#it cant make things worse

[molliemoo3]

Can someone perform an exorcism on Lance's car please??? Or whatever you do to get rid of curses because that car has to fucked up in some kinda paranormal way

#f1 #formula 1 #aston martin #lance stroll #ls18 #us gp 2023 #austin gp 2023 #maybe itll help #it cant make things worse #do Fernando's while your at it #but its always lance #how is it always him????

[skitskatdacat63]

DTS S6E1 "Money Talks" - Fernando Alonso & Lance Stroll

#thought i might as well gif these #only thing in that ep worth gifing..... #cant say im not disappointed #but ill take my chances where i cna get them again #but was literally fighting in the trenches making these #gifing shows is just infinitely worse than gifing race stuff #especially since yknow this just came out today so i had to figure out how to clip it #so if its a bit choppy thats why ah #i love how fernando is such a manlet that i kinda had to crop lance out bcs i wanted to focus on nando LOL #like its so odd bcs he really doesnt look that much shorter than lance on stage in the first two #but in the last two hes literally tiny???? literally two apples tall?????? #anywyas dont know if ill gif anymore of this show. it annoys me too much to watch anymore and i dont know if theres anymore of my guys #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #lance stroll #strollonso #we do a little bit of f1

[inkskinned]

im having a particularly terrible night with urges and imagery that i dont know how to handle. i gave in to some things. held back on some others. but im barely holding on, dear internet stranger.

you do not owe me your time or your words.. but if you could write some hope into existence for me.. i would be unendingly grateful to you.

please. tell me how you do it. tell me how you survive. because im not so sure i can get through the fifteen days it'll take to get to my seventeenth birthday.

could you please give me something to place my faith in? i dont think the universe is watching out for me anymore.

i don't usually answer these, because i am not a professional, and you deserve professional help. when i was 17 i was terrified of the idea of professional help, because my household was extremely unsafe, and made it clear that if i ever chose to get help, i would be punished for it.

i hope this is not your case. i hope that you can call someone, and they can take you where you should go.

but i will give you the advice that i wish i got, when i couldn't get help at 17, when i was so bad that years later, i literally don't-know-how-i-survived it: what you want is peace, not death. your brain is sick. it has romanticized an ending where there are no consequences. where effort isn't necessary. where you can just... forget.

you want peace. that is a normal, human thing to want. maybe it feels more like you want quiet. or just... to take a break for a second.

here is what i will say: to end yourself means you never get to experience what it's like to actually be happy. i thought i knew what it was like, and i was bitter about it. i'd say - i've been happy, it's not worth it, because i didn't know what i was missing. i thought that happiness meant having a partner or having a job or money or a college degree. it sounded like effort. it sounded like something that had to happen to me.

for the first time in my life, just this week, i was able to go to a concert and just-enjoy-it. no liquor, no drugs. just stomping my feet and getting caught up in it. i didn't feel nervous or self-conscious or overwhelmed. i just had a good time. these days have a lot of these firsts for me - it is the first time i can eat cake without crying. it is the first time i can be around an exacto blade without supervision. it is the first time i have too many people to call when i am crying.

i can't tell you where you'll run into happiness, only that, for me, it started once i was out of that fucking house. it started once i figured out where the pain was coming from. once i figured out that i was not possessed, something medical was wrong with me. that i am not stupid or lazy, i have depression and adhd. the first few years were difficult. at 19, during my efforts to recover, i actually got worse by a considerable margin. and then, with time and patience - i got better.

happiness doesn't feel like what you think it will. in movies it's so golden and all-encompassing. but it doesn't fly into your hands when you buy your first car nor does it arrive in the arms of a partner nor does it require passing your classes. happiness came to me on a tuesday in the form of a red-winged blackbird, and i looked at her, and she looked at me, and i said - oh. the whole world suddenly filled itself in with color. like i had been forever-asleep. like every corner of every room was suddenly glistening.

it ended quickly, back then. it just stopped in to check in on me. but it was enough - this thing i had never experienced, but that i knew (logically) could happen. before that, i was only staying because it would make my mom sad if i died. that was my only reason. and then the happiness came, so strange and brilliant and lovely that for years i couldn't even look at it directly.

these days, things are so different. life is so much easier. i don't wish for death because so much of what i have is already at peace. my boss understands when i need a mental health day. people in general are less prone to high school drama. entire communities hold my hand and have my number. i have a car and a dog and a little apartment garden and candles on all available surfaces and today i bought myself a little cake just-to-celebrate-nothing. my body is my own and we are both dancing.

there are so many things i've gotten to taste in the last 10 years. i know, for you, that is an eon, because it's more than half of your life. but if it helps? in the 5 years between 17-21: i filled myself with laughter and love. i got to be a lead in a ballet and got my first tattoo and then my second and pierced my ears the way i'd wanted to (one of them professionally the other over a hot stove with a potato) and i discovered hozier is my favorite singer (i know. he was new back then) and i got my first real job and my first real paycheck and i hadn't ever been seen as smart but then i started to actually treat my adhd as a condition rather than a burden and people started saying you're like the smartest person in the room and my best friend met her husband who i will one day stand next to as maid of honor when he is her groom and i got to help people and make a stupid blog called "inkskinned" and find out that writing is actually my passion and that maybe i'm actually kind of good at it if i just practice and i got to meet my parents' dog (his name is kaiju) and i slept on couches and kissed people and tried new things and learned how to breathe without feeling my chest tighten and that peace is here, on this planet, that peace echoes everywhere, it is in my hair and my homework and my houseplants, it is quiet and divine and mine because i fought for it and i built it and yes i lost hair over it but holy shit the whole world feels like it is shifted through a sunbeam

recently someone asked me if i could go back in time to 6th grade, with all the knowledge i have now, would i? and without thinking, i barked absolutely not. i know i should say it's because i wouldn't want to risk losing any of this stuff - but really it's because i would never survive being a teenager again. it sounds incredibly lame and impossible, fake - but being a teenager was the hardest thing i ever did. i had no voice, no control, only fear and hatred.

but i did survive it. nothing about me is special. nothing about me is stronger than you or better prepared or more efficient. i didn't survive it perfectly. i made a lot of mistakes and lost a lot of friends and harmed myself in ways that i'm still recovering from. but i did survive it. and there is a part of me looking at you in the past and saying - i'm you in the future.

and holy shit. every day. every goddamn day i'm glad we survived to see the rest of it. because you hit 18 and everything changes. like, everything. and holy shit, it is infinitely worth it.

#i hope you are okay #i wish i could help more #i hope the pain eases soon #and i hope that you stay #ps . to those of you reading this thinking i should help you too: please just dm me #it makes me really #really really scared when it's anonymous #bc i cant check in with u #i am not a professional and i am not actually good at helping ppl through their troubles #this is an exception bc they are 16 #not the rule #ps if u misunderstand ''being a teenager is the hardest thing i ever did'' when i mention briefly that i was in unsafe housing... #trust me. it was worse there. by like A HUGE margin #every person raised in unsafe housing nodding their head like . oh yeah worse stuff TECHNICALLY happened after but leaving that home was #legit the hardest thing i ever did

[chesedelhim]

new discord update is like literally the worst update of an app ive ever experienced and im putting that over tumblr fucking live

#fire.txt #its so inaccessible and extremely rough on my muscle memory AND almost everything needs both hands to perform like #what about us who cant use both hands all the damn time. i have a lot of problems on my left side. this is so so bad #discord you arent a social media platform stop acting like one you're actively making things worse for the user experience. #at least give us a damn toggle

[deoidesign]

Just some thoughts about recent WEBTOON discourse from an originals creator. I recognize my inherent bias in this situation.

But please recognize that saying "fuck you" to a company means supporting the workers, not making them out to be unfortunate suckers... "would have/could have/should have's" don't get people out of situations.

"I never would have signed with them" is an incredibly tone-deaf thing to say. "this is why you shouldn't put all your eggs in one basket" is true, but it doesn't help people who are contractually obligated into exclusivity.

Most of us are making merch, running patreons, trying to get book deals, etc... and most of us aren't able to stop working and still pay our bills. we're trying. we'd all love to, but we can't.

If you really want things to be better, maybe try not putting down the people who are in the bad situation? it ends up feeling like people using our pain and mistreatment as an outlet to advertise themselves...

Our company is getting worse and worse by the year and we're risking a lot to talk about it! Please listen! The only power we have is complaining about things, and it's risky every time!

#I support people making their own sites #I HAVE my own site #I have a patreon #I sell books #I sell merch #I'm trying to market myself #and I've never made more than $400 in a month on my own on my comics #I cant drive and I cant work most jobs #I needed to leave an emotionally abusive situation #my company is getting worse and worse in ways that were completely unforseeable when I signed #which was YEARS ago #The current situation was NOTHING like it was then #so maybe dont act like you had future sight #its so rude #its so condescending... #this is my JOB #and we're risking a LOT to tell you about these things

[honkytonka]

TAKE AUDACITY FUCKING AWAY FROM ME

#ramattra #how does one tag this #ramattra x reader #reader insert #BUT NOT REALLY? for other freaks that read x reader stuff too #maybe you'll like this kind of thing #um anyway this is too much power. and with time to really edit the lines rather than just splice them together? #could you imagine #but i cant make fun of people with dakis anymore this is surely worse

[batcavescolony]

Shut up she's doing her best and sometimes your best hurts.

#she was NINETEEN when she had Percy. she did it on her own! her parents are dead. and she has ro prepare percy for a world she cant tell him #about. cus the second he know ittle get worse. `shes horrible in the show. shes not kind' bffr why? BECAUSE THE BOOKS ARE FROM PERCY POV #she perfect cus thats how percy sees her. but now the show isnt from percy pov and we see sally as she is. a stresses out SINGLE mother of #neurodivergent demigod who has no support system. shes human! she's gonna make mistakes. shes gonna be stressed. but she loves her son so #much and percy loves her. its adding layers to her character. shes never been weak shes never been meak shes never been a push over #but i swear that what some of you want! she can be motherly and stubborn WHERE DO YOU THINK PERCY GOT IT FROM!! she can be kind and need to #teach hard lessons. she can be more then one thing. #sally jackson #percy jackson #batcavescoloy watches the PJO tv show #batcavescolony watches #pjo #pjo tv series #pjo series #pjo show #pjo tv #pho tv show #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson and the olympians #percy jackson tv show #percy jackson tv series

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

oh yea um

Sundown "Sunny" Summer (lazy) ref!

#IM FINALLY HAPPY WITH HER COLORS!!!! #SORRY ABOUT THE STARS. I WAS IN SALLY MODE AND FORGOT WHAT NORMAL STAR SHAPES ARE #AND IM TOO LAZY TO GO BACK AND FIX IT <3 #also shoutout to akemi for inspiring the lil chains connecting the stars. pure Genius if i may! #but yes! she finally looks like a sunset! #and she'll mesh with ryan better <3 #her legs wont disappear when she rides him!!! #scribble salad #forced idiots <3 #oc #original character #puppet oc #my beloved little showman <3 #there are so many things wrong with her <3 #i cant believe the worst people ever are going to simultaneously fix her and make her Worse in new fun festive ways....

[6-2-aestheticsofhate]

This is one of the worst things I've ever created. Based off the Gabriel stream Gianni did and how Gianni implied he was just fucking the cast from Supernatural non stop (I cannot find the part of the stream with Castiel in specific.)

Textless and backgroundless versions below the cut. If you'd like to make your own edits of Gabriel as Drac

original:

#Ultrakill #Gabriel #Gabriel Ultrakill #I'm. not even putting this in my art tag. i cant. this is literally the worst thing I've ever made #... #so far #theres always time to make worse and worse creations

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[ohitslen]

They would be so insufferable once they got together I’m telling you right now

Request by @molten-rainbows!💖✨✨

Uni-fying the requests because.

#worst double date ever when those guys keep getting denied access to many places for a second ride #for context! they aren’t the biggest fans of pda actually #they got lost inside the haunted house that also worked like a maze of the sorts. Meryl and Milly got out first and waited for them to #come out. but they never did. Meryl asked for security to look for them and they were caught in a place they shouldn’t be at #when asked abt the hickeys. they say they were hiding from someone who was chasing them. Vash covered WW mouth and he bit his palm #so Vash bit his hand in return. and bc they’re losers they kept going until things started to escalate and well #things ended up like that. and now they can’t get into the haunted house again. #Meryl considers not letting them be too far away from their line of sight because they are bastards separately and how together they are #somehow even worse. Milly won’t really interfere but would stop them if they start anything in public #which they wouldn’t. but they all know that would be a consequence #I cant for the love of me draw with at least a little bit of context behind it even if it’s just three panels OQJWK #without AA i make so many mistakes but whatever #trigun #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun stampede #vashwood #vash #wolfwood #nicholas trigun #trigun fanart #meryl stryfe #milly thompson #millymeryl #the girls finally OQNWM #lenssi draws #Trigun Uni! AU #take the color palette as a grain of salt I have zero consistency. also the style I guess

[daftpatience]

one thing I have learned about being poor is that you cannot for a moment stop thinking about it

#theres no peace #every little thing reminds me we are poor #seeing friends having electricity wifi heat food gas. it all costs money. and bills and fees and charges happen all the damn time #im constantly worried that i am measing up somehow or im not keeping track of my finances properly #the person handling our disability assistance application keeps coming back with question after question about my job #and i have so much doubt and fear that ive made some mistake in my answers that will disqualify us from support #and theres this sick backwards stupid thing where applying for and being on disability support is discouraging me from trying to make money #because the more i make the less likely we'll get support but i need to make money to live #its just fucked. and once we're on support i have to make monthly reports of my income so ill feel like im explaining myself all the fuckin #time #cus the system isnt built in a way that makes sense for self employed ppl who have business expenses to account for #sorry for the ranting i cant sleep #truly truly i think poverty is making me a worse persin #more anxious more resentful more jealous more miserable more spiteful #i have so little and there is so little i can do to help it #i want things in a more desparate and even childish way than i used to eant things #spend a lot more time fantasizing about magically having expendable income #not to mention the constant exponential guilt that comes from asking for help or recieving help. its guilt i need to unlearn but i feel it

[heynhay]

mashing prompts together like theyre barbies and im making them kiss

#in a rare inversion i shade the bg instead of the figures #just felt right in this case #klance #voltron #vld #btw this would devolve into physical violence within seconds #theyd make it a competition and then theres a playful shove and next thing you know #theyre alternating between tussling and making out #god i hate them. #WHY DOES THE FRAMING CHANGE BETWEEN SHOTS. I AM SO BAD AT THIS #i cant tell if my anatomy is fr getting worse or if my confidence is just dropping #art #my art #ask #treesbian i love you but why the word 'squirm' #im still thinking about that anon earlier that said 'peel' in reference to keiths gloves #you silly guys and your colorful verbiage. #but for the record i agree he does #keith is blunt but often mispainted as obtuse #when really he knows how to flirt he just does it. aggressively. angrily. somehow #OK he can be a little oblivious when it comes to lance. but most of that would be pre slash. #hed be so determined not to 'ruin' things that he shuts down all his observations. but. once they start going out. #no holds barred baby #hes gonna WIN dating. #or so he thinks

[ot3]

i dont like the idea of an entire fionna and cake show for many reasons but i wont lie that a big one is if i have to see gumlee get more popular than bubbline i will literally become a domestic terrorist

#i also dont like that fionna like. has a figure. she should be tube shaped like finn. theres no reason for her not to be #'well its because the whole thing is the ice kings fanfi-' THATS WORSE #YOU SEE WHY THAT MAKES IT WORSE RIGHT #i know its not that deep but at the end of the day im mad because i just cant help but see this as #another tragic case of something old that deserves to rest on its laurels #having its corpse puppetted around as part of the endless ip recycling movement #honestly its an insult to the concept of recycling to call what corporations are doing to ip 'recycling'

[rat-rosemary]

Mmmmmmmm Dnn au where Sapnap and George are both selkies and they haven't told Dream but he knows, and he doesn't blame them for not telling him, he gets it, and they always keep their furs hidden until one day someone breaks into their home and steals their furs, and while the two of them are freaking out because this is literally the worst case scenario ever and what are they going to even tell Dream, Dream goes after the guys and just kills them

Except Dream fucked up and now he's freaking out because he got fucking blood on their coats! He can't give the coats back with blood in them, that would be so rude and gross and what if the blood sticks to it after it dries????

So Sapnap and George suddenly feel a new pair of hands touch their coats, different from the ones that had grabbed and thrown it around and hidden. No, these hands tremble slightly as they touch their furs and they feel so familiar and then there's the feeling of water which... is very weird? What the fuck is happening to their coats??

But yeah, Dream washes the blood off and them puts the coats in the drier on a low setting with a bunch of towels (which is a very very weird feeling to Sapnap and George) and he leaves the coats on their beds without them seeing and now they kinda smell like the laundry cleaner Dream uses and it drives George and Sapnap insane (/pos)

#dont come for me its way too early for me to be awake #just agsjavjsjemdkdk silly #at some point while Dream had the coats George and Sapnap stop freaking out about the coats being stolen #they just sit in the living room squinting at space trying to figure out what the fuck is even going on #while Dream frantically googles how to clean fun and tries not to cry because he cant make this very bad traumatic experience to his friend #worse by giving them their furs back with BLOOD in them #the dog barks #dream smp #dreamwastaken #sapnap #georgenotfound #dreamnotnap #dnn #dsmpshipping #dsmp au #dsmp shipping #the whole 'our furs now smell like you' thing rewires George's and Sapnap's mind #because eventually they figure that it had to be Dream who got them their furs back #which is... scary because that means that he knew all this time #but it also means he knew and never tried to use it against them #so they kinda just snap and start doing some dumb shit #such as wearing the furs that used to never leave their hiding spots around thr house #or trying to bait Dream into petting said furs so they can compare his touch to the shaking one and make sure its him #... and then baiting him into petting the fur again and again because his touch feels so nice on it #and then covering him with them when he falls asleep in the couch #they just #they need him to be their mate NOW

[t4tails]

ive been so deprived of any kind of queer content or subtext that lore olympus has me thinking "damnn maybe hermes and thanatos should kiss" with panels like these 😩

#og post #liveposting #i really dont ever read things this aggressively cishet #...i cant even think of any characters i can read as trans. maybe minthe but thatd just make her treatment way worse than it already is