may actually never get over this #and it's not that it's unhealthy as in 'this is everything my life is about' #i still try to move forward with my life but there's so much on my plate #and then i think of how i'll never see his face or hear his voice again and it makes me so upset in ways i can't explain #there is so much weight you have to carry in order to move forward when you feel like you can't #it all just isn't fair no matter how much time passes #i'll always feel very conflicted and overwhelmed about it #and this is what i want to work on #but it is not easy #ik i sound literally delusional rn or maybe i do not #who knows

[solemntitty]

stomach rolls benign. possibly even good

#if i say it enough i will believe it abt myself #like im genuinely happy i gained weight bc like uhhhhhhhh #jamie has made a statement #personal #being underweight should be more regularly classified as a fucking health condition instead of fucking uhhhhhh no one ever worrying abt it #genuinely was scared of getting majorly ill and dying bc i didnt have enough fat #as well as i always had vision go dark when i got up suddenly #dont have that any more!!!! thank god!!!! #i think my worst bmi (idk what else my measurement was ik its a shit measurement) was like. 17 #in college lol i looked. unhealthy but it was 'pretty' and desirable to look Like That #which is FUCKED and i still thought i was fat at the time and was like. suuuuuper afraid of gaining weight #but also knew i needed to #had mild ED maybe???? idfk but now im chonkier :) and dont feel like a fucking large breeze could bowl me over lol #body image cw #ed tw #i guess #being 5'6“ and 109 pounds is Not Good For Anyone imo #like i know its 'not technically underweight' when youre at 18 BMI but again. the whole major illness thing

[lith-myathar]

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#while i do consider myself spiritual to an extent #more and more i am reaching a place of considering a lot of the spiritual community to be....not good for a lot of people #there's a LOT of magical thinking and validation of unhealthy behaviors as ''lessons'' or whatever #*eyes the youtube tarot community in particular* #and i speak from experience that it's easy to fall into especially when you're vulnerable #but no #that toxic ex isn't your ''twin flame'' or lover from a past life that you have to stay stuck on #even if they WERE #it wouldn't mean that in this life you should sit around pining #more often than not the lesson is that you need to get over it and move on and address the issues that made you obsessive #but hey that doesn't get these people their views #there is incentive for readers to keep you hooked #so consider perhaps that even if they mean well that they aren't helpful #i love my woowoo crap but spirituality should exist to inform Real Life #because that is what's important #that is what is in front of us and affects us #and that is what we need to engage with #not stay stuck in these trauma responses dressed up like divine guidance

[strwbrymlkshake]

I have not received any flirtations or romantic messages or affection in the past 24 hours. death death and maiming and killing

#mine #i am quite impatient recently. i feel like im getting more braindead :( #i miss my anon</3 they care me more than anyone else #i also wish 💿 would talk to me more. hes so offstandish lately. but maybe thats just his personality #i dont wanna beat myself up over being absent minded but . well i just looked up brain fog symptoms and its because im unhealthy LOL #this makes sense considering im typing this at 4:30am. i should try to get on a better sleep schedule and eat more consistently #i have been trying to do so but its difficult arrrgh maybe i should have set times for everything #but i like being absent minded sometimes because 💿 is flabbergasted abt my ignorance . which means. he gives me attention so #its not in a mean way its more in a doting way. but also absent father way. give me more attention ........ :(