#on the one hand: be the level headed one

[kakodaimones]

"...I am going to make the stupidest possible decision, aren't I?"

#{vox; ic}「we can’t rewind」 #on the one hand: be the level headed one #on the other hand: he is how many drinks in after a long work day and the most fuckable guy in hell is practically crawling on him #{SELF COMM}「New Status Quo」

[puppyeared]

doodles of my fav sillies

anton belongs to @poicyss

#my brain is a barbie dreamhouse and theyre all just living in it #im especially fond of the second one because my mom used to hold me like that all the time <3 #im drawing them a lot lately because im being crushed by the horrors and have to compensate for it somehow #homemade comfort blorbos...... #watch me draw anton inconsistently bc i can never decide if i wanna draw him close to how he actually looks #or yassify him and give him soft fluffy hair and kind eyes and defined features. head in my hands #i dont really have a lot of drawing ideas for them bc they dont have like. a canon storyline or anything methinks #its just stuff me and bow toss around and giggle abt thru messages lol. maybe ill draw infant vincent one of these days #i just come up with stuff and draw them doing it. it makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside #cuz like anton works for lobocorp as an abnormality BUT hes super duper chill and cute and does his funny little tasks so its fine #AND hes unkillable. auggie is an oc ive had since like 6th grade and i smushed them together. and vincent was for fun but i got attached #i dont have much of a read on anton either bc i think hes meant to be more of an insert character??? if im using that right #on one hand i dont think too hard abt anything being ooc since im not taking it seriously. on the other hand i just hold them in my hands #and stare into space until i can come up with something to draw since i dont have much to go off of. but its fun to build on small tidbits! #i think bow called it an au so i guess??? its an au????? im not really sure. bow if youre reading this im just willy nilly #the only thing i know for sure is that they boink like rabbits. im talking gomez and morticia levels of boinking #maybe ill go back and look at my old doodles for them and redraw em lol #myart #my art #my oc #oc #friend oc #augusta #anton #vincent #sillies family #doodles

[zeb-z]

I'm actually unbelievably unwell about Etoiles character you don't understand. He's always been a sword, protecting by attacking first, by fighting back, offense as the best defense. He jokes a lot about dying for the island, dramatic and half sarcastic, but there's truth in his jests. He would kill, and he would die, for his daughter, for the rest of the eggs, for the safety of everyone on the island. He does not hesitate, for what good would that do him?

Then he gets the shield, and it changes the entire game. And while he can still kill to protect the island, he can no longer truly die for them.

His role is functionally the same - he draws attention to himself, he's just as ready for a fight as he's always been, he fights the codes to protect the island - but its the difference between a sword and a shield, because of his literal shield.

He's the only solid defense between the codes and the island, and all the eggs. The only one who can tank the hits and negate the effects of their crazy powerful swords.

A sword cannot hesitate, but a shield must consider it - he cannot take risks when he’s fighting in the Colosseum, because if he dies he’d lose the shield. He cannot risk attacking the fake Pomme without hesitation, not until he’s sure beyond a shadow of a doubt that it’s not his real daughter.

A shield must be sturdy. It must hold up under pressure. It must stay strong and reliable, no matter the circumstance - as the eggs go missing and everyone else crumbles, Etoiles cannot follow suit. He will play his part and defend the island, shouldering what the others cannot, because who else will do what he does?

To lose the shield would not only mean to lose himself, but to lose his family. He cannot fall without failing the entire island, his loss would mean disaster, for who is he if he’s not standing between the ones he loves and the monsters that threaten them?

He's as much a shield as the one he carries.

#he’s a thrill seeker a fight chaser and he paints a target on his back because he can tank the hits and better him than the eggs #he’s a shield in steady hands he’s the protector of the island - an apt comparison yknow #if he loses his shield they’re fucked because it’s their only defense. HE is their only defense. Ugggh #he’s so. like. atlas coded yknow. weight of the world and whatnot. because who else can shoulder the weight of the sky and keep it #from crushing the earth??? #I dunno man. the fact that he’s gotta be the level headed steady reassuring one now too. it’s just fucking with me #my fave my bestie his lore makes me want to rip things with my teeth #mcyt #qsmp #etoiles #q!etoiles #qsmp meta #z speaks

[sugarcarnation]

love love love how similar these two panels are. makes me insane

#putting my ramblings in the tags because that’s the only way i know how to write something semi cohesive #but!! im obsessed with the way the arrangement is almost the same #both shirase and dazai in the middle. behind them the people they’re leading #but shirase (the one chuuya should’ve been able to trust) is pointing a gun at him #and not only shirase all the sheep are holding weapons #plus all the faceless GSS men staring chuuya down as well #and then you have dazai and the port mafia #same arrangement but they’re not holding any weapons #despite the way they should be his enemies they’re not posing any immediate threat #also!! something i just thought about but i do believe there’s something to be said about how dazai is also looking down on chuuya #he is the one holding the power right now #but he is not standing and instead crouching down #if he wasn’t on an elevated position (which is arguably his position in the mafia) he would be on the same level as chuuya #but he is offering chuuya to get on the same level as him by joining the mafia!!! #finally giving him the chance to be somewhere people will treat him as an equal #and of course eventually becoming dazais partner and true equal #man. head in hands media analysis is my passion. or something like that #bungou stray dogs #bsd spoilers #bsd fifteen #bsd fifteen spoilers #bsd chuuya #bsd dazai #soukoku

[introspectivememories]

everyone thinks shuggy is childhood friends -> enemies -> lovers but really they're childhood friends -> miscommunication on a cosmic level that leads them to keep missing each other -> divorcees

#like the skipped over the whole relationship stage #immediately went to divorcees #the miscommunication is like an earth-shattering level of miscommunication #literally watching them is like holding your head in you hands and shouting: JUST TALK TO EACH OTHER!!!! #op buggy #buggy one piece #buggy the clown #akagami no shanks #op shanks #shanks one piece #shuggy #shanks x buggy #one piece

[jesteriisms]

Some lifesteal designs cause i wanted to flesh them out for a thing i might make in the future

#i speak #lifesteal smp #lifesteal #Leowook #princezam #roshambogames #parrotx2 #yey first big tag on this acc #Leo gives me staunch bodyguard vibes from the 2-3 vids ive watched of his channel #also you dont know how his face looks like yea #not happy with zams design might tweak it later but im keeping the fuckign #bowling ball head bc i love that one so much #pop that sucker right out and dunk it thru some hoops #also ppl who draw ro with a huge hand as a head i see you. we're on the same level

[daily-hanamura]

#hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #persona 4 #persona 4 arena ultimax #p4au #p4 #souyo #narukami yu #this was such a good scene it absolutely melted me entirely because it speaks to yosuke's character so well #on the one hand it's yosuke's usual self deprecating humour where he plays down himself #on the other hand its also him being SEEN by yu and being understood on such a fundamental level #yosuke IS an overthinker and Yu has mentioned it previously #he gets so into his own head because hes worried about how hes perceived #hes worried about his peers hes worried about whether hes doing enough hes such a worrier!!! #but him being a worrier is also not a bad thing because it also demonstrates how much he cares about everything #i love that Yu is of course extremely nonjudgmental and GETS him and Yosuke knows that as well but even so #even so he cant let go of his own hangups even as hes admitting something like this to Yu #and it's so extremely Yosuke #he's good with his queue

[jupitersflytrap]

baby boy

#plant rant #my art #this is rover from animal crossing he is my favourite #i'll level with you i misremembered his name as roger until about 2 seconds ago but that is no indication of how much i love him #patting him on the head #he is an agreeable young boy. #animal crossing #entered a hyperfocus wormhole on this one boys. no lighting effects i did it all by hand. #yee ha

[jupiter-nwn]

"I should lower my standards for myself because I've never played a rhythm game before and it's late at night so I'm even less coordinated than usual" I say through gritted teeth, one missed combo away from rage quitting the game because I just started today and I can't full combo the song on normal difficulty

#Yes this is absolutely pjsk #Actually lemme tag them #project sekai #pjsk #This is my very first time playing a rhythm game outside of like some mirai dx and melatonin levels and I'm So Mad #Bc in my head it's So Easy but my hands fumble it every time and like that's why I wanna get good at rhythm games #I feel like having better hand-eye coordination would do me wonders #But alas I'm mad that I'm not perfect on day one moment one like an idiot ajfbsnbfbd

[hanakihan]

i realized that in my head I’ve been unconsciously headcanoning Jin-Chul as half Russian descent.

gimme a second to explain okay wheeze

the more i look at Jin-Chul (especially his manhwa counterpart portrayal) i remember that one boy who lived in next apartment to mine when I was little.

/side note I was born and lived near Baikal lake so there were many Yakut and Buryat people as well as Japanese, Chinese, Korean and Mongolian people/

and so that boy was actually of russian-korean descent and surprisingly enough had almost blond hair and was really nice (like yeah whole idea is based on fact Jin-Chul has non classy natural hair color for Korea so—)

anyway just think about jin-chul being half russian descent and then he pretty much doesn’t even know it because he was taken to Korea back when he was really young and then ended up in orphanage for one reason or another and was an outcast because he looked differently from others—

#solo leveling #woo jin chul #*holds head in hands* #it clicked like a puzzle piece for me okay #like the idea of jin chul being kinda aloof and introverted is literally because he was bullied in childhood #i mean one thing is to see teenagers or adults with dyed hair other is seeing a kid with not natural hair color around here #kids in orphanages can be extra savage and cruel I can confirm #I dealt with them #I advocate jin chul having light colored eyelashes #man is actually illegally pretty and won genes lottery without realizing it #gun hee burns all photoshot and modeling invitations #he won’t be having his adopted son doing something he’s uncomfortable with #yuri orlov seeing jin chul and going like ‘i know a slav when I see one’ #jin chul is completely confused #please don’t ask me about that one time we found guilty man of russian-korean descent that kept accidentally jumping from russian to korean #mid statement we had to invite a translator

[deerlisteners]

the way the dmlx 3hopes supports end makes me scream and cry etc. like it’s crazy that they ended w The Carrying Scene in the first place but actually for real it is Crazy that it LITERALLY ended w felix carrying dimitri. like that is THE perfect end to their support arc here. felix reaches out to him over & over the entire game trying to help/get through to him………

(^ thank u felix for clearly stating ur thesis statement almost immediately in the B support)

and then of course the king awakens cutscene where felix is the one to actually physically reach out to dimitri in fhirdiad. esp in that scene DIMITRI is the one to turn away—literally every time felix reaches out to him he just does not get what he’s saying & turns him down bc he thinks he’s responsible for fixing everything alone. so for their support chain to end with dimitri ALLOWING felix to literally physically carry him to bed is just so so so so so good and significant and perfect it makes me unwell

#few3h #dimilix #ANOTHER FE POST LETS GOOO #ik this is a very surface level observation im just like. head in hands #i also have more to say abt why it’s significant that felix specifically is the one that connects w dimitri like this but i simply cannot #word it properly rn #i WILL add onto this #deertalking #dmlxposting #feposting #i fear all my fe posts are me reiterating the same points but whatever man i will repeat them all day #i’m also curious why in this timeline specifically dimitri told felix abt the uhhh Waking Dream situation #ig it makes sense considering they’re a lot closer in hopes plus i’m glad it happened i just think it’s rlly interesting that he told felix #here and. Nobody Else in either game #(i don’t remember if he outright confessed to byleth actually? probably he did) #(i gotta replay houses) #side note: in hopes when felix hits like 200 enemies defeated or smth dedue can go ‘you truly are the shield of faerghus’ or smth and i #thought that was REALLY sweet #i rlly rlly love their dynamic in this game too

[puppyeared]

for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........

#MOTHER FFFFUCKER #to be fair. my doc said I could stop taking them while im on break since i wouldnt need to be constantly pumped on stimulants #im not sure if it was a side effect but i managed to take like 3 different naps in one day and STILL managed to sleep thru the whole night #at least 2 days into my break. the weird thing is i didnt feel more or less rested afterwards. but mentally i think im in a good place rn #to really put the level of awakeness im at rn i feel weirdly confident i could start one piece. also bc of that sick new opening it BANGS #the song is really good and im in love with the animation style. did some digging and it seems one of the lead animators is masato mori #but i could be wrong. it seems he also did some work on mp100 which could explain a lot lol.. he uses smear frames really well to convey #consistent movement and fluidity!!! someone else might have done color design but it works really really well esp with odas style!! #just love the overall vibe and aesthetic and id really love to study it and incorporate a bit of it into my art.. especially the thick #outlines which i think helps to separate characters and objects on screen. though i have to say the style is definitely more suited to #animation bc of the simpleness and smears. maybe that will help me explore shapes and perspective when i draw... i wanna get better #at drawing poses and angles but i have a hard time wrapping my head around space and using perspective guide lines NGHHHH #i wonder if it has to do with my dogshit ability to judge distance. not depth perception but like. judge how far smth is in metres etc #im also wearing an N95 for the first couple weeks back bc of the wave. absolutely NO BODY is wearing a mask its so fucking over #where im sitting ive heard 5 different people coughing probably not into their elbows!!! and im just. head in my fucking hands #there was a kid sitting a couple seats away in class coughing as he pleases and i wanted to grab him in a chokehold so badly. PLEASEE #ive been annoying my family by asking them to mask up and reminding them to bring masks when they go out and showing them news articles #but at least its working bc we ordered some KN95s and my mom is at least taking me seriously so. please dont be afraid to speak up abt your #health. take care of yourself and others however u can!! wear that mask indoors at your maskless friends house!!! stay home when u can!! #im wearing a surgical mask at home too bc my parents have '''a dry throat cough''' and they are so bad at coughing into their sleeves #also im pretty sure dry throat isnt transmissible bc my brother started coughing too so.. i also tested negative but they havent tested yet #im also not a doctor but i have to keep reminding ppl whenever i can that covid and flu work differently. covid is new and too recent to #have nearly as much research done on it. it seems its also compounding so instead of building immunity it weakens the body and spreads to #to other systems which might explain brain fog and muscle weakness. i remember someone early in the pandemic got infected and it messed up #their smell/taste receptors so bad that they cant eat most foods and that stays in the front of my mind when i think abt covid. christ #yapping

[cruelnemothesis]

#my art #oc #ok bear with me for a sec #its a twin peaks quote paired with sketches of a dnd oc #i swear it makes so much sense in my head ok #this oc's name is inlé #he's an eladrin twilight cleric #he has been ban to a void world where everything is in absolute darkness and was alone for a long time #he also didn't have his hands anymore (long story) #he couldn't use magic and one of the only thing he was capable of was using summer step to lit his pace #he used it to count every summer he passed in this void and keep track of time #(3483 years according to the dm) #anyway thats one (1) of his (many) deals #in his solitude he trained himself to cast spells using his legs #improvise adapt overcome guy #that quote reminds me of him on trancendental levels ok #thank you for reading my thesis #dnd oc #dnd character #dungeon and dragons #ocs #sketch #inlé

[dykedvonte]

If Ulysses has a million haters, then I'm one of them. If Ulysses has one hater, then I'm THAT ONE. If Ulysses has no haters, that means I'm dead. If the world is with Ulysses than I’m against the world.

#this is slightly joking but like also not but also like am mixed on Ulysses on many factors #infuriating because i sympathize with his pain but it’s like #he is a well written and fundamentally flawed character whose hypocrisy I found doubly in #black characters I can tell were designed by white people with a semblance of an understanding of activism and bipoc oppression #but not enough for the character to not feel like hand holding for the majority white audience #plus personal grips with the whole twisted hairs thing and reference to slave braiding patterns #Ulysses irks me as a black person on a weird personal level and I can go into debt on why him being black is a big detractor for him to me #like he continues this cycle of distancing himself from his roots before remembering over and over again through his actions #he leave so much in his wake that the courier ends up correcting or helping like in honest hearts and old world blues because he’s self #righteous in a subtle way even to himself that he believes he stand out of his one man rule when he does not play an active hand #saw a post talk about how you choose to continue moving through his story and can leave at any moment and this it is partially your fault #but what of the oath that is set before you and is forced to take that he set up #I do not have to walk it but when I do the steps are not my own but those taken for me #you have to go out of your way to change it which is not something he expects because he’s playing by a story he’s been perpetuating in his #head about you two and the effect one man has when he’s continually been that one man more so than you as many of his actions directly lead #to the one you go through also the irony in the flag he continues to bear being the real reason he has no home #like he reps it when the package is likely enclave and thus use the same symbol #also still can’t get over how anyone could have delivered the package and he tries so hard to act like it was the couriers destiny or fate #when this was the one case of chance and that once man was likely a enclave engineer and how it’s really is never one man #it the process and he’s so annoying about it like he’s a cool character but if you don’t believe in his philosophy or already went through #these ideas cause they are very common talking points in poc especially BIPOC spaces he’s just old hashings and stunted #fallout #fallout new vegas #Ulysses you upset me but I’m like I feel you could be better if you weren’t so incessant #I don’t think I ever want to make a serious post stating this about him just because I’d start yapping and it’d never get finished #ulysses fnv #fnv ulysses #lonesome road

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

MAC IM LIKE HALF AN HOUR LEFT IN THIS FUCKING EPISODE I LITERALLY CANT DO THIS!!!! WHEN I SAID IT WOULD BE FUN IF ASHE HAD A GRIMOIRE AND A FUCKED UP GRIMDARK MODE I DIDNT MEAN IT LIKE THIS!!!!

hey did you look at the art yet. smile emoji

#WELCOME TO TRICKSTER TERRITORY BAYBEEEEE #I HAVE SUCH A FUNNY THING 2 SEND YOU WHEN YOURE FINISHED WITH THIS EP #IM ACTUALLY LISTENING TO IT RN TOO BC I HAVENT HEARD THIS ONE IN A BIT AND. HEAD IN HANDS #how about that power level 7 gator huh. overlord youre fucking nothing to me #WE ARE SUFFERING TOGETHER I AM HOLDING YOUR HANDS #IM ALSO PLAYING STARDEW RN SO IM DISTRACTED BUT. HOLY SHIT . EXCITED FOR U . COME HERE IVE GOT A BIG BLANKET ILL PROTECT U #asks #friends!!! #intertexts

[whipitgod]

self love is when i cut up fruit for myself like my grandmother used to.

#i remember watching her slice apples and peaches #handling the fruit with a tender strength #never bruising the flesh like i would with my eager hands #she was stronger than me but her hands were gentle in ways that i couldnt fathom #the same gentle hands that washed my hair in the kitchen sink #held fruit with the same level of care that she held my head with #everytime i would try and slice the fruit myself i was overzealous #the juice spilling between my fingers because i didnt understand that my excitement could be violent #something about the kindness in her hands as she held the fruit felt religious #i went to church almost everyday and stared up at the crucifix #but something about the sound of birds coming through the open windows #as she poured all of her love into a bowl of apple slices for me #felt infinitely holier than anything that could happen in a church #she told me that one day i would be strong enough to do it myself #i didnt understand what she meant until i was older #you cant be gentle if you arent strong enough to be violent #poetry #writing #writers on tumblr #prose #thoughts #religion #religious trauma #writing poetry #fandom #poetry fragments #poetry forms #poetry for women #women #religious guilt