#just dean crying

[destiel-wings]

Friendly reminder that this was Dean's first smile in heaven. Not when he saw Bobby, not when he told him about his mother or father, Dean's FIRST SMILE in heaven was when he heard Cas was there. That's when he finally showed any happiness™ at all

#destiel #spn #dean winchester #cw spn finale #spn 15x20 #supernatural #deancas #dean x castiel #dean winchester loves castiel #dean and cas #spn angst #friendly reminder #spn s15 #screaming crying throwing up #yeeting myself off a cliff #this man had so many adventures before and after getting to that damn bridge #we just haven't seen any of it (yet?) #castiel #cas

[pleuro]

summer went away, still the yearning stays

#crying over how long this took #and i've posted a lot of things onto this blog but this might just be my favorite #sims 4 #ts4 #sims 4 legacy #ts4 story #ts4 legacy #ts4 gameplay #simblr #sim 4 gameplay #sims 4 story #feng legacy: the early years #feng legacy: victor’s story #oc: victor chan #oc: anya chowdhury #oc: willow #oc: nasim #oc: grace muller #oc: dean collins #so many tags whew #m

[angelsdean]

dean's like. when i want my dad to like me i hide all my soft parts and when i want other hunters to respect me i act like my dad and when other men leer at me in bars i no homo it up and when motel owners perceive something queer abt me i butch it up and when my little brother teases me i project the feminine things i actually like onto him and when i'm around attractive women i lean into the image that's already been cultivated around me as a charming ladies man and flirt shamelessly (but actually i'm shy) and when i'm around queer women i don't have to perform for i can relax and wear silly outfits and indulge in my actual interests and hobbies and when i'm around kids i am soft and vulnerable and honest because i know they won't judge me and when faced with the option of choosing any presentation i joke that i'd pick to look like a hot cheerleader and everyone thinks i'm being pervy but actually. well. who wouldn't want to be a hot cheerleader am i right? and no no other people don't think like that i guess, heh, nevermind....and when i'm with my best friend...sometimes i think he can see all of me, like really see me, and it's simultaneously terrifying and so so easy.

#do you ever wanna kick and scream and cry because deaaaan #he is just sooo #dean studies #vic.txt

[mlobsters]

supernatural s11e20 don't call me shurley (w. robbie thompson)

#happy valentine's day #supernatural #mygifs #sam and dean #spn 11x20 #dean winchester #sam winchester #robbie thompson #spngifs #frustrating episode because in isolation this scene is heartbreaking and i'm crying over it now - yet in the episode i was 😐 #because it felt so contrived! and got resolved immediately. and sam had nearly died a few episodes ago! #but they executed it really well and the Feelings are definitely there #i just wish it had taken place in an episode that for me had room to breathe and feel the impact of it #because it's just devastating at the end there where dean is having to deal with watching him slowly die #my more thorough bitching is in my recap with the episode tag #anyway i was croaking along to fare thee well in the car tonight and was gonna post a video clip of that #but then realized this was more thematically appropriate for the day #sam and dean mush

[stellaluna33]

I think about that conversation where Rory calls Dean "safe" a lot. Like, in what way is Dean "safe"? She, with the rose-colored glasses of nostalgia, is comparing Dean's predictability with Jess's unpredictability, of course, but Dean had also dumped Rory TWICE by this point (and would dump her again!) and blamed it on her both times! He blames every problem in their relationship on her, actually! How is that "safe"?! But I've been thinking about it, I think a lot of it comes down to Rory's issues with control. Rory as a character likes to have all her ducks in a row, everything listed and planned (though she occasionally veers to the other impulsive extreme, which is interesting). She doesn't like feeling out of control of herself, her feelings, or what happens to her. So, in contrast to how I might feel about it, Dean constantly blaming her and breaking up with her feels "safe" to her because she can tell herself that SHE chose the outcome of the relationship. Everything is her fault, which means SHE decided it would be this way. Dean broke up with her because SHE didn't appreciate him enough, and that was her choice! Dean is mad at her because SHE studied too much or talked to the wrong person, and that was her choice! Everything is her fault means Nothing is Dean's fault equals "Dean never did anything bad to me." If Dean yells at her, it's because she deserved it, which means that everything is the way it's supposed to be! Predictable input-> output. Safe. It's what she chose. Rory is in control of her fate!

And Jess... She could control absolutely nothing about Jess. She couldn't control how she felt about him! She didn't want to fall in love with him, and she fell anyway. She was simply overwhelmed by it, without her own consent. She couldn't control her feelings, and she couldn't control the outcome of their relationship either. Jess leaving had nothing to do with her! But instead of that being a consolation, it was terrifying, because that meant there was nothing she could do about it. Jess crashed into her life and her heart and then was gone like a summer storm, and she was just as powerless to prevent either one. And she had found that kind of thrilling once upon a time, but now he's lost and what's to prevent him from slipping through her fingers yet again? It's out of her hands.

Her feelings for Dean are manageable. They're not going to overwhelm her and make her feel out of control. He's nice to her, because when he's not nice, she deserved it. This is what "safe" feels like.

#Gilmore Girls #Rory Gilmore #Anti Dean Forester #(just for filtering purposes) #Literati #(adjacent) #She definitely starts her 'friends with benefits' thing with Logan thinking it's something she can control too #Whoopsies that didn't work either haha #Before you know it you're crying on the bathroom floor #And saying things like 'I can't help it- I'm in love with him.' #But the intent was there haha

[castieldelamancha]

cas was the one to say "I'll just wait here then" but really the one who did basically all the waiting for cas to come back over and over again was dean

#destiel #okay but purgatory 2.0 okay? dean praying to cas on his knees #crying #i ain't leaving here without you again so... i'll just wait here then

[taydaq]

smitten 💘

#ambreigns #roman reigns x dean ambrose #my art #wwe ships #ship art #I've had these drawings sitting on my ipad for too long #I should have posted them long ago #LOL #and god #I just like to imagine them so in love with each other #they would give each other everything #*goes to cry*

[fancycroissantgothparty]

Oblivious!cas in all his glory

#myart #bhm #bhm art #Chubby!cas #fat!castiel #Feeder!dean #Skeptical!Sam #Imagine for a moment #A world where I actually plan the layout of the text in my sketch #INSTEAD of just cramming it in in the end #Haha imma cry now

[seasononesam]

I know who it is. I can see her now.

#supernatural #spn #Sam Winchester #dean winchester #mary winchester #spnedit #supernaturaledit #* #this was gonna be even longer but photoshop crashed :( #anyway absolutely insane this was just episode 9!!! #screaming crying ect

[strawberrryangel]

thinking about how dean has always looked at queer couples like “we can do that? i’m allowed to have that?” and yeah. yeah buddy you can have that. it’s okay to want it and it’s okay to be queer. nobody talk to me.

#getting emotional #i just #he deserves to be happy #and he deserves to live the life that he wants to live with cas #destiel #supernatural #crying #spnfandom #spn #nobody talk to me #dean winchester #strawbsposts

[cannibalisam]

no honestly imagine someone who you were romantically involved with and lived with for a year in a nuclear-family situation saying that you have a "unhealthy, tangled up, crazy thing" with your brother and that they knew "the minute he walked through that door" it was over between the two of you. and then ALSO says "i'm close to my sister. but if she got killed? i wouldn't bring her back from the dead." like i would honestly just bury myself alive if i got read that hard.

#dean's just built different i guess. i seriously don't know how he lived through that without screaming crying throwing up etc #probably because it was all true and he knew it #but he should've felt a lot more shame i'm not gonna lie. your ROMANTIC PARTNER says she knew your relationship was over #as soon as you figured out YOUR BROTHER was alive. NO ONE SAYS THIS SHIT ABOUT SIBLINGS??? and especially the callout from someone who's #NORMAL ABOUT THEIR SIBLING... #like why do people act like we're insane and reading into it too much when this was literally said in the show. #by someone dean was essentially MARRIED TO no less #i just. phew.

[hauntedpearl]

at some point. maybe. castiel should have stolen a piece of dean's soul and made himself a baby. and just like he just has this baby now. when he's not with the winchesters? yeah he's taking the baby to school actually. he is taking it to the park. he is going to the soccer games. does dean find out? maybe. at some point. it will drive him insane, which I think would be very funny. sam is just scared of the baby and also concerned about the logistics of baby making in this manner and not entirely concerned enough about the violations to the cosmic geneva convention which stipulates no soul stealing! but you know! it's whatever! anyway. give that man a baby he wants one so bad!

#blame the cough medicine ans the cold medicine and the feveredicine #i think i jave covid #no like fr i think i have covid #so like #im just saying things now #doe is talking again #obsessed with giving cas a baby sometimes this makes me crazy i think #should happen around s6/7/8 imo #and then the baby is just theee #there* #we don't see her until it's like s15 and then it's like three whole retrospective episodes and dean's like...you KEPT MY BABY FROM ME #and cas os like YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE AND ALSO A MEANIE YOU MADE JACK CRY #so you know #everything is normal

[wisefoxluminary]

Mario/Luigi Sam/Dean

Winchester brothers × Mario Brothers parallels

Supernatural (2005-2020)

The Super Mario Bros Movie (2023)

"Don't you dare think that there is anything past or present that I would put in front of you."

"Nothing can hurt us as long as we're together."

#supernatural #the super mario bros movie #dean and sam #mario and luigi #dean winchester #sam winchester #mario #luigi #parallels #their brother's bond is so adorable #they will do anything for each other #mario brothers #winchester brothers #these gifs make me cry #these scenes are so similar #i just had to post this

[starlite-png]

Do you ever think about Sam having a kid post-canon and losing that kid in a grocery store when the kids like six then finding him and feeling so relieved because so many terrible things can happen to children left alone and it just hits him all at once as he holds his little child close that Dean was left all alone to defend and take care of a toddler in countless scummy, morally dubious motels surrounded by strangers for nearly his entire childhood.

#spn #supernatural #dean winchester #sam winchester #i think having a kid would truly fuck sam up #i think hed just hold his kid and cry a lot

[castielafflicted]

the thing abt most of the reoccurring men in spn is like. i couldnt fix him. but i could dom him.

#zeph posting #this thought was about chuck originally lmao #there are exceptions obviously #sam is definitely one. i look at that man and go wow i need him to have me begging and crying #and then cas its a toss up on how i feel abt him like this #sometimes maybe i just want him to choke me but other times oh man i need him tied up l #dean is never an exception i need that man crying out of desperation #its 11am and i havent slept and im almost sorry about these tags

[saltygilmores]

@frazzledsoul shared an absolutely baffling take that she spotted on Instagram . Someone claimed "People are so distracted by Jess' looks that they overlook the fact he is a calculator (calculated?) person only at the age of 16 it's alarming and SICK that Jess knew how to manipulate Dean and Rory's relationship to make them feel uncomfortable with each other! Jess did this to make Dean feel insecure and paranoid so Rory got progressively more distant and Jess can take Rory away from him!" Dean wasn't insecure and paranoid until Jess showed up? I smell a trash take! Lessgo! I notice Dean's supporters who blame Jess for being a big ol Ruiner seem to gloss over Dean's jealousy over TRISTAN (who was nothing more than a bully and a harrasser that Rory wasn't dating or even interested in). If everything was so dang hunky dory for Dean and Rory (Lol, that rhymed) before Jess shows up, what is Dean's excuse for being insecure, paranoid, and making Rory uncomfortable for the entire first season of the show, another 5 episodes of season 2 until Jess shows up, then another some odd epsiodes into season 2 until Dean and Jess even just meet each other or are simply aware of each other's existence? The first time we truly see the rivalry between Dean and Jess start brewing on screen isn't until Bracebridge Dinner (2x10), and then it heats up for realsies in A Tisket a Tasket (2x13). So before 2x,10, who was using their psychic abilities on Dean to "make him" treat Rory like crap for 30 some odd episodes? He treated Tristan with the same jealous contempt as he did Jess, and I would argue it was even worse. in fact in Love, Daisies, and Troubadors, Tristan grabs Rory's books without her consent while Dean is in the Chilton parking lot. All he has to do is see Tristan with Rory's books (that she didn't want him to take and was trying to get back from him) and he doesn't ask Rory any questions. His temper is instantly set off and he becomes scarily jealous in the school parking lot and starts raising his voice at Rory in front of hundreds of other students.

Not to excuse Tristan for being a bully. Poor Rory is exhausted and she should probably just give up on boys, run away and join a nunnery. But we're talking about Dean The Butt Forrester here. Just seeing another boy carrying Rory's books was enough to set him off.

Just a very select few examples of Dean being insecure, paranoid jealous, and just a garden variety asshole, and Rory's "comfort" with him, long before Liz stuck Jess on that bus to hell:

See, he's more than capable of being a butt clown all on his own! Sorry Dean Lovers, ya'll get five seasons worth of your lover boy and we only get 1 and a half of Jess. You can't use Jess as a "get out of jail free card" for every shitty thing Dean does.

#anti dean forrester #bad takes #people making stuff up that never happened #Jess is a 16 year old calculator #jess mariano #gilmore girls #Dean is frightening #tristan shit #this trash take also assumes Rory didn't make several deliberate decisions on her own that Jess never asked her to do #like the decision to skip school and board a bus to see Jess in another state #or kiss him behind Dean's back #Jess the 16 year old calculator just manipulated her into doing those things lol #did Dean not dump Rory in season 1 leaving her crying into a beach pail of ice cream #okay bad example compared to Jess breaking Rory’s heart also #but my point is Rory and Dean weren’t some small town fairytale before Jess rode in