#secrets dont make friends

[sayahs-corner]

Chapter 12 is up guys!

Chapter 12: That Can’t be Sanitary

Tony’s eyes, round with shock, darted back and forth as they searched Steve’s face. Was he serious? Did he want to…? The thought of doing things with Steve made the breath catch in Tony’s throat and sent a shiver of desire streaking up his spine. His tongue darted out to wet his lower lip in a nervous gesture even as his eyelids shuttered, as if trying to hide the desire and naked want that was filling the whiskey brown orbs.

Tony nodded, incapable of words at the moment. He could hardly breathe past his shock and what felt dangerously like hope as it unfurled warm and bright in his chest.

Steve’s cheek creased with his smirk, something that Tony found insanely attractive, and he gently ran the pad of his thumb over Tony’s lower lip.

“Can I kiss you, Tony?”

If it weren't for the strange mix of nerves and desire that were coursing through his veins, Tony might’ve laughed. Ever the gentleman, his Alpha. Willing to take it slow, or not at all, even if the spicy sweet scent of omega interest was beginning to saturate the air in the hallway. Here he was, all but pinned against the wall by a big, strong, Alpha…and he had never felt safer.

Tony smiled a small, pleased, smile before tilting his lips up towards Steve’s in blatant invitation.

Tony watched Steve’s half smirk bloom into a full smile, a smile that was broad and bright and full of wicked heat. God even Steve’s dimples were-

The thought was interrupted as Steve leaned in and pressed his lips against his.

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#stony #steve x tony #angst #enemies to lovers #omegaverse #alpha steve rogers #omega tony stark #fanfiction #secrets dont make friends

[heartorbit]

bugs when you lift up a rock

#GYAAAAAH oh god the tags. help me #project sekai #pjsk #prsk #emu otori #proseka #tsukasa tenma #nene kusanagi #rui kamishiro #mmj #leoneed #wxs #more more jump #wonderlands x showtime #HAPPY BRITHDYA SAKI I FAKWKNG LOVE YOUUU #ichika hoshino #saki tenma #honami mochizuki #shiho hinomori #minori hanasato #haruka kiritani #airi momoi #shizuku hinomori #Time for my secret tags. IF YOU'LL BE AT ANIME NORTH THIS SATURDAY AND SUNDAY I WILL BE HANDING SOME OF THESE OUT .. #and i will FINISH VBS AND NIIGO GOD WILLING 🤞 #um itll just be paper i dont know i dont have sticker paper. im making some into magnets for friends w what i have left of magnet paper #THERES A 30 TAG LIMIT? ok well im makign cosplayer for the next 2 weeks and im so scared ALSO MIKUEXPO TORONTO GYAAAAAH!!!!! #if youll be at mikuexpo toronto i hope to being some with me to give no promises tho. i'll be .. cosplaying tsukasa .... on public transit. #AGAIN. to get there. anyways i need to lock in goodnight love you sorry to asks i havent answered im sleepy #yhis ones dedicated to the person who said my art tastes like hard candy. little candy bobbleheads for you

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

warlock wizard Wally scribbles... Thinkings! oh and a bonus bard-ish Barnabys in the corner for flavor

outfit ramblings:

first of all that is a Terrible rendition of what Home looks like in my head. i just needed to fill empty space </3

the staff was the toughest part honestly. bc it Had to be paintbrush-themed, but then halfway through scribbling i was like "oh shit. there are only so many ways to draw a paintbrush-wizard-staff and Weevmo already hit it out of the park." so if you're seeing similarities! you're right! i tried to make it as different as i could! there is Inspiration from their marvelous design, however accidental or subconscious! Apologies!

he gets a pointed hood instead of a hat because a) it looks great on him! and b) it has less of a chance of messing up his hair! also c) it helps muddle the difference between Wizard and Warlock. typically hoods have evil/duplicitous connotation - blur the lines! i want his long gloves and forearm wraps to have the same vibe. his neckerchief is a big help in hiding Home's seal!

his layered (loosely apple-themed) capelet (which the hood is attached to) has a nice high collar & hides the details of his loose shirt - eye embroidery! and some flowers on the shoulders but yk, mostly eyes. on one side of the shirt buttons has open eyes, the other side they're closed! there's also one big eye on his back!

his belt buckle is two halves of an apple! he wears tall thigh-high boots w/ low heels to feel Taller! he has a book-holster hooked to the back of his belt, which holds his grimoire! and he has a lil thigh-bag that has been magicked to be Bottomless and warps size! he can fit pretty much anything in there! canvases! paint! apples!

his half-skirt thing (idk what the word for it is!) is really plush, like a quilt - his capelet is the same fabric. soft, cozy. sometimes he'll use the skirt thing as a blanket in a pinch, or as a picnic placemat!

is his outfit a little Complicated? is it annoying to replicate? yes and yes. but im a maximalist at heart and Nothing But The Best for the blorbo <3 layers my beloved <3

#i know ive said it before but whenever i make an au its essentially an Exploration in a sense #and this fantasy au ~Bog Edition~ is basically me going #'so wally and his house huh. whats up with that' #and maybe im taking it a bit to the extremes #since home is pretty much warlock wally's god??? sorta? loosely?? #well it literally gave wally life and a body. so. #and it also literally took the place of his heart - wally Cannot live without home #they have a fun 'we cant exist without each other now' codependent very devoted kinda unhealthy relationship #wally sometimes has to do terrible things for home #and home will do terrible things in return for wally. even when wally doesnt want them to #and they both love each other very much <3 what kind of love is it <3 fuck if i know! theyre Weird About It though #its the only dynamic an ancient lovecraftian horror & the puppet they gave life & tethered itself to can have!!! #wally wisely keeps home & his 'warlock' status a secret from his friends for as long as he can #they just dont understand his & home's bond smh #scribble salad #welcome home #wh fantasy au #gonna have to workshop barns.... #i need to balance the fantasy + hes a distinguished fella + bard #hence the hat. the hat stays. #gotta find the right vest... #and then everyone else if i feel like it.... #outfit design is so Grueling but i refuse to keep it simple #there have to be LAYERS it has to be IN CHARACTER i have to put ALL THE EFFORT INTO IT

[morii-moth]

"this is me on day one of NO rendog !!"

#glad to know hes coping just as well as the rest of us #how in the world does martyn consistently stay the last few green/yellow lifes/ win and yet... #anyways i love the new series if only i could please have more than 2 episodes from martyn thatd be really great thanks #love to see a man get a good beating just kidding pleas #if he dies i will start sobbing trust me #already had me in tears from the first ep #but actually it was wonderful just please if he could make some friends thatd be swell #or not martyn lone wolf arc??? #im gonna post this before in hate it because it is 5am and i dont have time to start fixing what was supposed to be a sketch #i really love my yapping in the tags im so sorry #inthelittlewood #itlwart #trafficblr #mcyt #traffic life smp #life series #secret life #secret life smp #life smp #traffic spoilers #my art

[canneddolts]

Do you have any thoughts on freehoun?

#hope this Helps <3 #EAT EAT EAT #for realsies they are like….the secret 3rd thing between bestfriends & dating In my mind #not quite either #i dont have much to say about hl2 barney #also #i do like everything ppl do with them.. #every dynamic like best friends & haters & angst ers & lovers #i j stick to silly stuff bc it makes me joyous & spin in circles #also i cant write angst or anything deep #oopsies #half life #hl1 #gordon freeman #barney calhoun #my stuff #half-life

[bigothteddies]

I talk a lot of fucking crap but I do have a little black book filled with everything I’ve been told about the tumblr doms on here and all the fucked up shit they’ve done. Creators talk to each other. The friendships aren’t just for show. I’m not saying I have “dirt” on anyone or that I’m friends with everyone and have heard everything or that what I’ve been told is even accurate. What I am saying is I have a good fucking reason to be so spiteful towards a lot of doms on this site, both for things they’ve personally done to people I know and for the long and storied cycle of popular doms on here being outted as abusers and groomers after they’ve been found out.

#unimportant thoughts #I don’t know im not like. a fan of cancelling stuff especially since so much latelt has been used as a tactic against marginalized groups #and its not like i havent done shit #i dont pretend to be perfect I know theres people out there who get pissed seeing my url on here and feel I shouldnt have a place here #its part of the reason i discourage people from viewing me as a ‘safe’ dom or as a ‘good’ dom on here #im just a person. good or bad. #keep your eyes and ears and wits about you in internet spaces ALWAYS #anyways #seriously. i domt just talk shit because i dislike them #i talk shit because they people have secret wives #because they are very clearly taking advantage of someone half their age and manipulating them into thinking its a normal relationship #<- and I DONT say that because im inherently against age gaps #i talk shit because they have cameras in girls rooms who dont even know their name and if i had to guess? #sounds like a dark corner of the internet illegal sex cam scheme to me #i talk shit because they’re in the DM’s of my friends and peers trying to convince them to join their cause #i talk shit because they only reason the stopped playing with that tumblr girls heart as a replacement for who they really wanted is because #they were TOLD to stop doing so #i talk shit because the reason people started being mean to Boss wasnt because he was cringe it was because he was a vile and abusive person #i dont talk shit just because i hate competition! i dont talk shit just because im trying to make myself seem safe! #i talk shit because these people and their actions genuinely bother me and i wish they didnt have a platform ! #anyways we’ll see how long this stays up its dangerously close to starting shit i shouldnt be starting

[usermoon]

e&a

if i wanted to know who you were hanging with while i was gone i would have asked you it's the kind of cold, fogs up windshield glass but i felt it when i passed you there's an ache in you put there by the ache in me but if it's all the same to you it's the same to me

#everyone say hi blare!! #this is where anyone who has seen this posts and their story goes “huh?” #where tf is avia? why is ella kissing on a different girl #well to make a much more complicated story short #essentially this takes place before avia and ella get together and its all done in secret #blare is a long time friend and is from ellas hometown #when ella was in elementary school she moved to the town that e&a takes place in but she still sees blare during holidays and whatnot #but it had been a second since they'd seen each other and the two of them essentially form a friends with benefits situation #messy! yikes! it doesnt end well but eventually they stay friends #but this would be the very beginning of their romantic relationship #they also both use each other ella uses her as a replacement for avia and blare uses ella as a replacement for her toxic on and off bf #its a whole mess #e&a #daniella gracelynn #blare bier #dont be fooled #there is a tree but blares family is just the type to put it up before thanksgiving is up #this takes place on thanksgiving after ella and her mom visit their hometown #was writing a little blurb to accompany this weeks ago when i started this but i didnt finish it in time #might finish and post it later #and by later i mean real later cause you know me and my super consistent posts

[nuinuiiii]

Reblogs appreciated!!!

hello!!!! my ORV dolls, HSY and SP are finally out of the oven!! 🥳🥳 i'll also be bringing back my joongdok dolls!

i will open POs until Oct 31 🎃and the first 30 orders will include a bonus gift! (postcard + charm) thank you so much for looking!

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Thank you so much for looking!! SOrry this is my first post after I open tumblr HAHA

#joongdok #ORV #omniscient reader's viewpoint #han sooyoung #secretive plotter #kim dokja #yoo joonghyuk #yoohankim #PLEAS ADOPT THEM #this is gonna be the first and last run of HSY and SP cuz honestly i dont expect them to do as well as the companions of life and death #bUT I LOVE THEM SO I MUST MAKE THEM A REALITY and also my 5 other friends wanted them too so I have to try and meet MOQ of 50 #WHICH IM HOPING IT DOES #PLEAS ADOPT MY BOOS

[autisticlee]

everyone likes to tell me that real friends exist, the right people for me exist, i'll find them, I just have to look, keep trying. etc.

but no one tells me how, where to look, or how to know who "the right people" even are!

not to mention the fact that I'm getting too old to "make friends" because it's mainly expected of kids/teens to do that. older adults are supposed to have their people already. most adults my age already have their established friend groups that i'm not allowed to join. or they're all pairing off and prefer their partners over friends. or I just simply can't relate or bond with them because we have nothing in common.

#autistic #autism #actually autistic #autism things #neurodivergent #adhd #audhd #autistic friendship #friendship problems #friends #the people who tell me these things never want to step up and try to be that person either so I mean 🤷‍♂️ #they won't tell me how and where and won't be an example. like how am I supposed to know what a good friend looks like if I never had one? #how am I supposed to know what the “right people” look like and where they are!! #this has to be one of those secret things other people just naturally *know* that I don't. right????? #most others dont seem to have any problems with it and assume I can do it easily! #the older I get the more I lose hope i'll find ~my people~ or where I belong and true friends.... #lee rambles #how cruel is this universe to make me want nothing more than to have solid and deep connections then deny me that #i wish to be able to accept that im meant to always be alone and embrace being a lonely as hell and learn to like it 🥲 #most of my problems and mental anguish would magically disappear if i could convince my pathetic brain to accept that!

[plan-3-tmars]

okay i know I preach about voting however you want because that's the point of milgram but I genuinely don't know how you can listen to kazui's voice drama and then vote him guilty

kazui is litteraly asking es to give him a reason to stop lying (cough cough an innocent vote)

an innocent vote is NOT going to make Kazui think what he did was right, nor that lying was a good call. He didn't think that in Trial 1, he hasn't shown any signs of thinking that in Trial 2 and that is not the thought process he will go down in Trial 3!!!

He's not asking for his lies to he forgiven, he's asking to be FREED from them. The guilt of what his lies caused now more then ever is waying so heavily down on him that he just wants to see a reason that tells him that telling the truth will be okay and that his 'sin' is not this horrible thing that he or others around him chalks itself to be

#im not saying i understand him better then you... but if you want to take it that way! #joking joking im not serious #obviously i cant predict the future but i highly doubt an innocent vote will make him think he did the right thing all along #you guys forget that he genuinely cared about hinako and still does #yes he feels guilty for her death because he was the reason for it but also that was his friend bro!!!! #just because he didnt love her romantically and was well aware of that while going into their marriage #doesnt mean he didnt feel bad about what he was doing!!! he did!!! his sad moping is litteraly everywhere in half and cat!!!!!!! #maybe its because im gay and can relate heavily to the feeling of being terrified that someone will find out your dirty secret #hashtag outted gang #but idk... i just dont think he deserves such a tight ratio #milgram project #kazui mukuhara #milgram

[sayahs-corner]

Excerpt Chapter 11

Just a little Excerpt from the next Chapter of Secrets Don’t Make Friends...

His face spasmed into a rictus smile. God, how blind had he been? Tony Stark wasn't the fucking villain of this story and he never had been. He was the goddamn hero, the under dog. Steve looked up, heart racing, overcome.  What did that make him? What did that make all of them?

#omegaverse #omega tony stark #alpha steve rogers #enemies to lovers #excerpt from wip #secrets dont make friends

[orbch]

okay whatever heres some MLP: Highschool Secrets episode 27 Nightlight and Starbeam bc i get so violently ill when i think about them.

#idk why i full named them in the caption im just Going Crazy #mlpstopmotion #mlpstopmotionx #mlpstopmotion fanart #mlp highschool secrets #mlp high school secrets #mlphss #mlp fanart #imagine and explosion on the last image that is a real image of something mlpstopmotion said in my friends dms #after they sent her a nightbeam fic #like not even joking and it makes me sick to my stomach #me when my starbeam hc is canonized. fuck. fuck. fuck my life... #im a starbeam kinnie now i dont even care im convinced lizzy is taking notes from my life experiences...

[willczek-art]

Andy and @bratniadusza's Ollie, ghoul-hunting on Halloween!

Who knows, maybe they will be lucky this year?

[Here's how the actual linocut turned out! :D]

(traditional original under the cut)

#halloween #my oc #illustration #my art #tradigital #this is a sketch made on linoleum! I'll be making a print out of this!! :D #there's no world in which it ends up looking good BUT IM STILL VERY MUCH HYPED #my strategy for digital retouches these days is just ValuesTM and way too many textures~ hope you like it!! :DD #i dont draw our boys enough HOPEFULLY WE WILL CHANGE THAT WITH a very secret sideproject shhh #also sorry this is late I MADE MY DEBUT AS A DM THIS HALLOWEEN and was kinda busy rotating that in my brain #well technically MC since i'm running the City of Mist starter pack and technically it was for like... half of an hour BUT STILL. VERY HYPE #ocs #oc art #friend's oc #bratnia dusza's Oliver #oc Oliver #oc Andy #ghosthunting #its been way too long since i drew them I can remember any of my tags for them xD #uken #ghosthunters au #haunted howls

[humanmorph]

Lye „Lyke“ Lychen as a sacrifical altar (to Aterika’Kaal) (but he's also kind of the sacrifice)

my @secret-samol gift for @bronanlynch! for the Aterika’Kaal/Lyke prompt of „what if things had gone differently and Aterika'Kaal was still with Lyke“.

notes on this under the readmore!

AU

In this scenario Lyke would succeed in getting the heart of the Motherbeast in Episode 47 and while Alaway would notice & probably still call out to Aterika’Kaal the way he presumably did in canon, Lyke would be there and get to make a compelling case to Aterika’Kaal the likes of „If you stay with me I am going to feed you. I’ve taken care of you until now, I’ll keep doing that“ (argument supported by the fact he’s currently holding the heart of an incredibly powerful dead god). Aterika’kaal agrees and they barely escape through the Sanctum of the Stone Chorus portal. I think it's fun if Lyke then stays there after the hour described in the move is over, maybe knowing he can't convince Pickman & the others that what he's done is actually good, and fine, there's not even anything to worry about he has this totally handled, But yeah he then sets out from whereever in Sangfielle Aterika'Kaals domain is (Austin did say it was an actual place somewhere), and the rest of the Blackwick Group is left to wonder what the hell happened since Lyke just vanished! Alaway has possibly fucked off too after losing the heart. And them getting fired, the Carnival of Moted Light etc. would still happen (and I guess Chine would succeed at what they were doing since Lyke isn’t there?) and who knows if they’d take any action in finding Lyke after that! All that aside though, Lyke basically offers himself to feed on (through blood and/or energy) and to sustain that he keeps consuming(not literally eating) powerful objects/artifacts/resources and possibly eventually living things (I’d imagine he'd still take work as a „please deal with this weird shit for us“ person and when he has to kill a cursed beast or whatnot... might aswell feed Aterika'Kaal?) (What also plays into that decision, and is part of Lyke justifying this to himself, is that without him, Aterika’Kaal would become too powerful. So he aims to function as kind of a conduit & control the power intake so to speak. I think this probably doesn’t work for very long.) I think this eventually goes bad for him because it’s super taxing on his body and the whole deal kind of flips with Aterika’Kaal feeding/keeping HIM alive. He starts finding bodies in the domain again (alternatively, Aterika'Kaal gets better at hiding them because it knows Lyke doesn't particulary like it when it does that). Lyke probably gets stronger due to this power/magic wise, but also way more fragile (he's constantly anemic!). („I love you. I want us both to eat well.“ - Christopher Citro) („When I write of hunger I am really writing about love and the hunger for it, and warmth and the love of it and it is all one.“ M.K. Fisher) Notes: I put some resources Lyke’s canonically had in-game + some extra stuff in this picture (the arrow is a reference to Marn’s epilogue, the bugs are bugs (with possibly sinister connotations. If you want them to have those, it’s optional) and the fur is from the Ravening Beast). Another detail I came up with I might aswell tell you because otherwise noone might ever know: the ring with the blue stone is a gift from Es. Sketch Notes: 1. Lyke turning his head to kiss a rose / exposing his neck was one of my very first ideas/sketches I made while working on this, and I liked it too much to not include it. 2. This is supposed to be Aterika'Kaal giving Lyke a blood transfusion but it rather looks like it's feeding on him instead...! I like how the relaxed pose turned out. 3. I wanted to draw something smaller in a simpler style to fill the big canvas I was drawing these on (even though now I put them in separate files anyways...). The day I drew this I saw a tweet about a medieval monks sketchbook, so I was still thinking about that. I didn't even plan to color it originally but I ended up getting invested, haha

Inspired mainly by these 3 quotes: „KEITH: I’m a walking- I am a shrine to Aterika’Kaal.“ (Sangfielle 12: The Secret Ledger of Roseroot Hall Pt. 4) „KEITH: There's a version of dealing with Aterika'Kaal that ends with Lyke being satisfied that he rehabilitated a god or at least it looks […] like what he thinks Aterika'Kaal would have been before the YVEs showed up. That's probably his main retirement path, but it also might kill him instead.” (Sangfielle 47: Wax, Iron, and Ichor Pt. 4) „AUSTIN: As you’re fading, the last thing that you do is make this blood sacrifice to Aterika’Kaal. Your own blood.“ (Sangfielle 52: Six Travelers: Lyke)

#secret samol #sangfielle #friends at the table #fatt #rosa art #lye lychen #aterika'kaal #lyke #guy of all time btw this was such a joy to draw and think about #its so funny to me though because i almost put lyke/aterikakaal on my own prompt list but then for whatever reason didnt #and then i saw it on the spreadsheet (2) & was like 'man i hope someone picks them. i want to see this.' BUT IT WAS ME... IM SOMEONE.... #@ those 2 people (one is eliot bronanlynch. i know this) especially: i hope you enjoy!!!!!! @ everyone else you too ok : ) #the notes were in a pdf originally i didnt think id write so much. #i thought about making it bullet points maybe itd look neater on tumblr but i dont. want to... copy&paste it is... #this isnt the first time i painted digitally but it MAY be the first time ive had a good time with it #i used the twitter circle thing for the first and possibly last (until next secsam) time for this so i could post wips. for motivation #it worked : ) #cool to see my actual progress #fun fact about the quotes i added i spent like. a lot of time to look for a better one than the citro quote #because i straight up just do not like the poem its from. i am ripping it out of its context. but it still sounds nice. i folded eventually #the urge to ramble on the the tags........ i will overcome it now and post this #ARGH i forgot tumblr doesnt take transparency on large files well.... it just turns white #well ive made it dark now on the painting it looks better than white but the original was transparent. know this #im posting this kind of late. relatively. i JUST got back from work

[daryldamnson]

made a wish on elevens - historical royal au

summary: eddie’s a servant. he knows what that means. he knows he can’t have you. he loves you anyway. fem!reader, hardcore pining

unoffically made this for yearoftheotpevent's 2023 thing because i'm not actually taking part but i really liked the idea so i picked january: historical au

word count: 1k

title from wish on an eyelash by mallrat

“Is it so wrong?  Wishing to love and be loved in return?”

You remain oblivious to the sad, lovelorn stare levelled at you as you sigh quietly, gaze roving over the hills in the distance as you continue to muse.

“Perhaps not wrong, I suppose…  Just silly.  A naive wish I thought I’d long grown out of.”  You glance over at him and flash a dry smile.  “Apparently not.”

“You knew the day approached, My Lady.”  Eddie speaks softly, wary of slipping up and speaking out of turn, especially within the walls of the castle.  “Surely it does not come as a shock to you?”

“I don’t know, I…. I suppose I never truly thought it through until today.  Or, rather, I did and simply hoped I may grow to love the man chosen for me.”  You let out an amused huff of air, shaking your head.  “Or, Gods, even like him.  Is a fondness for my husband really so strange a wish?”

“Of course not, My Lady.”  And then, because apparently he’s a masochist, “You don’t believe you may form affection for Lord Hargrove?”

Your eyes flick over to him and he can’t help the soft breath of laughter that escapes him at your expression.

“That awful?”

“And more.  Gods, Eddie, you should’ve heard the way he spoke to his footman.  And Robin when she served his drink ‘from the wrong side’ - honestly!  He has also clearly never had to use the words ‘please’ and ‘thank you’ before, which is a minor indictment on his list of offences, I assure you, but I find it enraging all the same.  And - stop laughing at me!”

Even as you admonish him for his stifled laughter a bright smile grows on your face and a few giggles of your own slip through.  He’s not always entirely sure how he does it - though he certainly puts on the show of a jester sometimes just for your sake - but Eddie loves making you smile like that.

He shouldn’t, he knows that.  It’s wrong.  You’re a Lady and he’s lucky to even work in the castle, let alone harbour affections towards…  It’s wrong.  It’s wrong.  It’s wrong.

Eddie tries his hardest to convince himself, but how can his - usually successful - attempts at bringing such a lovely smile to your face be anything but right and good? 

Your laughter fades out but there’s a happy quirk to your lips that remains so Eddie takes this as a success.

“I’m truly serious, Eddie, he…”  You shake your head, almost baffled-looking.  “I cannot imagine having to marry a person like that.  Basic decency should never be an optional trait - certainly not in someone I’m to spend my life with or trust to look after my people.  I had hoped…  I don’t know, that I could at least be friends with my betrothed.  Best friends, preferably.  I mean, is that not the point?  Are we not supposed to get along?  Make each other happy?  Want to spend time together?  I don’t believe any of those things could be true if I were to marry that selfish, tactless, inconsiderate brute.”

Your weary sigh and freshly returned frown weighs heavily on his chest, and he finds himself scrambling for something to reassure you with.  But nothing appears - what can you say to a woman destined to marry someone not of her own choosing?

Marry me instead, a voice echoes in his head.  I would make you happy, or try my best to.  I would be devoted to you for the rest of my life - I will be anyway, no matter whom you marry.  Please.  Just consider me.  I love you, I love you, I love you.

No.  He certainly can’t say that.

“I am sorry, My Lady,” he lands on, pouring sympathy into his tone as your gaze lands on him once again.

There’s a comfortable pause before you speak, holding eye contact as you grace him with another gentle smile.  Eddie hopes he isn’t imagining the fondness in your eyes or your tone.

“Thank you, Eddie.”

“For what?  I hardly provided useful council.”

“For listening.  For always…  Always listening and letting me ramble on at you.  I’m forever grateful.  You truly are my best friend.”

Your hand rises and hovers near his arm, a ghost of a smile flitting across your lips as you pull away, both of you distinctly aware of what the ramifications of you touching a male servant in such a familiar way would be.

Eddie would suffer for it, and you won’t stand for that.  Sometimes he thinks it would be worth it, but were he banished or imprisoned he’d never see you again so he has to admit he’s infinitely grateful for your stronger willpower.

The sudden appearance of Robin causes you to take another step back from him and Eddie finds himself mourning the loss.  Even more so when she informs you that your mother is requesting your presence and you let out a long-suffering sigh as you turn to follow her.

You exchange a parting glance, Eddie dipping into a gentle bow as you walk past, and it’s not until you’re halfway down the hallway before you look over your shoulder to see him watching you leave.

“Wish me luck that the next is more tolerable!”

He can’t call down the hall at that volume the way you can lest he be punished, but he does mutter “good luck, My Lady,” under his breath for you.

Because as much as he longs for you to return his feelings, you are more important.  You will undoubtedly be marrying a man of your own stature, and Eddie loves you too much to wish you anything but pure happiness, even if that is found with someone else.  Even when it would break his heart.

Eddie would happily wish for it to be torn to pieces if only to ensure you a contented life.

The heavy doors close behind you and Eddie turns to look out of the same window you had occupied only moments before.

He allows himself one moment to let his thoughts of you swirl through his mind before he closes the lid once more and turns to walk in the opposite direction, off to complete the duties of a lowly manservant you would never be allowed to marry.

requests are open but no promises i just go where the inspo takes me

p.s. it was no accident that reader said she wanted to marry her best friend and then called eddie her best friend two minutes later, eddie thinks it's unrequited but he's dumb ♡

#so in my head eddie moved to live with wayne who worked in/around the castle when you were both around 7 and you were friends in a way that #wasn't frowned upon at that age but then you got older and people started to tell you both how wrong it was and how far beneath you he was #so it became a secret friendship where everyone knows you still talk a little too much for a servant and a lady but it's within the #realms of acceptable so you get away with it but what they don't know is that you frequently sneak out and meet up in town away from the #castle walls that seem to have eyes #also hopper is like the leader of the knights and helps you sneak out i dont make the rules that just is fact the kind of knight he'd be #eddie munson #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson imagine #eddie munson fanfic #eddie munson angst #kind of #eddie munson fanfiction #eddie munson headcanons #stranger things fic #eddie munson x female reader #historical au #royal au #eddie munson x reader imagine #eddie munson oneshot #eddie munson drabble #pretty little loserboy #stranger things imagine #stranger things x you #stranger things x reader #eddie munson x you #eddie munson x y/n #eddie munson historical au #eddie munson royal au #stranger things historical au

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^me when i am a sensitive person

#ramblings #i hate feeling lonely #it literally hurts my heart #i have such a hard time forming connections both irl and online #idk how many times ive cried just this past month bc i felt lonely #and even when i am included in things im always an after thought #its been months but im still thinking about stupid christmas #i know the whole point isn't to get gifts #but i got one present. while i spent hundreds of dollars getting my family gifts #they even asked me what i wanted too #helped my cousin decorate for her christmas party and last minute i found out it was a secret santa #i got invited but was the only one not included in that #so yeah.... #i dont have anyone to celebrate holidays with #my birthday was sad #i cried then too #not looking forward to tomorrow either #and i try to make friends and talk to people #but i feel as though i always initiate #and nobody seems interested in talking to me #which... i dont expect everyone to like me #but it really does hurt and it makes wonder what's wrong with me #also why cant my brain focus on something else #like doing something productive #its been ages since ive drawn anything #ive just been sad. that's the whole post. #bye now