don’t mind me, 4am vanishay cringeposting 🫶
shay wonders what happened to make vanilla ice so distant so suddenly. they used to get along just fine, but lately he’s been so short with her, unable to be around her for an extended period of time without snapping at her or lashing out. it’s like he’s been continually stressed about something for weeks, but she can’t figure out what and doesn’t want to attempt to ask, lest her chew her out again. she’s always known he was a bit cold, but this is new to her, and conflicts with what she’d been feeling. she is no stranger to random feelings bubbling up every now and then—in fact she’d considered it a bit of a problem back in high school, but it’s so hard to squash a crush like that when the person of interest is your tall and tan live-in coworker with a pretty face... she’s considered confessing her attraction since said feelings had such a strong grip on her, but his recent behavior was beginning to make her want to reconsider. he may be been rather stoic with most others, but she’s wiggled her way beneath that seemingly permanent scowl. she didn’t know what camaraderie looked like with a man like that, but she figured they’d reached that point once he went out of his way to invite her along to the usual hookah cafe on the odd occasion their master would permit an outing... now it was rare for him to attend himself. had she done something wrong without realizing and inadvertently pushed him too far? if only she could get him to stop avoiding her so she could ask.
vanilla ice has never felt anything like this before and it feels as if it’s devouring him from the inside out, like some ironic twist on his stand. he’s never cared about a woman like this—no, he’s never cared about anyone like this. he idolizes lord dio, but he’s never felt anything of this caliber before. he doesn’t know how to process this feeling. the fact that he can’t be around her without breaking out in a cold sweat is destroying him, he’s a wreck. why did this have to happen and why did it have to be her. he tries to reason with himself about this godforsaken feeling that threatens to consume him. he’s not in love with her, a four letter word that nearly brings him to his knees. he’s not in love with her, he tells himself… but the thought of ever having to see her in the arms of another man fills him with a profound dread, the kind that spreads thru his body like a kick in the ribs. it terrifies him, and he hates it. deep in a section of his heart that he dares not acknowledge, he wants it to be him, nobody else. he hesitates to act on it; he has important duties, he shouldn’t even be thinking about her. he could never forgive himself for jeopardizing his master’s plans… but he doesn’t know how much longer he can keep this suppressed.
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Writing blurb: The Princess and The Wolf
Character(s): Tank and Alexis
Warning(s): Alexis?? Ig??? This is me just word vomiting into a page so it’s flow is a bit off
Summary: Lexi(moon) have me Tank and Alexis brainrot
Mmmm mmmm Alexis and Tank thoughts, thoughts of Alexis asking why Tank loves her when she is who is, what she is. Alexis has a bad reputation, the ‘ mad ‘ princess of the clan
And there in the middle of it all is Tank, who yes had their own bad reputation but to Alexis. Touches her like she’s made of the finest silks, gently, softly, with care and warmth and understanding thrumming under their finger tips. Who no matter what Sam said to Tank about her, never asked, never said anything, who still showed up to her door. Eyes as dark and deep as always as he said “ my princess “, less teasing more genuine now a days
Alexis finally asks one night, why, why they stay, why the still come. Why..why
“ why do you love me? “ her question leaves her painted and honeyed lips, red eyes looking at Tank as they stop and look back her.
Alexis isn’t sure how she blurted out that question, years of etiquette lessons having taught her better but having failed in this important and delicate moment. Still, she couldn’t help but keep on asking, talking.
“ I push everyone away..I-I am called the ‘ Mad Princess’ of the clan—Sam has already told you what I’d done to him so why— “ Alexis swallows the spit in her mouth as she takes a breath; slow, deep and measured.
“ why? “
The question hangs in the air like the blade of a guillotine ready to take the vampiric royals head off like the French did to her Makers own royals.
Alexis ain’t sure when but Tanks hands find hers. Tanks hands were bare, no gloves on them as he held her hands in his. Warm, their hands were always so warm, comforting, callused and scared from a live of chance and danger that the wolf lived.
They kneeled before her, knees to the floor as he looked up at her. A gentle hold on her well taken care of and manicured hands. Dark, half lidded eyes looked into her searching ones, red meeting red as Tank softly looked up at the Princess.
“ how could I not? When you’re so head strong and sure of yourself, when you wear the insults people throw at you like the finest silk..? “ Tank whispers to her, voice softly and honest it makes her cold heart lurch in her chest
“ how can I not love you? I just do.. “ they whisper against the knuckles of her hand, like an oath. Warm lips ghosting over her skin, just shy of a kiss upon her hands
“ I don’t deserve it “ Alexis wants to sob out but years of practice had taught her better, royals do not sob after all
“ I am not kind “
“ I am cruel “
“ I take and take, never giving back “
“ I do not deserve your love “ she keens out softly, her hands grasping Tanks. The thoughtfully thought about manicured nails pinching into Tanks soft and warm flesh
“ I think you do—I know you do “ the wolf says gently, softly challenging the Princess as they lean a bit closer. Tank letting go of her hands and for a second Alexis feels herself cry and die once more at the loss of contact before this warm and gentle hands find their way to her face. Cupping the vampires face as he looks into her eyes.
“ c-can I? Can I do that? Can I give you my love? “ Tank almost pleads, insides aching at the chance. To love Alexis, to hold her, to cherish her, to hand over their heart to her, to let him have the privilege of it all.
And oh does Alexis want that, does the Princess want for nothing more than that—what she spent years as a human and then years as a vampire craving and wishing for. But something old, something ugly and scared and afraid holds her back, clawing at her throat as Alexis looks back into her wolfs dark eyes. Watches how that band of blood red glows and grows in his eyes.
“ only.. “ The vampire chokes out slowly, hands holding Tanks in a death grip but they make no sound of discomfort at the tight hold.
“ only if I can have your heart in return.. “ the words leave her before she can fully think on them, the burn of fear and embarrassment in her chest as she waits.
Tank just gives her once of those gentle smiles, taking a hand of hers and placing it at the center of their chest. Heart beating to a steady beat and thrumming under her hand as he pulls her other hand to their lips, placing a chase kiss to her knuckles.
“ it’s always been yours to take my Princess.. “ Tank says against her skin, saying it like a prayer, a confession, a universal truth.
Something in Alexis spills over, something that she never felt before as she moves her hand to cup her wolfs face. Leaning over their kneeling form at her feet as she presses her forehead against Tanks, closing her eyes as she feels that beating under hand. As she commits the sound of their blood rushing through their whole body to memory
“ then you have mine.. “ a reply, a confession, a shy hand held out for the wolf to take.
Moonlight blankets them, red meeting red as Princess and Wolf look at each other. Handing the other their hearts and placing them in their rib cages to protect and love and covet
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Excerpt: Eye for an Eye
Silco and Vi have a chat in Stillwater.
From 'heron blue,' an AU where Vi and Jinx reconnect under different terms. Slow, rocky relationship rebuilding, found family messiness, and political schemings.
Full story on AO3
She sees fire. She sees red. Red on his clothes, on his hands; in his mangled, inhuman iris; on the silvered edge of his poisoned tongue.
"Vander's prodigy." She hasn't heard the sickly gravel of that voice in six years. It ripples beneath her skin, and sits there. Etches the drawling cadence of every vowel into her bones. "I regret that we've yet had the ability to speak."
A tilt of his head. Through the bars, doused in shadow, his mismatched stare sharpens. "I'd have made the journey sooner," he rumbles on, "but, you see—the time would be a waste, for a dead girl." His good eye narrows, a scathing flash of blue radium. "And yet."
Vi breathes in quick, harsh. She swallows it down.
He looks like a creature the Pilt chewed off and spit back out: a sinewed blot of shadow, bones and flesh, wrapped in leather and silk-weaved linen. There's an animal under his skin—a tidewater predator watching from the shallows, silent and still. Waiting.
She scuffs the sweat from her temple. Feigns indifference. "Who the hell are you?"
His brow perks. "Don't you remember?" His hands shift behind his back, held laxly there, as though folded around a knife. "Surely the walls haven't rotted your head that easily."
"I remember," Vi snarls, baring her teeth. "Like hell I'd forget." And she'd tried. Kindreds above and below, she'd tried to wipe her mind of that night, a lifetime over. Spite coils under her tongue. "But, y'know—don't really care about the name of some rat in the street. Might have to remind me, there."
She can't tell under the dim light whether the crook of his mouth is a sneer or a smile. It passes too quickly for her to care.
"Well. You've Vander's tongue as much as his damned fists, don't you?"
Her nails carve into her palms, hard enough to draw blood. She paces across the back of the cell, glaring.
Don't you dare say his name. Don't you dare—
Silco stands still as stone, two steps from the red line that chips over the cement floor. Silver glints in his hand. He's slipped a gilded cigarette case from the breast pocket of his coat. His thin, willowed fingers pluck one roll out, snap the case shut, and flick open the hinge of its lighter. The crackling hush of the drag he takes rattles over the stones: fills the air with a dry, ambered spice.
It's not like Vander's pipe: cheap, heady, citrus and cinnamon. It reeks of expense. It's the same peppery smoke that sits on his clothes, bittersweet and earthen, laced with juniper berry and cedar. It hisses out from his lungs, a blue thread unspooled, clouding about him in a thin haze. His dead eye leers through it.
"Come here, girl," he says, and takes a step forward. Under the ripple of the light, he's taller than she took him for; taller than she remembers, cowered on those rickety grates behind a wall of other bodies. His right eye—a frigid, dirtied blue, like the underside of a glacier—cuts to her tattered boots, and climbs. "Let me look at you."
The words gut into her, vilely. She wheels on him. Her fist slams into the bars, hard enough to make an ugly, chorusing echo through the steel. "Bastard."
"Charmed."
He stands on that thin red line, puffing away on his cigarette, and stares at her, as though trying to make sense of a riddle in a paper, or picking through the nuances of an artist's strokes. Her fingers snare hard on the bars, hard enough to stain her bloodied knuckles white. She glares right back at him. Pristine coat, lithe hands; scratched up, grayed out face; swept-back hair, flecked with silver; steel-tipped boots. There's a knife handle under his belt. A knife handle nearly in arm's reach.
"You couldn't have been more than fourteen, then," he mutters. The words carry a taint of wonder, in their remembrance. It plunges, swiftly, to distaste. "Tearing through my men, like a tank through the trenches." He scoffs. Now, he is sneering: the scarred line of his lip baring crooked teeth, his cigarette pinched between his fingers. "What good are you, left to waste away under these Piltie scum?"
"I didn't ask to be here—"
"Oh, no. You asked for revolution." His eyes spear into hers, an unwavering burn. "You were denied."
Blood ticks between her fingers, scalding on the cell bars. Those words itch into her; find the festering resentment she's left abandoned, over months and years shackled within these walls, and gnaw at it.
"You sold Vander out," she says, heat broiling just beneath the words. "You stabbed him. I saw it. You killed him—"
"Vander sold himself out, girl," and he is walking, with the slow, prowling lope of a wolf; the fluid circling of a shark in the deep. "Laid his throat under the enforcers' boots, like a mutt on a leash. I paid my dues—nine years of it—while he sat back and cowered." He strides over the red line, and stops, inches from her battered fists. "He owed me a debt," he says, plainly. His cigarette skims the grayed blot of dead flesh that stretches over his cheek. "Eye for an eye; tooth for a tooth."
Her hands shake. She sees the flames, eating up the cannery with the roar of a living thing. Hears the bellows of their arguing, split apart in fritzing static and neon-blue. "What did you do with my sister?"
He ticks the ash from his cigarette. It falls to a swirl of embers at his feet. "You, however," Silco prattles on, blithely ignoring her. His fingers wave through the air, with the nonchalance of a royal: a razor-edged flit of smoke and cinder. "Now—what I wouldn't have given to see you storm this wretched city, yourself. You still could, if you only had the gall." His heels sweep over the concrete: th-thump, th-thumping: fall still at one end of the cell. His eyes flit curiously across its hinges. "These bars, girl—tell me: have they strengthened you? Or leashed you, as well?"
She doesn't have time for this. You talk too much.
"What did you do with my sister—?"
"Jinx?"
A cold pit plunges through her stomach, and twists.
Because you're a jinx! Mylo was right!
"She's alive," he says slowly, the rasp of his low, scratched-out throat worlds away. The look on his face is unreadable: deceptively blank: scathing. "Safe," he adds, with a lilt of his head. "Though—as I'd been led to believe—you're good as dead, to her."
Vi pulls in a tight, heavy breath. "Her name is Powder."
"Her name is her own. She chose it." The dagger of his teal eye thins: hunts for something under her shaking bones, something she can't see. "From what I gather," he mulls, "it was your parting gift."
Slices in.
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