#it's just this blog has gotten more active than my ACTUAL main

[soullessjack]

so one of my other problems with babyjack is that the fandom just seems to have this sort of collective cognitive dissonance about it, in almost any context or discussion. like this post as probably my only standing example (bc it’s the only one to have gotten traction), there are all these tags about how babyjack leads to bad dean criticism, or how it’s nice in aus but they want canon complex jack, and like I’m not entirely disagreeing with that, but it is so fucking frustrating that people are still ignoring the actual problem with it and either only focusing on the most surface level issues that personally affect them or their corner of the fandom, or making up some point of acceptability for it that frankly isn’t theirs to make.

it’s the autistic experience of our struggles never being seen or cared about until they become other people’s inconveniences, and our voices being used to say something else entirely. when the main takeaway of that post is how the fandom’s treatment of jack being in a way he’s explicitly shown to hate being treated directly mirrors autistic people’s struggle for autonomy in the real world, I really do not need you to make it about how it makes your golden website boy dean look like a big meanie pants, okay? that’s definitely a part of it, but it’s not at all what we are talking about, and it 100% should not be the only reason you care.

and especially when the other takeaway is how this is just a smaller scale issue that comes from autistic infantilization, the absolute last take I want to hear is that you find that infantilization acceptable as long it’s an AU or something else separated from canon. believe me, I’m beyond glad more people actually prefer canon complex jack—like, I don’t think you guys understand that that is legitimately a rarity to find here— but the thing about babyjack is that the concept itself is inherently ableist, and directly relies on his complexities (and the representation he means for us) being removed and erased so that he can even exist in the context of those AU’s. It feels very… ‘have your cake and eat it too’ to me.

I’m trying not to sound angry or accusatory, but I am also tired of having to force civility on a problem that’s pretty much just an open secret thar everyone collectively ignores and beats bushes around solely because they prioritize #domesticdestiel over all. I mean, do you guys even hear yourselves sometimes? Like half of it just boils down to “Autistic infantilization is always bad, except for this one context where it makes my ship look domestic and redeems my blorbo,” and it’s getting really fucking annoying to have to constantly explain something that is not only painfully easy to understand, but is understood and actively ignored, and still play nice so that somebody out there might listen.

So many people will say they like canon Jack and want more of him from the fandom, and I more than agree, but motherfucker you have a blog! You have the tools! Be the change you want to see! He doesn’t have to be your fav or your blog thesis blorbo, but if you want it, you are literally fully equipped to make it! Write some meta, draw some fanart, whatever. Better yet, you could even stop engaging with and perpetuating content that actively pushes down on what you want and, I must reiterate, is actively harmful and ableist. If you want domestic silliness go right ahead, but you don’t need to resort to ableism to do it.

I don’t think I’m asking too much or asking rudely, and frankly I don’t even think I owe niceties to anyone when it’s a problem that has been openly ignored for 6 years and holds plenty of bearing in the real world concerning my identity and community and shit we face constantly. Outside of our screens, we are constantly fighting for autonomy and recognition and representation, and even to be seen as people. Online spaces, especially fandom spaces, are a huge source of escapism and support that we wouldn’t get otherwise. So for the love of god, please stop bringing that fight here.

#sorry I’m horribly caffeinated #spn #supernatural #spn fandom #spn family #fandom critical #fandom ableism #autism representation #autistic characters #jack kline #autistic jack kline #baby jack #toddler jack kline #baby au #baby jack au #spn critical #sam winchester #dean winchester #castiel #destiel #domestic destiel #sastiel #samcas #deancas #tfw2.0 #team free will 2.0 #dadstiel #dad!dean #dad!sam #dean critical

[mrs-monaghan]

i do actually have massive issues with the tone of this post [mrs-monaghan/720032101019353088/taekook-always-lead-in-fancam-views-because-their] minimising jungkook’s achievements (and tae’s for that matter but you can’t talk about him here unless to hate on him otherwise you’re accused to be a tkker). explain to me why it’s so important that jimin’s songs do better than jungkook’s? why is it not relevant when jungkook’s fancam is the most watched on tiktok but like crazy catching up to dreamers is so important? why were all jkkers actively tweeting about jimin surpassing jk’s record to 1b streams? never jk surpassing jimin in anything? jk’s achievements are never discussed by jkkers yet you defend jimin like your life depended on it. show me the last time you praised jk that wasn’t for his dick or what you think he does to jimin. jkkers never talk about jk as an individual without it relating to jimin yet jimin is praised on the daily like it’s your job.

Your main issue about me being a Jikooker and seeing JK as a shipping tool 👇🏽

I made my stand clear on this issue here

Here i once again praise both men because I support both and said JK will indeed break Jimin's records

I can't shut up about JK breaking Jimin's records

And lastly I dare you to tell me that this here isn't me being on JK's corner.

Your other issue about Jikookers and I talking about Jimin surpassing JK. Because he has??? And we are only talking about the records Jimin is breaking Because currently he's the only one between them breaking records?? He's the only one between them who's dropped an album so we are keeping up with FACE and it's achievements. When JJK1 drops and me and other Jikookers aren't praising him and talking about his achievements then by all means go off. But as it stands JK hasn't done anything. There is no album to talk about. Left and Right is making noise sure but anything it wins goes to Charlie poop. I want JK's own music where he gets the awards, he gets the credit.

Whatever you have seen on tumblr or on twitter is not my problem. I am not ALL Jikookers. I am Shaz. And me as Shaz love BOTH Jimin and JK. I root for both Jimin and JK. I can praise JK's dick and still praise his achievements. Those two are not mutually exclusive. I resent this accusation and honestly fuck you with a cactus.

And fuck you for having an issue with us defending Jimin like our lives depend on it. He's the one who's always gotten fucked over my the company not JK. What is there to defend JK on when he gets the royal treatment while Jimin doesn't? Even today with their individual fancams coincidentally Jimin's own is the only one that only had a link. All the other 6 had their photos. This can affect views because the human brain is attracted to imagery more than just words. They only just fixed it like 2 hours ago. This is something so trivial and normally no one would give a shit. But when this shit keeps happening to Jimin over and over people can get triggered over the smallest shit. Thus why PJMs made a big deal over a simple cake. A cake that Jimin wouldn't have eaten anyway coz of his diet but why can't he get what others got?? Even after he achieved something that hasn't been achieved since the 1960s?? He wasn't just the first Korean but the first Asian to get a number 1 on BB hot 100 since the 60s and what did BH do for him to celebrate this? Fuck all. And u wanna be mad at us for defending him like our lives depend on it.

Maybe there are Jikookers out there who don't see JK as anything more than Jimin's lover. But that aint me. But yes, you will find more shipping posts on my blog than achievement posts because that's what this is. A shipping blog. I am here for Jikook's relationship so yes, its what I will talk about the most. I also talk about the Jungkonda alot because yes, man has a big dick and I wanna talk about it. And so what if it's more interesting to me?

And incase you hadn't noticed I answer asks. I don't make my own posts.

You wanna see JK math then go follow JK data accounts that only post about his music and achievements. I will mention these things occasionally but I'm primarily here for the Jikook relationship. I'm sorry if you misunderstood but I hope that's clear now. That also goes for Jimin. I definitely talk more about his relationship than I do his achievements. Why aren't you mad about that??

Just say you're a JK solo and go.

#ask shaz #bts ask #jikook #jimin #jungkook #jimin and jungkook #bts #kookmin

[ptn-imagines]

Hello!! I hope you're doing well :3

Firstly, I'd like to say your blog has a chokehold on me, and your writing is just *chef's kisses* I be devouring the food you cook, please keep up the good work :]

If you don't mind could I request SFW/NSFW headcanons or whichever your comfortable with about Enfer × F!Chief?

Well, I had so many ideas for this ask, it actually overpowered my chronic fatigue, if that says anything! I'm glad you're enjoying my writing, also; here's some more food!

NSFW below the cut.

SFW+NSFW headcanons with Enfer and f!Chief

Enfer can be difficult for others to understand. Even the other artistically-minded Sinners, Lisa and McQueen, have trouble with it sometimes.

Chief doesn't have that problem. After the Witching Hour, and what took place in Enfer's studio, she's got a very good grasp on just who Enfer is – and Enfer adores her for it, for that sweet understanding she can't get from anyone else.

Accepting love is still a very new thing for Enfer, but you wouldn't think so from how passionately she expresses herself. While she isn't overbearing or particularly clingy, her expressions of love are nonetheless active and vibrant, like an explosion of fireworks in the night sky. Chief sometimes finds it hard to keep up, but would never dream of asking Enfer to tone it down – this, too, is something she adores about the artist.

Though Enfer is absolutely capable of poetic, flowery words of love and, indeed, often uses these on the Chief, her preferred form of affection is actually through physical touch. Enfer hasn’t really gotten so much as a hug since her mother died, so yeah… She’s really touch-starved. Thankfully, Chief provides the perfect solution!

Enfer’s hands tend to linger on Chief longer than most. Not necessarily in a sexual way, but simply to enjoy the sensation; fingers that are rougher than you might expect from so many years of painting and sculpting like to drag along Chief’s skin, simply appreciating her existence. It’s the way her hands linger on Chief’s cheeks after a kiss – long, sensual and intimate or fiery, passionate and open-mouthed, never in between – and it’s the way her hands can’t help but trace down her lover’s sides and spines, eliciting shivers from the Chief.

As a result, Enfer really enjoys having sex – not for the sexual pleasure of it, but for the sheer intimacy. She’ll place kisses and love bites all over Chief’s trembling body, licking and suckling with little to no restraint as she presses their hot, flushed bodies closely together. She’s insatiable.

Her favorite spots of attack are the Chief’s breasts and neck. The morning after sex, you can always expect the two locations to have been turned into canvasses of blue, purple and black bruises. It always embarrasses Chief, but she would never dream of stopping Enfer – particularly since the artist is so kind as to personally help her apply concealer to marks that would otherwise be too visible for professional decency.

When it comes to the main event (if you can call it that; with Enfer, every moment of sex is a show), Enfer prefers to eat Chief out. She’s very thorough with this, and her tongue moves in ways you wouldn’t expect from someone who was a virgin not so long ago, caressing the deepest parts of Chief she can reach. Chief always comes multiple times, her hands twisted in Enfer’s hair as she howls with overstimulation, tears welling in her eyes. Enfer never stops until Chief is begging for it.

(She actually learned these things from erotic fiction, but she won’t admit to that unless the Chief thinks to ask.)

Enfer’s also not a stranger to a bit of bondage. She’s willing to try out pretty much any kink the Chief has at least once, but she herself isn’t as kinky as you might expect. Her go-to bondage is to bind Chief’s wrists behind her back, or spread-eagle to the bed with ropes, along with a blindfold to heighten Chief’s pleasure. She’s a very big advocate for that, naturally~

She isn’t much of a fan of gags, though. She’ll oblige if her adorable Chief wants it so badly, but… She loves to hear the sounds Chief makes during sex, and she hates how gags take that away.

Still, her two favorite acts of intimacy aren’t even sexual in nature – or at the very least, they don’t have to be. Unfortunately, they’re both quite time-consuming, so with Chief’s busy schedule, Enfer doesn’t get the chance to engage in them as often as she’d like. That just means she appreciates the time she does have.

First of all, Enfer became a shibari master in shockingly (or perhaps not so shocking) little time after their relationship began. Although she’s willing to incorporate these ties into sex if the Chief asks, she engages in this practice for the artistry of the knots and harnesses more than anything else. She can spend hours alone tying Chief to her satisfaction, and then another few appreciating the transient form of artwork. With her hands and mouth as well as her eyes.

Chief is absolutely her favorite canvas in more “traditional” senses of the word too. While you can’t sculpt flesh – well, not unless you’re mad in a way that even Enfer is not (and she does not want to think about) – you can absolutely paint upon it. When Enfer is finished, she can transform the Chief into practically anything imaginable – a starry night sky for example, or a graceful and serene snow leopard.

…Of course, there’s always a few mishaps here and there, as a side-effect of painting on a living canvas. The brush hairs can tickle and the slightest movement of a giggle, sneeze or twitch can mess up a brush stroke. Enfer doesn’t mind, though – these little errors are all easily rectified and she simply considers it part of the process of painting on a living canvas. Sometimes she even chooses to keep these errors in the final work, finding a form of beauty in them.

Aside from these two things, Enfer and Chief like to spend their free time going on dates. Art museums may be a predictable location for these, but there’s no denying they go to them a lot, and Chief loves the way Enfer’s eyes light up when she looks at the art on display.

Still, Enfer tries to make these dates interesting even for someone not as educated in art as the Chief – so instead of talking about the techniques and such involved in a piece, she instead focuses on what might be more apparent to a layman, such as the colors and symbolism or the history of a particularly storied piece.

They also tend to watch horror movies, albeit at home – Chief usually ends up clinging to Enfer during these, surprisingly easily afraid despite everything she’s seen. Enfer thinks it’s adorable.

Still, Enfer’s tastes are very discerning, and she doesn’t care for cheap, trashy thrillers, so they don’t do this particular form of date often. Usually, recommendations come from Deren, though the particular kind of horror movie Enfer enjoys are few and far between compared to gruesome, bloody, shock-value stuff.

Finally, Enfer also enjoys small, out-of-the-way cafes with artistic vibes. It’s probably the most “normal” thing about their whole relationship, really, and Chief loves the way Enfer’s eyes sparkle when she takes a spoonful of a rich cheesecake or some other dessert. They often share a milkshake or such and end up feeding each other pieces of their dessert.

Finally, it’s incredibly common for Enfer to present Chief with gifts – homemade trinkets or pieces she found in antique or thrift stores. Never things bought expensively firsthand, though – to Enfer, these flashy things are hollow and devoid of meaning. Perhaps in a few decades, they’ll be actually worth their price tags, but for now, Enfer avoids them like the plague.

#ptn #path to nowhere #ptn enfer #path to nowhere enfer #enfer #ptn headcanons #path to nowhere headcanons #headcanons

[trances-and-tentacles]

Hi, it's the rat girl. Wasn't letting me ask from that blog so I had to use Anon. Basically for ADHD I've found that working with the stray thoughts and lack of focus rather than working against it can prove really useful. For me if I have a 'tist/file/scene where I'm suggested to feel blank, empty, or where a lack of thoughts is focused on, it won't work as well for me. Instead, 'tists that encourage those thoughts and lack of focus can be really helpful. IDK if you're working more from files or with an actual 'tist, but when I drop people who have ADHD I tend to use phrases like "you don't need to concern yourself with any thoughts that might drift through that pretty head of yours. Your mind can drift from thought to thought, but here beneath that all I need you to do is listen to the sound of my voice." A lack of focus doesn't actually really cause problems when it comes to getting dropped I've found, since your ears and brain are still processing whatever the tist/file is saying. What does tend to cause problems, at least for me, is *thinking* that my stray thoughts are causing me to not drop enough. It usually goes something like "I'm enjoying this drop, this is nice!" > "Hmm, I'm kinda hungry, I wonder what I'll eat after this." > "Oh god I'm thinking too much and not listening" > "Fuck I'm fucking this up, aren't I? My brain won't shut off" Etc. and then that anxiety keeps me from being able to enjoy the calm droppy feelings that I was experiencing at the start. However if the tist preempts that and states that it's *okay* for my brain to wander and that my subconscious can still listen and obey, I end up having a great scene and session! Realistically because of how my brain works I'm never gonna hit that completely blank slate state that some people talk about, but I can get the same effects if I'm really deep and my brain is slowly going from one thought to the next, especially if the tist or file has already stated that this is normal and natural and shouldn't impact the quality of the drop. It is completely 100% possible for someone with even extreme levels of ADHD to drop and have really good hypnotic sessions, it just requires a little extra specific work on the part of the tist, or files that work well with ADHD. I don't want this to get too long, but I could genuinely talk about this for hours. Basically it comes down to: 1: Believing that you can drop regardless of your lack of focus or other ADHD related symptoms. Believing you *can* drop and being willing are half the battle. 2: Having a tist who will work with you and preempt anxieties you might face. 3: don't fight against your ADHD, work with it. Your brain is more active and hyperactive, so trying to shut down those thoughts is fighting against the tide. Instead try to focus more on working alongside those thoughts, or more effectively, beneath them. 4: Trying and re-trying to figure out how things work with your brain. It took me a while to learn how to drop properly, and what worked for me might not work for you. Hypnotism is deeply intimate and personal to each individual and that's what makes it so fun and special! 5: Have fun with it. Even if you don't get as deep or blank as you'd like, learning to appreciate and lean into the good feelings you *do* get will help you get to that deep state of acceptance, in a roundabout way. Idk if any of this was helpful or sensical, but I really hope you're able to get where you want to be and enjoy trance! It's such a special thing, and everyone deserves to feel safe and blank and happy. You got this!

thank you!!! The stray thought anxiety chain is EXACTLY what i experience and it's one of the main things that makes it hard for me to trance. I really crave the blankness/emptiness feeling but haven't gotten that close to it and i find that i pull myself out really easily.

I will definitely keep these in mind next time I try hypnosis with my partners, we all have ADHD and I've been under for them before once. I'll probably show this to them if that's ok :3

anyways, this is really reassuring and i can't wait to get back into hypno more, as I'm gonna have more free time soon

#save

[noodlescc]

Goodbye?

So this post is WAAAAAAY overdue but I felt like it was time to say something here... I’ve mentioned it on my main blog but I know not everyone who follows this is following that one. 

Long story short, I’m probably never going to post here again. I don’t want to say _never _because who knows, maybe I’ll change my mind, but for over a year now I have had no desire to work on CC or even mess with anything related to it. I’ve become extremely burnt out, and I’ve even reached the point where I’m fed up enough to probably stop playing TS4. 

I’ll go into more detail under the cut, but totally I understand if that doesn’t interest you. So just know that I appreciate all the love and support I’ve gotten over the years. This was an amazing era in my life and I’ll always look back on it fondly. I’ve made a lot of great friends through this process and it’s been so surreal at times. You’re all wonderful, and I wish I could continue, but I just can’t. Feel free to share/make edits to my CC as you wish. 

So I guess these are my main reasons:

Burnout: It hit me HARD: At my peak I was struggling to find a job and so I had a lot of time to dedicate to recoloring. I would jump on recoloring for packs the second S4S got updated. But now I can’t even bring myself to recolor or edit anything. I was actually in a really bad place mentally at my “peak” on this blog, and my life is so different now. I’m in therapy, I’m taking meds, and I’m feeling really good. And I’m just so busy with other things, the last thing I feel like doing after work/when I have free time is to work on CC.

TS4 is Super Broken: It becomes really frustrating when every new patch EA comes out with means that people have to come to your inbox to let you know that your stuff is broken. I don’t make mods, so I always foolishly assumed my stuff wouldn’t break. But then it did. And again. And again. And AGAIN. I can’t be active enough to stay on top of it anymore. And a lot of the time I straight up don’t know WHY my stuff doesn’t work, so I don’t know how to even approach fixing it. Then there’s the issue of having to post the update, hope people see it, and try to find a way to lead people who stumble across my blog from a youtube video or blog post that’s several years old to the most up-to-date version. Its too confusing for them and for me and I kind of hate having more than one post for the same item. 

I just don’t have the time anymore: I work a 40+ hour work week now, and then try to juggle my social life, chores at home, taking care of myself, and my hobbies. I barely play TS4 or get on my computer much anymore (my work is all computer based so sometimes I just want to do anything else when I get home). Its too the point that every time I’ve tried to play the game I have to update. I can’t keep up with all the changes the game is making, and I don’t even keep track of when packs come out anymore. PLUS I’m starting school again at the end of next month, and I’m still going to be working at my current job so I’m hardly going to have any free time coming up soon. 

I am giving up on TS4: this is mixed with #2. The game isn’t really fun. I lasted as long as I did because I wasn’t playing, I was making CC and staging story posts. I don’t have the time to really do either of those, but I can make some time to try and play for fun. But it’s not fun. And there seems to be game breaking bugs every other week now, and while the packs seem promising, they are riddled with bugs of their own. Not to mention the laundry list of things the team has promised they would go back and fix and just haven’t, and probably never will because they have to pump out 20 new kits before the end of the year. I’ve spent more money than I’d like to admit on this game, and I don’t even find it fun to play anymore. I made the mistake of getting back into TS3 and realizing that I actually enjoy that game, which just made it so clear to me how much I don’t enjoy TS4. So I’m saying goodbye to it. I’ve complained for long enough that it’s time to really do something about it. And this is that thing. 

So I think that’s it. I’m really sorry if you liked my CC and hoped I would continue. I hate letting people down. But I can’t force myself to do this anymore. I had a good run, and it was made so special by every one of you. You have no idea how much your support has helped me out through some really low times. But all good things must come to an end sometime, and I think it’s long overdue. You can still catch me at @tainoodles if you want to chat. But I am no longer working on CC. Thanks again for everything ♥

#text post #its long sorry

[bogkeep]

i don't know if it's just me, but there's posts that i keep seeing that are like "people need to stop cycling through fandoms so fast," usually with a sentiment about the importance of commenting and sharing people's work and nurture their communities. i think Fandom Sustainability is a very interesting topic so i have THOUGHTS............ like first of absolutely all, that's a weird onus to put on people. Fandom Is For Fun. people don't usually control what their brainworms are gonna wriggle about. nobody should have to sign a five year contract for Enjoying Thing Together With Others. like. i understand that a lot of these posts are directed at people that are Enjoying the works of fanartists and fanfic writers, to urge them to share and react and feed their inspiration - but what about me, A Creator Of Such Things? are you making it my obligation to keep drawing fanart for a specific thing? becuase i've gotten plenty of lovely comments and feedback and all around soft and fuzzy feelings from the communities i've partaken in, but i'm only human. it's not that i lose love or interest for the properties, it's just - sometimes life happens. sometimes my momentum is unsustainable and i gotta slow down eventually. sometimes i want to draw other things! and yeah, i'm only one person, i'm not a whole fandom, and i can only speak on my experiences. i just feel like there's a narrative of "nice comments and engagement can keep an artist/writer go on forever" which i don't really agree with. reblogs and comments absolutely make me want to make more stuff! being part of a community is absolutely inspiring and fills me with ideas! but that can only take me so far. i think plenty of artists carry the same feelings of guilt for not drawing more X, or have gotten asks pleading for more Y. feeling unappreciated is not the only reason people stop creating a specific content.

my next Thought is that i think there are external sources causing fandom lifespans to shorten. i think there's a well documented phenomena that it's easier to sustain a fan community for long running, serial media with waiting time inbetween content, than it is for one-off movies or like, entire showruns premiered all at once for bingeability. and the current climate of "we're probably going to cancel this show after two seasons for capitalist rot reasons" and disillusionment with corporation and streaming services? probably not helping either!

i DO think there's something to be said for the speed of social media as opposed to, what, email lists? snail mail compendiums? but early tumblr was like, dominated by approximately five fandoms or something for years and years, so it CAN be done. clearly. maybe the change for discord servers to be the main hubs for communities, as opposed to old school forums? i think that may be one of the culprits for sure, because servers are so fast and exhuasting and there's Stuff going on all the time and you can only keep up so much before you burn out. i think. maybe it's just me who's burnt out thinking about it, because i know there can be really good servers that are well moderated and paced and sustainable! i've tried fandoming in several formats - i've done old school forum. i've done discord server. i've done Small Group Of Friends. i've done Just Vibing On My Blog/Twitter. and to me - and this is of course personal experience and not speaking for everyone else - the best longterm strategies for me has been the ones where i have the least contact with the actual fan communities. partaking in communities has been amazing and inspiring, i've made lots of close friends i'm still in contact with, but active participation in fandom is not something i can hold up forever. i can either burn in a fiery blaze for a little while or i can keep a low simmer for a long time. it's so much easier to love a story on my own terms when i don't have to be involved in every controversy of its fan community, even if it means trading away ideas and inspiration and drive. there's a balance to be struck between the two, of course. then there's like... sometimes something happens, either with the Media or with the Fandom. there's always going to be a risk with attaching yourself to a community and pouring yourself into it. do i have to keep loving something even if the creator of it makes it too weird for me? should i have to stay in a space that causes me stress or pain? sometimes the right thing for us to do is leave. sometimes we need a change. i think it's lovely when people stay to keep communities good, to keep creating good fanwork in spite of dissappointing creators. i think it's good to nurture love, but. it's a choice everyone has to make for themself. you should stay because you want to, not to martyr yourself for the sake of proving a point. last Thought i want to honor is that yeah, i believe there's Attitudes Afoot that are a sustainability drain: how old can a fandom get before it's Cringe? how large can a fandom get before it's Cringe? either we're all Cringe or none of us are. people love what they love, and is it not cruel to mock someone for something so joyful, based on arbitrary lines in the sand? if pre-2014 tumblr culture was good at anything it was to love hard and fearlessly. i DO think it's worth creating good and sustainable communities, to love well and responsibly, and find joy on your own terms. i think there's many ways to fandom and one way isn't more right than the other. a relationship is worthwhile even when it's not everlasting.

#too long for twitter #hi i'm writing essays based on 2-3 posts i saw on my dashboard over the past couple months again #can you tell i'm burnt out and have fandom trauma #using the word Sustainable fifty times because i think that's at the core of intentionally doing things always

[is-the-owl-video-cute]

I still cant believe you and your wack fans found a twitter account posting gross art that used tags specific to that wack fetish in a way that made it very clear what the art was going to be, then clicked on the blurred image anyway and acted all shocked. You then proceeded to SHARE THE LINK TO THE ART. you were legit like "smh i cant believe this guy would post something so depraved in a public space" despite the fact you exposed a much larger audience to it than the twitter account would have ever gotten. I would have literally never seen any of that shit if your stupid ass didn't post the link. I would have gone my whole life never seeing it because i dont actively search "necrophilic feral art" on twitter.

Im not going to debate the actual ethicality of agro's art, but from your perspective: if you genuinely thought the content was harmful why did you share it???

I wonder if theres a term for this type of blunder. Theres definitely "dead dove: do not open" and "👀girl what were YOU doing at the devil's sacrament" elements at play here, but i wonder if theres a term for when internet people share niche disturbing content only to accomplish exposing the content to a larger audience and not actually do any "justice".

Anon I don’t have a twitter, did not visit his twitter, did not link his twitter, and just reblogged a few screen shots that showed his posts and heavily censored pictures of his art. I explicitly avoided any call out that posted the uncensored versions because I didn’t want anyone to have to actually look at the graphic material themselves.

And I only saw it in the first place because people linked me a call out post made by someone who has me blocked and doesn’t even like my blog lol.

You’re reaching very hard to try to catch me in a “ohoho you MUST have LIKED that stuff or you would’ve never FOUND IT” as though Agro and I didn’t have a previous falling out that made it relevant enough that my followers kept sending me receipts. I don’t know how or why the pit bull blog found all of that. You’d have to ask them, not me, because my answer is that I received some ten asks within an hour about it as soon as the post made by someone I’m not affiliated with was circulating.

Idk, anon. You’re grasping at straws on this one. I have also never gone to twitter and searched “necrophilic feral art”. I doubt the pit bull blog did either, Agro has promoted his nsfw twitter in his main account in the past. I think that just might be a more likely explanation for people finding it and being disturbed by what he posted since they could have followed his main for normal furry and warrior cats art.

#agro carnist

[lunanoc]

Is there a dmbj fandom space of sort that's... Not focused on Liu Chang characters? Or to put a positive angle on it, I'd love to talk about dmbj canon and its characters and their on page/screen interactions or how the books and sites compare but I'm not really sure where to do that? Do you have a discord or tumblr tag or blog suggestions? (Or if that doesn't exist, this is a marker of interest if you make one. I think there's actually if nothing else a lot of people in this fandom who are interested in pingxie who don't know where to go to talk to each other because it seems like most of the fandom spaces apart from the yucun discord are pretty dead)

hi anon! i’m both glad and sad you asked because i get that feeling and i’m sorry to say there’s… not really much of a good answer i can give you 🫠 though i can offer the start of one at least

a lot of the problem is the people you’re talking about, for reasons i don’t fully understand myself, have come to take up most of the visibility in the public fandom spaces to almost the exclusion of anyone and everything else. this is definitely a hot and likely unpopular take, but it’s gotten to the point where ironically (as far as the english speaking fandom goes at least, the chinese fandom is very different) in some respects, pingxie has become something of a “rarer” pair these days by comparison to ships involving more minor characters, particularly ones involving the characters you mentioned, and i find wu xie and xiaoge themselves are less talked about outside of the context of those ships than the characters you mentioned as a whole. and this isn’t a post meant to dunk on those particular interests, just my opinion on what the dmbj fandom is like at this point in time. the issue is, like you said, it leaves the people who aren't interested in that lost and with no one to talk to despite i'm sure there being a lot of us that would love a place to actively engage with each other

as far as places to talk about pingxie and the dmbj canon in general outside of that, in my experience tumblr doesn’t have all that much to offer apart from a few isolated people unfortunately. just checking the main tags tells you as much, but there are a few people. but i also know tumblr isn’t necessarily the best space for genuine conversations as i get the feeling that’s more what you’re looking for (correct me if i’m wrong). there’s a bit more going on on twitter, but it’s also fairly marginal and it also depends on what it is you want to talk about (and also, it’s twitter).

for discord servers, i can suggest 3 options, two of which i’m sure you’ve probably heard of:

the “dmbj (盗墓笔记)” server (https://discord.gg/xjTSVdUP), which was the original server created before the yucun one was and is technically the largest one (the yucun discord server actually broke off from it in part to be a space more dedicated to liu sang and liu chang characters and eventually became the fandom’s most active hub). fair warning, it’s pretty dead in the sense most of the minimal talk that goes on there isn’t really about dmbj at all, and is more generally drama-oriented. it’s also not strictly dedicated to pingxie

the “dmbj book-centric fun times” server (https://discord.com/invite/z7ZNNEbv3P), which as its name suggests, is book-oriented rather than drama-oriented. it’s also pretty dead apart from one or two sporadic posts from time to time, which i see as partly the consequence of a good chunk of the dmbj fandom either not having read the books or not particularly caring about them by comparison to other things. that being said, if enough people went there, i’m sure it could be more active. this one is also not strictly dedicated to pingxie

the “盗墓笔记 - changbai mountain” server, which is going to be my biased suggestion as it’s a tiny server started somewhat recently by myself and a couple of other friends who felt the same and wanted to try and create a safe space to talk about pingxie (and other ships if relevant, though by this i mostly mean heihua for now) and the dmbj canon and its characters as a whole. it’s very small atm and as active as it can be given that, and while it’s open to anyone interested, because of previous experiences with some people in the fandom, i would need you to get off anon and dm me if you (or anyone else reading this) is interested (as long as you’re comfortable with that ofc) as i don’t necessarily feel comfortable posting a public invite. for the record, anyone interested is very welcome to dm, we really do need more alternative fandom spaces

i’m sorry i can’t help more anon, but i hope this is something of an ok answer even if it’s not the best one

#dmbj #pingxie #fandom discourse #i guess that's a relevant tag? #daomu biji #盗墓笔记

[rockyroadkylers]

Weekend WIP game

Rules: List your WIPs below (if you only write one fic at a time, feel free to include future WIPs/ideas!) then answer the following questions. Then, tag as many people as you have WIPs (or more).

Thank you @happiness-of-the-pursuit for tagging me! (technically you tagged my main, @mainstreamelectricalparade, but this is my RWRB blog, so I'm responding here, LOL)

1. WIP List:

(bolding stuff I'm actively working on, since now that I've finished my current project, most of these are still in the very early stages 😂)

It's Nice to Have a Friend sequel (canon-divergent childhood friends-to-lovers AU)

INTHAF tabloid/social media companion fic

Actor AU enemies-to-friends-to-lovers (child actor Alex, non-actor Henry, technically)

the Bond AU (actually also an actor AU where Henry has the opportunity to follow in his father's footsteps and be the next generation's James Bond... but so does Alex 👀)

Tangled AU (Henry is Rapunzel, Alex is Flynn, you can guess where that's going)

I technically have other WIPs, but they're from a different fandom and thinking about them doesn't really spark joy right now, so I'm not going to include them here 😅

2. Which of your WIPs is currently the longest?

Um... I think the child actor Alex outline is currently longer than any of the others, and I have the opening scene written for it, so I'll say that one 😂

3. Which WIP do you expect will end up the longest?

Ooh... at this stage, it's so hard to tell! It could honestly be any of them, I haven't even started working on some of them properly, yet, so I have no idea if they'll be oneshots or fully-fledged longfics. Currently, my best guess would be the sequel for the childhood friends AU, but... that could change.

4. Which WIP is your favourite to write/the most enjoyable to write? Why?

I wouldn't say I have a favorite, yet... I've done the most outlining for the child actor Alex AU, just because we had a full-on conversation about it in the server, so a lot of the hard work was done for me 😂 I'm joking, obviously, I still have a lot of work to do, but the server gave me some great ideas, so I'm very excited about that fic. A close second is the childhood friends sequel, though, because that AU is my baby <3

5. Which WIP do you find the most intimidating to write? Why?

Hmm... A little nervous about the Tangled AU, maybe? I'm not sure why, I just find fics based on movies to be difficult, because I want to stay true to the story, but also make put my own spin on it and make it just different enough that it's not, like, an exact replica. I also have to find ways to work around the scenes with singing and dancing in them 😂 but that will be the easy part, tbh.

6. Which WIP do you experience the most self-doubt about. Why?

Maybe the childhood friends AU tabloid/social media fic? I've never really done anything like it before. I have to come up with a whole bunch of headlines, write excerpts of news articles, make social media posts, and tie them all together neatly in a cohesive timeline that ties into the original fic. I've maybe bitten off more than I can chew, but there's no pressure to get anything posted before I'm ready! I think people are more excited for the sequel, anyway 🤭

7. Which of your WIPs will you seek out a beta/sensitivity reader for? Why?

Umm... I might not get a full-on beta, but the sequel for the childhood friends AU isn't just going to be about Alex and Henry's budding romantic relationship, it's also going to be continuing to deal with topics such as the aftermath of Arthur's death, Bea's experience with rehab, Henry starting therapy, and so on, so I'll probably ask some friends from the server to check some stuff over if there's anything I'm not sure about.

8. Have any of your WIPs been struck by the curse of writer's block?

Technically, no, because I've barely gotten started on any of them 😂

9. Which WIP has your favourite OC? Tell us about them?

None of my WIPs have OCs, yet (though I imagine that will change once I really get into the actual writing), but my fully-posted fic, It's Nice to Have a Friend, has two: Robert, Catherine's equerry, and Judy, the head cook at Kensington Palace. I love them both, tbh, a mother could never choose a favorite child 😊

10. Which WIP is the sexiest?

lmao, I don't write sexy stuff 😂 The sexiest thing I've ever written is a brief moment in the epilogue of It's Nice to Have a Friend, where I blink-and-you-miss-it implied that Alex and Henry had sex after getting engaged 😂

11. Which WIP is the angstiest?

That's probably gonna be the sequel 😅 I'm gonna make it as fluffy as I can, but it's gonna be an immediate continuation following chapter 10 of It's Nice to Have a Friend, which means long distance. Plus, like I said in question 7, Henry's still got his grief and Bea's recovery to work through, so it's not going to be the smoothest ride.

12. Which WIP has the best characterisation (in your humble opinion)?

There's no way not to make this sound like a humble brag but I've gotten a lot of comments on It's Nice to Have a Friend that have told me my characterizations are really good, so assuming I'm consistent in the sequel, that will probably remain true there, as well. Although, the two enemies to lovers AUs I have... I don't have any interactions between the boys written down for either of those fics, yet, but that's pretty on-brand for them 😂

13. Which WIP has the best scene setting (in your humble opinion)?

Uhhh... not entirely sure what this means 😅 Like, overall universe setting, or like a specific scene? I think either way I'm gonna have to go with the childhood friends AU, because I'm just completely in love with it. I can't help it, that AU is my baby 😂 Although I am getting super into the child actor Alex AU, as well!!!

14. Which WIP have you worked the hardest on?

DEFINITELY the childhood friends AU! I spent five weeks writing the original fic, and I've been thinking about a sequel for at least two. I only started actually outlining it after I finished writing the first one, but there's no way I can say I've worked harder on anything else, even though the original fic and the sequel are technically two separate fics.

15. Which WIP do you have the highest expectations for? Why?

The sequel 😂 I can't help it, It's Nice to Have a Friend is the fic that made me fall back in love with writing, and I'm positive that the sequel will continue that legacy. Although I'm feeling really good about the way the child actor Alex AU is turning out, as well!

16. Do you dream about any of your WIPs?

Uh... maybe? Except, I couldn't really tell if it was just a vague, generic Alex and Henry dream, or if I was actually dreaming about them in the childhood friends 'verse.....

17. Do any of your WIPs have particular complexities that your other fics don't?

Well, yeah, I mean, before I started writing for RWRB, I was almost exclusively a platonic fluff writer in the Iron Dad fandom (just check my Ao3 page 😂), so almost everything more complex than a toddler with an ear infection adds a new challenge for me, but I'm loving it, so far.

18. Which WIP is the funniest or has the most humour?

Uh... I'll get back to you on that when I actually have stuff written for any of them 😂 the Tangled AU will probably be pretty funny, though.

19. Do any of your WIPs contain outside POVs or a deep dive on a character other than the main ship? How are you finding that process?

Yeah! The child actor Alex AU will actually have a lot of Arthur's POV, because in that fic he kind of takes Alex under his wing, both as an acting mentor and as a sort of father figure when Alex needs someone to turn to in the wake of his parents' divorce, so you'll get to see a lot of Arthur's thoughts and feelings as Alex and Henry get to know each other.

20. Tell us one thing we don't know about one or more of your WIPs.

Um... one of the boys is gonna be a Bond Girl, and I'm not telling you which one.

A tag per WIP - I'm still relatively new to this fandom, so I don't know a ton of people's URLs yet, but I'll do my best!

@affectionatelyrs, @inexplicablymine, @read-and-write-, and um... I genuinely don't know anyone's URLs, so I'll just leave it open 😂 if you see this somehow and you're like, "hey, Ky, why didn't you tag ME?" I tagged you in my heart, I just don't know where to find you 😭

#weekend wip game #tag game #my writing #my wips #rwrb #firstprince

[clairelsonao3]

Happy STS!

I haven't gotten a chance to read what you've written so far, but I'm curious as to your process. What was the source of inspiration for your current WIP? Did you start with characters who wouldn't stop talking in your head? Flashes of moments? Images inspired by music? What do you fall back on when you need to be re-inspired?

Happy STS and thanks for the ask!

No worries, my ongoing WIP on Ao3 is over 100K posted words, so I by no means expect you to. 😂

Good Slaves Never Break the Rules is the long-time-coming perfect storm of three main influences.

First, I started writing it almost eight years ago to entertain myself on a transatlantic sea voyage (that's worth another whole post altogether), and some of the characters and early situations (I won't say specifically which ones!) were inspired by the unusual dynamics that pop up when strangers from vastly different origins and roles onboard are pressed together in a small space with no choice but to work and spend time together (very soon, my imagination wildly diverged from what actually happened however 😂).

Second, for a long time, I've been an avid reader of pretty much any and all slavefic (there's a lot on Ao3, both fanfic and original) and much of it is good. I always especially liked the alternate universe ones that had slavery transposed to a modern setting. But for all of that time, I could never find THE story I was looking for, the one that uses many of the common whumpy slavefic tropes (although this was long before I was in the whump community, that was just a happy accident) but is also a preferably M/F romance, using a very different type of male MC who, despite being a slave and the target of pretty much constant abuse of all kinds, has much more in common with conventional romance heroes than the perpetual helpless victims that slaves tend to be in fiction. And the female MC, rather than being some powerful dominatrix type who can do whatever she wants, is an ordinary girl who is also oppressed in a way by the society she lives in, is blind to its wrongs, and has to have her eyes opened to be brave enough to stand up for what's right. And though power dynamics are always at the forefront, the MCs come to see each other as equals. So this was also one of those "I guess I'll write it myself" moments.

Third (and I don't think I've ever had a chance to discuss this on this blog before, so thank you!), having studied the classics, for many years I've been enamored with the ancient Roman comedies of Plautus and Terence, who tended to use slaves as main characters -- and I do mean main characters. They're active, clever, funny, charming, often manipulative (but always for the right reasons), perpetually involved in zany plans and schemes, and they're anything but victims. I'd written a few things inspired by these plays previously (including a quasi-historical short story and my very first novel, also historical and of a writing quality typical for an 18-year-old, many years ago), but now that my writing skills are far more advanced, I thought it was time to try again, using a modern alt-history setting this time. Plus the plays themselves are just really fucking funny, and my story incorporates a lot of humor (and a lot of really dark stuff, too, but that's usually how it works with me).

As for getting re-inspired? I also had to do that quite recently after writing and posting a monster chapter and needing a break. What helped was rereading some of those earlier scenes that I was really excited about, and doing some tag games on Tumblr (including the Q&A I tagged you in) that allowed me to just have fun writing in my characters' voices and kind of re-re-discover them.

Thanks for a great ask!

#sts #gsnbtr #storyteller saturday #asked and answered #my writing #writeblr

[lace-lost-ace]

Hello everyone! My name is Lost_In_Time and this is a blog for my ocs, Lost and Ace. My main blog is @thelost-in-time and this was for fun. Without further ado, time to meet the twins!

Lost: the firstborn twin who is done with life

Lost is the first twin between her and Ace, and also the stronger twin

Probably the god of destruction, but who knows?

Between Ace and her, she's the one who helps push them to victory too, her powers strong enough to destroy an army.

Lost is a human made god, which means that when she was a baby, some scientists took her and experimented on her until she gained the powers of a god.

Her powers only fully activated once she hit the age of eighteen, and she was still strong before that too, but she hadn't reached her full powers.

Lost has the ability to travel across universes, such as the world of Dragon Ball, The Misfit of Demon King Academy, Genshin impact, and so on. She has friends all over each universe.

Lost's personality has her being rather hot tempered at times, pessimistic, rather skittish and also very loyal and protective to the ones she loves.

Video games are her hobby, and music is her life.

She can mimic people's powers to a certain extent too, but there are other draw backs.

The older twin who is shorter than her brother, but also acts like the younger one at times.

Her friendly rival/friend? Anos Voldigoad since they are both almost evenly matched, and he's the only one she'd probably lose to. Probably.

Ace: The charming younger twin with a prince-like feel to him

Ace is the taller, younger twin to Lost, and is almost evenly matched in power with her, but still falls a little behind.

Probably the god of life, but who knows?

Between Ace and Lost, Ace's healing powers are perfected as compared to Lost's, whose healing is good, but takes a minute or two.

Ace was made as Lost's clone, and was born from her powers in a lab when she was made into a god, and had been known as a prototype.

Originally he looked identical to Lost, and hated her, but soon came to understand she wasn't at fault, and chose to change his appearance to look like the exact opposite of Lost so he wouldn't be known as a mere clone.

Ace also has the ability to travel universes with Lost, and helps her to keep the balance in each one so no universe may be destroyed prematurely.

Ace's personality has him being cool, calm and collected with a mischievous side to him, and he is also more confident than Lost due to him being a little more extroverted.

He enjoys going on walks and helping others sometimes, or just admiring nature as a whole. He is what we call a green flag, or a very good boi™

Unlike Lost, he can copy people's appearance to look like anyone he wants, hence how he chose his current appearance.

Ace is the popular one who manages to charm guys and ladies, whether by his looks or his kind and playful nature, and refers to himself as a Prince rather than a god.

Ace is... ironically enough, asexual, but doesn't mention it so nobody knows if he is actually asexual or not.

He also enjoys teasing his sister so she actually smiles.

Other facts about the twins:

Lost and Ace are strong enough when they're separate, but together, they're unstoppable.

Lost acts more like a human most of the time since that's what she was before she was experimented on, but when she uses her God powers, she's more serious and responsible, fitting the role of a god.

Ace was born a god since he was born from Lost's godly powers, but he dislikes being called as such and prefers being a Prince.

Ace started off as the angry one with Lost being more mature, but over time, they switched.

Ace is very protective over Lost since she gets very anxious to talk to people, and has gotten her good nature taken advantage of in the past.

Likewise, Lost is very protective over Ace when she sees him visually uncomfortable.

Lost and Ace's lives are linked, so if Lost dies, Ace dies too. This is due to him being born from her powers.

#about: lost #about: ace

[jungilhoon]

from 2015 to 2023: a retrospective!

i’m mostly writing this for myself, but if you happen to take a look and even get something out of it, that’s cool too.

i started this blog in march 2015; it’s now december 2023. back then, i was still a student, reaching the end of my teen years and preparing to progress towards the next stage of my life. i’m now twenty-eight (birth year buddies with sungjae, let’s go).

to be honest, my main goal in life during that time – aside from surviving university and then finding a job – was basically to spread recognition of btob as much as i could lmao. it was as if my well-being depended on their happiness and success. i wanted to watch them succeed so bad, and i feel like their rise equated to some of the most exciting years of my life. they gave me something i thought i was missing, and i needed them. at the same time, i think i was experiencing a lot of difficulties during the years 2015-2017. btob became my escape and comfort that helped me get through that period. looking back, i could have been relying on them a bit too much, but they certainly brightened my world. for that, i’ll always be grateful.

one of my fondest memories will forever be seeing them live for the first time at their 2017 concert. being in the presence of the seven people i had been supporting so hard was profoundly touching. hearing fellow melodies singing their hearts out to ‘it’s okay’ alongside myself brought tears to my eyes.

anyway, as time passed and i started to spend less time online due to changing commitments offline, i began to notice changes in myself. i stopped posting here in 2019 for no significant reason other than that i had gotten busy, and i was finding myself genuinely enjoying life by then. i was discovering happiness in more ways than i had before, but btob stayed a part of me. they were my reliable friends, my found family – the ones i could come back to at any time. my home.

in late 2020 and 2021, i distanced myself for a while. i don’t think i ever fully processed the news back then. i might have even told myself that not paying attention and blocking it out would be for the best. i basically took a break, only checking in here and there. (4u ate up on kingdom.) i’ve naturally drifted away from people i knew back then, but i’ve also stayed close to a few. eventually, i found myself accepting the way things had become, albeit slowly. i still miss and care about ilhoon. i understand if he will never be a ‘public figure’ again. i think i can simultaneously acknowledge and hold both of these perspectives. every now and then, such as when i’d finished watching the btob time movie last week, i do feel sad about it. it’s hard to just get over it. yeah, i’m an adult, but so what.

my mindset has changed as i’ve gotten older. in the past, i was hostile and quick to react in the face of negativity. i was chaotic; i always wanted to prove a point. i guess i’ve calmed down a lot since then. i’m pretty mellow these days. on the whole, i’m not fond of spending too much time engaging with strangers or acquaintances online. truthfully, it did make me anxious then too. i kind of prefer just tossing things into the void, like this post, and quietly enjoying what i like. that’s why being active online the way i used to be doesn’t seem to work for me anymore. still, maybe with rose-tinted glasses, i miss those days i spent just waiting on the next btob update and having fun here. i scrolled through my archive for a while last night, riding on a rollercoaster of emotions.

what i actually mean by my mindset having changed though, is that i seem to view things in life more positively these days. i’ve somehow stopped being so pessimistic all the time. i found it difficult to look on the bright side when i was younger. i was colder, filled with dread, and eternally expecting the worst. as a person, i think i’ve become warmer, more appreciative. precious things can disappear just like that. i try to be thankful, in case it’s true that nothing gold can stay.

i’m undecided on if i’ll randomly appear with the odd post when i feel like it. there’s no harm in it, so perhaps! at present, what i want to say is that i still wholeheartedly love and support btob. always will. i have their season’s greetings pre-ordered. now that they’re out of cube, i’m so excited for what they might have in store next. i don’t know what it’ll be, but that’s okay. whatever it is, and even if it’s not what i’m expecting, i trust them. i’ll be proud of them. really! 비투비 예전에도 지금도 앞으로도 사랑해요! 🩵

(p.s. i impulsively bought hour moment photocards at 2am last night, so maybe i actually still need to relax.)

#okay #i feel better now!

[butcherlarry]

hi! coming to you for advice/opinion because i feel like you'd have a good answer! i run a dc blog and i really enjoyed it and the ways it's opened me up so far. the only kicker is, it's a side blog and my main blog is a very specific tumblr niche so all my asks and follows come from my main.

i'm struggling a little with making connections in the fandom community because when i send an ask/follow they see that account and don't know i run a sideblog! i don't know how to make it so people realize that if it makes sense 😕

i thought about kind of leaving a "from (sideblog username)" as an ending on asks so that people know but that feels really silly 🤣

anyways, hope you have a wonderful day/night!

I don't think that's silly at all! Especially if people in the DC fandom are more familiar with your DC blog than your main blog. On the other hand, you could also ask under you main blog, then reblog the ask when it gets answered under your side blog.

I think I've been on Tumblr since 2015 (I am too lazy to scroll back and find my first post to know for certain), and I lurked on the site earlier than that before I got a blog. It has been in the last year and a half that I have gotten active and actually talked and interacted with people on this hellsite (affectionate). Before, I had a weird hang up in my head that no one wanted to talk to me, I was just some weirdo on the Internet who had to many Thoughts about my favorite blorbos, and why they should kiss and Be Gay together. For me, joining Discord servers and actually participating in the conversations in them helped me get over this thought. I realized that there were entire servers that had people thinking, talking, writing, and arting about these favorite blorbos too! And then I started following them on their Tumblrs, and then they messaged me. And I would message them back. And sometimes I would be the one starting a conversation instead of the other way around. Also, I love those ask and tag games that people do. It's another way for me to get out of my shell a little bit more, and participate in the fandom.

It's up to you how active you want to be in your fandom. I've leaned that it's up to you how you shape your fandom experience on the Internet. How active you are depends on how much effort you are willing to put in. I am not an artist, so I can't make the some of the wonderful fanart you see online. While I enjoy thinking and daydreaming about scenarios/AUs for my blorbos (I currently have Superbat au about podcasting/video essays that I have been rotating around in my head), I'm not disciplined enough to sit down to write out my thoughts to create stories. What I do like to do is read all the lovely fanfics that other talented people write, and make fanfic rec lists for others to enjoy. Fic rec lists helped me get into reading fanfiction when I started getting into fandoms and shipping my beloved blorbos. I really enjoyed finding those treasure troves of fanfics and diving right in to read. So, making my own fic rec lists is my way of giving back to the fandom community that I love.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, if leaving a signature of your side blog at the bottom of your ask makes you feel more comfortable to participate in your fandom, do it! If that, or reblogging the ask to your side blog, or something else helps you be more active in a fandom you enjoy and love, I don't see why it's a problem. I wish you success in whatever you do :)

#asks #fandom thoughts #taking that first step is always the scariest #but I promise you it's worth it #also i'm pretty sure my username and picture can be confusing since they have nothing to do with fandom shenanigans #unless you confuse me with batcow #*shrugs*

[stopscammingartists]

Real tired of these guys waxing poetic about people not listening when they do that exact thing. How can you say with your whole chest that a person is hateful and vindictive when you prove time and time again that you won't listen to what's being said the moment it's perceived as negative? How is that approach any less biased? How does that make your side (Flora's) "right," in this situation? Why is it wrong for people to be wary of your group, when current/past members have abusive histories?

(cont.) idk, I'm not Glip, or Pengo, or Eevee, or Opa, and I won't pretend to be. But if people in MY friend groups were constantly being called abusive or predatory, or if /I/ were being called that by people who'd known me but dropped the friendship, I would be inclined to do some self-reflection. Not whatever this 3-year-long disaster has been. (same anon who sent those 2 longer asks) I'm sorry if this is like, the millionth time you've gotten a "floraverse hypocrites AUGH" ask but that's just the masochistic part of me /hoping/ that'll be the one somebody looks at and actually takes seriously. Even if it isn't one of the main Flora inner circle members who get the memo. They throw so many "why's" at how this blog is run, but rarely afford the same criticism to themselves and idk. They're barely older than I am, I just expect better?

These asks are actually perfect timing something that stuck out to me in Pengo's post is some of his very pointed criticism of me, that I didn't have the emotional capacity to talk about my thoughts on in a way that is appropriate for that post.

This entire ordeal started because @bring-out-the-dead approached me wanting to talk about how Pengo abused him.

Pengo not only ignored Boo's feelings in response, he actively ignored what Boo had to actually say.

Then somehow, along the way, the discussion somehow became more about how Pengo helped Japhet? OK cool but he still abused Boo?

Hey Pengo, if you keep getting shit wrong, and this keeps hurting people, if you are actually about reducing harm, this should be a sign to change the way you're running things.

This is absolutely unacceptable.

This stuck out as being incredibly on the nose for me, perhaps even to the point where one could say Pengo is projecting onto me.

#floraverse #glitchedpuppet #foxflux #forbiddenflora #fox flux #pengosolvent #forbiddenflor #glip #forbidden flora

[coughloop]

(screenshotting all of this to condense it a little)

I really appreciate the time and effort you put into writing all this and it feels like you sent this in actual good faith unlike a lot of the messages ive gotten the last couple days so I'm going to try to respond and talk through my feelings about it in as well thought out a response as I can (although i am not always the most succinct with my conclusions). My apologies if i contradict anything I've said in the last couple of days but im going to try to express where i am, at this moment in my understanding of cnc and everything else thats been talked about.

putting this under a read more cause it got really long

First off, I want to clarify that the stuff I have REALLY been disgusted with that has come out in the last few days has been 4 main groups:

1. the people that have made public their pedophilic fantasies, and the fact that you can point to people in these circles that have groomed minors in the past or are actively doing it right now.

2. the people posting about their fantasies of sexually abusing family members and strangers alike (which i realize now is seperate from cnc fantasies).

3. the people fantasizing about raceplay (which is just straight up getting off to racism).

4. the people who have defended any of these things either by doing so directly or by going out of their way to spread misinformation about what the original callouts were about to downplay what was originally said and what people were so disgusted by and to make it sound like people were just freaking out because some trans women on this site are "having sex that puritans dont like" (seriously if you're in this group and were part of shifting the narrative, fuck you)

Second, I agree with the disclaimed you sent afterwards. After having a talk with my partner and reading a couple blog posts about what cnc is, I think I had a different understanding of what it can be, and I think i had a very specific, negative image in my mind of what the average CNC scenario actually is. I realize it is probably more of a spectrum with space to play in (like consensual use of rope play or pushing someone against a wall because you both like the feeling, both things i have tried and enjoyed to some degree) could arguably be considered CNC while both parties can be made to feel completely safe through the entire experience.

I do not personally think going as far as actually roleplaying a rape scenario sounds healthy at all. I feel like that is the time in a consensual sexual encounter most likely to be misused by someone with an imbalance of power and safety to pressure someone into a situation they can very quickly dislike and feel unsafe in (like the anonymous message I got earlier about someone else with experience in CNC).

I also know that I am not the sex police and while certain things happen behind closed doors I myself am not comfortable with, if two consenting adults can be comfortable with the scenario that's really no skin off my back, and genuinely I really dont care if I dont have to hear about it (disclaimer this does not apply to raceplay behind closed doors because while two adults may consent to it or whatever, they are actively engaging in racism and rationalizing it into a fetish that further hurts and demeans people of colour in the consenting adults eyes and its just really fucking racist listen to black people and dont fucking do that shit GOD).

To sum up, i dont actually think cnc has to be inherently abusive though i do believe more than all other kinds of consensual sex, it has the easiest leap to get there if partner's dont listen to eachother or try to push boundaries the other is not comfortable with. I think actual full on rape play sounds horrendous and bad and i dont think people should do it but i literally have no way of stopping them if theyre doing it behind closed doors. I think pedophiles and abusers should rot because i know how miserable they make the lives of their victims and fostering it in your community even if you claim you would never act on it or its all just edgy jokes or whatever is a horrible way to live and you need to get better and im going to block you and maybe warn people about you if i see you doing those things.

I hope this all made sense and I didnt ramble too much, i genuinely appreciate you sending your message because it helped me take a step back and think more about what exactly i am upset about and I hope this response is helpful for you too.

[elsecrytt]

Omg I swear that you are appearing on all of the blogs I frequent lately with your big brain (just saw you on sinful yandere after catching you on a few other blogs). That being said, since you tend to run in similar circles to me apparently, do you have any good blog suggestions? I need more to follow. ~Naomi

akdsfjghkjgf ALAS I do enjoy tumblr mostly for the discovery through my delicious mutuals reblogging The Good Fic and I don't actually follow that many people. BUT!! i do have reccs!

There's one or two that I follow who aren't super active in the om! scene anymore:

@yandere-daydreams in particular I commissioned once; she's an absolutely amazing writer and writes a TON, too. She goes hard on the horror/dark part of it, and is mostly into genshin rn, but her original works are super enjoyable too!

And @sugarfairychan who is not into om! at all, and in fact writes more for bnha; I found them through their REALLY AMAZING original yandere ideas. They're pretty much on the opposite side of the spectrum compared to what daydreams writes sdkfglhfg

Here are the ones who are relatively active that I know of:

@mimi-the-lucifer-stan I haven't gotten around to yelling at, but they have a really amazing yandere!Diavolo/Reader series going on right now! The last three chapters in particular have been absolutely POPPIN.

@undead-merman I cannot for the life of me remember if you know this one already but these guys are absolutely awesome!! Lots of monsterfucking and the yandere is just the right mix of romance and monsters-not-conforming-to-human-values for me,,, <3

@demon-fucking-therapist is an awesome writer and a great friend; they're writing a yandere!demons series with a dom!reader, so on the lighter side, but I super super enjoy it~

@house-of-laminations is another friend who has started to have more time for tumblr recently! Their stuff is more darkfic than yandere, but they're still into the juicy monster headcanons and ideas (this is their sfw blog, though, you can be horny at them on @purgatory-ho where they write DELICIOUS stuff!!!)

For non-yandere works, I can't recommend @demonfamilytherapist enough,,, demon-fucking-therapist is her main blog skdfghflhg.

@obeythebutler you probably already know but they are absolutely fantastic and write some PHEONOMENAL angst, fluff, all sorts of character interactions

@inhuman-obey-me also writes some really great stuff! Particularly in the Demons Being Demons/Horror/Lore of Devildom department!

Those are all the big ones I can think of that I follow, who also post relatively frequently!! I am sorry if I annoyed any of those ppl with tags, I don't interact with tumblr tagging very much at all,,, the links may 100% be broken or whatever anyways XD

I always have fic recs at the reader - and also I have @librarytt which is where I've reblogged works I really like from some blogs that are now inactive (it was mostly to keep an archive of reblogs to myself, so I didn't have to search through my own works to find fics to re-read).

#naomi #asks #elsey rambles #fic reccs!!