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bunnimew · 2 years

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Making a Fool

Rating: T Fandom: Spider-man and Deadpool Relationship: Peter Parker/Wade Wilson Tags: College AU, College roommates, Humor, Fluff, Identity Porn, Identity Reveal, With a silly twist tho, Pre-Slash Summary: For Spideypool Bingo 2019: B4 College Roommates @spideypoolbingo

It was already something of a feat trying to hide Peter's ‘after school activities’ from normal roommates. It was going to be an exercise in futility trying to hide them from a trained mercenary.

Although, to be fair… it was Deadpool.

On AO3 here.

It was a little bit weird. A full grown adult, staying in the dorms? It just seemed like he should’ve had somewhere else to live by this point in his life. And not just because Peter’s roommate was a grown ass man.

Also because he was Deadpool.

And okay, it’s not like Peter was a freshman or anything himself. He’d been here for four years and just hadn’t figured out how to escape yet, so it’s not like he wasn’t also, technically, a grown ass man.

Still.

His roommate was Deadpool.

What were the odds of that?

It was already something of a feat trying to hide his ‘after school activities’ from normal roommates. It was going to be an exercise in futility trying to hide them from a trained mercenary.

Although, to be fair… it was Deadpool.

“Are you okay there, Petey?”

...He should probably get out of the doorway. Also, he never gave him permission to call Peter nicknames. Although, given all the things Deadpool liked to call Spider-man, he shouldn't have been surprised. Also, Peter should probably get used to thinking of him as Wade.

Peter coughed and nodded and made his way to… the fridge. Yeah, the fridge. “I’m good. How are you?”

“Busy!” Wade answered, pinning up a unicorn poster between their bedroom doors. Peter wasn’t sure how he felt about it, but at least it wasn’t something offensive. It was a pretty nice unicorn, actually. “We’re going to have the best year! Frat parties, study groups, questionable caffeine sources, melted soup spoons, unsolved frat murders, student demonstrations, crying, and frat parties!”

Peter’s smile actually felt frozen on his face. He was so concerned. “When was the last time you were in college?”

Wade shrugged. “Probably the hit on the pizza boy.” He vanished into his bedroom before Peter could ask, although Peter wasn’t really sure what he would ask about that. Wade came back out with a stack of texts. “I heard on the vine that you were good with numbers. I hate to impose, but also I don’t. Think you might be able to help me figure this out?”

They… literally did not have classes until next week. Who bought their books ahead of time? Drop/add was serious business. That, and Peter was expecting to have to bust up a party of bad guys sometime around eleven, so…

“Uh, tonight?” Peter asked. “I have plans.”

“Oh?” Wade perked up and dropped the texts on their dining table with a worrisome wobble. “Where’re you headed? Someplace cool, I bet!”

“A, uh…” Peter really should have been able to think of something horribly uncool and boring a lot faster than this. “Dinner with my aunt.”

“Aww, that’s so sweet!” Wade folded his hands together and rested his head against them. Peter was both frightened and charmed. “I hope you have fun! Wish her a Happy Birthday from me!”

"It's not—" Peter immediately changed his mind. "Sure thing!" And made his quick retreat.

-o-

The thing was, Peter liked to give a couple hours to patrolling every night, but he was finding it harder and harder to think up reasons to be out that late.

He tried pretending he had a class, but everyone knew classes didn’t actually go until midnight, so that excuse only worked as often as Peter could make up something he might’ve got caught up talking to his professors about.

Which wasn’t that short of a list, given Peter was a bonafide nerd, but he didn’t want to use up that resource too quickly.

He also couldn’t claim to have dinner with his aunt every single night. It worked a couple nights a week, but that was all Peter got out of it.

MJ and Harry made for pretty decent excuses, except Wade was guaranteed to meet them eventually and the risk of getting caught in the lie was too great.

So Peter had to resort to other, less reliable excuses.

“I, uh, need to run to the store and buy more socks,” he said.

“Okay!” Wade chirped. He was so agreeable. Peter both loved and hated it. “So, I’ll see you back here in about an hour?”

Peter hesitated. “I take my sock buying very seriously.”

Wade studied him intently. “...So, two hours?”

“Don’t wait up!” Peter shouted and ran for the door.

-o-

Peter was already late for tonight's patrol. He rushed into the dorm and straight through to his room. In the middle of peeling his shirt off to reveal the super suit underneath, he heard, "Hi, Peterson! I just got this new deck of cards. Wanna play a game?"

Fuck.

Peter was hoping he could get out unnoticed.

"Um," he said. "I…" need to throw myself out of this window. "Am really tired. I'm just gonna go to sleep early tonight. Sorry!"

"No worries, Pete-the-sweet!" Wade said through the door. "You deserve a good rest. Goodnight!"

Peter sighed in relief. "Goodnight!"

…Then removed the rest of his casual clothes, pulled on his mask, and threw himself out of his bedroom window.

-o-

Peter was almost out of the door, when—

"Hey, McPeter! Wanna grab some takeout?"

"I would love to, but…" Peter chewed on the inside of his lip while he thought in a panic. "I already ate!"

Wade stared at him. "You've been in your room for the past three hours and never left to go to the kitchen."

"Yes," Peter confirmed. Then he stared. Then he ran.

-o-

“I need to rescue my grandma from a tree,” Peter said. “Again.”

Wade stared in abject confusion for several long seconds. Peter was sure he’d be called out this time.

Instead, Wade’s expression cleared. “Yeah, okay, sure, Pete-ster. I’ll see you in the morning!”

Peter would have sighed in relief, except for that last part. That last part broke something inside of him, because it meant Wade knew Peter wasn’t coming back tonight. It meant Wade had noticed the pattern of his behavior. It meant Wade didn’t believe a single one of Peter’s excuses, and was just letting him run off every night like clockwork.

It meant Wade wasn’t that gullible.

It meant Peter had to be found out.

Wade was just letting him get away with it.

Right?

Peter couldn’t take it anymore. The excuses were stupid, the pressure was overwhelming, the tension was ready to snap, and Peter was not emotionally prepared to keep making a fool of himself for no reason.

“Are you really going to buy that?” Peter heard himself ask.

Wade stopped short. “What do you mean, Princess Pete?”

“I mean,” Peter said, “Wade. Come on. Do you really not see that I’m Spider-man?”

Wade shook his head and tutted at him. “Petey, that’s not how you Secret Identity.”

Peter was speechless. What?

“Now get out there, Baby Boy,” Wade continued with a playful wink, “kick some ass, and I’ll pretend I never heard that.”

…

Guess Peter would just go on making a fool of himself, then.

#TheBunni #spideypool #peter parker #wade wilson

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noorengels · 4 years

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reasons i am sad (friendship edition)

in year 4 my best friend invited everyone to her birthday party and not me and they all actually kept it a secret really well they almost pulled it off except she held her party in la plaza which basically is the hangout spot for families in that area i spent all my fridays there playing until midnight bc literally everyone from school would go. so i was walking home with my entire family inc grandparents and uncles and we went through la plaza and there they were! every single one of my friends at her party! apparently her mum didnt let her invite me bc apparently i hit her which i didn’t i hit another girl so her excuse is invalid and its the first time ive been so publicly excluded i cried on a bench.

in year 7 we hated this girl bc she was so fake i genuinely believe she is a psychopath like she has all the symptoms except shes in set 5 maths lol so my friend was like what if i spread a rumour about her and i was like lol do it and she did and for some reason i was blamed??? and lost all of my friends and she bullied me so hard but i didnt realise bc i was “friends” with her bc our mums were friends so shed like walk with me to lessons and talk to me while belittleing me and idk she was just a fucking bitch she made me feel so horrible like it was emotional bullying but also like telling everyone who i liked and saying lmao you literally have no friends “count how many friends you have? omg you literally cant even reach ten can you???” like in front of everyone but then shed also be really nice to me at the same time like idk it was like she was my friend but she bullied me it was so horrible saffa i hate you and the original friend who spread the rumour went on to become her best friend for like 6 years so uh hate that

managed to make friends with people not in my class in year 8! which sucked bc saffa had alienated people in my class so now they all just didnt like me i was the weird girl with no friends because of her and it was so horrible bc id always be forced to join the ready made groups between friends by the teacher bc i didnt have a group to work with or id get paired with the weird girl like i was only the weird girl after saffa made everyone hate me this girl was weird bc she just is idk

in year 10 they made a gc without me! i basically created that group tho like i gathered these friends i hade made in different lessons (obviously not in my main class lol) and they literally just??? decided to exclude me for no reason. and then theyd talk about what they talked about in the gc in front of me like “omg remember last night on the gc” isha ur so fucking boring no normal person talks about their gc with the same people again do u have no other conversational points smh

in year 11 it got so bad to the point where once i sat with them and they all just left! like they took their stuff and moved to the table behind me i wanted to cry so bad i did at home i think its the worst one out of all of these because it happened to my face? idk saffa was horrible too but this was just “were leaving” idk like ive never felt as horrible as i did in that moment i cant even describe how im feeling rn reliving it

its okay bc i made friends with my best friend from sciences + history bc our surnames are next to each other so we always sat together! i honestly clung to this girl after that bc i refused to spend a second longer with that other group after 3 years of enduring not even being liked by ur friends so i made friends with her friends which was easy bc yes!

so by the first term of year 12 i had three friends! in fact one of them was like ur not having a birthday party??? im taking u out to eat so my first birthday event thing in literally years was all thanks to arun i am honestly so grateful for him he didnt even go bc he was busy and we planned it the day before my birthday but it was literally me and two friends eating pizza at zizzis and im crying so much rn but year 12 was when i found people who genuinely cared about me

we established a group of like 8 lol and were planning a holiday for the end of year 13! very skam of us! we had a gc and everything! we were gonna go to spain bc im spanish so i could speak!

this trip was unspoken of in year 13 and i was like lol kinda weird um okay but nope nothing weird about it they just created a chat without me and were still going to spain!!! one of them even sent me screenshots of their airbnb to translate its like u want me to know lol

i did complain to one of them but thats it i was just hurt on my own and coronavirus happened so it got cancelled anyways so i won really

in yr 13 i also got closer to this boy called adam! i remember my friend was like you two would get on so well idk why ur not friends and i was like idk its adam lol do i really want to and yes i did bc he is in fact the isak to my sana! but anyways i hate him but i love him we have that kinda friendship where were alwAYS trying to beat the other one up and honestly the most heart felt goodbye when schools shut was between us both bc at first we were fighting and then he just stopped and his eyes softened and i was like whats wrong with you why arent u punching me and he went come here and we hugged and its like wow despite being a dick ill miss you

anyways so uhhh quarantine we skyped often it was fun and then restrictions were lifted i went to spain and the second i land they all stop talking in the gc????? like im abroad not dead why are u creating a new one??? this gc was agressively spammed so i know for a fact theres another im not stupid

i come back from spain and theyre like can we meet!!! we meet three weeks later and theyr like i missed u so much im so happy uou came i love you and it felt really genuine like they genuinely missed me

two days later i find out through snapchat theyve all gone on holiday together!!!!!!!!!!!!! all of them and just ofc didnt invite me they went to the beach for two days and kept posting about it and im so bitter about it like bro???????? why so secretive????? like i cried so much when i saw bc they still just idk why does every single friendgroup ive ever been in exclude me like i must be the problem theres no other explanation for it i am not the kind of person people want to have around i am so funny but im a bitch and will come for ur ass because i have the inability to lie i have no filter either which i know makes them dislike me i know it does but thats the price you oay for being my friend i just say things as it is becauxe i hate secrets bc secrets are always about excluding me so i rather be honest and upfront but that clearly puts people off bc im too upfront and im not getting a personality transplant im not tryna be boring but im so sick of always being the one on her own

adam was relevant uh hews my only friend rn he checked up on me the other day so cheers adam for making sure im not completely isolated

the funny thing is that all my friends hate adam bc “hes a dick” hes not he just says things how it is were so similar so if they hate adam they hate me and im over being hated lol bye!

i start uni next week and i clearly have no social skills so im not gonna make friends im so scared of being lonely i hate being left out

this went from sad to full on angry like i was crying at some point and now im fuming like im so hot rn my blood pressure isnt doing okay

#my manifesto #sua: extreme #venting #xoxo #no ones had more friendship drama than me i refuse to believe it #this is 1526 words long #shut up ali

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nobodyknowswhereyouare · 4 years

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The love of my life

Vernon x Reader

Genre: Old love, Sad AU

Summary: And in that moment your eyes met, you knew you haven´t forgotten him, he took you back to the start with a simple glance.

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You were bored in your room laying in your bed listening to some music when suddenly you heard music playing louder in the house next door.

“Is he listening to ‘everybody's changing’?” the song was so loud you could barely listened to yours now.

You stuck your head out of the window to ask your new neighbor to put the volume down a little bit, but when you saw him you didn’t want to say a thing, you were speechless.

He was the most beautiful boy you had ever seen in your life, he’s features were so delicate and his skin looked as perfect as porcelain even from where you were, his beautiful eyes decorated with long lashes looking at a blank spot with some melancholy in them. He then noticed someone was looking at him and he turned around just to see your face drooling over him.

“Do you need something?” He asked frowning but without sounding annoying

“Oh, no not really” You answered nervously

He looked at you with a half smile

“I’m sorry i-

you tried to get yourself back in your room but he interrupted you

“Do you wanna come?” He asked kinda shy

“Me?”

“I don’t see anyone else” He smile again pressing his lips

You nodded and left your house going to his, he opened his door and didn’t say a word till you reach the rooftop where he was when you saw him. He took a sit on an old sofa and told you to sit next to him if you wanted to. You did.

“So… what´s your name?” he asked turning his face to you

“Y/N” you answered with a low voice

“Hansol” he said stretching his hand to you

You spent the entire day with him, Hansol was an open book to you, even when he knew he wasn’t to everyone, actually that was the reason his ex broke up with him.

“She thought i was hiding things from her just because i didn’t bother to talk about the things i liked with her” He said

“And why you didn’t?” you asked

“I don’t know…guess i didn’t feel comfortable with her at all” he shrugged “Still she was my first girlfriend, so i just feel weird”

The loud music was just a ritual he had when something in his life ended, he even told you the first time he did that was when he came back home from the cinema after watching ‘harry potter and the deathly hallows part 2’ he thought a part of his life had ended and he had to do something about it. So now every time something was over or he just had too many thought he would do that.

You felt the connection from the moment you met him, and he felt it too, that’s why from that day on you two became inseparable. not so long after he asked you to be his girlfriend. The years passed really fast, three to be exact, you were in your senior year now and you and Hansol were an item.

No one ever talked about you as a single person now, if someone was talking about you they were taking about “(y/n) and Hansol” or “Hansol and (y/n)”, yours and his family were used to see your faces walking around their house as your own and even your best friend who lived two houses next to you knew how to manage her and your time where you were not with him so she could spend some time with you, tho it was a minimum actually.

Not everything was nice tho, the fights…God they were like an explosion. Sometimes you would fight over stupid things but the fight would turn into a battlefield out of nowhere, screaming, cursing and even some objects crushing in the ground would happen.

But as hard the fights were so was the sex. Sometime you thought Hansol just fought over stupid things just for the reconciliation sex (you didn’t think about it he actually confessed it to you that once on a pillowtalk)

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“Have you ever think about our future?” He asked while you were cuddling in your room, he was drawing circles in your arm with his finger while looking at you with his beautiful hazel eyes

“Welcome to another episode of Hansolx(y/n) midnight deep conversations” you giggled and he giggled back

“No i’m being serious” he said hugging you tightly so you could face him clearly “Senior year is almost over”

“We’ve talked about this Hansol…”

“So our plan stands still, we’ll go to college together and then to university…”

“And we’ll get married and have children and die when we are both old” You completed “It sounds so normal yet so unrealistic it scares me”

“I know right?” he rubbed his nose against your cheek “But we are Hansol and (y/n) theres nothing we can’t do”

You just looked at him and kissed his lips while nodding with your head, you weren’t sure if that would be possible at all now.

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“I just don’t know what to do now, Hansol has so many plans for us” You said to your best friend Chiara

“But…why don’t you try long distance relationship?” She suggested

“It won’t work out” You said “London is too far away and is not like i can comeback any weekend just to see him”

“Damn” She said with a worried gesture “It’s just, it’s hard for me to think about you without him, and i don’t even talk with him”

“Me neither, I can’t even remember how it was not to be with him”

“Well… that’s actually kinda wrong too y’know?”

“It’s just how we are, Hansol and (y/n), (y/n) and Hansol”

“But it’s your career, I think that’s more important”

She was right, even if it hurt

“I’m going to London” You sighed “I’ll talk with him”

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“Hansol” you said softly, seating in his bed while he was looking for some record to play

“Yes babe?” He asked

“I…need to talk to you…about something” You said playing with your fingers nervously

“You sound serious” He turned back to you, he frowned with a smile in his face

You knew it was going to be hard, but not this hard, looking at his face you didn’t know how to tell him

“I don’t know how to say this to you” You buried your face in your hands, he sat next to you

“You can tell me everything” He kissed your cheek “You know that”

“I know” You said, you were already feeling that knot going up your throat “It’s just…God this is difficult”

“You are starting to scare me” He said already worry “You are fine right?”

“I am” You nodded two tears went down your face and Hansol’s expression darkened “Hansol I’m leaving”

“Leaving?” He frowned “Leaving to where?”

“To London, with my parents”

“But you said they told you you could stay” He said kind of desperate

“I know, but i have more opportunities there and-

“And what? College isn’t bad here and we would be together” He said angry his gaze as cold as ice

“But is better there, i want to be as good as i can be” You tried to explain

“You can be as good as you can be here, with me”

“Is an opportunity Hansol, the best for me”

“But not the best for me” He said standing from the bed and walking around the room

“Are you really turning this into something about you?” You said squinting

“No, i’m turning this into something about us” He passed a hand through his hair “You are leaving and you are acting like it means shit to you” He yelled

“I’m not acting like that!” You yelled back “You don’t even imagine how much it hurts for me too”

“Doesn’t seem like it, you wouldn’t leave if it would hurt you that much”

“It does, but i’m leaving anyways Hansol, like it or not”

“Guess is over then, 4 fucking years to trash” He yelled

You didn’t say a thing you knew he was hurt

“And what i’m i suppose to do now?” He said, eyes filled with tears “What i’m i suppose to do without you?

“Leave” He said without looking at you

You tried to grab his hand but he pulled it away from you

“Leave” He said firmly

You looked at him

“I want to be alone now”

You nodded tears going down your face

“I’m leaving next week” you whispered and shut the door behind you

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“Are you ok (y/n)?”-Your mom asked while waiting on the airport

“What?” “Oh, yeah I am”

Your mom looked at you with a sad expression and kissed your head, she knew you were like this because of Hansol. He didn’t came over your house since your fight and he didn’t replied your messages, you knew he was hurt but you hoped to at least have a proper goodbye with him. You felt your heart ache when your mom told you you were ready to go.

You were at the security control when you suddenly heard him, his voice.

“(y/n)!” He yelled, you turn back thinking you were delusional, but there he was with both hands against the window, breathing heavily as a sign he had been running

“Hansol…” You said almost to yourself not believing he was there

You looked at him desperately looking sideways as trying to make sure about something. And then he did it, something only Hansol would do, he jumped over the turnstile and started running towards you, everyone looking at him with their eyes wide open and the security men running towards him.

When he reached you he just hugged you tightly and so did you, almost wanting to become one with him. The security guards stopped still when they saw the scene

“I love you” He said to your ear “And i’m never going to love someone as much as i love you”

“Me neither” You answered quickly “I love you too Hansol”

He planted a kiss in your lips and took two rings out of his pocket

“One’s for you” he said while placing it on your hand “And one’s for me” he said

You felt the tears all over your face

“So that you won’t forget about me” he said forcing a smile, you grabbed his face with both of your hands

“I would never forget about you Hansol” You kissed him “You are the love of my life”

He nodded and kissed you back

“And you are mine” He said softly

The security guards went to him, he had to go

“I’m gonna miss you” Was the last thing you said to him, he placed a kiss on your forehead

“Me too, like you have no idea” Was the last thing he said to you and left.

part 2

#vernon imagine #vernon fluff #vernon scenarios #vernon angst #seventeen scenarios #seventeen imagines #vernon #seventeen #kpop scenarios #kpop imagines

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szopenhauer · 4 years

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If money was no object, would you change your wardrobe? I would add to my wardrobe more than change

How do you/did you get to school? walk, then by bus

Have you ever been in trouble for something you honestly didn’t do? yep

Is the idea of having a secret admirer creepy or romantic? creepy

What was the last song you sung out loud? https://youtu.be/wycjnCCgUes

Were you excited to learn to drive, or scared? worried that I’ll waste my money

When was the last time you felt incredibly tired? today

In your opinion, who doesn’t deserve to be famous? many people

Was it hard for you to get up this morning? not really

When was the last time you colored with crayons or colored pencils? few months ago

Do you feel comfortable talking about your disorders, if you have them? depends

Where did you go on your last field trip? not sure which was last

Do you think you make a good first impression? no

Do other people’s first impressions stick with you? might

Have you ever had to give up on someone? sure

Would you rather break up with someone, or them break up with you? them break up with me (not my decision) but usually it’s the other way around

Do you think it’s okay to like a cover more than an original? umm...

Are you calm in emergency situations? depends

Who are you most attached to? my dad

What do you depend on other people for? money mostly :(

What goes through your mind when someone breaks up with you? depends

Do you match your shoes with your outfit? sometimes, it’s not that I have enough shoes to do that lol

Do you feel more comfortable with a male or female doctor/nurse? female

What was the last thing you bragged about? not sure what was last

What’s the ugliest thing on your wall? umm...

Who’s your favorite philosopher? Schopenhauer because of all the memes

Do you think Freud was out of his mind? well I prefer Jung

Einstein? he was cool

Who’s your favorite painter/artist? I like many

What day is it? Friday

Are you wearing anything blue? nah

Do you know anyone named Graham? just bread :P

Are you sitting next to anyone? not currently

Do you dislike the last person you Facebook messaged? nope

Who’s the quietest of all your friends? K. always was

Are you home alone right now? If so, where are the people you live with? my mom’s home, my dad is at work

Are you a chocoholic? noooo

Is there a song that reminds you of the person you love/like? Do you listen to that song often? one of them is t.a.t.u. - All the things she said

Do you listen to music while you fill out surveys? sometimes

In the past week, what song have you listened to the most often? not sure

While playing video games, do you prefer being first or second player? second

How many people do you depend on? not many

How many people do you think depend on you? they could live without me

What is the worst color combination? brown and black?

Have you ever injured yourself walking around in the dark? yeah

What’s so scary about clowns, anyway? nothing to me and it’s annoying that they’re part of so many horrors

When was the last time you acted like someone you’re not? sigh...

How many hats do you own/wear? shitload

Do you ever receive comments on your weight? ppl are jealous of my weight so basically my illness :(

Is there anything that you do just to make other people happy? of course

What was the last thing that you wrote down [with a pen/pencil]? not sure what was last

Has anyone told you that you have a nice smile? my gf only

Are you uncomfortable with being photographed? yup

Do you like playing tic-tac-toe? I always win What about hangman? I played it couple of times Are you dangerously in love with someone? woah

Are you cute or sexy? cute Is English your 1st language? it’s not Did you ever perform in front of your entire school? elementary - more than once Did your older sibling ever tell you freaky stories that you believed? one time she told me that school was flooded and there were fish and frogs and then I said that to my mom and she called me a liar and got mad even tho I explained to her it was my sister’s idea :( Are you single and proud? you can be single and proud as well as be happy in a relationship too, I am in one now Are you more happy when you’re with people or alone? 90% of time alone What do you think about guys shaving their legs? that’s their life Do you wear lipstick? nah Name something you lost or gave away that can never be replaced. I don’t wanna talk about it

What music album would be used for a movie about your life? soundtrack to my life would have to be a mix of songs from different bands/vocalists

Who was your first crush and what made them special? she was just adorable with her clumsiness and her perfect body and that face and voice and she was just a pretty cool friend to me and I wanted to take care of her so badly, she was the very first girl I ever had a crush on irl if not in general but she was hetero and she changed a lot (not in a good way in my opinion) Write about your first kiss. Was it everything you wished or hoped it would be? I... I never imagined my first kiss before it happened?...

Write about something you now know that you wish you knew earlier in life. How could this knowledge have helped you? blergh

Name one thing you feel brings out the good in people. there’s no such thing, it’s all about the person If you invented a device that could fix one problem you are facing right now, would you use it? What problem would you like to solve? absolutely, my health issues Name something you found; what was it and where did you find it? I’ve found shitload of stuff but one thing was the most odd and that’s a taxidermy ferret shawl someone left on a bus stop - at first we thought with dad it must be alive but we came closer and realized someone lost their piece of cloth and we took it Describe the longest amount of time you have ever been away from home. almost a month, I was in hospital Name a celebrity or famous person you wish would take you out on a date. - Have you ever seen a ghost? it seems, it was not just white but a little bluish, no legs and weird face - shaped like in a clay, mostly transparent, slightly glowing, it was in open doors of my room, I woke up with a weird feeling that someone’s watching me and I got really scared so I hidden under a blanket and didn’t look there again until morning, I was trying to convince myself it’s just a shirt that was hanged in the hall but mom said there wasn’t anything like that there at night, now I wish I could see that again hoping I would try to do something more brave about it, I kinda worry I was rude towards them whoever it was

*btw my grandma said that after death some chemicals leave the body and fly like a fog through the cemetery if casket and grave aren’t blocking it too much Describe your note-taking style and habits. everywhere and usually not in line, can be even upside down, just random, different size, clue words etc. Do you believe that we are all here for a reason? What might the reason be? suffering to deserve heaven? Have you ever done something just to feel the danger, or to feel alive? I hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real What are all your thoughts on god? overthinking... What did you learn today? for example - that explaining things to people make me realize more than just thinking about something What 5 traits do people first notice when they meet you for the first time? ask them Have you ever carved your name or initials into a tree or stone? poor tree :( In what ways have you traveled? car, bus, train, bike, even a little bit by ship What historical events happened the year you were born? nothing interesting

Do you watch really old tv shows or movies from the 1970’s or earlier? sure

What would you do if you saw a complete stranger dealing drugs in public? nothing If you don’t have to be up by a certain time, do you like to sleep in as late as possible? no longer than 11 am What are you wearing at the moment? Is it for any particular reason? pajama because it’s past midnight and I should be asleep but I have to finally finish this survey then dry my hair and drink some water first Are either one of your parents retired? my mom is and my dad will be soon Do you buy a lot of DVD’s, or do you tend to just watch everything online for free? watch online, I have no money for buying movies that I’ll watch less than 3 times Does everyone in your household own their own computer? nope

Are you a good gift giver? I try my best and been told that I am despite not being rich

Do you know what XOXO stands for? hugs and kisses

What’s the first person who comes to your mind when you hear the word blue? me

Have you seen any of the Harry Potter movies? first ones

Do you like your significate others siblings? I don’t know her brother

Have you ever recieved a singing birthday card? omg I loved those and I wish I got one :(

Do you remember who your kindergarten/pre-school teacher was? I liked her so much I’ve been sending her cards on holidays years after

Were you ever a girl scout or a boy scout? never

Do you own anything made of lace? hmm...

How many people do you share a name with? I don’t know anyone with my name

Imagine your dream home, does it have a fence around it? if it’s not an apartment then of course it does, highest possible and thick as I don’t want to see or be seen by my neighbors

Do you own any yellow shoes? yep

Can you type fast? very

In school were you bullied? I was

Are you sarcastic? yeah

Do you read the newspaper? nah

If you died today where do you think you’d go? hell :(

Have you ever been to therapy? few times, didn’t help

Do you use online dating? did

Did you miss alot of school? I was sick often

What was the last thing you got falsely accused of? not sure what was last

What was the last thing you ordered online? shirt, I’m waiting for the package now

Have you ever been kicked out of a store? no :o

Do you feel like you accomplished anything today? hmm...

What is/was your favorite teen magazine? trzynastka or however this shit was called

Would other people describe you as creative? I guess

What color are your slippers? grey and white

Are you haunted by memories of stupid things you’ve said and done? constantly

Did you like high school or college better? didn’t go to college

Who was your favorite Olsen twin? I didn’t have a favorite

Do you ever listen to Celtic music? used to, with John

Do you know a lot of rich and spoiled and selfish people? had classmates like this and neighbors too

Do you enjoy mornings? rarely, not really

Have you ever feared going to jail or thought about what it would be like? thought

Did you know that the zodiac signs (the regular ones) are Greek? ok

Have you ever learned about Greek mythology in school? didn’t like it

Do you stay up late? as you can see

what do you hear right now? nothing

what is one thing in your life you feel truly guilty for? personal

have you ever been slapped in the face? I’ve been slapped without any reason, I was bullied

how about punched? hit with a ball only and my head was hit with a bottle too once

have you ever come up with a memorable quote yourself? I’ve been quoted

what do you think about masturbation? personal

What color did you first ever dye your hair?: either red or black

What’s the color of the bath towel you use most often?: green

Ever eaten a piece of dog or cat food out of curiosity?: ewww, nooo

Can you name one song by Prince?: Purple rain for example

Would you rather paint or make pottery?: paint

Are you currently taking this survey before or after 9pm?: after, I started over 5 hours ago...

Is the sun shining bright outside right now?: it’s the middle of the night!

Would you rather watch a horror movie or a romantic comedy?: romantic comedy ^^”

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fanf1cshawn · 5 years

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broken promises

sooo uh hey everyone! this imagine was inspired by a prompt i saw on a post that i reblogged and it’s my first time doing angst soooo i hope ya’ll like it. ~

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4 - “why can’t you look at me?”

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warnings: swearing and sexual connotations.

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it all started from coming home late from the studio. always coming home at the double digits of the night. he always reasoned with you that he wanted the album to be perfect, so you let it slip the first few times.

then it turned into coming home at midnight. he came home exhausted majority of the time, you unable to wait for him to come home. the dinners you made were always left untouched, or worse, you saw it dumped inside the trash.

you came home from work a bit later today, since there were tons of things to do. you inserted the key into the keyhole, wishing that if you opened the door your boyfriend would be right there, waiting for you.

the door slowly opened and you must have been so tired that you didn’t even hear the low mumbling of your boyfriend in his office. you were a bit disappointed that he wasn’t there to welcome you with a warm hug, but you didn’t mind since it was rare for him to come home earlier than you anyways.

you quickly kick off your heels, sprinting to the office as fast as you can. he was on the phone with someone, but you couldn't make out who he was talking to.

“hey.” you leaned against the doorframe, getting no response. maybe your voice was too quiet for him to hear. you come closer and put your hands on his shoulders, feeling him tense up. he quickly turned around, surprised to see you. his body calmed down and he sighed in relief. he ended the phone call and stood up to wrap you in his arms.

“yo, y/n. didn’t notice you were already home.” it felt... weird. something was up. he gave you a crooked smile and sat right back down on his office chair.

“have you eaten yet?” you ask, so you could make dinner just in case he was hungry.

“uh, yeah. i ate out with the guys today, hope you don’t mind.” he rubbed the back of his neck, chuckling lowly.

“oh. yeah, that’s alright bub.” you reply softly, feeling your heart sink.

“i’ll be in the kitchen if you need something.” you said, thinking that it was going to be another night of eating alone again, even with him being home. you head out to kitchen, heating up the meal you made the you made for shawn the other day, since you knew that he was never going to eat it anyways.

the sound of the microwave heating the food was the only thing heard, ‘til you heard heavy footsteps approach the front door.

“shawn?” you raise your brows, surprised to see him leave again.

“i’ll be heading out for a bit, is that okay with you?” he was rushing to put on his boots, as if he someone was waiting for him.

“but didn’t you just say that you ate out with the guys earlier?” you question. the guys haven’t hung out this much in the past few days, since the guys usually came over if they wanted to hang out.

“last minute plans, they wanna go out clubbing.” he laughs. it sounded convincing, but the thought of him hiding something from you popped up in your head. you shrugged the idea off and sighed. he would never do that to you, he promised.

“uh, sure. have fun!” he took a quick glance at his phone and left without saying goodbye.

that was the last straw.

the moment your food was finished heating, you swallowed your food quickly and searched for shawn’s macbook in his office. the past few weeks you couldn’t help but notice how he was always waiting for a certain message on his phone, making his hand glued to the device.

you opened the macbook and typed in his password, since you always tell each other passwords and codes. icloud syncs on every apple device he owns, and the mac was one of them.

you click on the imessage icon and there you saw everything. the last thing you wanted to see ever from that device. you didn’t know how to feel. shocked, sad, heartbroken?

you scroll through the messages between him and a girl named allison. your jaw drops and your heart sinks for every single word you read from their most recent conversation.

a: are you leaving soon?

: i’m wearing your favorite pair tonight, can’t wait to see you later. 😉

s: fuck babe, i’ll leave as soon as i can. trying to escape from my girlfriend haha

a: lmao why are you still with her anyways, i thought she wasn’t good enough?

s: ‘cause she thinks i still care about her and it’s hard to tell her that i really don’t.

: besides, keeping you a secret is more fun anyways. that way we can do more stuff together. more thrilling than being in the public eye you know?

a: true tho. anyways, see you soon!

you scoff. why haven’t you thought of doing this before? why only now?

although you shouldn’t read the conversations of other people without their knowledge, you didn’t feel bad for reading theirs. not even a single bit.

your grew more pissed when you read through their conversation, finding out that it’s been going on for about 3 months.

you take photos of the convo on your phone to post them on twitter.

tweet by you:

hey @ShawnMendes, hope you have a lot of fun with the guys tonight!

(insert photos of convo)

your finger was on top of the tweet button, but you stopped yourself for a second. should i really do this? you chew on your bottom lip and shrugged. i should.

you press tweet and the tweet spread like wildfire. in just a few minutes, there were already headlines all around social media: Canadian Pop-star Shawn Mendes caught cheating on current girlfriend Y/N, caught by the girlfriend herself!

you go around twitter and saw that Shawn Mendes was trending on twitter and that they even made him a hashtag called #ShawnMendesIsCancelledParty. you laugh as you imagine your now ex-boyfriend’s face, reading the numerous articles and tweets.

you start packing a bag full of clothes when you hear your phone blow off with hundreds of notifications. notifications turned into phonecalls end you exactly knew who was calling you. you never picked up, so you just went on with packing more and more stuff.

you zip up the huge bag and walk into the living room, placing it beside the couch. you decided to wait for shawn to hear his nonsense explanations and what not. the sound of the keys was the only thing heard and when the door swung open there he stood, frozen and pale like he had just seen a ghost in the living room. his eyes were glued to random things in the room, as he kept fidgeting with the end of his shirt.

“so, how did it go? did you finish because of how tight brian was?” you stood up slowly, grabbing the handle of the bag. the sarcasm in your voice ringing in his ears.

“i said, how did it go?” a stern tone left your lips and you started approaching him. you eyed him up and down and to him, your eyes felt like daggers stabbing through him. he didn’t know what to say at that moment, didn’t know what dumb explanation to give you. the words were scrambled in his mind and he couldn’t make up anything.

“i-i swear i didn’t mean it. i was about to break up with her anyways.” he mutters out, voice low that you almost didn’t hear a single thing he said. you laugh loudly, clapping your hands in amusement.

“look at me, shawn.” he didn’t look.

“look at me, shawn.” you repeated, but louder. still, he didn’t move a single bit. he was still eyeing something in the kitchen, except for you.

“why can’t you look at me?!” you screamed, grabbing his chin and turning it for him to finally face you. his eyes were full of misery and the corner of his lips were low.

“after the past three years, shawn, three fucking years.” the tears were about to brim your eyes but you did your best to hold it in.

“i have genuinely loved and cared for you but all you do in return... is cheat? what about that promise you made me three years ago when you asked me to be your girlfriend, huh? you said that you’ll love me and do your best not to hurt me... and you still cheated.” you breathe heavily as you start to feel your throat hurt from holding back all the tears.

“turns out promises are just promises. made to never fulfill.” you brought your hand right across his left cheek, the sound of your hand hitting his face ringing in the room. you left, pushing him aside harshly, sprinting to the elevator as fast as you can.

shawn didn’t run. he couldn’t bring himself to do it. he slammed the door shut and was quiet for a few moments.

he realized how dumb he was for doing such a thing, and he regretted everything. your words ran through his mind over and over again, and you were right. you were always right.

shawn’s tears were streaming down his face and he leaned on the door, sliding down slowly. his long fingers ran through his hair and he tried to catch his breath.

he remembered how tight he held your hands and how he looked deeply into your eyes with love three years ago.

he cried even more because he knew he was stupid, and because of his stupidity, it caused you, the greatest treasure of his life, to leave him all alone.

#shawn mendes #shawn mendes imagines #shawn mendes blurb #shawn mendes fanfic #shawn mendes imagine #shawn mendes one shot #shawn mendes fanfiction #shawn mendes one shots #shawn mendes angst

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ghouls-dream · 5 years

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Can I request dew being angry at his s/o but then getting soft when he sees how upset they are? ;u;

Of course , sweetheart!!! I really did enjoy writing this, even tho im not really good at writing fluff, but still - I hope you like it!!! 🖤

It was again this time of the month. No, not the one you all thought about - I wasn't even near my period. I was talking about the moment when the band had to go for a new set of rituals. All around the world. Fans were dying to see them, they were pre-ordering tickets for months just to see their favourite men... I was happy for them - both the boys and the fans, but I couldn't hide the pain and the feeling of sorrow each time they had to leave. Especially Dewdrop - the ghoul for who I had a special place in my heart.

You'd ask why I wouldn't go with him? Reason is simple - Imperator needed me here, in the Church of Ghost, more. As happy as I felt that I was chosen to be her successor one day, I couldn't lie - I was twice as sad. Since I got the news from her that she wanted me to take her place one day, my life changed - my responsibilities became more in number, harder and much more stressing. I had to look after the kits, to keep an eye on the sisters and their development - do they study hard enough, how are their Latin lessons going, were they helping the ghouls enough... All of that was too much for me. I have always been a responsible person, a strict one, but this was way too much for someone who had almost zero experience in ruling whatsoever.

Tonight I was especially tired. I had to prepare the new girls for their first rituals all day and on the top of that - it was my last night with Dew. At least for a pretty long time... I put on my silky black pajama dress as I sat on the soft bed. My head was pulsating... The terrible headache in combination with my sadness was the worst possible way to end such a day. I looked at the clock - it was almost midnight. Dewdrop was still rehearsing or doing last minute preparations with the band.

Or at least I supposed so. I sighed in response to that thought as I put my head on the soft pillow and stared at the ceiling... It wasn't long enough before I heard the door opening. I quickly sat up again and waited for the ghoul to get in. "I'm awake" I spoke quietly as Dew looked at me and said "Oh... You shouldn't be, tho". "Well I was waiting for you. It's our last night together " I joked, getting up to kiss him as he raised an eyebrow. Of course, he responded to the kiss, but I could feel that he wasn't that affected by the thought that was torturing me all day. "Its not like I'm dying. I'll be back sooner than you could count to ten" Dew tried to cheer me up as he walked towards the wardrobe. I looked at him as he started taking out his clothes one by one and putting them in the big suitcase. That damned suitcase... I hated every single fabric of it, because it always reminded me of a separation... When me and Dew started actually dating, I was well aware that he'd be away most of the time. And to be honest I never had a problem with that, even now! I just needed time to get used to that thought... Unlike him, though, I couldn't go out that much. I had certain time when I could be outside the church, ever second of my day was made into a strict graphic I had to follow. Other way I could meet Imperator's bad side... My thoughts were suddenly interrupted by the fall of one of his perfumes on the floor. "Fuck damn it!" Dew cussed as he bend over to take but I was quicker and did that for him. I gave it in his hand and chuckled "You should be more careful. We don't want your clothes to smell of alcohol". "My hands are just tired, okay? It wasn't a big deal!" Dew took the small bottle from my hands and put in the suitcase as well. I could feel the irritation in his voice... I was clearly annoying him and I didn't even know how or why. I was just trying to help... He said it himself - his hand were tires enough. I nodded quietly as I sat on the bed and just continued looking at him as he was turning around, looking for random things he had to get for his tour. Organizing and order weren't Dewdrop's best sides. In fact, he was chaotic as hell... He had his own way of finding specific things around his place. It wasn't that he was messy... He just had the bad habit of putting stuff on weird places. Like socks in the bathroom drawers for instance.

"Okay... Uh... Jeans? Yeah... Oh shirts.. no.. I didnt put... Or did I?" He started mumbling to himself as I smiled and told him "I've put the clean shirts on hangs in the wardrobe if you're looking for them". Dew looked at me as he was about to say something but instead just nodded and grabbed the clothes, putting them in the suitcase. Just like that. "Don't forget to take enough underwear. It's never too..." I adviced him as he just turned to me and almost shouted "Its never too what, Y/N?! I'm not a child!" . I looked at him confused, feeling a little disappointed and said "I never said you were.." "Then shut up! I know you spent too much time with the little ones, but that doesn't make me one of them! I can handle myself! If I needed notes I'd write myself some!" Dew shouted. That was it. I felt as if someone ripped the heart out if my chest. I don't know why I was feeling betrayed, unneeded and disappointed, but his words really made their way into my soul. This time... It was different. It was painful, I felt like a peace of shit, like an intruder... And all I wanted was to help, when in reality I just made things worse... I felt how my eyes were getting all watery so I just took a small deep breath and looked at the ground. I couldn't even make an excuse. I was acting like a mother, I was treating him like a kid... And he was a man. He didn't need.. "Hey... Hey look, I'm sorry." I heard Dew's voice becoming softer and much more quiet. I saw how he was coming closer before kneeling in front of me and whispered, cupping my cheeks "Y/N I'm sorry, baby... I just really had a terribly stressed day. Copia was doing changes just the last minute, I tore a string and had to fix it, the ghoulettes synthesizer also had a problem... Im sorry I let it all out on you". I locked my eyes with his as he rubbed his thumb on my cheeks, brushing away the fallen tears and came closer. His lips crashed onto mine. This time I could tell that this was him. Dew was coming back into his skin. The tenderness and the softness of that kiss had nothing to do with the energy that the previous one carried away. He helped me get up from the bed, still holding my face gently as I whispered against him "I'm sorry for acting like a mom. Im just really gonna miss you and... Imperator is making my life hell". Dew kissed me once again in order to "shut me up" obviously as I giggled, during that. After the ghoul slowly separated his lips from from mine, he whispered seductively "How about I remind you what Heaven feels like and after that you help me with the bags?" I felt my cheeks turning crimson red after his words, but still managed to nod quietly before wrapping my hands around his neck and leading him to the bed...

#the nameless ghouls #aether #dewdrop #ghost bc #nameless ghouls #rain #ghost #swiss #ghouls #mountain #one shot #dewdrop ghoul #the band ghost #dew

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unimpressedperson · 5 years

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“10 Movies to Describe Me” tag

Hey, as I ever said, I LOVE cinema and going to the movies, watching documentaries, enjoying life by studying every nuance present on the 7th art.

Along life we have contact with a bunch of movies and references that affect our personalities, view of world, and even how we act towards some situations. Cinema is a powerful way of art, possibly influencing.

Everyone has a list of movies which influenced our personal growth. This list is all about it: 10 Movies you can use to describe me.

1 - Spirited Away

Well, I think Spirited Away was my first contact with cinematography eastern culture and made me go further in searching for more. I was 5 or 6 when I watched and fell in love with it.

Nowadays I know how to respect different cultures, have a deep interest in stories and mythologies from other countries. Thank you Studios Ghibli!

Influenced personality: Love for mythology and cultures.

2 - The Adventures of Priscilla, Queen of the Desert

I LOVE drag queens and everything related to that subculture. I remember watching that movie as a kid, after midnight and hiding from my parents, which advised me to sleep because I had school the next morning.

Everything seemed so colourful and amazing, almost magical. A explosion of music and dresses, high heels, makeup, big wigs and dancing.

While growing up it influenced my choices on sports, acceptance, music, and love for drag culture.

RuPaul's Drag Race is part of my love for drag queens, but it wasn't the first reference. Btw, support your local queens and art.

Influenced personality: Dancing skills, LGBT acceptance (when it comes to myself, I have nothing to do with someone else's sexuality), love for drag culture and pop music.

3 - Blackfish

Oh ma'am, now we got to a very rough part of my personality: my HATE and INDIGNATION over zoos and aquariums.

I don't like zoos, not at all. Watching animals caged in small spaces and sad, oh boy, it makes me want to invade the whole place with a hammer and set them free.

Before watching Blackfish I didn't quite realize how bad everything was for fishes in Aquariums as well. Now, I want to start petitions against Sea World and Aquário de São Paulo.

I love animals, WAY MORE than I enjoy being around humans, so knowing how suffering is their life inside small places makes me want to cage humans and let them walk freely.

Influenced personality: Love for sea animals and thirsty for their justice.

4 - Inglorious Basterds

(This scene is one of my favourites lol)

#ILOVEHISTORYANDTARANTINO

Well, Inglorious Basterds is a very historically inaccurate movie, but I love it with all my stone cold heart. There are so many catchphrases and iconic moments.

I just love that movie. Nothing really special or meaningful.

Influenced personality: The need for kill Nazis lol

5 - The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I was a very angst teenage and depressed as well, not counting anxiety on the mix. When I was 13 The Perks of Being a Wallflower aired on cinemas, and suddenly all my concerns about acting weird and not normal, compared to other girls around and whose studied with me, kind of seemed so pointless, mainly because Patrick, Charlie and Sam seemed to have so much fun, even acting quirckly and being classified as misfits.

My story has nothing to do with neither of characters, but I related a lot to them. So I think a big part of me came and flourished after watching The Perks of Being a Wallflower.

Also, it taught me the importance of speaking how you feel, therapy and trusting people enough to tell them when something wrong is going on.

The book is also one of my favourites, so I’m not impartial when it comes to The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Influenced personality: Not afraid of being myself, fight for human basic right of having mental health treatment guaranted and embracing my quirk personality.

6 - Erin Brockovich

Everyone who knows me well enough, is VERY aware of how independent and self-suficient I am. I hate depending on people for completing tasks or doing stuff, so most of the time I try to learn do things all by myself. It’s something natural inside of me, partly because I don’t get lonely, so the idea of depending on someone to anything makes me cringy.

Erin Brockovich is a movie I watched when I was 12 and the way Erin acted towards everyone, giving priority to her life and kids, not caring about everyone else’s opinion, it made me root to be independent like her (except for the kids and struggle to find a job). Erin exhales big dick energy, also the ending made me aplaud the movie (even tho I was alone at home watching it).

Influenced personality: I learnt how to classify my priorities, also improved my confidence on how I act, since Erin isn’t afraid of achieving things and proving her point, even if everyone else is against and won’t believe her.

7 - Lilo & Stitch

I think every single living human alive had at least one movie, you know this one movie, which you obsessed during your childhood. It doesn’t matter the genre, you watched it nonstop and pissed off your whole house with how repetitive movie marathons seemed to get with you, since everytime you picked whatever you were about to watch, your choice was quite predictable.

The movie I obsessed during my childhood was Lilo & Stitch (also Scooby Doo, where do you think I learned how to copy someone’s fingerprint by using pore cleanser and powder?).

As I mentioned a few items ago, I was a misfit and it played a big part on my life, being excluded from parties, playdates and games during P.E was common. It bothered me, but everything changed when we adopted my first dog, a dachshund called Xuxinha. We were Lilo & Stitch, whenever people treated me badly at school, I knew that she would be waiting for me at home.

Xuxinha passed away in 16th February 2017, and I still miss her.

Influenced personality: It helped understand that people are douchebags, but as long as I have my dog/sister at home to hold and distract me, then nothing else matters. I learned the importance of surounding yourself with people who cares about your well-being, not caring specie, ethnicity, etc.

8 - Wonder

I don’t think this item requires a lot of text to describe why I felt influenced by it. Watch the movie and let’s sob together.

Influenced personality: Learned why appearance means nothing, and everyone goes through some struggle, so always be there for people who cares about you as much as you do about them. Also, always stand up against bullying, it may look like a joke now, but it can be the trigger for fatalities.

9 - Spotlight

I study Social Communication: Journalism, that’s what I’ve been wishing to do and want to be in the future. Even tho I decided what I wanted as my career YEARS before the release of Spotlight, it helped me define which kind of journalism I wanted to follow: Investigative.

It feels like I just made 4 out of 2+2, considering the fact that I love detective stories and would love to be a detective myself, but watching and acknowledging that all the investigation and accusations were based on real facts, oh Ma’am, I can’t even describe the thrill consuming my mind only by imagining what it feels like to be involved journalistically in an investigation.

Influenced personality: My PASSION for investigative journalism.

10 - The Imitation Game

Last but not least: The Imitation Game.

Well, I constantly get annoyed on how biased our society is, for real, and whenever it happens I write poems and texts and protest, and piss off a bunch of people by only talking about a situation of inequality. When I first watched The Imitation Game the whole Alan Turing being castrated and killing himself because of homophobia and a VERY, I repeat, VERY narrow-minded society, it PISSED OFF THE HELL OUT OF ME, and I used this rage during a full semester of college paper works.

I named a group after Alan Turing and our semester project was basically about people being biased and killing genius because they cannot look further from their own bellybottoms. I won a “Oscar de Jornalismo”, which is the award that happens every six month in my college, prizing the best works from the semester.

It still makes me so angry to imagine what Alan Turing could had done if he lived for at least 20 more years.

Influenced personality: Well, it made me channel my rage about a situation and helped me to understand why we should discuss homophobia, racism, wars, etc, even harder now. Watching the world following the path for making the same mistakes all over again is frightening, and only history can help us.

- x-

It has potential to be a tag, so I’ll tag some people I want to know what movies inspired them. You don’t have to make a whole long ass text about your choices, just sharing is enough :)

@ohmydearmoonchild @okayycalum @emerson-moonchild @btsqualityy @theburntwaffle

#movies #cinema #hashtag #influences #personality #art #we're what we absorb #we are art #the imitation game #alan turing #spotlight #wonder #lilo & stitch #erin brockovich #the perks of being a wallflower #inglorious basterds #blackfish #the adventures of priscilla queen of the desert #spirited away

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smellycinnamonthundahfudge · 6 years

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tumblr fweinds

a year ago, i was tagged by @suplosers on two questionnaires and it is only now, a year later that i was able to answer em. i’m so sorry it took me this long but yah i’m just glad to get thru dis milestone, answering the first tumblr get to know ya post i was @ at... yaayyy ^^

rules: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people.

I tag: tbd haha i still have to dig thru meh notifs to see which ones apparently took an interest in me so i’d like to take an interest in as well haha but oh @you-guys--are-losers, ur doing this whahaha hope it’s not too much of a bother, no presh watsoever ;3

the last

1. drink: ughh it's dis shitty stuff called hydrite w/c is basically salt water cus im sick rn and it's supposed to rehydrate ur shts or something hahaha

but dat was like a week ago... as of da moment i posted dis, it’s coffee from mini stop dat i drank at like 530 in da morn while i waited until i could enter the school cus i had to commute 3 hours w/ lil to none sleep

2. phone call: my father or one of my best friends

3. text message: the last one i texted was my sister and the last one i got a text from was dis org in school about the location for recruitment/auditions/interview

4. song you listened to: billy jean by michael jackson and i listened to it for meh tomdaya fic hahaha. But i also listened to halo by beyonce, untouchable and dress by taylor swift, and some other songs magmt mentions in her tomdaya fic hehe a week ago

rn, a metal cover of toxic by our last night

5. time you cried: haha i don't actually remember the context of it (i could find out tho haha cus i sent da pic to my best friend) but i took a pic of it while i did it which was on... july 16 hahaha. Oh but w8 oh sht i think i cried after that fudge w8 i don't remember the date (i think i can find this out too hahaha) but i wrote a sortof goodbye confessions letter to one of my dear friends and i wrote there that i externally cried (b4 i just said internally haha) so i'm not entirely sure i cried but i think im pretty sure i teared up hehe

6. dated someone twice: hahaha i haven't even had a legit love interest yet 😆😂 buuutt my best friend and i have "dated" as in spent entire days together w/ just the two of us, we even went to mcdonalds for valentine's day and got each other gifts hihihi aahhh gosh i miss her :'(

7. kissed someone and regretted it: haha im not even sure if dis happened and i have no plans on asking her about it but i remember when i was a kiddo, when my sis came home for some reason i kissed her on the lips hahaha dont remember if accidental or i just brain farted heck i aint even sure if it happened but das all i can answer cus well like i said, see #6 😆😂😆😂

8. been cheated on: hhmmm probs not, i have no idea if ive been cheated on in an unromantic way hahaha but in da romantic way, like i said, no love interest hahaha

Oh w8 does being someone's crush (i aint sure but it seemed like it) and crushing on dat dude but dat dude crushing on someone else too count as cheating? 😆😂😆😂

9. lost someone special: yes, all of my grandparents are dead. I've also lost pets, and i fear i may lose some of my friends due to the distance among us in this time of our lives

10. been depressed: i always wanna be careful over how to define depression. Like wat constitutes it... but yes, i think i have. Not sure, mind you, but yes, at the beginning of gr 7 i was really alone, i think i was bullied and i think i was depressed and going thru a really dark phase of my life back then. But then again, i have to say, i'm not sure.

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: hahaha nope. I'm looking forward to getting drunk tho. Im currently underage so im not allowed to drink dat much yet but yeah i wanna know my limits hehehe i hope im da kinda gurl who can handle her liquor but i have drank and i have to say it made me all loopy and weird and just like woke or high or something hahaha so yeah man im excited to get trashed on my 18th bday hahaha (hopefully i get to do this tho huhuhu)

3 favourite colours

12. Pink

13. Blue

14. Gray

in the last year have you

15. made new friends: yyeeesssss and i'm so glad i have hihi. I have made friends w/ a select group of my blockmates and they're awesome and weird, i hope to strengthen our bond in da future hehe. Ooohhh and i sure hope that you guys are losers is my friend cus she's been rlly great :')

16. fallen out of love: i guess the closest i've come to falling out of love in a romantic way is moving on from da heavy crushin on meh crush. But i dunno, i still think he's a unicorn n pretty special to me so i dunno hahaha.

But bro, i do think i have fallen out of love. With tv shows, with characters. Like i used to be so passionate about a few shows and characters but now all i have towards them is regret heck i cant even remember wat dey are but i know dat der was love lost. I know it.

17. laughed until you cried: hahaha yaasss i think so. It's either when i was with my best dearest friends or during the class of dis really cool and funny as heck joker teacher who makes us laugh in EVERY SINGLE CLASS hahaha ahhh das guy's so cool

18. found out someone was talking about you: oohh yah yah i think so. Either from my best friends or from a few of my old classmates i care about and had gotten close with. Da best friend ones was about something in my past/history (g7) and the classmates one i think was just dem talking about me and they told me about it ooohhh i think it was my crush hahahaha. They told me dat my crush actually admired me a lot hehe. There was one time my friend (the one who told me about dis) was putting make up on me for a school film, and my crush was da cam guy and he told my friend i looked pretty. Sooo im pretty lucky dat- oh sht w8 i dunno if it's dis year but oh w8 no, it was on my bday last year (dec 20) and da same friend said she was sorry cus apparently da bois make fun of me or something and she was sorry cus she laughed along too hahaha but i didnt mind cus i know im weird and i dont even know what dey say about me in da first place hahahaha. Ok das it im done, i think ive overshared now hahaha 😆😂😆😂

19. met someone who changed you: my best friends. Ive thought about it based on wat sup losers said about change for da better and i dont rlly think of change as something dat happens quick, i think it happens over time and u dont even notice it. So ok oh sht i think im wrong cus i met my best friends 4/6 years ago hahaha but for reals tho, i was in a dark place and if it werent for dem i think id still be lost lonely and sad. Uuhhmmm in regards to answering the question correctly, i guess my blockmates count since they inspire/challenge me to be better. OH SHT W8 i def think you guys are losers and dead end street and tomdaya receipts and tout de suite have changed me hehehe. Da first 2 in dat dey inspired me to write more hehe. Da 1st one inspired me to do this so i think this counts as change hehe. And da last 2 changed me in dat bcus i met dem, i became OBSESSED w/ tomdaya hahaha.

20. found out who your friends are: yes, i have actually. And it's all because i am now currently a college freshman as well as my friends.

21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: hahaha my fam i guess hahaha. But no one in a romantic context.

general

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: hhmmm i guess id say about 200 since i know 4 sections of around 40 ppl and da rest is like fam and ppl ive met once/twice or have passed by haha

23. do you have any pets: yaaaassss 3 doggos: albie, juju, and biggie girl. Juju has a pupper named tchalla called dat cus he black hehehe and biggie has 2 biglets named mermer (meredith) and crissy (cristina) cus they're sisters 😍😊😊

My fam have also had a buncha dogs n puppers before but they were either given away or passed away. My bro also has dis cat named bob and i think he counts as a semi pet since my bro's home is a fam home.

24. do you want to change your name: uuhhh i wish i had an alliterative name like superheroes. Buutt im pretty happy w/ my name :')

25. what did you do for your last birthday: oohhhh i think i was at my section's christmas party it was pretty nice n emotional and i spent da rest of da day w/ 2 of meh best friends who bought me cake n food when my own fam didn't 😆😂😆😂

26. what time did you wake up: 4 am to shit cus im sick, but fell asleep again and officially got up around 730 or 8ish

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: haha tryna stay awake cus i had to drink meh meds and failed oh so much and i think i was asleep by midnight hahaha

28. name something you can’t wait for: tomdaya content, chatting/being w/ my best friends, watching da stuff i wanna watch, tumblring, reading sht i wanna read, vacation, writing fanfics, learning how to do a buncha stuff (write screenplays, make films n gifs, draw better), my bday when i hopefully get to do wat i want haha, avengers 4 and smffh, and captain marvel and antman and the wasp too i guess haha oh and the incredibles 2 and httyd 3 😍😍😍 oohhh and crazy rich asians

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: on monday which was when i was at home and not at my dad's n sis' n i's apartment in manila for school/work

31. what are you listening to right now: commercials on da tv as i answer this long ass questionnaire hahaha

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: hahaha i had to think about dis one but yah i have actually haha he was my gr 8 class mate n i like to think semi friend back den at least haha. Oh w8 but he doesn't go by tom tho, it's just thomas haha

33. something that is getting on your nerves: myself hahaha my shitty lazy ass procrastinating self hahaha 😅🙍

34. most visited website: fb specifically messenger, youtube, and tumblr

35. hair colour: hmmm black w/ a bit of brown i guess (ASIAN, YO! 😆😂😆😂)

36. long or short hair: neither, medium i guess haha. I like how long hair looks but it's such a bother n hassle haha. So i def would prefer short hair on a practical standpoint hahaha (im actually thinking of shaving the hair above my nape, yknow on da back of my head hehe)

37. do you have a crush on someone: well i dont have dat much of a crush on da crush i mentioned before, like i said haha. I have a crush on tomdaya, does dat count? 😆😂

38. what do you like about yourself: hahahaha nothing 😆😂😆😂🙍

Naahh uhhh i guess i like how much i love tv shows, i love meh fangirl self, and i like how diff n unique n weird i am, how i stand out, n dat i think my dreams are noble n worth tryin out. N i like how supportive n nice i am n im just chill on da outside haha. N sometimes i like meh face hehe. And i think dat im hilarious n weird n ppl should appreciate me more hahaha das y i crave for more validation dan consulting researchers hahaha (no one laughs at dat jokes and it's like im da only one who finds it funny and come on, man, i managed to make a research joke. Cant ya give a girl a break?)

n i guess sometimes it's good how much i care but sometimes i wish my feels could just chill for just like a minute pls

Thanks, man. I usually just focus on meh bad qualities so thanks for dis question, man :')

oh and i like dat i can swim hehe

39. piercings: i have holes on my ears for earrings but i don't really wear dem

40. blood type: a, i think?

41. nickname: sam, sab, and i rlly want to be called smells cus it's like a more me version of mels from melody hahaha

42. relationship status: single, yo. Oh w8 but i am married to my bed and fandoms so dey always come first. Plus i love my friends 😍😊

43. zodiac: sagittarius i think but i dont rlly know/care about zodiac sht. Tho it's nice if it does match up hehe

44. pronouns: uhhh i dont know wat to put here but i assume dis refers to wat i wish to be referred by ssoooo she, her, and a genderless pronoun in my language siya

45. favourite tv show: ughh i cant choose. Friends, grey's anatomy, phineas and ferb, avatar: the last airbender, black mirror, doctor who, and all of michael schur's stuff, and modern family, grimm, person of interest, pushing daisies, scrubs, happy endings, forever, how i met your mother, gravity falls, sherlock, and yknow wat? Yah, supernatural too and the httyd shows and suits :') oooohhh w8 and how to get away w/ murder and i guess big bang theory as well 😃 the end of the fucking world, legends of tomorrow, crazy ex-girlfriend, the good place, timeless but it’s kinda depressing so speaking of w/c game of thrones and west world and a series of unfortunate events and stranger things and scorpion and lost in space and for anime, let’s go with yakitate japan and boku no hero academia

46. tattoos: none, but i rlly want one and even have a list of tattoos i want (pretty minimalist), i just have to think of da perf place tho (both where to put it and where to get it) and find out if i can still donate meh bod if i have tattoos, but one of da ones i rlly want is smileys on meh fingers hehe

47. right or left handed: right, but my ma says im kinda ambidextrous n i kinda wish i could develop it hehe

48. surgery: haha nope, never. But in terms of an interest, i love grey's anatomy 😆😂

50. sport: ooohh my main sport is swimming cus my siblings are all swimmers so i am too. But i have played other sports for school like badminton, table tennis, volleyball, some water game i dont remember haha, and a combat sport in my country called arnis

51. vacation: christmas vacay and i cant wait huhu

52. pair of trainers: uhhh are trainers rubber shoes? I have a couple, i guess.

GENERAL

53. eating: my dad (who cooked our meal), sis, and i ate afritada (chicken dat's tomatoey basically) for dinner

54. drinking: just water, but ugh i have to drink da hydrite sht again 😑😒

55. I’m about to: finish dis questionnaire n fall asleep haha

56. waiting for: sleep n happiness

57. want: to sleep n write n tumblr n watch n read n for all my problems to disappear

58. get married: yeahhh... but i think it's highly unlikely, man. So i aint counting on it but i do want it to happen, it seems nice having someone to spend da rest of your life with :')

59. career: hahaha i'm still just a college student, just a newly minted freshman actually. But i like to consider myself a fulltime fangirl hahaha

WHICH IS BETTER

60. hugs or kisses: well, i havent rlly made out with anyone yet so im gonna have to say hugs i guess w/c ofc i love haha but i wish someone bigger than me could cuddle me for once in my life 😢

61. lips or eyes: lips cus they just seem so soft and sensual hehe. Plus i dunno man, eyes are kinda gross with muta (da sht in da corner of ur eyes when you wake up, it's a filipino word) and sht. And ya have to wear glasses/contacts if dey weak so it's just such a hassle. Tho i do recognize their importance n stuff 😊

62. shorter or taller: ugh TALLER. im a pretty tall gal so for once id like to be da lil spoon for once, for someone to be able to carry me and ya know all dat jazz. But i wouldnt give up my height for anything, makes me feel confident and better than everyone else mwuehehehehehehe

63. older or younger: uuuhhh for now i think it's a bit weird to date someone younger dan me, but for me personally, wat age i'd like to be, YOUNGER ALL DA WAY. it was just way less stressful and innocent back den, id give anything to go back 🙍

64. nice arms or nice stomach: haha nice arms if it means i can swing around them and they can carry me whahaha. But i do like em abs, i wanna feel wat abs feel like just once in my life hahaha

65. hookup or relationship: ooohhh i guess i fancy myself having a relationship for now hehe. Havent even had one yet haha.

66. troublemaker or hesitant: i am a hesitant troublemaker whahahahaha. Like i have all these ideas of thangs to do n sometimes i do dem but sometimes da situation n context scares me into not doing it like a wuss hahaha

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. kissed a stranger: haha nope.

68. drank hard liquor: haha nope but am looking forward to it hehe

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: thankfully i havent needed any yet whew

70. turned someone down: uhhh i guess the closest i came to "turning someone down" was being awkward around my crush haha but to be fair i think he was awkward too hahaha. And in an unromantic sense, i turned down a blockmate who offered to be my partner in an assignment becus i already had a partner hahahaha 😅

71. sex on the first date: haha havent experienced it if das wat ur askin. Maybe imma be dat kinda person after ive had a couple of relationships but for now i'll settle for someone actually being interested in me hahaha

73. had your heart broken: yes, by tv shows, and by da crappiness of life in general 🙇

74. been arrested: hahahaha nope but dat would be CRAZY hahaha

75. cried when someone died: yes, whether in real life or in tv shows, i have cried bcus of death 😢

76. fallen for a friend: look, man, my best friend's probably the most important person in my life who i couldnt bear to lose. I love her more dan anything in da world so i dunno if our friendship is something more dan da "typical" best friends i just know dat i love her n dat i dont wanna lose her n dat our bond's nothing like any other relationship ive ever had

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. yourself: hahahaha not rlly 😅 im pretty unreliable tbh and i make tons of mistakes and ill never be enough ever and just in general hate myself and have 0 self esteem hahaha 😅😅😅😓

But there's a chance i could improve tho, a very very VERY small tiny chance... but i guess i'll take wat i can get :/

78. miracles: hhmmm not in da way most ppl think about miracles in dat, it's da impossible event. I like to think it's a miracle that i have the family dat i have, da friends dat i have, and da life dat i have cus honestly i think i'd be dead w/o em. It's a fucking miracle i have things im passionate about and things that i love and im surrounded by ppl who i love and who love me as well. So yeah, i guess i believe in those kinds of miracles :')

79. love at first sight: hahaha not rlly. Look, man, im a fat girl who doesnt rlly care dat much about looks so unless a person manages to fall for someone while dat someone was doing something dat was a huge indicator of their personality and thus it's not only da appearance dat da person "fell in love w/", den i rlly dont believe in love at first sight. It's just infatuation, bruh. Love at first sight is cheap and u dont rlly know any thing about dat person other than the fact that they're pretty (why they caught ur eye in da 1st place imo) and nothin, zilch. Unless, like i said, they were doing something important to dem n indicative of deir personality. But even then, it wouldnt be love. Like i said, it'd be infatuation cus imo love is deep and takes time and cant just HAPPEN just cus u looked at someone and thought he/she was pretty 😒. True love would mean knowing dat person to deir bone but wanting to know more about dem. So to conclude a ted talk from a bitter person w/ a non existent love life 😆😂😂😂, love at first sight doesnt exist, is cheap, and is discriminatory to "ugly" ppl.

80. santa claus: hahaha i know he probs doesnt exist and is u know basically just capitalism n marketing hahaha. But i dunno, man, i kinda wanna believe he exists just cus it's more fun n childlike n innocent 😍

81. kiss on the first date: hahaha yeah i guess so but i think i probs would have had to known dat person for a while before we decided to date. I havent had a first kiss yet sooo i aint just willin to give dat out to someone i just met/knew for like a day or something hahaha (i have no idea how dating works) 😆😂😆😂😆😂

82. angels: huh... i like to think guardian angels exist cus dat means there are like angels of pure light sent down from heaven to protect us from any harm w/c is just nice to think about, yknow? Hehe. But angels in da catholic sense... i dont think i do, bruh. Sorry :/ *shrugs*

OTHER:

84. eye colour: uuhhhh brown, i guess? Like i said, i dont rlly care much for eyes hahaha 😅 ooohh but da purple eyes thang ive seen on da internet sounds cool hahaha

85. favourite movie: aaaahhhhh there's just so many good movies thoo

But agghh fine. Ive come to notice dat my genre's pretty lighthearted w/c is nice actually hehe

Spider-Man: Homecoming, Rogue One, 10 Things I Hate About You, Moana, Coco, Mulan, Avengers: Infinity War, White Chicks cus it's just so goddamn funny and iconic 😆😂😆😂😍, i'm not- ok you know wat, da Pixar movies in general ok? I mean, how can ya not? Oh which reminds me, Tangled, and The Princess and The Frog, oohh The Avengers is also a pretty solid movie, ooohhh Love, Simon, godhs dat was just such a wholesome sweet n nice movie :'), oh and den i freaking love the Scream franchise, man. It's so good :'), oooohhh w8 maybe The Dark Knight cus heath ledger was just da fuking bomb in dat movie, oohh and About Time's da sweetest time travel movie :') w/c reminds me dat the Back to the Future franchise was just such a classic, man :') oh and yknow wat? Unbreakable's actually pretty fucking cool, man. I get shyamalan know haha. Oh and yknow wat? 100 Tula Para Kay Stella is da 1st filipino film i actually liked so it has a special place in meh heart :')

ooohhh and Black Panther, man, gods how can one not bring up Da King™? WAKANDA FOREVER :') 😄

Oh and hey yknow wat? I have a sweet spot for the Sorcerer's Apprentice. It's kinda a guilty pleasure of mine hehe 😅

Whiicchh reminds me... the HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON FRANCHISE HAS GOT MY HART WHIPPED 😭😭😭

Oh and i also rlly like when harry met sally hihi :') and i guess the OG Star Wars trilogy's got a special place in my heart even if it is da way dat it is now 😢 :')

oh and i can't forget meh guardians :') Guardians of The Galaxy is such a solid film, bro. I loved it :') ooohhh and yknow wat? I actually rlly like Ready Player One, Baby Driver, and The Mummy (the brendan frasier one, who ya kiddin 😑)

oh and yknow wat? The Wedding Singer, 50 First Dates, and Music & Lyrics has got a special place in my heart, man. Gotta admit it :')

aawww and amelie, and begin again, and flipped and hercules, and room, and spotlight, and shape of water, and ladybird, and the princess bride, and the iron giant, and the lobster, and we're the millers, and what if and man up and shrek and kimi no na wa and a quiet place and inception and the lion king and to all the boys I’ve loved before and oooh tim burton movies are pretty cool, the animated ones, and I did spend a good amount of time obsessed w/ dis one so I guess cap civil war, and then big hero 6 and wreck it ralph, and the martian and inside out, and gone girl, and the lion king and forrest gump and spider-man 1 and 2, and les miserables and the devil wears prada and the book of life and the intern and the princess diaries and miss congeniality and aladdin and confessions of a shopaholic

And ok, ok, i think im done. Hahaha das it das my list of meh all time fav movies and i feel like rewatching all of em now hahaha 😍

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85 Question Tag

Thank you @neocultvretechs for tagging me I am always so excited to do stuff like this yeay. Thanks honey!

RULES: answer these 85 statements about yourself and tag 20 people

LAST:

1.drink- strawberry smoothie

2. Phone call- my mom so she can pick me up from the trainstation

3. Text message- friend about the dress for our prom night in 3 weeks

4. Song you listened to- Nirvana-Sam Smith

5. Time you cried- about 2 weeks ago

EVER:

6. Dated someone twice- No

7. Kissed someone and regretted it- YES!!!

8. Been cheated on- I dont really know...I suspect one exboyfriend but I dont care about that anymore and another one kinda did something but not really...just kinda

9. Lost someone special- Nope

10. Been depressed- Haha yeah most of my teenage years but luckyly not anymore

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up- No I have a really high tolerance but I dont drink anyways(only like...maybe...5 times a year for special events)

12. Fave colors- (black white gray) pastel pink/babyblue/mint and dark reds and greens

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends- yeees

16. Fallen out of love- idk maybe its hard to put feelings in situations into such a general statement but I think so

17. Laughed until you cried- definitly. I cry sooo easyly while laughing bc of my huge cheeks being pushed agains my eyes so yeah...thats like the only reason I cry for most of the time

18. Found out someone was talking about you -I dont remember but I dont think so since I dont care about that anyways and it mostly does not happen(at least not knowingly)

19. Met someone who changed you- yes

20. Found out who your friends are- BIG FAT YES. Funny story: one of my best friends from primary school and I started talking again after years of not seeing each other and she is the one that helped me get into kpop so much and now we see each other every other week and bc of her I also got back in touch with another friend who I just went on a 3 day trip to berlin with. So yeah soemtimes the real ones are the ones you have not talked to in a while but that does not make it awkward instead shows you how time does not change a real friendship!

21.kissed someone on your facebooks friends list- I dont have fb so no

GENERAL:

22. How many of your fb friends do you know in real life- Still dont have an account

23. Do you have any pets- Yes one Cat

24. Do you want to change your name- No. I am happy my parents gave me 2 names to choose. One "normal/regular" one (Lea(but no one outside the internet calls me that)) and one that is more special(Sharon(also name I wanna be called by everyone since I like being unique))

25. What did you do for your last birthday- Went out to eat chinese with some friends then into a mexican restaurant to get churros

26. What time did you wake up today- 5:00(my sleep schedual is still shit from last week bc if the train we took at 2 in the morning to get to berlin and waking up early bc of excitement on the day the concert was)

27. What were you doing at midnight last night- trying to fall asleep

28. What is something you cant wait for- in general: when I order something online. Right now: going back to berlin for the BTS concert

30. What are you listening to right now- I.L.Y.-The Rose

31. Have you ever talked to a person named tom- yes I have someone in my art class with that name

32. Something that is getting on your nerves- my constant back pain

33. Most visited webside- either h&m since I have to get a prom dress and I dont want to soend much money on it or kpopmart bc like...I am addicted to buying albums and I cant stop myself

34. Hair color- reddish brown

35. Long or short hair- on myself long. On girls I like both but maybe I prefere short a teenytiny bit more and on boys I like a little longer hair

36. Do you have a crush on someone- like famous people yes of course but in real life not that much. I mean I crush on loaaaad of girls but its not something constant like when you slowly fall in love with someone

37. What do you like about yourself- actually a few things. My eyes, my upperbody proportions, most of my personality and my taste in stuff aaaand my tattoos

38. Want any piercings- not right now. Someday maybe a tongue ring or a nose ring but I had my piercings phase already and I dont want to go back to it for now

39. Blood type- I dont know

40. Nicknames- no constant ones that everyonw uses just random ones with some friends that come up from time to time

41. Relationship status- almost single

42. Zodiac- Pisces

43. Pronouns- she/her

44. Fave TV shows- not watching any right now but maybe sense 8,skins,scubs,my name is earl, stranger things, avatar, sailor moon and sherlock

45. Tattoos- a heart on my foot but there are more coming in the next days

46. Right or left handed- right

47. Ever had surgery- No

48. Piercings- Multiple earlobes, 30mm tunnle(not wearing them anymore tho), I used to have a septum but I also dont wear it anymore and a smiley also not wearing it anymore aaaand I tried to make a nostril piercing myself but I only got halfway through so noooo but maybe one day Ill get that one profesionally done

49. Sport- I used to dance but I ruined my legs with it so I cant do it anymore as a sport thing

50. Vacation- I will hopefully go to greece or portugal this year. And if I could go anywhere Id go to thailand,korea,japan or anywhere that is close to the ocean and has nice beaches

52. Eating- not right now

53. Drinking- mostly water

54. Im about to watch- the last parts of the last ikon tv episode and then maybe the new kq fellaz episodes

55. Waiting for- my sisters weeding in a month

56. Want- to go back to the got7 concert and tell them all the things I need them to know. Also more albums and maybe new shoes

57. Get married- one day yes but not in the close future

58. Career- something creative hopefully in the music industry as a manager or producer would be nice but Ill take anything that makes me happy

WHICH IS BETTER:

59. Hugs or kisses- HUGS

60. Lips or eyes- both but...a slight bit more eyes

61. Shorter or taller- I am a short baby so taller...almost everyone is and I kinda feel cute for being short

62. Older or younger- older

63. Nice arms or stomach- weird question I mean what is the definition of nice? But lets say they mean conventional nice so like toned and muscular...then its definitly arms. I like strong arms. But I think that nice can mean a lot and to me a nice belly is a soft belly to cuddle with

64. Hookup or relationship- depends. Right now definirly hookups but if the right one comes my way I wont say no to a relationship

65. Troublemaker or hesitant- lately more hesitant but I used to be more of a trouble maker

HAVE YOU EVER:

66. Kissed a stranger- No

67. Drank hard liquor- Yeeeees

68. Lost glasses- I dont have glasses so I cant lose them

69. Turned someone down- Uhm yes of course

70. Sex on first date- No...I mean practically I had sex at a first meeting but it was not a date so yeah

71. Broken someone heart- Yup

72. Been arrested- Nope

73. Had your heart broken- No not really

74. Cried when someone died- No

75. Fallen for a friend- Nope

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

76. Yourself- Sometimes

77. Miracles- Yes...I guess...not sure

78. Love at first sight- I want to but also not sure since Ive not experienced it myself

79. Santa- Nooooooohooooooohooooo

80. Kiss on a first date- thats something to believe in? I just do whatever I feel like

81. Angels- like the church ones no but I do believe that humans can be like angels and thats what I am trying to be

OTHER:

82. Best friends name- I have multiple ones

83. Eye color- Green? Blue? Grey? Who knows

84. Fave movie- too many

85. Fave actor- also too many but the first one that came to my mind was Tom Hardy but there are other in this list too

Tagging : (new mutuals I wanna know better and my good ol frens)

@1kenzo @4xiumn @bobahancafe @felixspotato @woojinshairwasblue @orgel-mp3 @leeknowyaknow @straygayz @jiwonidaeyo @hercosmoscomplex @queen-ki @changbinknows @princess-nakamoto @122c @curledlife @daehdream @irrelevantkblog @neoculture-tech @yummyyugyeommie @joshhaogyu @kinodarling @apricotlipgloss

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onepiecefeatstuff · 6 years

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Smile| Sanami week 2018

Sanji had always been a proud member of the Nami fan club. Heck, he was probably the president. He was so dedicated, so devoted to her, that he was sure he knew her like nobody else in the crew. He had studied every single gesture on her face, every grimace, every funny face. And his favorite one, along with her starry eyes and her blushed cheeks, was her smile.

In all the time he had known her, he never really saw two smiles that were exactly the same on her face. She was like the moon, she had more than one face; and her smiles were like snowflakes, not two of them were the same. But time made him differentiate them in categories, so he knew where to stand: she had the devious smile, that came up whenever she had a plan that would probably be illegal; and it was different from her greedy smile, that showed up when she was about to take advantage of someone. She had an enthusiastic smile for whatever had something to do with gaining money, a sad smile to hide her feelings when she pretended that everything was okay (even though it wasn’t), and a half smile whenever someone in the crew said something stupid.

And then there was this rare, unique smile that he had seen so little times that it usually appeared only in his dreams. It was the most honest smile he had ever seen in anyone’s face, besides probably Luffy’s, but he didn’t count (he lived with a smile on his face, that man). Anything was worth it if he could see that smile. And when it appeared, soft on the corner of her mouth, directed to him, it felt like a blessing.

He could use many adjectives to define it, but none of them seemed to capture the essence of it. It was beyond words. He had often described Nami like an angel, and whenever she gave him that smile, it proved him right: nothing else was needed to have his head on the clouds.

Perhaps what distinguished that singular smile from the huge repertory she had was the fact that it was completely sincere. Nami was a master of lying and cheating, it was sometimes hard to see her true self behind her façade. But when she smiled like that, her guard was down, and he felt more connected to her than ever. There were no second intentions, not like when she pulled off a lusty smile just to get what she wanted. It was just a genuine, caring smile.

The first time he saw it, he could recall, he was frozen for a whole minute.

“What are you staring at?” Nami had asked then, like it was no big deal. Like she hadn’t shaken his world with just one smile.

He felt blocked. How could he tell anyone what he had just witnessed? It was too majestic to be described.

“Uh… Nothing” he lied. He didn’t want to sound like a creep, or anyone else to discover the secret. Somehow, that smile felt so private and intimate, it felt like treason to even mention it.

“Yeah, right.” She laughed. “You’re so weird, man.”

He probably was. But her smile felt like art, it made him feel something. And he promised himself, in that exact moment, to not let anyone corrupt that smile.

Eventually, he failed. He realized that as her slap hit his face, and it hurt like hell. Nami had always been strong, in each and every way, but it was a tougher hit than what he had suffered with most enemies. He didn’t even dare to look at her, not even once, because he was sure that if he did, he would have to go beg for forgiveness. And for everyone’s sake, he needed to fake that it didn’t bothered him. Act like it didn’t matter at all that her once bright eyes looked at him with rage.

He wasn’t paying attention at what his brothers were saying, but he did catch a bit of their conversation. They were talking about her, and he started sulking. He had to control himself, to not let anybody know he was on the verge of tears.

“Did you see that smile tho?” he heard Yonji saying “She looked like a goddess.”

“Too bad our little Sanji had to make her cry.” Niji responded. “And that slap… that’s a woman with character.”

They weren’t even thinking, they couldn’t understand… Sanji could not hold his tears any longer. What had he just done? He had beaten Luffy, his captain, his friend; he had made Nami cry. She probably despised him. She would never want to see him again, and he would die knowing that the last image he had about his mellorine was the deadly look she gave him.

When he found out that she had forgiven him, he felt like crying again. He didn’t deserve it, he didn’t deserve her. However, there was no time to lose, and they didn’t even have a proper talk. He didn’t expect a welcome wagon either, but he wished to have had more time to her before the catastrophe would take place.

Then chaos began, and everything happened so fast. He remembered seeing Nami falling, and his body moved even faster than his mind. It was almost unconscious. And when she landed in his arms, the world paused for a second. There was nothing but them. Even in the middle of the chaos, all he could see was that smile. That caring, genuine smile, just for him. He smiled, too, as if he just found a piece of heaven in hell. He still had some bruises, but his heart had been cured.

Author’s note: Sorry for the delay, and for the fic being so short. Yesterday I was part of a strike for the International Women’s Day, and I ended up coming back home at midnight (I regret nothing, it was an amazing day and it was so empowering seeing women march together for equality), so I practically didn’t have any time. I want to thank everyone who has liked, reblogged and commented on my posts, and obviously to the hosts of this year’s @sannamiweek . It’s been a blast!

#sannami week #sanami week #sanami #sanji x nami #sanji #nami #op fanfic

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lobotomiez · 6 years

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ok i was trying to avoid this but ive been tagged for it like 6 times i dont even remember everyone who tagged me

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

last

1. drink water

2. phone call my friend eden bc joya and i went outside but she didnt have her swipe card to get back inside and i dont have access to their dorm so i called eden to come let us in but she didnt actually need to bc some ppl came by and opened the door

3. text message one of these 🙌🏻 to my class group’s chat abt our paper

4. song you listened to “my old ways” by dr. dog

5. time you cried WATCHING LOVE, SIMON

ever

6. dated someone twice? not even once

7. kissed someone and regretted it no ive only kissed 2 friends when we were drunk

8. been cheated on nope

9. lost someone special not,, really? ive lost ppl but i wouldnt call them special

10. been depressed lol

11. gotten drunk and thrown up yeeah only once tho i think?

fave colours

12. peach

13. forest green

14. probably lavender

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends uhh i think so?

16. fallen out of love nope

17. laughed until you cried yah

18. found out someone was talking about you nope

19. met someone who changed you i guess so

20. found out who your friends are yeah

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list not in the last year

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl all...

23. do you have any pets my kitty!

24. do you want to change your name no

25. what did you do for your last birthday uh.. i think nothing.. one of my friends brought me an arizona and stopped by for like 5 mins.. at least i think that was my last birthday?

26. what time did you wake up today first alarm went off at 9:00 but i didnt get up until 9:36 or so and then was late to class but the professor was later so it didnt even matter

27. what were you doing at midnight last night probably sleeping

28. what is something you can’t wait for spRING BREAK IM GONNA GET A TATTOO IN SEATTLE AND HANG OUT W JOYA AND EDEN!!!!

30. what are you listening to right now ladada by dr. dog !

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom uhh my cousin’s name is thomas does that count?

32. something that’s getting on your nerves my finger wouldnt stop bleeding so i put a bit of tissue and tape on it and its kinda annoying in a more general sense my skin is annoying as hell these days its so dry on the lower half of my face but kinda oily on the top and im breaking out rly bad rn!! even tho im on an acne med!!

33. most visited website probably this hellhole

34. hair color boring brown

35. long or short hair short but im gonna grow it out to a bob length which is still short but long for me

36. do you have a crush on someone idk if its a crush but i think this guy in my music class is really cute his name is sam

37. what do you like about yourself uhhh not a lot my guy but i guess my music taste

38. want any piercings? i would love a bunch of ear piercings all over and maybe a lip piercing

39. blood type red

40. nicknames uhh none exactly one (1) person is allowed to call me tess and its None of u

41. relationship status single and unloveable

42. zodiac gemini

43. pronouns they/them or she/her irl

44. fave tv shows its always sunny in philadelphia, the office, psych, monk, i also rly like ap bio so far idk if its a fav yet but i enjoy it

45. tattoos soon!!!! it’ll be a hand holding a flower

46. right or left handed right but i can do stuff w my left too

47. ever had surgery uhh wisdom teeth

48. piercings norm ear piercing and septum

49. sport what the fuck is a sport

50. vacation i went to the netherlands and then germany in like 2013 that was really fun

51. trainers shoes? i almost exclusively wear boots namely my docs or converse or birks if its warm out

more general

52. eating nothing rn but i just had dinner which was a sad tasteless pad thai, broccoli, a slice of pizza, an eggroll, and some cereal (welcome to college)

53. drinking water

54. i’m about to watch probably something on youtube but i also need to look at the course schedule for next semester bc i have an advising meeting tmrw and i have no clue what i want to take

55. waiting for ?? spring break

56. want a slushee sounds so good rn

57. get married yeah probably

58. career a psychiatrist hopefully or something similar

which is better

59. hugs or kisses i love hugs but i also havent had a Real kiss so idk but also im weird abt mouth hygiene so there are very few ppl id be ok w kissing so anyway hugs i guess

60. lips or eyes uhhh both? nice lips are important if ur gonna be kissin em

61. shorter or taller i dont care actually

62. older or younger this question is creepy, cancelled

63. nice arms or stomach all arms are nice and all tummies are nice

64. hookup or relationship relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant usually hesitant but i can be a troublemaker if im in the right mood

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger lol no

67. drank hard liquor helllll yeah

68. lost glasses dont wear them but never lost sunglasses or anything

69. turned someone down yeah

70. sex on first date lmao

71. broken someones heart i highly doubt it

72. had your heart broken nope

73. been arrested no

74. cried when someone died yeah,,,

75. fallen for a friend nno

do you believe in

76. yourself lmao

77. miracles no,, i believe some wild shit happens coincidentally??

78. love at first sight i mean u could be attracted to someone at first sight and then fall in love w them if u develop a relationship w them but its not love if u’ve never even talked to them

79. santa claus i wish

80. kiss on a first date ??? how does one “believe in” this it either happens or it doesnt

81. angels nah

other

82. best friend’s name emma + a lot of others i consider best friends

83. eye colour brown/hazel

84. fave movie oh shit,, maybe love, simon

85. fave actor hhh... charlie day??

i tag whoever wants to do this bc its rly fuckin long

#tag games

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voightsgirl · 6 years

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tag game!

tagged by @chloeswans thank you my love 💛💛

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people (sorry i don’t have that many friends rip)

I tag: @writteninthestarsandthesky @chillmydude @riverdaleangels @sophiaxjesse @halsteadpd @e11evenseggos @caffeinatedkafreen @erinllindsays and yo anyone else if you see this and wanna join in i tag you

last

1. drink - water

2. phone call - my friend we were working on an english presentation

3. text message - i texted my friend to arrange to meet her for lunch earlier today

4. song you listened to - currently listening to waterloo by abba because i am cOoL

5. time you cried - had a total meltdown on thursday rip it’s been a really tough week

6. dated someone twice - lOl i’ve barely dated someone once

7. kissed someone & regretted it - nope

8. been cheated on - i mean,,,,,,,..,,,,,,,,,.........not exactly

9. lost someone special - yes

10. been depressed - yes

11. gotten drunk & thrown up - nope

fave colours

12. red

13. yellow

14. black

the last year have you…

15. made new friends - yes and i am so grateful for them 💛

16. fallen out of love - with a friend aye

17. laughed until you cried - oh my days too many times (usually in english class, which freaks out my teacher)

18. found out someone was talking about you - lol remember that time i overheard people proper biTCHING about me and i was like...........?? (it was lowkey funny tho because i am a NICE person and people know that and they came and apologised lul)

19. met someone who changed you - yes, actually in the last year i’ve met a few people who have had such a massive impact on me it’s unreal

20. found out who your friends are - omg too much

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - hA no

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in irl - all of them

23. do you have any pets - two cats sparky and olive and a doggo called lizzie

24. do you want to change your name - no although i am slowly implementing the nickname meg as opposed to megan bc it’s shorter and i like it

25. what did you do for your last birthday - uh idk i don’t remember,,,,,,,,,? it was easter sunday i’m p sure (or maybe that was the year before) idk i probably went to a movie or soemthing? maybe? i literally have no recollection of my last birthday is that bad

26. what time did you wake up today - 9:30

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - lying in bed trying to sleep (rip i actually need to sort my shit out i’ve been running on about 3-4 hours of sleep every day and i can’t deal)

28. what is something you can’t wait for - i’m going to austria tomorrow to ski and i am SO EXCITED even though i have to leave home at 5am

29. what are you listening to right now - there she goes by the las because bOP

30. have you ever talked to a person named tom - my history teacher is called tom does that count??? oh wait no yes i know loads of toms

31. something that’s getting on your nerves - the fact that i have to write an entire fuckin 5000 word dissertation by next week but i am so crazy busy and i am never ever gonna get it done

32. most visited website - no joke either thesaurus.com or wordreference (a level english and french be like)

33. hair colour - brown

34. long or short hair - shoulder length

35. do you have a crush on someone - literally so many people tho

36. what do you like about yourself - i was gonna say that i always put 100% into everything but then i realised that i literally hate that about myself because it means i am exhausted all of the damn time so i’m gonna say i’m good at giving people emotional support. like i’m not great at giving people solutions to problems but if they want a shoulder i’m good at just being there

37. want any pericings? - i really want a nose stud but i have a tiny ass nose and idk if i could pull it off rip

38. blood type - no clue

39. nicknames - meg

40. relationship status - single pringle

41. zodiac - aries

42. pronouns - she/her

43. fave tv shows - chicago fire/pd/med, castle, one tree hill, gilmore girls, brooklyn 99, line of duty, absentia, how to get away with murder, probably more that i can’t think of rn

44. tattoos - i want a cross on my inner wrist and also a bible verse (either philippians 4:13 or romans 8:1 i’m not sure yet). also maybe some flowers i love flowers

45. right or left handed - right

46. ever had surgery - nope

47. piercings - just ear lobes

48. sport - i go to the gym a lot i like doing push ups and trx and spin and that kind of thing but i suck at team games

49. vacation - where i’ve been? gah idk lets see.....france, spain, italy, switzerland, germany, portugal, netherlands, all the countries in the uk, sweden, denmark, hong kong, usa, australia, turks & caicos islands.....going to austria tomorrow and hungary in the summer (and hk again to visit family!!) and i would love love love to go to india and lebanon and canada and iceland and norway

50. trainers - what ones i have?? currently mine are chewed up messes by my pup soooo none??

more general

51. eating - i just had a weird leftover meal of rice and couscous and curry sauce and beef stew rip to clear the cupboards before tomorrow

52. drinking - fizzy water

53. I’m about to watch - nothin i need to get to bed its 10pm but i need sleep

54. waiting for - myself to get my shit together and sort out my head

55. want - to get my shit together

56. get married - yeah one day

57. career - i want to be an english teacher yeet

which is better

58. hugs or kisses - hugs

59. lips or eyes - eyes

60. shorter or taller - i mean if anyone is shorter than me they’re quite substantially below average so imma go taller

61. older or younger - don’t care aha

62. nice arms or stomach - arms

63. hookup or relationship - uh at the moment? i don’t even think about that kind of thing because dude i don’t even have time to breathe or think about myself soooo imma pass on this question cause i honestly don’t know

64. troublemaker or hesitant - both

have you ever

65. kissed a stranger - no

66. drank hard liquor - of course

67. lost glasses - sunglasses yes but i guard my prescriptions with my life

68. turned someone down - yes

69. sex on the first date - nope

70. broken someones’s heart - i’m not sure??? i mean i broke up with someone but like,,,,,,,they deserved it?

71. had your heart broken - i don’t know i mean i’m a fuckin mess but not because of boys

72. been arrested - no thank the lord

73. cried when someone died - see imma sound like a dick when i say no but honestly i’ve lost quite a few people who were close to me and i couldn’t cry for a good few months, even years, later (i am an expert at denial and repression apparently) so yes but not in the way you’d think

74. fallen for a friend - yes

do you believe in

75. yourself - hA

76. miracles - yeah

77. love at first sight - no

78. santa claus - haha no

79. kiss on a first date - yes

80. angles - oh yes i believe in those good old obtuse and acute angles (i assume this meant angels which, yes, i believe in)

other

81. best friend’s name - jenna

82. eye colour - blue

83. fave movie - ooOooOooOh idk probably dead poets society because that’s a masterpiece but i honestly am not a very movies person

84. fave actor - sophia bush 💛

#tags #about #me

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shanesmadej · 6 years

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I was tagged by @proinsiasweeney (why can’t i tag you AH), thank you!! ♥

Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

I’m tagging: @jamaelwestman, @wheezebreeze, @peachyelio, @sebbys, @from-the-shire, (and everyone else that wants to do this, i’m too lazy to tag more ppl)

last

1. drink - water

2. phone call - i honestly can’t remember? probably just a customer at work

3. text message - “😗🐳” from a friend lmao

4. song you listened to - praying by kesha

5. time you cried - yesterday (i think?? i’ve been crying a lot this week, i had a really rough time lmao)

ever

6. dated someone twice? - no

7. kissed someone and regretted it - no

8. been cheated on - no

9. lost someone special - yes

10. been depressed - yes

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - yes, i throw up all the time when i’m drinking lmao

fave colours

12. black (idc that it’s not a colour, it is to me)

13. blue

14. violet

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends - yes (♥♥)

16. fallen out of love - not really

17. laughed until you cried - yes

18. found out someone was talking about you - no

19. met someone who changed you - i guess

20. found out who your friends are - no, there was no drama (that i can remember)

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - i don’t even have a facebook account so no

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - again, i don’t have facebook lmao

23. do you have any pets - a rabbit, a cat and a horse! (yes, i have a cat now and he’s the best, this is still so weird to say, AH)

24. do you want to change your name - nah, i’m fine with it

25. what did you do for your last birthday - nothing special really, a new buzzfeed unsolved episode came out exactly on midnight, so i watched that and made some gifs i think, but the rest of the day was pretty normal. my grandmas visited and stuff and i got a little bit drunk but that was pretty much it

26. what time did you wake up today - 8am

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - sleeping

28. what is something you can’t wait for - i can’t wait to see if i’m gonna be confident enough to ask someone out on a date next week (or the week after that, depending on when i’m gonna see the person next) lmao the gamescom this summer, i guess. there’s nothing much i’m looking forward to right now

30. what are you listening to right now - daddy issues by the neighbourhood

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - yes, no one interesting tho

32. something that’s getting on your nerves - how nervous i am today and how nauseous i’m feeling because of it, the fact that i’m so cold rn, a lot of other things i don’t want to talk about lmao

33. most visited website - probably tumblr?? even tho i’m barely on here atm i’m so sorry also youtube and netflix

34. hair colour - like a light brown

35. long or short hair - long(-ish)

36. do you have a crush on someone - not really?? idk, i have a hard time figuring out what i’m feeling

37. what do you like about yourself - i’m starting to really like my height?? i used to hate that i’m pretty tall but idk, i kinda like it now, i even started to wear shoes with a (little bit of a) high heel???

38. want any piercings? - not atm

39. blood type - ????i honestly don’t know

40. nicknames - sven, svenju, svenusch

41. relationship status - single

42. zodiac - scorpio

43. pronouns - she/her

44. fave tv shows - SO many oh god,,,, brooklyn nine-nine, supergirl, the flash, jane the virgin, grey’s anatomy, gilmore girls, sense8, skam, ,,,,,,,,,,

45. tattoos - don’t have any yet, but i think i’m gonna get one at some point

46. right or left handed - right handed

47. ever had surgery - two of my wisdom teeth were removed (if that counts) but other than that?? i don’t think so

48. piercings - both earlobes

49. sport - i don’t really like any sport lmao

50. vacation - we used to travel to denmark when i was younger a lot and i love it there, honestly

51. trainers - i,,,,i don’t think i even own any trainers, i always wear boots or smth

more general

52. eating - nothing rn

53. drinking - still drinking water

54. i’m about to watch - i’m not sure yet, probably last night’s jane the virgin episode tho, i just realized i haven’t watched that yet

55. waiting for - nothing rn, i’m just enjoying the weekend because i didn’t really have one last weekend

56. want - some good food, tea, someone to sing with lmao

57. get married - maybe??? idk, that depends on so many things

58. career - i don’t even know what i’m doing right in this moment, and i have no idea what i’m gonna do in the future so,,,,,,,,,

which is better

59. hugs or kisses - hugs i guess (i’ve never kissed anyone so i don’t know what that’s like lmao)

60. lips or eyes - both?? idk

61. shorter or taller - taller

62. older or younger - depends

63. nice arms or stomach - nice arms

64. hookup or relationship - relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant - hesitant

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger - no

67. drank hard liquor - yes

68. lost glasses - no

69. turned someone down - kinda

70. sex on first date - i’ve never been on a date, but i don’t think i could do that

71. broken someones heart - not really?? i think

72. had your heart broken - yea

73. been arrested - no

74. cried when someone died - yes

75. fallen for a friend - kind of, yes

do you believe in

76. yourself - no i’m such a mess lmao

77. miracles - that depends, but,,,yea i guess

78. love at first sight - not really

79. santa claus - lmao

80. kiss on a first date - sure?? why not

81. angels - hmmmmm, no

other

82. best friend’s name - i don’t really have a best friend?? i guess

83. eye colour - green-ish with some brown

84. fave movie - interstellar, howl’s moving castle, the aviator, wonder woman, ....

85. fave actor - there are so many jesus, i’m too lazy to list all of them

#tag #proinsiasweeney

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risereigncorp · 7 years

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Who would said we would end this way

Lena has being going to the library from the last 4 weeks getting ready for an important exam. Actually she wasn't in a beginning, she just liked the quietly of the library and the pile and being surrounded by books and silence, a big place where everybody was focused in their studies and no one would give her a glance for being who she is, also if she felt the eyes of someone she just moved to another stance keep reading peacefully.

She really started to like going to this place, was not like her home. It was quiet, but cold and not in the way the library was that somehow was full of life. Maybe because people, maybe because there was different.

Lena the second week she was studying (more likely reading a biology book) she noticed a girl, tall, beautiful, long brunette hair, wearing a black leather jacket. Always with a lollipop in her mouth. The girl picked a book, freezes for a few seconds looking into the sides of the books and turned her head staring at her. Catching her eyes always. It used to be like two seconds every time they looked at each other then the woman turned around and leaved.

Lena thought it was much casuality having this girl around catching a book where she used to sit or look for information. She she brushed that thought away because she lately stayed into the physics and biology books. Maybe this woman was studying something related.

Once was trying to pick some book in a high stance but she couldn't, she went for a stool to reach it and clashed with the girl turning around the corner. For a second Lena could swear the girl was looking at her happy to see her but immediately she pulled her lollipop out from her mouth

"I'm sorry you okay?" The girl licked her lips

"Huh, yeah, it's nothing... sorry to..." Lena didn't know why but she was getting nervous having the woman that close "clash"

The girl smiled "Its okay..." the girl looked aside and leaning into Lena "We shouldn't be talking loud" she whispered

Lena looked into her lips "I need..."

"I have to go" The girl whispered again "See you another time Lena"

The girl leaved Lena there shocked but more surprised, she knew her name. Well it wasn't that hard to know who she was but she never have seen this girl around the campus.

When Lena got back to where she was trying to get the book she book was already into a lower shelf easy to her to reach it with a yellow post-it with something written

"I'm Sam anyway"

Lena without notice had a big smile across her face and bit her lip.

For the next week it was weird not to see Sam around with books in her hands going to a side to another, once she discovered where Sam used to sit to read and she found out that they enjoyed their company in silence reading into their subjects and stuff. The previous days before Sam stopped to go to the library she used to appear every time Lena needed help to reach a book or taking a few to what she considered -their place-

A week and a half passed and Lena was having the feel of missing her even tho they didn't talked a lot about anything just simple "you okay" "you look pretty" "yeah no I'm getting soon an exam"

And that was it, Lena remembered Sam had an important exam... she felt stupid for a second thinking that the girl had dumped her company just for a second thought.

That week Lena had a exam that more than the 60% of her class suspended but her... she scored the 100%. She was going into her car when she head a voice she barely recognized cursing in the parking lot, but a back and hair she really know.

"Piece of shit!" Sam kicked her motorcycle

"Sam?" Lena approached

Sam had her helmet in her left hand. When she turned around Sam pulled out her lollipop from her mouth holding it with her right hand licking her lips. Lena loved that thing

"Hey" Sam smiled bright "Hi"

"Hey" Lena smiled shyly "What's going on?" Lena looked to the motorcycle

"I had to change a few..." Sam sighed "I thought this would last another few years but my mechanic was right" Sam shrugged "Anyway how are you, you look beautiful" Sam put again the lollipop in her mouth

"I just came out from getting the results of an exam and if everyone hated me... now they do more" Lena smiled

Sam's smiled dropped when she heard the word hate "Who would hate you?" She was having a soft frown

"It's just a way to say it"

"Hope so because I can't think a person hating you... you are incredible, Lena" Sam had this face that make Lena's heart melt

"I wish everyone would think the same" Lena mumbled looking a side

Sam wanted to ask her what was that but by the expression Lena had in her face she decided to let it go.

"You know..." Sam pulled again out the lollipop and gulped "I'm stuck here, but near here there's a bar and I... would you like to drink something?"

"Sure" Lena agreed immediately because Sam was being adorable

They went walking to the bar talking about everything and anything. Lena felt a little bit awkward in a beginning in that place but Sam made her feel comfortable and every time now she make her laugh with silly things or little jokes (to everybody those jokes were not that funny but for Lena were the best). Almost three hours laters they ended talking and Lena checked the hour knowing she had to go. Lena insisted over and over to take Sam home but she over and over told her she was okay and that she couldn't leave her motorcycle there. That day they knew more about each other, even liking things about the other they didn't know. They exchange numbers

Their friendship grew more the few next months. Once Lena invited Sam to her house but Sam said she couldn't because of work, but that she would make her up. And that was a promise.

After two weeks of exams and barely seeing each other, only getting texts or Sam sending her pictures of things, Lena found out that she missed Sam just as much Sam missed seeing Lena or talking to her or hearing her voice.

"Lena we are going to fall into the floor if we keep walking this way" Sam half smiled with her eyes covered

Sam had her hands covering her eyes because Lena told her to do it and Lena had her hands in Sam's forearms pulling her into a direction

"Don't whine and keep walking" Lena laughed

"Where are we going?"

"Just a few more steps" Lena guided Sam until she make her stop "and..." Lena pulled Sam hands from her own eyes "Surprise!"

Sam checked behind Lena and there was a new motorcycle. Harley-Davidson Road King Special, olive gold, the one she show Lena once Sam cooked dinner for her at her tiny apartment. Sam didn't know what to say but the only came out from her mouth was something sort of rude

"Why, what is this?"

"Why what?" Lena smiled

"I hope you bought yourself a motorcycle because if..."

"It's a gift... you don't like it" Lena began to worry "I thought you would like it. Gosh I'm so stupid i didn't-"

Lena turned around closing her eyes giving her back to Sam and covered her face embarrassed but she felt Sam arms around her. Holding her tight

"You don't have to buy me anything, Lena. I like you and this is not what I need" Sam was still holding Lena "I mean I do, but I have to save money to be able to buy one again"

Sam was still babbling about that maybe if she had another job, she could save more money and so but Lena wasn't hearing anything but the sound of her heart beating fast and hard against her chest. It had passed 6 months knowing Sam and she already liked her.

"You are pretty awesome to trying to give me this, but seriously, Lena"

"Please keep it" Lena leaned her head back resting it into Sam's chest "Just keep it so that's how I know you'd be able to hang around more and not depending on the car of your friend"

"Lena, I can't accept it"

Lena turned her head and looked up to Sam's face in their position "lets say is just a borrow" Lena locked her eyes into Sam's lips

Sam was staring at Lena and really wanted to kiss her but she had to keep it. She didn't know if Lena really liked her as much as she did "I will pay you every single dollar of that" Sam promised

"There you are shit-head!" A woman yelled going into their direction "whoops sorry"

Sam pulled her arms out of Lena breaking their moment "Gayle what are you doing here?"

"I've been calling you for like 5 times" Gayle looked at Lena "You might be the one who's making this one soft-"

Sam gave a glare to her friend making her closing her mouth "Lena this is Gayle Marsh... Lena... all that stuff"

"You are Gayle, finally I meet you" They shook hands "Sam have tell me a few stories about you"

"Don't believe it all..." Gayle winked at Lena "Sam I need the keys of my car and you to be out of the apartment until midnight"

"What" Sam pulled out the car keys and Gayle took them fast from her hand

"Because I need my car and our apartment to make a surprise to certain people who kinda hates you but I do love you and that explains everything. Also if you didn't had your phone always in silence you would have known earlier"

"You can stay at my home" Lena said quickly

"What?"

"Great your girlfriend safe the day!"

"Wait..." Sam tried to say something but Gayle was walking away already "Gayle you..." She looked at Lena "I'm sorry about that"

"It's okay I don't mind" Lena smiled soft "I mean..."

"Thank you" Sam gave Lena a kiss in the cheek

When they reached Lilian's manor Sam was kind of awkward because when she got there Lilian made her a few questions about her studies and career and then she left the house.

"Your mother is always like that?" Sam asked going after Lena

"Don't worry about her" Lena went to her room

"Your bedroom is bigger than my apartment" Sam said once they got there "You have a bow?" Sam went right to Lena's competitive bow

"I've never told you about it?" Lena crossed her arms with a cheeky smile enjoying seeing Sam looking amused to all her things

"No, and now if you had me impressed now I am beyond of that" Sam checked Lena's trophies "you are unbelievable..."

Lena's smile faded away from her face "It's nothing"

"You are kidding?" Sam was feeling overwhelmed "You are not only super smart, intelligent, you are beautiful, you have these amazing big green eyes, you have the most beautiful smile I've ever seen, your face is like being sculpted by ancest greek goddess, you are a champion and badass in archery, you are champion of chess, look at all these trophies, you are everything"

Sam had been saying all this looking at Lena's stuff without looking at her because if she did it she was sure she could not say it that way, so easily. She turned around to see Lena only to feel Lena's hands cupping her face pulling her into a kiss. It only cost two seconds to Sam to reach and kiss Lena back

Their kiss turned into a heavy make out ontop of Lena's desk.

"This means you like me?" Sam asked playfully kissing Lena's neck

Lena hold a moan when Sam sucked into her pulse point but couldn't control her hips raising wanting more contact "maybe" Lena breathed "Maybe I just wanted make you shut up and wanted to make me"

Sam pulled away "what?"

"I like you Sam" Lena put one of her hands cupping the side of Sam's face stroking with her thumb her lower lip "I wanted to kiss you in the parking lot, and now I want to keep kissing you... and what Gayle said is not a bad idea"

Sam wanted to smile knowing what she meant "Me spending the night somewhere but in the apartment?"

Lena placed a soft kiss in Sam lips "That too" she kissed her again "Do you want to stay?"

"Always as you want" Sam kissed deeply after seeing Lena smile

#reigncorp #fic time #part 1 of two

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Tagged by @dee-the-witch thank you so much! i rarely do these but eh i’mma do my best ^^

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag people

THE LAST:

1. Drink: Milk 2. Phone call: i think it was mom? maybe my dad? 3. Text message: yeah, my friend ^^ 4. Song you listened to: imagine dragons - thunder 5. Time you cried: haaa just a while ago

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: i never dated anyone 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: nah i also never kissed someone 8. Been cheated on: no. 9. Lost someone special: dissociated. our relationship got lost in the mist. 10. Been depressed: oh well i’ve been falling in and out of it, but i’m trying really hard to recover. 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: i never even tho im okay with drinking

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14. all shades of green, blue and red

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: a lot of them and i love them all!!! 16. Fallen out of love: it all got lost in the mist. 17. Laughed until you cried: oh, long time ago. didn’t had anyone to laugh with. 18. Found out someone was talking about you: haa i mean i hope no one does, because i get really tense or nervous when i hear my name in another ppl conversations (usually i await mocking) 19. Met someone who changed you: i got closer to such person. but did not meet them, i think i knew them for like a year or so? 20. Found out who your friends are: kinda? i mean i like getting to know a person better (even for the worst) 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: um no

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them i think 23. Do you have any pets: i do have an smol angry birb, an playful smol angry cat and two dogs who want to eat each other alive 24. Do you want to change your name: i dunno lol i got used to it? like that’s just how ppl call me. i would badly get used to a new name tho. 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: oh i dunno fell deeper into depression? we had a party, it wasn’t the best but i still at least got my apple cake! 26. What time did you wake up: about 5 am and then slept for another hour

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: i was on tumblr still and probably studying or something like that? maybe procrastinating?

28. Name something you can’t wait for: well my trip to Opava w my choir

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: she just went to sleep 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: lol get my life together? i mean everything always goes wrong but thats cuz my laziness and everything so i guess stop being so lazy. 31. What are you listening to right now: i’m letting phone do it’s own thing but right now? imagine dragons - gold 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: m classmate i don’t talk to him tho he’s kinda weird 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: right now? myself probably. pull yourself together boy 34. Most visited website:well this hellsite, bakaláři cause i don’t know what’s happening and? ?? uhhhh google search 35. Mole/s: i have like quite lot of em but like everywhere on my body 36. Mark/s: i mean my legs still have my cut marks, my both ankles have mark after being stitched n stuff, i have an mark after stitch on my head (sliced it thank to glass table) else just bruises and cat scratches 37. Childhood dream: i. always. wanted. something. fairytailey!!!! i love princess or like kingdoms and empires kind of fantasy plus elves or like with different creatures from the forest? i always played the mage/hunter princess as a kid so yeah? something like that would be nice. 38. Hair color: dirt blonde with like one very blond bang its not that visible unless on direct light 39. Long or short hair: short hairrr 40. Do you have a crush on someone: its occasional. like i try to keep my distance because i almost always fall in love who just slightly shows some care about me? like okay not always but if we’re really good friends i just can’t help it... ts could so something bout this too 41. What do you like about yourself?: the only thing thats i feel is very me. my stubborness. when i am sure of something you can’t change my mind. it happens rarely but i still possess this weird trait and it’s kinda nice to be determined for once in a while? i mean i also want to prove ppl wrong especially when they say something mean and i don’t have my depression episode... like calmly laugh it off and then do what they fucking think you can’t cause fuck em. they didn’t see it doesn’t matter. you did it. you know you’re able to do it and you’ve proven yourself worthy. 42. Piercings: i have ear piercings but i almost never wear earrings so they’re pretty useless. 43. Blood type: B+ i think. 44. Nickname: Kilda (based off my last name? surrname? what the hell is příjmení in english) and Smartie (im smart when im not in school and it sucks) 45. Relationship status: im like very unexperienced and also single. probably forever. 46. Zodiac: im libra but somehow i relate more to taurus 47. Pronouns: nonbinary (but got used to calling she/her. i see myself more masculine but like not that it matters that much it would be kinda confusing) 48. Favorite TV Show(s): I don’t watch TV? But i guess Friends, since it’s the only show i was able to see few episodes off 50. Right or left hand: im right handed but sometimes i suck at right so i use left!!! 51. Surgery: never had one 52. Hair dyed in different color: i wish. i want to bleach my hair. like not completely white but like to make it more blonde i guess. not like yellow blonde but more like platinum blonde? soft blonde. i dunno how to explain it 53. Sport: i like ball sports except for basketball. i swim and snorchel tho 55. Vacation: i always wanted to go to norway and iceland. i have to someday. 56. Pair of trainers: dark blue vans my best friends

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: i really like pizza 58. Drinking: coffee, milk or water 59. I’m about to: sleep 61. Waiting for: something to open my eyes 62. Want: just a really good friend? i feel like i need to hug someone 63. Get married: my parents want me to, but honestly? i’ll see how it turns out because i kinda don’t want things to happen as my parents want so yeah i’ll see how things turns out 64. Career: i wanted to be like an illustrator/writer but like not even half sure dude

WHICH IS BETTER

65. Hugs or kisses: i never been kissed but hugs are nice 66. Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: i have no preference 68. Older or younger: older 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: wtf 71. Sensitive or loud: i kinda like both?? theyre so precious 72. Hook up or relationship: listen i cant get it on with a hook up i literally hate hook ups because i suffer from something called not being attracted to someone unless i know them well?? 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: depends. I’m usually hesitant tho.

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a Stranger: never tahnks 75. Drank hard liquor: i though it was a water ok i didnt knew my granny wanted to drink some hard alcohol in a water glass 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: i broke em? but never lost em 77. Turned someone down: yeah i did. i feel bad but it’s like long time ago. 78. Sex on the first date: wtf ppl 79. Broken someone’s heart: i hope i didn’t 80. Had your heart broken: yeah... 81. Been arrested: broke the law few times but they never caught me 82. Cried when someone died: yeah.... 83. Fallen for a friend: OH BOY I FEEL PERSONALLY ATTACKED RIGHT NOW (yes i did and like i guess they didnt know and still i wouldnt even confess to them so it wouldn’t really matter)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: im trying my best to 85. Miracles: hell yeah 86. Love at first sight: no? 87. Santa Claus: that fat man can go back where he came from 88. Kiss on the first date: i mean if they want to?? it would be really akward tho jesus christ...

OTHER:

90. Current best friend name: I don’t have one, sadly. 91. Eye colour: Light green but people usually say it’s blue or grey 92. Favourite movie: i dunno man i like horror movies but i don’t have my favorite

Everyone who wants to do thsi feel free to do it!! i can’t think of ppl who i would tag @chibipu maybe?? only if you want to tho

#personal #tagged

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