on jack, tosh, and love (and loss)
fragments, adam, slow decay, captain jack harkness, sandarafreedompark, border princes, adam, caitlyn siehl, richard siken, exit wounds, ocean vuong, exit wounds, anne sexton
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a conversation between a man condemned and his devotee
Litany of Things Which are Crossed Out, Richard Siken | Uriel, Yves Olade | Heart Berries, Terese Marie Mailhot | When Rome Falls, Yves Olade | Neon, Yves Olade | @sandarafreedompark | Death Wish, Josh Alex Baker | Beloved, Yves Olade | Confessional, Sue Zhao | Straw for the Fire, Theodore Roethke | A Farewell to Arms, Ernest Hemingway | Blossoms, The Amazing Devil
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[ID: A collection of quotes from various sources.
1. Dear So-and-So, I’m sorry I couldn’t come to your party. / Dear So-and-So, I’m sorry I came to your party / and seduced you / and left you bruised and ruined, you poor sad thing.
2. We met out the back of the bar, and you smiled, all knives. Said, You don’t know me yet, but you will. We’re going to be so dangerous, babe, I can feel it. Found out biblically wasn’t the only way to know someone when I prised open your chest, looking for burning.
3. I wanted to know what I looked like to you. A sin committed and a prayer answered, you said.
4. I say, I promise I won’t do anything awful, / and he says, you are something awful, / but I’m keeping you anyway. / does that make me your bad thing? your wild / thing? something worth hunting across the county? / you want to kill me more than anyone else. / That’s what love is, baby.
5. It’d be the good kind of fire. More purgatory, less witch hunt. / I could try burn all this shame out of me. / It’d work as well as you think it would, / meaning, not at all.
6. I’m scared of the love I have for you. Because I know it will ruin me. And I also know that I will let it.
7. I will never admit what he means to / me. Will say / he was simply a game I / could not pass up. Love / is a death wish between you / and the you you’re / becoming. I will never admit to / him that his love feels like a tease / from God. A gift I / only deserve as prelude to punishment. Love / is a bluff between goodbye and forever. You
8. & vicious. & lovely. So when God asks / me about love, I respond with cruelty. I know / no other answer / I know no other question. I’m
9. And when one of us had finished confessing, we’d fall into the others orbit. And the other could always be relied upon to keep us there. / So when we asked the question in out own convoluted way, (will you love me anyway?)
10. It’s your privilege to find me incomprehensible. I gave you my minutes; let them remain ours. I hope I haunt you.
11. "Hell," I said, "I love you enough now. What do you want to do? Ruin me?" / "Yes. I want to ruin you." / "Good," I said. "That's what I want too.”
12. And I pick up the phone, dial your number and wait / And shine like my petals once shone / And just as it's ringing, I whisper aloud to my saint / "Oh, we, we're gonna get on"
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Malex: Started with a tragedy
Sources: Rosewell New Mexico, 1x02/simone de beauvoir, memoirs of a dutiful daughter /Rosewell New Mexico 1x02/@sandarafreedompark/Roswell New Mexico 1x02/motion sickness, phoebe bridgers/Roswell New Mexico 1x02/Decode, Sabrina Carpenter/Roswell New Mexico 1x02/unknown
@befitandchase I hope you will like it and I will try to do a happier one next time
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sometimes i think about the in-between of my chemical romance in 2013-2019 & 2019-2021 and look at the stick-on stars on my ceiling
unknown source / chinese satellite, phoebe bridgers / how it's going to be, gerard way / lover lover lover, leonard cohen / pitchfork headline / ya hey, vampire weekend / obit, victoria chang / h of h playbook, anne carson / blow, xie lei / a place where someone loves you, neil hilborn / @sandarafreedompark / @danielederossi / giovanni gasparro / disclosure, magnets ft. lorde / fleabag, phoebe waller-bridge / i know the end, phoebe bridgers / fleabag, phoebe waller-bridge
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-sandarafreedompark
[Image ID: Three screen caps of Yaz from Doctor Who overlain with text. The first is a close-up of her face with a sad expression, and the text reads, “I’m scared of the love I have for you.” The second shows her replacing the Mouri, with markings on her face and Swarm’s fingers in front of her about to snap. The text reads “Because I know it will ruin me.” The third shows Yaz staring at the Doctor as the Doctor looks off into the ocean, standing in the TARDIS doorway. The text reads “And I also know that I will let it.” end ID]
Images from https://kissthemgoodbye.net
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