#it kept me alive

[mallowstep]

Obsessed with exploring Fireheart the deputy he’s a struggling former gifted child just like me

Fireheart the deputy is such a good character

#mine #ask #anon #I’m done being angry tonight #and gifted kid shit makes me angry #um but if u think gifted kid problems r bullshit ur wrong #I say this softly and politely #gifted kid discourse is silly and dumb #bc no one really understands what they’re talking abt #talented and gifted program saved my life #I mean that very literally #I had twenty minutes a day where I got to be engaged with the world #that’s it #twenty minutes #it kept me alive

[silkysong]

i love my aunts cats

#they kept me alive this past week #my art

[lesbaurinkos]

manchester eye (and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you’ve discovered something you

don’t even have a name for)

#(shaking like a leaf) do you. Remember. The time. #i just ummmm. basically i just ummmmm. well this is me coping with my finals! #it’s 4 am. but i had to get this out there. im fucking crazy but im free #something something i would have fed her a copy of crush and kept her alive forever!!!!! #grinning so sickly at u all. hope this helps everyone on this lovely night. morning #phan #:] #dnp #phanart

[fudgelling-away]

Let's get straight to the point. Some of my posts have been reblogged with demeaning tags. And yes, I can tell if it's playful bickering or plain nastiness just fine.

I like playful. I do not like angry and condescending.

Now, I wouldn't care if those were sent to me as a private message, but tags are read. by. other. people.

Do not dare to use my art to shame other people.

And if you think I am or anybody is oversensitive (I hate that term) - people look into entertainment for a reason. Life is hard. Everybody suffers one way or another. Many people are hanging by a thread. You never know what will make somebody snap. Life is not safe, so we go and try to find a little safe spot for ourselves with some nice people. When you get attacked there, it hurts.

I remember how it feels to be vulnerable and have the thing you enjoy soiled. I remember the exact moment I left one of my previous fandoms as a child and how ashamed it made me feel. It was like 10 years ago, but I remember what was said and who said it. Nobody was speaking up. There were friends, yes, but silent when something was happening, because they were afraid to be shamed as well.

Years later I have my voice now and I'm going to speak, be it through text or art. And if my work makes at least one single person smile and feel validated, then all the hours I have spent on it have been worth it. It's always worth it.

That's why I do not tolerate pointless cruel mean comments, no matter how small or mild. Get your negativity elsewhere and fix your issues so you don't keep spreading it.

And that is the only rant I am going to post on this blog.

Only more fluff from now on ♡

#my art #sans x reader #sansnomaly #a lot of anomalies #motivational sans #because sans motivates not to be naughty #I sincerely hope nobody will approach me with “but it's just a game / just internet / what about real life” #another fandom literally kept me alive years ago #this is important #if you don't have the empathy to understand then I don't know how to help you

[void-and-virtue]

Lying on the floor in a puddle of my tears and staring blankly at the ceiling as I once again think about all the fucked up, multi-dimensional ways that Kim Dokja, Yoo Joonghyuk and Han Sooyoung encompass the god vs creation and deity vs worshipper dynamics

#it goes all ways between them and stacks on top of each other #there’s like five different angles to it and a secret sixth thing and it makes me go insane #is a god the person who creates or the person who preserves created life by sheer faith alone #the absolute mind bend of a world created for one person alone yet that entire universe kept alive by their imagination and love for it #also the whole situation of love from reader to creator and creator to reader and character as a tool but character as a devoted companion #the way the creation loves and devotes itself to suffer for its god-not-god in turn #ORV is so convoluted it’s like five billion mindfucks stacked in a trench coat #and I love every silly little word of it #ugh #orv spoilers #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #omniscient reader’s viewpoint spoilers #kim dokja #yoo joonghyuk #han sooyoung

[katabay]

original thief series basso & garrett :)

ngl, it's about quality over quantity for me. an npc can have a total of three minutes of screen time, but if they have a cool name, they can live rent free in my head and I'll spend several hours trying to decipher drawable features from a blurry screenshot of pixels

there is a vague hint of a story here, and that's because every time I try to play thi4f, I get incredibly frustrated with how Not Fun the game play is. like, is the story good? well. but it has a PLAGUE. that should've given it instant 'I'll replay this once a year' status in my heart, but the game play sucks so bad that I've never finished it. I can't believe Not Fun gameplay beat out my obsession with narrative plagues.

anyway, the idea is basically if the original era had a game with a plague centric narrative and some other stuff I liked out of thi4f thrown into a narrative blender, with a heavy dash of horror thrown in because some parts of the thief games were scarier to me than entire dedicated horror genre games.

⭐ places I’m at! bsky / pixiv / pillowfort /cohost / cara.app

#if i had a laptop and the skillset i would attempt a story mod because the thief modders who create whole mission stories #are GENIUS and also somewhat terrifying. love them! xoxox #anyway im actually kind of obsessed with parts of thi4f but its also like. not at that sweet spot of almost good enough to be fun #to talk about. which. for the record. has not stopped me from talking about it at length to people #the city itself actually fucking fascinates me. its almost alive and im SO mad that not a single part of that game is actually terrifying #it should be gnarlier and instead it feels a bit like it doesn't quite want to be trapped in the story it has to tell? #but between the level that has the bodies on the meathooks #and the scene with the bodies hanging from the rafters or whatever that was and garrett living in a clock tower #because the game is very much ALMOST about changing times and authoritarian violence and capitalism #(like. by virtue of how the story sort of spins out i think it misses it's mark on a lot of stuff here #in the sense that i dont feel like it actually wants to tell that story. it wants to. go in a different direction. or at least walk on top #of those themes instead of through it) #ANYWAY between all of those things. it does kind of live in my head rent free. they did create a compelling setting #SHAME THEY DIDNT WANT TO ACTUALLY EAT ANY OF IT #unrelated but i would've given thi4f a 10/10 if they kept garrett's fucking nail polish from the concept art. cowards. unforgivable #thief the dark project #i still have no idea how to tag the game series as a whole RIP #sorry for the dedicated dark project fans. if you know what the general series tag is. please let me know #garrett thief #basso thief

[allgremlinart]

for the atla/lok requests! old man zukka going stargazing....

this one kind of got away from me...

#thank u for the ask ransom I can always count on you to enable me... #allgremlinart #allgremlinasks #anyway zuko getting a dragon kept me alive for the past 7 yrs I would have died otherwise. if u care. #zukka #atla

[cemeterything]

"online friendships aren't real friendships" shut the fuck up i literally have custom heart emojis for all my friends on discord

#🐉 #i was talking to my parents yesterday about how my online friends were there for me when literally no one else was #and kept me safe and motivated to stay alive by reminding me that there was someone who cared #i would not have gotten half as far in life without them

[sideblogdotjpeg]

*crawling out of the ground* hello guys I made an animatic

#naddpod #not another dnd podcast #ba2mia #ba2umia #bahumia #solum bufo #sol bufo #kenna ironheart #jaina bronzebeard #albin pembroke #tag spamming because I SPENT 40 HOURS ON THIS. YOU WILL LOOK AT THIS. #posts by me dot com #OH BTW. the drawing of me w a possum on my head. thats because of the han drawing. #thank u again han that drawing kept me alive while i was making this T_T #anyway. i have to take a nap for like seven years after this #im . im so behind on work #Youtube

[uncanny-tranny]

If I'm honest, the whole "love in every stitch" saying for fiber artists does not apply to me, like. I'm trying to get this fucking hook into stubborn yarn and I'll be stabbing it like it owed me money. Is that love because I hope not 😭💀

#art #crochet #honestly the closest thing i feel to love when crocheting is this feeling that this is bigger than me if that makes sense... #...i think it'sthe feeling of knowing how old the craft itself is and knowing that millions of people have done the same as you... #...millions of people have stabbed their crochet hook into the yarn because it's stubborn but so are you... #...millions of people in the past have sat and devoted their time and effort into all of this... #...millions of people have passed on this knowledge and kept this thing alive... #...and it's the feeling of knowing that humans across millenia aren't THAT different #to our core we are more or less similar - across the ages across the colours across everything. that really comforts and humbles me #have you looked up ancient textiles? because that also sparks these emotions in me #it makes me think about the tupes of people to make the textile but also about who wore it #and so many of them are still beautiful and colourful and it shows you SO MUCH about the people who made them #even the ones that are tattered and faded and stripped of colour still feel beautiful... #...because it has SURVIVED. it is evidence of a people who made it and a people who had technical skills #and THIS is why i HATE HATE HATE the idea that ancient people were just 'dumb' and 'uneducated' #that is so unfair to them and cruel and just. wrong. (and often it reeks of white supremacy) #i'm sorry i rant and rave about this so much but i canNOT be normal about this. i can't be normal about humanity #i am learning to love humanity and learn about us and learn everything and it'll never be enough - i will never know enough #i will never know everything about everybody and it will be the death of me #okay the only thing i liked about the greatest showman movie was Never Enough because that is me thinking about all this

[chopshajen]

21. Nere

Ah, True Soul Nere. I’m glad to hear that many people have killed him, and in many different ways LOL During my battle with him he cast Shield of Screams, a spell unique to him that inflicts psychic damage when you hit him with melee, so I just stood like 10 feet away and shot him from there

#he’s so edgy and for what #idk if it was legit but managed to get a bunch of the duergar to fight him with me #so in the end it was like ten people all ganging up on him #like fr is Sergeant Thrinn supposed to turn on him? after we killed him she kept talking as if were still alive #anyways as long as he’s dead #glad to know you absolutely can leave him buried in the cave collapse to be poisoned to death if you want to #True Soul Nere #Astarion #Baldur’s Gate 3 #BG3 #my art #Draw Anything At All October #I continue to draw extremely specific things #I went back into the game to get a screenshot of the spell effect meaning I had to fight Nere again #and this time Astarion got thrown into the lava WOOPS

[notallsandmen]

Not to be too DSM-5 on main, but this is the gist of a conversation I had with my therapist yesterday:

”So, you’re recovering too slowly from burnout and procrastinating from your thesis anxiety to the point of disassociation. You have delved headfirst into The Sandman, a story about a morbidly depressed entity who — by refusing to ask for help out of pride and shame and a stubborn resistance to change — is barrelling towards his inevitable destruction and passive suicide. Did I get that right?”

”And Death kicks ass!”

”And Death kicks ass.”

”…”

”…”

”But there’s this guy called Hob Gadling —”

*Bips myself with the therapy baguette*

#I love you guys and you have honestly kept me alive since September #dream of the endless #morpheus #death of the endless #hob gadling #the sandman fandom #the sandman #I’m not projecting you’re projecting #tw sui ideation #dreamling

[pusangkambing]

They're off to go play!

Consider reblogging and not just liking ty ^-^

#isnt it nice how everything is alright and okay and everyone is alive and well :) #doodle based from charlie's stream where he kept gifting the kids with bombs #also u will never be able to pry the headcanon of these 3 being bffs from me. NEVER #i literally have so many thoughts about these three please ask me about them i promise i wont bite ejwjjskssn #paimon!makes art! #tagging their parents! #jaiden animations #jaiden animations fanart #roier #roier fanart #slimecicle #slimecicle fanart #elmariana #elmariana fanart #quackity #quackity fanart #qsmp #qsmp fanart #bobby qsmp #juanaflippa qsmp #tilin qsmp

[bidokja]

every time i see a post saying that kim dokja exists only in the "third" round because he dies on the subway in all the other rounds i want to scream. he doesn't die on the subway. SP cannot find him there because in every other timeline kim dokja does not make it to the subway at all.

#I FEEL CRAZY LIKE. DID I READ A DIFFERENT BOOK OR SOMETHING??? AM I GETTING THE EVENTS WRONG??? #LIKE. idk. #i feel like everyone knows that kim dokja is suicidal. and the only thing that kept kim dokja alive was WOS. #but then people fail to take that one step further to connect it with the fact that #in the other rounds where WOS isnt a thing...kim dokja succeeds in his second attempt. he does not make it to the subway. #like. not to get Very Personal in the tags but as someone who has Been suicidal it's an important character distinction to me #that This Is The Reason Why he's not there when SP checks the other rounds #ky speaks

[altocat]

More cringe memes. Lucrecia Edition.

#ff7 #ffvii #final fantasy 7 #dirge of cerberus #lucrecia crescent #Hojo #sephcanons #And don't @ me for this #I recognize that Lucrecia was very much in the wrong for her involvement in the Jenova Project #She is just as guilty as everyone else #HOWEVER there's lots of room to suggest she had no idea what she was really getting herself into #And unlike Hojo she isn't doing this to be a sadist nor was her intention to have her own child taken from her #Lucrecia needs a rewrite but what's there has some serious layers #Also I feel like there's an ugly underbelly of misogyny within the fandom when it comes to its hatred for Lucrecia #Lucrecia is allowed to have done horrible things without being the villain #Good people can do horrible HORRIBLE things #Lucrecia isn't evil she's a stubborn dumbass who kept trying to fix her mistakes and dug herself deeper as a result #But she never wanted Vincent or Sephiroth to suffer #She wanted Vincent alive #And she wanted to hold her son #There's nothing saying that Hojo wasn't manipulating her the entire time #Remember in the OG it's implied he was drugging her into compliance #Part 3 may very well clear some things up

[puppyeared]

Space girl

#red and blue colours are based on the North and south points on a compass and the nasa logo colours ^^ compass bc I kept thinking about how #astronaut is supposed to mean ‘star sailor’ and it stuck with me lol #and apparently real space suits are heavy because the moon lacks atmosphere and with all the air used to keep the person alive #so I thought adding adjustable weights rock lee style would be cool. and to kind of balance the bottom half from the top #IM RLY PROUD OF THE HELMET THOUGH I’ve wanted it too look like a gacha capsule for ages and I think it came out right this time #you would have to slide the screen of the helmet up like those toy helmets. and then you can flip it back on its hinge #didn’t have enough room to make a comparison between the helmet mode and collar mode but oh well. I don’t draw it enough anyway so it’ll #come up eventually shrug.. and ofc the logo a la nasa space suit #my art #myart #my oc #oc development #character design #original character #my characters #oc #Augusta #reference sheet #oc ref sheet #astronaut