The Jonicles - Entry 13
Note: This is the thirteenth entry of The Jonicles, hence why the date does not match when this is being posted. This was written back in June of this year before I started this blog, and there will be errors or developments in how this series was being written. Please enjoy (or don't enjoy) the thirteenth entry of The Jonicles!
It is currently the 17th of June, 2022 at 8:20 pm on a Friday. It's almost Garfield's birthday as well, and I personally can't wait! Well, maybe I could, seeing as how it's the weekend, hah... But regardless! Today is a special day, as today is day #30 of my Jon Arbuckle hyperfixation!
Wow, it's already been 30 days... That's a whole month's worth of Jon Arbuckle simpery for one man to take. I have been fixated on this silly man from a silly comic about a silly cartoon cat in silly shenanigans for a whole month. It's not an insane number, but it's strange because it doesn't feel like it's been that long at all... It still feels like it's day #20, and maybe that's my fucked sense of time speaking, but damn...
Jon Arbuckle must be pretty special to me to have fixated on him for a whole month, eh? That's frightening, but also really speaks about how much Jon really means to me. It's only been 30 days and I've learned and seen so much. Let's think back for a moment, back to when my Jon fixation was fresh and new, and back when there were only a few entries, for old time's sake.
It was day #8 of my Jon fixation, the day Entry 3 had been written. In that entry, I went on about how much Jon means to me as a character, how I deeply resonate with him, relate to him, and cherish him. Gosh, so early into the fixation and I'm already up at the asscrack of the morning going on about how I have such a deep and complex connection to a cartoon character (that's a lotta c's). I even got a little personal at the end... Oh, how it has evolved since then... Me fresh on day #1 would have never known, or maybe he would've, who knows...
Now... I don't know how much my sanity has depleted since day #1 of this strange infatuation with Jon, nor do I have a clear grasp on whether I really care or not. However, there is one thing I do know, and that is that my emotional bond and connection with Jonathan Q. Arbuckle has expanded, enlarged, deepened, complex-ified-ered and any other adjective you could use to describe it. And it's not only about relatability anymore. It's more than that.
I'm just going to be blunt; in many ways and aspects, I am Jon Arbuckle. I said this in Entry 3, but since then, the literal meaning of that statement has certainly become clearer as time has gone on. I may sound insane, I may sound mad, but I swear, when I look in the mirror in the morning, when I glance at my hair, my eyes, reflect on my own personality and experiences, I not only see myself - I see Jon. I literally think of Jon in my place. I remind myself of him, and maybe that's because I am him, in a way. I'm not literally Jon, but when I look at my hair, and when I weigh my own traits with his, most of them stick and emulate one another, like they feed off of each other. I act like him, I share many general traits with him like owning an orange cat, drawings cartoons, being a goofball... We are similar, we are almost the same. Heck, we sometimes may even speak similarly to each other, saying stuff like "Zango!" and complaining and tangenting every so often. We are different, but the same, y'know? Maybe I lost you on that one, but hopefully the rest of it makes at least some sense...
I relate so much to Jon. Every little detail, every little struggle (except for the ones regarding dating...), every little quirk of his, that's me, bro. I feel like if I were transported to the world of comics and cartoons, I'd just be Jon. That's who I'd be! He's so easy to just channel my emotions through because we're pretty darn similar, even if I also share a lot of traits with Garfield too. I can rationalise a lot of his descisions because they are ones I'd probably make if I had his confidence. He's just... He's me. He's me fr.
Jon is so god damn special to me, man. Maybe, if this fixation eventually ends, I'll get over all this, but I probably wont, because through all the struggles that come with life, and through all the struggles I deal with mentally, Jon will be there. He'll be there on the ride with me, in my head, in my heart and sketched on my papers. He's such a mundane character to many, but to me, he's like a best friend. He's someone I can talk to when I'm feeling like shit and he just gets it. He's someone I can not only laugh at, but laugh with as well. He's someone I can heavily relate to when we look in the mirror and we just can't stand to be around ourselves. Jon's existensial struggles are my existensial struggles. Jon's thoughts of loneliness are my thoughts of loneliness. Jon's worries, his shower-thought like thoughts, his inner reclusiveness, his moments of panic, depression, happiness, nothingness, awkwardness, I have all those too. And it's so special to me because never in my life have I met someone, even someone fictional, that I can so heavily relate to and resonate with and just see so much of myself in. And maybe that's just the way Jon is written to be. He's relatable in one way or another to everyone. But to me, it's more than that because we're so equal to each other in many ways. We are not one, but it really feels like that sometimes, and this hyperfixation has just lead to me learning that knowledge.
Jon, it goes without saying that, despite how many people may think you're mundane and even boring, you are one of the most interesting, relatable, loveable and fun characters I have ever met in fiction, and that's impressive for a little guy living in a little three panel comic. You're a complex, deep and interesting person, and I connect with you on such a deep level, it's almost crazy, really. And this was all in the timeframe of 30 days... I'm getting ahead of myself, the point is, you are special. You are meaningful to me. And when one day, when the papers stop printing, when the humour dries out and when the panels start to close in and it feels like all hope is lost, you'll still have me metaphorically by your side. And even if I'm not there, even if one day I'm gone, your legacy will be passed down for so many generations and I swear, it will not be for naught. It will not be in vain. You, Jon, are a truly special somebody that not even the most rich of words could describe all of my feelings for you. You are important to me, maybe even just as important as my own loved ones and friends are to me in real life. And since I'm beginning to run out of words, with that said, I once again welcome you with open arms into my heart and my chaotic brain, and also into my lifestyle. Please, Jon, enjoy your stay. I hope that while we're all still here and kicking, you have the best damn stay anyone could ever ask for, and that the other characters and skrunkies running around in my brain make your stay a welcome one. Have a good one, Jon. Happy day #30.
Last edited at 9:52 pm. Man I love Jon...
If my previous entries haven't said it enough somehow, I genuinely adore this silly fictional man. He's special to me, and he means a lot. It means a lot that I'm able to relate to a character so strongly as Jon Arbuckle. This entry is quite personal, but I feel that it isn't too personal that I'm not able to post it just yet. And plus, it's a special milestone in my Jon simpery, as it was the day I had been hyperfixated on him for a whole month (well, technically that would be 31 days, but generally, 30 days is a month). And just for some perspective, at the time of writing this author's note, it's day #65, so it's been a while.
Also, the reason there's so many little "messages" to Jon at the end of these entries is because he really does feel like a real person to me, so it feels a little more personal when writing them, and Jon is such a rounded character that I feel like I'm "talking to him" (not literally, mind you, but enough to make the endings more heartfelt. i don't actually believe jon is a real person but it'd be cool if he was).
Cheers,
Your Local Jonnoissuer
Posted on the 22nd of July, 2022 at 8:30 pm.
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